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Reblog to hug prev poster (they need a hug)

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Had a wonderful labor weekend

Started Friday night off well with Indian and the wine bar a block from our house, it’s a converted house and just so cozy

Saturday had a riding lesson went to the gym and made eclairs and cream puffs

Sunday I went for a run and then we went brewery and got burgers and ice cream and read our books. They had a special wheat beer called strawberry birthday cake and I loved it

And then Monday I went on a trail ride! First one in forever and it was lovely (minus Luna being stubborn about a water crossing and backing me into a tree, my arm still hurts). And then I grilled chicken and made a green sauce with pasta and ate in my lovely purple backyard

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Should’ve checked the singular photo from the venue because those shadows on my face are a lot, but we had a great time at my friends wedding!

There was Indian dancing and good food and an open bar and so so much dancing

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San Francisco!

Went to the beach, hiked up on the bluffs around the beach

After we saw an elk on our hike we went and Stayed in the mountain house and saw sunset and then sunrise on the perfect balcony

Went Muir Woods and saw a purple clover in a sea of green and some really big redwoods and had a picnic

Enjoyed all of the ube brought to you primarily from Trader Joe’s but also a local bakery. We also had the best soup dumplings

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Ube snickerdoodle bear cookies!

My bf wanted snickerdoodle, and i obviously wanted purple and the first recipe I found shaped them like bears so i had to. I made an extra derpy bear for the bf and the rest cute

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A pretty sky and my odometer exactly matching my gas mileage (I just reset it obviously)

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Barry Yeoman:

With federal support for public radio severed, where should you donate, and why? Some thoughts:

1. Not every station is suffering equally. Some are losing a small fraction of their income and have wealthy audiences that are making up the difference.

2. Some stations have been decimated. KSHI in Zuni Pueblo, New Mexico is losing 96% of its funding. KUHB in St. Paul, Alaska is losing 97%.

3. If, like me, you live in North Carolina, the hardest hit stations are at two Historically Black Colleges and Universities: WNCU (N.C. Central University, Durham, 50%) and WRVS (Elizabeth City State University, 71%).

4. There is a helpful website for finding how much money each station loses. It's https://adoptastation.org. Not only can you look up individual stations, but you can ask the site to randomly generate a hard-hit station to support. (That's how I found the stations in New Mexico and Alaska.)

5. This funding is essential to democracy. It produces important work. After the BP oil spill, for example, Richard Ziglar and I received a public-radio grant to produce 14 stories for a series called Gulf Watch. We visited Indigenous communities, a shrimper's boat, a marina where Black oystermen work, and the home of a Vietnamese-American oyster shucker. We interviewed scientists, a charter-boat captain, and a musician. Our reports (which you can hear at https://barryyeoman.com/radio/) brought listeners close to the people most impacted by the spill and by coastal land loss. The money for our paychecks flowed from the Corporation for Public Broadcasting to Louisiana Public Broadcasting to KRVS Public Media to us. (Thanks to Dorothy Kendrick, Judith Meriwether, David Spizale, James Hebert, and Karl Fontenot.)

6. For me, it was a gig. For other mission-driven journalists, it's their full livelihood.

7. If you want more convincing, listen to this brilliant episode of Nate DiMeo's podcast, the memory palace: https://podcasts.apple.com/.../episode-234.../id299436963.... The StoryCorps report that Nate references, from which this photo is borrowed, is at https://storycorps.org/stories/ghetto-life-101/.

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Summer evenings

Tuesday night after frisbee practice, and then Wednesday reading with ice cream and ube whipped cream in my own backyard.

I finally made it into the gym after like a month off on Wednesday (too much frisbee) and I felt so good about my workout and not loosing very much strength but now I am so sore I can barely walk 😭

Yesterday I had a dressage lesson after a month off and I was worried it would be bad but my trainer said we were still looking good! And that pony was still bending well and her leg yields were good 😊 and she thinks we might be able to try first level 2 at the show in September. The canter lengthens will be the sticking point for the little pony, but still exciting.

Especially because my jumping lessons have been so frustrating lately. It just feels like the gulf between where I am and where I want to be and think I should be is just so so so large. And that I’m working hard but making no progress and just kind of am a terrible rider making the same mistakes on endless repeat and everyone else is better. But I was thinking about it more and I use to also tip too far forward and now I’m being told I need to fold forward and follow better with my hands so I guess even though I’m still wrong I am at least wrong in a different way.

I think ive gotten a little too focused on showing and that’s where some of the frustration comes in. And it’s not even about placing well, i literally just want to be able to go clean at a show and ride well. And it’s annoying in some ways because on my old lease horse I could do that easily, but now I can’t on my own pony. And some of that is she’s small and he was bigger and regularly jumping 3 foot/.90 courses with his teenagers so of course doing the .70s with me was gonna be easy for him even if I rode badly. But it leaves me feeling both like I bought the wrong horse and am becoming a worse rider and that’s a hard feeling. And I knew with riding a pony I would essentially have to ride better even at the lower heights but I thought I was up for the task. But the task is hard than I thought and now I’m sad and frustrated.

But nothing to do but keep working I guess. We have a show tomorrow so fingers crossed it goes well.

