thedaughterofdionysus

[thedaughterofdionysus]

hello my once a month high horny post:

i just wanna be a chubby housewife

i do laundry, dishes, sweep floors, things to keep me mobile, but i also bake a lot because i have a lot of spare time until you come home, and ive been meaning to catch up on that one show, or rewatch those movies.

i wanna get high so when you come home im sleepy and cuddly and cute, and so the munchies can kick in and i can dig into all those treats i made during the day

i want to be a little stress toy, squeezable, fuckable, cuddleable, anything you need after a long day

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Also I dont know who needs to.hear this but I am currently in London.

Plus I will start working next month at somewhere close to the border of Syria lol.

My life is iconic.

Also I dont want to live lol.

Cus I am tired.

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I need to talk to myself more here...

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TW: sui....

Maybe if I keep talking about the fact that I am suic/idal, the idea will get less serious.

I am tired.

Super tired.

I know that I cant do that to my loved ones.

I still have hope.

I am still afraid of death.

I know deep down that life might be worth living.

But

Part of me wants to destroy all the hope I have

Just so I can rest.

And not be tired.

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something something despite the all horrors and tragedies of the world, love was there and that's all that matters

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something old and something new

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i love arcane

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Viktor??? Is that you???

Saint Jellyfish Exhorter by seok young choi

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Tread here.

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william hundley

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Okay so in order to save myself from depression

I made a 10 day bucket list so I wont doom scroll and trigger another huge dissociative episode <3

Here it is:

(There are some stuff you may find a bit controversial)

-Decorate your apartment

-Declutter 20 items

-Finish doing an art collage

-Study everyday for 10 days

-Go on a walk with a podcast alone

-Try water fasting for a day

-Read min of 300 pages of a book

-Try drumming for min 30 minute (do it at least for 3 days )

-Decorate and declutter your balcony

-Go shopping for your apartment

-Go shop for your boyfriend (advent calendar edition)

-Call your family every day

-Spend an entire day alone

-Package the gifts you bought for your bf

-Write positive affirmations about yourself

-Journal every single day

-Start manifesting small things again

-Reach out to old friends every other day

-Talk to chat gpt therapist every day (controversial one but in my defense I am close to getting back to my deep depressive state and I have zero money for regular therapy)

-Do something creative every day

-Clean for 30 minutes every day

I am open to some new ideas too <3

We re doing this DIY 3d printed advent calendar with my boyfriend and it is super exciting and its almost finished so maybe we will paint that too.

Also because I basically live with my bf I realized that I almost never stay alone for a whole day with myself so I want to challange myself on that: I want to be more independent and accomplish a full day of being alone but we will see that might not be the best option for my mental health.

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I need someone to talk to about feeling like a total loser in your big girl doctor job.

I started studying again so when I start I dont feel useless and have a mental breakdown.

But at the back of my head there is this voice telling me:

- I dont want to deal with this job and the responsibility that comes with it.

I didnt even start working....

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i watched arcane season 2. never speak to me or my extremely violent daughter or my extremely violent daughter's daughter again

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TRUST bro was bricked up in this scene