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It's my 12 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

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Finished coloring my hair tonight...

Love it! 😍❤️😍

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Weird thought...

I need to design watches.

They'd be Tigerlady's watches...

Otherwise known as...

...

...

... "T'watches" lolol

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Interested in buying my artwork? Visit me on artboxy, or let me know here! Thanks so much for looking!

❤️ Jen

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Here are some shoes I designed! If you are interested in buying a pair, click the link below. All hand made to order in Italy!

* if interested, leave a message below, I have coupon codes I can give you...

1 for $30 off

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*HELP SUPPORT YOUR LOCAL MENTALLY ILL/DISABLED ARTIST!*

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Sorry I haven't posted in so long. So much has happened, I don't even know where to begin. The voices are still here obviously. The good news is my kidney filtration rate is back up. So that's good news. 👍 maybe I can get into a drug study again...

Oh! Before I forget. I don't remember if I posted this before, but here's a little something I wrote about my marriage a few years ago...

A peek into my marriage - "you're so lucky"

"You've been married 27 years?"

"You're so lucky".

I don't feel lucky.

Determination?

Or did I even think

of the outcome?

Neither wants to be here.

Why are we?

We still care...

...but, love?

Love seems farthest from your mind,

not even our kid is safe.

Why do you insist

on treating us this way?

Questions turn to anger -

anger clouds the judgment.

Your reactions are killing us.

If you just thought about

what you said,

and what you did...

The abuse.

Not physical,

but it might as well be -

it hurt us deeper than you'll ever know.

Changed us -

into a mess

of emotions

we don't know how to control.

But you do.

And control you do,

both you and us...

Every day.

Can't do anything.

Can't buy anything.

Unless it came from you.

Aren't marriages supposed to be equal?

How is this equal,

when I can hardly do anything

without your approval...

You are *such* a good actor.

Might win "best in picture"

for your performance

in this show.

You may have everyone else fooled,

but you don't fool us.

Still think I'm so lucky?

You don't know the half of it...

...yes... I am *so* lucky.

I gotta tell you...so much stress. So much. Even my psychiatrist is like "no wonder you haven't gotten better"...

Welp...that killed the writing mood. 🫤😜😂

I guess I'll have to write some more another time. I promise I won't wait so long this time...

❤️ Jen

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It's that time of year again...

How do you snuggle with your bubby(s)?

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If you'd like to read my old stuff (from back when this all started) here's a link. I hope there's something there that can help. 😊

❤️ Jen

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250 posts!

Yea! How bout that? I'm up to 250 posts!

Good advice, dontcha think?

Here's to 250 more!

❤️ Jen

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Ok... I'm tryin to remember what happened last. Me n my psychiatrist have talked a *little* n the last thing he figured was that I could be schizo-effective, or both schizophrenic and bipolar. He told me about a drug study they were doing there, (he figured this would be the best bet to see how I am off meds, since he'd be around to actually see it)(can't safely do that on my own) so I enrolled in it, but when I got my blood work done, we found out I have a problem with my kidneys. They aren't filtering like they should. Joy. Just add another thing to my alreadylonglistofproblems. So now on top of everything else I have to go to the nephrologist. I've been once and the best he can figure is I've got a functional blockage. So, I've got to get an ultrasound done. Joy again. So anywho, I got kicked outta the drug study. Joy, yet *again*.

TBContinued

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I swear I'll get back to schizophrenia n stuff people... I swear!

Just as soon as I show you all my newest haircolor... Seafoam! I left the light pink tips on it too. I really like this one y'all!

Ok. Maybe for tomorrow I will work on a post about my recent fun I've been having. (Joy, joy)

Tty'allSoon ❤️ Jen

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Can y'all guess what I did now?

C'mon, guess!

Yep, I colored my hair yet again... This time half n half!

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Got my shorter fangs! 😃😃😃

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What I'm looking at right now...

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Lookie what I got done today! Angel fangs piercings! I love them! 😍😍😍

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I'm lavender now!!! That's all. 😁😋😁😋

(kinda went nuts with the scissors didn't I)

Oh yeah! (I guess that's *not* all lol) I went to see my doc, but he had an emergency so he wasn't there 🙁 so we weren't able to talk about what's up with me yet. (Lol)(obviously) Ok. Carry on. I'll talk to y'all later.

❤️ Jen

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Oh! My psychiatrist also said these schizophrenic "symptoms" *may* have started from a bad case of PTSD... Which I was on meds for, for a while...