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Please check out my newest Video.

I did it a while ago - which is why there are no season 7 scenes.

Potential future perspective fix type video

Please watch & share!!

Tagging:

@smoakandarrow @smkkbert @tdgal1 @laurabelle2930 @magda1102 @hope-for-olicity @smoaking-greenarrow @someonesaidcake @magda1102 @green-arrows-of-karamel @mogirl97 @diggo26 @mortallock @otpwriteratheart @almondblossomme @arrow-through-my-writers-block @arrowversefandom @arrowgirl23 @arrowgirl333

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Preach

Feminist Friday

When Robert Downey Jr. was asked about his acting process and Scarlett Johansson was asked how she got into shape 

Two-time Oscar-winning Cate Blanchett 

Designer & author Lauren Conrad 

Award-winning Emma Stone 

When award-winning actress Julianne Moore was asked to put her fingers into a “Mani Cam” 

When award-winning Elisabeth Moss did 

Emma Watson

Rihanna 

Megan Fox

Nicki Minaj 

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Please Please Please have a little read and tell me what you think???

Chapter 5 is LIVE.  Please check it out, I will see this story through. It means too much to me personally to leave it unfinished. As always, thank you to @tdgal1 for being a fantastic friend and beta!  Once again thank you for my beautiful banner @magda1102 I still am in love with it! Tagging: @tdgal1 @green-arrows-of-karamel @laurabelle2930 @mogirl97 @smkkbert @diggo26 @mortallock @smoakandarrow @hope-for-olicity @thebookjumper @lgtwinkie99  @muslimsmoak @almondblossomme @luvtheheaven @darkphoenix16 @zeldamazing @littlemisswkd @cainc3 @olicity @otpwriteratheart @memcjo @wanhanis99 @idreamindisneyandpink @unknownsubscribers @arrow-through-my-writers-block @arrowgirl23 @mc-murphy-80 @lageniuswannabe @marriedolicityqueen @nerdfangirl1996 @iwillfeelinfinite @wanhani @arrowversefandom @arrowgirl333 @mrsqueenallen1313 @laurabelle2930  @magda1102 @someonesaidcake

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Life Cleanse - What I Did

Deep clean your room - I’m talking about stripping the bed, going through clothes, papers, and belongings and having no mercy. Sweeping and damp mopping the floors. Dusting surfaces. Finding new homes for those miscellaneous items that just sit there in the way.

Delete old contacts - I went from having maybe 30-40 contacts to 14. In other words, delete contacts you haven’t messaged or called in the last two weeks to a month (if so long). If they text you don’t be afraid or feel guilty for asking who it is.

Go through your music library - Play all your songs and if you skip a song delete it without hesitation. The next time you hit shuffle on your playlist you won’t even notice it’s gone. What if you get in the mood for the song? That’s what YouTube is for my friend… or just add the song back onto your phone.

Go through clothes - That dress you haven’t worn once in the past year- toss it. The shirt you swear fits if you don’t raise your arms- get rid of it. Those worn out clothes- dump them. *Of course there can be exceptions but within reason.

Journal - Write down any thoughts to cleanse your mind. Any ideas you might have. Good things that happened that day. Bad things that happened. Things you’re grateful for. It helps so much. Try it for at least three days straight and you’ll notice how much better you feel. Problems might not disappear completely but it’ll give you the strength to get through another day.

Don’t try to force things to work out - It’s so hard and it can be upsetting when things don’t, but sometimes the best thing you can do for you is accept the way (some)things are.

Don’t be hard on yourself for messing up -  It can be easy to physically or mentally punish yourself for making a mistake no matter how big or small, but I’ve learned that doing things like starving yourself, beating yourself  up (literally), or just scolding yourself repeatedly doesn’t improve the situation and it doesn’t improve yourself.

Cut toxic people off - Remove them from your life physically (which sometimes takes time). Unfriend them from social media. Remove prominent traces of them from your life. It’s like suddenly a weight comes off of your shoulders.

Practice self love -  I write/say this so often and sometimes I feel like it’s so hard to do sometimes but it’s not. I’m talking about taking a break when you need to. Drinking water. Moisturising your skin. Getting enough sleep. It’s the little things like that that count as self love.

Don’t runaway from your problems - It’s tempting and hard but it’s important to face any problems you’re facing. No one is saying you have to be strong 24/7, only that you should try.

