#yuu izanami

[zr-art-world]

Yuu into dump

Yu is based on both Mickey and the Blot due to the relation of the Epic Mickey game to the “Into the looking glass” animated short. Also, for those who did not play the game, the blot was accidently created by Mickey and was meant to look like him but Mickey had 0 idea how to use the magic paint brush. 

Also, in terms of the Epic Mickey games and Twisted wonderland, there are a lot of parallels. Obviously their is the blot but there is also the fact that the Blot Phantoms have bottle heads and in the game, the blot was trapped in a giant bottle and phantom blots suck the magic from the host, similar to how the Blot in Epic Mickey sucks the magic from waste land.

Also, the blot creature that attack Yuu, Grim, and Silver looks like concept art of phantom blot

[draceempressa]

i admit, i wasn't thinking about yuu. I don!t care about game yuu at all. my enjoyment come from putting myself on the audience seat, not on the stage, as because anytime I'm actually involved and not just observant, my brain cease to function. Though, I do care for the manga yuus, as they have established looks, personality, even the consistent countering of the book's ob char, or the consistent death symbolism in their names. ( still waiting for manga yuu that references spiderlily and izanami , considering malleus masquerade and rollo groovy did show that flower)

There are many scarier things to consider, like how 3rd year prefect all not only have op um, but also op in terms of socioeconomic power, it's yana toboso, the classism gotta be bad, other than the possible racism, oe possibly poaching and consume fellow sapient races, etc. but matters regarding yuu flies off my head as I deliberately turn off my brain about yuu. I do not want to relate to fictional characters, it ruins my enjoyment , even my ability to think.

Going back to Crowley, I am still holding on to the theory Crowley is Levan AND Vil is Meleanor's reincarnation and Crowley is trying to bring back Meleanor, which in other words, "killing" Vil's current self , no matter how, so his soul go back to being Meleanor, It is still death in a way, as we have seen despite the many death symbolisms in twst, especially book 6 and 7, it's not always literal.

I just realized that TW is not just psychological, it’s flat out psychological horror. 

Like, not just overblot design/monster is scary, but the idea beyond it. Imagine turned into a monster because of excess negative energy such as stress. “but Overblot can be stopped” yeah, remember what Crowley said about Overblots. Once you overblot, even if people can stop you for the first time, you are not free from the next chances of overblots. If anything, it’s even more easier for you  to overblot again after you overblot once.It’s basically a chronic illness that can never be permanently cured. The tips is basically stay happy? yeah,  we know how impossible is that. and if you have someone else to save you at your first overblot… what’s the chances they are there again when you overblot again ? 

Apparently, putting psychological horror  is approved by Disney,as long it’s not explicit gore, much like dark concept with no explicit blood is fine as with Kingdom Hearts shows us.

And it’s Yana Toboso, of course it’s bishie feast as much as it is gothic horror.

[persona4-anime]

[nyanyacore]

sooo i got tagged by @twst-planet n’ @lulutwstocs for that type meme going around (★^O^★)

i think my type is pretty n’ charismatic boys who are more than what meets the eye! bonus points if they’re catboys ofc ( ˘ ³˘)

(reading each row from left to right)

1. ramuda amemura (hypnosis mic)

2. shu★zo (show by rock)

3. hifumi izanami (hypnosis mic)

4. yuu mizuno (sanrio danshi)

5. che’nya (twisted wonderland)

6. cater diamond (twisted wonderland)

7. kuranosuke koibuchi (princess jellyfish)

8. ikuto tsukiyomi (shugo chara)

9. asmodeus (obey me!)

idk who to tag but if u see this and wanna do it, hell yea go for it!!!

[artemis-maia]

A theory that I am a fan of is that after Persona 2, Philemon split himself into the Velvet Siblings, whether it be because he was guilty about the bet or thought he could better understand humans is anyone's guess. Seeing as how him and Nyarlathotep are symbiotic, this would also mean he split as well. This would explain why Kagatsuchi from persona 4 arena was so similar to Nyarly. Maybe the gods who are similar to him are his fragments/avatars . What do you think?

To me the Velvet room siblings are supposed to represent animus/anima.

In the P3P opening you can see animus/anima in the intro right before Elizabeth and Theo appear.

It would also make sense that P3 male MC, Yuu, Ren/Akira all get female spiritual figures from the unconscious and FEMC gets Theo.

And of course the Velvet room siblings all shares ties to Frankenstein due to their names.

Philemon is semi-watching the protagonists from P3 onwards in his butterfly form. To me he retreated since Nyarly was banished during the EP ending and since they are two sides of the same coin as long as Nyarly is not active again Philemon holds back as well.

We will see how this will change now that more Lovecraft references returned with P5R.

As for Kagutsuchi:

I always thought that it was strange that he copied Nyarly‘s way of talking. Kagutsuchi barely has characteristics in his mythological version. Izanami died while giving birth to him and Izanagi killed him for it but nothing is said about his character.

