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Flowers greet the night, Torino, Italy

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Emily Hunt

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May 2025

Yoga outside on the platform. I was hesitant at first but then I loved reaching up in ardha chakrasana, looking up into a sunlit tree crown. Watching the birdies chirp with their whole bodies twitching. And then the wind made the chestnut trees snow - raining down white blossoms with a faint crescent moon in the background.

Imagining coming back to Hridaya with C. one day. We're gonna sleep in my future van and maybe attend a tantra retreat.

I keep finding beautiful large moths all around the castle. One was snow white with a furry neck and tiny black spots.

The feeling of an empty stomach. So rare for me. But also: feeling full with no impulse to eat.

Hearing the owls at night through my open window.

Waking up without a blocked nose and a little more energy. No appetite despite an empty stomach. Flowy Pranayama. Lying down in bed after practice, listening to someone playing improvising on their hand pan through the open window.

The white, cloud-like fog hanging low in the valley before sunrise.

Bed. My safe space.

There's a pound of strawberries on the table in my room. It's a small room, so I can smell them immediately whenever I enter.

Listening to my body for once and taking a break. Leaving yoga class after only half an hour.

Watching H. and A. admiring each other. Expressing themselves with passion and a strong voice. Seeing the guy with curly hair dance phenomenally. Dancing to a Kali mantra. Singing.

A walk up to Clair Joie. Picking flower souvenirs.

The moon had a rainbow halo on my last night in France.

Helping out a Swiss guy in need. Booking his train ticket. Taking him to the supermarket.

Laurel Halo's album Atlas provides the perfect, spheric background sound for blending out your surroundings with noise-cancelling headphones. It gives everything a surreal, cinematic tint.

Stepping out of the Museum of Contemporary Art in Lyon. Crossing the street. Finding myself in the most beautiful rose garden. I stopped and smelled the roses. I almost cried. So fragrant and full of life. Magical.

"The Marina Abramović Method" cards, a hair pick and a 70s tapas bowl. Museum Shop finds.

Spending money to avoid anxiety. Accepting it as a lesson.

Making a playlist for my picnic party.

Coming home. Appreciation for my apartment. My possessions. The familiarity of it all.

Happily cleaning my face in the magnifying mirror. Trying on a Muji summer dress. Moving intuitively, listening to my body's stiff areas and cracking noises.

Moonlight shadows and healing movement.

The larger-than-life strawberry hits have reappeared. My favourite time of the year.

Going through all my artworks with Manu. His enthusiastic but honest feedback.

Sprucing up my balcony with a long wooden window sill and new plants.

Crunchy paper-thin Nori seaweed. Baked and salted. Addictive.

Handing in my portfolio at the art academy on the very last day. Knock on wood.

Shopping at GoAsia.

My beautiful birthday! I went to Phoenixbad with C. and we had Indian food for dinner. The next day, we built a magical cuddle tent with lots of lights and golden stars everywhere. So many of my friends were there and we had fun with the cats, my instant camera and shared the very elaborate (and very pink) strawberry Raffaello cake I made. Later I also made Banh Mi sandwiches.

I got a wellness gift voucher from my friends! And an afternoon painting ceramics together. A pot of catmint. Tinted lip balm from Korres. And a jar of pistachio nougat.

Everything went wrong when I flew to Gran Canaria despite a very strong gut feeling that I didn't want to go. Now I'm here and I'm allowing myself to stay in bed for as long as I want. Read books. Journal. Adventure will find me soon enough.

Shopping at Parfois. It's happened to me for the second time now: I enter the store and immediately see "the perfect item". A thing that is just so me. Last time it was a watercolor-esque bag - this time a burnt orange linen scarf.

A roadtrip through the mountains. Yellow and purple flowers everywhere. Having a picnic at the Mirador Astronómico de Pinos de Gáldar. Reading in the sunshine. Little white butterflies everywhere. Inolvidable.FM radio station (playing oldies but goodies). A few rays of evening sun coming through the clouds, making the waves sparkle in some areas.

Hiding my boyfriend's two calendars from my Google Calendar. Suddenly everything looks very manageable.