Delete old files - Go through you computer, tablet, phone, USB drive etc. Delete old unimportant documents, old photos, music, apps and more.

Promo: Like or interested in my tips and want to contribute yourself? Check out my new project Illuminate! Even if you don’t apply, please pass it along to those you think would be interested. Thank you!

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Mental Health & Assault POST I battle with Anxiety & Depression everyday. You look at me and think she’s happy and carefree.  In fact, I am quite the opposite.  I am constantly thinking 102 different things at any given moment. Every decision I have made or will make,  I analyse in excruciating detail and keep a smile on my face at the same time. I have friends and family, but that does not stop me from feeling alone. I want help when I am spiralling but asking for help is something I am incapable of. I am learning to let people in and not sabotage myself. However, this is a long term process and will not happen over night! I was assaulted earlier this year. This does not and will not ever define me for as long as i live! I have days where I cry, sleep and pretend not to care that the people who assaulted me walk free with no repercussions.  Does this make me weak? Maybe, but I know that getting out of bed and facing the world makes me a fighter. I have faced hardship, my biggest insecurity is caused by another person punching my teeth out. Yet I choose to see the beauty that my teeth aren’t perfect but they are a part of me and the assault is my story. I am not a victim. Depression, Anxiety, Insomnia and PTSD smothered me for a very long period of time post the attack.  I struggled for a long time with depression and anxiety a long time before my assault and it is nothing to be ashamed of.  The pictures above were me recently where I decided to reflect on my life and mental health problems.  I let myself be free and I want you to do the same. Go travel, go enjoy your life without any stigma.  I promise you.  IT GETS BETTER! I am here to tell anyone and everyone that YOUR mental health does not define you and I encourage you to tell your story! Even if this posts helps one person it will have been worth it. So that is it. This is ME. Signing off. Sara xoxo Big thank you to my wonderful friends who helped in one of the most difficult times of my life!  Whether through direct messaging, liking a post or even your writing you have helped in some way. I am forever grateful!.  @tdgal1 @diggo26 @laurabelle2930 @charlinert @mainenaturaldesign @magda1102 @callistawolf @mogirl97 @mortallock @dust2dust34 @smoakandarrow @smkkbert @someonesaidcake

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20 Questions

Tagged by the amazing @tdgal1 Nicknames:  Sarr

Height: 5′3″

Orientation: Straight

Nationality: Welsh (British)

Favorite fruit:  Pink Lady Apples

Favorite season: Summer

Favorite flower: Pink roses & Carnations

Favorite scent: Sea breeze/Ocean scents

Favorite color: Lilac/Purple

Favorite animal: Horses (land) & Dolphins (Sea)

Coffee, tea or hot chocolate: Cup of tea :)

Average hours of sleep:  7 +

Cat or dog person: Dog

Favorite fictional character: Felicity Smoak 

Number of blankets you sleep with: One

Dream Trip: The United States: LA, NYC, Florida etc.  Also Canada, particularly Vancouver... Australia, Santorini. I love travelling!!!

Blog created: Uhhh... this one was probably 4 years or so ago.

Number of followers: No clue, but not many.

Random fact: I have a degree but am now an apprentice :) 

Tagging: @laurabelle2930 @magda1102 @diggo26 @smoakandarrow

20 Questions

Tagged by the beautiful and wonderful @wherethereissmoak Nicknames: Carol

Height: 5′5″

Orientation: Straight

Nationality: American

Favorite fruit: bananas and apples

Favorite season: Spring

Favorite flower: Carnations

Favorite scent: Christmas trees fresh cut.

Favorite color: Blue and green

Favorite animal: Dolphins aare so smart.

Coffee, tea or hot chocolate: Coffee

Average hours of sleep:  About six but lately sleeping has bee tough.

Cat or dog person: Dog

Favorite fictional character: Felicity Smoak

Number of blankets you sleep with: One

Dream Trip:Ireland and Scotland

Blog created: I think 1.5 years?

Number of followers: 542

Random fact: I’m a optomist realist

Tagging: @bitchwhwifi  @memcjo  @hope-for-olicity  @turnupthemusicandscream

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Thank you, I still struggle and tend of put humour into the situation when talking about it but you got to make the best of a poor situation. I know I am innocent and that is what I focus on.

