#zeke is literally just his female relatives combined

[persephozee]

thinking about how Grisha dropped his son into the hands of Marley because of his own selfish dreams the same way he took his sister outside of the Internment Zone. he fed Zeke to the dogs

thinking about Zeke was turned into a inhuman monster yet forced to SMILE through it all as Marley's Wonder Boy yet still clinging to a selfish desire to be the Savior and please Grisha

[lanamemories2]

clip clops in on horseback wearing a pointy little dunces hat n sipping frm a rly long crazy straw tht says ‘goblin’ w all of the swirls. Hlo. i’m nai n it’s rly nice to meet u all!!! 23 n she/ha pronouns. i’m one of the three admins here (cleo lazuli on the main) n i’m literally So Excited to get started i cld honestly beat my chest like caesar the ape over it. more abt lana under the cut!!! also like this or hmu if u wna plot n her pinterest is here 👺🌚 

『KRISTINE FROSETH ❙ CIS-FEMALE』 ⟿ looks like LANA JAMESON is here for HER JUNIOR year as a DANCE student. SHE is 21 years old & known to be VIVACIOUS, ALLURING, CHILDISH & IMPULSIVE. They’re living in NOLAND, so if you’re there, watch out for them. ⬳ NAI. 23. GMT. SHE/HER.

AESTHETICS: 

scalding your fingers in shower water until they glow like rudolph’s nose, cherry red gym socks tugged high and nothing else, stepping out into a cold breeze in just spaghetti strapped silk, a red lightening stripe painted over your eye like a new take on the scarlet letter, crowning each finger with a miniature raspberry, hugging a knee close to lick a stripe of fruit juice off the bruised cap, doodling penises in condensation instead of sitting still, a water pistol topped with rum and covered in glittery pin-up stickers, believable smiles that feel more like baring teeth, playing where’s waldo with your lipstick in the crowd of a party and finding red on at least six people’s mouths, a bumper sticker on the back of a convertible cadillac that says ‘SCRAPPY DOO IS A FILTHY SLUT’, prancing around in your underwear to a vinyl record with the curtains open. 

HISTORY:

lana grew up in a big house in albany, NY. i picture it w dark oak floors n lots of light furniture. albums framed on walls. mayb some rolling stone covers too frm way bk when of the bands her dad’s label signed. kind of like… a rock star palace w no evidence of children at all. i think i described it best in one of lana’s self paras once when i said the garden ws “as big as it was unloved”

lana’s mum victoria (vic) ws a music journalist w a pretty fruitful career ahead of her when she met lana’s dad richard (rich). his record label ws jst starting out, founded on the coattails of his rich best friend’s (jensen peters) investment w his other best friend (who he jst calls knoxville). it rocketed to success when they signed poppy injects, a rock band w an electric stage presence, n victoria ws drawn to the glitz n glamour of a man tht ws at the helm of his aspiring industry. their love ws very impulsive, all or nothing right frm the start, n it ws almost like she ws mre in love w his accomplishments n what he represented than him. jst a leetle bit Fractured in its intentions.

anyway so jameson records repped a few big rock bands bk in the eighties, altho poppy injects r who they’re mostly known fr, namely bc of hw brightly they crashed n burned. they were a big chart success bt the lead singer hd quite an intense struggle w heroin (wsnt rly subtle abt it either while he ws in the public eye as u cn probably imagine frm such an on-the-nose band name) n he ws always in n out of the papers. it eventually brought down his career n it ws a big publicity nightmare

lana pretty much… grew up around figures like this throughout childhood. rly troubled characters who wld kind of… b extremely volatile n destructive abt their troubles. the jameson house was kind of an open one as welcoming clients went n a lot of parties took place there. a lot of the time musicians wld b snorting lines in the kitchen when she wnted to grab a bowl of cereal fr breakfast n it was just. a very strange environment fr a child to grow up in

her parents always kind of jst… didn’t like her much. her older brother caleb ws unplanned bt they sort of welcomed the surprise more bt… quickly realised they weren’t cut out fr parenthood n then when lana came as another surprise 3 yrs later they didn’t even try to hide their resentment abt the situation. her mum ws actually booked in to have an abortion bt cldnt go through with it at the last minute. once when lana asked her why shes so cold towards her she jst turned her head frm her dresser, looked at her, told her abt this n said “idk why i didn’t go”. lana didn’t kno wht to say to tht so she jst left her room n closed the door

