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The things that I still love #11

The Twelve Kingdoms by Fuyumi Ono

Anime series and book colletion, also know as Juuni Kokuki. I'm still in the first book, but wishing to continue.

What is it about?

Yoko has been dragged to another world by a mysterious man. Due to some circusntances, they are separated and now Yoko has to survive on her own while trying to resolve the mystery around herself.

Reasons I like it...

I like the protagonist a lot, it is so flawed and so insecure. For the longest time, she's rejecting the world she was born from.

There's a character that doesn't want to go back home. Literally, she is doing everything she can to stay in this new world, because her life in earth was miserable.

I love the setting: people being born from trees, kirins choosing their leaders... It is nice to find some wordlbuilding that haven't used the usual niches.

The ceature design is beautiful.

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The things that I still love #10

Kind Words

My place to go whenever I feel overwhelmed by the world. From this tiny room you send letters to strangers with the hope of making their worlds better. How could I not love this game?

You can buy it on Steam.

What is it about?

A mail deer would present himself on your window asking for your help. He wants you to write letters to strangers around the world who need some encouragement. The only condition is to be kind to each other.

You can also post your worries and some gentle soul would answer with a few kind words.

Reasons I like it…

It makes me believe in humanity again.

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The things that I still love #9

Disco Elysium

Videogame focused on the narrative with mechanics of a tabletop role playing game. I'm going through my second play and I'm finding new things whenever I go. My main objective this time is to recover my gun.

You can play it on PC, PS4, PS5, Switch, Xbox... I've played it in PC and the controls have been made for a mouse and a keyboard, so I would recommend PC.

What is it about?

You wake up in a hotel room. Everything points to a party night with lots of alcohol running through your veins, but you don't remember a thing, not even your name.

After leaving your room, you discover tha you are a policeman. Supposedly, you were sent to Martinesse to solve a murder.

Try to do your best to recover your memories and solve the case, or not. After all, it is your decision.

Reasons I like it

You are constantly, politically interrogated. They want to know your political affiliations and they are going to know them.

Everything you do has consequences. It can give you buffs or debuffs to your rolls.

Your abilities talk to you. None of them are funny even though they think they are. That's the funny part if you get me.

You can go wherever you want and investigate whatever you want.

You can try to be a good police man, a corrupted policeman, a crazy policeman or whatever in between.

Kim Kitsuragi is your best friend. If it isn't, reflect on your actions.

Lena is the loveliest old lady I've ever met. She deserves the world.

The old lady that let's you stay at her cottage for free, she also deserves the world. She even cleans a jacket for you!

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Things that I still love #8

Ava's Demon

Web comic of 2712 chapters. Beautiful art and cinematographically composed. One of those internet jewels.

You can read it on the official page, but it is also being published in Webtoon, so go for it!

What is it about?

Since a young age, Ava has been hearing this insistent voice in her head. After an accident in her school, she discovers that it is the spirit of an queen alien claiming revenge. She makes a pact with her and now she is obligated to look for her spirit compatriots to claim what was lost in the war.

Reasons I like it

The color is bright and the art style beautiful.

Imaginery again! I'm easy to please. The creator uses a lot of insects references, mostly fireflies, one of my favorite insects.

While you read it, you get the impression of being watching a movie.

The story and the characters are complex and each one has their own motivations. It's really cool to see them interact.

Felt identified with the protagonist, lost and afraid.

Again, a little gore or body horror is okay for me.

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The things that I love #7

Drifters

Not for the soft of heart.

Here is one of my dark passions: Drifters by Kouta Hirano.

Anime series, 1 season of 12 episodes but has 3 more OVAs. There are not enough.

What is it about?

Shimazu Toyohisa dies in an ambush returning from the battlefield. After this, he is dragged to a fantasy world where he meets some elfs, Oda Nobunaga and Nasu no Yoichi.

Reasons I like it

Gorgeous animation, that or my memory is playing me games. Either way, it was gorgeous for 2016.

Historical character reconverted. I'm a weak against creators taking historical figures and giving them their own personal interpretation. It makes me want to know more about the characters and I learnt more history. Win win!

Some gore from time to time... it's okay for me.

I love that thing where the characters lose their shit and their facial features are distorted to reflect their inner emotions.

Incredible and brutal battles and combats, masterfully orchestrated.

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Things that I love #6

March comes in like a Lion

Or 3-gatsu no lion, how I originally knew it.

Anime series, 2 seasons and 44 episodes... correct me if I am wrong. I watched this series in one of my slumps. It was comforting. And a soft warning, even though if follows the ups and lows of a shogi player, you don't actually need to know how to play shogi to enjoy the show at all.

