#youcanignorethis

[enhanextdoor]

✧˚ ʚɞ˚ 　 𝒎𝒆𝒆𝒕 𝒌𝒂𝒕𝒓𝒊𝒏𝒂

hello to the folks who found my page. my name is katrina / kat. i am twenty-five years old and a gemini so that tells ya something. i use she/her pronouns. i plan to post lots of things bnd & enhypen related since they are my ult groups.

some other groups that i love are ateez, zb1, txt, and svt. also not k-pop related but a huge chase atlantic fan.

old user: bnd-leehan

bnd masterlist. enha masterlist. other works.

[thehopefuldandelion]

I feel as if I’m so young compared to all the other people on here. For starters, (and I’m sorry if this offends anyone) but I’m only in high school. I love to read and write and I love getting to talk to wonderful people on tumblr who love fandoms as much as I do...but, they seem so experienced and wise (which they are) and I feel like I’m just a stupid child at times. I just feel lost, almost. I don’t really know what to do and I don’t want to quit tumblr because I love seeing funny posts and reading drabbles and getting to talk to amazing people but at the same time I don’t feel like I fit in. I’m sorry if I come off as “needy” but that’s not my intent. I am in a dilemma and need advice.

[thekaijusleeps]

"pondering (the nature of evil)" [11/1/22] sometimes I write things lol, random thoughts while mulling over some of the details of "Halloween Ends". #poetry #poem #prose #writing #randomthoughts #youcanignorethis #horrorfilm #horrorenthusiast #horrorcommunity #halloween #halloweenends #michaelmyers #theshape (at Pomona, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/CkclNm7uR9P/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[majoringinsurvival]

I’ve seen a couple posts that say something along the lines of, “You'll never know the effect you have on the lives of others.” And, that’s all well and good, but I got thinking, and I realized that is even truer on the internet. How often has one post made late at night, changed the life of someone for good?

I know there are posts that have done it for me. Helped me accept myself. Helped me beat an eating disorder. Helped me live again.

So, this is just a thank you, to all those who have changed lives with a post. The people who will never know the impact their hopeful post had. Thank you, for everything. 

[erectionsandtea]

Not saying I would hate for Byler to be endgame (I used to be one of those people tho, ugh what a terrible time that was), but as a Mileven shipper, yeah I might be a little sad if Mileven isn't endgame. They were a very big deal for me, and still hold some sway over my emotions. They ARE a comfort ship for a lot of people, and that's okay.

It's okay to talk about how Mileven wasn't ALL toxicity and just bad things in general. They WERE very innocent, sweet, and wholesome in the first season (and the snowball 😊)

It's okay to ask for compassion and understanding, but we should learn to see that there are a LOT of compassionate, understanding people around already! I follow a handful of Bylers who are just the nicest, sweetest people on this site, even if our ships aren't exactly the same. :) Also, we should do the same for everyone else, by not starting fights and just being accepting.

Yes, some people (on both sides) are mean, but some are not. We shouldn't generalize (not saying that's what op was doing, this is more just a note for everybody).

There is SO MUCH DEPTH to both Mike and El as characters, and Mileven. So it's okay to connect with them and find comfort in them. It's the same way people find comfort with their other ships (like Byler, Lumax, Jopper, whatever). That's what's so great and amazing about this show, and we really should just focus more on that than on stupid ship wars.

❤️

#endrant #youcanignorethis

I would be upset with byler endgame. I would be deeply annoyed with byler endgame.. why? 

Mileven means a lot to me. I relate a lot to that ship because of the mental illnesses i suffer from that i see in them. The trauma and the things they went through together means a lot to me and having that suddenly not mean the thing i originally thought would hurt. 

And as a girl that used to see romanticized toxic m/f ships on screen throughout my entire childhood it was just refreshing and comforting to see a ship like mileven and a male character like Mike who cared so so much and valued her as a person.

Like one of my anons once said, mileven has other dynamics like el being an abuse victim. This might be hard to believe but just because mileven is a m/f ship doesnt mean it cant mean anything to people. 

Mileven isnt a neurotypical ship, they communicate differently and people find comfort in that.

They are allowed to be upset if the story suddenly takes a different direction.

So stop acting like the only people who would have a problem with mileven not being endgame are homophobes.

For the love of god quit acting like mileven cant mean anything to people because its straight. Stop being so invalidating

Quit the entitlement and the weird superiority attitude because it isnt cute.

I get the homophobia in the fandom can suck and im sorry you guys have to deal with that

But thats no reason to tell these people who find comfort in a ship because of things they struggle with that you would laugh in their face or whatever if it doesnt get endgame.

