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“And when I asked you how you’d been, I meant I missed you more than I’ve ever missed anything before.”

— Unknown

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you cant even begin poems with "i will sodomise and facef uck you" anymore. because of woke .

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I felt too embarrassed to say

That I just want you

3:30 am, I text you

No, not text you,

I sext you, because I just finished watching

The videos we took in another state

I kept picturing your face

I kept holding my weight

Holding my head high until I couldn't

I sent you a message

"I wish you were here so I could ride you,"

But what I really wanted to say was,

"I really want to be loved by you,"

But all you replied with was silence

So I texted again

No, not texted,

I sexted you

"How dare you make me yearn for you,

You did this to me,"

And then I sent 3 gifs

I searched these gifs meticulously

Wanting to show that I wanted you

To want me

And instead of wanting me,

You replied,

"Oh yeah? I saw these,

But didn't know how to respond,"

Respond?

How do you not know how to respond?

You didn't even open the messages

So I tried to laugh off the pain

That stabs in my chest

Like bullet holes,

"Suure, but it said delivered,"

And you just replied, "Not,"

So now i panic

All the past relationships I've had

Come creeping back in my head

What if you love another instead?

What if these 2 years were wasted?

I'd give up my body to you a thousand ways

If it meant you would stay

So I text you

No, not text you,

I sext you,

"I was touching myself to the videos

Of us back in another state,"

Blush emoji, blush emoji

"I love watching you fuck me,"

But I really would have rather said,

"I love watching you love me,"

And I thought maybe being more explicit

Would make you yearn for me, too

We're supposed to see each other

All weekend, after all

But just like the angels who fell,

My heart sank like religion wasted

When I saw you text,

"Damn, you're horny as fuck,"

Yeah, dumbass

I want you

I'm horny in the way

That the stars fuck the moon

In the way that

Sailors watch wenches swoon

In the way that

Wives and husbands do

So I push back the thoughts telling me

To just quit

And with teeth gritted,

I text you

No, not text you,

I sext you

"For you~"

Sideways smirk emoji, wink emoji,

Kiss emoji

"Watching you fuck me is delicious,"

Kiss emoji, drool emoji, hearts

And I felt my world fall apart

When all you texted back was,

"LOL, yeah?"

Because I felt too embarrassed to say

That I just wanted you

And now I see the beginning to an end

That could have been resolved

If I just texted you

I see past lovers behind your eyes

And wonder,

"When will I be wanted, too?"

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But I see her

In the back of my mind

All the time

Like a fever,

Like I'm burning alive,

Like a sign

Did I cross the line?

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The Offenderman game is out!!

So one of the fans have actually made and published a Sexual Offenderman fan game! Which me, Arc (otherwise known as the original creator of the character) made a let’s play for to help get the word out about it. So make sure to reblog this, or make posts of your own about it. So check out the video, see if ya wanna play it. And the links to download the game will be in the videos description. Along with a notice of a kickstarter for a offenderman project I’m working on that yall might wanna check out and possibly support.

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Guiltless - Dodie Clark Lyrics

There is a wall in my life

Built by you

You opened a door

That a kid shouldn't walk through

Oh, but I'm not bitter

I'm just tired

No use getting angry

At the way that you're wired

Ignorant trauma

In one afternoon

.

And I could never let you know

You'd never get it

And now I'm the one who can't let go

Don't say it's genetic

.

Is it real?

You believe you're Guiltless?

Oh, I can tell

You believe you're Guiltless

But I don't think I'd feel better

If I opened your eyes

I'll carry a burden

'Til the day that you die

Is it real?

You believe you're Guiltless?

.

I'll never know why you favor that tone

Not one shred of hope,

So I built up my own

Oh, but I'm not bitter

I'm just tired

No use getting angry

At the way that you're wired

A dark politician will end up alone

.

And I could never let you know

You'd never get it

And now I'm the one who can't let go

Don't say it's genetic

.

Is it real?

You believe you're Guiltless?

Oh, I can tell

You believe you're Guiltless

But I don't think I'd feel better

If I opened your eyes

I'll carry a burden

'Til the day that you die

Is it real?

You believe you're Guiltless?

.

