valentines-echochamber

[valentines-echochamber]

I've been flipping back and forth so much with my gender at the minute... one minute I feel super masc and I get super dysphoric and I think about cutting my hair and actually transitioning, and the next I feel super cute in my skirts and my makeup and its honestly getting really confusing 😓😓 I am trans masc, but I really wish I was a binary trans man at the minute, just so I know what I want to be :/

[valentines-echochamber]

Something I want able bodied people to understand is that I don't want a diagnosis cause I wanna be sick so bad; I want a diagnosis because there is already something wrong with my body but I don't know what the fuck it is.

[valentines-echochamber]

an update of this!! he's an asshole and we are not friends anymore!! he continued to treat me poorly because he prioritised his new bf over me (somewhat understandably) so I told him that the friendship wasn't working for me and he was SOOOOO shocked about it 🙄🙄

RAGHHH someone i am very close to recently started dating a guy and i HATE it D:

i know that i shouldnt because he's happy but he's been talking to me less and less recently because he's ALWAYS talking his new bf and it makes me very upset.. and im aware that its pretty stupid for me to feel so possessive over someone that i wasnt even dating but i knew him first!! i knew him 6 years ago!! i know him better!! i have been there for him through EVERYTHING!! and now he's just throwing me away like some old piece of trash and replacing me with some new guy?? and they're dating?? after 6 months?? and what makes it worse is that me and his boyfriend have VERY similar interests (sharks and spiderman) and now he's introducing his bf into something that I showed HIM?? i thought it would be our thing but now its their thing... AND his boyfriend is uncomfy with things i've been doing for YEARS like calling him pet names or joke flirting with him which like,, its understandable to an extent but i cant even call him 'my silly guy'?? on a happy birthday post???? :(( tl;dr i miss how me and my best friend were before he got a boyfriend and my mental health has been steadily declining for the past month and a half because of it

[valentines-echochamber]

I know that I shouldn't, but sometimes I wish I were MORE disabled or that my symptoms were worse because then maybe I'd be a high priority case. maybe then doctors would treat me with more urgency. maybe my parents would take Mr more seriously. maybe I'd feel more secure in my identity as a chronically I'll person. At this point it feels like I have SO MANY symptoms, but only to a mild degree so it might as well not count :( I just wish people would recognise that there is something physically wrong with me, and I wish that I could come to terms with that without feeling like I'm fishing for sympathy.

[valentines-echochamber]

RAGHHH someone i am very close to recently started dating a guy and i HATE it D:

i know that i shouldnt because he's happy but he's been talking to me less and less recently because he's ALWAYS talking his new bf and it makes me very upset.. and im aware that its pretty stupid for me to feel so possessive over someone that i wasnt even dating but i knew him first!! i knew him 6 years ago!! i know him better!! i have been there for him through EVERYTHING!! and now he's just throwing me away like some old piece of trash and replacing me with some new guy?? and they're dating?? after 6 months?? and what makes it worse is that me and his boyfriend have VERY similar interests (sharks and spiderman) and now he's introducing his bf into something that I showed HIM?? i thought it would be our thing but now its their thing... AND his boyfriend is uncomfy with things i've been doing for YEARS like calling him pet names or joke flirting with him which like,, its understandable to an extent but i cant even call him 'my silly guy'?? on a happy birthday post???? :(( tl;dr i miss how me and my best friend were before he got a boyfriend and my mental health has been steadily declining for the past month and a half because of it

[valentines-echochamber]

Intro post!

Hello :D my name is jude, i use he/they pronouns and im 17 :) please dni if ur bigoted in any way, whether homophobic, racist or otherwise. This account will also largely contain rants and talks about my mental health (especially when i am in a bad way) so if that could be triggering or harmful to you then please leave!

[valentines-echochamber]

Sylvia Plath, from The Unabridged Journals

[valentines-echochamber]

exist because you simply can .