#zoos really shouldnt exist

[hotmess-exe]

pleasant reminder that ZOOS SHOULDNT EXIST

this also brings to mind the entire online social media industry of ""rescuing"" baby animals. just a giant ring of people putting the same animals into different dangerous situations until they die off-camera. using kids and animals for clout NEEDS to be criminalized

Not to be a killjoy (though it is what I do best) but the unsafe and rough handling of a baby Pygmy hippo in a pretty substandard Thai zoo being meme-ed into something funny and cute really shows just how much groupthink plays into public perception of animal welfare.

Moo Deng shows avoidance, threat displays and stress around her keepers that are constantly man-handling her, blasting her with a hose and harassing her. The enclosure is mostly concrete, which is horrible for her soft feet. There looks to be some substrate but there doesn’t seem to be any areas for wallowing or deep water wading.

There’s also very easy access of this hippo to the public with no places to hide. I’d love if someone could shed more light on the enclosures but from what I’ve seen it’s not great.

Also the free contact and forcing into tubs that the keepers do is only going to create an avoidant and potentially aggressive and dangerous Pygmy hippo.

But the public happily overlook that because she’s cute. It’s a similar attitude with seals too.

Stop rewarding bad husbandry with clout. Baby animals deserve agency and respect and to grow up without getting harassed and feeling the need to defend themselves constantly.

[hotmess-exe]

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[letsfluxshitup]

i stop checking your blog for ONE SECOND and you’ve gone and come up w/ the schlaptain divorce fic. can’t leave you alone for any period of time flux /lh

anyways i LOVE the concept of it being nook n redd vibes... schlatt just appears in his house every once in awhile like ‘hey honey :)’ ‘we’re not even together. get out of here. stop breaking my windows’ he keeps filing restraining orders but they all keep becoming invalid for some reason?? schlatt doesn’t even do anything other than break into the captain’s house to cook breakfast and try to scam him out of his money. he’s going slowly insane

they both have custody of tubbo and are free to hang out with him but schlatt exclusively decides to bond w/ his son whenever the captain is trying to,,, mr. sparklez is like ‘okay tubbo let’s go to the zoo :]’ and schlatt is just. there. ‘fancy meeting you two here,’ he says, as if it’s pure coincidence that he’s at the zoo by himself at the same they are, ‘might as well just hang out together right??’ tubbo is enthused abt it! he gets to hang out with both his dads! Mr. Sparklez Very Much Isn’t.

Not me getting obsessed w/ another crackfic concept of yours :pensive: it’s a curse

- Saturn 🪐

LKSDJFLKSDFJKSLJF WAIT THIS IS REALLY GOOD THANK YOU

god i do really love the idea of schlatt intruding on their family time he just wants to at least Pretend at being a happy family and the capt is just. not at all enthused. schlatts in denial abt everything.

HWUH im thinking about mcc & tubbos origin & dream smp and many thoughts head full but nothing will stop me from willing this into existence, no matter how aggressively i have to twist canon

hmmmmmmmmmm iim only thinking about the capt coming to visit the smp for christmas and just being like “what the fuck happened to my boy? wheres schlatt? hes dead? what the fuck wheres my son?” like? why didnt anyone TELL HIM? also listen i really like the idea that the capts very much Not Happy but schlatts dead and everyone else didnt know tubbs was his kid so like? where is he supposed to direct this anger???

angsty mood of the capt being v upset with himself bc he let tubbs go through this for so long and tubbs is like “no its ok i have it all under control :D” and he like so clearly doesnt but is just putting up a front for the capt and like ! thats his son! his son shouldnt have to pretend in front of him! and huh that got sad anyways schlaptain divorce au

[matoitech]

Ppl really will see another person Existing and think that it's material to write a fic abt. The mentality of "I can write anything I want" is good in theory but not in practice as I see all these ppl making really shitty "aus" that have to do with disabilities or identities (though I think the most horrendously uninformed ones are the "system aus" jfc but the amount of cis ppl thinking they can write a trans character well is astonishing lmao) thinking they can just. Write whatever without doing research or better yet not writing abt an experience that they literally cannot have. Easiest way to upset these ppl is to tell them they really shouldn't be treating people's identities, disabilities, literal existence etc as fanfic material

SOOO TRUE THOUGH like i think things like doing research, talking to ppl, having beta readers, listening 2 feedback, Caring About The People Ur Writing About, etc is great but so much of the time ppl just dont want 2 put any effort in and do that, and dont want 2 accept that even if they try their best there r some things that they just simply dont experience and cant relate to and they gotta figure out where the line is with that so they dont overstep. and thats making the assumption that all these ppl have the ppl theyre writing about’s best interests at heart, bc a lot of the time they just dont and they dont rly care abt ppls actual experiences

and like there rly is that thing where some ppl will see ppl just existing in a way that seems Strange 2 them or even taking their like pain and suffering and being like i should write a fanfic about it :) like its just inappropriate and disrespectful and weird... we’re all people lol we’re not like. zoo attractions. even if u Think ur going to be able to handle writing smth well u may not end up being able to. like god sometimes ppl just need to recognize that they will not understand something and they shouldnt write About Being/Having Xyz if they dont actually gbfbhg. bring back the write what you know advice

[alexanderpusheen]

i have some feelings about how people treat age (i am thirty for complete transparency) and its ~nuanced~ but not really as nuanced as people think it is? these are my perspectives as a 30 year old survivor and educator. this is kind of rambly and doesnt have a conclusion, i just wanted to get it out of my head.

lets talk maturity like adults, especially those over the age of 21, have enough experience to know that their feelings and mindsets are vastly different than that of someone who is 15, 16, or even 17 or 18. i still remember what it felt like to be 12, i still remember what it felt like to be 15, and i still remember what it felt like to be 17, 20, 25...and honestly i wouldnt go back lmao. im MUCH more mature today than i was then.

the older you are the more life experience you have to know what is and isnt right. you learn how to deal with people simply because youve had more time to do so. in that sense, the older an adult is, the more of an ‘edge’ theyre going to have over a minor. so you can never have an equal relationship because you just know too much. 

on the other hand, i think theres this stigma against older people that goes beyond looking out for childrens well beings and goes right into ageism. i have this theory that most people have no idea what a 30 year old is supposed to look like. most people assume im in my early 20s for a bunch of reasons...either its my looks or my interests or whatever but i think there is this narrative that someone over the age of 30 must be married, popping out children, buying a house, working on their career, and definitely not doing silly things on the internet. 30 year olds are ‘serious.’ ‘mature.’ something that simply does not apply to me as a personality trait, but because time has passed i have to BECOME another person....i dont get that.

in my professional life i have a lot of contact with teenagers. i talk to my teenage students like theyre adults because i dont think theyre idiots. i feel like a lot of my colleagues tend to treat teens like zoo animals rather than taking their jobs seriously. educators are part of a childs education process. we help form who you are, whether we like it or not, so giving you age appropriate responsibilities (within reason, i also hate assigning lots of busywork homework) is part of our job. teens say dumb things because theyre teens but also i remember that once i had a fucking meltdown in english class when i was 14 because i got a B+ on a quiz and said i was going to work at burger king forever and my teacher actually reassured me in her own comedic way. so yeah, i remember being overdramatic and annoying too so i cant be critical of my students for that.

while i think the age dynamic between a teenager and an adult is something to take more seriously than some people online would like to, i also see a lot of full grown adults in their early 20s pretending that anyone over 30 is a corpse. it goes back to what i said about that narrative....30 is not the end of your life. in fact, i felt my life was just beginning once i turned 30. i spent most of my 20s in and out of mental hospitals and in treatment, learning how to function, and towards my late 20s i finally became a teacher and found that it was a fundamentally vital part of my recovery. but the ‘best years of my life’ aka my teen years and early 20s were all spent trapped in abusive relationships and processing trauma. now that im older, i feel i can finally start living.

maybe its because of my experiences but i really resent being told that im old just because im 30. im only five years older than some of these people who are like ‘dni if youre 30+!’.... like you are 25 years old there is no significant age gap or power differential between us??? do you think that once you turn 30 you stop liking anime and become some kind of sexually predatory liability towards....people in their mid to late 20s? 

the reason we talk about age is because adults, all adults, need to respect children and teens at their particular stage of development. i know teenagers hate being told theyre not fully mature yet but you arent fully mature yet. you arent adults. even if you were, you simply dont have that much life experience. its fine not to know everything. and there are people who know more than you who will try to use what they know against you. thats why discussion age dynamics is so important. because childhood developmental stages are a thing really even up until youre in your early 20s (but at that point it doesnt matter AS MUCH because once youre legally an adult you have more legal rights than you do as a child, as sad as that is).