I'm not bitter,

I'm just tired

No use getting angry

At the way that you're wired

I'm not bitter

(I could never let you know, ooh)

I'm just tired

No use getting angry

At the way that you're wired

I'm not bitter

((Is it real?))

(I could never let you know, ooh)

I'm just tired

((You believe you're Guiltless?))

No use getting angry

At the way that you're wired

I'm not bitter

((Is it real?))

(I could never let you know, ooh)

I'm just tired

((You believe you're Guiltless?))

No use getting angry

At the way that you're wired

((('Til the day that you die)))

I'm not bitter

((Is it real?))

(I could never let you know, ooh)

I'm just tired

((You believe you're Guiltless?))

No use getting angry

At the way that you're wired

((('Til the day that you die)))

I'm not bitter

((Is it real?))

(I could never let you know, ooh)

I'm just tired

((You believe you're Guiltless?))

No use getting angry

At the way that you're wired

((('Til the day that you die)))

I'm not bitter

((Is it real?))

(I could never let you know, ooh)

I'm just tired

((You believe you're Guiltless?))

No use getting angry

At the way that you're wired

((('Til the day that you die)))

I'm not bitter

((Is it real?))

(I could never let you know, ooh)

I'm just tired

((You believe you're Guiltless?))

No use getting angry

At the way that you're wired

((('Til the day that you die)))

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I loved you,

I loved you,

I loved you,

It's true,

And sometimes

I feel like

I still fucking do.

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Legs,

and lips,

And wrists

All cracked open

With the

Forbidden sound

Of the dumps

Eyes

That game

The witch

The evil bitch

Within me

Taught to gnaw

And grind

Until bone is dust

I will take my bones

Lay them in lace and tomb

Hold wills and wants with stone

Break my joints to build a home

Oh

Legs,

And limbs,

And fins

Make myself swim

Inside of aquarium

Of fish

Become

So thin

So fragile

Not even clouds

Could find

My soul

Gaze,

And gauze,

And gouge

Out the parts of me

That even the

Wicked gods won't touch

I will take these stones

And the sticks and build a tomb

Grow gross with moss and mold

Break my wrists and build a home

Oh

Oh.

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if you asked me what my eating disorder is about i might say ‘food’ labeling some good, some bad as i assign moral value to this grain of rice i might say ‘numbers’ counting, measuring, tracking calories, sizes, BMIs allthetimecalculating everysinglething if you asked me what my eating disorder is about i might say ‘beauty’ complete devotion, idolization of the western standard begging for others’ envy i might say ‘attention’ desperately needing someone anyone, to notice me at all to see that i am unwell, to care if you asked me what my eating disorder is about i might say ‘control’ the sick, sick result of discipline gone sour a curdling obsession i might say ‘guilt’ over being too big too plain too comfortable too needy too me if you asked me what my eating disorder is about i might say ‘anger’ hating the injustice of living hating everything, everyone including myself i might say ‘pain’ a way to transpose the scars of my soul onto the body aching for congruence if you asked me what my eating disorder is about i might say ‘minimalism’ my mind whirls like a run-on sentence and i can’t stand being wasteful so no thank you i don’t need anything at all really i might say ‘self-righteousness’ i’m parading the streets, declaring my holier-than-thouness because hey look! i’m better at dying than you if you asked me what my eating disorder is about i might say ‘expectations’ i’ve been naturally small my entire life and now, but now i lose myself when i grow i might say ‘childhood’ reverting to my prepubescent body no breasts and when sex was just a word muddled with giggles if you asked me what my eating disorder is about i might say ‘addiction’ a habit that can’t be kicked craving the buzz, the high of manipulating my insides i might say ‘death’ i’m not that happy anyway so why not drive my body to the edge, tempting it to quit? if you asked me what my eating disorder is about i might say nothing because i do not know it’s not like it matters because you don’t ask because you don’t know either

—i don’t know, you don’t know, no one knows // 01.22.18

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"One Foot In Front Of The Other", by Emilie Autumn

How did I get myself into all of this mess?

How did I end up with this deadly home address?

How did I come to this, where every song I sing

Is nothing but a list of pain and suffering?

We never will forget, and no, we will not forgive

We've fought hard not to die, yet we don't know how to live

How do we change our world to what we want it to be?

How do we move beyond all of this misery?

