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My Biggest (Realistic) Fear... Realized.

This post was written on February 17, 2024. As of 2 days ago, 34,000 people in tech, media, and advertising have been laid off. I am now one of those people. As the main income provider for my family, this has been my biggest fear. That makes sense, right – without a steady income, how do we live? How would we manage without that paycheck every two weeks? How would we save for college? Save…

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Journal Entry #7... Thanksgiving edition

One year later. Isn’t it funny how life brings unresolved lessons back to you? Thanksgiving just passed. It was the first Thanksgiving holiday with my family since 2019, and it was as I anticipated. My parents ‘family’ was together as they requested; they wanted everyone together. I am not clear if it was to see how everyone would relate or to hopefully squeeze one more holiday season altogether…

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Welcome, New Year.

We had a quiet and kinda perfect New Years celebration- family dinner out. After, N’s friends came over while B spent the evening elsewhere with hers. A fire, an Italian film with subtitles lead us to the big count down. Yet, something is off.. 10, 9, 8… the holiday let down was coming in fast. 7, 6, 5… my sister acted as if I don’t exist this week, and my parents enable it. 4, 3, 2… here it…

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Journal #6: Mediation Memories

Journal #6: Mediation Memories

N came home from school this weekend. He was here for 5 days and I enjoyed each minute. I had a deeper appreciation for time with our family partly because of his absence and partly due to a recent, unexpected death within our extended family. We attended the funeral last weekend – my parents did not attend. My sister did and as I understand it, she arrived late after a previous engagement and…

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Journaling #4

Not sure where to begin today. It’s been a few weeks. One of my dearest and lifelong friends lost a family member. My own recent loss still near the skin, so this week brought up recent memories of strained and, maybe, bad decisions. While this memory is centered on me and part of my experience with this loss, I am aware that during times like this, when a central family figure dies, many people…

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Journaling... #3

Journaling… #3

Spring is springing in my neighborhood. Trees are coming back to life with colorful blossoms. Yellows, whites, pinks and purples dot the the perimeters of the homes nearby. Its reaffirming, spirit lifting and so needed. Image from ILoveNewYork.com Tulip Festival I am sitting in a state of contented happiness today. Typing away in the just completed home office (after two years of covid remote…

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Journaling ...#2

Journaling …#2

December 2020. To set the stage, as if we really need a reminder, this holiday season was during many lockdowns, as there were no vaccines available yet. The recommendation was to not be with family for this holiday season, especially if family included seniors and kids. This holiday was also at peak “stolen election” frenzy, prior to the insurrection. Given the political divide, I was very…

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Journaling...entry #1

Journaling…entry #1

That argument changed everything. It had a seismic impact on me, him, us. And that is important to get to. But it also dropped a veil on how I’ve been handling everything. Which is to say, not as well as I thought. I type faster than I write, I think more clearly when I type. So in lieu of a journal, and because putting more beauty content in the word will not really help anyone, I am going to…

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Today was a good day.

Today was a good day.

I do not love the hype around New Years resolutions. They are part of the negative diet culture I try to avoid. Rather, I try to exemplify a positive balanced look at food and exercise for my teen daughter. Try. Some days are better than others. Today was one of those days that I lived up to that statement. On NY’s coldest day in over three years, I woke up in the deep dark night (5:45am) to…

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A is for Acids

A is for Acids

Understanding the acids in our skincare… AHA’s can be derivative of lemons and oranges with brightening benefits for your skin. I needed some new skincare. It’s a NY January, and the air is cold and dry. Add to this our renovation, and all the dust. I went to the usual suspects to find some new treatments and moisturizers to help and was overwhelmed with lingo and jargon. So here is a first…

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Papilio ulysses by Johan J.Ingles-Le Nobel on Flickr.

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cushion pile… by rose hip… on Flickr.

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One more summer night. #bye summer 2017! #readyforfall #notreally

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Steak, it's what's for dinner. #redemption #notburnt