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I would literally pack a small bag and put it on a stick like that aunt meme and wonder around the neighborhood and then return home when I got to scared or when i figured I scared my parents enough lol. God I miss being a kid</3

ever since i was a little girl i knew i wanted to go missing

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I miss my friends and I want to stop having the urge to keep buying things when I’m down. New makeup will not help u get a bf. Maybe saving ur money, getting yourself together and actually leaving ur house will. Just a thought tho.

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i've never done anything wrong in my entire life except for all the wrong stuff i did

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Foaming at the mouth for my Ethel Cain pylon crewneck🤤

I also really hope that my pre order goes through for the vinyl bc I need it like I need air like NO JOKE❌

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Shower time is literally my fav time of day! I luv the mindless pondering and how no one really bothers u. Nothing feels better than a hot fucking shower and me time iykyk.

dont kill yourself, think about how many weird showers you still have to take

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Needed this more then ever, ty<3

Beloved Daughters of Cain around the world, coming soon to a record store near you…. At very long last, the tale of Ethel Cain will be told on vinyl. It’s been a long journey to get here, so I’m beyond excited for you to all hold it for yourselves. Thank you again to Matthew Tomasi for helping me bring this record to life, Marlee Kula for carrying it with me since, and everyone else on Team Cain for making this possible. Love you all endlessly, I’ll never stop being proud of us and this project.

Photography by @silkenweinberg , vinyl packaging designed by me. Look for it in stores on January 17th.

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Moving sucks, I’m tired, I miss my friends and I hate the cold.

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I’m fucking guilty as sin frfr

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Literally my room inspo this looks so cozy and sick

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Toronto eras tour night 1

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I’m speechless

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My drawings today! Did some based off punish bc I can’t stop thinking or listening to it. It’s truly happening and has always been happening to me<3

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Gonna miss being a country girl, forever one at heart:,)

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TRUE!!!

every single man in the world is gay

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The atmosphere of Punish is unbelievable and other worldly. Then when the guitar kicks in and the harmonizing starts and omg, perfection. I luv the gritty sound as well it gives it more edge. “Shame is sharp, and my skin gives so easy” and the repeated “I am punished by love” hits HARD. Reminds me of “I am the face of loves rage” from Ptolemaea. Also the thought about living on what seems like the edge of the earth feeling/barring all the shame humanity possible is so intriguing. I bet many of us can relate to feeling lonely and isolated while feeling such heavy/intense shame and guilt. But we don’t live on the edge of the world nor do we know the extent to which how much shame a person can hold, but we can all relate to the idea of it despite that. I feel like Punish truly encapsulates this idea and I can’t wait for punish and what’s coming! It has been happening to me…

thank you for all the love on punish ♡

i wrote this song after a drive down to miami on a very dreary day last december with my best friend. we had to get off the interstate because my tire was about to explode and wound up driving down the highway towards lake okechobee taking random side roads every now and then for fun. we stumbled across a tiny community called miracle village near the edge of the lake and it was a very eerie experience. i wondered what it must feel like, to live there alone on what felt like the edge of the earth with the most shame you could possibly carry as a human being.

i recorded half of punish on my phone. the piano, the creaks of a swing set in the park in the middle of the night, the backing vocals. i wanted it to feel up close and personal, almost inappropriate. i made quite a few different versions of it before i settled on this one. i’m glad it resonates with all of you. i took this pic the night i wrote it :)

thank u all for listening! ♡

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Kinda ate down w this one maybe??? Idk. I’ll prob change my mind in the morning, but for now I am proud of it!

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Literally the coolest

guess what i’m being for halloween