throwaway15384

[throwaway15384]

I don't have any friends.

I'm not a likeable person and I can never keep friends around because I always fuck everything up. I'm losing hope of ever fixing myself. Guess it's time to come with terms that I'm gonna rot in bed for the rest of my life. Which won't be that long ig.

[throwaway15384]

How do I change?

I am not a likeable person and I know that. The way I talk and act annoys a lot of people and they end up distancing themselves from me (no shade to them or anything), but I can't seem to change.

I have tried acting different, but it's very hard for me to change how I act, at some point I lose my self control and end up reverting back to the unlikable me.

I want to be nicer to people, just be more likeable. I'm tired of having barely any friends (though the 2 I have are amazing ly), and being unable to uphold most of my friendships.

I want tips, thoughts, literally anything that can help me. Ways to force myself to be nicer and more likable in a way that won't be short-lived.