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[aitadnd]

Hey all! I submitted this a while back and realized I worded some things poorly, so I thought I could clear a few things up.

I am not at all new to online DND, it's just in person DND I've never done before! Like I said before, I've played in a lot of online oneshots (I think about 12 or 13 now). I spend a lot of time on DND forums and subreddits and respond to ads looking for players, so I'm quite familiar with things like Roll20 and 5etools and tabletop simulator. It's just that I can be quite shy, and while I had a lot of fun in these games, I didn't make lifelong friends, ya know?

We had a discord night the day I was asked to DM and I brought up the possibility of doing it online, but my friends seemed keen to do it in person and I really want that too. We don't see each other often since we're all busy, so we want to use this as an excuse to all get together and hang out! We've already decided to shoot for the 28th as the day to hang out together all day and play (time off work has already been acquired from all parties except 1, who may have to drop out).

That night they also did ask me what materials they should bring and I (literally buzzing from excitement at the idea of getting to play with them) said maybe a bit too quickly "Oh don't worry, I'll take care of all of it!" Sooo, yeah. That part. Might be my bad 😅I HAVE kind of backtracked on that a bit since then. I mentioned something like "well actually it would help a lot to have something to take notes, and maybe bring your own dice?" and they weren't upset at all, just amused.

I also talked to them about maybe running a module, but they know I'm a huge DND nerd and that I have been making my own homebrew setting, just for myself, for years. I sometimes gush about it in our discord server and before they were just like "that sounds great sweetie," but now they say they want to play in that world! Which is. And I cannot stress this enough. STILL making me die of happiness to this day. I have the best friends in the world. <3333 And yes, it means more prep work for me, but DND is what I use to unwind and relax! Building this world has been the thing I look forward to most in my day, and now building it for THEM? Even better.

And on to "why $100"? Honestly it's a ballpark number, and one I'm not at all married to. I'd happily pay for all the prep myself! It's just if I'm solely footing the bill prep time might take longer for what I want to do. And I DO plan on using online PDFs or 5etools for stuff like the DM's guide, or monster manual. But I want to at least have a physical copy of the Player's Handbook for them to share, and maybe a couple sets of spare dice because if I know my friends at least one of them will forget their dice. And the PHB alone can be like 50$ if I can't find one used (which I'm currently doing. I've been to a used book store and game store so far, and I'm willing to keep looking.)

As for stuff like maps? I know I don't need them, and I've played plenty of theater of the mind games before. But I know at least a couple of my friends are more visual learners, and I'm an okay artist, while a couple of my friends are art majors and FANTASTIC artists. My plan is to get some construction paper and draw some maps I can reuse, like generic forest, generic tavern, generic city street- and get those laminated so we can draw on them with markers. And maybe if we end up playing more than once I can recruit my more artistically inclined friends' help in drawing more maps.

I've also DIYed a DM's screen out of old cardboard and duct tape, and one of those artistically inclined friends offered to bring her paints over and paint all our characters on it (They've been private messaging me on discord with character ideas and I love them for it).

I think that's about it! TL;DR: I have experience with online DND, but me and my friends want to play in person. We've already started planning for it. the 100$ was just a ballpark number and I haven't asked for money from any of them yet, and idk if I'm going to. If I DID ask for money it would go to things like a single PHB to share, spare dice, construction paper, laminating said construction paper, markers, etc. I know I don't need all the fancy schmancy books and minis and add ons, and wouldn't give WOTC that much money anyway. My friends and I are very very excited to play!!! :)

WIBTA for asking my friends to pay me for DMing?

Maybe a weird situation but hear me out. I (22F) really really love DND. I listen to shows like NAADNDP and CR and D20. I’ve played in a lot of online oneshots and tried finding a local group to play with but haven’t been very successful because between classes and work I’m always too busy.