I tried to find out where could you watch it, but was unsuccessful. Sorry!

What is it about?

At 17 years old, Rei Kiriyama is a proffessional shogi player that lives alone. Existing mostly as a human machine, all he does is practicing shogi, going to class and repeat. Drowning in a deep deression, he is resigned to live what has been served in his life, but life keeps going and small rays of hope keep on sneaking in his reality in the form of three lovely sisters, Akari, Hinata and Momo.

Reasons I like it

The openings and endings are incredible.

The imaginery is astonishing and doesn't get you out of the story. It helps you to understand better the characters and convey their feelings. And they do it with an ample range of different styles.

This one is personal. When I was 10 or so I was bullied at school. I still remember the rage and sadness of it. So, there is a bullying arc at some point. When I finished watching it, I felt relieved. Finally, someone has got it right. Someone has seen and convey what I had lived when I was 10 and I didn't have the words or the maturity to explain it.

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Things that I love #5

Myself

Like, really, I'm not so bad. I fuck up from time to time, but I try to improve. I own my fuck-ups and accept the consecuences. And yes, I'm bound to keep fucking up a while, what the heck? I'm human!!

What is this about?

This is a sudden realization I've come up with.

That I love myself.

That I am awesome.

And that I deserve the world.

I usually forget all of this. I think my brain is programmed (yes, like a computer) to diminish me. To make me feel small. But I've survived long enough being invisible, I wanna live taking up space.

Reasons I like myself

I'm fucking resilient. I don't give up easily. Indeed, I hate giving up. I hate it so much, that it was the cause I always end up broken into a lot of little pieces. And I've learnt that I need to stop when that thing I am doing is destroying me.

I've got initiative and the will to finish what I began. That's why I am organized and disciplined, so much that I can't expect people around to follow me.

I'm imaginative and fun! I've got burning passion for everything I do! That's the way I am. And add to all of this incredibly ambitious! I want everything and I want it whole.

I'm tolerant and accepting to a fault. I'm forgiving, even when I shouldn't, but that is because I fucking believe in humanity. I believe in you even if you are backstabbing me. Why? You ask? Because for me wanting to improve is the bare minimum for being a human.

I'm patient and a hell of a good listener, because I love to hear you out, I want to know you, not the mask that you are showing me!! Because you are beautiful and it is so sad that you don't know...

I'm kind and generous. I wouldn't ask you anything for a favour and I expect nothing in return. Please, don't give me nothing, everything over a "Thank you" would offend me.

I know myself and know I am not perfect. So I try to improve day by day. Some days end in victory and others on failure, but that's okey because I tried to the best of my ability, of my knowledge. Next time I will know better!

BONUS!! Why is this important?

Because I deserve better than what the world is offering me right now.

I deserve nurturing relationships.

I deserve economic stability.

I deserve to be loved.

I deserve to feel safe.

I deserve to feel accepted.

I deserve to have fun and be happy.

And you deserve it too.

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Things that I love #4

Undone

Rotoscoped* series of 2 seasons and a total of 16 episodes. Haven't watched the second one but itching to do so. You can watch it on Amazon Prime.

**For those of you that don't know what rotoscope is and will interrupt their reading to google it!! In short, rotoscope is an animation technique that consists of tracing actual footage of a film.**

What is it about?

Alma suffers a car accident. He regains consciousness in a hospital with her dad besides her. But her dad died years ago and no one else seems to see him.

Not knowing if the reason she could see him is brain damage caused by the accident, the beginning of schizophrenia or her actual dad's ghost, she will try to solve the mystery surrounding his dead.

Reasons I like it

It is not a soft feelings show. They show you really difficult to digest topics: childhood trauma, schizophrenia, indigenous identity, family secrets, fucked up relationships...

The imaginery is gorgeous. The blending of reality and -let's call them- dreams is incredible.

The aesthetic, I never though reality could be so beautiful.

All the characters seemed real. I could find those persons in real life. I could go to a pub and hear the two sisters arguing, I could recognise the protagonist's mom as my own... It was kind of unsettling but liberating at the same time. I don't know how to put it into words. Like... it allowed me to accept that I am not the only one out there not being understood, thinking that the world is crazy...

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Things that I love #3

Land of the Lustrous

Also known as Houseki no Kuni.

Anime series, 1 season and 12 episodes. It is mostly 3D animated and absolutely stunning. As a I-don't-like-3D-in-my-anime-show person, I was slapped in the face and changed myself to a if-it-is-so-gorgeous-I-don't-mind-3D-in-my-anime-show person.

Right now, it is on Amazon Prime.

What is it about?

Okey... this is a difficult one. Let's talk about the universe.

