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The shi i would be wearing if i were cis

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i need a new crush mine don't like me back

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Fake idgaf I saw you touching your comfort necklace

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the erotic tension between me and my bed must be studied

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it’s unfair i just need to

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boy who really really really really really really really really really really really really really really REALLY needs a boyfriend

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Mf dorian is trying to persuade you wtf HAKAJA

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Dorian date everything can persuade me all he wants methinks!!

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do you ever think about how beautiful it is that vampire media went from depicting vampires as creatures who are scared of the cross to showing a male vampire kiss his husband in a church and in front of a giant cross

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*nuzzles you like a cat*

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Nuzzles you back!! <33

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*suspiciously boy shaped door vibes in the corner*

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Vaguely reminds me of the conveniently shaped lamp in undertale

Also, is the door a sign off? I can't tell!

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sillied too hard now im genuinely considering getting a job at whatever local radio stations we have here

honestly it sounds fun though....i originally thought of it because i wanted to make an audio drama/podcast set in a radio station but the more i think the more the radio calls to me

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Finally responding to this ask, I'm sorry anon!!

You should totally apply, methinks.... Not just cause the audio drama, but working as a radio host/on a radio station sounds prettyyyy cooolllllll!!!

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people who send hate anons are actually fucking pathetic and horrible people

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Made a purchase

Jumping for joy

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mass suicide on shblr got me thinking

my first ever boyfriend killed himself. wasnt entirely purposeful apparently but i dont think people usually take that much fentanyl and expect not to die. in that time, i was recovering from anorexia. when he died, i relapsed. id just lost my boy. i still talk about him and it was years ago. he was only 19. a few months later, i had a friend, they used to call me pecha, i have the pokemon berry sewn onto my trousers. they killed themselves after realising theyd never get my ex back, we'd never sneak out again or bake together again or just exist with each other. they were 14. the next year, i had 2 friende commit double suicide. a boy id known for years, he'd gotten through horrific trauma with me, and another boy who comitted because he was sexually assaulted. 3 days later his girlfriend also killed herself. they were all 14/15. i still think about them. on their birthdays i sit and i sob my eyes out missing the people i lost to suicide and couldnt help. youve never heard a scream as broken as a mother whos lost her child. abusive mother or not. their siblings lost them. their teachers lost them. their friends lost them. you arent going to be this age forever. youre going to get out of this but you need to seek help. you cant be saved if deep down you dont want to be saved. im not going to offer you a helpline because when ive been suicidal that didnt help me. i want you to think really deeply of your family. your friends. your pets, your teachers, the guy at the store you see every week. if you kill yourself they are now missing a whole PERSON that was part of their lives. you may find a permanent solution to your pain, but youve created permanent pain to them. i cant offer much but my dms are always open. ill send stupid images of my pet cat or ill ramble about snakes or ill let you vent, it doesnt matter. youve heard suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary issue and im sorry the temporary part has been so long. it wont go away today or tommorow and probably not next week. but itll go away. rest in peace aiden, ellis, dia, elias, alice, and everyone anyone has lost to suicide. you mean something to somebody.

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Wanna yap to a pretty boy and after a while my voice kinda trails off as my eyes meet his and we're just staring at each other with pure affection in our eyes and then we kiss and then we kiss and then we kiss and then we kiss and then we kiss and then we kiss

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so touched starved i just want the weight of someone on me