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Sounds too good to be true. Either way

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10/03/24

Happy spooky month!! I'm so glad it's October and finally getting cooler (I hope)

Been trying to work out but going outside has been an even bugger struggle again because my paranoia has severely risen.

Though, I've made some progress. I'm fluctuating between 234-237 now

My body feels. Stranger. I can't tell if it's the meds or if I have something like POTS. But yeah, just waiting to see my doctor

Day 1 of working out Tenebre Rosso Sangue. We have currently lost roughly 7 pounds Also, day 1 of reading the ULTRAKILL wiki or any information in that format / entire lore

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Late Night Drive

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9/21/24 been like almost a month It's weird, it feels like I got everything yet nothing going on. Or I'm just easily overwhelmed (or both)! Hopefully gonna get a job soon once I get driving stuff situated. I'm in college again, which is surreal but nice, honestly.?? Speaking of, gotta do some writing. This is going to go from sporadic to every now and then prob. Seesawing between 236 and 238! So that's some progress, if anything. Also been walking more (my calves are suffering, but hopefully I get some more noticeable gains soon) I've been on testosterone for a few months now, too, which is honestly surreal?? Also, I'm pretty sure I said it at one point, but I was getting weight loss treatment on and off due to it being hard for me to lose weight in my own time. Granted I need to have lifestyle changes, and so far I've been working well on that, however I might have a physical medical issue/condition working against me so that's..... fun /s I won't divulge into my history because basic internet safety but. Yeah I'll probably bring it up to her again cause the other one was more cosmetic but after having some regular check-ups and bodily stuff I'm like Kinda Worried /lh but genuine.

Day 1 of working out Tenebre Rosso Sangue. We have currently lost roughly 7 pounds Also, day 1 of reading the ULTRAKILL wiki or any information in that format / entire lore

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so much to see

bonus doodle that didnt fit with the rest but i still thought was cute

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Hell's favorite little guy

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8/29/24 rahh rahh oh ma maaaahh I've been busy the past week or two but the rest of time just. Dissociating. Not venting, but it's legitimately just gotten really bad and the time loss/chunks of time missing is really disorienting at the moment. Might have to put this on pause and/or updates will be even more irregular than before. However, I still continue to listen to Order an insane amount LOL. Checked the last.fm bot one time on Discord sometime during the week and I had played it 877 or so times in that week alone HGSHGSHSH Gonna try to read the wiki more again. Not only do I wanna be well-read on the lore, but I just want it imprinted on my brain haha. Can't play the game right now though. Maybe that can wait But sometimes I admit that I feel uncomfortable with how much my interests have taken over my life and the time I almost fully compulsively devote to them. I feel lame/loser-coded saying this, but I legitimately think about ULTRAKILL every day. I'm being so serious I can't recall a day that's gone by in. I don't know. Where I haven't thought about it. Makes me feel cringe, dude. Not like this is something unknown to me but the worse side of the hyperfixation sword really is showing here. It being my source as an alter doesn't really help either. It's like my brain will never be satisfied

But yeahh. Just. Coping I guess. I'm doing well in some facets of my life... but the mental illness is really jamming itself into the prominent parts of my life yet again I bought disco elysium on sale. Yipee! In college now. I hope it lasts

Day 1 of working out Tenebre Rosso Sangue. We have currently lost roughly 7 pounds Also, day 1 of reading the ULTRAKILL wiki or any information in that format / entire lore

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Draw your characters like this

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the ramblings of a lunatic

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August 17th, 2024 omg! Didn't think I had been away that long, jesus :sob emoji: This update'll be short since I unfortunately don't have much to report, but I am still trying to work against the rough current :'-)

Basically, I've plateaued. I fortunately don't go above 240, but I haven't gone any lower than 238, so my limbo is 239-240. I don't know if this is partially influenced by cycless orr what. But yeah It hurts some but I'll cope I'm not only trying to focus on upper body strength because I want to look super muscular/be in shape everywhere, but also because I think my left leg (which was already kind of not great before) got fucked up, or I stressed it out. Granted this could be because I haven't been stretching or doing proper warm up, but I do know it sort of just. Falls asleep? Like the toes on it don't even get pins and needles in the normal sense, it's just like I can't properly move or utilize them as quickly as my right foot. It isn't so slow to the point of being genuinely concerning, it's just more frustrating than anything. It also tends to freak me out / get in my head and so it makes exercising harder. Was at the gym and biking at one point (I guess thats my favorite passtime lol) and my toes just kept like?? Almost going numb? And it really wigged me out so I had to get off earlier than I would've liked (still got to 30 minutes though on decently high resistence!)

Thats about it, ttyl

Day 1 of working out Tenebre Rosso Sangue. We have currently lost roughly 7 pounds Also, day 1 of reading the ULTRAKILL wiki or any information in that format / entire lore

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Silly pic of two silly people having silly dreams

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Love is love ✌️✌️✌️

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oh right. this

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more of these

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A gianni stream bit i had to draw :)

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COME ON, MACHINE!! FIGHT ME LIKE AN ANIMAL!

(I'd like to see the boss room in 6-2 :)

Day 65

6-2