There was mysterious purple glitter on my phone. I liked it.

A good view. And goats.

Breakfast on Tina's terrace. Meeting the caterpillars and their three cocoons. Hanging out with Maya all day. Making music, checking out her ballet moves, teaching her some asanas. Drawing together at the beach. We're both dreamy, creative little girls.

Driving through El Valle. As soon as I got a first glimpse I was fascinated - and reminded of El Valle Sagrado in Pisac, Peru. Such an amazing view.

Spending time with Sharmila. She shared some of her wisdom and healing energy with me and introduced me to the quantum field... Such an interesting character with lots of stories and life experience. I could imagine working with her - she talked about so many project last night: retreats, podcast, an NGO for seniors in India. Opening a restaurant together. I invited her to dinner and we made delicious Thai curry at Tina's place where we sat outside on the terrace. Girl's Night!

I picked up Ludo from the airport. We spent four days together - mostly next to each other in the car. And we had really good conversations! It was interesting to get to know him better.

The view from Sharmila's house (and a possible option to buy it). Playing with her cat Einstein.

Getting late night chocolate-covered frozen raspberries and roasted pistachio ice-cream from HiperDino.

Driving up the mountains to go stargazing. It was magnificent and we even saw a few shooting stars!

Eating at Organic Jungle in Las Palmas. Having a fresh smoothie. Talking to Anja from Munich.

Coming home.

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April 2025

The first bike tour with my new Pedelec.

A night out with C. We went to a left-wing satire/stand-up show and, surprisingly, I found it to be quite entertaining. C. met an acquaintance, Nicole Gohlke. She's a member of the German Bundestag and is friends with Wolfgang M. Schmitt, Ole Nymoen (who invited her to the show) and Jean-Philippe Kindler. So we tagged along for drinks at the Adina hotel bar.

Planning a trip to Gran Canaria with Ludo, Marcus and Christian. I want to go diving and drive around the island before the dudes arrive! We're going to look at a few properties together. At first I was sceptical but the idea is growing on me.

Meeting my new hypnotherapist. We're vibing.

My Duolingo comeback. I'm kinda relieved to see that I do still speak Spanish.

One of those fantastic massages I sometimes get from Ploy.

Letting vanilla pudding drip off the spoon, right into my mouth.

Meeting Fiorina at the doctor's office! Well, she IS the doctor, so she got paid for chatting with me. Nice!

The neighbourhood's magnolia trees in full bloom.

Accidentally starting oil painting!

The Sisterhood in Dune Prophecy.

INIKO blew me away with her voice, her vibe, her presence and style. What a great artist. Fantastic concert.

A last minute decision to go to the cinema. I discovered that there is a really nice one just 10min from my house! What. I'll be back.

My car came back squeaky clean from the repair.

Scotland on a menu: Digestives. Rosemary crackers. Terry's Chocolate Orange. One of the best Bánh mì sandwiches I've ever eaten. Ethiopian food. Acaï and Buddha bowls. Roger's pancakes.

Edinburgh and Glasgow adventures: Staying at a very old but charming guesthouse. Walking through Greyfriar's Kirkyard at dusk, taking a bus to the sea, finding the perfect shops for us in Leith: Portal (me) and a boardgame store (C.) A teary cinema visit. / Staying at a chic, modern hotel. A night out at a rock pub, an intense talk about C.'s suicide thoughts, going dancing. An afternoon at Kelvingrove Museum.

Those beautiful, bright yellow gorse bushes as far as the eyes can see.

Connecting with Nori, Yod, Beans, Names, Jade, Su, Jordan.

Seeing C. DJ, how well he's been received, the joy he radiated.

Workshops on radical honesty,l and assertiveness, the God Experiment.

Dancing to Fluffernutter.

Tilly the cat. She's soft and fierce.

Making Jordan's van bounce.

Finding all the Easter eggs before (and while!) soaking in the hot tub.

Talking to Ria, Amaris and Nori after watching SCALES. Brainstorming the Dyke Cruise Bingo together.

Being alone in Cosmic Cave, writing letters, doodling, drawing tarot cards.

An intense welfare shift. I learned that I'm not responsible for other people's issues even if I'm the one they confided in.