In Nocturne Kagutsuchi makes more sense as the avatar of the Great Will since the birth of Kagutsuchi ushered the contrast between life and death into the world.

I just think they wanted a figure from Japanese mythology as a villain in arena since the Persona series at this point was very P4 focused.

Nyarlathotep does have countless avatars in Lovecraft sources but I am pretty sure that they did not have an intention of tying the Kagutsuchi depiction in arena to him. P5R showed if they wanted to start adding Lovecraft stuff again they will return to adding it especially since turning mythological figures into Nyarly expies did not work on a longlasting basis.

I really hope that one day Nyarly is able to make an actual comeback (this would pretty much automatically make Philemon return as well).

[masitadibujante]

What else do you like besides bakumomo and koga x kagome?

Oh boy where do I start… ok I’ll classify them in series and then crossovers

Shingeki no Kyojin: I like all of them but my top are Rivamika (Levi x Mikasa), Erehisu (Eren x Historia), YumiKuri (Ymir x Christa/Historia) and Reiner x Christa/Historia

Inuyasha: I LOVE THEM ALL! but my personal faves (not including KogKag) are Sesskik (Sesshomaru x Kikyo), InuKik (Inuyasha x Kikyo), KagKik (Kagome x Kikyo), InuSan (Inuyasha x Sango), BanKag (Bankotsu x Kagome), BanKik (Bankotsu x Kikyo), SuiKik (Suikotsu x Kikyo), MirSan (Miroku x Sango) and SessKagu (Sesshomaru x Kagura)

Boku No Hero Academia: Girl same thing, I’m okay with all of them but student x teacher ships :) just not my thing lol ok so not including bakumomo which is the OTP, Todochako (Todoroki x Ochako) is a close second, IidaCamie (Iida x Camie guess you didn’t expect that lol), IzuOcha, BakuCamie and Momo x everyone (she’s my queen ok? girl deserves the world)Danganronpa: Togiri all the way (Togami x Kirigiri) and Ibuki x the entire sdr2 cast

Durarara!!: It pains me to say this but Shizelty (Shizuo x Celty) they are meant to be together!, IzaNamie (Izaya x Namie) and ShizuOna (Shizuo x Vorona)

Fate/ Stay Night: GoldenSword/Gilber (Gilgamesh x Saber), LanceRin (Lancer x Rin), ArcheRin (Archer x Rin), Lancer x Rider and Shirou x Sakura

Crossovers! The characters in there are mostly ships I’ve been thinking as a potential fic or something in no particular order

- Kagome (Inuyasha) x Josuke Higashikata (Jojo’s Bizarre Adventure)- Kikyo (Inuyasha) x Jotaro Kujo (Jojo’s Bizarre Adventure)- Sango (Inuyasha) x Diego Brando (Jojo’s Bizarre Adventure)- Kagome (Inuyasha) x Rohan Kishibe (Jojo’s Bizarre Adventure)- Kikyo (Inuyasha) x Dio Brando (Jojo’s Bizarre Adventure) - Kagome (Inuyasha) x Archer (Fate/Stay Night)- Kikyo (Inuyasha) x Lancer (Fate/Stay Night)- Sango (Inuyasha) x Achilles (Fate/Apocrypha)- Kagome (Inuyasha) x Karna (Fate/Apocrypha)- Kikyo (Inuyasha) x Gilgamesh (Fate Zero)- Sango (Inuyasha) x Ozymandias (Fate Grand Order)

- Sango (Inuyasha) x Kuroo Tetsuro (Haikyuu!!)- Kagome (Inuyasha) x Oikawa Tooru (Haikyuu!!)- Kikyo (Inuyasha) x Ushijima Wakatoshi (Haikyuu!!)- Sango (Inuyasha) x Nishinoya Yuu (Haikyuu!!)- Kikyo (Inuyasha) x Bokuto Koutaro (Haikyuu!!)- Kagome (Inuyasha) x Sawamura Daichi (Haikyuu!!)

- Kagome (Inuyasha) x Ichigo (Bleach)- Sango (Inuyasha) x Renji (Bleach)- Kikyo (Inuyasha) x Aizen (Bleach)

[isolaradiale]

Lost in Space #44

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BROKEN LINKS

Mona Megistus (BROKEN LINK) (TOWNHOUSE 210)

4 CUT HERO

Zeed Toven (TOWNHOUSE 203)

AMPHIBIA

Marcy Wu (CONDO 424)

ARKNIGHTS

Platinum (CONDO 413)

W (CONDO 401)

AWFUL HOSPITAL

Fern (HOUSE 104)

BORDERLANDS

Tiny Tina (TOWNHOUSE 209)

CRITICAL ROLE

Jester (HOUSE 117)

CUCUMBER QUEST

Glitchmaster (TOWNHOUSE 202)

DANGAN RONPA

Chiaki Nanami (CONDO 418)

Hajime Hinata (HOUSE 101)

