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I kinda thought that i’d moved past this point of my life but i’ve slipped back into food deprivation again. it’s almost comforting in a way because it makes me believe im going to really going to get skinny and have my dream body. i’ve been using myfitnesspal to log all my calories and i really love it because when you’ve logged all your calories and completed it, it predicts how much you’ll weigh the next month and it makes me so excited to carry on so i can reach that weight.

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New diet

Ok so I’m starting this new diet that apparently helps you lose fat super quickly.

I’m cutting out

All grains

Potatoes

Cereal

All bread

Pasta

All sweets

Bananas

And I’m not drinking any soft drinks

Wish me luck

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I just followed this recipe and they are really good wow 😻

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Not me but today all I ate was 5 falafels and 2 oranges:) I binged 1 marks and Spencer’s spaghetti dinner and a bowl of pesto pasta but I threw it all up so that doesn’t count. I’m super proud of myself and I feel like I’m finally on the right track.

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Those legs 🥵

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I wish

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I exercised today! I feel really good about myself , while I still have the fears of gaining weight I feel more capable and my life isn’t ruled by the constant food obsession. I know that I need to loose weight for modelling but now I know I can do it in a healthier way. Haha just kidding, I did do Muay Thai today but I haven’t eaten in nearly 3 days!!:) I will NOT BE FAT and you’re not gonna be either.

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It’s meh

I made myself sick twice today, I’m not sure how I feel. Normally I feel so good after I purge but I didn’t feel good afterwards today. I feel weak and really shaky. I want to be thinner but it feels like I’m not getting there. I feel so lost and I just want someone to notice I’m not ok. I need to be thinner but ugh I don’t know it just feels wrong

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My dream body

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Look at that thigh gap 🤤🤤

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I love kaia gerber a true skinny legend

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Good news!!

I’ve got a contract with a modelling agency!!:) only thing is they want me to lose weight an inch around the hips an inch around my waist and tone up my arms:) I can do that easy peasy, in fact I’ll lose more than that I’ll be better than what they want because I’m committed to this and I need to show them that.