Thank you for saying those sweet things

Today I decided to put on some make up and faced the music. I am not going to let my self consciousness from being assaulted and having my teeth knocked out destroy me! My teeth are no longer the post braces great smile they were (on the bottom). But, I am lucky that for now my teeth haven’t died. I know I have a long journey ahead of me and I am most probably going to lose them in the future. BUT I will not let this define me, I am not the prettiest person or the kindest. But there is no one else out there who can replace me, I am tired of fighting a constant battle with self doubt and helplessness. I am moving on, the police aren’t taking any further action and I can only hope they cica takes my case. But regardless of the outcome, today I feel pretty in my mediocre body. My teeth are far from straight and I am embracing it!

Thank you to everyone who has messaged me kind words, re bloggers and even to the wonderful people I get to call my friends! You helped me through one of the most difficult times in my life so far and I am forever grateful! Also Olicity fics definitely help me escape! Oh and to everyone in the Olicity fandom you honestly helped just by being you! I am so glad o have the Arrow fandom and Olicity fandom in my life! I love you all!

Special thanks to @diggo26 @tdgal1 @laurabelle2930 @someonesaidcake @charlinert @magda1102 and everyone else who I cannot remember by user who messaged me, wrote a lovely fic and even just posted normally 👍🏻

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Thank you @magda1102 .... I never considered myself to be beautiful but I lost so much confidence in myself and who I was after this so to hear so many nice things from you and others has really gone a long way.

All my love ! ❤️

Today I decided to put on some make up and faced the music. I am not going to let my self consciousness from being assaulted and having my teeth knocked out destroy me! My teeth are no longer the post braces great smile they were (on the bottom). But, I am lucky that for now my teeth haven’t died. I know I have a long journey ahead of me and I am most probably going to lose them in the future. BUT I will not let this define me, I am not the prettiest person or the kindest. But there is no one else out there who can replace me, I am tired of fighting a constant battle with self doubt and helplessness. I am moving on, the police aren’t taking any further action and I can only hope they cica takes my case. But regardless of the outcome, today I feel pretty in my mediocre body. My teeth are far from straight and I am embracing it!

Thank you to everyone who has messaged me kind words, re bloggers and even to the wonderful people I get to call my friends! You helped me through one of the most difficult times in my life so far and I am forever grateful! Also Olicity fics definitely help me escape! Oh and to everyone in the Olicity fandom you honestly helped just by being you! I am so glad o have the Arrow fandom and Olicity fandom in my life! I love you all!

Special thanks to @diggo26 @tdgal1 @laurabelle2930 @someonesaidcake @charlinert @magda1102 and everyone else who I cannot remember by user who messaged me, wrote a lovely fic and even just posted normally 👍🏻

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Today I decided to put on some make up and faced the music. I am not going to let my self consciousness from being assaulted and having my teeth knocked out destroy me! My teeth are no longer the post braces great smile they were (on the bottom). But, I am lucky that for now my teeth haven’t died. I know I have a long journey ahead of me and I am most probably going to lose them in the future. BUT I will not let this define me, I am not the prettiest person or the kindest. But there is no one else out there who can replace me, I am tired of fighting a constant battle with self doubt and helplessness. I am moving on, the police aren’t taking any further action and I can only hope they cica takes my case. But regardless of the outcome, today I feel pretty in my mediocre body. My teeth are far from straight and I am embracing it!

Thank you to everyone who has messaged me kind words, re bloggers and even to the wonderful people I get to call my friends! You helped me through one of the most difficult times in my life so far and I am forever grateful! Also Olicity fics definitely help me escape! Oh and to everyone in the Olicity fandom you honestly helped just by being you! I am so glad o have the Arrow fandom and Olicity fandom in my life! I love you all!

Special thanks to @diggo26 @tdgal1 @laurabelle2930 @someonesaidcake @charlinert @magda1102 and everyone else who I cannot remember by user who messaged me, wrote a lovely fic and even just posted normally 👍🏻

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Today I decided to put on some make up and faced the music. I am not going to let my self consciousness from being assaulted and having my teeth knocked out destroy me! My teeth are no longer the post braces great smile they were (on the bottom). But, I am lucky that for now my teeth haven’t died. I know I have a long journey ahead of me and I am most probably going to lose them in the future. BUT I will not let this define me, I am not the prettiest person or the kindest. But there is no one else out there who can replace me, I am tired of fighting a constant battle with self doubt and helplessness. I am moving on, the police aren’t taking any further action and I can only hope they cica takes my case. But regardless of the outcome, today I feel pretty in my mediocre body. My teeth are far from straight and I am embracing it! Thank you to everyone who has messaged me kind words, re bloggers and even to the wonderful people I get to call my friends! You helped me through one of the most difficult times in my life so far and I am forever grateful! Also Olicity fics definitely help me escape! Oh and to everyone in the Olicity fandom you honestly helped just by being you! I am so glad o have the Arrow fandom and Olicity fandom in my life! I love you all! Special thanks to @diggo26 @tdgal1 @laurabelle2930 @someonesaidcake @charlinert @magda1102 and everyone else who I cannot remember by user who messaged me, wrote a lovely fic and even just posted normally 👍🏻

