#yousta rhymes

[yousta]

Going from the feeling of being reduced to feining for meaning

Darling found me like a broken clock at the right time

Hearts in your eyes when you stalk mine

Feel like a blue moon if it could talk the way you shine

[bobaowlmarquis]

♡Music artist recommendation♡

☆Yousta☆: creates atmosphere and is able capture specific moods in the melodies he creates. I'm certain the music selection will expand as he creates more. So far I'm impressed with the small variety that's available; I look forward to this artist's future.

I love all his music, but I'm most fond of Skinwalker (feels creepy) and Happy With You (feels floaty and idealistic, very happy).

★★★★★ (five stars)

Update: I've been following this artist for awhile now and I've been given the privilege of seeing his artistic process with some poetry. He uses a form of manipulation with the meter (ie 9,9,9,11,7) and rhyme schemes (ie AA,BB,CC,AA,BB,DD) super excited to see what he does next!!!

https://youtube.com/@Yousta?si=0k2hbubzbD6JRf5Y

[yousta]

I love you dearly

with every word said sincerely

others didn't hear me,

didn't want near me.

Yet you call me charming?

Oh Darling,

I know you're not just being theatrical

The way you look at me is actual

I couldn't confuse you.

People call themselves being real

but they'll disregard how you feel

Group together like a fifth wheel

I guess we don't go for the spiel

It's a common slip.

but I got the grip

they believe that shit coming out their lip.

Shooting up the vanity fair

with logic cause I'm self aware

say like who are you to compare?

When I'm with her.

I feel my pain wither

My city's so lame no game

Finding one to care is rare

Finding one to stop and stare

with love as the expression they wear

Well that's my love I swear

Caring to make one understand

that's what true love's about

Silence to that inner doubt

I love my home,

Remember no one in my phone

Spent years, drowning alone in tears

I believed I was too far out in the water

and I said to myself no one's coming for ya

Thinking on the words I meant,

Yeah right here you're heaven sent

got the lovely text you sent

I wouldn't change how it went

I'm here and feel so content

I can justify time spent

I define and leave a dent

out shine those with the heart bent 

[yousta]

Was it written on your soul,

or is it who you are as a whole?

Your heart transposing art

You love with so much intention

brings out my best attention

Beyond my old me's comprehension

People said they loved me

If it was empathy then where was the remedy

Self absorbed people never asked my day or interests

I only remembered indifference

Memory and perception corrupted

So I took aim

put a gun to my brain

Who are you to blame

Salt and sugar look the same

And I never got close enough to name

My will akin to a dying flame

So alone,

self esteem was determined by strangers acting grown

No father, I came to these conclusions on my own 

[yousta]

"I don't wanna talk about who we were at 17.

My heart's broke.

Show me what love means."

I got just that it seems.

Woke up mistaking this for my dreams.

From playing it back in my mind,

I just needed you there everytime,

and everything would've been fine.

Instead of on my own,

No one I could call in my phone.

In the end I found out who I am,

outside the isolation but god damn

With others,

the way I felt,

they'd make me regret it,

but you in a summer set.

Eyes in a dead set silhouette.

Was too good to forget.

Always forever here and now.

I hope this never ends somehow.

Like in reality,

I want to live forever,

but in everyway I am.

We exchange cute love spam.

Every day, I wanna hold her hand.

[yousta]

I know it's real cause I don't have to guess

They'd never make me feel you less

I swear they hate on me then act so clueless,

but I'm speaking with a certainty in my chest.

What do they do that's supposed to impress?

The longing and distance they inspire in the rest?

The clothes wearing them when they dress?

Fuck boy, your "bitch" look like a lizard. Yes!

Cold blooded reptiles aren't what I caress.

Darling I feel the love your eyes express.

You could be the only thing I possess

Having you is the only thing I obsess

Woke up this morning and felt like it was the best

I know they want me forever broken and depressed, but how could I feel pressed?

I just got your good morning text. 

