4everpatient

[4everpatient]

he's so silly he's my little guy i love him so much I really hope he doesn't become a guy in my head like the last 5 guys did. haha.

[4everpatient]

me when I realise I qualify for madd, ocd, anxiety, depression, avpd, some form of osdd and autism but still don't have a damn therapist

[4everpatient]

BITCH IS THIS FUCKING DISORDER ABOUT ME?

[4everpatient]

bitches when they have avoidance anxiety so they don't talk to people so they're socially awkward and they mess up so they have avoidance anxiety-

[4everpatient]

sometimes i just get hit with the feeling

i wasnt supposed to make it this far

also what do i do now

[4everpatient]

sometimes i wish id die in a freak accident because im too cowardly to do it myself

[4everpatient]

How are you supposed to just get up and go to school and go to work and come home and make dinner and fold the laundry and not want to kill yourself the whole fucking time.

[4everpatient]

who up on their bed and lets just say.... rot

[4everpatient]

People only have so much patience for those of us with chronic illnesses, chronic pain, and or mental health difficulties.

At the beginning there is so much support (or at least more support) but when they realise you're not recovering as quickly as they'd like... you get avoided, isolated, told you're exaggerating, etc. They seldom think about how those of us with chronic issues feel. How overwhelming it is to deal with everything day in and day out. There is so much anxiety, depression, grief, etc when dealing with chronic issues regardless of what they are.

If you're even more isolated because people refuse to see how much you're struggling or you're not recovering "fast enough" for the people around you just know you're not alone! There are so many of us in the same boat too

[4everpatient]

Just one day out sends me to bed for three days of recovery.

[4everpatient]

“surely this will not cause my chronic illness to flare up,” i say, actively doing something that has never failed to flare my chronic illness

[4everpatient]

you should always listen to what she has to say if she told me to bark like a dog then woof woof bitch

[4everpatient]

anxiety sucks because every bit of advice you get is like "It's okay!! It's not that serious! You'll be alright! Just think of something else!!" like you don't think I know that??? I know that I'm panicking over something ridiculous, But that doesn't!! stop the panic!! It just makes me feel insane for not being able to calm down. No amount of "you can do it!" will stop the thousands of voices in my head saying I can't. I need actual help. Not false promises.

[4everpatient]

if im forced to go to school i will genuinely kill myself horrible place horrible people horrible environment

[4everpatient]

I can't fucking take this anymore

[4everpatient]

hey so I took a dissociative test for fun why did i get 49%...

[4everpatient]

well i guess that's fine