(dissociation tw) bc of this growing up lana adopted this weird like…. she didn’t rly kno what it ws bt it ws a delusion of sorts where she thought she ws a ghost. she’d jst sort of… drift around the halls w noone acknowledging her n sometimes she ws jst convinced she wsnt actually there or they cldnt see her n she ws jst haunting the house frm a previous family

the one saving grace tho tht sort of?? gt her thru this n made her feel Seen ws caleb. lana quite genuinely hs always thought the sun shines out of her older brothers ass like she jst thinks. hes the best person in the entire world. wld b rly bewildered if anyone questioned tht. he wld always look out for her in the zoo they called a home n cut the crusts off her sandwiches (he’d cook fr them most of the time bc their parents were too busy/didn’t care to) n sometimes wld even sleep at the bottom of her bed curled up like a guard dog. it ws always lana n caleb n his best friend tommy against the world in tht house (tommy lived next door n was always over bc he had very strict parents including a military father tht he found suffocating)

SO when caleb n tommy announced tht they’d signed up to the army lana ws understandably…….. completely blindsided. she ws rly upset tht they were leaving bt she tried not to b mad at them n made them promise theyd b safe n back as soon as possible. she even asked if they cld somehow take her w them n they were jst like :/ it doesn’t work that way luv x

(death tw, ptsd tw, grief tw, trauma tw, hospitalisation tw, drugs tw) anyway caleb ended up getting discharged under grounds of severe ptsd when he witnessed tommy die in an explosion tht took place in a shock raid. caleb returned home sans tommy bt he was never the same after tht. he’s been in and out of hospital twice nw n he’s currently dipped off the radar after starting to use. lana kind of felt like two of her brothers died out there in a way n jst like tht it wasn’t them vs the world any mre, it was jst her. she doesn’t talk abt this tho. when she feels the urge to cry she usually jst smiles

ANYWAY whew tht rly…. took a dark turn there….. chuckles nervously at hw sad lana’s life is bt it’s fine it’s all fINE!!!!!!! ok. so on a mre lighthearted note the jameson family r pretty well off n bc of her relation to such a big music industry figure she’s hung out w a fair few relatively high rep ppl thru her teens. mostly kids of celebrities n stuff like tht. she amassed kind of an instagram following mainly fr her style (v penny lane-esque in some aspects aka lots of fur cuff trimmed jackets bt then also jst…. a wild combination of everything honestly. pastel faux fur coats, seventies style platforms, flame red cowboy boots, pink fishnet tights n glitter used like highlight Everywhere) n bc she’s undeniably Very Pretty

(trauma tw) after caleb got back he was rly withdrawn n depressed. he shut lana out n was kind of harsh to her a lot of the time, always telling her to leave him alone or pushing her away. it didnt help either tht lana had a rly traumatic experience w some of her dad’s colleagues at the label when she ws 16 n he was away n she cldnt even tell him abt it once he was bk bc of his own traumas. she kind of jst shut it all in n kept it to herself

(hypersexuality tw) this obviously?? made her spiral a lot. she was already a girl tht loved sex (she’d only rly done foreplay before tho) but since her trauma it got…. completely out of hand. it got to a point where she couldnt rly go 2 days without it, probably not even 1. her lowest point has probably been scrolling thru craiglist for anonymous encounters n meeting up w strangers on there fr a quick fuck jst for the thrill even tho it’s insanely dangerous n she cld wind up getting herself killed. it’s v clear at this point tht she has a sex addiction whether she’s ever admitted it or not. it kind of… almost mingled w tht same feeling she used to get when she ws younger of being a ghost?? like she jst. only rly feels Real when she’s being touched

(violence tw) a mre recent point of history is her involvement w danny nielsen (an evil npc of mine who is possibly the antichrist??? pending investigation). he attended radcliffe n lived in a house w a group of guys near campus. it wsn’t a registered frat bt he essentially…ran it like one it ws kind of a weird set-up where he ws the King Of The Roost. essentially he found out tht lana n a guy called zeke slept together n he ended up beating him to near death in front of her bc his pride ws rly bruised since they were meant to be dating (if u can call it tht bc danny’s idea of dating is very Warped). ANYWAY he ws found guilty n sent to jail so it ws like Intense n a gd example of the kinds of disastrous relationships she gets herself into. perks of being a wallflower voice: We Accept The Love We Think We Deserve.

