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— fatima aamer bilal, from being unwanted is a language

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Dear friends ❤️🇵🇸

Thank you very much from my heart for your donation and support 🙏🏼

I want to say that I only have $500 left to reach my short-term goal of $7,500. Please help me reach my goal today 🙏🏼😔. I ask those who can donate to donate so I can reach my short goal today Thank you very much ❤️🇵🇸🇵🇸

https://gofund.me/59e9578a

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Alex Dimitrov, from "Waiting at Stonewall", Love and Other Poems

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My name is Tarneem Sami, and I live in the Shuja'iyya neighborhood of Gaza 🇵🇸 with my three children. I lost my husband, Ahmed, while he was trying to get supplies for us. We live in constant fear and face severe shortages of food and medicine.

I need your help to save my children from hunger and disease. Every donation, no matter how small, can make a significant difference in our lives. If you cannot donate, please share my message to reach those who can help us.

Thank you for your support and generosity 🇵🇸.

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Dear Friends,

I write to you with tears in my eyes and a heavy heart. After 188 days of displacement, constant fear, and struggling to survive, we managed to escape with our lives and reach Egypt. But the pain didn’t stop there. Just yesterday, we lost my children's grandfather 💔, not due to direct war, but because of malnutrition and the lack of basic life necessities. We couldn’t save him, just as we couldn’t save our home or our dreams.

The rest of my family is still trapped in the war, suffering the same harsh conditions that led to the passing of my children's grandfather. We are here trying to build a new life, but we have lost everything. We lost our home, and my children were deprived of their schools and universities. Even my eldest son, who worked so hard to build his future, lost his job and saw his dreams shattered.😔

We are now in desperate need of your help. We seek to secure a safe home that will provide us and our children with basic needs. Life in Egypt is extremely difficult, and prices are soaring beyond our reach. All we ask for is a chance to rebuild our lives and secure a better future for our children.🙏🏼

From the depths of my heart, I ask you to stand by us in these difficult times. Your support means hope and life to us.🙌🏼🇵🇸

https://gofund.me/59e9578a

I'll share it this in my blog!

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why did i even sdjkfksdjhf, flowers upset me so much one day when i know what i'm doing i'll fix it (i can see what needs fixing but i don't know how to do it yet) 25th, september, 2024. ↓↓↓ the wip + the reference ↓↓↓

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the day I figure out how to blend is not today, but hey, HEY i did this and im pretty happy with it. started on September 9th, 2024.

the model’s name is: Tyrone Smithers.

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I never go anywhere Like I can’t move on my own It’s like I need my hand to be held Or else I forget how to walk. And I hate it, hate the stasis, Hate that I can’t be alone, That I can’t simply go see beautiful things, To fill my own heart, without sharing it with someone. I hate being alone, in the littlest ways, Everything I see, I want to see with someone, Then we can be two, to live and tell the tale, Of ordinary adventures, and beauty in simple things.

june 24th, 2024

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i am so sorry to my downstairs neighbors because my cat is an idiot who thinks prime parkour hours are between 11pm and 3am

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hey Siri how do I deactivate my body going on autopilot?

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these are my best moon pictures, from most recent to oldest, thanks. Jun.18 2024, Apr. 21 2024, Apr.11 2024.

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09.03 / i hate it

i write like i'm about to spit my entire soul out and it is so dissatisfying. there was a time i thought i was doing something out of these words. there was a time i called it poetry. i think it's more akin to word vomit at this point. i hate it.

i can write and write and write and at the end i'll want to burn it down and make it disappear. i can't stop doing it, i hate doing it, i hurt when i decide to do it, i feel disgusted when it is done. i feel completely incapable, but there's really nothing i can do, or want to do.

today is an odd day. i anger myself with my words and my thoughts and tomorrow i'll forget i even feel like this sometimes.

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if I don't occupy my mind with 67 hobbies that I'm mediocre at best at I'll form a thought and that's too scary

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