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My period is 8 days late. The week before my period should have been i had All the symptoms I always have before I get my period. I did a pregnancy test and it turned out negative. WHY IS MY PERIOD NOT COMMING IM GETRING WORRIES DUDE

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I'm not more. He also always asks me if I send him some when he is horny or for example; he had a surgerie yesterday and asked if he "gets something because he was so brave" i'm not more and i hate this

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‼️‼️PLEASE HELP ME FIND MY LITTLE BROTHER!! THIS IS AN EMERGENCY‼️‼️

He’s a missing native child and at EXTREME RISK! The cops aren’t doing SHIT!

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November, 02, 2021

The day was good until my mom gave me choclate. Binged on it, had 549 calories. I did a really small workout (it probably didnt even burn 100 calories) and now idk what to do.. Probably gonna fast tomorrow and the day After tomorrow and be away from home till 8 pm at least i want to Kill myself rn

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November 1, 2021

Ate: around 700 calories

Burnt: 120

Will try to do the egg diet starting tomorrow. You basically eat 6 eggs a day and 4 slices of toast. I'll do it like this:

Breakfast: 2 eggs, maybe one slice of toast

Lunch: 3 eggs, maybe two slices of toast

Dinner: maybe 1 egg, no toast

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Here is a poem i wrote while i was drunk, enjoy???

She is there,

when I step on my scale,

when I eat,

when I'm outside,

when I have sex,

when I talk.

She is the voice in my head,

Screaming at me, pinching my skin, cutting my legs.

Counting calories, starving and Smoking.

Getting drunk on a fast day; Ana screaming at me.

Cutting my fat, trying to crawl out of my skin.

Pinching my skin, being sure it's fat.

It's always fat.

I'd be better if i don't eat.

I don't deserve food, I don't deserve to be better.

Eating in front of a mirror, 30 bites before I swallow it,

crying over Pasta and Pizza,

surviving on tomatoes and cucumber.

A red bracelet for Ana, fainting for Ana, starving for Ana.

No carbs, only 2 grams of fat, never over 300 calories.

I don't lose weight.

I weigh more everytime I step on the scale.

I'm a failure, i don't deserve to eat.

I don't eat sugar and if I do, I starve the next day.

I'm not hungry.

I'm allergic to calories.

I wanna be empty.

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The fallen Angel Lucifer and the Moon on March 31 2020

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"spam liking will get you blocked" spam liking will get you a kiss on the mouth

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Does anybody has experience with saltwater flush?

I just got forced to eat and it was at least 500 calories so i did the saltwater flush.

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I started hating myself when i was 5.

I started purging and doing sm Sport i passed out when I was 7.

I started Smoking when I was 9.

I started selfharming when I was 10.

I started starving when I was 10.

I started selling my body for drugs when I was 11.

I started looking at pro ana stuff when I was 12.

I started having suicide thoughts when I was 14.

I don't know how to stop.

I've never been underweight. Nobody ever was scared for me. Nobody ever tried to safe me.

I don't want to stop.

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I started hating myself when i was 5.

I started purging and doing sm Sport i passed out when I was 7.

I started Smoking when I was 9.

I started selfharming when I was 10.

I started starving when I was 10.

I started selling my body for drugs when I was 11.

I started looking at pro ana stuff when I was 12.

I started having suicide thoughts when I was 14.

I don't know how to stop.

I've never been underweight. Nobody ever was scared for me. Nobody ever tried to safe me.

I don't want to stop.

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So.. A "normal" (I hate the word normal; dont come at me i googled this) Person Walks 1000 steps in about 10 minutes. So in 60 minutes I would walk 6000 steps. In 120 minutes I would walk 12000 steps.

I don't want to go outside, I just put oil in my hair but i feel like I need to walk so im gonna watch some stupid videos while walking in my room for 120 minutes. Honestly, I wouldn't even want to go out if i wouldn't have put oil in my hair. The sun is shining.

Anyways can we talk about the word normal before I do my silly steps in my silly room. The word normal doesnt make ANY sense to me. Like not at all. Like I try to get it but I just can't. I just really doesn't want to use this word but I still do it sometimes. Where does normal start and where does normal end?? WHERE DOES ANYTHING START AND END IT DOESNT MAKE ANY SENSE PLS SOMEBODY TELL ME WHY THE FUCK WE ARE ALL SO FOCUSED ON BEING NORMAL / NOT NROMAL IF THERE IS LITERALLY NO FUCKING IDK HOW ITS CALLED TO BE NORMAL IT DOENSZ MAKE SENSE

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I'm disgusting. My body is disgusted. I want to crawl out of my skin. I never want to eat again

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FRIENDLY REMINDER

Stop harassing “wannarexics” because they're “romanticising” an eating disorder. Literally, no one thinks to their selves, “hey you know what would be a good idea, starving myself and exercising till I faint” without already having disordered perception so stop acting like they’re neurotypicals just wanting to lose weight, they are literally just in the early stages of an eating disorder you morons

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if you ever need something to do outside of the house, I recommend going to a library, finding a comfy spot, and looking up all the book titles you can see to see what they're about. If you get lucky you might find an interesting one.