A couple days ago in a discord movie night with my friends (all early 20s) we watched the DND movie, and my friends were super into it and kept asking me stuff like “Is this from the game? Can you really do that in the game? Was that a good dice roll?”, just being really into it. Later one of them asked if I would maybe DM for them. I was SUPER excited as I’ve always wanted my friends to play DND with me but never pushed cause they didn’t seem too interested. I said yes without a moment’s hesitation and started planning. But in the middle of planning I realized how much I really needed to buy. I’ve never actually done DND in person. At the very least I need a dice set, plenty of paper, something to use for maps, something to use as a screen- even if I forgo minis and the books and the modules and all that expensive stuff. Not to mention I would need to take time off work, because right now I’m going to classes 5 days a week and working 6 days a week and that 7th day is for staying at home in bed recovering only.

So I was wondering: would it be considered a dick move if I were to ask my friends to give me a bit of cash in return for DMing? Obviously not enough to replace the lost income from work, but maybe like $20 each (from 5 people)? Or maybe ask them to help buy some of the materials I need? I’m afraid to ask and scare them off the idea of playing, because I wanna play soooo bad, but also I am very much broke and might be putting myself in a bind if I try to do this all by myself.

What are these acronyms?

[volivolition]

heyo!! hows unstoppable force going?? :0

HELLO ANON! lots of people asking about my fics (unless you're all just the same anon??? hgkj) in any case, im truly grateful :')!! i'll split up chatting between them, but since you asked for it specifically: let's talk Unstoppable Force! :D

Preface, here's all my fic wips as explained before!! and all my writing can be found in my #inland drabbles tag! ask 2, ask 3!

Unstoppable Force, aka "The Unstoppable Force Kisses the Immovable Object" was my first ever skills fic! as with all my writings, it's still a wip hgkjg Unstoppable Force is centered on Volition and Electrochemistry's relationship, from enemies -> friends with benefits -> lovers :3 it started as pwp but whoops accidentally got a bit of plot in there! it is still very explicit hgskgjk

Current word count is now 22,389!! granted, some of these are snippets of other fics. This document is a general free-for-all Volistry document, but Unstoppable Force in specific does have a plot in mind.

As for how it's going, it's currently a back burner project. Life's been tossin' curveballs and writing's been waiting in the outfield. for Unstoppable Force in specific, ive never written an explicit fic before so on top of the evil "your writing isn't good enough" demons im also fighting off the puritan "you should not be writing sexy shit, you are a sinner and also CRINGE" angels. like lmao LET ME FUCKIN LIVE HDHJFJ

i really love rereading it (literally canNOT stop grinning while rereading, theyre SO FUNNY, im delighted by their dialogues hgkj) and i KNOW other people might like reading it too, but also it's hard to believe anyone besides me will like the plot and characterization and. y'know. the sex?? i feel its very obvious i am a novice at this hgkj im aroace as fuck guys, this is already such an endeavor hkjgg

NEVERTHELESS. WE PERSIST!! the outline is all there, and a lot of plot points are already filled in! i just need to add more in-between sections, and figure out which sections i actually want to include in the fic hkjg

i think i want to add more of volition's thought process into this, it's fuckin fascinating, the way he denies things he wants, and moreover doesn't allow himself to want? me when the homie's self restraint is making his life worseee~!!! hgkjg shakes him hgkjg here's a writing snippet!! for you!!!

^ I NEED TO FUCKIN EXTRAPOLATE ON THIS!! HEY @ MY OWN WRITING, IS THIS TRUE??? HGKJG

i think it'd be better if i punched up the conflict in one of the later chapters? there's a part where volition's reaction to something harry says would realistically be something else, especially given the circumstances. i know exactly how i could do it but it makes me REALLY SAD augfhfhgh what if i just want volition and echem to be happy!! what then!!!

augh i'll do it eventually but I'LL BE SAD ABOUT IT HJGKJ </3 alas, writing is driven by conflict. i GOTTA CAUSE PROBLEMS ON PURPOSE!!!

okay, i could say more but that's all on Unstoppable Force for now. i have a lot of fondness for this fic as my first ever one that got me started in the fandom <33 volistry lover forever and ever!!! :D thank you for reading!!! :D

[citrus-writing]

hi hi!! can i please request a matchup for hxh? i’m bisexual & use she/her pronouns!