DRAGALIA LOST

Phares (APARTMENT 322)

ENSEMBLE STARS

Keito Hasumi (CONDO 412)

FATE

Archer (Robin Hood) (CONDO 417)

Caster (Nursery Rhyme) (APARTMENT 324)

Hakuno Kishinami (M) (CONDO 406)

Jinako Carigiri (CONDO 414)

FINAL FANTASY

Terra Branford (TOWNHOUSE 218)

GALERIANS

Rion Steiner (HOUSE 115)

GENSHIN IMPACT

Mona Megistus (BROKEN LINK) (TOWNHOUSE 210)

Qiqi (HOUSE 102)

HOLLOW KNIGHT

Hollow Knight (HOUSE 126)

Hornet (RUNG’S HOUSE)

HYPNOSIS MIC

Hifumi Izanami (HIFUMI’S APARTMENT – SUNSET CIRCUIT)

KAMEN RIDER

Dan Kurato (CONDO 402)

LEAGUE OF LEGENDS

Jinx (HOUSE 116)

THE MAGNUS ARCHIVES

Gerard Keay (TOWNHOUSE 223)

ONE PIECE

Portgas D. Ace (CONDO 407)

ONMYOJI

Ichimokuren (TOWNHOUSE 237)

ORIGINAL CHARACTER

Liu "Redbean" Canglong (CONDO 420)

Phatonus (HOUSE 124)

OVERLORD

Albedo (APARTMENT 312)

THE OWL HOUSE

Darius (APARTMENT 321)

Emperor Belos (APARTMENT 309)

Hooty (TOWNHOUSE 201)

Willow Park (TOWNHOUSE 204)

PROJECT SEKAI

Ena Shinonome (HOUSE 102)

Kohane Azusawa (HOUSE 105)

RED DEAD REDEMPTION

Arthur Morgan (CONDO 404)

John Marston (CONDO 405)

SKULLGIRLS

Parasoul Renoir ( HOUSE 128 )

SONIC

Agent Stone ( APARTMENT 307 )

STAR OCEAN

Leon D.S. Gehste ( APARTMENT 303 )

TOUHOU PROJECT

Kosuzu Motoori ( HOUSE 122 )

TWISTED WONDERLAND

Floyd Leech ( ATLANTIS - GOLDEN )

Kalim Al-Asim ( BEACHOUSE - GOLDEN )

Leona Kingscholar ( HOUSE 118 )

Malleus Draconia ( TOWNHOUSE 213 )

Trey Clover ( HEARTSLABYUL DORM - SKYSTREWN ISLES )

Vil Schoenheit ( HOUSE 111 )

Yuu ( TOWNHOUSE 205 )

WANDERSONG

Kiwi the Bard ( TOWNHOUSE 201 )

THE WOLF AMONG US

Bigby Wolf ( HOUSE 102 )

THE VAMPIRE DIES IN NO TIME

Kanae Miki ( APARTMENT 304 )

[gal-with-pastels]

Split AU

AU idea with the help of @maidsonas

Basically Individuals ( and some staff) are split into two distinct versions of themselves the first being how they normally are like and the other being a part of them we don’t see much . and most of their quirks are the opposite of their Orginal Selves.

so far i made a list of their names and quirks.

•Kyou Bakugou ( ♀) Quirk - Stability

•Seiko Ochaco ( ♀) Quirk - Gravitational Down force

•Izanami Yaoyorozu ( ♀) Quirk- Destruction

•Mamoru Todoroki ( ♂) Quirk- Steam Manipulation

•Isamu Midoriya ( ♂) Quirk - Volatile Constructs

•Jun Ashido ( ⚤ ) Quirk - Restoration

•Hanako Tsuyu ( ♀) Quirk - Frog

•Yamiyo Aoyama ( ♂) Quirk - Ray manipulation

•Akari Tokoyami ( ♀) Quirk - Animated shadows

•Michi Lida ( ♀) Quirk - Velocity Manipulation

•Haru Mezo ( ⚤ ) Quirk - Multi head

•Sora Mashirao ( ♀) Quirk - Harpy

•Noa Kaminari ( ♀) Quirk - Electric Absorption

•Takumi Kirishima ( ♂) Quirk - Elasticity

•Yasu Koda ( ⚤ ) Quirk - Sonic scream

•Rikuto Sato ( ♂) Quirk - Overburst ( formerly ) Quirkless ( Currently)

•Miyu Sero ( ♀) Quirk - Hair Manipulation

•Yuu Jiro ( ♂) Quirk - Quirkless

•Ayano Mineta ( ♀) Quirk - Paint Ball Projection

•Ayumu Hagakure ( ♂) Quirk - Camouflage

•Shizuka Yamada ( ♀) Quirk - Silence

• Tenko Shimura ( ♂) Quirk - Self Disintegration

[sonoman]

Association.

Repost and fill in the answers you most associate your character with to each question.