i think a lot of this antagonism against people over 30 is that society generally values youth, which is pretty silly because society also gives children and teens little to no legal recourse. so there is this distinct antagonism there. youth is valuable perhaps BECAUSE of its capacity for exploitation. once youre older, you know better, and thus you cannot be so easily fooled. and thus, as a result, we all believe turning 30 means youre a dried up useless husk, because your buying power isnt as useful. your beauty (if you are a woman) is worthless because only barely legal teens are acceptable in a society that highly values youth....and we should maybe unpack that because thats highly uncomfortable isnt it? your reproductive capacity is worthless because biased scientists have told us that if you have a child over 40 you are GUARANTEED to produce DEFECTIVE CHILDREN!!!! its backed up by SCIENCE!!!! science says older women are useless and shouldnt have children!! even though we live in a world where genetic counseling exists and we can easily navigate those risks...but no, science says. 

the cult of youth is a cult of exploitation of the youth and one that devalues to the point of disposability of older people. and during the pandemic we are really starting to see just how little governments care about older people. in fact, its almost as if they are purposely killing them off...because they arent as important as the youth for some of the above mentioned reasons.

[yellowbluemoonshine]

Why Shigaraki can get redemption? Hints (give it a chance)

well first of all, obviously i am not sure about that but i would like to share what i saw with you guys so please give it a chance. and first, let me say this. i usually dont like villains and dont care that much. cause i hate when someone excuse their past  even though its understandable but this time, its different. this is my first expectional. and i didnt care redemption things that much in the past but this one is my first and i hope it really can happen. i never saw someone who deservers and needs redemption more than anyone else. he needs a hero more than anyone else.

and my favorite character is deku, second is shigaraki and thats why this redemption is important for me.i want real justice. and only this redemption can bring real justice to this story, i think. thats why i love deku, tenko and this story. i believe this is all about, this is what it supposed to be so hopefully you can read it. i believe, its worth it. (and sorry for bad eng btw)

1- GREATEST VICTIM:

if you really pay attention shigaraki s past and everything about him. he never had a choice but to be a villain. it was only path for him. “villain who had no choice but to be a villain. horikoshi said this in his interview. he didnt say it is shigaraki but shigaraki wqas the only villain who had no choice so).

people who doesnt know about (manipulation, abuse, dehumanized people, how you shouldnt raise a child, psychological torture and psychology) , cant see shigaraki as a human but monster. they ohly see shigaraki s present but if you really research about these things, shigaraki coulnt be something else. you can read the theories about these on my tumbrl or you can check on other people s tumbrl. abuse,victimhood and blah blah. it will help you to understand. if you read all of them, you can see how much victim he is, maybe.

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/184767559607/shigaraki-tomura-abuse-and-victimhood

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/185347164252/shigaraki-abuse-foils-and-desires

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/184767947307/shigaraki-s-speech-bubble

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/185094678537/gloomypear-hey-guysi-just-noticed

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/185304265272/slurpingsoba-i-saw-that-i-had-this-post-in-my

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/184769118987/what-is-shigaraki-gonna-do-after-he-learnt-about

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/184878444347/mourning

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/184975629107/mew-cake-i-like-how-through-the-sketchy

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/184769118987/what-is-shigaraki-gonna-do-after-he-learnt-about

https://galacticana.wordpress.com/2018/07/13/can-you-please-tell-me-more-about-tomura-shigaraki/

its not that. shigaraki is in constantly in pain and completely empty. yeah he cares about his comprades but thats it. he likes NOTHING. i mean, everything about him makes him more victim.

nothing will change the fact that tenko should be saved, no matter what happens.

2- TENKO - SHIINA - HANA :

did you ever read horikoshi s other series? tenko one-shot. oumagadoki zoo.

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/185435057607/hana-tenko-shigaraki-deku

first, tenko one-shot from horikoshi. there is a character that named “tenko”. main character. and that kid is really similar to shigaraki but he has different life. in that story, tenko wasnt manipulated by someone. he had tragedy but still, he was a good person with his own way. he was lost, broken whatever and in the end of story, he was saved by hana. hana save him from his curse.

oumagadoki zoo. shiina is shigaraki. now. he is an adult but mentally kid. no one manipulated him. and also luckiely he had his friends. he had a curse and trying to healing with his own ways. then hana came and well in the end of the story, hana saved shiina from his curse (it cancelled but it was the real end, i think)

in every story, shigaraki is a character who is lost, broken, dont know what to do and waiting for to being saved. he is a traegedy character in evrey series. no family, tragedy, they all have their own curse and blah blah. well, tenko from one shot and shiina from oumagadok zoo was luckier than shigaraki. in bnha, shigaraki is completely lost, broken. its like same people who has different life.

and in every story, hana is the one who saved tenko from his curse. if you really read these stories, real hana in this story is deku. so deku is the one who will save tenko from his curse. (it doesnt mean that it has to be same but still, hopefully it can happen cause i think it should happen.)

3- ) author is preparing deku to him understanding shigaraki:

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/184784638422/author-is-preparing-deku-to-him-understanding

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/185462390237/aysall-hanyuu7-replied-to-your-post-daily

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/184784640747/another-parallel-in-bnha-part-2

why shigaraki is a parallel with the all characters who saved by deku?

(not just this, author is showing to him faults of society)

bakugo, todoroki, kota, eri, mr gentleman (even hawks).

they were good victims but shigaraki was bad victim? shigaraki was DEHUMANIZED, he was groomed to be a villain. its really important difference. anyone could be like him.

for example, eri doesnt remember his father s death but shigaraki does. his pain is deeper than anyone else s. and overhaul didnt remind of her what she did cause he doesnt care about her. she was just tool. but for afo, tenko was important as his successor, as his product. he was needed to be manipulated. i think at first tenko also didnt want to hurt anyone just like eri thats why he was wearing the gloves, at first. something must happenned to change his mind.

stop underestimating and ignoring tenko s pain. cause i can see the kind, gratefull child who wants to be saved inside of him. he could be cruel, ungratefull like overhaul (he betrayed the man who took him and that man didnt even force him to being a akuza, he said you can go.) but even though, he was dehumanized, he didnt. he was always different from othner villains and always close to good side s victims. if you really think about it, you can see it too.

not just with parallels, he is doing with a lot of ways. he is showing to deku that something has to change. with heroes, with villains even with his quirk.

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/185347750102/about-decay

dont be surprised if he gets decay quirk from nana :)

btw i wrote all parallels in my tumbrl. you can check on.

4- MAIN CHARACTER:

a) deku shouldnt kill shigaraki

(even shigaraki kills allmight or someone who are precious to deku, even its inko or hana who is tenko s sister cause it wont change the fact that shigaraki no tenko still needs to be saved. enemy or not, there is someone who needs help, and you must save him. who, how, where, doesnt matter. this is the true hero

and deku is not the type who gets revenge or hold a grudge, even overhaul hurt a lot of people, only thing deku was thinking was “its a villain who needs to stop” not kill or revenge he doesnt think these kind of things.)

and i dont think he will. its not just about shigaraki. its about deku. its about just who he is. he is a hero, TRUE HERO and he shouldnt kill villain. he shouldnt kill his biggest enemy, no matter what happens. thats the certain difference between villains and heroes so deku wont/shouldnt kill shigaraki.

(and i wrote a lot about the reasons about this, you can check on my tumbrl.)

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/184876269697/why-shigaraki-hates-allmight-why-deku

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/184863066257/what-if-one-for-all-is-exist-to-save-all-for-one

b) i just cant imagine a future that deku s giving up on saving tenko. deku will eventually learn his story

i mean if he wouldnt learn, it wouldnt makes sense so after he learnt that how much shigaraki victim is,

we all know that deku will try to save shigaraki from his curse. you can say that shigaraki wont want that but the posibility that tenko s being a hero will always be there.

i mean he saved eri. shigaraki s condition is worse than eri so he will just give up?

it just doesnt fit deku s character. he should find a way no matter what happens. i mean come on, its deku that we are talking about.

i dont believe that deku would call himself a “hero” if he couldnt save tenko but deku said “this is the story how i became the greatest hero” so definitely he should save tenko

c) we have a main character who can change the future so

deku can smash shigaraki s fate about being antagonist and destroying everything. (interesting part is remember this, all “future changing/bending fate thing) is happenning to save eri who is parallel with shigaraki. eri is one of the biggest proof of that shigaraki should (hopefully will) be saved.)

d) deku and bakugou are learning “save and win” part.

so what if someone that you must defeat and save is the same person? answer is obvious. you should stop him, defeat him. (not killing him, obviously). and save him (giving him a new chance,hope, showing what hero means). i dont exactly know how it will happen though.

e) how deku can be greatest hero? how deku can show the difference between true hero and others?

the difference between deku and the others.

did anyone try to understand villains? did someone try to fix something before? no one did so only deku can do this. only deku can change things.

