zoe-recovery

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🌍🐛 spread your wings

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💫 reason 2 💫

I want to be able to enjoy all of the amazing delicious delicacies that are out there- restriction isn’t enjoyment.

[zoe-recovery]

Day two - 31/10/2018

I woke up, feeling pretty chill today. To get to college I had to travel 2 hours which wasn’t too chill. But it was a pretty shit day, I had a huge panic attack at college and broke down in the toilets. However, after college me and my boyfriend had a movie night. My eating today was really good, I had 3 hash browns, a sausage, toast with jam, two crunchies, with a pack of Minstrils and for dinner I had 3 chicken drumosticks with fries. So today was fucking good on that point.

Happy thought of the day: if you think about it, there’s always a good thing to focus on, even if it’s on bad days. From saying hi to the people in your class, to going out with friends.

Song of the day

Much love, Zoe ❤️

[zoe-recovery]

💪Reason 1💪

So I can become a healthier happier version of myself

[zoe-recovery]

Day 1 ~ 30/10/2018

A mixed day, went to college and saw a lot of friends, which was cool. Getting out of bed is the hardest part of the day but today I was enthusiastic about it. A new college term= a new outlook on college... maybe? I carved pumpkins with my boyfriend today which was adorable and he came round for dinner too which was, as always lovely. For breakfast I ate 3 hash browns, lunch I had curly fries and dinner I had honey and garlic salmon (which mum cooked beautifully). I’m even starting to enjoy food again, which is a great step, I’m not all the way there yet but it’s in the right direction. However, I did have the worst panic attack I’ve had in a while, I nearly passed out, felt like I could vomit, I couldn’t hear speak or breathe- truly terrifying. However, my wonderful boyfriend stepped in and helped me a great deal.

Way I made myself feel better about today: I remembered how far I have come. From not being able to eat in front of people or eat a full meal without bulimic throights is a huge step. All the little things I don’t think about- it made me think, actually, it’s fucking hard to be in my shoes. And I’m doing a great job at the moment.

Feel good song of the day: Electric love, BØRNS, Dopamine