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*picks up ur system and shakes u all like a snowglobe and watches ur headmates fall everywhere*

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What if I just started going by a different name and pronouns and had different likes and ideas and memories and opinions and presented differently and acted differently... but like I'm still me though... no I'm not a system at all...

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Best Pali orgs to donate to at this time? Am thinking PCRF.

don't donate to orgs right now, donate to people. gazans need huge funds to evacuate to egypt, get treatment, buy food and other necessities. it is the most urgent and the best way your money can have the most impact.

here is fundsforgaza linktree full of verified gofundmes you can choose from

here is the operation olive branch spreadsheet full of gofundmes organized by different factors such as families, age, number of children, medical conditions as well as how close they are to meeting their goal etc

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Since our DID has actually been a Pretty Big Problem we've all been trying to ignore for like 2 years now, it makes sense that eventually we'd have an Oh Shit moment about that. And we did! And it was kind of a shitfest! Horrible ego death meltdown across multiple members.

But since the dust has mostly cleared on that, I am hoping to bring up some of the challenges with my counselor. I put off mentioning the whole plural thing for a while since we were doing a specific therapy and not CBT, where I could talk more freely on other things.

so I hope he takes it well, or even somewhat well. Counselor has been very receptive + compatible so far. But I can't help but feel a little nervous. Wish us luck if we choose to go through with it tomorrow. ☘️

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I don't exactly know how to word this but

I think that if you feel like different people at different times you should be able to use pluralkit or things similar. If it makes you more comfortable to be recognized as a different person than the body at different times you should be able to use things to show that. I dont care if you're not a DID/OSDD system. If it makes you more comfortable and makes you able to express yourself in a way that makes you happy than you should be able to do it. At the end of the day you aren't hurting anyone and it isn't that big of a deal. If it makes you feel more comfortable in your own skin, do it.

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-Silent Heaven- my Maria cosplay.

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Having obscure, cruel + outlandish trauma is harder on its own, because people can't wrap their heads around things like that Being Possible. When I have told parts of my story to others, the "more palatable" parts, I'm still met with that air of "are you sure that happened? Maybe you remembered wrong?".

Which is like. A REALLY ass response btw. Even if I understand the viewpoint. So I can't imagine how people would react to the even weirder stuff. It often doesn't feel worth it.

I don't actually care if people believe me or not when I tell them things, and it's not like I tell the whole world. But, cruel and weird/torturous abuse absolutely exists. And we're not the only people by a longshot who have dealt with it.

It's much more common than people want to believe. An abuser(s) will do this so it doesn't sound believable when the person speaks on it.

This is why I believe someone when they tell me something, no matter how "weird" it is. I hope you can do the same. ☘️

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I’m sorry Angela. You deserved better.

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You loved her right?

Or maybe…you hated her!

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🩸magdalene🩸 links

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This man hasn’t been tortured enough… add him to Fortnite

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silent hill 2 character profiles from igotaletter.com

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guy who has chronic pain and fatigue: man why can't i do more stuff

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some of y’all need to learn more compassion for adults who are severely mentally ill or disabled… like schizophrenics who still depend on their family members and probably always will have to, autistic people who live in group homes, people with bipolar disorder who attend partial inpatient programs, etc…. people who couldn’t get college degrees, who can’t work. not everyone is like you.

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Keith Haring (American, 1958-1990)

Monkey Puzzle - acrylic on canvas - 1988