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/184873685777/why-deku-wont-become-symbole-of-peace-why

allmight cant do this or gran torino or someone else cause shigaraki isnt in a state that listen,understand,love someone. and he is the last boss. so at least he wont get redemption until the end of the story, until the last arc. he will face with deku. so only deku can do this

and deku might get some help about shigaraki s redemption from his friends maybe, who knows cause he is not the type that who fight alone. he will fight with his friends. unlike allmight. maybe unexpected characters will also help deku too about this, who knows. we will see.

and maybe until the last fight, we will all loose our hope about this redemption, not just we bnha fans, also all characters in bnha including deku but maybe last moment, deku will make some miracle, i hope he can.

he (his true hero soul) is my only real hope about this redemption. so we wont get real answers until the end, unfortunately.

5-STORY:

a) shigaraki is a very broken character and he is one of the most tragic victims in anime history

 and this a story about heroes, justice and showing their faults to heroes and made them better heroes so in these kind of story, shigaraki shouldnt stay as a victim but if they dont save tenko, he will allways be a tragic victim cause there is a posibility that he could become a hero will allways be there

b) shigaraki was ignored by the world when he was a kid.

so are you telling me that he will be ignored and abandoned by the world again? didnt everything happen cause of people s ignorance? it just doesnt fit this story. time to stop being ignorance.

c) you can say that he is the antagonist

but who said biggest enemy cant be redeemed? in the end of story, why not? after the big fight with deku maybe? cause we all know shigaraki is the last boss and will become the greatest villain so maybe greatest villain doesnt mean evilest villan?  it means the most dangerous villain maybe? and remember, people who are in pain are the ones who are the most dangerous. so its basically what makes shigaraki dangeours. his deeper pain. his victimhood is what makes him a villain. it still can chappen.

d) in this story, there are a lot of victims especially villains s backstory.

so someone has to change this and you cant change this while killing villains. you have to find something else, another way. especially shigaraki is a blow-back and you cant just destroy blow-back. if you do that, one day another shigaraki will be born and nothing will change but it will be worse

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/185341644322/hero-society-only-rewards-powerful-flashy-quirks

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/185017729452/what-the-villains-are-probably-gonna-do-to

e) not just villains, even in hero side there are a lot of people who are victims and a lot of people dont know what hero means. mostly of them are anti-hero. even deku dont know, he just following his hearth. saving shigaraki can show the world, not just to shigaraki, not just to deku s himself, to everyone. everyone can see/learn what hero means

f) deku always win his enemies and saved victims until now.

this is exactly why last fight will be so hard cause now, the person you must saved and stopped will be same. it will be amazingly so hard. it wont be just power fight. it will be more than that. thats why it will be so epic. just defeating enemy wont be enough, thats one of the amazing points in this story. also if this happens, it will make a difference between this story and others.

g) it would be cliche so it shoulnt happen ? everything is cliche in these days. and if shigaraki gets redemption and wont die, it would be something different cause author usually kills antagonist but what about something different, this time? antagonist is stopping being antagonist and being normal person?

btw protagonist deku should live hopefully, i dont want deku s sacrificing himself. (he should live to save more people in the future.) and “dont getting redemption” doesnt fit shigaraki s character, deku s true soul and this story. so it can happen. maybe author will do something extremely extraordinary. maybe deku will still live, tenko will live and tenko will be saved and it will still be fair, amazing and happy ending? who knows what will happen, we will see.

h) not even need to talk about author is keep reminding us that how much victim shigaraki is with secret hints. so hopefully it  can happen. i am not saying that it will happen, i am saying it should happen for the sake of everything. (i think)

5- TENKO ORIGIN:

look at this notes. i believe that his origin tenko is good. tomura is evil.

https://codenamesazanka.tumblr.com/post/184783095389/codenamesazanka-yet-another-proto-shigaraki

why we get shigaraki tomura distortion but not tenko shimura origin? did you ever think about why all for one worked so hard to turning him to a villain? i mean, he said “he was born twisted” maybe he is right shigaraki was pure evil, even when he was a kid. but i dont think its true.

a) if he is a pure evil, why afo messed him that much? why did he try to controlling him that much? psychological torture was unnecessary but why did he do it? why someone like him wasnt confidence enough about saying that cause he was sad while saying that, wasnt laughing. (not sure though) if he really thinks shigaraki is “pure evil” then why did he watch every move he did from camera? maybe he was talking about something else idk. but i dont believe that tenko is evil. i believe tenko is good. tomura is evil. i think afo sees shigaraki as his product, something he created. tomura is something afo created. this society created. (author is saying that, not me. so it cant be real him, i believe)

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/185569751072/why-did-all-for-one-choose-shigaraki-theory

A monster created by today s society. its not origin. why author or afo , why everything forced him that much? i mean, if he is a pure evil, then why author give him a this much tragedy? its so unrealistic and unnecessary. if shigaraki was a pure evil even when he was a kid, i would felt like being cheated cause its just makes no sense. cause otherwise, it would be like “i gave to him a lot of tragedies just to making a drama” and it would be so waste.

b) he wanted to be a hero........................................

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/184878069647/fumikage-so-tomura-tenko-found-out-about-his

if he never met All For One or if someone taught him what is right, if there is someone who was there for him, shigaraki wouldnt be a villain. he would be a hero just like todoroki, bakugou, deku :’) maybe he could be greatest hero and this story would be his story, who knows. for example, this part was unnecessary ok i get author wants us to feeling sorry for him but it was already enough??? i mean why author did go so far? it was already enough!!! this is too much, this is just makes him ultimate victim that we (at least, i) ever seen.

and you can say that his character isnt like this but actually it makes more sense. cause hate comes from love. so he hates everything and heroes so much cause there was a time that he loved them so much. he bileved them but they disappointed him probably.

nothing will change the fact that tenko is exist and he deserves better than this.

c) i believe tenko was like izuku who could be greatest hero but couldnt cause of some certain reasons. izuku and him are parallel who could be each other. so deku will fight with his parallel. shigaraki will face his old self. after this fight, hopefully deku win. hopefull, tenko defeat tomura. hopefully it can happen. saving your parallel. its what it supposed to be, i think. honestly, my biggest hope is deku but nothing else about shigaraki s redemption.

6-SHIGARAKI S POTENTIAL TO BEING A GOOD PERSON:

shigaraki character is evil and monster but he is a monster created by today s society and All For One so the real shigaraki isnt like that.

a) shigaraki isnt joker or thanos. he wants to destroy everything only cause of his deeper pain. “everything rubs me the wrong way.” this is true, author, afo, society, everything makes him villain. so they are forcing him. basically its not what shigaraki really wants in deep:

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/184719577087/what-is-that-shigaraki-really-wants

and interesting is shigaraki always being more broken lost and confused. he isnt finding his way. he cant understand a lot of things about life.

-he doesnt know what hero means so dont you think someone has to show him what hero really means?

-he doesnt see the difference between heroes and villains so d ont you think someone has to show him the difference (like not killing him or giving a new chance or with a lot of way)

-he is hopeless so someone has to give him a hope?

-he lost his faith in heroes, justice, everything. so dont you think someone has to make him believe again?

b) shigaraki isnt happy as a villain,

this isnt what he really wants. he is so dead so hopeless, so empty.

shigaraki hates everything cause they are remind of him the happiness he will never have again. so shigaraki basically hates happiness s himself. he wants to kill/destroy happiness. he wants to kill people s hearth. killing hearths, his main goal. well, killing people are second goal.

(but shigaraki s real wish is being happy, i think but he thinks he will never be happy again thats why he is doing this)

just like deku. deku wants to save people but main goal is saving hearths. opposite sides each other.

shigaraki likes nothing. he has no joy in his life. this is another proof of that his life is completey far away from happiness.

he even thrown up when he remember happy memory in chapter 227.

he felt happiness and it makes him sick? you dont need to be geinus to see how much far away he is from happiness.

yeah he cares about his comprades / people who are good to him but it doesnt mean he is happy with his life. only redemption can make him happy. destroying everything wont make him happy. and he knows that. he doesnt believe that he can be happy. this is why he is doing this. he just has no hope :’))).

only redemption can bring happiness to him even he end up living in prison, i believe he will be happier than now, also he will pay what he did. this is real justice, it supposed to be. his death wouldnt be justice or something like that. with every way, it would be tragic so i hope deku can give him a new life chance, despite shigaraki s crimes. hopefully.

c) there is still something good in him and always will. cause i believe its origin.

