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King of Sadness

I am a King, the King of Sadness. A King nonetheless. With a gaping whole in the chest, You can’t see it, but it exists. I can’t explain this. I don’t need to, I am a King.

Do not pity me, I am a King, I rule over this thing That makes you feel pity for me. I’ve conquered all of which occur I have, but not anymore. All the pain, guilt, blame All the embarrassment and the shame All the wrongs and the “don’ts” I’ve done All the good I’ve sacrificed to have some fun Am I having fun now? I can’t tell I am a King This is my Kingdom I rule over the seas of loneliness, The highlands of insobriety, The sandy land of murder of self, The grassy plains of neglection, rejection, self deprecating hatred. I am it’s ruler. But I wish I was cooler. Or less ugly, inside or out, either would do. Even in this lifeless, empty kingdom. I am still the least fairest. Less fair than all the unjust, immoral demons that reside. In fact, that’s all this kingdom has Demons. My demons. Yet, the ugliest thing to occupy this space. Is my face.

When was I crowned? I was always the King, never a prince. I was King ever since, I could understand and comprehend, All the weighted responsibilities I have. When I realized the mass amount of burden that subsists Not the burden I must carry, More so, the burden I would be. But, how can a King be a burden? I burden the kingdom, with greed. I want to burn it to the ground. All of it. But these demons keep putting it out. It’s all they have, I’m all they have. My disloyal subjects. So selfish, but they need me. Who else can they haunt and torture? I’m sure it’s my warmth. My body temperature, My warm nature, I’m a warm person, in every sense of the phrase At least I like to think so. They get too close and steal all the heat. Leaving me cold, It gets too cold. Even for a KIng. I am a King, The King of Sadness Sad and ugly. An ugly kind of sad. Sadness is my Kingdom Lifeless, No...the Demons aren’t alive. They’re in my head and in my heart. Come to think of it......... everything is. Please don’t question me....I am a King.

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You’re pretty....gorgeous.

I just wanted to tell you how pretty you are,

I can’t lie, I haven’t seen you within hands reach

Been years, since I got off stage. And you were there.

And I just wanted say how pretty you are.

This is not a lecture or a pre-written speech.

Not flirtatious nor a compliment. Cus you don’t care.

I just wanted to show you how pretty you are.

You look so pretty when you sing and play guitar.

You’re a pretty good dancer.

Your pretty hands make pretty art of your pretty self,

Or your thoughts, stories and dreams.

They make you who your are.

A pretty cool human being.

I just wanted you to know how pretty you are.

What? I blind? Too kind? Too obsessed? Too immature?

shut the fuck up!! U pretty! Das Yo bad!!

*ahem*...excuse me...I’m sorry

Let me just wipe the drool off my face.

Cus I gazed too hard at the outlines of your body.

Was that too out of place?

You think you look prettiest when you cry? I feel like thats a lie.

Yes yes, I know this is shallow.

However, I’m not done yet.

Your characteristics and the way you look are pretty.

But what is beautiful to me

Is the thought of how you’d look;

Looking at me beneath this moonlight as I write for you,

With pretty eyes; eyes that crave and care for me.

So, of all your features that make you gorgeous,

Your looks come second

To how you make me wonder.

Sincerely,

towchow23

P.S. I can’t wait to speak to you so I can tell you

How pretty your voice makes you.

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My cover of the intro to Little Wing by Jimi Hendrix

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“I get discouraged, cause you treat me just like a child. And they say I’m so shy, yeah, but with you I just go wild,” Prince, I Wanna Be Your Lover (1979)

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I wanna turn you on, turn you out, all night long make you shout. I wanna be the only one you come for.

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“I’m waiting for that feeling To Come”

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We are human, after all. What we want is love And What we need is understanding. Yet, all we crave Is money and peace in our grave. What we yearn, is 10 times what we earn. What we share, is not mutual respect. But greed and envy. What else do you expect? We are human, after all. - TowChow

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Ugly

I am not the dirt of the world, I am the bringer of the dirt, this dirt I hold. I am not peace, Though I am not it's bringer, I am it's singer. Even though it is not what my actions release. I sing the anthem of sorrow, so vacant, so hollow, I am a piece of soil, that will spoil. Your day, your night. But do not mean to, I want to be true For You, so very beautiful to me. Then why am I so damn ugly? I hate this mirror I face, A spate of thoughts that constantly debate, within my mind, within my chest, when to give in, when to rest, when to run away from the heat of this sun, into the darkness I hide, beside the thought of how beautiful you are to me, and it hits me abruptly Then tell me, why am I so damn ugly? And this mirror i face, is only a Disgrace, for I stand in place of it's reflection A rejection, A deception, I have done To none But myself, And I will always be to blame, And this mirror a flame, "And I love", I tell This mirror, I bid you farewell. But you will always be so beautiful to me, and so subtly you show me, Why am I so damn ugly.

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When I run after what I think I want, my days are a furnace of stress and anxiety; if I sit in my own place of patience, what I need flows to me, and without pain. From this I understand that what I want also wants me, is looking for me and attracting me. There is a great secret here for anyone who can grasp it. »» ❤•.¸Rumi¸.•❤ ««

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Don’t you dare fucking touch my heart unless you plan to stay.

(via howtobesadforever)

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The energy of youth. Was the only truth.

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