Im just asking for some of you to be a bit more understanding and compassionate thats all x

(and im just gonna add that if byler does get endgame im not gonna bother anyone or rain on anyones parade i would just be a bit sad and thats ok)

[thcolleen]

I need to start a routine for this summer, I know how much better it will make me feel & help me keep improving on myself. Everyday accomplishments -working out -eating breakfast -painting (if I can find the time to paint everyday that'd be so ideal) -home responsibilities If I could wake up at 8 am and do those things before I got ready for the day I will be so proud of myself

[witkneec]

No. no. no.

DON'T YOU KILL KEPNER, YOU MONSTERS. DON'T YOU DO IT.

[oreosauce]

tagged by apekolypse

Hit shuffle and listen to the first ten songs that come up.

1) All About Us — He Is We ft. Owl City

2) I Loved You Once — Chase Coy

3) Sunday New York Times — Matt Nathanson

4) Pretend (Reprise) — LIGHTS

5) trampoline — Never Shout Never

6) Deathbed — Chase Coy

7) Happy — Never Shout Never

8) When She Cries — Christian Burghardt

9) American Beauty/American Phycho — Fall Out Boy

10) The Minnow & The Trout — A Fine Frenzy

I tag: paxtonpetty, jordby, a-common-jesster, the-l0sts0ul, unknown-hero-chaos, hollowapology, fairiesse, sockune, interstellar-fantasy you do not have to do this i just

[leispiachh]

I'm going to start journalling on the 1st August i think I might buy a blank cover journal and decorate the front tomorrow

[kingklyn]

Guys I’m going to Hawaii☺️

[letsgotoeverydimension]

I feel like society has made me ridged and fake--- with a stupid smile on my face.

[swanboy]

Funktastic

To be honest, I don't use Tumblr for much more than blogging these days. I used to go through almost every bit of my feed, but there's just way too much content to look through now. I've mentioned that I wish I could just see the original posts and filter out all the reblogs, but I guess that's not really the purpose of Tumblr.

Now more than ever, Tumblr is just a place for me to publically vent the thoughts I don't mind being public. It's more for me than anyone else. If someone new to my blog takes the time to read through every single one of my posts, they probably have too much time or motivation.

I've read research that indicates journaling, blogging, creative writing, or whatever written outlet you choose actually improves one's health, happiness, and life. Knowing this, it really doesn't matter to me if no one ever reads these words. The sense of finality when one's thoughts are collected onto a screen is somewhat therapeutic, and it's notably different from the maintenance the brain does overnight. That's the case for me at least.

Prologue aside, allow me to muse about my life and my goals for a bit. 

I've been thinking lately about what I hope to be in life and what I hope to get out of it. Particularly, I've been focused on who I want to be with and who I want to be. I feel like I have finally found the person I want to be with, but they're out of reach; separated by distance and, in a way, time. I won't go into details about that person, and they may not work out, but this provides a segue into talking about who I want to be and who I want to meet.

You see, I want to be the person I would like to meet. No, I don't physically and mentally want to be them, but I do want to have some key components that would make me more desirable to that kind of person. Basically I'm talking about becoming someone that others would actually like to date. How do I accomplish this?

Well, I've come up with a few key qualities that I like in the people I meet (in order of importance) and therefore qualities that I (being equal) should also strive for. I've mentioned some of these before. They are:

Joviality/Charisma - The ability to be fun and have fun. Able to hold an interesting conversation.

Perseverance - The will to keep going when faced with difficult circumstances. The ability to face challenges and triumph.

Daring - The quality of being adventurous. A willingness to try something new.

Openmindedness - The ability to listen to and accept (based on merit) new ideas. It's usually coupled with a certain kind of humility. Surprisingly uncommon.

Confidence - It's cliché, it's always in, it's the ability to be sure of oneself and avoid self-doubt (at least most of the time).

Wit - The ability to engage in "mental fencing", i.e. to have good or thoughtful comebacks in a conversation.

Yup. I could probably live without the last two or 3, but the first 3 qualities are pretty important to me. Of course there are other factors such as attractiveness, drive, and religion, but usually someone with most of these qualities is [personality-wise] attractive to me, someone with confidence has drive, and religion is something that can change (if it's an issue) if one is open-minded enough.