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/185348474272/why-is-league-of-villains-like-a-family

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/185350066687/secret-kindness-of-shigaraki-tomura-give-it-a

some people say redmeption doesnt fit shigaraki s character but i dont believe that people really understand shigaraki cause redemption cant fit more than this to a character so shigaraki can be redeemed despite his crimes. definitely it can happen.

d) everyone could be like him, EVERYONE or big posibility worse.

e) he is different from other villains. shigaraki is the only villain who really had no choice. he never was cruel like overhaul and didnt even think sacrifice people he care about him/ people who are good to him even though he hates everything.

(btw, if shigaraki gets redemption, i dont think he will abandon his comprades (as long as something unexpected thappenned or his comprades betrayed him)

so i dont think that shigaraki will be the only villain who gets redemption but to me, he is the one who definitely should get redemption. cause he was really in despair and he deserves this yeah even though everything, he did, do and will deserves this more than anyone else. yeah.

he doesnt deserve it? no he does and if he gets redemption, i am almost sure that he will regret everything he did. (and its the best punishment that can happen)

f) and remember this:

When you have to save someone, they're usually in a scary situation. A true hero saves not only their lives, but also their hearts... That's what I believe. So no matter how scary things get, give 'em a smile, as if to say, "I'm a-ok". The people in this world who can smile are always the strongest.Nana Shimura to Toshinori Yagi in "One For All"

and we have shigaraki, who 's hearth is broken, empty, full of pain. someone needs to save his hearth and who else can do besides deku, the true hero? but not by killing him. saving his life and hearth. yeah and hopefully it can happen.

yeah, you cant save someone who doesnt want to be saved but shigaraki does. he wants to be saved in his deep that he doesnt even aware of that anymore and he doesnt believe that he will be saved, happy, normal again thats his motivation as a villain. his pain is his weapon. but if someone heal his hearth, shigaraki s pain/weapon will gone, his reason to being a villain will gone and deku will win with his true hero soul.

g) characters like him usually gets redemption. The king Meruem from Hunter x Hunter, Gabimaru from Jigakuraku. (X from Dice. it didnt end yet. i will check on when it finished). (well even shigaraki was more victim than all of them). if you really understand shigaraki character, you will see: he is not like joker or thanos. he is not afo, maybe in the future he will be like him but it wont be the same cause he doesnt want this fate, everything forced him to that way. cause its not what he really wants, i believe.

you cant save everyone. (so in the future, deku shouldnt be like allmight like “i can do it alone and can save everyone its ok” but he should save tenko) yeah but shigaraki, tenko is there. he will be in front of deku. you can t save someone who doesnt want to being saved but in his deep, shigaraki wants that. he doesnt even realize this, i think but its what he really wants. so hopefully people can stop being ignorance and see that.

h) and i dont think that

one for all wielders would want to abandon tenko like that. especially nana who is gradmama of tenko, also tenko s inspiration in the past. also allmight too. but not just cause of he is nana s grandson. its cause of he is someone who needs to be saved, no matter what happens. they probably wont say like “save him” to deku cause they will believe that deku will do the right thing as a true hero.

i) what would be the best way of defeating All For One? afo really worked hard to turning tenko to tomura, his successor. if they kill shigaraki or they just defeat him and abandon him like that or they dont save him, shigaraki always will be a victim and it will still be afo s victory cause shigaraki s existence is proof of that heroes failed to save a child who desprately need help.

it will be burden of their hearts but if they save tenko/shigaraki, afo will completely loose and everything he did will be waste. one for all wielders will defeat afo and shigaraki with their true hero soul, if they save tenko. maybe after that, even afo saw the difference between heroes and villains. he will see. his brother will show him and finally it will be good guys s victory and it would be really epic.

so what is the problem about his redemptions?

1- he has no redemption moral right now. i mean he lost everything. lets suppose he wants to be good again but will he even get a new chance, normal life? i mean, he has no one he has nothing and his pain is still there. he is still in pain.

but for now, this is the case but it doesnt mean he wont get his moral in the future. its impossible? there is no hope?

who said that

2-he will go so far, shigaraki probably will destroy everything. he will be the greatest villain. he will do a lot of bad things and sometimes we will lost our faith in his redemption posibility.

will society even forgive him? or lets suppose somehow, he lived but can he even take all of this? can he live with that remorse feeling? cause it will be so hard for him.

it will be hard but its not impossible. miracles can happen (and i am waiting for that miracle), especially our main character is deku.

3-fandom. a lot of people dont want redemption cause a lot of people doesnt want this so author might change his mind cause of this? but if he doesnt, i think it would ruin the story cause shigaraki s character isnt made like that. hopefuly fandom dont affect his story.

4-this interview. he said shigaraki can no longer turn back. i have no idea what does it mean. so shigaraki cant be tenko again? idk. actually only this interview took my all hope and also fandom s ignorance. besides that, i was completely sure that tenko will be saved. and i heard author loves marvel, star wars, tragic things, bad ending, dark things?

so i wonder he would sacrifice this character cause its too late? cause it would be so hard to save him? “death will be the only salvation”??? (its ridicilous) cause author pushed him so hard? cause fandom wanted like that? honestly, my opinion it would ruin everything in this story about cause its just doesnt fit everything in this story. tenko who needs a hero more than anyone else, shigaraki s broken hearth, deku s true hero soul, a lot of victims in this story, heroes are learing their faults, the fact that something has to change, showing the what true hero means

(this kind of story shouldnt have tragic victims and if they dont save him or kill him, shigaraki alwqays will be a victim cause we all know if that tragedly didnt happenned, if there was someone for him, he wouldnt be the way he is now so they should save him and shouldnt kill him, obviously and hopefully)

and blah blah a lot of things. so hopefully it can really happen cause this is all about. so hopefuly hopefully hopefully it can happen :’))).

but idk what author means that. maybe he wil do something really unexpected and maybe he will still save tenko but with different ways (not killing) and we just dont know yet?

cause author said “villain who had no choice but to be a villain” i am almost sure that he was talking about shigaraki and he said villain who can be saved story should get reward? idk maybe he will surprise us? maybe he will save him cause his story is telling me he will be saved but this interview made me confused. hopefully he can do something really amazing.

https://savetenko.tumblr.com/post/185456913512/bnha-redemption-why-you-shouldnt-hate-redemption

redemption doesnt mean that he wont pay his crimes. feeling remorse is the best punishment that can happen. it will also the person s himself to him finding the right way.

why i write this? i talked a lot of people and a lot of people dont want redemption for shigaraki but weird part is i never met someone who looks the big picture here. people who dont want redemption for shigaraki:

-people who ignores the fact that shigaraki is completely victim who had no choice and every could be like him,

-people who dont care shigaraki s character and not even trying to understand,

-people who love shigaraki as an evil but they cant face the fact that shigaraki is NOT happy as a villain at all. they sees LoV as a normal family and they thought they are happy together but its so unrealistic. if they were really hapy, if shigaraki was happy, his hearth wouldnt be empty and he would loose his reason to being a villain so :) and not even need to talk about, big posibility its not shigaraki s origin so its not real shigaraki

-people who sees somethings but not full things, well i think am a little carefull about these things. i never met someone who saw all things. yeah some people understand that shigaraki s abuse or maybe parallels with eri or kota maybe? but no one talked about deku s similirtiy with hana and no one said LoV isnt family. i mean its like everybody has some peace but no one has big picture. thats why i wanted to show this

there is no hope for shigaraki? its impossible? its too late? i dont believe that. its never too late to save someone.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3taZqA0FTQ0

“hero’s job...is to risk his life to make the lip service into reality” cause its all about. there will be times that even me, everyone ‘bnha fans, shigaraki, deku allmight, everyone) will giving up on shigaraki s redemption cause story will be go so far (maybe redemption hints will decrease or increase) but when we thought that its too impossible, arent the heroes the ones who should give us a hope? isnt this all about?

