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I'll be just fine avoiding the truth

I don't want to know And i don't NEED to know Certain thoughts And certain feelings Of certain people About you

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silly little things

I want your lips to be the last thing i taste before falling asleep And i want your kisses to wake me up in the morning sun I want to sleep by your side Every night And have breakfast with you Every day And i want sex in the shower and your smile against my neck And to feel your breath when you speak because you like being that close to me But what i want the most Is to know if you feel the same

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Cold feet

My feet are so cold

my head feels so slow

I hate being alone

please come back home

My bed looks so empty

without you inside of it

the blankets lay on me

but i feel no warm

I never thought 

i’d miss you this much

I never thought

one day i would crave your touch

I never thought

I could be so in love

and I never thought 

it could hurt so much

Where’s your body?

The one that hold me before

Where’s your body?

I forgot how to sleep alone

Where’s your body?

I can’t stand this no more

Where’s your body?

Tonight your loss I will mourn

I never thought

i’d miss you this much

I never thought

one day i would crave your touch

I never thought

I could be so in love

and I never thought

it could hurt so much, so much, so much.

Love could hurt so much, so much, so much... 

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Hi. Your writing inspires me to get up some mornings. Some day I was to make art with words like that.

the more i read this message the surer i am this is sarcasm but hey thank you for taking your time to write it

and just in case it wasn’t: thank you. I truly don’t know how anyone could possibly think what i post is “art”, but thank you. 

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"Used to" are ugly words

We used to be so close... You were the reason I woke up everyday 'Cause all the pain in my chest, you throwed it away But now you're now just a strange voice in my head That even when I try my best Only tells me I should be dead I try to be strong Swimming to the day to come But sometimes it's just too much And I wish you still were by my side We used to be so close... What the hell happened to us?

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M

I'm so glad we've met

in this thing called "the internet",

'cause it doesn't matter what they say,

I know this friendship isn't going to fade away.

I was only 14 and she was 21

when I read her for the first time.

And who could have told me then

that my life was gonna change so much because of her?

But then she showed me her insides,

and I felt really happy to be alive,

'cause she and I connected at first sight

and I couldn't have let her go even if I tried

She has taught me so much,

about life, people and my own past;

in her I found myself

and who I want to be at her age.

She's seen the best and the worst of me,

and she never judged but listened carefully.

'Cause she's always been there

when I needed her to,

she never disappears

like the rest of them do.

And I don't think she's ever noticed it,

but she's the friend and sister I always wanted.

'Cause she makes me feel alive,

and I want to keep her forever by my side.

Now I know that I was meant to found M

and trust in her until the very end.

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Live today

Knowing that someday you’re gonna die

slowly kills me inside

But you’ll eventualy cease to exist,

not even I can’t help this

So hurry up and live today,

before time takes your life away.

Don’t stop to think about what you say or how you act

just live fast and hard and don’t ever look back.

Make your life worth it all the time

so you don’t regret it if tomorrow you die.

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Today I thought

Today I thought again,

about how much I missed you then.

About the touch of your skin,

and how blessed it made me feel

Today I thought about my past,

when I coud hardly breathe.

I'm still surprised I held on for so long

when I just wanted to be dead and gone.

About the amount of tears I shed for you,

about those times when I thought I couldn't make it through.

About the times when I wanted to cut my wrists

and finally cease to exist.

And about the day I suddenly felt

that I had to stop feelig dead.

About the day I smiled to my friends

for the first time in too many years.

And about the day he leaned into me

and gave me my first kiss.

And about how from then,

I never cried for you again.

Today I thought about the day I realized

that some people wanted me to rise.

That I hadn't been alone,

not even when you left me on my own.

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Ho(l)-m-e

Home

I want to leave this empty place

full of empty people

with empty thougths and empty souls

‘cause if I stay here for too long

i’ll be empty again,

just like all of them

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secondhand sadness

secondhand sadness is the second-worst thing: the line between our feelings blurs, since nothing for her is going right my own life—full to bursting— feigns emptiness to match hers, which almost convinces me. not quite.

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Little turtle

I walk down the corridors,

look through the doors,

and what I see never changes,

your wrist are always hidden.

And I slowly realized

that the more you paint your eyes

the more you cut last night.

‘Case you try to fake your smile,

but I know you better than that.

Even though we don’t talk that much,

I know how you feel about your life.

And I want to be that something that saves you,

that makes you feel less alone.

I want you to know that you’re not a failure,

that you don’t have to walk on your own.

But I can’t blame you for being so blind,

‘cause it also happened to me all the time.

But I know you’re gonna get better, like I did,

‘cause you’re just a younger version of me.

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Box opened. You can now ask me whatever you want! Hooray!

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Wonders

Our eyes cross

and for a moment, I get lost;

thinking about who you were once,

and who you're gonna become.

'Cause there's so much I want to know

about your past, about your thoughts.

And I know it's not my business,

but my questions grow and grow.

I wonder how old you were when you first shaved

or who was the lady who won your first kiss,

what your first word was,

and if you often think about your past,

I want to know how it felt leaving home,

if you were scared, all in your own;

what did your mother sing to you

so you felt asleep as soon as the sky became dark blue.

And curiosity might kill me inside,

but i'm never gonna know any of those things.

Some secrets aren't meant to be known

so i'll close my eyes and let my imagination work.

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Loneliness comes in pairs

I walk this path alone,

just because you do.

I can’t talk to anyone

and this helpless feeling

makes life harder to go through.

And I hate it,

feeling so useless

but I can’t help it,

'cause you keep pushing me away

even when you say you want me to stay.

Should I try to act like you?

Make you feel so useless too?

Maybe if I did

your eyes would see what mines do,

and you would understand

why i’m trying so hard to bring you back to life again

'Cause it hurts to know that you're alive

even if you wanna die,

bleeding on the inside

because of this world full of lies.

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Stay

I’m trying to let you know

that you don’t have to walk alone;

that i’m still here, 

and i’m not going anywhere,

hoping that someday

i’ll see your beautiful smile again.

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Open Your Eyes (the pressure of being strong for the two of us is going to finish me)

I hope you could see,

by the light in my eyes,

that I won’t let you be

alone in the dark tonight. 

'Cause i'm trying to be strong for the two of us,

but it makes me feel so alone

that I don’t know for how long this will last

until my mind tears up on its own.

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Darkness isn't meant to stay forever

I still don’t know when things got so far,

and I just wish we hadn’t been so blind.

But I still have hope in you

so please, don’t let win the blue.

'Cause I want you to see the stars,

not the dark,

when you look at the sky;

I want you to see the light,

not only the black,

just like I do when you’re by my side.

And if that day finally comes,

i’ll thank you for staying strong.

And we’ll lay in the grass,

and we’ll look at the bright sky,

and you’ll smile,

and everything will be alright.

Everything will be alright.

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