for my personality, id say im pretty bubbly and excitable. i’m an isfj & cancer, & i try to look on the bright side and try to listen to/help when they’re sad. im very affectionate with the people im close to, and i tend to cling onto my friends arms and hug them a lot. i love anything soft or cute, especially animals!! im kinda scared of bugs though, but i still always try to take them outside. i get distracted pretty easily, and have a hard time dealing with change. i tend to be a bit bossy and unreasonable when it comes to something i’m interested in. plus i get really moody and irrational sometimes when it comes to something i want (im very stubborn lol). i also really like going for walks, shopping, yoga, gardening, baking (even though i’m dreadfully awful at it), and reading. i try to see the best in everything & everyone, though i can’t really tolerate it if somebody is overly cruel or rude to the people i care about. i have a very “do no harm, take no shit” mentality :)

for my appearance, im 5’1 & have fairly long light brown hair. my eyes are hazel, im fairly pale with a few freckles sitting across my face, & my cheeks are perpetually rosy andjfjjek. my style ranges from pretty soft and girly to a wannabe skater boy (i love the style but alas, it does not love me </3). i really like dressing up even if i’m not going anywhere. i also really like to do makeup, both on myself and others. also since i’m on the shorter side, i like to wear platform shoes since being tall makes me feel cool!

please & thank you!! have a nice day <33

I ship you with: Machi 

Machi would love a darling who is the opposite of herself- your bubbly and excitable nature, and your willingness to show affection to those you're close to draw her in. she can't help but wonder if you would be the same with her, given enough time? Would you share your passions and hobbies with her? Would you hug her? Cuddle up with her? The thoughts spin endlessly in her mind. She adores that you like cute things, and she’s on one of the yanderes most likely to allow you a pet, if you wanted one. 

She’d love to engage in a hobby of yours! She’d be great at yoga, and seeing you practise yoga is a literal dream to her. And if you asked her to help you stretch? She may just die on the spot. She’d love to do makeup with you, being so close with you never fails to make her blush. 

Can I just say… she’d love to match outfits with you!

Runner ups: hisoka (it was a tie between him and machi), kurapika

[youremyheaven]

How should a woman know if a man has truly genuinely fallen for her and it's strong? What are the key signifactors to tell so?

Is arm guy your first love? Like true love?👀👀👀

How would you know? 🙈will it make you sad and jealous finding out he actually loved someone else before you? *Hypothetically*

Would it be okay if they stayed friend's with that person?

Ive been thinking about this topic about men and love. Tho experiences vary for people but as per some stats is it true that a man's first love or relationship is always going to be a significant part of them whether unrequited or heartbreak? They just can't forget them and unable to love the same as they did the first time? Even if it means dating, getting married and having a child

wowww these are some bigggg questions hmmm

ill try to answer them to my best ability (im prepared for my future self to laugh at me lmao but i trust that future heaven's in good hands<33)

How should a woman know if a man has truly genuinely fallen for her and it's strong? What are the key signifactors to tell so?

for me, love is as love does. this means, love is an ability not an emotion.

i HIGHLY recommend reading all about love by bell hooks. i read it for the first time as a 18-19yr old and it CHANGED me as a person. i think every person, ESPECIALLY WOMEN, should read it.

a lot of us have been conditioned to believe that love is this mysterious fluttery emotion that just randomly strikes us one day. whilst its possible to experience that, its important to not let our own understanding of love be limited to that. love is not just what we feel, its what we do.

if i say i love my dog but dont feed him or wash him, then what kind of love would that be?

a lot of people fail to grasp the psychology of abuse and why its hard for victims of abuse (myself included) to leave their abusers. its because despite everything, there is love there. there are moments of tenderness, warmth and affection. any wounded person would stay trying to lap up whatever little they get no matter how excruciating the relationship may be otherwise. it requires a different kind of personal healing to be dissatisfied with breadcrumbs and BELIEVE you're worthy of someone's love and affection ALL THE TIME.

if you love someone, you TREAT them well. you speak to them kindly. not just when it suits you BUT ALL THE TIME. yes ALWAYS. no matter the situation, there is a way to approach it with grace!! you think of their needs/interests/where they're coming from. you do things without asking or being asked. you do what is necessary.