ANIMAL: Cat. COLOR: Black. MONTH: April. SONG:  My Serene - Sonata Arctica. NUMBER: 6 and 8. DAY OR NIGHT: Night. PLANT: Tiger lily. SMELL: Lavender. GEMSTONE: Topaz. SEASON: Spring. PLACE: Hokkaido. FOOD: Takoyaki. ASTROLOGICAL SIGN: Sagittarius. ELEMENT: Water. DRINK: KIRIN.

Tagged by: @ryoxtenth

Tagging: @osayoko , @pattycake-s , @repvlsion , @the-star-anon , @izumanami ,@conductor-sebastian, @riotingvines, @lady-izanami, @abinition, @plasticsho, @diru-shinya, @yshkry, @onceuponacrow , @invalidmoral, @aya-me, @opera-yuu,@crystalnights, @kamijoxversailles , @triinuxspirit , @psychetelos , @dangergang-mizuki ,@burningxsage , @endless-omi , @aya-uroboros , @gekitetsu-teru , @neko-loid ,@mudaimasque, @amipanman, @chaerinnie, @savanniboyd, @genking, @moonlight-mirage, @melxxxmode and anybody who wants to do this!

[ao3feed-harurin]

Eternal Swim Chronicle - The Last World

read it on the AO3 at http://ift.tt/2tiTvz2

by AveraxMagna

最終的な呪い! 最終クエスト! ファイナルバトル!!! A FINAL CURSE! A FINAL QUEST! THE FINAL BATTLE!

The Final Battle is drawing near but Makoto’s sacrifice triggers a detour to the Underworld yet the key to the realm of the dead lies in a reality where the fabled swimming anime NEVER existed! The Darkness plans to trigger a curse so deadly that all sports anime may face COMPLETE destruction. Only the Heart of Atlantis can save everyone but will the heroes be victorious?

There are 5 Arcs in this movie finale:

1. Prologue & Act 1: Intro Arc 2. Acts 2 & 3: Operation 180 Degrees: Inverse Free! Arc 3. Acts 4 – 6: Operation Firebird: Underworld Arc 4. Act 7: Secret of Atlantis Special Arc 5. Acts 8 – 10/Epilogue: Operation FOR THE FUTURE: The Final Battle Arc

WARNING: There is some foul language (derogatory) during the "Underworld Arc"!!!

Words: 118989, Chapters: 12/12, Language: English

Series: Part 9 of Free! Eternal Swim Chronicle - The Reboot Saga -

Fandoms: Free!, Free! Eternal Summer - Fandom, Free! Timeless Medley, Kuroko no Basuke | Kuroko's Basketball, Haikyuu!!, ダイヤのA | Daiya no A | Ace of Diamond, Eyeshield 21, チア男子!! | Cheer Danshi!! | Cheer Boys!!, Prince of Stride: Alternative (Anime), DAYS (Anime & Manga), 弱虫ペダル | Yowamushi Pedal, Yuri!!! on Ice (Anime), Tak (Video Games), Bamboo Blade, Bionicle - All Media Types, ALL OUT!! - Amase Shiori (Anime & Manga), Free! Take Your Marks

Rating: Mature

Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death

Categories: F/M, Gen, M/M, Multi

Characters: Nanase Haruka, Matsuoka Rin, Hazuki Nagisa, Ryuugazaki Rei, Tachibana Makoto, Marotta Alexa, Nanase Haruka (Gen 1), Matsuoka Rin (Gen 1), Hazuki Nagisa (Gen 1), Ryuugazaki Rei (Gen 1), Tachibana Makoto (Gen 1), Marotta Alex (Gen 1), Yamazaki Sousuke, Nitori Aiichirou, Mikoshiba Momotarou, Matsuoka Gou, Marotta Sergi, Marotta Cali, Kuroko Tetsuya, Kagami Taiga, Aomine Daiki, Midorima Shintarou, Murasakibara Atsushi, Akashi Seijuurou, Kise Ryouta, Nash Gold Jr., Jason Silver, Nick (Kuroko's Basketball), Allen (Kuroko's Basketball), Zack (Kuroko's Basketball), Hinata Shouyou, Hinata Natsu, Kageyama Tobio, Bokuto Koutarou, Kuroo Tetsurou, Oikawa Tooru, Tsukishima Kei, Tsukishima Akiteru, Pandora Le Fay, Dodecadron, Kongo Agon, Hiruma Youichi, Kobayakawa Sena, Midousuji Akira, Hanamiya Makoto, Himuro Tatsuya, Kaarina, Izanami, Izanami no Mikoto, Izanagi-no-okami, Izanagi, Meyrick Kyle, Iwahara Kosuke, Maurer Ken, Dalton Nicolas, Amakata Miho, Sasabe Gorou, King Magnus - Character, King Toraichi Matsuoka, King Tatsuhisa Tachibana, Queen Misa Tachibana, Morgan le Fay, Igraine Le Fay, Goloris Le Fay, Elaine le Fay, Morgause le Fay, Kirishima Ikuya, Kirishima Natsuya, Serizawa Nao, Minami Kazuki, Uozumi Takuya, Iwashimizu Tooru, Mikoshiba Seijuurou, Tak (Tak and the Power of Juju), Jeera (Tak and the Power of Juju), Jibolba (Tak), J.B (Tak), Tobar (Tak), Yamato Takeru, Koizumi Karin, Hera Kureji, Honjo Taka, Aki Reisuke, Chaos - Character, Cosmos, Suiei Cosmos, Aida Riko, Momoi Satsuki, Matsuoka Daigo, Harasawa Katsunori, Alexandra Garcia, Shigino Kisumi, Shigino Hayato, Gion Kenji, Iwashimizu Sumiaki, Bandou Haruki, Katsuki Yuuri, Yuri Plisetsky, Victor Nikiforov, Mata Nui (Bionicle), Skralla (Bionicle), Sakari (Bionicle), Fujiwara Takeru, Yagami Riku, Rasputin, Matryona, Varvara, Shiina Asahi, Kozume Kenma, Takao Kazunari, Nishinoya Yuu, Yamata no Orochi, Takigawa Chris Yuu, Miyuki Kazuya, Sawamura Eijun, Russell (Free!), Lori (Free!), Winnie (Free!), Sera Tadanori, Yazaki Aki