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Thank you so much ! Sorry I’m late to posting my thank you. The fact you went out of your way to post this means the world. You’re amazing!!! Xxx

@turnupthemusicandscream  Happy birthday, Sara.  Big hugs and love.

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Tag Game

1 insecurity:

-My weight

2 fears:

- Snakes!

- Being lost (as in like a place I don’t know, so like a maze)

3 turn-ons:

- humour

- blue eyes

- confidence

4 life goals:

- Graduate with a BSc in Psychology

- Have Children

- Travel new places

- Feel confident & successful in my self !

5 things i like:

- Food

- Tv Shows

- Going to Conventions

- Going Abroad

- Reading

6 weakness:

- Too trusting

- Maths (I’m awful)

- I’m very sensitive & emotional

- Too forgiving

- Too generous at times

- I rely on company and don’t like change

7 things i love:

- Horse riding

- Sunbathing/ being on holiday

- Trying new things

- Being with friends

- Music

- Olicity

- My Niece

8 people to tag:

@tdgal1 @charlinert @laurabelle2930 @memcjo @arrow-through-my-writers-block @diggo26 @mogirl97 @callistawolf

Tag Game

tagged by @zophora ❤️ thank you!!!

one insecurity:

my attitude

two fears:

being alone like forgotten about, disappointing people

three turn-ons:

someone who can be dorky, a good sense of humor, can hold a steady conversation

four life goals:

to make my parents proud, to be truly independent, to be remembered as a good person, help anyone i can

five things i like:

to make somebody smile, to make someone laugh, to sleep, to sing, try new food

six weakness:

i get frustrated easily, i don’t know when to be quite, i don’t quite trust people, i am a little too friendly, i can get really moody and just shut out everyone, i don’t really share my feelings with people

seven things i love:

to be surrounded by good people, music i can dance to, spending time with my family, to eat with my family, have a conversation with someone, succeeding in something and proving someone wrong, improve

eight people to tag:

@shurienough @flowering-parker @thatssocharissa @the-quackson-claxon @beautifullydisconnected @dearcindymoon @afilmbypeterparkr

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tagged by @tdgal1

Relationship status: Single Pringle 💁🏼

Favourite colours: Lilac & Purples

Top three ships: Oliver and Felicity (Arrow), Meredith and Derek (Greys Anatomy) & Rachel and Finn (glee)

Lipstick or chapstick - chapstick- although I’m welsh so lip balm ... or Vaseline 😍

Last song listened to: A little too much - Shawn Mendes

Currently reading: Book: George Orwell’s 1984.

I love fan fiction, like have a bunch that I’m reading and waiting on updates but last ones I read earlier were:

Time for a story : a stable series by @smkkbert

&

Killer frost smoak by @tdgal1

Tagging : @diggo26 @laurabelle2930 @mogirl97 @memcjo @charlinert @smkkbert @arrow-through-my-writers-block

source: memcjo

tagged by @smoaking-greenarrow

Relationship status: Happily married

Favourite colours: green, teal, and blue

Top three ships: Oliver and Felicity, Lucy and Wyatt, Chuck and Sarah

Lipstick or chapstick - lipstick

Last song listened to: 

Currently reading: Literally in the middle of Say Something I’m Giving Up on You and I love fanfiction.