[yousta]

Words I can't extend, but if it's an ear you'll lend. I would like to attend to the notion you're a loose end cause you codepend. Watch these self fulfilling prophecies, cause in the end. I see someone who doesn't need just another "friend".

You let them truly get to you and never play pretend. So I empathize when you go off the deep end, cause it's true love that you intend, but you too have a heart that can bend. Know you don't have to fix everything or make amends,

In the text I want to send, It's your love I want to defend. Someone like you was more than I could comprehend, cause through you and every word you extend. It's time I spend, knowing I can transcend living for whatever on the weekend.

[yousta]

Waking up beside her through dawn. I yawn, wondering what planet I'm on, cause I'm gone. So far removed from the same old song.

Found where I belong, we're mutually drawn. The adoring was pouring at 7 o'clock in the morning. No alarms. Just sweet soft spoken charms, "I would die in your arms."

No mistaking, she's not faking, and the love has me shaking I love what you bring, I love how you cling, Yes you're the sweetest thing.

Success? Yes! I woke up and did my best! Took out my ex's heart out my chest. Caught up on my rest, and I'm feeling expressed! It was worth the wait, to see her eyes dilate.

To you and a past me. Someday you'll relate, and you'll learn to move the weight you place, live to see heaven on their face.

Oh I know how you've tried, you've tried and tried, but if right now you can decide you're satisfied. No regrets after being denied, well that'd make anyone's eyes wide, cause all of them never replied. Never recognized what was inside, was a place to confide.

My memory never let it go after your blood dried, it's something to cry about, and I've cried at the thought of your suic!de. Your heart I couldn't hide, my heart you couldn't hide. No one by our side.

Lost my appetite, couldn't sleep, didn't eat for a week. I write, "who knows how it goes?". So starved, the cold night hammered nails in the joints of my fingers and toes.

No bright blinding light, or tunnels to gates of white. Nothing made it seem like it'd ever be alright, somehow we hung on tight. Thank goodness we did cause here it's alright. and someday. It might all decay,

but by the end of this arc, when their souls embark. We'll follow them straight through the dark. Live to make that spark from their heart. I promise it'll make the purest art.

[yousta]

I didn't think any would ever truly understand.

Learned if they try that's all that matters in the end.

When dad was dying I tried to kill myself at ten. 

Taking sips off the end, I felt the damage. Tried to do that shit again.

Many times I tried to vent just to feel irrelevant, but if I said what I meant.

I was feeling my intent, more than if I wrote it on cement. 

If it tore a ligament, I'd live forever and feel content. 

It ain't over till you're spent. They'll have to wonder where you went, but recieve a text on sent. 

My love inspires something different. Ever since we've met, I wonder if I was dead, would I have never received the best? You felt everything I've said. I'm forever in your debt.

It just isn't over yet!

I feel everything, I'd live forever with no regret!

[yousta]

Terrible thoughts I hoard, inspired from the memories of people I've stored. For a long time I've felt ignored, but she seamlessly strikes a chord.

Relatable like it's coming out my vocal cord, and intentionally cuts through my pain like a sword. Straight through the vertebrae in my spinal cord, never blunt like it came from an extension cord.

She makes me feel adored. Never bored, all depths of the mind explored. Controlled by no lord, demonic like I'm stepping on checkerboard.

It's bright and white, the future we move toward. Hey darling, my heart has been restored. Got your voice on record for my little reward, secret photos of you on my dashboard.

I still love you on my own accord, still stalking you in the all black ford, so I know the love from your heart you've poured is true, and it makes me love you<3

I wrote this poem alongside my lovely girlfriend @your-thorn

[yousta]

She's the only thing that comes to mind.

The only thing to shine

But I'm not going blind

she shoots me out my mind,

like a 9-millimeter carbine

Darling wrote her dream life on her shrine, with the devil's details signed

Pure love defined and outlined, and it appears I'm entwined

Lovestruck and holds me when I whine

She's mine all mine, hard find by his design,

I love my one of a kind

Who'd never leave me behind.

