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I had to make all those mistakes to say, I finally got it right and darling you are worth every fight. ❤️ https://www.instagram.com/p/CYSphZpltCm4w2pjrR-1PfYFaCcNU2igAx5LM40/?utm_medium=tumblr

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I always say I wanted to stay for those who believed in me still. And before getting to this day, I thought baka wala naman talaga, that I have to accept I haven't made any difference for almost 3 years.

I'm not sulking my leads didn't gave me a proper send off party. I wasn't expecting really, besides it not being my thing. But this unscripted, independently-prepared "send-off" from these people, made me let go of the tears I tried so hard to keep in. I was grounded and reminded na hindi ko kailangang makilala ng lahat to prove I was still good. These are the people I work with closely and evidently knows me more than anyone else in the organization. They know me not just the person who gets the work done but also that person na napapagod, napaparant, nanghihina rin when things go south. Those who knew me truly; the beauty and the horrors. And hearing how they appreciated me and the things I've done, is just more than enough to wash away my uncertainty to leave.

Apparently, lahat ng pag aalinlangan sa puso kong umalis, hindi dahil sa pakiramdam ko I left a huge opportunity for an uncertain job somewhere else. No. I've already made peace with that possibility. I was actually scared of losing the bond I shared with this through-thick-and-thin clique, na baka sa pag alis ko, mawala na yun; na baka sa bago ko, walang katulad nila run.

But I'll be strong there. Salamat sa mga pabaon. It might be heavy to the heart, and it might feel weird not seeing familiar names pop up sa kung san sang chats sa MS Teams but I will be alright, we will all be. We'll surely keep in touch and have this bond going for a long long time. I'll stick around, la kayo choice. Hahahahaha!

Pasasalamat! I appreciate you all, sobra. Magkikitang muli. Labyu. Hihi.

Salamat, Pearson para sa mga taong 'to.

10-07-21

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The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. “The Lord is my portion,” says my soul, “therefore I will hope in him.”

Lamentations 3:22-24 ESV

God's love never expires and His compassion never fails. Kahit di ko deserve dahil sa kasalanan, pagmamahal parin ang Kanyang binigay at pagpapatawad. Kahit sobrang daming challenges, down moments, and super down moments, still my hope is with Him. Nag kamali o nag kasala man, I know that I can be better version of myself. Let go of the past and start being better and be the best when He comes. I pray for my heart to be strong and firm for moooooreee patience and kindness towards the people I love and the people I will meet. I thank you for the peace of mind because I know You are in control.

Si Yahweh ay sa akin, sa Kanya ako magtitiwala

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It is when you stop chasing and started waiting ❤️ 📸 @gelicendana https://www.instagram.com/p/CSCZHVeFN3V/?utm_medium=tumblr

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IN-DENIAL

Talaga bang in-denial to?

Talaga bang gusto mo na, pero di mo maamin?

O takot ka na baka hindi mabalik yung pag mamahal mo?

O baka kasi hindi ka pa buo at ayaw mo makasakit.

O ayaw mo rin makasira nang namumuo na relasyon.

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Kaba

Isang hapon na sila ay mag kasama, sobrang tagal noong huling kita nilang dalawa.

Panay ang usap, tawanan, lokohan, at asaran ang nangyari sakanila.

Hanggang sa kumapit si babae sa braso ni lalaki at itong kaibigan na to kinuha ang kanyang kamay at hinawakan na para bang sila ay mag kasintahan.

Kaba, kaba ang kanyang naramdaman. Hindi saya kundi kaba. Dahil ang unang pumasok sa isip niya ay yung babae na nagugustuhan ni lalaki.

''na miss kita" anya ng lalaki, habang hawak hawak ang kamay ni babae.

Pasimpleng tinatanggal ni babae ang pag kakahawak ni lalaki sa kanyang kamay. Dahil hindi ito tama.