if you love someone and they say they're hungry, you get them food. instead of saying "why dont you eat?". i remember the first night my pookie I were hanging out, I was experiencing some personal difficulties and he stayed with me the entire day, leaving his work behind and I went home really late that night and he bought me dinner to take home with me even though I refused because he knew I was alone and had a distressing day🥹🥹its a small gesture perhaps but the fact that he was so thoughtful and considerate really warmed my heart. 🧿🪬🧿🪬🧿🪬🧿🪬🧿🪬🧿🪬🧿🪬🧿🪬the fact that he knew I was a girl alone in the city, vulnerable, sad and in distress and treated me with the utmost grace and kindness 🧿🪬🧿🪬and what makes me melt is how I know that he would treat anybody in that position the same way because that's who he is as a human being, he is sensitive, kind and generous. if you think about it, he had no reason to be there for me. after all, i had rejected him and given him the cold shoulder, he could just tell me to buzz off when I called him in the middle of the afternoon of a workday lol but he didn't 🥺🥺

(this was a tangent)

you'll know a man loves you when is sensitive towards you and your needs. when he is attentive towards you. remembers your likes and dislikes. when he is protective and caring. ive always believed that when we're in love, we awaken the maternal/paternal instinct within us because biologically that's how we're rooted to care for others, i.e, by being nurturing and considerate. like if you're vegetarian and your bf takes you to a steakhouse, thats 🚩if they love you, they'll do every possible thing to make your life easier. obviously not all men express love in the same way.

but regardless of his personality, the important factor here is that he WILL SHOW IT in REAL TANGIBLE WAYS. maybell he'll get you a cheesecake, maybe he'll buy you flowers, maybe he'll write you letters or sing you songs or whatever but HE WILL SHOW YOU. he will make you feel special.

if a man does not make you feel special in any way, that means you're not special to him. which means he does not love you.

Is arm guy your first love? Like true love?👀👀👀

i fell in love for the first time when i was 17 and it changed me as a human being so that was my first love 😭 its too soon to say anything about arm guy etc yet 🧿🪬🧿🪬🧿🪬🧿🪬🧿🪬🧿🪬but he is a lovely human being and a GREEN FLAG AF 🤌🏻🤌🏻🤌🏻🧿🪬🧿🪬🧿🪬🧿🪬🧿🪬🧿🪬🧿🪬🧿🪬🧿🪬🧿🪬ask me again in a few months and hopefully then i'll have a better answer to this question hehe<333

How would you know? 🙈will it make you sad and jealous finding out he actually loved someone else before you? *Hypothetically*

he said he's only been in 2 relationships before and i somehow get the feeling that they weren't super lovey dovey 🧐🤔i dont know the full details of those relationships rn (one of them was with an older woman- altho she's only 2yrs older than him and they met at the gym??? lol?? but idk her vibes felt off to me 😒)

i think i'll know in that moment (that its love) and ofc ill yap about it here hehe lmaooo . i cant say what or how itll happen bc im not God 😭😭

i wont be sad if he's been in love before because i know that nothing could come close to what we have or how we are with each other 🧿🪬🧿🪬🧿🪬🧿🪬🧿🪬🧿🪬🧿🪬i feel very secure about that so nope hehe

Would it be okay if they stayed friend's with that person?

it depends on the person and the situation tbh,, some men have complicated relationships with their exes and thats what makes you feel like he'll go back to her any minute.

arm guy has been single for like 2 years, his ex moved overseas and all the roads are clear. if they occasionally reply to each others stories (which is what im assuming you mean by staying friends with an ex lmao) idc tbh lol

Ive been thinking about this topic about men and love. Tho experiences vary for people but as per some stats is it true that a man's first love or relationship is always going to be a significant part of them whether unrequited or heartbreak? They just can't forget them and unable to love the same as they did the first time? Even if it means dating, getting married and having a child

YESSS

This I wholeheartedly believe in. If you meet a man, you can always tell if he's had a significant "love" in his life. Because that will change you as a human being and the mark of that first love will be visible to anyone. Its like a wound you carry with you. you nurse it, you cover it up but its there. Men who've had that first love + heartbreak are a different species compared to men who haven't. They have that weariness to them, they understand women differently, they look at the world differently. First love + heartbreak builds character like NOTHING else ever could.