(and in the future, we will all forget this maybe cause shigaraki who is evil, monster now will do a lot of bad things, he will laugh, he will kill, he will destroy (specially after he learnt about afo, he will be more dangerous than before and it will be really scary but tenko, his real self always be there even though we dont always see it. and more importantly,

nothing can change tenko s despair. nothing will change that horrible past. he didnt choose this fate, didnt want to be like that. its not what he really wants, i believe. well, nothing will change the fact that he didnt deserve this and he deserves better than this. the posibility that he could be happy, hero, have better life, better person, someone like nana. this posibility will always exist. nothing will change that despair eyes of tenko. so he will always be worth of being saved. not only cause of its so tragic, its also cause of simply, his horrible tragic backstory (his all life) made him like this. story will change and go so far but never forget that tenko s despair, his hopeless, empty dead hearth and his INFINITE PAIN.)

and if you really think about what hero means, answer is simple. deku should save tenko. listen this music. this music is giving me a hope sometimes. :))). this is so obvious. this is what it should happen and hopefully it can happen:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RRkIQ1Djlbs

when your hopes gone about shigaraki s redemption, read this and let me be your hope. let this theory be your hope. cause i will do that. :). hopefully, our hopes wont be wasted :’))). i really hope that. hopefully, everything will be fair, happy and good. hopefully. :)’D

(there might be things that i forgot to to tell but for now, thats it. if you read everything, thanks and hopefully you got me. if you like it, please reblog it. i dont care being famous but i hope a lot of people can see this.)

[smolragematti]

Some questions/concerns I still have about Steven Universe (as of "Now We Are Only Falling Apart). Possible spoilers?

Also because I know that at this time this fandom is QUITE divisive with the current events. You can love something while still being critical of it. This is my opinion, and I dont expect anyone to agree.

1. Pink shapeshifting into Rose. So is the shifting position of her gem just a Diamond ability? Or is it just a "we needed to make this twist work but didnt think about the implications" cuz its still feeling like the latter to me. If if it comes out as, its only a diamond ability, thats fine I guess, just a little... shifty. She is a round cut of diamond that just so happens to also be able to shift her gem to be the exact same as a Rose Quartz cut of gem... Hm. Yeah. Okay. Not happy about it, but Ill accept that.

2. As I reblogged a previous post, I feel like the actual story is somewhere in between what Pearl is saying and what Steven's flashback was. Because the wording for the flashback made it out to be Pink more or less offered excuses as to why she couldnt finish the job rather than telling them that she saw value finding a harmonized way for gems and organics to live on Earth. (You can use Peridot as an example as why Yellow wouldnt listen, but this is post-Pink when Yellow has a lot of hostility towards Earth and also wouldnt listen to a "Peridot") It was a clever idea to not show what Pink actually said to the Diamonds and Pearl probably thought that her excuses were a valid attempt to reason to reason with her fellow Diamonds. Yellow and Blue seem like frustrated parents. Pink threw a tantrum about wanting her own planet, they gave her one probably to get her to stop/shut up, and she turned around and said she didnt want it. Which to them, makes her immature because they thought thats what she wanted. They were trying to give her what they thought she wanted. Rather than her telling them straight up. She says they dont care because theyre giving her tough love. She acted childish for so long that they put their foot down and didnt not want to hear anymore of it.

3. So the other Diamonds made the Zoo... but Pink and Pearl had been there and still didnt think to use her power to sneak those humans out and save the other Rose Quartz?

4. Speaking of Rose Quartz, with that it means that Rose Quartz gems were in existance at least enough for Pearl to know that dressing as one would work. Was it Pink who bubbled them away... in the Zoo? Why not keep them bubbled on Earth instead? If it wasnt Pink, then who? Why the Zoo? And was Pink(and thus Pearl) aware that they were dooming an entire cut of gem?

5. I know its more of an episode length issue, but I somewhat wish there was a bit of a lapse with Pink learning to love the Earth. Rather than boom in the kindergarten, boom seeing the top area of Earth, boom immediately loving it. Even Garnet's (albeit it propaganda) retelling made it seem like she spent more time with the outside.

6. Let. Sapphire. Be. Angry. Again, I know its an episode length thing, but she made a valid point about why she was angry and Pearl's story shouldnt just negate the valid reasons she has to be angry at Rose/Pink. You can understand a character without believing that what they have done is justified. (Its currently how I feel about Lotor) But sapphire seems to a okay now that she knows the story (Kinda hoping the other episodes prove me wrong about this)

7. I know about the spoilers for the rest of this arc that got released on the podcast and Im sitting here knowing there is 3-11 minute episodes and a 30 minute one left, that how they will get to the big one and resolve it... has me a bit concerned with pacing. I even have gone through after a single pale rose and marathoned the series, the pacing issues are still kinda there and the townie episodes (while still kinda important) drag on a bit longer than one would like.

8. I still want to know how Pink managed to lead a rebellion as Rose AND be Pink Diamond at the same time. She clearly eventually had enough gems to eventually have a legitimate court on her own (palanquin included) without no one really noticing. Much less how they never suspected maybe Rose isnt Rose, she clearly has powers other Rose Quartz do not have. Thats not the slightest bit suspicious to the aliens who know that certain gems have certain powers. Healing gems is not a Rose Quartz natural power. Its Pink's.

9. Uh, where is Peridot???? And the one eyes kitten?

Thats really it.

Still enjoyed the episode, Ruby and Sapphire broke my heart. Waiting for the rest.

[smiileing-cxaster-blog]

TAGGED BY: @grimchances TAGGING: Any one who likes layers

LAYER ONE: THE OUTSIDE.

NAME: Samuel Williams Smiles Upshur   EYE COLOR: Left eye: Blue, Right eye: The same...Maybe? HAIR STYLE/COLOR:  Fluffy and messy, dyed yellow and black HEIGHT: 8′1″ CLOTHING STYLE: Formal, but still a bit on the casual side with his work outfit, usually wears yellow, black, or sometimes white. BEST PHYSICAL FEATURE: His smile of course! He constantly has one on his face, no matter the circumstance, he’ll make sure to be smiling though it all!

LAYER TWO: THE INSIDE.

FEARS:  Failure, being forgotten,and ,strangely enough, Bleach GUILTY PLEASURE(S): Fights, and by fights I mean the kinds that will possibly leave someone in the hospital later. Nothing like having your life on the line to get your blood pumping. Also at times he does dabble in drugs, from cocaine to vapes. BIGGEST PET PEEVE(S): People bringing up the crash with his coaster constantly, people bugging him for free rides, ‘Downers’ AMBITIONS FOR THE FUTURE: He wants himself and his ride to be remembered for generations. He wants to make a positive impact in people’s lives, rather it be small or large. 

LAYER THREE: THOUGHTS.

FIRST THOUGHT(S) WAKING UP:  “Wheres Sutin?” “Wounder what today has in store for me.” WHAT YOU THINK ABOUT MOST:  How his friends/ coworkers are doing, How can he make someone happy, where he can get his food, how his coaster is doing, how his other coworker's coasters are doing, ect. YOU THINK YOUR BEST QUALITY IS: He thinks the same as layer one, his smile. He thinks when he smiles others will too.

LAYER FOUR: WHAT’S BETTER?

SINGLE OR GROUP DATES:  He prefers to do things one on one with his partner. But at times he will tag along with other dates, if his partner is up for it. But he will group up if he isnt that confident with dating. TO BE LOVED OR RESPECTED: He wants both, he wants to be loved by others, but also to be respected like he respects others. BEAUTY OR BRAINS:  He’s more of a brains guy. Hes pretty smart for a guy that runs a coaster. DOGS OR CATS: Cats, Since he does have one, her name is Sutin

LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?

LIE:  If it comes down to like or death, he very much will. BELIEVE IN YOURSELF:  On the outside, yes, but inside, not so much. BELIEVE IN LOVE:  He does, but most of the time he honestly forgets love exists. WANT SOMEONE:  To be there for him, to support him, to tell him he’s not a failure, that he’s needed and loved.

LAYER SIX: EVER BEEN…

BEEN ON STAGE:  All the time at his job. He’s the face of The Smiler anyways DONE DRUGS:  Yes... He still vapes (RARELY, but its when ever hes INSANELY stressed.) CHANGED WHO YOU WERE TO FIT IN:  When he was still in grade school, he constantly did, just to survive the awful attacks from other kids. And even when he was an adult, he changed constantly when he was with his Ex, just to keep an unstable and toxic relationship that he was forced to think that he would die with out her.

LAYER SEVEN:  FAVORITES.