PERSONALITY:

always smells vaguely of wild cherries or strawberry starburst or jst the candy aisle in general. if she ws a vinyl record she’d b this one n she’d only play good vibrations by the beach boys, dancing on my own by robyn, play that funky music by wild cherry, femme fatale by the velvet underground n (i can’t get no) satisfaction by the rolling stones 

growing up lana was always a huge social butterfly. knew everyone n everyone knew her. she ws one of those girls tht ws kind of impossible to ignore or forget. very animated, always made u feel like u were the centre of the universe whenever she spoke to u, always made it feel like u were best friends even if ud only spoken to her once. 

deliberately puts on tht kind of Magnetic Alluring Act tht femme fatales wear in movies w most ppl. kind of…. is always playing A Role of the person tht she wants to b seen as. chameleons to situations. feels like she’s performed as the vivacious n fun loving Lana Jameson fr so long tht she doesn’t rly kno who she is beneath tht bt she isn’t too keen to find out

she’s always been rly spontaneous n adventurous. always doing something weird n wild every weekend. she has ten thousand ridiculously absurd n chaotic stories

uncontrollably flirty. boundlessly confident. cld make a joke out a paper bag n her comedy is sometimes surreal / absurd. she tends to laugh when she feels like crying n has a smile brighter than a ray of texas sunshine. 

always dapples her fingers thru the breeze when she’s driving in a car w the window down. she almost always has some sort of sweet on her, whether it’s sour haribo cherries or strawberry lollipops. 

she adores david bowie n prince n madonna n anyone tht’s a vintage style icon w little care fr what ppl think. 

daisies n poppies r her fav flowers bc daisies r wild n overlooked n poppies r the first thing u look at in a green field. she’s had like 8472493874 ‘relationships’ n none of them hav lasted beyond a month / hav been terrible / hav seen her being treated badly / she’s cheated on them. i dnt think she’s actually ever been w anyone she hasn’t cheated on in some form or another

PLOTS:

exes tht lana’s fucked over hideously. she’d probably cheat a lot and it’d be a whole…mess. 

mayb someone tht flipped the switch and cheated on her? 

a cousin plot cld b fun too. a friend tht lana fel out w bc she slept w their significant other.

a fake dating plot cld b fun honestly 

someone tht’s getting lana into drugs?? she’s kind of impressionable/down for anything so tht’s a likely scenario she’d get into tbh

an unrequited crush!! (either way is cool)

someone tht is just hanging out w her/using her bc she has a lot of instagram followers or they want to b signed to her dad’s label

someone in a band!! she’d probably make like penny lane n b their groupie/sleep w them all fgjkshgkh

umm a good influence too mayb? 

oh and a past summer romance/fling tht cld either have meant a lot or not have meant anything at all. bonus points if both of them hav a diff viewpoint on it. 

honestly?? anything is fine i cld ramble for days. mayb even one of the high profile kids she grew up hangin w idk. world’s our oyster fellas!

[lanamemories]

hLO itsa me nai-io!!!!! (read shrieked in a high voice like mario if he buckled his dungarees too tight around the crotch)...... im sad i missed opening bt i had a pretty busy past 2 days so i didn’t hav any chance at all to b online bc i ws staying at a friends bt. anyway. excited to b here nw regardless of my Fashionably Late entrance. i’m 22 n live in manchester (the u freakin k Bay Bee) n cackle a little too mch like a witch fr supernatural suspicions nt to arise. thts all u rly need to kno. like this or hmu fr plots!! 

p.s. this is her pinterest for those of u tht like tht kind of thing

「 bridget satterlee. cis-female. 」have you seen lana jameson around yet? i hear SHE decided to be in ALPHA NU for their JUNIOR year as a DANCE major. the 21 year old SHEEP is known to be vivacious, alluring, childish and impulsive. ➨ the muse is written by nai. she is 22, in the gmt.