Oo natatanggal pero buo parin na kinuha ni lalaki ang kamay ni babae. Na para bang sila lang dalawa ang nabubuhay sa mundong ibabaw.

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One step at a time

It's been 6 months since I and Blues broke up.

Sobrang grabe yung challenge. Na kinakaya mo kahit di ka pa okay. Yung bigla kang iiyak ng di mo alam saan hinuhugot to.

Dumating yung time na namimiss ko yung kawork ko na pinili ni Blues. Umiyak ako sa kanta ng Di Ka Sayang by Ben&Ben kasi kanta ko sakanya yun e.

Kanta ko sakanya yan kasi gusto ko malaman niya noon na nandito ako naniniwala sakanya. Sobrang dami ng plano na nawala nalang talaga dahil sa pang yayaring yon.

Pero hindi... Hindi ako pwede mag stay sa nasasaktan lang. Dumating yung time na nag Game Day kami sa trabaho -- isang nag Momobile Legends kung saan kasama ako, at isa naman para sa mga hindi marunong mag laro.

Pag tapos ng ML namin, bumalik kami sa room kung saan siya ay kasama. Yun yung first time na tinawag ko pangalan niya sa harap ng team. Grabe hahaha May bigat sa dibdib no pero yung bigat na yon naiba bigla, na ang gaan sa loob kasi masaya ako na nasabi ko na pangalan niya, na napansin ko na siya.

Sumunod na pangyayari ay yung nag uusap usap kami sa GC ng ML. At isang step nanaman ang na overcome ko at yun ay yung minention ko siya sa gc at inaya na panoorin yung laban ng team namin at ibang team.

Lord, I know onti onti na akong nag heheal. Slowly but surely ika nga. Alam ko darating ako sa punto na papatawarin ko na rin sila at mag heheal na rin yung mga tao sa paligid namin.

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Oh ngayon lang yan, next year na ulet 🤣 Sharawt to @rosecort di ako nag kamali sa pinagtanungan 🤣 (at Cake Draft Café) https://www.instagram.com/p/CPNr20clKO83NAEyMvzUnv6vi6W3nJgzqWdJGQ0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Worth sharing!

Expecting so much from the people who 'loves' you while giving nothing back was never okay.

Questioning other people's love for you because they 'left' at your 'darkest' like they never offered some help and you never declined, was just unsettling and unfair.

We can't go around telling people they did not stayed true to their promise of staying, after you did exactly what they hate, like you never knew.

Letting people choose you over their own principles was the kind of love you don't force to receive. This is too much to ask by the way.

We can't tell people to put aside their hurt, to give way to our feelings like we weren't the reason they are in pain too.

If you are this self-centered, maybe these people don't deserve you either and maybe it's for the better.

Manipulation and lies: these are the very same things that may be hard to see but were just enough reasons to make people leave. If you still blame them for finally doing it, know that this isn't an overnight decision they made, better do some thinking, you made them do this.

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Collect beautiful moments 👌🏻 https://www.instagram.com/p/CMZoHj-FmILDh_nzhwGZTdieHzNXPwDevTcb1k0/?igshid=121wcieyh5s3p

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𝓨𝓸𝓾 𝓰𝓵𝓸𝔀 𝓭𝓲𝓯𝓯𝓮𝓻𝓮𝓷𝓽𝓵𝔂, 𝔀𝓱𝓮𝓷 𝔂𝓸𝓾'𝓻𝓮 𝓪𝓬𝓽𝓾𝓪𝓵𝓵𝔂 𝓱𝓪𝓹𝓹𝔂 Ngiting ngiti yarn? HAHAHA 📷 @anjenius https://www.instagram.com/p/CLj_YayFOftrWtw78eJE_jWXJX0HRsFe6J1qYQ0/?igshid=12tg7bptg3iu0

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Tumblr turned 14 today! You’re all to blame. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

Thank you especially for 14 years of completely normal memories. You get an extra ten minutes in the ball pit if you can make a bingo.