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[the-silent-fool]

Comic i made in class

[medusaesque]

Kim's itchy trigger finger

So, Kim reaches for his gun often. Very often. sometimes for the most ridiculous reasons- opening the bear fridge, the experiment in the church, a note from Klaasje.

This one is just from being anxious going into the communist reading group. Kim doesn't want to be the kind of cop who draws his gun constantly, who shoots instinctively, but he is, or at the very least it's very difficult for him to stop himself from becoming one.

Perhaps the most horrifying example is with The Pigs-

Even if he KNOWS the gun isn't loaded, even if he knows it's safe, the instinctual muscle twitch could have ended in an unnecessary death. Kim is very well aware of that fact, and it's horrifying to him. @shufflerock-jam has this really good post about it, where they wonder how many of Kim's kills were unnecessary. "Something about a pair of traumatized cops, one fighting against shooting himself and one fighting against shooting everyone else".

At the end of The Pigs exchange, if Harry says she tried to kill him, Kim begins to interject, but stops himself and agree this situation could've been very bad. Then Empathy chimes in- 'He's trying not to think about how bad it could have been had the gun been loaded.' Which is the heart of the issue, right? that leads us to Eyes-

This is such a fascinating background to give Kim as a character- not just losing his partner, which gives him the trauma and survivor's guilt that lead to this unhealthy relationship with his gun and frankly with death in general, but losing his Eyes, and having that not interfere with his shooting. Kim doesn't need to see well to hit, he doesn't need to think. It's all in his hands, a reflex. A reflex that nearly took an innocent life. That might have taken one before.

His awareness of looming danger, to him and to his partner, is fueling his version of Hand/Eye Coordination to have him constantly on edge, his whole body is like a loaded spring, always prepared to make sure it doesn't happen again. Then it does-

In his nightmare scenario, leaning over his partner's bleeding body, Kim only needs one word to shoot without a second's hesitation. He's never not ready to take that shot. He doesn't need his Eyes.

Harry is distraught to discover he's killed before- his body remembers it. He wants a drink to soften the feeling. Kim however is impressed with how little he's killed- especially coming from the bloody murder unit. He wants to be 'one of the good ones' (Kim's adamant belief in the possibility of a Good Cop is a whole other can of worms) the kind of cop he would think highly of. Kim is disgusted by cops who kill like it's a game. Espirit gives us a vision of a cop exactly like that, who kills so often it doesn't feel like anything anymore. In a way that is completely mechanical- no thought, no feelings, just a thing your body does. Not unlike the way Kim shoots- like a spring unloaded. Kim has 6 confirmed kills before the tribunal, double the amount Harry has. He doesn't react the same way though-

It's doesn't bother Kim that he has killed, even if he declines to elaborate on it, and he seems to frown upon (or worry about) Harry's destructive coping mechanism. If they're unable to save Ruby, he says "Control your emotions. We did our job. This won't be the worst thing that happens on this case… believe me. You can't let this break you." When you wake up after the tribunal, he doesn't dwell on the lost lives on either side. Harry's skills call him a killer, a bloodstained killer, but when he tells Kim he also killed he simply nods. He's smoking though. I'm not saying that Kim is heartless or careless, he's rattled by nearly blowing The Pigs' head off, very sorry for the lives lost during the case, and clearly hunted by death, having been surrounded by it for his entire life. But I do think death is a part of the job for him- not just possible civilian causalities, but his own potential death. He speaks plainly about how he might die in the lie of duty, and he narrowly avoided it more than once, with others dying in his place..

He walked into the line of fire with harry expecting for of them to die, and his quick fingers on the trigger made it so they lived another day. Even if more ghost joined the list that hunts him in his sleep, he is alive. He goes on. He can't afford to fix this habit, as much as he wants to.

So it's so horrible and so touching that when Dros asks "What have you done?" Kim says-

It's a tragedy, really. A wartime orphan who wanted to be a revolutionary pilot and played with Franconigerian knights, who grew up to be a cop, a job that slowly shapes his body into a killing machine. And when you ask what he does, what you both do, he says keep people alive.

[iveneverbeenmorestressedinmylife]

Lmao.

[dreamspring]

ismene/antigone; on being left behind

all highlighted excerpts from sophocles’ antigone, trans. hugh-lloyd jones // other excerpts in order: louise glück - tango / jodi picoult - my sisters keeper / unknown / mine / halsey - graveyard / unknown / mine / seamus heaney - the burial at thebes / mine

[millipedegf]

new haircuttt :-)

[thel1ghtningthief]

out of context cdverse memes part 7

[charliemwrites]

I'm currently sick as a dog, throwing up, the whole nine yards 😵‍💫 Do you have any brain worms regarding obedient being sick and price looking after her swimming around in that big wrinkly brain if yours? Only if you want to, of course! I just love price and mild angst, and you write them both soooo goood!!! Honestly I've loved every single thing about the keeper/kept AU with my whole heart!! ILY!!!

(P.S. Can I be 🏺 anon, please?)

Oooh what a great choice, 🏺! I hope you feel better soon! Sending you all the affection you’re comfortable receiving!