FAVORITE COLOR:  Yellow FAVORITE ANIMAL:  Bees FAVORITE MOVIE:  He doesnt really watch movies... FAVORITE GAME:  Childish, but its Hide and Seek.

LAYER EIGHT:  AGE.

DAY YOUR NEXT BIRTHDAY WILL BE:  May 31 2018 HOW OLD WILL YOU BE:  36 AGE YOU LOST YOUR VIRGINITY:  16 DOES AGE MATTER:  To him yes, he usually has a limit to a 10 year age gap, anyone beyond that age group is just considered a friend.

LAYER NINE:  IN A PERSON.

BEST PERSONALITY:  Someone who looks to the bright side of things, someone who likes thrills, who doesnt mind his extensive energy and happy go lucky nature. BEST EYE COLOR:  He has no preference BEST HAIR COLOR:  Ditto as above BEST THING TO DO WITH A PARTNER:  Anything for fun! Going to different theme parks, going on long walks, going to zoos, arcades, or just anything that could help get him to know the other person more.

LAYER TEN:  FINISH THE SENTENCE.

I LOVE:  “my friends!” I FEEL:  “happy!” I HIDE:  “... Alot of things that shouldnt be shared here.” I MISS:  “... HER. I msis her, though very small, I still kind of do.” I WISH:  “I could make everyone life a bit more happy. even if its for a little while.”

[strawberryspeachy]

Man. I really am a cat person I guess

My last cat died almost a year ago... but i didnt even get to be with her. She was young and i left her with my best friend when I moved to Japan. She had seizures...

I really miss her

I miss all my babies

But im feeling serious pet withdrawl. I have NEVER been without pets for this long in my LIFE. I grew up on a farm. I only went to college for like 3 months or less at a time and got to go home and see my babies

I want a kitten SO BAD - ive always thought that when I get my own clean place that I wont get animals because I always wanted to be able to keep a place clean and not having cat hair alllllll overrrrr alllllll my clothes was nice in college

But I NEED A CAT. I NEEDDDDDD TO FEEL THE PURRING. I NEED KITTY KISSES AND CUDDLES AND THEIR LITTLE mew mews

I feel starved for real

So many of my cats have passed and I know any future cats will before me as well

But i still want them

Dogs though

I fucking ADORED my dog

I begged my mom for my own puppy for YEARS before Kiki was sent to me from the universe basically. Her moms owners husband threatened to kill her and her siblings if they werent gotten rid of. So my family took them at about a month old - just old enough that they could survive without their mother

There were 6-7 of them. And they were all normal puppies except for my Kiki! She was always staring at them like they were annoying and preferred to sit in the back of their pen away from their jumping. When they came out to eat and play, shed find a quiet spot to eat and then go hide under the couch (it was funny cause they all moved too much and my mom and i couldnt count them when we put them away because they kept moving. So wed just assume we got them all - then a couple hours later Kiki would emerge from under the couch yawning and wed be like oh! There was another puppy!)

I remember debating between a couple of the puppies when my mom hinted that I could keep one. But ultimately I chose my Kiki. I didnt even have a particular reason why - I was about 7 and I remember imagining how if I chose one of her siblings I’d finally have one of those movie dogs. I did of course like that she was the runt - but there was something else about her

As I grew up and became more isolated and miserable myself (not to say Kiki was miserable by any standard. But she was a very picky dog with an animated face) we just matched

Kiki honestly got happier after all her siblings were adopted out. We played all the time when she was a puppy. And as I got older, I didnt want to go roll around in the snow or go for long as hikes. And while that would upset most dogs - honestly Kiki seemed content to be let be. Like she seemed to have age the same as me and we were both like - dude. Im glad you dont wanna play all day long - i need my me time. (And by me time i mean we were both happy to just exist in the same room together)

Wed both get random spurts of energy and play for an hour or so instigated by the other

There was this mac and cheese I ate and never finished and I would give the leftovers to her - there came a time that when she smelled it she KNEW and the second i looked like I was done her head would shoot up - she was ready

Sometimes my mom would eat half and Kiki would look at her like - the fuck?!

And my mom would tell her sorry i know this is yours

She was the best fucking dog. My best friend. We understood each other. We loved each other.

It still makes me cry having to remember her finaly days. She got cancer. I had to put her down. She was almost 13 - which is young :(

And I still cant bear the idea of getting anther dog.

My cat was 18 when she passed. She lived in my room for reasons. And I had the same relationship with Star. I miss her so dearly and no cat could replicate or minimize those feelings

But i still want cats

But.... not a dog.... and I think it’s because. And I always knew it

Kiki was so different from other dogs. We matched personalities - but because Kikis personality was closer to that of a cats than a dogs.

I never look for an animal that reminds me of one from the past. It sounds too cruel first off. And meeting new personalities is wonderful. Im still kinda sad that I couldnt adopt a cat from a store who wanted to play fetch in her cage and who i fell in love with right there and then. I hope she found a good home 😭

But most dog personalites dont mesh with me. I like them. I wanna play with and visit them. But i dont wanna own them.

My best friend who basically lives in a zoo felt the same way about her first dog. I kinda think maybe its because we just connected with our dogs as children and while they were puppies. Connected intially because we were similar and then as we grew together - our dogs - understanding that we too were children - took care of us. Like a reciprical parent child relationship and so we grew up with dogs who took on our ways of interacting. They understood that regardless of what was going on - we had unconditional love for them which stopped that dog urge of - constantly trying to prove to you that theyre worthy of your love. And they know you - for example. Kiki still did bad things sometimes - but she’d avoid things that she knew really bothered me. Maybe shed decide to chew something up, eat something she shouldnt, or poop where she shouldnt —— well in her case - shed purposely target things that didnt belong to me. Or poop in a spot where i didnt usually walk

My family would get mad at me about it - why whenever your dog misbehaves, its never YOUR STUFF ?! Cause she knows its my stuff

Yeah. Just. I miss my pets. My dog was perfect. And i want a cuddily kitty purring next to me right now

[judool]

i miss my best friend. i miss her a lot. it’s not that she died or anything, but everything about our friendship crumbled and turned to dust when i moved away. i always felt bad about it. she was the only friend to show up at my old house at 5 am before we left. i dont know how i didnt cry but it broke my heart watching her walk back home from my house as the moving truck drove away. i didnt cry back then, but the memory is making me cry now because it just hurts. i dont know where it went wrong. the first few times icame back to visit my dad was fine. she’d come get me from his house (45 minutes away) and we’d drive back to our neighborhood and have a good time hanging out and talking. and then after that it felt like i was a burden. id text her and try to set something up for next time. it always seemed like something convenient would happen to where we couldnt hang out. where id just be stuck at my dad’s for 3 weeks straight. my other friends dropped me instantly when i moved, like i never really mattered to them in the first place. and maybe i didnt. i always had to butt my way in to conversations and practically invite myself to the things they did. maybe they never really liked me all along and they just tolerated me. but my best friend was always there. she’d been there for me since were we 5. 

we were close. people always thought we were sisters. we even bought the same swimsuit on accident one year without telling each other. she was one of the first people i told when i got my period. her parents treated me like i was their second daughter too. i could always walk into their house unannounced and nobody minded. my own mom also treated her like a second daughter. my dad was always an asshole to her though and i will always resent him for it. i was always at her house every weekend. it was my escape. our friendship was my escape. the fights my parents had with each other didnt matter when icould leave and go a block away to her house. i spent every weekend there. we’d run around the entire neighborhood, even finding a secret broken fence that we could go through and nearly be right by the interstate. i remember being so sad one halloween when her parents bought her a sakura cosplay costume and i couldnt convince my parents to get me an ino one. i wish i would have forced myself to go out on the last halloween i spent there even though i was sick. i didnt know it would be my last. 

ill never forget all the stupid youtube videos we watched on her dad’s computer in the basement. all the shitty youtube poops and cringy naruto chatrooms. or all the time we spent talking on the phone during the airing of new naruto episodes, or while we played animal crossing. my dad always yelled at me for being on the home phone so often but i didntcare. 

i miss her so much but she changed an awful lot after i moved. i wonder if i would have changed like her if i stayed. i wonder if i would have gotten arrested for smoking weed in her car with her. i wonder if i could have kept her out of trouble. i dont know. all the times i went up to my dad’s, he always asked if i would be seeing her and i never knew. even though id try to plan with her months in advance, something always magically came up last second. so i just stopped trying. i stopped telling her when i would show up, since it wouldnt matter anyways. it just felt like i was nothing. it still feels like im nothing. part of me wonders if she felt relief when my dad died. i wonder if she was relieved that i wouldnt have a reason to visit anymore. a reason to bother her. the last time i went up was for my step grandad’s 100th birthday. i tried making plans with her months in advance, and magically the day before she has to take her mom to a doctor’s appointment. 