some random aesthetics: a red water pistol topped up with caribbean rum and covered in stickers of cartoon pin up girls, a vinyl record whirring silently because you got too distracted by a stranger’s hands to reach over and flip sides, giant inflatable flamingos floating in the aftermath of a pool party, smudgy lipstick kisses left like an autograph on someone else’s mirror, seventies platforms covered in bowie inspired lightening stripes, fanning the flush in your cheeks with a bright red flamenco fan in the back of a crowded lecture hall, michelangelo reminiscent statures clasping at their stone in suggestive places, bopping stranger’s on the forehead with heart shaped lollipops, a bumper sticker on the back of a convertible cadillac that says ‘SCRAPPY DOO IS A FILTHY SLUT’, lighting a paper lantern and saying “aw, how pretty,” only for the whole party to shriek as it crashes into a children’s tent in the next garden over, a ball point pen that turns a woman naked when you click up the nib, cackling so ferociously that you almost throw up and your ribs ache.

ok im a Lay Zee gorl n dnt wna waste any mre time redoin lana’s intro so im pastin in her old one so i cn hop right to interactions. the only thing i can think tht needs to b added is the stuff abt danny nielsen (an evil npc of mine bc im a sadist) who recently beat up zeke van doren (full name this is Official feel like im writin a journalist article) bc he found out him n lana slept tgether n her n danny were kind of dating if....u can call his idea of romance tht. danny is in custody nw bt its a whole Thing like.... is prob... known around lockwood bc it ws a pretty intense..... thing tht happened n danny ws quite a popular senior

grew up in a big house in albany, NY, bt also spent time all over the place n was in the city a lot

okay so her mum is an old money socialite / three time campaign model way back when n her dad is a big record label mogul. he owns a label called jameson records n they repped a few big rock bands back in the eighties, altho they’re mostly known for ‘poppy injects’ whose lead singer had a big heroin scandal tht brought down his career. lana p much grew up around musicians snorting lines instead of spooning down cereal fr breakfast n her parents were v much absent her whole life

they’re pretty well off obviously n bc of her relation to such a big music industry figure she’s hung out w a fair few relatively high rep ppl thru her teens. she amassed kind of an instagram following mainly fr her style (v penny lane-esque in some aspects aka lots of fur cuff trimmed jackets bt then also jst…. a wild combination of everything honestly. pastel faux fur coats, seventies style platforms, flame red cowboy boots, pink fishnet tights n glitter used like highlight Everywhere) n bc she’s undeniably very pretty

her parents always kind of jst… didn’t like her. it was v clear that she was an accident after her older brother caleb n that even when they just had him alone they weren’t cut out for parenthood. they always kind of jst… ignored her n hoped she’d go away. she had to mke herself microwave meals when she ws only like 12 bc they’d forget to get her anything. once she went like 6 days without her mum even looking her in the eyes once

despite this tho!!! she’s always been insanely close w her brother caleb. he’s her whole world. thts why when he decided to sign up to the army she ws understandably scared bt supported him after initially bein mad tht he ws leavin her all alone. bt then he wound up getting discharged under grounds of severe ptsd when he witnessed his best friend die in an explosion tht took place in a shock raid. caleb returned home n he was never the same n lana kind of felt like he’d died out there too. he’s in n out of hospital a lot n it’s rly hard on her bt she doesn’t tlk abt it to anyone rly

growing up lana was always a huge social butterfly. jst literally…. knew everyone n everyone definitely knew her. she ws one of those girls tht ws kind of impossible to ignore or forget. very animated, always made u feel like u were the centre of the universe whenever she spoke to u, always made it feel like u were best friends even if ud only spoken to her once. she has this magnetic way abt her tht is kind of hard to find in real life. it’s something ud only rly expect out of a movie character n she like. deliberately puts tht on sort of. kind of.... is always playing A Role of the person tht she wants to b seen as

she’s always been insatiably spontaneous n adventurous. always doing something weird n wild every weekend. she has ten thousand stories tht always earn a laugh or a gasp over how ridiculously absurd they r

anyway so after caleb got back he was rly withdrawn n depressed. he shut lana out n was kind of harsh to her a lot of the time, always telling her to leave him alone or pushing her away. it didnt help either tht lana had a rly traumatic experience w some of her dad’s colleagues at the label when she ws 16 n he was away n she cldnt even tell him abt it once he was bk bc of his own traumas. she kind of jst shut it all in n kept it to herself