I’m also still having mixed feelings about about my boyfriend moving in. Some of it is just me being grumpy about there being more stuff in the house and things being in weird places and not liking his stuff as much as my stuff. And some of it is questioning the relationship itself. He is so sweet and puts in effort but sometimes it just feels like we have zero emotional connection and I’m like do I really want to spend the rest of my life trying to talk with this person? Like last week he made me ube waffles with ube whipped cream (so purple) while I slept in. But then last night I asked if he would do rose bud thorn with me and just said no. And then made zero attempt to talk about anything else. Just like a bit of cuddle and silence. And like I don’t think that’s how I want to live my life. And it’s so easy to talk to him about frisbee but sometimes hard to talk about it feels like literally anything else. And I’ll just be asking endless questions and just getting one word responses and I feel like I am talking to a wall. And I just can’t decide if that’s a deal breaker or not. He’s like easy enough to get along with, great at planning trips and such, clearly remembers my preferences and accommodates them, tries to make me happy, but just is brick wall sometimes. And I just feel like every conversation is me dragging things out of him or him trying to say just enough so I don’t get mad. But then he’ll talk to other people about a book or something and just getting so excited and I don’t get why we never have that. I feel like I’m draining all the life out of him sometimes and not like we’re just making each other worse. Like we make sense on paper but the exact we want to interact with the world and have fun is off by just enough that it just doesn’t work. And I don’t even know how to talk him about because how do you tell someone they just aren’t fun enough? Or why don’t you ever seem excited to talk to me? It feel like telling someone to calm down which has never in the history of the world actually gotten someone to calm down.

And I’d feel bad breaking it off now when he just moved out of his apartment of seven years and spent to much time and money moving and would have to spend more on a new place, but I also don’t know if this what I want anymore. We’ve also only had sex once in like the past three months and it feels like we’re just becoming more and more disconnected. And it’s like I just have a roommate who sleeps in the same b d and not a partner and like I don’t really want a roommate

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My dash has stopped showing some people I follow and only showing their posts on the for you page 😡😡😡

Whyyyyyy is tumblr is so dumb

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Like a new friend!

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I don’t like my new car. I had to make the decision quickly and didn’t get to really think through what actually was important to me and I got distracted by the allure of a “purple” car but it just looks black half of the time. I liked that it came with navigation but didn’t think through that it was from 2013 and is hard to use and not very good. And I thought a hatchback might have more trunk space and be good for options of storage stuff, but it’s a narrower trunk so it feels like space on a day to day basis.

So all the things I thought would be better, color, trunk space, navigation, are in fact worse and I have all of the drawbacks I knew about, no back up camera, doesn’t fit my water bottle as well, plus a bonus one of no maintenance information or reminders.

So overall just feeling like I make a multi thousand dollar mistake that I am now stuck with and just have to live with and it’s sucks extra because it’s all my fault

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The insurance came back with 11.5k!!! 🎉🎉🎉 which is basically what I paid my new car so that works out perfectly 😁 and now I have a purple car!!

I also got a window seat for flight, had zero issues returning my rental car, called all the people and made all the appointments this morning and did all my paperwork remaining work tasks for the week, and dropped off a return. I see the charge from the Michigan DMV so they at least got my fax and are doing something with it, the house cleaners came yesterday and now the house is spotless, and basically things are all on the up and up

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Heaven

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I want the insurance people to tell me what they’ll pay me for my car already.

I bought my new car already, which I maybe should’ve waited on so now I am anxious and full of regret

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An ube cocktail,Vietnamese noodle bowl and the most magical hand washing station ever brought to a table

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Good US news because I think we all could use some of it:

The Marines are to be withdrawn from LA. The extreme escalation many of us feared did not happen thanks to the people of LA and the soldiers themselves who said "no".

The "Good Trouble Lives On" protests may not have been as big as the previous "Hands Off" and "No Kings" protests (likely due to heat + being planned on a weekday), but still 1.6k protests were held across the USA with thousands joining in with the peaceful protest.

The Trump administration has been ordered to restore $6.2 million in grant funding to nine LGBTQ+ and HIV-related nonprofits. This is fantastic.

Pittsburgh City Council has passed bills to protect its LGBTQ+ citizens.

California has stepped up to partner with and support The Trevor Project. Let's go, Cali!

Another win for California: Reports show that California is powered by two-thirds clean energy. This is a historic first and it keeps getting better!

The ACLU of Louisiana has secured the release of two wrongfully detained Iranian LSU students.

The Republican governor of New Hampshire has defied her party and shot down a book banning bill.

Shareholders have pushed back on corporations' anti-DEI proposals, forcing companies to face the fact that diversity is good for business... And reminds us that the majority does not agree with the removal of DEI, no matter what MAGA wants us to believe.

Since November, 69 of the 110 Supreme Court lawyers tasked with defending the Trump admin's policies have quit.

Don't let anyone tell you that there isn't hope, that there aren't people fighting and working and just as scared and angry as you are. You are not alone. Peaceful protests, contacting reps, and simple non-cooperation is how we sustainably and successfully push back against authoritarianism.

"We're cooked" is the devil talking. Giving up, rolling over, and perpetuating the idea that we've already failed is exactly what MAGA wants. Don't give them the satisfaction. Don't make it easy. Continue to look after each other and support your communities where you can. Keep protesting, keep calling, keep writing, keep loving. The heart is a muscle the size of your fist; we can get through this as long as we continue to stand up and say "no".

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I am buying a car 😱