i didnt know what i was expecting. i wasnt surprised. i felt bad asking my mom to take me and my bf to the zoo, but she had an old friend who lived near in that area so she said it was fine. i still felt like a burden. i felt like shit and i felt stupid in believing that anything had changed. we even went back to my old neighborhood and drove around. we drove past her house too, and my mom asked if i wanted to see if she was home. i just told her no. she never asked about it, but i think she knew that i was done. i was tired. a friendship of almost 10 years just. gone. like that. 

i know i shouldnt miss her because in the end, she probably stopped caring about me. but god it fucking hurts. everything about it hurts. i miss her. i miss all the fun we’d have during the summer, or during breaks from school. i miss trick or treating with her. i miss running around the neighborhood with her. i wholly believed she was my platonic soulmate, and then my parents got divorced and i moved away and everything just crumbled like sand between my fingers. i just hurts and i dont know what to do about it. my head is a jumbled mess and i have so many regrets and intrusive thoughts about ever leaving. it keeps me up at night and it haunts me. among other things, but it feels like a stab to the chest every time. the memories are there but they feel like they’re from a lifetime ago. they feel like they’re from someone else that wasnt me. i just want to stop thinking about it and stop remembering it all so i can stop feeling regret and stop feeling so shitty but i cant. i cant stop my brain wont let me. evyerthing is just crumbling down and i cant stop it. i bet my dad would still be alive too if i stayed. i would have gotten onto his ass about his health. even through all the pain he caused my mom and the horrible financial situations he put us in because of his drinking habit and car habit he didnt deserve to die and i hate it. i hate it and i hate that my brother had to be up there and deal with it all because he was so young an ddidnt deserve it. he was only 14 and he saw his own dad dead on the hospital bed and there was nothing he could do. i thought i could trust my dad’s girlfriend but she was a bitch and she let him die she let him die and i cant forgive her she’s a nurser she should have known heart attack signs and called 911 right awya instead of waiting. she killed him and icant ever forgive her and i hope she gets what she deserves.

god this is devolving really quick and i cant sotp it im so sorry i cant i jsut need to get this out because my brain jsut wont stop and i  cant stop thinking i cant stop crying i just want to stop existing for a while. but i dont want to die because i have too many people i care about anf theyd be so sad so i have to sstay. nobody online would know what happened and i cnat do that to them i lvoe them all so much. im sorry this is getting really bad i just wanted to get my thoughts out there and it turned into a mess. ill be okay i always am so please odnt worry im just. really really. i dont even know how to describe it. 

i dont think i m going to be able to sleep well tonight but i have to go and try it’s alreayd so late

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here’s the thing, im at a point in my life where i dont really want to die, i have people who love me and im doing really well in school, but my family and everyone else is making me feel like the most ethical thing i could do is kill myself becuase i shouldnt exist and make everyones life harder and whatever its probably true, but i dont want to kill myself for my mother or my grandmother or for /anybody/, i don’t deserve to exist fine whatever, and i know its selfish and spiteful and awful but IM NOT KILLING MYSELF FOR YOU. the people who would be worse off if im dead dont outbalance the people whod be better but i dont CARE, im not DONE YET, thats selfish and disgusting and probably evil but /im not done yet/ what if something really cool happens tomorrow? what if i get to go see madi sooner than a nonspecific future date? i havent gone to the ohio historical society yet i really wanted to do that, or seen the toledo zoos renovated aquarium i wanted to do that too, and i know thats stupid petty reasons to not make peoples lives better and i cant say its not fair bc if i dont deserve to exist that doesnt apply to me but i WANT to if i have to die give me time til i dont want to keep going anymore im sure itll happen it might take a couple years but let me HAVE THAT god i really want to be married to madi, i /really really/ do more than ive ever wanted anything and i dont care if its evil and selfish they love me and i love them and i want to do that, give me time to do that, call me all the awful things you want to but let me live long enough to do that i dont care if its ethical and i know thats awful so dont scream at me

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Hello! I'm going to start answering the old ask first and then the one about the show, okay? Last week was busy? Because of Mother's Day? Or something else? I dont know if i have to cheer you up saying "dont worry, this week everything is going to go back to normal", or if i shouldnt because that will mean you'll get bored at work🙊 Did you brought the ballons finally? (1)

HIIII LOVE!!!! Ufffff, I didn’t realized Mother’s Day meant May was starting,jajajaja. May is our August. We have A LOT of places to go to make candy bars, do you know what it is? Well, we put it on communions, weddings… and we have a couple every weekend. So we make the things we put on the bar during the week. It’s a lot of work for all of us, but it’s the month we make the most money,jajajaja, so 🤷🏻‍♀️.I FORGOT the balloons 🤦🏻‍♀️😔. I totally did. I didn’t think about them till a bit before the show started, lol. It would have been so cool, but I totally forgot.  

U didnt go to a lot of concerts? Dont say that! I’ve only gone to 2/3 shows. Not much. & much less this days, with so many festivals. Oh, yeah. Ed came some years ago, but i was too young. Uh, i feel u, the sale of the tickets was crazy. Like, we were supposed to go to see him in Mdd, and we ended up in Bcn, & with another kind of ticket, not the one we had agreed to buy. But totally worth it!! I know he has a reputation for being tedious and repetitive, but his sound live is not like that. (2)

Oh, there are so many concert and festivals these days. I guess I never was a kid to ask my parents for a lot of things, and I never really had someone who I liked enough to ask to go concerts,so 🤷🏻‍♀️. But I love concerts. The ambient… well, I already told you,jajaja. It feels like you’re around your people, or at least to me, bc I don’t know anyone in real life who likes the same music as I. And I loved it the time in the line,jajja. It was like we were camping. I don’t know, jajaja, it felt right. Ed has that reputation? I dididnt know about it. I’ve see a couple of videos, and I found it so difficult what he does,jajja, with the guitar and the pedal he uses to record his voice and all that.

HAHAHAHA. I am laughing because now you have not only managed to find a Larrie at Harrys’s show, but also at Niall’s!! Either there’s many of us, or you are a Larrie Magnet😂 How can i do the same?? Show me. She keeps up because i have tumble, and her bffs also have tumblr and twitter and they share the news on the groupchat. I mean, she doesnt know everything (no one does) but we tell her the important things.(3)

Jajajajajja, I think I’m s larrie-magnet,🤣🤣🤣. Hey, you have your own larrie-pal at home, what more do you need??? Jajaja. (I have my own anti at home, so…). You tell her important things??? I hope you’ve tell her about Louis last night!!  Jajajja mymy, did you see him??? I missed him so much. He looked so good. And he’s so good. Ay, I could cry,bc he deserves a lot better from everyone, from life… You know “hay gente que nace con estrella, y gente que nace estrellada”? Well, I always think that about Louis. He never gets it right. But I really hope the future holds only good things for him. :/Well, your sister and her friends sound more organized than me, jajajajjaja. I’m now in a group chat, ajajaja, we’ll see how that works, or if I have Togo out bc they talk too much,jajajaja (I’m old, my phone ringing too much, makes me cranky🤣🤣🤣🤣👵🏻)

Yes, men suits tend to be more boring. Harry need to do something, but at the same time, dont. Harry + red carpets + cool suits + HQ pictures = my dead. Oh wow. You really are half-witch. JAJAJAJAA. Me as your sister trying to take profit of your hability. Isnt she smart?😂😂 did you really guess the birth of the little girl? How? (Can you guess the end of BG too? Pls end it). Oh! Okay, i get it now. He sounds pretty special then. (4)

Jajjaja jajajja, that’s true (I sometimes say things that louis (mostly) has said, jajaja, and that’s true is his response to Harry’s “the wind make nice waves”, jajajja, so read it with Louis’ voice😝). See?i almost had a heart attack yesterday when I saw Louis in a suit,jajajja.Well, she’s always looking at ways to make money of everything,jajja (no she doesn’t, but she does it more than me). I don’t know how,jajaja, we were making a “porra” and I thought that+and that+and that… it was more a guess, than a prediction, jejejeje. And I can’t control my predictions, they usually happen in my dreams. I wish I could end it. I’ve been wishing for it to end blowing my birthday candles for years, jajaja (and I can’t believe it’s been years 🤦🏻‍♀️)

