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sometimes i think im a bad musician and then i remember i literally have 2 spotify credits for songs i helped write (band) and was one of like 35 kids out of 2,500+ vocal auditions to get into a pretty prestigious college program and im like ok this is fine actually

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"This person has a secret onlyfans!" "This artist does NSFW commissions!" "This author writes porn on the side!" I cannot begin to tell you how swag and awesome that is.

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sometimes i remember your feet aren’t supposed to be purple after a shower and it fascinates me

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i want to secretly stop taking these new meds i don’t enjoy these symptoms

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me and android phones are like a modern romeo and juliet story 😫😫

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4th day of wellbutrin and i was able to eat 2/3rds of a sandwich (which took me an hour because of nausea) and my high is only physical like mind wise i don’t feel high at all

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i hate jobs eradicate jobs eradicate specifically my boyfriends job so he can come here for the rest of the summer do you people hear me eradicate jo-

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todays the last full day with my childhood dog before we put her down and it doesn’t feel real. i hate this so much i hate the anticipation of tomorrow. what if i dont spend enough time with her today or i dont do *something* idk what something is but what if i wake up next week and regret not doing something with her i didnt even think to do today. i hate this so fucking much i just want my dog i don’t wanna keep being brave and strong i feel like a scared little kid :/

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ideal living situation is what i call the 'sitcom special' : having all your closest friends live in the same apartment building or neighborhood where you each have your own space but can wander in and out of eachothers homes at will, seemingly always welcome and never at bad times. and also all of you only have jobs when its important to the plot.

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hey! if you're a fat bitch who can choke me with your thighs, then i have a message for you😍😵‍💫:

i am stuck in a cave in new mexico. i am fading . there is something in here with me. 34.9727° N, 105.0324° W

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the idea of a 21 year old being engaged is so scary. stay safe dont do that do yourself

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바보세마리

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ok day one of taking both wellbutrin and naltrexone and i took a full naltrexone instead of cutting it in half (my doctor even said i could cut into fourths and i completely forgot all of this) and omg i am going to explode

i’m like physically hungry cause i haven’t eaten anything today but i just tried to eat and as soon as i ate something i got nauseous as fuck

i am now cautiously munching on cheerios

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i’m trying so hard not to cry infront of her because she hates when i cry but it’s so hard i feel like im gonna die with her or some stupid shit 😭😭😭

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tiny desk strikes again with pool by samia while i try and play mind games with my mom about when we’re putting our 17 year old dog who was my childhood best friend down