this obviously?? made her spiral a lot. she was already a girl tht loved sex (she’d only rly done foreplay before tho) but since her trauma it got…. completely out of hand. it got to a point where she couldnt rly go 2 days without it, probably not even 1. her lowest point has probably been scrolling thru craiglist for anonymous encounters n meeting up w strangers on there fr a quick fuck jst for the thrill even tho it’s insanely dangerous n she cld wind up getting herself killed. it’s v clear at this point tht she has a sex addiction whether she’s ever admitted it or not

she also currently? is working as a cam girl. she found this website bc she trawls… porn stuff a lot n she wound up applying to work as one bc she thought it’d b fun n wld earn her some disposal income (even tho she frankly doesn’t need it bc she’s already well off). the guy tht manages all of the girls on the site is kind of suspect n it’s a whole plot i’m gna unravel where it’s actually like the front for a cult or something wild so. stay posted ig. kgjdkgjh

personality/some fun facts: uncontrollably flirty. boundlessly confident. cld make a joke out a paper bag n her comedy is sometimes surreal / absurd. she tends to laugh when she feels like crying n has a smile brighter than a ray of texas sunshine. always dapples her fingers thru the breeze when she’s driving in a car w the window down. her fav book as a child used to b alice in wonderland n she’d fantasise abt having her own little wonderland too where everyone knew her name n asked her things n took her on adventures. at the time it didn’t rly strike her how evident it was tht that was bc she was so lonely. she almost always has some sort of sweet on her, whether it’s strawberry laces or gummy bears or cherry lollipops. she adores david bowie n prince n madonna n anyone tht’s a vintage style icon w little care fr what ppl think. wildflowers r her favourites bc they’re the brightest and u can’t buy them. she’s had like 8472493874 ‘relationships’ n none of them hav lasted beyond a month / hav been terrible / hav seen her being treated badly / she’s cheated on them. i dnt think she’s actually been w anyone she hasn’t cheated on in some form or another

plot ideas: exes tht lana’s fucked over hideously. she’d probably cheat a lot and it’d be a whole…mess. mayb someone tht flipped the switch and cheated on her? a cousin plot cld b fun too. a friend tht lana fel out w bc she slept w their significant other. someone tht’s getting lana into drugs?? she’s kind of impressionable/down for anything so tht’s a likely scenario she’d get into tbh. an unrequited crush!! (either way is cool). someone tht is just hanging out w her/using her bc she has a lot of instagram followers or they want to b signed to her dad’s label. someone in a band!! she’d probably make like penny lane n b their groupie/sleep w them all fgjkshgkh. umm a good influence too mayb? oh and a past summer romance/fling tht cld either have meant a lot or not have meant anything at all. bonus points if both of them hav a diff viewpoint on it. honestly?? anything is fine i cld ramble for days

[ifonly4mynallas]

THE TALK w/@InsanelyHotAss

Z: Looking out over the crowd, I could feel the beat of the music resonate against my chest wall. It was a sensation that amped up many. For me, it calmed me, centered me, this was my element. Chaos. Over the years, I had evolved into a changed male, mostly due to my shellan and our young. But, this part of me would never change, the part of me that needed mayhem. I would always crave absolute anarchy in some part of my life. It made me a better warrior.

As the kid sat his ass back down, I could feel the tension flowing off him in waves. He wanted to kick my ass right there and he didn’t care that it would get him dragged out of the club. Most would never face off with a Brother, and out of all of us, I was the last one anyone wanted to go up against. Not that I wanted to brag about that, it’s just the way that it was. I may not have been as big as some of my other Brothers, but I was scrappier than every of them combined, and what I put out to the world was pretty much a fuck off to everyone. Most people gave me a wide berth. But, this kid, didn’t care about all that. He’d be right up in my business anyway, if the bouncers weren’t making it a point that he wasn’t going to get very far with it. I respected that drive in him. That was part of why I was here.

“I’ve got a proposition for you.” I tossed out, without even turning his way.

Zeke: {Seated I unclenched my fists and put them on my knees to stop myself from reaching out and touching someone on his face. Sitting here looking at him as I waited for him to speak or continue with his quietness. I looked between both him and the bouncer, my brows raised like they were stupid. Yeah, maybe I was playing with fire here, as I continued to be an ass. The second the big fucker spoke, my other brow rose in surprise}

What kind of proposition are you speaking about? Does it give me the chance to get back at the assholes who killed my parents?

