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Paint chipped off in the shape of an eye

My first thought was bill cypher for some reason

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just woke up and i had a dream where my law teacher replaced herself with an animatronic who looks like a normal young woman (long black hair, probably asian but idk, normal teacher clothes) and the animatronic killed you if you broke the rules on her class 3 times (phone, cheating, no uniform or outside shoes). Like on our first say with her she killed someone right infront of everybody(incinirated a girl/woman with a laser beam, only ashes left) so we were all terrified. and i already managed to break the rules twice? once when i SOMEHOW hid my phone in my hair, but it fell out and my classmate who sat next to me(which was random cuz we're not even close) caught the phone and tried to hide it without her noticing but she did and i got a strike. the other time i dont remember. And on our third day with her teaching, i came to school in my home clothing for some reason?? was wearing the cyan shirt and green pants I've got on right now. so obvi that wasn't the uniform and our class had law as the second period so on the first one i was just spamming my mom to text our homeroom teacher that I have a stomachache so that i can go home cuz i dont wanna die but my mom doesn't read the messages and like my classmates are already mourning me or whatevs but i woke up before it happened lol

Also somewhere in-between allat our class flew to Europe for some reason with our English teacher???? but my bff wasnt with us so i was walking alone n i got lost but i just followed 2 girls and we found the rest of the class. and all that was happening at night?

Oh and on the third day when i went to school in my home clothes, i was literally walking outside, in winter, at probably like -17°C in a T-shirt and was completely fine somehow

my mom said i had a weird dream cuz of the heat cuz i fell asleep at 2pm-6pm right next to the radiator

^ and i had like 4 hours of sleep this night which is probably a normal amount for the ppl on this app but i usually sleep for 6 hours so i was a bit ... sloggy? I think that's the word

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just ditched some boring school trip with my friend and it felt oddly good lol i feel like a child who just said a bad word for the first time yk

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yeah so today i forgot that the human body does in fact need food to function so i was just sitting at the art club praying i dont faint or something lol

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When you lowkey hate a character while watching the show but then the guy fucking dies and now suddenly you care about him

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CAT

This shit lowkey focuses on everything but the damn cat it annoys me but whatevs. Also was taking this pic at home so I actually got an okay angle ahah

Anyway turns out I was also supposed to name this and like what??? Wtf do i call this thing??? Like it's just a cat sleeping on a keyboard 😞 I panicked and just wrote "Modern cats" on the back '-' it's shit i kinda hate that but like i had no other ides lol. Actually there was one, "The modernisation of cats" but i have no idea what the word modernisation means, i just liked how it sounds so i decided not to use it.

Anyway about the paining process, idk i just watched julian & friends and lethal company letsplays. When I was done with the pencil stuff i was thinking abt colouring it with watercolours but the details were kinda intimidating so i went with gouache but I had like no gouache left and i didnt feel like buying more so i found a pack of like ... at least 9 years old gouache cans and that paint was *SOLID* so I poured boiling water in it but that did literally nothing so i just gave up but turns out im just an impatient fuck cuz it was perfect the next day lol. Like it was better than my newest gouache pack.

Also I was drawing the lighting in here at random cuz i confused myself with the 'out of frame lamp light' and the laptop light so now it just looks weird but oh well. Lowkey hate how the cat and the background look like they were drawn in like ... different styles???? Like the cat was me putting random dots while everything else is me putting random lines but uh that one's not too bad i hope. Also made the outside in the window too light. Ooh speaking of the outside tho there were supposed to be tree branches in like .. the foreground??? of the window?? but by the time i was done with the windows i didn't feel like drawing them

Aaa and the earphones' wire is supposed to be chewed through but it kinda just looks like I accidentally painted over it with yellow??? I should've made the gap bigger lol.

But great now because of that window i wanna draw a night sky in a city which would make no sense i guess cuz in a city there are no fucking stars at all??? Like I know about light pollution and all, but I SWEAR there used to be at least some occasional stars?? Now I'm lucky if I see one. One time we went on a car trip at night, which we don't usually do, and the AMOUNT OF FUCKING STARS OUTSIDE THE CITY???? LIKE OH MY GOD????? THAT IS BEAUTIFUL. I really need to get out at some point just to stare at the sky ahah. Lowkey wanted to bleed out somewhere in a field lookign at the stars on that car trip. But like frfr I've painted stars a lot but it's like never enough. That reminds me of a thing i drew some months ago tho i might post it maybe? I'm just using this app to rant abt random shit and post the stuff i draw cuz it feels lowkey embarrassing to post it on my instagram ahah. Like ppl who actually know me would see that. That's just terrifying.

Also I'm not sure if you're supposed to lay gouache on that thick? It kinda feels like my art club teacher is avoiding me cuz like man always goes around giving pro tips and advice but never to me 😞 im lowkey unapproachable tho cuz for some reason when i was 12 i decided to just Not Socialise™ and people remember me like that so maybe it's that lol. I was lowkey dying on the inside when he was giving another student advice and it was basically "Do NOT do *everything I just did* EVER." like damn okay man

Anyway rant over, thank you for maybe reading. Jonathan out.

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Finally done with this i guess but anyway i was actually done with it last class but when I came to class today my teacher just wasnt there like i couldn't find him at all i even checked the staff door thing but he was just gone and i didn't know what to do cuz i was done with this painting but i couldn't just go and start a different one cuz i didnt know which one and well it just seemed weird i guess??? So after like 7 minutes of standing awkwardly waiting for him i just got an easel and started working on this one again but i had like no idea what to do so i sorta just sat there for one and a half hours putting random strokes to look like I'm doing something and hoping i dont accidentally ruin it but then he came back and like i COULD just go up to him and say like hey yo im done with this, what do i do now but like at tht point i already accepted my fate. Oh and also while i was sitting there i kinda discovered that i talk to myself in my head? Like i don't know i guess i just never noticed before that i have conversations with myself mentally but cool that was fun . And about the easel things, i just googled the word for those and it kinda bothered me while i was in class that i didn't know what it was called but anyway the tiny little room everyone was painting in was like pretty densely packed(as in 4 people . It's like really small, not THAT small but the giant table in the middle takes up a lot of space ) so it was really awkward trying to get to 'my' spot first of all, and second, my seat was like really close to another girl's easel so i was just really really worried about accidentally leaning back too far and bonking my head on it so that was awkward. Also my shoulders are in absolute fucking pain right now.

Oh and when I was taking the picture I was in a hurry cuz everyone started packing and i didn't wanna stay in the way too long so it turned out crooked and at a weird angle. I knew it would be crooked when I was taking the photo, but damn i didn't think it would be THAT bad. My favourite part of this thing is probably the bottom right corner. Oh and the things on the like uhm . Wtf is it called. Basically the lamp and the things in the painting kept fucking moving every day i came there so like the lightning n all is very inconsistent on the weird wooden thing so thats annoying but whatever i guess. Not sure what I'm gonna be drawing next but i'll prolly go with gouache cause the watercolours stressed the hell out of me. Oh and speaking of watercolours, my dad said that im laying it too thick and it looks like gouache and that im using it wrong but like when I draw it too transparent it feels incomplete??? :'I so idk

Anyway thomas out, thank you for maybe reading

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Hey not even a day on this app and I'm already being followed by a bot lol