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yesterday 23/11/2024 she threatened to knot wires around my intestines for failing to complete a task

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its been a long time since ive said anything here

i feel so huirt and i cant do anything about it.

Ive lost everything near and dear to me that made me happy

im starting to think this opportunity wasnt a blessing bujt a curse

it always was

i was never happy here

at least back there i had them and they helped me and amde me hapy

ive lost it all abd everysingle item is a reminder of something i once cherished

im tired of grasping onto threads of something of the past yet theres nothing else i can do. idont want to move on 27/1/2024 7:58pm

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on the 03/05/2023 at around 6 pm my mom hit me 3 times for forgetting to take my fucking pills. ignore this, i need this for the record

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stole and saved up enough money for a smoke lol. get clean from one addiction, and gain another. feeling shit about my body.

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feeling guilty for eating.

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i...do not remmeber posting this???

at least id die skinny

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at least id die skinny

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id rather die than keep living like this

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anxious about going to school tommorow.

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dilemma

things my mom has done today:

Today I skipped my physics lesson because I only got 3 hours of sleep today! so i was... realllly tired. felt like a zombie.

Classmate snitched on me to my mom, so I got into DEEP shit. Got yelled at, got insulted and berated (eg, shit like: YOU LAZY PIG! You bog! you disgrace! [direct quotes]) then called my daaad complaining i have a phone and that i dont know how to use it they argued she hangs up then says that its MY fault that dad and her argue. she proceeds to yell, and leave

i feel guilty but idk,,,was she right tto do this /genq

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i think ive been hallucinating for a long time without realizing it but im not sur e

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whats the differnce between imagination and hallucinations?

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getting blood taken to test for tuberculosis tmmrw lol

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im 16 days clean

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60 days, 12? wwhich bait will i take?

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i feel as though ill throw up