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It's my 10 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

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Please share for anyone that wants to talk about suicide or any mental illness.

If anyone needs to talk about anything am here

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I think about dying all the time. I think about people close to me dying and then think about my suicide because with all the pain I already feel, I can’t imagine how much more pain i’d be able to deal with if I lost someone close to me. So the best option is too die before everyone else.

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I should of cut deeper, swallowed more pills, hung the rope higher, or something … because being dead is better than feeling helpless, hopeless, unlovable, and unwanted.

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You call what I do nonsense. You think me hitting myself is stupid and am not using my brain. You use a tone like am a ten year old child. At least that’s what it feels like! Like am being yelled at all over again and you think that’s going to make me stop. I don’t know you but I know the voices in my head. Your a stranger so why should I listen to you. You ask me “don’t you want to get better”but how can I want something I’ve never experienced. I know what you’ll say. You’ll say you’ve seen me get better before. Maybe that’s my way of coping, put myself back in a box. You say the medication will take the pain away. But who gave you the right to take my pain away. You say suicide is not the answer so why REST IN PEACE when your no longer breathing. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem so why has the problem been there all my life.

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✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* reblog or like if you ever felt like this*:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

follow for relatbale original sad shit! i feel like im already dead, i hate everything about myself!

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Just because I smile for you doesn't mean that I wasn't thinking about cutting my wrists open at the same time.

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Dude, you know I’m doing bad when I escape to tumblr.

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Thinking your a superstar because you’ve been able to keep suicidal thoughts at the back of your head for a few months till they finally come through and you feel like such a failure.

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These past days have been the hardest of this year. Completely sick and tired of pushing away suicidal thoughts and basically living everyday because your too scared to disappoint anywhere, whether your meeting them for the first time, known them all your life or only for alittle while. Mentally and physically drained from having to think about waking up the next day. People saying they are here for you. I know they mean well but that in itself is another burden to bear. To live not to disappoint anyone when all you wanna do is DIE!

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