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[the-one-and-only-043]

A Simple Lullaby

13-12 visits 043 after hearing they aren't feeling too well.

Content Warnings: Implied Dissociation, References to Past Trauma, Hurt/Comfort

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"Hey, 43, I heard from the robots you weren't doing too well." 13-12 knocked on the bedroom door. "Your Roxy let me in but I'm giving you a warning just in case."

There was no answer on the door, causing 13-12 to worry even more. "Hello? I'm heading inside if it's alright!"

13-12 opened the door, only to see their older sibling curled up in the bed, dazed as the elder of the two's mind wandered elsewhere.

043's eyes were furrowed while they tried to keep their eyes shut. The pain was nothing new but it didn't mean it was any less tormenting.

"43? You awake?" 13-12 approached, footsteps light but audible enough to not cause their sibling to startle. "Ate? Brother? Kuya? Sis? You in there?"

They can only groan in response, trying to stop the whimpers escaping from their lips.

"... Should I call Roxy?" Their eyes widened, hand slowly hovering their forehead to feel for any sign of a fever. "Not a fever at least."

"13?" 043 muttered, golden eyes slowly cracking open. "N-no. She's currently working on something important." A cold sweat dampened their dark hair.

"Do you need anything?"

"Not really. I'll be fine. Just-" they dropped a bunch of expletives. "Just one of those days, you know?"

"Time loops taking a toll on your body?" 13-12's brown eyes softened, akin to sweet chocolate as they gently held onto their hand. A doting look etchrd on their face when they see their sibling nod. "Got it. Want me to be here? You don't have to do a thing. I just wanna be here."

043 only responded by holding onto their hand and clinging to them.

"I'm here. You're here. You're not there anymore. You're home." 13-12 whispers, scooting over on the bed slightly and slowly sat on the side to remain close. "There's no danger here. It's safe."

Memories of a better time soon flashed in 13-12's mind as they gently tucked away 043's hair away from their face after wiping off the sweat.

Before any of them realize, 13-12 started humming a lullaby. 043 was yet to understand the words but they know the phrase "tahan na", the root word for "home". A place of peace and safety.

The phrase a parent or older sibling might use to pacify a crying child after a nightmare.

Because it was over. The nightmare was over. They're no longer there.

The two Phoenixes were teary eyed by the end of the song before hugging tightly.

".... Thank you, 13." 043 clung to them, trying to ground themselves that this is now. They're not in that place, or in space, elevator, or even volcano.

They're in their bedroom, younger sibling in their embrace in the middle of the morning of a nice day.

And it will be a nice day.

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I hope you liked the hurt/comfort!

Agent 043 belongs to @the-one-and-only-043

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@phoenix-and-found-family, @agentwraith, @agent--shadow, @silverdragon889, @blueorchid-95

[the-one-and-only-043]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: I Expect You To Die (Video Games) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: John Juniper & Agent Phoenix Characters: John Juniper, Agent Phoenix (I Expect You To Die), Handler (I Expect You To Die) Additional Tags: Reggie is only mentioned, he doesn't like john lmao, No beta we die like our democracy, john let phoenix win at UNO because last time they got sad, phoenix calls him tree man because I think it's funny, I'm very sorry I can't seem to write without putting a sprimkle of angst in, it's mostly tooth-rotting fluff tho, uhh content warnings go brr, mention of low self-esteem, mention of painkillers/drugs (because boyo is recovering), phoenix is lonely asf, and also touch starved, they both need to sleep tbh, possible mention of derealisation?, not sure, but Phoenix mentions things not seeming real, Phoenix is young, John is angsty about it, John is lonely and Phoenix knows it, because they are also lonely, made for the IEYTD gift exchange, if you saw me post this early no you fucking didn't Summary:

“I’m bored.” They whined, draping themself over his legs. John rolled his eyes so hard he could practically see the back of his head. “I didn’t ask you to be here, Phoenix.” --------------------- Or, Phoenix bothers John while he's recovering after the Peace Summit. Bonding ensues.

@pandagobrr here is your thing! no i did not post it early shhh

It seems I cannot write these two without a sprinkle of angst but it’s mostly fluff 

I hope you like it!

[the-one-and-only-043]

It doesss

Airport timeeeeee if I was more gay not ace I would attempt to be the mysterious person in the corner of an airport bar in a sexy way, but since I’m ace I shall be the mysterious person in the corner of an airport bar but in covered in blood way

[the-one-and-only-043]

Yeah no you're not wrong

They're very much better about it now, but they used to be VERY full of Trauma

Living weapon after they're rescued part 2

[awkward whumpee vibes]

Always checking to see if they did something wrong.