{I shot the questions off without thought because he knew it he had to know that I was eager to get back at the fuckers.

I was a little ticked off at the fact he wasn't even looking towards me as he talked to me. Yet at the same time I was hoping that this proposition was something that would help me find these guys or whatever they were. The smell in the house back when I found my parents dead, was sickening but I ignored it.}

Z: My lip quirked up at the corner as I heard his question roll out. Yup. This kid had drive alright. Was it enough, though? I’d seen a number of males come into the training program that had washed out on day one. The desire for vengeance was not going to get this kid what he wanted. He had a purpose, to avenge his family’s death. That purpose would only get him so far, and if he wasn’t careful, it would get him killed. He also had attitude. Another thing that was good to have, but if not honed the right way, it could be a serious flaw. He also had the build of a fighter. However, there were things he was obviously lacking, restraint was a big one, discipline being another, proper training the most important. The Brotherhood had the tools to mold this kid into a warrior. The kid needed to show up and be willing to shed some of that pride he had in spades.

I continued to look out over the crowd as I began to speak again. I had respect in what this kid wanted to do, and his drive to do it. However, I didn’t respect the kid, yet. He had a long way to go to earn that from me and until he actually did, I wasn’t going to give him any reason to make him think I did. “I can put you in a position to learn how to slay those fuckers, and live through it to kill another day. I’m not talking about going out half-cocked and beating the fuck out of any that you find, hoping that you’ll kill them. I’m talking about becoming a warrior, fighting them on the daily for our race. Is that something that would interest you?”

I was pretty sure I pegged Zeke right. He had that drive, that need to avenge, but he also had no one left. We could offer him more than a way to satisfy his drive, we could give him a home, a place to feel that he belonged.

Zeke: {As I heard his words being said, I sat back and relaxed some and knew this was true. I didn't know who these bastards were that killed my parents. All I knew how to do was fight and figured there was more to it than throwing some punches at them.

As I sat back and thought about what he said, I too started looking out over the crowd in front of us and heard the music but not really listened to it. I felt the bass of it vibrate my body and focused on some that I knew were civilians as well, they wouldn't be able to defend themselves as well as myself, without real training. I've heard about this program before and didn't think I'd do it but with my situation now, I'd need it to avenge my parents and any other vamp killed by them.

I turned my head back and took a deep breath to speak to the big bastard} I'd like to go out and do this the way it's needed to be done. I want, no, I need to avenge my parent's death. They were all I had and now I have nothing left but myself left. I don't have any other relatives left as my friends I had, do. They no longer speak to me and I'm out here alone, which isn't really a big deal to me. {Giving a slight shrug as I was sitting back and noticed that the bouncer has back up some from us as we spoke but he stuck close by like I or more like the big bastard was going to do something}

Z: The kid was saying all the right words, but this wasn’t only about that. This was way more than speaking the words. This was about doing. I was not a male of many words, but where this issue was concerned, I had quite a bit to say.

This was the point where I turned to him. Not because I wanted to show him respect, but because this was no longer about what he said, but how he said it. It wasn’t about the words coming out of him mouth, but about the manner in which he would say them, the twitch around his mouth showing me the intensity of his will, the fight in his eye as the words tumbled from his mouth. I needed to know that if he answered these questions the way I thought he would, that he meant them down to his bones.

“This is not going to be easy. You are going to be learning things about yourself you never expected. You will be fighting every fiber of your being on the daily. You will be asked to do things you won’t want to do. You will be expected to take that chip on your shoulder and shove it up your ass. Respect for everyone around you will be demanded of you, whether you like the person or not, when in return you won’t get any. It will be the most grueling thing you have ever put yourself through. But, I promise you, in the end, if you succeed in making it through the program, you will be the best you, you could ever imagine. You will be able to go out and kill those foul-smelling fuckers without breaking a sweat, and you will earn the utmost respect of the whole race.”

Again, not one for words, really, but this was one of the most important parts of my job. Finding kids that are worth our time and making sure they know what they are getting themselves into. Some of them are all gung ho about it all, then they get in there and aren’t willing to put in the work. They expect it to be easier. Others think they already know it all and think they can skip past half of it. Still others, just don’t have what it takes. Part of my job is to get past all that bullshit before they hit the door. It’s up to the program to weed the rest out.