The starry sky, the view of the ocean, the forest.

Taking photos dressed up as Saints with Beans' instant camera.

Displaying my art. Singing together.

Horse goodies and happiness. The kindness of strangers.

Gifting back rubs and Osho zen cards.

C. told me he loved me. In person and in writing.

Sean giving us a ride to the airport. So grateful. Cuddling on the plane. Veggie doner and Apfelschorle upon arrival.

Meditating my way through an MRI tunnel. And my first hypnosis session with Alex.

Seeing the others' photos of Celtic Burn. Connecting with new friends.

My first hypnosis therapy session.

Dandelion fields illuminated by the afternoon sun.

Another A+ massage (Ploy is the best).

Meeting Manu, cutting his hair, buying flower pots.

A lovely time with C. and L. We accompanied C. to the shooting club and I got to shoot a few rounds as well. We visited friends, had lunch at an eco restaurant in the countryside. I picked a wildflower bouquet. Then we went to a place with a good view, walked around the graveyard and L. asked to light a candle in the church up on the hill. Then we enjoyed a scoop of ice-cream in the evening sun. C. helped me with my ETFs and we cuddled a lot. And we talked about getting married! I feel loved.

Walking through the airport with my new (deep purple!) noise-cancelling BOSE headphones. Spherical instrumental music playing. This is SO helpful.

Buying stickers and tattoos for my inner child. Applying the tattoos to my notebook pages! They can actually be used for paper. Who knew.

Another arrival at Hridaya. A calm one this time. I knew what to expect. I felt patient, content. I loved how familiar everything was. A few Karma yogis I already knew. Bella the cat. Not much has changed around here (Have I?) And I'm so happy I splurged on a single room. I value my peace and quiet.

Returning to the hanging chair under the chestnut tree for lunch. I used to come here almost daily during the silent retreat. Such an idyllic spot.

Bella allowed me to pet her.

Sunbathing lizards. Bumblebees and butterflies. Pea twines with elegant purple blossoms.

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March 2025

Making C. happy by giving him a massage slathered in coconut oil. Inviting Franzi to help me.

Leaving quickly on Sunday. Stopping for our first outdoor ice-cream of the year. Eating it in the sunshine, sitting outside the ice-cream parlor.

Bathing together.

Finding a huge box of Sennelier soft pastels for half the price.

Watching a Sternstunde Philosophie talk with Marina Abramović.

Spending a few days in my own apartment for a change. I feel rather nomadic these days. It's nice to have all my belongings around me but I also notice how much they're weighing me down. I get sucked into a very stagnant energy.

Cooking my favourite sour curry with all the vegetables. Trying fermented tofu for the first time. Delicious.

NYX Lip I.V. - such a nourishing lip product (and I got it in a brownish 90s shade)

One of the best food combinations: Gruyère and strawberries.

Reading a whole book in two days. With my new clip-on reading light. Game changer.

Alkaline porridge with sea salt, roasted almonds and berries. Breakfast dessert.

Variations of a super easy and healthy lentil loaf! Veggie-packed and low carb. (I've been cooking and baking every day since I'm back in my apartment)

Surprising myself with good paintings (the trick is to make it through the ugly stage).

Spring cleaning.

Dinner with Becky. As always. One of the most wonderful human beings I know.

A cheap insider deal for a leather handbag.

Discovering an intricate origami dragon sitting on top of the emergency break on the subway.

A night out with C. Deep talk with Olivier (about Surreal art, feminism, Louise Bourgeois and the Guggenheim in Bilbao, the difference between coaching and therapy, IFS constellations and parts work). Ending up at Corleone, talking to a few people outside. Happily holding each other in bed. Also cute: when he was a little sad because I bought heeled platform shoes. So I let him wear them so he could be taller than me for once (we're almost the same height).

Casually fantasizing about renting a studio near C.'s house. Making it a studio/café/event room/store. I LOVE this idea. Putting it out there. Listen up, Universe <3

I also love my vision of my life at the art academy. Being exposed to radical, subversive avant-garde ideas. Discussing everything with C. Going to bizarre and eccentric happenings and parties together.