Gay parade? JAJAJAJA. Listen, but why? Why would u take a cake to a parade? Do ppl usually do that? I’ve never seen it. Uuuh. Yes. Of course we are queer because its trendy, thats what we, dumb&young people do. Of couse. Being hated because of that is so cool!! I hate that logic. Uh. Not all changes are bad, and just bcs you dont see LGTB+ people doesnt mean they dont exist. I’m so sorry you had to stand that while you couldnt even yell at him! And you cake didnt deserve that insult either. (5)

Yeah, I don’t know his logic, but I guess he doesn’t use logic that much when he says things like that. And yeah, I mean, if you’ve never been hated for something like that, it can be hard to imagine. But also, I hate people who doesn’t care about their surroundings, y'know. I might never felt hated because my color skin (I’m white), but I know dark-skinned people suffer for it. So I’ll attend at whatever they say. And if I can make something to alleviate their pain or help them, I try to do it, y'know. But I can’t with people who only knows their own reality and doesn’t care to learn about the rest. (I don’t know if I’m making any sense bc I’ve been writing this sentence for a couple of hours,lol)

Oh no. She wasnt kind. It was meant to show me that she thinks i am to annoying and political, but i dont mind. It is what it is. What i found sad is that it wasnt even a boy who said that but a girl, but well. Whatever. Oh nono. Dont worry. I was just complaining because thats what i live for. I enjoy learning, but not this way. Anyway, it’s just one month and then summer!! I dont know if i will be working or not, but either way, it’s a great perspective. (6)

I feel like I have to say hi again, lol. I started writing yesterday (Tuesday) in the morning and now is Wednesday night 😒. May is so busy at the shop. And to add to that, today at 8am my cousin’s mom called me because he had woke up at 5am. He has a sleeping disorder, and sometimes he wakes up at 4-5am and he doesn’t go back to sleep. And I’m there for those days (bc the parents has to go to work, obviously). Anyway, I have to answer you now bc tomorrow will be busy too. I have to go to the shop to help my sister, bc we have TOO much to do.

Well, she doesn’t sound very kind. And I don’t know how good of a friend she can be if she says those things to you. And yes, I agree. I don’t like when people thinks like that, but when is a woman… I can’t. It’s like when some women say that “I’m sure she provoked him” when a girl is abused or raped. 😡😡😡.i, than am all for women solidarity, can’t comprehend how women can be “machista” (I can’t find the world in English?).And yeah, I’m the same. I love learning things, but I don’t like to be graded,jajajja. And, a free summer to go on vacation, or just rest, sounds amazing. But also, the money you can make working, sounds amazing, too,jajajjaja. Some people work for a month, and then enjoy the rest 🤷🏻‍♀️.

YEES. I SAW THE PICS. HE WAS SO CUUYTE. AND SMILING. Tought i feel bad because there was a lot of people around him and i dont like it. It gaves me the impression that people treat them as shiw monkeys :(. But anyway, i saw him!! 😍😍😍 Yep. I saw that theories too. Idk anything, but if that’s what he is doing, then i’ll wait. Of course i will. Did fhey really put For You in Pasapalabra? JAJAJAJA. He is trudly successing in life😂 Que nivel! (I sound ironic but I’m really happy internally). (7)

Awwwww, did you see him at that award show??? He is such a good person?? I hate that media doesn’t focus on that side of him. He’s kind, lovely, good amazing hugs, did you see how he kept rubbing her shoulder to keep her calm???? OMG! And,yeah, I hate that there’s always the same people around him, like he was a zoo animal.Yeah, I don’t watch Pasapalabra, but I got to watch it for a moment one day, and they have like this musical minute? And they played For You. I told my brother, and he told me that they play the same song every day for a week or more. So, I’m glad for Liam. He has a very good team behind him.

Surgery? Okay okay. Then i’m not asking, but i’m sending you luck and hugs!!! 🍀💕 I just saw that you did tell me about your irish nails. I must have not read that that day. Ups, sorry. I have finals, yes. I start tomorrow and i finish (if i pass everything at first try) around the 10th of June. I just have to suffer for a few weeks more.🤷 Thanks for asking!! (8)

Thanks love. I haven’t told anyone. Not even my friends know about it yet.

Ohhhhh, you’re in the middle of your exams. I really really wish you the best. That everything goes well, and you stay calm. And I hope you pass everything at your first try, so your summer is a bit longer. 😚😚

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Zoos shouldnt be jails lets reimagine them and enjoy animals in the wild | Jules Howard

We shouldnt let animals die in entertainment venues. Urban zoos where we could view wildlife through VR would reinforce the conservation message

It really is a damning report. Of more than 1,500 animals kept at Cumbrias South Lakes Safari zoo between December 2013 and September 2016, 486 were found to have died. Emaciation, hypothermia, accidental electrocution, gastrointestinal infections, a decomposing squirrel monkey found behind a radiator, two dead snow leopards. At the same time, the zoo was hit with a 255,000 fine for health and safety breaches after one of its keepers was mauled by a Sumatran tiger.

Next Monday we shall find out whether Barrow in Furness borough council is going to renew the zoos licence. Meanwhile animal rights activists, wildlife conservationists and pro-zoo campaigners will watch from the wings, ready to renew that perennial debate: are zoos worth it? Are they worth the fuss? Do they really help save animals in the wild? Is there more they can do?

In the past decade I have seen the best of zoos, I think. I have seen zoos mobilise conservation work in the far reaches of the world to save species few people had ever thought worth the bother. I have seen zoo staff hand-rearing threatened spiders, and I have released the creatures progeny into the wild with my own two hands. I have worked with zoo scientists who collect and analyse garden frogs and birds day in, day out, monitoring the spread of non-native diseases across Britain.

But I have also had the kind of moments that I suspect you have had when visiting zoos with children. Moments when I have seen my kids go face to face with a playful chimp on the other side of the glass, and become startled at the likeness between them. Moments when I have locked eyes with a captive gorilla and seen sadness or worse, utter contempt. An intense, dark, loathing stare as it sat looking at me from an artificially-lit wet room while the rain fell outside. A zoological breaking of the fourth wall.

As long as wild apes are saved, perhaps the captivity of this creature is worth it, we think before carrying on to the next exhibit.

Many of our best zoos (particularly those associated with the British and Irish Association of Zoos and Aquariums) have boundless energy for the conservation cause. They offer educational workshops for schools and families. Their displays and literature are carefully considered. They captive-breed animals with immense consideration and expertise, building up stock for (sadly infrequent) release back into the wild. Zoo staff care, in most cases, deeply for their collections.

But are care and a commitment to conservation enough on their own? Do they justify the existence of zoos? Time is, after all, running out. Just last week we learned that one in five species on Earth now faces extinction, and that this will rise to 50% by the end of the century unless we find better and more effective ways to save them. Although the zoo model has changed a great deal since the days of chimps tea parties and punters riding the exhibits, it is still fundamentally a place where people pay to look at animals. Could zoos evolve in a new direction before it is too late?

What might a utopian zoo look like? I find myself imagining urban zoos that use augmented reality, where visitors marvel at computer-generated creatures like mammoths from the past, and compare their fate with those of modern-day threatened species. Zoos without fences, where tigers and polar bears and other simulated creatures walk among the people. Zoos in cities in which visitors put on VR goggles and watch herds of migrating wildebeest in Africa. Zoos with live feeds on big screens that show minute-by-minute footage of the wild treasures of the deepest Amazon. Zoos where urban nature has infilled the exhibits of old, where former penguin ponds become great crested newt ponds. A world where Be a keeper for the day schemes are replaced by Be an elephant ranger for a day schemes, where zoo visitors in Regents Park fly remote-controlled drones over elephants and rhinos in Africa, protecting them from poachers.

You can laugh, but whats so bad about ideas like these? They involve no captivity. There are no animals to feed and otherwise look after. The conservation message would come across far louder and clearer. No: people want to see live animals! The purists will grumble. But do zoo animals live and breathe and reproduce like wild animals? Im no longer sure.

Innovation should be a hallmark of the modern zoo, not overstretched collections where well-intentioned curators let innocent animals die, the hopes of their species miscommunicated to an often indifferent public.

For, if the report into South Lakes Safari zoo shows us anything, it is the staggering amounts of suffering that can occur in zoos that are run at over capacity, even with good intentions. It is right that we put them regularly in the spotlight. If conservation really is the rallying cry of the best zoos then they must express it in new and creative ways. Those zoos that cant keep up will die, their collections taken over, rehomed or worse. Survival of the fittest not of the animals but of those organisations and people who are supposed to be caring for them.

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