Relationships: Matsuoka Rin/Nanase Haruka, Tachibana Makoto/Marotta Alexa, Hazuki Nagisa/Ryuugazaki Rei, Matsuoka Rin/Nanase Haruka/Yamazaki Sousuke, Nitori Aiichirou/Mikoshiba Momotarou, Pandora/Dodecadron, Nanase Haruka/Tachibana Makoto, Matsuoka Rin/Ryuugazaki Rei, Hazuki Nagisa/Masuoka Rin, Nanase Haruka/Marotta Alex, Hazuki Nagisa/Tachibana Makoto, Ryuugazaki Rei/Marotta Alex, Kagami Taiga/Kuroko Tetsuya, Miyuki Kazuya/Sawamura Eijun, Kuwahara Sayako/Hinata Natsu, Katsuki Yuuri/Victor Nikiforov, Otabek Altin/Yuri Plisetsky, Marotta Alex/Meyrick Kyle

Additional Tags: Crossovers & Fandom Fusions, Multiple Crossovers, Final Battle, Alternate Universe, Dark Magic, Final Boss, Next Generation, Cross-Generation Relationship, Atlantis, Japanese Mythology & Folklore, Apocalypse, Blood and Gore, Magical Violence, Explicit Language, OT6, OT9 - Freeform, Group Marriage, True Love's Kiss, Light Magic, Series Finale, Swan Song, Underworld, Unfinished Business

read it on the AO3 at http://ift.tt/2tiTvz2

[hinagamoizaf]

Chapter 3 : Gregorios Grief

I told my therapist about you.

Trapped in ignited grasslands yet was still killed to be made your soul’s eclipse,

Amaterasu screams of grievance at storms as hope was hardly a glimpse,

Kusanagi is hidden where creation and death are married in rips,

Even the swords of heaven can’t pierce the veil: I’m left in Yomi as strips,

Takeru struggles for light skies; Izanami raised an apocalypse.

I told my therapist about you.

The slain sun of solace fell with my version of reality,

Misguided moons made tsunami tides to wash away clarity,

A mind that fostered paranoia with unheard intensity,

Serpents strangled my sole atarxia in sudden pity,

How these attacks are born out of my forsaken dexterity.

I told my therapist about you.

Purposely, Suzaku’s rebirth was scorched by Morningstar;kept at bay,

Silently, halcyon wings clipped their stars born to blossom by May,

I’ll fly through my last days as an onmoraki after breakaway,

Unknowingly, an alchemist’s cycle brought a black crow named Renai,

Desperately, I plead my hands to stop wielding weapons and then pray.

I told my therapist about you.

Nightmares about a sinful father is the bane of my sleep,

Every corner of time is impaled with fear that bleeds skin deep,

Red-hooded wolves rip apart scars I have no desire to keep,

Lying shadows please skip me when all I live for is to weep,

Innocence kissed risks to sleep and veiled Virgin Mary’s lost sheep.

I told my therapist I am you, You’re the chapter of my life I can’t rewrite because the words weren’t right, You’re the fragile china doll that broke like me after I held you tight, You’re the knight’s armour I wore on those reaping nights with no might to fight, You’re Alice who was lost in Wonderland all alone despite mad blight, You are reborn from ashes of grief with me; together in starlight. -I Told My Therapist About You

(24th July 2012)

I watch the beast from a distance, behind guarded eyes. He stirs in his slumber, occasionally he whimpers as any cub would. With  dawn’s ray intruding, he rises and in return-watches me. Tell, what are we caging? Who is-the real beast? “Mind telling me what ding-dong-dash you were doing?” I inquire him. “Mind explaining to me what you’re doing in the witch’s gingerbread house?” Shiori-senpai retorts back. “Mind-da-both-of-yuu-quit-yapping?!” Jounetsu-san strikes like a real python and collapses back to sleep. My senior chuckles and I remain motionless.