Zeke: {Giving the bastard a deadpan stare. Who did he think he was talking to. I grew up pushing against the grain in the glymera, especially after I transitioned. Sure I had the female they supplied for me but that wasn't all I wanted in those terms but she was what I like too. Hell, this was confusing as fuck to me in my own ways but I took another deep breath and replied to him}

I'm willing to do and go through anything to do what I need to, go avenge my parents. They did everything for me growing up and accepted me for who I am. Not once had they questioned me at all. I'll go through hell to do this. I'll do what it takes to kill all the fuckers I can, no matter what. Even if that means caring another on my damn back to get the job done. I don't give up on things just because I grew up with the Glymera. Them fuckers don't know their heads from their asses and want to run away while I want to run towards what is going on and fight for those who can't. My parents didn't deserve what happened to them and neither do the others that have had this happen. I've been listening to the things going on and how half of them are caught completely unaware of thing when it happens to them. I don't want to be that blind to what's going on. I want to be able to kill them fuckers.

{Leaning back and not even seeing his reaction to my words, if he didn't like me and thought I wasn't suitable for his club. So fucking be it. I'd do what I'd have to do to for my parents.  I held my hand up as I saw the waitress, signalling for another drink and looking out into the crowd. Now I was irritated again but this time at the fuckers who killed my parents and not the asshole next to me}

Z: As I listened to Zeke go on about the Glymera and him not being accepted with them for who he was, I yawned and almost got up right then. But, something in my gut told me this kid was for real, even if the words weren’t what I wanted to hear.

“Three things, kid. One: Your chip is flashing in neon. That’s the first thing that will get shoved up your ass. Bank on it.

“Two: this is not, ‘My parents didn’t accept me for who I was, so I had to fight their expectations of me.’ No one’s parents ever do in the Glymera, kid. This is, ‘I literally can’t move another inch, but if I don’t I’m cleaning this gymnasium floor with a toothbrush.’ This is learning to become the person you were always meant to be, but never knew you could be. This is learning respect in a way you’ve never known it, and earning that kind of respect for yourself. This is a life altering offer and it will only come around this once.

“And three: If you make this all about vengeance for your family, you’ll wash out on the first day.”

I slid a card across the table to him. All it had on it was a phone number. “Think about it before you dial that number. Do it, don’t do it. I think you’ve got it in you, but it’s up to you, now. Ball’s in your court.” I didn’t wait for an answer. I just stood up and walked off. I was pretty sure we’d be hearing from this kid.

#TheTalk #SASBDB #BDBRP

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Attack On Titan Chapter 105 Thoughts

I noticed some neat things about the warrior kids.

First of all, I never expected to care about any of them as much as I do right now. When the arc first started, the only emotional connection I had to it was Reiner.

Then came Gabi, then Magath, then Pieck, then Falco. But I’m only talking about the kids here, so I’ll leave Magath for another post.

Gabi almost instantly caught my eye by being a parallel to Eren. Her ignorance was fascinating and her tenacity just as admirable as Eren’s, she had potential for an awesome character arc, which female characters actually don’t get very often, sadly.

I found Falco kind of bland at first, but now I’ve really grown to like his selflessness and kindness. Pieck is really smart and lovably strange, as well, but I just figured they wouldn’t matter much in the grand scheme of things or the story wouldn’t go to any great lengths to actually develop them.

What I figured was the most important was Reiner’s perspective and the RBA backstory, with themes taking importance over character building. But I’m happy I’m wrong and I genuinely want to see where they all go after this. The Marley and the Paradis side characters now interest me just about equally, which is nice. So I really like that Gabi and Falco are with the Paradis crew now. I wanted Pieck to somehow end up together with them, too, but this is probably the most interesting move you could pull to me. 

The second part and what I’m getting at is that for seemingly minor characters, they do have very specific upbringings. Gabi and Falco are the most notable characters from the roster.

What I mean by that is that Gabi has her aunt as an influence and it shows - she is really stiff in terms of her views about the “Eldian devils” and she has had no other influence to give her a broader perspective. She is one of the ignorant children raised by the ignorant adults Eren talked about in his speech to Reiner before he transformed.