You woke feeling awful. Had a pounding headache, runny nose, sore throat. Your whole body ached even just laying there. When John tried to get you out of bed, you nearly started crying, so tired and icky-feeling. He caught on immediately though and offered to bring you breakfast in bed. You agreed, but even when he brought you plate of eggs, you threw it up almost immediately. Managed to get it all on the floor at least! Much easier to clean than the bed sheets.

John immediately calls off work to take care of you. You’d fuss about him getting sick but - well, he’s probably the one that got you sick, considering he’s the one leaving the house and going to foreign countries.

Still, you can’t find it in yourself to tease him about it where he frets over you the way he does. He tries to be subtle, but you’re piled up with pillows, warm packs, water, tissues, a puke bucket, and a laptop by the time he finally comes back to bed. He spends the day watching whatever you want, giving you cold medicine and cough drops, rubbing your back when you throw up. He takes your temperature religiously, thumb stroking the back of your hand or neck.

He even reads to you at one point - which knocks you right out into a much-needed nap.

[athenepromachos]

The Lord Poseidon 🦈🐙🦀🦞🦐🦑🐠🐟🐬🏛🏺

[evilios]

Apollo from Carthage

The main entrance doors of the Bardo national museum (المتحف الوطني بباردو ) in Le Bardo, Tunis, Tunisia, and a Roman statue of Apollo from Carthage, modern Tunisia, dating back to the 2nd century BCE. He's leaning onto a Delphic tripod.

Photo source: 🏺 🏺

[batatoooooo]

[bronzeageyuri]

Diasterius warm up doodle ...

[medusaesque]

random list of kim quotes that make me feel crazy

[jewishdainix]

when you're being mean to me this is who youre being mean to

[schizotypalpd-culture-is]

Stpd culture is "ohh so that's why I couldn't even make friends with other autistic people, it wasn't autism"

-🌿🍄🏺

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[millipedegf]

i fucking love jorts

[thel1ghtningthief]

lol what kind of idiot makes a fake camp schedule its me im the idiot

anyways

🏕 Camp Half-Blood Daily Schedule in the CDVerse 🗓

Opening: As a camp kid, I've always been bothered by the way canon/fanon portrays the camp schedule. THREE FREE CHOICE OPTIONS? For a camp with a maximum capacity of 400 kids? Yeah no thanks, Uncle Rick. And the fandom... I don't know if any of you ever been to summer camp because 'free choice' does not mean run around camp grounds with no organization 😭.

With that said, heres the rough schedule I threw together (based off of my own camp experience) + some notes!

Note: when an activity says its led by a cabin, i just mean the head counselor not the whole cabin lol

7:30 - Breakfast

8:30 - Cabin Clean Up - +technical free time if they clean up quickly

9:00 - Cabin Rotation #1 - See below

10:00 - Training # 1 - Half of Camp does Training #2 - See below

11: 00 - Free Choice - Chosen at breakfast. See below

12:00 - Lunch

1:00 - Free Time - Inside the Cabin area. Visiting other cabins is allowed as per counselors discretion

2:00 - Cabin Rotation #2 - See below

3:00 - Training #2 - Half of Camp does Training #1 - See below

4:00 - Free Choice - Chosen at lunch. See below

5:00 - Dinner

6:30 - Capture the Flag Prep - making teams, forming strategies

7:00 - Capture the Flag

9:00 - Bonfire - Sing-along led by the Apollo cabin

10:00 - Bed

11:30 - Lights Out

Cabin Rotations - 1st

1. Archery - Apollo Cabin

2. Sparring - Ares Cabin

3. Climbing - canonically with the satyrs, i was thinking led by Hermes

4. Arts & Crafts - Athena Cabin

5. Sports - Nike Cabin - takes place in the volleyball court, but other sports are played. occasionally plays beachside volleyball

6. Pegasi Riding - Demeter Cabin

Cabin Rotations - 2nd

1. Axe Throwing - Ares Cabin

2. Waterfront - Poseidon Cabin - either swimming or boating depending on the day

3. Dueling Strategy & Etiquette - Athena Cabin

4. Dream Interpretation - Hypnos Cabin - im so proud of coming up with this lmao

5. Forge - Hephaestus Cabin

6. Weekly Excursion - Argus - 3 cabins get to go to downtown New York, supervised by Argus and some of the older Satyrs and Nymphs

Training - 1st - Takes place in the Arena - Activity depends on the day, usually rotates

1. Monster Assault Techniques - Hermes Cabin

2. Swordfighting - Ares

3. Personal Weapons Training - Ares & Athena

Training - 2nd - Takes place in the Southern Woods

1. Real Life Practice - Argus & Chiron - i am aware a real summer camp would not let them do this, but they need to get experience somehow

Free Choice - 1st

1. See 2nd Cabin Rotations

2. Camper Lounge - Argus - they can just chill in the Big House for an hour lol

Free Choice - 2nd

1. See 1st Cabin Rotations

2. Camper Lounge - Argus

Other Notes:

- the whole 'visiting other cabins' thing is genuinely mainly so the vibe of the camp maintains that more chill, familial vibe we get in the book while still having a schedule and pretending its an actual summer camp lol

- there is a buddy system! the camp i went to had one so the rules for chbs are gonna be mostly the same: at least one buddy, doesn't have to be from your cabin but cant be the opposite gender, buddies are mainly to the washrooms & refilling waterbottles

- activities might be added & removed, this was a really quick lore dump tbh