After our ‘reunion’ yesterday, Obaasan decided to ‘keep’ Shiori-senpai and Jounetsu-san in another, heavily guarded magic section of the house. Essentially, a glorified bird cage. Of course, they receive the necessities of food, water, as you may. But my family and I can’t enter their room. Likewise, these two can’t step out until the barrier’s put down.

He catches eyes with me once again. “I’m not the one who put you in this,” I quickly defend. “From a rational mind to a lunatic of a person, ah, of course,” leaning his shoulder against the wall, he hangs his head low. “Oh, of course, you two just ‘happen’ to be around these parts.” “Hey-that is the truth. Besides, how could a  mere zombie such as I have a plausible tracking device on you?” “I wasn’t even considering that, but thank you for throwing yourself under the bus-” “-now you listen, I do n-” “And it’s not that my mage bloodline is a ‘secret’. I’ve told you upfront I had family business this summer. You’re in your final year of middleschool, why are you roadtripping in the middle of nowhere?”

I raise my head and steal quick reassurances. I gesture for Shiori-senpai to come closer, “Most of all, why is he here?” “Ouroboros, why are you here!?” Shiori-senpai nonchalantly shouts at him from across the room, Jounetsu-san shoots back bloodshot eyes. “Kid-I-still-don’t-know-what-the-bloody-hell-that-is!” he falls face-first into his pillow with muffled cries, “And pleaseee-leave me alone!” “We’ve got our own negotiation,” Shiori-senpai partially answers, I can feel him watching me , “Why should it bother you? You’ve wanted nothing to do with him.” “Now that holds water. But I have have the growing suspicion you’re trying to recruit him.” “Now you tell me-what’s the error of my ways there?” “Because he’s going to get to know me!”

I snap. I’ve snapped.

I’m realising I lost it, Shiori-senpai continues to watch my eyes.

“Why? What’s so wrong with getting to know someone?”

He gave me a moment to reopen the scars of yesterday to make room for tomorrow’s skin. He’s two years my senior, I don’t know his story nor can I claim he has no horrors of his own. But for me at least, I’ve had enough to realise I can’t handle anymore...or at least the risk of it.

I haven’t lost hope, I’m just being realistic. Many a time, people have told me God doesn’t set anything for his people that they can’t handle. I have faith that as his people, we should at least recognise when the red flags are unfurled. That’s our warning for the unbearable, our chance to survive.

“Call me selfish, and I realise this is very much a professional issue. But I know enough of people to not risk my mental health.”

I begin and try not losing my consciousness.

“I know I’m not a stable person. Trust issues as much as the demons that live through me. I’m rather pessimistic about relationships and what little compassion we claim to have, could say I loathe it and try my best to avoid any contact with it. So you could say it’s suicidal when I fell in love and knew from the start there wouldn’t be a future between us.”

“Us?”

“The human who has claimed my heart so much he became my everything and there isn’t anything I wouldn’t have done for him. And that’s exactly why he had to leave me.”

He only watches my eyes; and I’m partially with him.

“It’s not an exaggeration to say each breath I took was clouded tenfold by misery. I saw no reason to stay and death seemed all the more...comfortable...or at ease, than living with the pain or disappointment. The place that should have been home suffocated me, there was absolutely no escape.”

I’m gasping for air that pollutes me.

“I’m a naturally paranoid person too. So coupled under those environment, I narrow down my chance of hope. Or at least focus on something, someone rather...to be the beacon of hope when I myself am only worth nothing.I know well the dangers of making someone the centre of your universe, yet I still gave him my all without any clarity of what I meant to him.”

I’m tending open wounds with blood-soaked cloth.

“It took what little humanity I had left to love him.”

Before I let him paint my crowded canvas of emotions anymore, I half-heartedly excuse myself and escape to another portion of the house. I continue running away on an unstoppable hamster-wheel.

(Later on during the day)

“How you holding up, Dik?” my brother joins my side, I continue fidgeting with the grass. “-I’m not sure how to feel…” staring at my feet and these fingertips, but I can’t focus. “You’ve been suppressing, repressing, distracting-” “-subtracting, multiplying, add-” He immediately messes with my hair and I can almost laugh, just almost. He  waves a paper, pen and messily envelope right under my nose.

“No, Bang, it doesn’t smell weird,” he gives a weak flick on my head, but still strong enough to feel the impact. “Silly goose. A lil’ something for you to channel all of that… ‘maths’.”

He leaves me alone with a blank piece. I wish my heart could be this clear of passion and empty of feeling.

It doesn’t hurt as much when I say your name.