So what can I do to get these qualities and become...more attractive? Well, I'll start with the easy to mention stuff: I need to exercise mentally and physically and stay healthy. Pretty basic, but easy to skip out on. I've been skimping on exercise and good nutrition lately. I'll spend some time figuring out how to change that in the near future by structuring my life a bit better, eliminating some time sinks, starting my day with a devotional/inspirational work of some sort, and not blogging past midnight (woops). I need to be driven. Well I am-I have goals and I'm always getting closer to them. From that last sentence, sounds like I'm good on confidence too. Allow me to do a quick inventory, bottom-up:

6. Wit - I'm pretty good on this one, but there's always room to improve. To improve it, I could read some more thought-provoking or witty books, listen to witty podcasts, watch some comedy or clever tv shows, expand my vocabulary (reading, using dictionaries, writing, etc), get used to making good puns (through practice and use of idioms), listen a bit better, and learn some cool quotes. Come to think of it, this may be my best path to achieving quality #1, since wit tends to come naturally to me.

5. Confidence - I think it's already established. I got this. Perhaps I should use more certain language when I know something to be true though. You'll notice that I say: "I guess", "I think", "perhaps", "I suppose", "likely" or similar phrases quite often. I suppose it comes with being in the sciences, but firmer language is likely needed. You might've noticed that I purposely went overboard on such language just now. Lets just say I'm practicing my irony.

4. Openmindedness - I pride myself on being willing to change my views when sufficient evidence is provided. It's easy to stick to your guns and be stubborn with your views, but it's not productive. Not much work needed here. I can continue to be open-minded by examining my reasons why I think some things are wrong or right.

3. Daring - Pretty good here. Fear is a waste of time in many cases. I'll try most things once unless I have a sound logical reason not to. I definitely have fears that I have to overcome at times, like jumping off cliffs into water, but the fact is I do it in the end when it's relatively safe. I can improve this by simply doing more stuff and getting out of my comfort zone.

2. Perseverance - Short-term, (assignments, projects, blogs, etc.) I have excellent endurance and usually don't stop until I finish (unless time becomes a serious issue). Long-term...it's different, but I'm still pretty good there. Long-term perseverance is hard to describe, but let's just define it as the ability to be patient and see something through to the end. I feel the need to improve this ability, but also to temper it. Sometimes I persevere in doing something too long and end up paying for it in some way. I need to know when to stop. How to do this? Setting time limits when I start something is one way: if I go overtime on something, I simply need to drop it and come back later (if possible). How do I improve it? By sticking with things I don't want to do: i.e. homework and exercise.

1. Joviality/Charisma - Though this quality is what I like to see most in others, I also believe it is one of my weakest traits. Perhaps I hold it in so high regard because it is something I do not have. I am pretty reserved, and though I can lead a group of people, I have difficulty making them truly excited. I don't usually make people laugh unless it involves some sort of witticism. Perhaps I can substitute joviality with wittiness as noted previously. This trait is markedly different from just being an interesting person, though it is related. It embodies a method of interacting with others in such a way as to be fun or amusing. Putting myself in more social situations is not the full solution. I can become more interesting by widening my array of interests (random hobbies, etc.). I can become more fun by being less reserved, less serious, okay with being embarrassed, doing things that might be embarrassing (outside of my comfort zone), telling stories of funny/embarrassing things that happened to me, and simply allowing myself to be in more situations where that is possible. It comes down to a certain kind of openness that's infectious. I'll have to be willing to fail occasionally, and though I certainly have improved in this area in the past few years, I have plenty of ground to cover.

Action plan: I will spend less time playing video games, more time on random hobbies or with friends, I will listen/watch/read more witty stuff, attempt to be less reserved, memorize some movie quotes to randomly use, exercise, go to bed earlier, start my day with a devotional/inspirational work, and buy/eat healthy food. If I stick with this plan long enough, I will be a lot happier with myself and my body. That said, this doesn't mean I will neglect my primary career goals, I'll just shift some of my time usage around.

Oh, and the title refers to those times when I spend too much time on unimportant stuff because I'm procrastinating or something. That was me last week a little bit. I'm out of the funk now. Time to get funky instead.....

....ehh, even that made me groan a little. 

[whospantsamiwearing]

you know, the other day I was sitting in class and just thinking...if I had a school the mascot would be a wizard, that way someone could just walk around in a wizard suit and say wizard things, and at games he could do magic tricks and have special effects while the other mascot is just like "derp i'm hot" ...this is coming from the person though that's often like "oh hey I just kicked that puck into the net in the third inning, and made a touchdown" 

[blueeyes334]

So two hours ago I was in JC Penny's and saw this really cute guy with his mom. I wish I talked to him bc I regret it now

[crazyninjafish]

Why do I still feel the need to talk to someone who hasn't wanted to talk to me in over half a year?

[darmeme]

Well here's today's depressing shit #maybetheywillsee #probablywontcare #idontknowwhatidid #itprobablywassomwthingterrible #imsorry #reallyiam #godthisissad #depressing #youcanignorethis #itshonestlymeantforoneperson #isthisbad #probablybutwhogivesabutt