Whumpee is talking but they trail off as they realize everyone is staring at them. "What... What was it this time? The part about the crushing?"

Whumpee getting so terrified of losing this new-found safety that they start creeping around on eggshells trying to be invisible. It's too good to be true and they just want the illusion to stay for as long as possible.

"You can pretend to be my friends, lie to me, torture me, but I will never tell you what you want to know." "Whumpee, I just want to know if pepperoni sounds good." *Long pause* "...Is that like a meat thing or...."

"oh, fuck, i'm sorry, I got blood on your rug, shit shit shi--" "WHUMPEE YOU NEED STITCHES!" "Yeah but I can heal and the rug--" "forget about the damn rug!"

If someone raises their voice, whumpee flinches and responds with a "yes sir" before they can think a out it.

Protesting too much. "I don't take orders from you."

"I'm not just an asset!" "I'm not saying you are, whumpee--" "then put this back, I don't need nice clothes to have the same rights as you!"

"whumpee, you can stop looking out the window every five seconds. We're in a safe zone." "Yeah, for now," whumpee glances out again.

Patting people's backs to see if they're wearing a wire, disguising it really well as just sincere friendliness and warmth

And then losing all that when they sit down and take out their gun and just set it on the dinner table. "....What?" Whumpee frowns in confusion. "Can I not clean my gun? Do I not get to have my own weapon?"

"whumpee, can you not spray wd-40 right next to my plate. I'm eating here." "Come on, it's not even that poisonous. besides, this gun isn't gonna clean itself."

"Can you not have dinner like a normal person?!" "Already finished."

*whumpee points out a tactical advantage* "Calm down whumpee, it's just snakes and ladders." Whumpee stares at the board, feeling their sense of usefulness drain away.

Going over the times they were completely badass until it gets annoying.

When they realize they're only good at killing. And they almost want to go back to it, because at least then they had a purpose.

[the-one-and-only-043]

[They smile.]

Why the hell not.

contrary to what is believed zoraxis actually has better benefits than the agency including but not limited to: all holidays off, at least a months worth of vacation time—fully insured dental, eye, health—etc etc idk i’ve never worked a job before /silly

[the-one-and-only-043]

How is your Zoraxis horrible? Well, you can elaborate or not. It depends on you.

Whoo boy.

Alright, I figured this one would come sooner or later.

Alright, so to start- I was kidnapped at 18, experimented on, tortured brutally, and forced to kill hundreds of people over the next five years.

I was not the only one. I was just the only one who could revive.

Sans used his authority to keep an iron fist over everything, often using the DJD (assassin team) to hunt down and kill dissenters.

I was kidnapped again, along with twenty others. I had a computer brain replacing my human one. I died eight times during the process. When I woke up it was to a strange program wreaking havoc with my body.

I was the only one out of twenty to survive the Eidolon project and remain sane.

One employee's three-year-old son was killed to teach him a lesson.

There's more than that, but that's all I can talk about right now without breaking down. Hope this helps.

Don't join Zoraxis. I'm not saying to join the Agency instead, but please, for your own sake-

Don't join Zoraxis.

[the-one-and-only-043]

I got kidnapped and tortured brutally for five years.

contrary to what is believed zoraxis actually has better benefits than the agency including but not limited to: all holidays off, at least a months worth of vacation time—fully insured dental, eye, health—etc etc idk i’ve never worked a job before /silly

[the-one-and-only-043]

That's what they get you with, and then at the slightest sign of dissent, they give you to the Possessor or whatever equivalent you've got.

And the benefits are only for Zor's favourites. The grunts don't get anything like that.

...Ask me how I know.

contrary to what is believed zoraxis actually has better benefits than the agency including but not limited to: all holidays off, at least a months worth of vacation time—fully insured dental, eye, health—etc etc idk i’ve never worked a job before /silly

[the-one-and-only-043]

Tarn knows better than to fuck with someone else's captive :3

and he's not stupid enough to fuck with Reggie /silly

Who is Falsus?

Meet Sicarius Falsus, known as Fal by their family cause saying all that is too hard

They're from a series of rp's that me and my discord friends have called the Runaways AU, they're an assassin and extremely traumatized

[the-one-and-only-043]

Don't you dare hurt the bird or else I'll let Tarn fuck with Cannon and tank their mental health further >:(

Who is Falsus?