whenever men have that boyish sweet innocent vibe, I know they haven't known a "real" love and heartbreak yet. Thats the thing that makes a boy a man. And he will NEVER ever forget that woman until the day he dies.

men aren't wired the same way women are. male friendships are very low maintenance and low effort. the only space where men CAN share their emotions or be emotionally intimate with someone and share themselves deeply is in a romantic relationship. UNLIKE women who have profoundly deep relationships with other women as well. what this means is that, being in love, for a man, is 100x more vulnerable than it is for a woman because just the emotional intimacy of being that close to someone, sharing things with them, talking to them about stuff etc is BRAND NEW for them. imagine if you, as a woman, never had a friend before and made one for the very first time. wouldnt you be so cautious, nervous, scared, worried about every little thing etc because you dont want to lose them??

men lowkey get mad when they fall in love because it makes them sooo vulnerable, when usually they can just talk about football and drink a beer and go home. now he has to BE A PERSON and FORM A CONNECTION and its scary asf.

no man will ever forget the first woman he opened up to that way, the first woman he fell in love with. its his first taste of being seen as a human being.

even if it was unrequited love. the act of loving someone can make us more deeply human than anything else. it humbles us. it grounds us. even if they never love us back, we cant help but love them. there's nothing more profoundly humanizing than that.

i hope this answer helps<333

love,

Heaven

[mj4eva]

★·ɪɴᴛʀᴏ·★

hey guyss || welcome <33,

about me:

my name is tori, im 17 from melb, aus. I have been a fan of MJ since 2015 and literally have been in love w him since. I love music in general, it acts as my escape and a place where i can really feel safe and not judged. I love the 60's , like if there was a time machine that could send me back, SEND ME BACK ASAP. idk jus smth about that era makes me so happy and the music (ugh don't even get me started). I'm a taurus (lol random). lastly, i absolutely adore singing, like girl there ain't a millisecond of the day that you won't find me mindlessly singing a tune (most deff it'll be mj).

I started this page outta love for mj. like a lot of you, ik we all miss him a lot and this page is souly based on keeping his soul alive. he is an angel. he gave his soul to the world and the world just wouldn’t let him be, he wanted to live forever but the world wouldn’t let him, so I really wanna be here to help keep his spirit and love for the world alive.

i am a strong defender of mj and literally vow to make his innocence known. this page is also for educating people on what MJ went through and the horrible pain and suffering he went through due to the false allegations bound upon him. our poor baby was brutally misunderstood and treated like such a monster, in no way would i ever wish for anyone to endure the suffering he went through. Michael Jackson was not some fictional character from a book or movie, he was a human being with emotions and feelings.

So, if you strongly disagree with this please don't bother to comment or make any nasty remarks, it's not needed as this page is meant to educate. ty mls. <33

before you continue:

i'll be posting lil rants here and there cus like (omfg he's the hottest man to ever walk the earth)

I might start doin some writing, mainly on michael x readers and maybe some sad stories from his perspective of his life. whatever I write comes out of pure love and adoration for the man ( i mean how could u not love him). BUT, under no circumstances will any of my pieces include violence or harm to him or readers in any way.

please, if you feel uncomfy at all on this page just feel free to block me or ignore my posts. this blog isn't intended to make you feel upset or uncomfy so just leave if u find it's not ur cup of tea. any negativity or rudeness will be deleted.

socials:

tiktok: mj4eva__

my tag system:

for my writing: tori's pieces

for thirst posts: the girl is so dangerous

for answering asks: liberian girl

for reblogs: reblogs

lastly:

i wanna make sure this is a safe environment for everyone. no matter what, EVERYONE is welcomed here and is free to share there thoughts in a non-judgemental environment. even if they're dirty. (i mean c'mon it's hard not to think abt that when you're obssesing over the most perfect man ever.)

please feel so free to send me literally anything in my inbox. (questions, queries, requests or if you just simply wanna rant about michael FEEL FREE TO DO SO!!) I would absolutely love to make some new friends and talk w you moonwalkers!

don't hesitate at all to reach out even if u jus need someone to talk to about anything, i'm here. <33

tysm for reading! u are loved xx

© mj4eva 2024

[borkborkheresadork]

checking in on friends, mutuals and following list, How are you? feel free to use this ask to talk about recent life happenings, something you're passionate about, or anything <33 remember I and I'm sure others care about you and your posts <33

I'll start with the good bits.

