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See, this wasn't my experience with Anne at all. Like yes, a lot of these things can be read this way, but to me, Anne just stopped living. She gives herself very little room to have agency, almost in punishment for having ruined her one chance at happiness. She hurts so deeply in having been persuaded to turn down Wentworth to find some hypothetical better suitor (that never came) that she allows herself to be downtrodden by the situation she finds herself in as consequence. A lot of the book doesn't give s shit about Anne because Anne doesn't give a shit about herself. She is an unreliable narrator throughout the story, and it's not until she finds herself around people that care about her that she can truly come out of her shell and start living.

To expand on that, while I think she and Wentworth would have been happy enough if they had been married earlier, I think going against her family would have really weighed on younger Anne's happiness and led her to the same situation. And Wentworth obviously would not have gone to sea and become Captain Wentworth and have a fortune to support them with. I think the beauty of the story is that they both suffer and then grow as people before finally coming back together as improved, more sure versions of themselves, able to be truly happy together.

I'm about 100 pages into Persuasion and it's kind of a weird reading experience. I think in a bad way? I mean Jane Austen can't really not be entertaining so I'm still enjoying it but, so far Anne seems like the most weakly written of the Austen protagonists. One of her major traits is that no one wants to talk to her, which is fine but it means she gets less dialogue than basically every other character including pretty minor ones; I really don't have a sense of this girl's voice at all, and Austen characters are really a lot about the voice usually so it's a very noticeable lack! But then her inner life doesn't seem that rich either, her thoughts seem to entirely consist of 1) anxiety and embarrassment around Wentworth, and since that's the main plot it's kind of obligatory, and 2) internally rolling her eyes at her silly relatives making fools of themselves, which isn't exactly endearing but more to the point it's not all that revealing of her character, it feels like she exists largely to be a straight man to the others. Like she's clearly the protagonist but the book doesn't seem to give much of a shit about her...?

Especially coming to this quite soon after reading Emma the contrast in this regard is super jarring...

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is this where i mention that galavant has a wizard called xanax

who The fuck names meds “Zoloft” sounds like some dark wizard cursing me for not wiping my feet before I enter his house and “sertraline” is his snakewife

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taika waititi as jod. that's it that's the post

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tied for my favorite animated bisexual east asian man

Sure, Jan

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E.M. Forster, from Maurice

Euripides

Herakles - Euripides (Tr. Anne Carson)

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'this too shall pass' well can it pass fucking faster??

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i show up to my doctors appointment and the receptionist tells me to sign into my appointment on the app.

theres bikes around the city you can rent but you have to use an app that needs your drivers license. theres buses that drive right to your destination, but if you dont have change you need the app. you can wash your car here if you sign into the app. you can go to the bathroom here you just have to unlock it with the app that needs your location on. you can order at this restaurant if you scan the code and download the app. im losing my freaking mind

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absolutely gobsmacked by this... the Details?!

Dress, 1909. House Of Worth.

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I have done nothing all summer but wait for myself to be myself again.

— Georgia O'Keeffe

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"haha go easy it's just a first draft!" except it's the single most important thing i've ever created in my entire life. if you make even one slightly neutral comment about it i will withdraw into a cave and never return to society. any feedback that does not amount to "omg yes this is incredible, it’s unlike anything else ever made, where is the sequel, this idea is sure to make you at least fifteen billion dollars" will reduce me to tears. but be honest tho

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this claws at my soul. tears open my chest and bares it for all to see, but there is no one there but myself. and I love her for it

from the introduction to emily wilsons translation of the iliad

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seeing a venezuelan crowd filling at&t stadium in arlington tx is such a beautiful reminder that sports are political. those are refugees and citizens. venezuelans and other latinos. those are the people this country cannot keep denying personhood.

latinos are fined and/or kicked out of neighborhoods in dallas for being themselves. for being brown. they are not welcome in so many parts of texas and yet they have filled its largest stadium. even if they don’t win, this is a victory.

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yes the pizza mukbang made me emotional. Dan says they were created to be together and you expect me to feel NOTHING?!?!???

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I have Tumblr.... Wow, almost forgot

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Dungeon Meshi x Edmund Blair Leighton

Art by: felixoesinghaus

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safe now, unsafe later vs unsafe now, safe later

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I will never shut up about the missed opportunities of Naruto and how disappointed I was by shippuden. Like some of the moments are so good, but this is why og Naruto is so much better in my opinion. When the story was focused on the characters instead of cool fights and visuals. Those are the moments that last, that make an impact. Sasuke showing up and wanting to be hokage with no build up or explanation for that very out of character moment is not it

I love how grim was the original Naruto.

I really miss when adults were portrayed like that, like actual soldiers who had to indulge in several vices to control their PTSD. They smoke or do drugs or read porn or drink or become addicted to work or physical exercise. They are all perverted in their own ways, broken, traumatized, damaged.

I miss when they had big ass scars and when you could tell they were shinobis used to killing for a living just by looking at them.

I miss how Kishimoto used the kids view to make everything look kinda innocent at first, but slowly turned everything worse the more that they lived to reveal to real shinobi world, not how the kids dreamed it to be.

There was something so appealing to it, to the contrast of innocence vs a world submerged in war and violence.

Kakashi starts the Land of the Waves arc being a funny dude with hearts in his speech bubbles and it progresses to Kakashi putting his hand through Haku's heart with a chidori. There's suicide and there's extortion and there's old men molesting Sakura and people being crucified and genocide and corruption and—

There are moments when you can feel the reality of their violence, like when Orochimaru appeared on The Forest of Death. He showed Sasuke and Sakura with a genjutsu how he'd decapitate them. Like when Hiruzen gave his soul to a demon to try and seal Orochimaru's soul too. Like when Gaara started killing people by exploding them with his sand. Like when Rock Lee was told that if he went along with the surgery he could die and if he did not he would never walk again. Like Orochimaru experimenting with kids or like when Neji revealed the secondary branch of the Hyuugas were slaves marked like cattle that would only find freedom if dead. Like Itachi forcing Sasuke to live again and again the Uchiha massacre with a genjutsu.

Shippuden has a lot of it. It is brilliant at times, but doesn't have the consistency of the original.