Meet Sicarius Falsus, known as Fal by their family cause saying all that is too hard

They're from a series of rp's that me and my discord friends have called the Runaways AU, they're an assassin and extremely traumatized

[the-one-and-only-043]

Oh my god yes Especially right after they got into Reggie's care

do you perhaps have any prompts for when the living weapon is rescued and is just… so fucking awkward and doesn’t even notice. like no social cues existent (same), no sense of manners, social etiquette or politeness. they dont really talk unless spoken to first, but when they do speak they have absolutely no filter. this guy could murder everyone in the room but would not survive a high school lunch table

Oh hell yeah this is my cup of tea and my favorite brand.

Living weapon after they are rescued:

["long as I can remember" vibes]

Sorry it took me this long to answer! I was going through some stuff. I wanted to make sure i could give you quality content 👌 accidentally made too many though.

Eating as fast as possible and super messy. Everyone is just trying to talk and slowly stops as whumpee slurps their food down.

"are you ok whumpee?" "Yes, sorry, so sorry, I'm done. What do you need from me?"

Just casually leaning onto the table in a new tank top, and everyone suddenly notices the evenly-spaced scars down each shoulder. Clearly intentional. Everyone looks horrified at whumpee.

"Oh. I'm sorry. I forgot to cover, um," whumpee backing away flushing and covering their shoulders because they think their scars are gross.

Whumpee biting off their nails, picking their nose, other stuff they got used to doing whenever they had a chance because there was rarely any access to basic hygiene.

Or, whumpee coming in scrubbed and smelling like 5 different soaps because even the slightest smell of body odor triggers them

Whumpee sitting down stiffly, then stiffly mimicking others' relaxed posture when they see people staring. "Whumpee, it's ok, you can relax." "I am relaxed, I'm doing the relaxing thing. I've got this leg on the other leg just like you, what am I doing wrong?!" (Panicking that they're not following protocol!)

Right after being rescued, insisting that they're fine, because any touch feels like an attack.

Getting angry/defensive/paranoid when people show concern. They're not familiar with it and don't trust it at all.

Defending their abusers, forced laughter, panic in their eyes. "It was just a few lashes. Technically they were being merciful." "For refusing to kill a child!"

"I don't really have feelings, it's ok."

"Your OWN PEOPLE tortured you?" "No, torture is different, I've been tortured actually, it's not as scary, hah, uh," whumpee's voice falters as they freeze, that familiar sense of dread trickling down their spine as they flash back.

"I'm aware that you are saying you're not going to hurt me, yes. I understand completely. The concept." Whumpee smiles stiffly. "But do you believe me?" Caretaker pushes. Whumpee swallows, still smiling. "If that's what you want me to do."

When they hold their breath as they sit down in a comfortable chair for the first time in years.

This is going to have a pt 2 because it's really long!

[the-one-and-only-043]

I'm gonna >:3

Who is Falsus?

Meet Sicarius Falsus, known as Fal by their family cause saying all that is too hard

They're from a series of rp's that me and my discord friends have called the Runaways AU, they're an assassin and extremely traumatized

[the-one-and-only-043]

I'll put Magnus back in the ocean

Who is Falsus?

Meet Sicarius Falsus, known as Fal by their family cause saying all that is too hard

They're from a series of rp's that me and my discord friends have called the Runaways AU, they're an assassin and extremely traumatized

[the-one-and-only-043]

Lies

Lies and slander

Who is Falsus?

Meet Sicarius Falsus, known as Fal by their family cause saying all that is too hard

They're from a series of rp's that me and my discord friends have called the Runaways AU, they're an assassin and extremely traumatized

[the-one-and-only-043]

He's fiiiiiiiine

Who is Falsus?

Meet Sicarius Falsus, known as Fal by their family cause saying all that is too hard

They're from a series of rp's that me and my discord friends have called the Runaways AU, they're an assassin and extremely traumatized

[the-one-and-only-043]

Mags is fiiiine

He's having several crises at once because his siblings and their girlfriend defected to Zoraxis but he's fiiiiiiiiine

Who is Falsus?

Meet Sicarius Falsus, known as Fal by their family cause saying all that is too hard

They're from a series of rp's that me and my discord friends have called the Runaways AU, they're an assassin and extremely traumatized

[the-one-and-only-043]

(@eod-agent-13-12)

"Asking this to satisfy my curiosity. Do you like to hide in small spaces, 043?" 13-12 asked with curious eyes. After all, they have hidden in 043's office once or twice. They like small spaces.

Yeah. I have a little nest in my closet that I sleep in sometimes.

[They don't say why. They would if pressed, but they're not going to admit being afraid of accidentally hurting their wife without prompting.]