The semester is officially over for me and once i finish up work and once I go on break next week, ill have 3 weeks for break. I get to meet up with a online friend irl and spend time with my family and friends during that time so im actually very excited to go back home for so long! Also, I just gained 2 boyfriends and am in a wonderful throuple now :3. Next semester I'm taking classes that are easy but also fun and are less focus on my degree and more focused on my interest, so I'm hoping that will help with my burnout. Over the course of the semester I also got involved with a progress group up here and have been assigned to be their mutual aid coordinator!

I started writing more (nothing that will be posted to this blog) both with music and fanfic. It's nice that I'm at a place where i can (mostly) freely write my ideas.

There's a lot of bad bits, though.

So I've come to the very difficult decision of cutting off my mom. After break i'm going to get a bank account separate from hers and cut contact. There was a bit where we were both communicating well, but I got into a fight with her after she tried to guilt trip me into calling her on thanksgiving (I wasn't talking to her outside of documented forms of communication since she is a habitual gaslighter and likes to say she didn't say things when she very obviously did, and I like to have my receipts when I call her out). After idk maybe like 10 years or something she finally admitted I'm on the spectrum but only because it was convenient to aid in her argument of 'you never understand me and thats clearly because you're autistic and not because im in the middle of a manic episode and i'm not being rational'. So that will be fun to deal with, especially since I'm worried for her safety if I do cut contact, being her only child and her telling me pretty consistantly throughout my life that im her only reason to live. Scary stuff, but necessary for me to stop holding on to that guilt and working through a lot of trauma.

I finished my semester withdrawing from 3 classes and likely failing another, and feeling burnt out to keep going. I need to go to college for a lot of reasons (degree required for the job I want, first gen student/family pressure), but im considering taking it at a considerably slower pace.

I just got on testosterone but thanks to an insurance complication I might have to go without it for a bit. I was previously getting it through my school, but I just got on state insurance and that fucked with my access to it. The good news is that i will likely have a lower co-pay, the bad is that I'll probably have to wait another month to get back on it. One step forward one step back.

The person I thought to be my best friend dropped me out of the blue, which sucks on its own, but the fact that it's been a consistent pattern of people in my life ghosting/dropping me with very little reasoning or with one's ive not found to be true just sucks. I think I'm a loving person in my own way, and the fact that I was called selfish when I A) show a lot of affection towards my friends and B) know my own boundaries when it comes to my relationships with them, it makes me upset. The other person wasn't entirely at fault, I did handle the situation kind of poorly, but I also contributed more to that friendship then that person ever did. I bought food. I made the plans. I hosted. And I thought when the argument that broke us up happened, we just needed space from each other. I guess that wasn't the case and it's sad that the person couldn't communicate their needs earlier so we could have resolved the situation. That being said, on a less neutral perspective. Fuck him. He claimed to be loving and whimsical and had no patience for anyone. Everything pissed him off and he didn't cope in healthy ways and when I tried to help him he didn't take it. He was uncommunicative and disrespectful of other people's boundaries and expectations for friendship. I wish him the best with the realizations he's going to have later in life.

Even though I'm excited for family during the holidays, my dad is coming to town and I'll have to navigate them with him. I stay with my grandmother during breaks, so I'll have to look for another place to stay while he's in town and crashing with her. I feel a little ostracized knowing that they'll accept a bigoted abuser into their homes and make me wait upstairs until he's gone.

Then there's everything else. I live in a country that refuses to care about it's people. I'm one person dealing with a world full of struggles. Those previous things are nothing compared to what's to come, and I'm shocked that I'm rethinking my morals to live and feel safe. I'm a trans guy fresh on T, who, for years thought guns needed to be restricted, and i plan on strapping up over the break. Everything feels broken and I've been dealing with a lot of suicidality since probably late september or october. The horrors are persisting and I don't have much silly in response. I can't even scrape by with my job. And my physical health is catching up making things worse. I don't think I've thrown up this much since I was getting bullied in elementary school. So, uh, yeah.