Like a broken recorder, I can replay the first moment my name fell of your tongue. The way your voice synced with sunlight washing over me, how our eyes met and my heart was instinctively reincarnated as a busy hummingbird. I continue to waltz with worries and be whipped by sorrows; but that first moment among a thousand others brought its own earworm. One of which was telling me to find the sweetest nectar from within, and favour myself before saving others.

I compare that to the last time I even spoke to you and received a humane response. All around me were enriched meals, joyous company, twinkling lights and the promises of fresh chapters- all I could do was not forgive myself as I lingered on your goodbye.

I tell myself this is part of why I can’t forget and move on , why I still live in my memories and my present is torn apart.

They don’t tell you how original faery-tales are pretty; pretty infectious and dangerous. They tell you to focus on ‘once upon a time’ and the glorified happy endings. I experienced both sides of the coin with you, with no deceptions or glorifications. It was all real, all so painful  yet necessary to be in Wonderland; which is why it mattered so much-which is why I still beat for you.

It still does hurt when I remember your name though.

Taking breathes knowing well I’ll choke, I give myself the strength to openly say what I’ve kept safe and sheltered; but never cultured.

“I could run these blood-soaked fingers across any page, your name would always drip out and spill all over.  I can be carrying my first child with the autumn sun-rays basking my skin, your eyes will appear and hearten his smile. You’re no friendly ghost, I still walk by my grave in hopes you’ll finish burying me.”

It’s silly how my own emotions can have me this overwhelmed. Liar-you’ve been running away from them.

“ After all you put me through; I do hope you’re on your way of finding some semblance of happiness.But guess two negatives can’t make a positive. Your eyes of hopeful life gave birth to my numb heart. Fate isn’t tied in red if you went to depart.”

“He’s not the villain-he’s not the dragon-I am the beast.”

I chant and chant, is this another distraction? “We’re all with our layers, shades; each thorn and rose.You could never blame someone for only trying to save themselves. Especially if your heart beats for them, when you can painstakingly feel the same soul crumbling. We had so many parallels, but never meant to cross paths. So once we did, the universe died a bit on the inside. He took measures into his own hands of re-adjusting the balance, bringing all back from that sweetened nightmare. What could be my paradise is his torment, and likewise.”

I have to soldier on..for him?

Yes-No!

Here I am back again, justifying and tracking back from any to all of my actions to him.

“He was voluntraily the sun as I shadowed after him. Did the Devil know what that meant? He lost his warms days as I was burnt as  a sacrifice. Then there were the hues of comfort and trust. All of the hope and belief that could foster any orphan. With him, even cruel winters had slivers of compassionate spring’s blossoms. Perhaps this is what I chose to view those moments as, through my rose-tinted glasses. Funny, I can just imagine his response to that revelation-just the perfect mixture of realism and solace. He wasn’t perfect and never had to be, he’s not what dreams nor fantasies are conjured from and he needn’t be. He embraced his duty as the sun, and that only made him more human. Especially after he decided to stop shining over me, and it was time I left Neverland without Pan’s shadow.”

I didn’t want to love him with the false side-effect of ‘being happy’. He was as much of a thorn as he was a faerytale’s rare rose; while I as much of the fastest creature as I am a fable’s faintest hare. I did come to love him as a result of safety. Albeit, risky. Trust was as guaranteed as the Moon and Stars arrive alongside nightfall. Despite them being soul-reaching factors, they shouldn’t hog up the Sky; and sometimes I believe I never should have become a part of his days.

It wasn’t as much ‘forbidden’ as it was simply never meant to be. Whenever the Sun and Moon cross paths, it’s an eclipse.Although it was my darkest hour, and we were both equally existing in the shadows: he allowed me to have my time and sacrificed his duty to shine.

Bookmark this if you’d ever want to return and understand- I still do love him, but now I have to wake up for dawn and go to rest after dusk. I can’t be the Moon if he doesn’t want to be the Sun; this is a real story that has had its runtime.

[sonoman]

Symbols.

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http://www.jewelsforme.com/my_birthday Your birthstone is: Blue Topaz - The gem of Clarity and Strength. Topaz is a symbol of love and affection, and has been said to be an aid to one's sweetness and disposition. Topaz was once was considered one of five elemental substances that would bring protection to the deities. The figure of a falcon engraved upon a topaz would bring the wearer goodwill and kindness of the powers that be. Topaz in particular has been said to work with one's creative energies. topaz is also excellent for promoting concentration. Topaz is particularly good for artists. It gives one access to their artistic creativity, and increases one’s appreciation of beauty. It is said to give a person the capacity to see both the larger picture and the minute detail, recognizing how they interrelate.