Mini burrata.

A super quick and easy read for a change.

When C. came into the room all excited, bit into a huge strawberry and announced that it was the biggest one he'd ever eaten.

Supporting a crowdfunding campaign for Munich's first Lesbian Bar - I chose the tier with the sticker pack: "Lesbians eat WHAT...?" Meow!

Spending some time alone with Marcus. Getting to know each other a little. Meeting his adorable cats. Enjoying his much calmer energy (compared to C.)

Initiating a mediation for L. and S. Telling her I'd be her lawyer. What a nice thing to have as a little girl. I wish I'd had one too. Perhaps I can take on this role for my own inner little girl as well.

C. and M. picked up my bike for me. I didn't have to move one finger!

Lots of feline cuddles.

People keep telling me that they admire the way I move. Perhaps it's time to believe them? I'm a dancer!

Being reminded of my passion for roasted sesame. I immediately bought one of the Gomasio mills they had at the seminar house.

The transformational Inanna seminar. Meeting so many interesting personalities. I see myself in many of them. In Cordula, who loves art and fashion design and unearthed her pink girl dreams. In Petra, who never believed she was good enough either and ended up with an eating disorder like me. In Astrid: anxious and dignified, freaky but reserved. In Martin, who also needs a few days to thaw. In Aline with her incredible connection to the invisible realm. Her receptivity to the subtle messages of the ether. Her soft, warm strength and compassion. In Dore, who feels like an older version of me. My future potential. A wise woman. Almost. And she already lives in my dream house in the forest - a vision that keeps showing up. Sonja, who used to be a teacher as well. She's fierce and provoking. Soft and warm and enthusiastic.

Dancing with my sadness. Receiving a message: I am free. I am loved.

Resurrection after 16-hand-massage.

Walking the first steps on my very own golden life line after A. told me unexpectedly that I used to have a twin and I'm currently on his path. Hugging and cuddling and eye gazing. It felt natural with her. Even to ask her for permission to put my forehead on hers.

Learning that a lack of control can also be called freedom.

Realizing that I have a huge problem with self-sabotage. There's a part of me that keeps me small and immobile. Apathetic. Tired. Cuts off my energy supply. Doesn't believe in me. Is afraid of failure AND success. Because it expects both outcomes to be painful or exhausting.

Emptiness contains everything.

Following the urge to hop out of bed and dance to the Village People one morning.

Realizing the daffodils I bought were actually white! A pleasant surprise.

Maisons du Monde, plant center and delicious Indian food with Margit.

Waking up before sunrise. Going for a long walk through the forest. Saying good morning to strangers instead of ignoring them. Picking up trash along the way. Working on my posture. Feeling a little sad. Welcoming it. Realizing that my favourite time outside is right before the street lights turn on/off. I also went past a window decorated with Happy Birthday bunting and it looked like a mother was busy preparing a birthday table for her child. Heartwarming.

Starting my new journal. Making it my own. Collages, art, dried ferns...

A day at the art academy. Shopping at Muji. Sexy silly social gathering in the evening.

The mango exceeded expectations.

Running an oil stick over a huge canvas. The start of a new painting.

C. brought me earrings from Gran Canaria! Is this the first time I got jewellery from a man?

Waking up next to each other.

Helping the kids make clay pots. I loved seeing how calm it made them at first (but then upset because the result wasn't perfect...)

A tiny Japanese food tour with Lena and Sash: Matcha Orange and matcha cheesecake with a savoury tasting menu at Tushita tea house. Museum 5 Kontinente. Delicious ramen in mushroom broth. Taiyaki fish waffles for dessert. And then we saw "Doping" at Kammerspiele. My first time at the theatre this year!

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Pablo Picasso

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Eli McMullen — Dream Weaver (acrylic on panel, 2025)

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Lionello Balestrieri - Sensazioni musicali (1923)

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Weeping Willow, 1919, Claude Monet

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Taro Okamoto underwent a rite of initiation to the secret society of Acephale in 1937, also with a pact of blood, and probably preceded by an "oath of silence” on the balcony of the building where Bataille lived at 76 bis rue de Rennes.