Not to e-beg, but if you've read this and wanna help me out my venmo is in my bio. I don't have the energy to link anything rn but there's that.

Thanks for letting me rant o7

[hatsukeii]

♪ positivity prime time! share five things you love about yourself, four things you're excited about, OR three people you care deeply about and why. pass this along to someone whose posts make you smile ♪

thank you sm for the ask bb!! <33

hmm let’s go w four things i’m excited for!!

1. graduating high school on monday!! i’m terrified and kinda sad and i can already feel the existential crisis coming but i’m so excited to start all over again in uni as one of the “youngest” ones!!!

2. concerts!! i’ve got wallows and green day lined up for december and march and im sososoosoooooo stoked for it!!!

3. seeing my best friend again!! im travelling down to a different city in country for her 18th and i haven’t seen her since she left two years ago so im really really looking forward to it!!!!

4. next year’s anime convention!! i’m trying to get promoted from regular volunteering crew to staff so i can get more involved in the planning and running of the event (my supervisor this year liked me a lot so i have a good shot and i have friends who are staff too), i can’t wait to see how next year’s convention plays out!!!

[starfolk7]

For the ask game: Messmer, Wolf, Genichiro and your grubby man Gabe

Oh my god im so sorry this took me so long to get to but HOO BOY this will take a bit here we GO-

Messmer

- favorite thing about them: My god, they did SUCH a good job with his character. Forever locked away in the Land of Shadow? Carried on a crusade that even his most loyal followers had to take a step back and say "hey um is this too much"? Cursed with the inhabitance of the Abyssal Serpent, wherever they came from? There's so much buried under that fierce and tired exterior, and I love it when people dig deep on Messmer and come up with fitting headcanons to coincide with his tragic canon story <3

- least favorite thing about them: I guess all of the genocide? Then again, that's a core part of his character/story, so he wouldn't be the same without that. And really, there are no pure sides in Elden Ring, everyone's got blood on their hands and skeletons in their closets. Messmer is no exception.

- favorite line: "O Mother, forgive me..." The delivery on this line gets me every. Single. Time. 😭😭😭

- brOTP: Messmer and Gaius!! From the lore, it sounds like they were super close friends, and I love the idea of them being close comrades. Idk, something about it just hits, y'know?

- OTP: Any Messmer x Tarnished/OC ship! Yes I have one of my own, but I don't think I'll be publishing anything about it for quite a while. I'm already loaded with writing projects as it is lol

- nOTP: Don't really have one for him!

- random headcanon: Give him hot soup and he'll be a happy man. Idk why, but my headcanon of him as a soup guy still holds firm!

- unpopular opinion: I really don't like how a lot of fans seem to put all of the blame on Messmer and none of it on the Hornsent. My point above stands: there are no innocent sides in the story of Elden Ring. Except maybe a handful of NPCs.

- song I associate with them: Ouroboros by Trobar de Morte; Demigods by HEALTH (especially the last minute of the song, OOF)

- favorite picture of them:

Kind of basic, but I adore the cover photo for the DLC. The pose and the lighting just absolutely slap <33

Wolf

- favorite thing about them: His loyalty and, to an extent, his naivety. It's pretty endearing, seeing him figure out things about the world around him that he never knew about. Example: the poor man didn't know you're supposed to cook rice before you eat it. He's spent so long learning to be a weapon that it never occurred to him to learn the simpler things. It's kind of sad, but also compelling, if that makes sense!

- least favorite thing about them: I guess the killing thing, but he didn't exactly get a say in his career path soooooo

- favorite line: I have so many for Wolf, he's got great lines! But honestly, all of the dialogue where he defies Owl. It hits closer to home than I'd like, but it's an amazing part of his character development <3

- brOTP: Wolf and Kuro! Sure, there's a master/servant dynamic going on here, but I just love Wolf looking after Kuro like a sibling or even an adopted son. It tugs at my heartstrings something fierce ;w;

- OTP: Hehehehe I love shipping Wolf with OCs. Yes I have an OC ship with him that I don't chat about much, but it's cute and compelling and UGH I love it a lot!

