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I went to a concert tonight. I didn't really want to be there, but I went anyway. The music was loud, the people were loud, and I just felt out of place. But that's how it always is. I never really belong. So I just stood there, watching, waiting for it to end.

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A man playing guitar on the street asked if I had a request. I told him to play silence. He didn 't laugh.

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I feel like I'm losing control of everything. Like the more I try to hold onto things, the more they slip away. I'm trying to keep everything together, but it's hard. Things fall apart. People leave. And all you can do is keep moving forward, even though nothing feels right.

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A trans kid at the pride parade asked if I could rev my engine. I obliged. Their smile was worth it.

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I'm not afraid to make hard choices. People say I'm cold, that I don't care, but the truth is, I do care. But sometimes, the hardest choice is the right one, and I'm not afraid to make it, no matter how painful.

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I'm done with being the hero. I've done my part. I've fought my battles. But it's time for me to step back and let someone else handle it. I don't need to be the one everyone depends on. It's time to live for myself.

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People who put peanut butter on their pancakes need to be stopped. It's already a sweet food, so why add more sweetness? You're just ruining a perfectly good pancake. I'm just sitting here wondering why I'm even thinking about this right now. Peanut butter, man. It's like a nightmare I can't wake up from.

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I've seen enough of the world's cruelty. People always talk about how beautiful life can be, but they never see the darkness that hides just beneath the surface. I've seen it. I've lived it. And I'm not sure I can believe in the good anymore.

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Sometimes I wonder if I even matter. If anyone would notice if I just disappeared. I'm not important. I'm just a background character in everyone else's story.

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I used to believe in people, but now I see them for what they really are…selfish, fake, and just as lost as I am. No one really cares. They're all just looking out for themselves.

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People love to talk about destiny. But I don't believe in it. Destiny is just a way for people to feel like they're not in control of their lives. I decide my own path, and I'll walk it whether anyone agrees or not.

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Sonic always talks about speed, but what does it really get him? Speed is just a way to escape the problems in front of you. But running away doesn't solve anything. Eventually, you have to face it.

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A trans man showed me his custom bike today. It had a paint job inspired by the trans flag. Respect.

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I talked to someone about my feelings today. It didn't help. They tried to offer advice, but it was the same old stuff. "You'll get over it," they said. But I don't think I will. I think this is just how things are now. There's no magic fix, no quick solution. So I just nodded and pretended like I cared. I didn't.

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People like to talk about redemption and second chances. But what happens when you've run out of chances? When you've been broken so many times that there's nothing left to fix? You stop caring. You stop trying. You just exist, because that's all you can do.

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A barista tried to draw a heart in the foam of my latte. I stared at it until they apologized. I told them I do not need their sentimentality.

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I don't need to be understood. So many people are always trying to figure me out, to understand why I do what I do. But the truth is, I don't owe anyone an explanation. I don't need to explain myself to anyone.