Tagging “ @cruzrogue  @mel-loves-all  @turnupthemusicandscream

source: memcjo

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So... I found an temporary escape from what’s been going on. Would appreciate it if any one wants to check it out and let me know their thoughts.  Tagging my friends from this account & @turnupthemusicandscream … (I use two accounts and often get confused and do the wrong things in the wrong one… I am human and stupid). @tdgal1 @green-arrows-of-karamel @diggo26 @hope-for-olicity@mogirl97@mogirl97  @laurabelle2930 @smoakandarrow @smkkbert @mortallock@mogirl97 @lgtwinkie99 @thebookjumper @bitchwhwifi @muslimsmoak@almondblossomme @magda1102 @luvtheheaven @darkphoenix16@zeldamazing @littlemisswkd @cainc3  @otpwriteratheart  @memcjo@wanhanis99 @idreamindisneyandpink @arrow-through-my-writers-block@someonesaidcake   @arrowgirl23 @mc-murphy-80 @lageniuswannabe @marriedolicityqueen@nerdfangirl1996 @iwillfeelinfinite @wanhani @arrowversefandom@arrowgirl333 @mrsqueenallen1313

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@magda1102 thank you so so much! I needed that more than you can imagine. You actually made me cry!

Thank you for being so sweet. One day at a time and with people like you there I’m sure it won’t be too long!

Thank you for being you!

All my love !!! Sara

I took this photo today. 2 weeks ago I was assaulted & had my front 2 teeth knocked out. The last two weeks have been difficult in terms of my physical injuries and emotional well-being. I have had anxiety attacked and nightmares. The guilty party was let go with no charge & I cannot escape them only go to the horse farm at different times to avoid them. My horse is in foal which is why moving is not an option. I spent 5 years in braces to have my teeth straightened and I was confident with my self. Now, the above photo my confident smile has gone and so has my self esteem:

This photo is what I want people to see but without the above caption I am positive no one would realise how much damage is there is in reality. I’m struggling with my depression and anxiety & feel like I’ve lost control. Yet, no one would guess unless they know me.

I wanted to post this as an example of don’t judge a book by its cover. You may think you know someone but you never really can know for sure. I went out with more than one friend at time tonight for the first time since the assault. I got ready and took the photo. Then I had a panic attack about what if the attackers were out or if someone does it to me again. Please please be kind to everyone & remember that you are allowed to tell your story!

Thank you to my wonderful friends who have listened and tried their best to help. I honestly don’t know what I would do without the Olicity fandom and the friends I’ve made. Even your fics have helped me start to feel normal again. The only thing that hasn’t failed me is reading fics, I lost interest in everything else but your writing has kept me in mind head when I very much needed we out of my body. To every writer of fanfic and particularly the fics I read, your work means more to me than you can imagine!

Xoxo Sara

@diggo26 @magda1102 @tdgal1 @someonesaidcake @charlinert @olicity @arrow-through-my-writers-block @smoakandarrow @felicityssoliver @dust2dust34 @mogirl97 @mortallock

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Thank you @tdgal1 ! You’re always there for me, on this account & smoakingarrow19 account!

One of the hardest parts is feeling helpless and that no one (police/solicitors) will do anything.... my concern is what if the next person is younger than me or their mother isn’t there to try protect them like mine is

Again thank you! Xxx

I took this photo today. 2 weeks ago I was assaulted & had my front 2 teeth knocked out. The last two weeks have been difficult in terms of my physical injuries and emotional well-being. I have had anxiety attacked and nightmares. The guilty party was let go with no charge & I cannot escape them only go to the horse farm at different times to avoid them. My horse is in foal which is why moving is not an option. I spent 5 years in braces to have my teeth straightened and I was confident with my self. Now, the above photo my confident smile has gone and so has my self esteem:

This photo is what I want people to see but without the above caption I am positive no one would realise how much damage is there is in reality. I’m struggling with my depression and anxiety & feel like I’ve lost control. Yet, no one would guess unless they know me.

I wanted to post this as an example of don’t judge a book by its cover. You may think you know someone but you never really can know for sure. I went out with more than one friend at time tonight for the first time since the assault. I got ready and took the photo. Then I had a panic attack about what if the attackers were out or if someone does it to me again. Please please be kind to everyone & remember that you are allowed to tell your story!

Thank you to my wonderful friends who have listened and tried their best to help. I honestly don’t know what I would do without the Olicity fandom and the friends I’ve made. Even your fics have helped me start to feel normal again. The only thing that hasn’t failed me is reading fics, I lost interest in everything else but your writing has kept me in mind head when I very much needed we out of my body. To every writer of fanfic and particularly the fics I read, your work means more to me than you can imagine!

Xoxo Sara

@diggo26 @magda1102 @tdgal1 @someonesaidcake @charlinert @olicity @arrow-through-my-writers-block @smoakandarrow @felicityssoliver @dust2dust34 @mogirl97 @mortallock