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Tension headache.

I have a tension headache.

I have never had one of these before.

Holy crap am I entirely fucked up right now my head is not okay everything looks and feels wrong and I cannot write without falling asleep and WOW is this a living hell right now

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Bill, Bill, and more Bills!

Went through some concepts with Bill, and drew a bunch of Bill AUs/Variations that I liked. :3

Bella Cipher is my interesting take on a more ~feminine~ take on Bill (heheheheheh) I had another version of her with a more yellow-black palette, but I liked this contrast more.

Dreamtale!Bill is a silly concept combining my two main fandoms (Sans AUs and Gravity Falls.) It has no set plot and probably will never because it was just a fun concept I had (Bill as statue is the Dreamtale!Bill, even if it doesn't look the part :,] )

The Human Prom!Bill design belongs to me (and has been inspired by fanfiction >;D)

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good things will happen 🧿

things that are meant to be will fall into place 🧿

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I have the middle of my story and the end of my story written in my head and absolutely no idea how to begin it

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in absolute tears about the pride module at my work

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GUESS WHO'S FUCKING ALLERGIC REACTION SUDDENLY CHANGED?!?!?!

Now I get horrible stomach pain along with the vertigo and nausea!! Just... just fucking great... not what I needed.

My body's been fucked up all day, it's not fun and I keep almost falling asleep when writing and I have actual motivation today and I am not doing well...

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the dash is in tatters. please say something nice to the person you reblog this from. it's so sad to see you all so sad

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SR ARCHIVE

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A Deal's A Deal - A Hunter

Warning!! There are dark themes in this chapter and for the rest of the story! There are mentions of death and murder, along with implied cannibalism and depictions of blood! Please, please mind the tags!

There will always be a hunter. Just as there will always be prey. Bill had always been the apex predator of whatever realm he had resided within. Now it was his turn to be the hunted.

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I have been on a ROLL with these chapters!! I am COOKING baby!!

...this is not good for my audience, btw

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Coming Home

Prison Ghost AU

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dear americans,

as a polish queer woman and human rights activist, i know exactly how you're feeling right now and what to expect from these elections. i lived through the 2015-2023 regime of pis, a right-wing populist party that divided families in the same way trump did. i’ve experienced the rise of fascism in poland, the influence of far-right parties like konfederacja, and their “santa’s little helpers”—ordo iuris, an ultra-conservative catholic organization (banned in many countries, mind you) that helped enforce a near-total abortion ban and runs anti-queer campaigns in public spaces. i supported the black protests in 2016 as a middle schooler when they first tried to ban abortion. as an adult, i actively participated in the 2020 women’s strike, running from police tear gas daily after they finally passed the ban. i supported friends who faced charges.

i’ve lived through intense homophobia in poland as a queer teen and adult. i survived the first pride march in my hometown, where far-right extremists threw stones and glass at us. i endured the anti-queer propaganda spread by the ruling party in state-owned media. i survived the “rainbow night,” poland’s own stonewall moment in summer 2020, when police arrested around 50 queer activists following the arrest of margo, a nonbinary activist. i survived the "lgbt-free zones," the targeted violence, the slurs from strangers on the street, and the protests i held against queerphobia. it was hard as fuck, but i survived.

but just because i survived, it doesn’t mean others did. many women died because of the abortion ban—marta, justyna, izabela, dorota, joanna, maria, and many others who didn’t survive pis’s draconian anti-abortion laws. milo, kacper, michał, zuzia (she was 12), wiktor, and other queer and trans kids and young adults took their own lives because of the relentless queerphobia.

despite all of this, our experience in poland can serve as a guide now. here are some tips for staying safe and how we, polish queers and women, organized under the regime:

safety first, always. if you know someone who’s had an abortion, no you don’t. if you know someone is trans, no you don’t. if you know people who help with safe abortions, no you don’t—at least not until you know it’s 100% safe to share. if you are queer or have had an abortion, only share this with people you trust fully. most importantly, not everyone has to be an activist just because they’re part of a minority. if it feels unsafe to share that you're queer, trans, etc., then don’t. it doesn’t make you any less queer.