[yousta]

Will it be an obsession or cause my depression? Whatever, I'll rewind every expression with empathetic introspection. A foundation for a true interpretation.

So I'm reminiscing on life. Molding my memory around the pics you sent me holding the knife.

Inspired such a potent life picture. Depicting your demons as stricter. Which is how I've related to that picture. Such a thrill but no thriller. You're not bad or a killer,

Your lore? Just a person stuck unknowing if it's of love or war. Confused down to the core, but I think you want it to have meant something more.

When the feeling just goes over your head, it's because you're already dead. It's strange because that's what you said. Which is what I misread. Thinking I was hanging on by a thread. Not seeing the blood of mine you bled. The same tears you had shed. So you didn't feel it when I pled.

Hidden but grief shows in my curled toes. I saw you dressed in your devil robes as opposed to your normal clothes. And I thought I knew what you chose

But superficially, I didn't see, you as me. Aesthetically you were dressed in me. In an eternity of agony, where you can't break free. Still, I wish you could've asked me.

"Was it from the heart?". To which I'd reply, "Don't even start, Why else would I have torn my brain apart?

Death and despair can linger in the air. I don't really care, and I don't mean to stare. I just always wished you were there. Could I have changed that face you wear? Even now you seem so distant so unaware. Did life become a never-ending nightmare? It's not fair, your love I swear."

[your-thorn]

*holds your hand* 🐻🩷🐻‍❄️

Thank you for your poetry, I love you so much my boo 🥹

My sunshine and cosmos ✨️

"I don't wanna talk about who we were at 17.

My heart's broke.

Show me what love means."

I got just that it seems.

Woke up mistaking this for my dreams.

From playing it back in my mind,

I just needed you there everytime,

and everything would've been fine.

Instead of on my own,

No one I could call in my phone.

In the end I found out who I am,

outside the isolation but god damn

With others,

the way I felt,

they'd make me regret it,

but you in a summer set.

Eyes in a dead set silhouette.

Was too good to forget.

Always forever here and now.

I hope this never ends somehow.

Like in reality,

I want to live forever,

but in everyway I am.

We exchange cute love spam.

Every day, I wanna hold her hand.

[your-thorn]

I'll follow you into the dark.

I love you Jacob. You're eternal to my heart and I'd rather hurt my own than yours.

You're beautiful yet terrible, like all the greatest angels, but also mine ♡

Waking up beside her through dawn. I yawn, wondering what planet I'm on, cause I'm gone. So far removed from the same old song.

Found where I belong, we're mutually drawn. The adoring was pouring at 7 o'clock in the morning. No alarms. Just sweet soft spoken charms, "I would die in your arms."

No mistaking, she's not faking, and the love has me shaking I love what you bring, I love how you cling, Yes you're the sweetest thing.

Success? Yes! I woke up and did my best! Took out my ex's heart out my chest. Caught up on my rest, and I'm feeling expressed! It was worth the wait, to see her eyes dilate.

To you and a past me. Someday you'll relate, and you'll learn to move the weight you place, live to see heaven on their face.

Oh I know how you've tried, you've tried and tried, but if right now you can decide you're satisfied. No regrets after being denied, well that'd make anyone's eyes wide, cause all of them never replied. Never recognized what was inside, was a place to confide.

My memory never let it go after your blood dried, it's something to cry about, and I've cried at the thought of your suic!de. Your heart I couldn't hide, my heart you couldn't hide. No one by our side.

Lost my appetite, couldn't sleep, didn't eat for a week. I write, "who knows how it goes?". So starved, the cold night hammered nails in the joints of my fingers and toes.

No bright blinding light, or tunnels to gates of white. Nothing made it seem like it'd ever be alright, somehow we hanged on tight. Thank goodness we did cause here it's alright. and someday. It might all decay,

but by the end of this arc, when their souls embark. We'll follow them straight through the dark. Live to make that spark from their heart. I promise it'll make the purest art.