This girls live in an island and they are being hunted down by gods, because they are jewels. They literaly shatter to a myriad of crystal fragments when they get hurt. Everyone is a different jewell with different colors and characteristics.

So this shows follows Phosphophyllite, whose sole dream is to help their sisters to defend themselves. But her fragility and clumsiness don't allow her to do as much, so she's given the chore of making an encyclopedia.

Reasons I liked it

It demonstrated that I was wrong about something I believed. I love people demonstrating me that I am wrong. Like, what I said earlier about not liking 3D animation in anime. Watching this series made me such an impression that I began to analyze and think more about what I really didn't like about 3D in anime. I could do a whole post about this, but... this is not the time XD

Antarcticite and Cinnabar. My favorite characters of the whole anime. I like tough girls.

I also liked Phosphollite at the end of the show... But I think that's kind on purpose since the story develops that way and the character with it. I like when the characters change and grow.

The Antarcticite Scene. If you have seen the show, you know the scene. I'm not going to spoil it further, because it is so beautifully orchestrated that it would be such a shame...

Loved the setting, I felt it new and refreshing and the backgrounds are astonishing.

BONUS!! Other media related!!

This series is an adaptation of another incredible work of art. It is a manga series also named "Land of the Lustrous" by Haruko Ichikawa. The art is gorgeous.

I'll let here some examples.

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Things that I love #2

A place further than the Universe

Or if you like it more! Sora Yorimo Tōi Basho! Or Yorimoi!

It is an anime series of 1 season and 13 episodes. It made me fall in love with anime again and will forever have a place in my heart.

If you are interested you can watch it on Crunchyroll. Don't know if they have english subtitles, though. 🤷

What is it about?

Mari Tamaki has this urge to do something crazy in her teen years, because that's what they do. They hop into a train without knowing where it goes and live adventures! But something is stopping her...

Then, she meets Shirase Kobuchizawa, a girl who wants to go to the Antarctica. Absolutely marvelled by this, Mari decides to join her in her adventure.

Reasons I liked it!

Do you know that feeling? You know, the emotion of going on a adventure. The thrill of new discoveries... of knowing that you don't know nothing... that there is so much to learn still... to discover... This is what this anime is really about. I have completely forgotten about this and it was so liberating knowing that there are still discoveries to uncover!

I loved the characters. The girls felt so real to me!! I bonded with them almost instantly.

They actually have a proper plan to go to the Antarctica... Like, wow!! I can't believe they are telling me the plan with the politic and economic implications and I am NOT bored. I'm engaged!!! I couldn't believe it. I've even learnt a few things!

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Things I love # 1

The Good Place

This is a series of 4 sesons and a total of 53 episodes that you can watch on Netflix. I binge-wached this series twice and laughed my head off everytime.

What is it about?

After dying, Eleanor Shellstrop ends in the Good Place. She's incredibly relieved but somethings smells fishy... Because she is definitely not a good person. Realising an error must have ocurred, she will try to change herself to remain in the Good Place.

This hilarious comedy will follow her adventures and disadventures while trying to change herself.

Reasons I liked it...

It makes me laugh so hard.

Loved the characters. All of them. Which it is not and easy feat, I usually find a character that I hate with all my heart almost in any series.

I love after death shows, with ghosts and metaphysical questions.

And philosohical questions about what make a person good or bad.

And the show kind of resonated with me...

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Random Thoughts

I've been depressed for five years. With the whole therapy drill, going to sessions, reaching a stable emotional state, being discharged and, after a while, suffering new depressive episodes for weeks that return me to the starting point. Once and again and again and again...

There are moments where I completely forget what was like to be happy or simply okay. And there are moments when I'm completely unable to remember what things I used to enjoy. And I came to the realizarion that I don't want to lose that. That I don't want to give this to my depression. There a really few things that I like, that I enjoy, that I worked so hard to discover, to learn and to achieve. I don't wanna lose them just because my brain is stupid and can't regulate himself.

So...

I'm turning this little space of the internet a museum to all the things I love. The few things I still love.

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I wasn't expecting this!!

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PRÁCTICA DE MODELADO 3D _ 01

Quería practicar un poco con Blender, ya que lo tengo bastante dejado de lado y se me ocurrió descargar un par de fotografías de internet e intentar replicarlas.

Esta va a ser mi primer proyecto. Me pareció sencillo porque tiene un montón de elementos inorgánicos y repetidos. Aún así me llevará varios días terminarlo, ya que no dispongo de mucho tiempo libre.

Hoy he hecho una estantería. A la izquierda está la geometría y a la derecha le he aplicado un material simple de color azul para que se pareciese a la estantería de la fotografía de arriba.

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