Your birth flower is: Narcissus. There are several Narcissus species that bloom specifically in the winter. For the ancient Greeks, the Narcissus spelled egoism, vanity, and conceit. Greek mythology tells us of a Grecian youth, Narkissos, who was so in love with his reflection in a pond that he drowned in it. Immediately, a Narcissus flower sprang up in that spot. During the Victorian era, the secret message conveyed by the Narcissus was "You’re the only one". Today, the Narcissus symbolizes sweetness, respect, modesty, and faithfulness. It suggests the idea that you want your beloved to stay exactly the way they are and to never change.

Your astrological sign: Sagittarius. Sagittarius people are known to be philosophical, independent, optimistic, honest, and intellectual. You tend to have very good luck, which helps you maintain your optimistic outlook and positive disposition, even during hard times. You have a great ability to focus and make loyal friends and lovers. You have a vibrant personality, are full of curiosity, and are also very philosophic, just like Scorpios. You are constantly looking forward to the future and never dwelling on the past.

Your were born in the Chinese year of: The Dog - a symbol of Fidelity. You are unpretentious, loyal, steady, reliable, sociable, lively, persistent, courageous, resourceful, generous, diligent, honest, adaptable and smart. You hate injustice and are strongly influenced by a sense of fairness, equality, loyalty and caring. You, therefore, are often found promoting social reform. You are genuine, unassuming, charming and magnetic in an effortless way. You make a loyal friend and value personal integrity. You do make friends slowly however, but you will protect a friend's interest as if they were your own. You are brave and do not shy away from danger. Famous Dogs: Kirsten Dunst, Kelly Clarkson, Uma Thurman, Matt Damon

Your Native American astrological sign: Owl. You are trustworthy, warm, easy-going, adaptable, sensitive, insightful, direct, optimistic, happy, focused, caring, loving, funny, independent, and a great artist and teacher. You love adventure, you go into new situations with your eyes open to everything around you in order to really understand your surroundings. You have the wonderful ability to fully understand and appreciate others and see the good in nearly every situation you encounter. You also have the ability to help others do the same, therefore having a positive effect on the world. You tend to take the time to find the deep meaning of a few topics, rather than skim the surface of many, and not gaining much knowledge at all.

Your birth tree is: Hornbeam Tree -  The tree of good taste. You are generous, reasonable, disciplined, and kind. You are a person who loves comfort, therefore you do anything necessary to make life as comfortable as possible for yourself and your loved ones. You have great taste and care about beauty - your own, and in all that surrounds you. You look for partners who are similar to you, someone who is kind and selfless. You lead a reasonable and disciplined life, as that brings you the comfort you crave.

[sonoman]

BOLD THE NATURAL AESTHETICS THAT APPEAL TO / APPLY TO YOUR MUSE. REPOST, DO NOT REBLOG. FEEL FREE TO ADD ANY NATURAL FEATURES YOU SEE FIT.

fluffy white nimbus clouds. dark grey cumulonimbus clouds. rain clouds. a hurricane. light spring breeze. a sherbet-colored sky at sunrise. hazy yellow skies. deep blue ponds of fresh water. blankets of sparkling snow. tornado winds. monsoon flooding. rich, orange sunsets. soft, purple clouds at dusk. heavy hail. the rumbling of thunder. icy sleet. gentle snowfall.moss-dusted tree bark. pink sunset clouds.

grey winter skies. navy blue skies in the daytime. cool mist in the morning. leaf-bare trees.giant ocean waves. the full moon. a cracked, dry desert. rolling hills of prairie grass. sweeping waves of briny seawater. rocky, steep ravines. rippling canyon walls. spindly, cave stalactites. creeping, green ivy. lush canopies of leafy trees. dense, white fog. a peaceful creek of clear water. flowering cacti dusted with dew, catching light in the morning sun. a bubbling, hot pool of volcanic sulfur. sharp, grey mountainsides. fossils nestled in chunks of rock. a white sand beach. deep imprints of animal tracks in the dirt.

soft, squishy moss. uniform rows of birch trees in winter. delicate mushrooms popping up in spring from beneath the decay on the forest floor. tumbleweeds jerking in the faintest wind across the desert landscape. light rain. summer wildfires. a mixing of hot and cool air before a storm. silent lightning in the static of summer heat. a windy blizzard. thick flakes of snow tumbling down from the sky. a tree standing alone in a barren, yellow field. a desert of loose sand and tall, orange dunes. a pure blue sky. a river of molten rock. a grove of flowering trees. twisting, mangled roots sticking up from the muddy ground.

bitter, cold winds. tumultuous skies of stormy clouds. branches of lightning ripping across the sky. a foggy swamp. the tree-bare foothills of a mountain range. sandy brown cliff sides.rocky coastlines. the violent shaking of an earthquake. the mysterious sound of ethereal trumpets in the sky. the lights of the auroras borealis and australis. a black sand beach. a lone tropical island in the reef of shallow, aqua waters. underwater volcanic vents. a herd of migrating mammals. tree branches growing heavy with ripe fruit. light streaming down through the clouds. a field of lush grain waving peacefully in the summer breeze. the sound of insects and frogs teeming in the night. natural disaster.

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