In contrast, Falco’s surname Grice alone says why he might be more skeptical about Marley and why he talked back to Reiner about Gabi inheriting the Armoured Titan back in chapter 93 (aside from caring about her). It’s a really small detail, but one member of Grisha’s revolutionary group was also called Grice and he was turned into a Titan, so naturally it makes sense why Falco could be more open-minded when it comes to Marley if one of his relatives fell victim to being turned into Titans. Add to that, he actually interacted with Eren and grew to care about him.

Due to this, what Eren said actually hit him. Reiner’s request on the train probably helped with him understanding, too. It’s been a sort of gradual character arc for him to grow more understanding.

It’s seemingly small details that make a difference in world views and I think that’s some very solid attention to detail right here. I think this is probably why Annie is much more cynical, too. For a while now, I feel like her source of cynicism might come from whatever might’ve happened to her mother because her mother hasn’t really been addressed much, while we have had plenty her father.

This chapter did a great job exploring this difference between Gabi and Falco, but it also finally highlighted that Gabi also has good intentions. She wants a better life for the Eldians and justice for all the deaths that happened, including those Marleyan guards who protected her (marking another pair of Marleyan characters that actually aren’t just monsters that hate them, which I really appreciate). This is simply the only way she sees out of the situation currently. Ignorance and brainwashing are a deadly combination.

Sasha learned it the hard way. Once Gabi kept going she just kept going. Killed one guy, took his gear, flew up to the blimp with Falco and killed Sasha, finally only stopped by Jean and that all with her obtained skills and a lot of luck. She is the perfect soldier for Marley.

What I like about Sasha’s death is it’s thematic relevance. If you don’t sacrifice anything you can’t achieve anything. Just like in the arc’s opening battle, Sasha couldn’t kill Gabi because she looked innocent. Gabi looked like a child and this was used as part of the strategy, which is probably also why the warriors sent to Paradis were children. They could mingle with the crowd really easily. The downside is that they are much more emotionally fragile, of course.

So, Sasha died because she was too kind. She killed those wearing uniforms, but not those in civilian clothes. She essentially died because she was a good person, which is pretty sad. I’m satisfied with how she went out, though. Had she died back in chapter 36, she literally wouldn’t have had any plot importance, but back in the Uprising arc she saved Mikasa from a gunshot and potential death and Mikasa’s death would’ve lead to a pretty different outcome in The Return to Shiganshina arc. Not only that, her ties to other characters are much stronger and losing her has much more impact to them and us. She covered Connie and comforted him, in the cave she was really happy Eren was alright, Mikasa and Sasha built a sweet friendship. She was sort of always there from the start. Maybe losing her isn’t as massively plot-significant as losing Erwin or even Bert, it’s still really significant thematically and character-wise.

It also really emphasizes that Eren’s actions had consequences. They got the Warhammer and Zeke, but lost those 8 soldiers in return. Equivalent exchange.

Speaking of Eren’s actions, I’m glad that at least someone is in Eren’s court. His and Zeke’s solution is desparation-flavoured and reckless, basically calling the whole world to destroy them all, but at least it is still in pursuit of freedom. Eren also kinda deserved that kick and dissappointment on Hange’s part. He basically abused his position and their trust and no matter how good the results of the mission were, you don’t do that. It’s a good two-way acknowledgement.

As I’ve suspected, Levi was open-minded enough to work with Zeke and Zeke was smart enough to make sure that his capture seemed like he was captured/dead, not working together with them.

I also do really like Eren’s reaction to Sasha’s death. @suniuz pointed out that Eren wasn’t quite talking like himself when talking to Levi, so his memory lapses continue, but I think Eren is still there and very much still himself, and that reaction to Sasha’s death showed that. Her death also has a wierd comedic tinge to it, but the final flashback about her allso shows that all she wanted was for everyone to be able to eat properly again. At least, I think that’s what I think it implied. The inital moment was all about herself, but she grew into a real soldier across the story and I think it has more selfless implications now.

What did I think about the chapter as a whole? I really liked it for some of the narrative choices. Gabi and Falco are going to Paradis, Zeke and Levi had their little act so it would seem like he really was captured, not working with them. Sasha’s death was sad and good and Eren was handled with enough balance.

I’m ready for the final arc, which I’m pretty sure is coming up now and will happen on Paradis after perhaps a few pre-finale breather chapters. Good stuff.