#yungmon

[niholudy]

You‘re like my own personal brand of Heroin…

[ssongsboo]

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⟢ bulletproof, dein herz .ᐟ

hyungseok stood in the dim glow of the city lights, his phone clenched in his hand, frustration simmering as he stared at the blank screen. the silence almost felt mocking. it wasn’t even disappointment anymore- it was something heavier, harder to swallow, like anger settling in his chest. messages left on read again, words scattered through conversations that never went anywhere. it wasn’t like before when conversations flowed, light and easy, and replies were instant. now, every text felt like a message in a bottle thrown into a stormy sea, and it would sink before you even saw it. he scrolled up, fingers hovering over the memories scattered in those past messages- shared jokes, late-night confessions, all those tiny, precious pieces of closeness that felt almost unreal now. he wondered how it all fell apart so fast. it felt strange- how things had changed between you two, the closeness replaced with a distance he couldn’t bridge, no matter how hard he tried. he scrolled back through the messages, each one a little emptier than the last, each reply more delayed, until his texts were left hanging, unanswered.

it stung. no, it burned. he poured everything into those performances, put his heart on that stage every night, and you weren’t there to see it. every time he looked out into the crowd, hoping for a glimpse of you, he was left searching, his heart feeling heavier each time. you hadn’t been there, again. he had scanned every face in the crowd, clinging to the sliver of hope that you’d surprise him, show up like you used to- even just once. but his heart had sunk as each new face blurred together, none of them yours. the seat was empty- as always. tonight he had enough. why were you pulling away? why were you always “busy,” always disappearing right when he needed you?

the streets were quieter now as he walked back, the buzz of adrenaline starting to fade, leaving only exhaustion in its place. he wanted to ask why it felt like you were disappearing, slipping through his fingers like water. why were things so different? it wasn’t like he hadn’t tried. every time you withdrew, he was there, waiting with a hand stretched out, hoping you’d just take it. but you only seemed to close yourself off further.

“bulletproof, huh?” he scoffed, bitterness lacing his voice. he couldn’t even count how many times he’d let things slide, how often he’d put his own hurt aside to keep reaching out. but now? now he was starting to wonder if it was even worth it. thinking about the way you always seemed to brush off anything that hit too close. his own heart felt worn down, chipped away piece by piece with every wall you put up. he couldn’t blame you entirely- everyone had their scars, their defenses- but it didn’t stop the ache. every wall you put up felt like another rejection, like you were just stringing him along, keeping him waiting on the sidelines while he gave everything.

he wished he could break through, just once, just enough to know if this was all in his head or if there was still a chance for the two of you. and thats the problem. he still cared. that was the worst part. no matter how many times you left him in the dark, part of him wanted to keep fighting, keep hoping you’d open up. but tonight, he was tired- of waiting, of feeling like he was never enough.

he stopped and closed his eyes, the city lights flickering behind his eyelids. the thoughts of your smile, your laugh, the warmth you used to show him felt almost cruel now. part of him wanted to let go, to put this to rest before it hurt any more, but every time he thought he could walk away, something stopped him.

he leaned back, eyes tracing the stars above, wondering if he could ever reach through the armor you wore. his heart ached with each attempt that seemed to fail, each time he felt like he was one step closer, only to find himself pushed away again.

running a hand through his hair, he unlocked his phone and opened your message thread. he typed, hesitating over the words, watching the blinking cursor. he wanted to tell you everything- how empty it felt without you, how he was just waiting for the day you’d finally see him on stage, watching him like you used to.

with a frustrated sigh, he deleted the message before pressing send, shoving his phone back in his pocket, letting the anger settle, cool, solidify.

[starchild--27]

I was tagged by @lunacchy to post my top 10 songs on repeat!! 🎧🎵

thank you for tagging me~

Wired For Worthless by Citizen Soldier

Aerials by System Of A Down

Ich sterbe allein by Yungmon

Already Over by Mike Shinoda

iTO iTO NO Mi by TJ_beastboy

Devil Town by Cavetown

Nightgod by Yungmon

All Signs Point To Lauderdale by A Day To Remember

Vermillion, Pt. 2 by Slipknot

DONNiE DARKO by TJ_beastboy feat. Kynda Gray

it's the first time in a while that there is no kpop in my top10!! (no. 11 is Tomorrow by Chanyeol tho xDD)

i tag: @kafkascupcake @flaredpantsagenda @intergalacticpcy @niurd-main @artemiss-moonchild @we-survive-endlessly @dontbotheraziraphale if y'all want to ^-^

[virtuelkitty]

[alexclaain]

When you get this ask you have to answer with 5 of your fave songs, and then send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers!!

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SENDING THIS WTF I NEVER GET SUCH DMS ANYMORE DESPITE LOVING THIS SHIT

ok my music taste is a bit all over the place, so I carefully curated this list from various genres:

(Hyperpop) SugarCrash! by EllyOtto

(German Rap) Chainsaw Man by Yungmon, Lyran Dasz

(Anime Intro) TOMBI by Kvi Baba

(Emo Rock) The Carpal Tunnel Of Love by Fall Out Boy

(Indie) Cover of Me by SUGR?

I'll send this ask to a few others I'm curious over their music taste with, but if anyone doesn't recieve an ask but would love to participate PLEASE TAKE THIS AS MY INVITE, you can send yourself an ask, just copy this sample text:

I, alexclaain, hereby invite you to the following copypasta music challenge: When you get this ask you have to answer with 5 of your fave songs, and then send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers!!

there you go I invited y'all

[c0medyk1ng]

hab endlich konzertticket für yungmon und lyran gehohlt (auf sponti auch noch nura in der hoffnung bei bongzimmer meine seele aus dem leib zu schreien)

[gleisbettromantik]

🎵Rauch - yungmon

Ist das an mich gerichtet, oder soll ich das bewerten?

[werthercore]

here's my wrapped!!!! for, like, archive reasons

So yeah I KNEW that Ich sterbe allein would have been in the top, but they/them and ich muss mich kontrollieren??? That's unexpected. Also I thought that Yungmon would have been the top artist, not Lyran! Nice nice nice

[eparvierr]

ich schaffs in die charts digga einfach selbsthass & herzschmerz in n paar lyrics kombinieren und bam neue yungmon

herz so schmerzhaft rausgerissen ich könnt deutsch rapper werden

[niholudy]

‧₊˚🖇️✩ ₊˚🎧⊹♡

Dancing with the stars

Baby i wonder where you are

Fall into my arms

Cuz without you im falling apart

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Meine Augenringe fühlen sich an wie Narben auf der Haut

[storyofmii]

Vergiss was war und küss mich bitte so wie früher....nur einmal

-Yungmon: unter dem Eis

[m-r-ssa]

music, club lights and rockstarz

[rapzitatelover]

Kipp' mir lila Farbe auf mein Haar drauf (Ohh)

Doch meine Seele bleibt ein Leben lang grau

[dreistunden]

Ich denk mir immer wieder scheiß drauf, doch krieg dich nicht aus meinen Kreislauf