One foot in front of the other foot

In front of the one foot in front of the other foot

In front of the one foot in front of the other foot

In front of the one foot in front of the other foot

In front of the one foot in front of the other foot

In front of the one foot in front of the other foot

In front of the one

I've been in chains since I was nothing but a kid

We don't know freedom, not quite sure that we ever did

Now that we have it, how will we make use of it?

We've been committed now to what do we all commit?

I used to have a home, now I don't even have a name

I'm nothing but a number, here we are all the same

We've lost so much, so many of those we love are dead

How do I get these memories out of my fucking head?

One foot in front of the other foot

In front of the one foot in front of the other foot

In front of the one foot in front of the other foot

In front of the one foot in front of the other foot

In front of the one foot in front of the other foot

In front of the one foot in front of the other foot

In front of the one

How do we bear this burden, far too much to carry?

How do we change our prison to a sanctuary?

We've been kept from the light, no one ever gave a damn

If I've no one to fight, how do I know who I am?

One foot in front of the other foot

In front of the one foot in front of the other foot

In front of the one foot in front of the other foot

In front of the one foot in front of the other foot

In front of the one foot in front of the other foot

In front of the one foot in front of the other foot

In front of the one

We waged a war with Hell, and look, we still survive

But just because we live does not mean that we're alive

We've won the final round, but how to enjoy the win

When we've been broken down and we'll never know what could have been

Heaven help us, where do we begin?

One foot in front of the other foot

In front of the one foot in front of the other foot

In front of the one foot in front of the other foot

In front of the one foot in front of the other foot

In front of the one foot in front of the other foot

In front of the one foot in front of the other foot

In front of the one foot in front of the other foot

In front of the one foot in front of the other foot

In front of the one foot in front of the other foot

In front of the one foot in front of the other foot

In front of the one foot in front of the other foot

In front of the one foot in front of the other foot

In front of the one

One

One

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alright guys, big announcement

i found a house i really like that’s in my price range, i just need 500 dollars deposit by the 24th.

i’m an autistic 20 year old woman with ADHD and trying to get myself and my mother out of the abusive household we didn’t expect to be in, if you can spread the word about this i’d be eternally grateful.

we also need money for movers and boxes, i suppose about an extra 200/300 maybe. depends if we can get a quality moving company.

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“i want to kill myself” keeps playing on my head over and over as i try to socialize and i get ignored over and over while i cry and wish i was reborn on a better life over and over instead of this life thats only pain that i hide over and over over and over and over and over and it never fucking stops fucking kill me kill meee

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it hurts, but i know how to hide it

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July - Noah Cyrus Lyrics

I've been holding my breath

I've been counting to ten

Over something you said

I've been holding back tears,

While you're throwing back beers

I'm alone in bed

.

You know I

I'm afraid of change

I guess that's why

We stay the same

.

So tell me to leave

I'll pack my bags,

Get on the road

Find someone who loves you

Better than I do

Darling, I know

'Coz you remind me everyday

I'm not enough,

But I still stay

.

Feels like a lifetime

Just tryna get by

While we're dying inside

I've done a lot of things wrong,

Loving you being one,

But I can't move on

.

You know I

I'm afraid of change

I guess that's why

We stay the same

.

So tell me to leave

I'll pack my bags,

Get on the road

Find someone that loves you

Better than I do

Darling, I know

'Coz you remind me everyday

I'm not enough,

But I still stay

.

If you want me to leave,

Then tell me to leave,

And, baby, I'll go

.

[Whistling]

.

You remind me everyday,

I'm not enough,

But I still stay.

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I write to you now, my heart on display

with all of these words that I have to say.

Its never been easy for me to convey,

these broken emotions and feelings that sway.

The silence within me can become a storm,

my words never fail to help it take form.

My thoughts, they break, they bend and transform,

but never will they conform to the norm.

I foil and fumble,

I bleed and I cry.

I smile and laugh,

but one day, it’ll die.

I tred on broken steps, paths once used,

but throughout the years they’ve been abused.

Overwalked. Undercared. Not enough attention.

Silent. Forgotten. Not even worth the mention.

A shadow regresses beyond the broken mess.

The front line is fake, or shall it detest?

Does sunshine exist? Or is it behest;

The broken ones call and beckoning here.

Do my words fall on deaf ear?