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and no one noticed.

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I still hurt; everyday!

I don’t go through a single day without having at least one thought about you. And I hate it; because I’m dying a bit more inside everyday while you go on live your happy little life.

Stuff you.

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Do you ever daydream about stupid stuff so hard that you end up breaking your own heart???? Is that just me????

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I’m sad again.

Myself

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Turns out I was right; I don’t do rebounds. I couldn’t do it. I’ve stopped talking to everyone all together. When I talk to people someone gets hurt. Either them or myself.

I’m meant to be alone. I was born like this. No one wanted me then and no one wants me now.

Everyone hurts me; even I hurt me. It’s the only thing that feels right in my life.

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When you talk to me I get sad

✏ Credit: Liz. W (@ souloflighting )

•♡• Sorry for being inactive once again. I know I made a promise but Thanksgiving just passed and now it’s about Christmas. I’m dying. Just give me time, please. •♡•

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He knew. They always do.

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What’s going on in my head?!

This has never happened before. I’ve got a rebound boy; I didn’t even blink when I started talking to him.

I don’t do this; I’m not this type of girl. It’s like I’m so angry at him that I just want him to see me with someone else. To feel how I do. I don’t even want to be with someone else.

I want to be with you 😔

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You led me on!

How can you say you’re done when you’re the one who always encouraged me to see you; you invited me places, you bought me things, you cooked me dinner, you let me meet your parents, you invited me to your house. I slept in your bed; I stayed at your house, I met your parents, I watched you cook me dinner.

You’ve honestly ruined me. Just like they all do.

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I look at my scars and think; this is why no one loves you. It makes me regret them so much that I do it to myself again.

What’s wrong with me?

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Exactly

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Confused...

I don’t understand how he can say we’re not right for each other. The bastard barely even got to know me; I bet he doesn’t even know my favourite colour.

He never gave it a chance. All he did was use me like every other guy does. He got what he wanted and bailed before it got serious.

Well you know what; to me it was serious, I don’t just do things like that with everyone, I don’t hang out with people if I’m not enjoying there company. He was the only thing good in my life. The only thing I looked forward to. Now I’m back at square 1.

He’s made me so fu**ing mad! I honestly thought he was decent. I went out of my way to get to get to know him, I defended him when people had there doubts. Well you know what; f*ck you!!!! I don’t want to see your stupid face again. I don’t even want to act like a decent person towards you. Because like every other thing in my life; you’ve turned out to be a mistake, and you’ve just blackened my heart more.

I don’t need this pain in my life; I’m young and should be enjoying my life. Instead I’m dreading my own existence and questioning my reasons to live. Again.

So thanks for that.

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