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Having chronic eczema and autism is a deadly combination because I'm over here, itchy all over, and then having a meltdown because the sensory experience of being itchy and dry all over is a living nightmare

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Update time!!

I've been away for a bit while I got my life together. I got 2 jobs (which have been killing me, highly do not recommend), and I found this beautiful stray in a Walmart parking lot!

Her name is Biscuit, but I call her miss Biscuit and pretty girl. She tries really hard to cuddle with my other orange, Pretzel, but he is hesitant to be near her. She is so cuddly and amazing.

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It would be really nice if the people in my life would realize that just because I have *some* good days, it does not mean my disabilities and illnesses are gone.

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My latest crochet wip, featuring my biggest fan <3

The blanket pattern is by Her Science on YouTube, I'm using Red Heart yarn in Bright Yellow and Bluebell with a 5.5mm hook.

My kitty is named Pretzel, and he is my precious lil guy

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Negligent doctors and healthcare providers are a life-threatening and unfortunate reality when you're chronically ill/disabled.

When I went to get diagnosed with Autism and OCD, I also brought up my concerns about the pain and strange symptoms I have been experiencing for a very long time. The occasional inability to walk, debilitating migraines, and the inability to use my hands for long periods of time. I also brought up how I bruised easily, how I was tired all the time, and my strangest symptom being that when I feel strong emotions, such as laughing hard, my muscles will stop working. I'd be completely unable to grip something. I'd get lightheaded and have to sit down, or I'd pass out. My doctor and psychologist teamed together in figuring it out and decided I was "too young" to be experiencing this. They said I had self diagnosed myself with chronic pain. They then decided to completely ignore my concerns, do no tests, and diagnose me with a disorder similar to hypochondria. My psychologist said if I stopped thinking about the symptoms so much, they'd go away.

My pain never went away. It got worse. My right hand is basically unusable after 30 minutes of writing or crocheting. My tiredness got so bad I cannot clean or work without several rests.

Denying someone of a space to discuss their symptoms and medical issues is gross negligence. I know this is a common experience within the disabled community, and things like this NEED to be talked about.

Disabled people are not in the painfully rigid and small box that a lot of people seem to think they are in. We are not inherently lazy or making excuses. We are not asking for better treatment than others or trying to scam a system. Anyone can become disabled at any time. There is no such thing as "too young".

Since this month is disability pride month, please take time out of your day to listen to the stories of disabled people. Please educate yourself. Please look out for your disabled friends and family. And to my fellow disabled folk, I reach out to you to wish you all the best.

* also a reminder: it is okay to not like being disabled. It is ok to be a proud disabled person. It is okay to have mixed feelings about disability. Everyone experiences it differently and will have completely different opinions on it. This rant was more about physical disabilities, but mental are included as well.

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It's is going to be about 105°F+ where I live. As a chronically ill person with very temperature reactive symptoms, that's scary!

Reminder to all my fellow chronically ill folks (and everyone in general), do not forget to drink water, wear sunscreen, and take breaks!

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If you're autistic, your special interest is there to bring you joy and meaning, not to somehow become your "special autism talent" which makes up for you being disabled. Don't let ableists imply otherwise.

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disabled people are worth whatever cost or resources is needed to keep them alive. disabled people are worth it even if they don't live long. they're worth it even if they will need extra support and resources for every day of their life. they're worth it even if they spend all they life indoors. none of it is wasted. none of it is in vain. time, effort, money, resources spent on a life are not wasted. these things have served their purpose. the joy of someone's existence is not undermined by not lasting forever. there's no meaningful point, some threshold where you can say "okay this is enough. after that it's not worth it." it's always worth it.

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I don’t know, but, "I'm proud to be Autistic and wouldn’t change it for the world," and "Autism actively makes my life harder to the point where I cannot function properly or independently in my life" can and should co-exist by the way.

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My current WIP

I've begun a series of drawing BG3 characters in my somewhat realistic style, so here is my first! I loved Shadowheart's story throughout the entire game and I am a huge fan of her VA, too.

I am excited to finish this one and then work on the next. I already started on my next piece, and hint hint, it's of a drow we all know and love.