use secure, encrypted messaging like signal for conversations on potentially risky topics, such as queerness, abortion, organizing counter-actions, protests—anything that might be used against you.

stay anonymous online. if you want to research or report something without surveillance, do not use regular internet. get a vpn (mullvad is affordable and reliable), download the tor browser (for both onion and standard links), and if you plan to whistleblow, consider using a riseup email account.

organize and build networks. community is everything now. support each other, foster independence, because your government won’t have your back. set up collectives, grassroots movements. create lists of trusted professionals—lawyers, doctors, etc.—who can offer support.

to lawyers and doctors: please consider pro-bono work. this is what got us through poland’s hardest times. your work will be needed now more than ever.

for protests or risky actions: always write a pro-bono lawyer’s number on your arm with a permanent marker.

get to know the anarchist black cross federation and other resources on safety culture: "Starting an anarchist black cross group: A guide"; Still We Rise - A resource pack for transgender and non-gender conforming people in prison; Safe OUTside the system by the Audre Lorde Project;

for safe abortion info or involvement: get familiar with womenhelpwomen.

stay radical, stay strong, stay informed: The Anarchist Library

if i forgot to (or didn't) include something, don't hesitate to reblog this post with other resources.

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here's some more unsolicited adult advice as someone in her 30s who knows there are a lot of twenty somethings and teens that follow her: if you're trying to build a new habit you really want, and are struggling, you have to break it down to the smallest building block possible. If you're failing, you haven't thought small enough. I know it's possible to hear stories of people who just snapped into new life mode one day by "just deciding", but truly what's happening there is a confluence of events and experiences that force the brain into some sort of epiphany. You cannot will an epiphany. It'll never work. For most times of your life, you will need to build habits intentionally, and that means not working against yourself and to set micro goals. like laughably tiny goals. because once that easy tiny goal is met, you can build off it, tiny goal after tiny goal until you reach your big goal.

so for example, if you want to be a morning person that gets up at ass crack dawn so that you can work out, eat brekkie, shower, and get to work at a leisurely pace, and you're not that person because you will hit your snooze button 800 times, you have to get the big picture goal out of your head. think smaller. "I want to get up 15 minutes earlier than I normally do." If you can't do that, make it 5 minutes. "I want to cook breakfast every day" hell no too big. "I want to eat something, anything, before I leave the house" hell yeah, fantastic. When you go to the grocery store to make sure there are things in the house for breakfast, if you keep buying bagels and microwave sandwiches that you ignore, you gotta think smaller. SMALLER. What's something so easy to eat that you'll never say no to. Is it a yogurt? Is it a handful of grapes? Is it a hostess ho ho? is it hot cheetos? FORGET the big picture of the fantasy put-together woman preparing a full nutritious meal that you'd be proud to admit to. Think only of the smallest goal you can achieve. If you know you can't say no to an ice cream sandwich, put a ton of ice cream sandwiches in your freezer and have one for breakfast every day until it's so instilled in you that you gotta get up to eat something you can start diversifying.

It sounds like, from the lack of habit place, that must take forever. But really it doesn't take too long to form the habit once the discipline kicks in. the trick is that you have to give your brain something easy to become disciplined to. If it's too hard, think easier and smaller. No one has to know. Literally no one in the gd world has to know that for 4 weeks when you were 22 you had an ice cream sandwich for breakfast every day. who cares. If it gets you eating oatmeal with fresh fruit in a few months who cares. you did it, yay. smaller, easier. if you can't do it, think smaller and easier. smaller!! EASIER!!! You are not thinking smaller and easier enough. break your brain thinking how small and easy you can go. SMALLER. EVEN SMALLER, SIS.

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Feelings tonight

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A Deal's A Deal - A Hunter

Warning!! There are dark themes in this chapter and for the rest of the story! There are mentions of death and murder, along with implied cannibalism and depictions of blood! Please, please mind the tags!

There will always be a hunter. Just as there will always be prey. Bill had always been the apex predator of whatever realm he had resided within. Now it was his turn to be the hunted.

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i write for myself not for comments but dear god getting comments does so remind me of the joy of writing and sharing something

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Rb to turn prev into the beast she deserves to become