- nOTP: Don't really have one for him, believe it or not!

- random headcanon: Once he has the freedom to do what he likes, I feel like he has more energy to develop a better hygiene routine. Let's be real, he smells like dirt and sweat on a good day, and I don't wanna think about what he smells like after trudging through that Great Ape fight fjkjskghd

- unpopular opinion: It's been a bit since I thought about this aspect of things for Wolf. I guess I don't like it when people boil down Wolf to being just naive or just an unfeeling killer. He's so much more than that. I'm noticing a trend in what bothers me with character interpretations lol.

- song I associate with them: Tourniquet by Evanescence, though he's def not the only one of my boys that gets this song!

- favorite picture of them:

There's so much wonderful fanart of Wolf, but after looking through a bunch, I just adore this shot of him. It encapsulates so much of his character in one go! Plus the lighting highlights his pretty face so well! <33

Genichiro

- favorite thing about them: There's so much passion contained within one guy that looks like attractive burnt toast. If he used it for good, it would be much more attractive, but at the very least, it's compelling! Genichiro has more issues than Time magazine, but he's got the spirit, y'know? Overall, absolutely great antagonist with so much depth <3

- least favorite thing about them: How to stop him from going after Wolf asking for a friend. The friend is me. I know, it's part of what makes him a compelling character but PLS

- favorite line: It's been a bit since I played Sekiro, but I use "Heresy, you say?" on my brother a lot lol

- brOTP: Not really sure? Need to read more fics with Genichiro in them, that might give me a better idea.

- OTP: Don't really have one of these for him, either! Shipping him with Wolf has its own kind of spice, but I wouldn't call it an OTP of mine, y'know?

- nOTP: Also don't have one of these for him lol

- random headcanon: He would not know how to function in everyday society. I don't mean high society, I'm talking amongst everyday people. He would be so lost lol

- unpopular opinion: I guess I don't really care for how people boil him down to one trait or another. As much as I like to poke fun at Genichiro sometimes, there's so much anger and passion for a multitide of reasons. He doesn't fall into one box or another.

- song I associate with them: Gotta admit, haven't really thought about songs for him much. I'm not the person to ask on this one skdhfkdsh

- favorite picture of them:

You cannot tell me this isn't an amazing shot of him. It embodies SO much of his character in one frame. Plus, it's pretty hot, not gonna lie dsfsdfdsh

Gabriel

- favorite thing about them: Oh my god, where do I even start? The nuance behind his heinous acts? The crisis of his position in existence? Gabriel is SUCH a disaster and he doesn't even know it until he gets his ass handed to him for the first time in his existence. He's spent the whole time fighting in the name of God, someone that couldn't even be bothered to live with His mistakes, and for what? Just for Gabriel's own kind to turn on him when he slips up once? GodDAMN there is so much to unpack about him and his character, but I'm trying to keep this as spoiler-free as possible, so. Just know that he has a LOT going on in that haloed head of his okay he's Going Through It TM

- least favorite thing about them: Why he gotta be so mean to me :((( I'm kidding, but for real, Gabe has uh. Done a LOT to piss off the damned, let's just put it that way. But again, it comes down to: what choice did he have, if any, to do anything different? Lots to dig through on that one.

- favorite line: UGH I have so many for him, but this is from an exchange later on:

"Face it, brother. God is Dead. The fire is gone. You're chasing phantoms."

G O D his character arc drives me insane okay

- brOTP: If Gabe and V2 (another of my beloveds) ever got the chance to meet, I'm p sure they'd bond over their mutual hatred of V1. Maybe that's just me, but I love the idea so much that it's a later thing I'm playing with down the line in my fic. Sure, it's also motivated by other things, but shhhh don't worry about that lol

- OTP: Hehehehehehe Gabe x OC go brrrrr. Y'all know the shit I'm writing with him and Charlotte down the line, it's not a secret at this point that those two drive me nuts in the best way skdfhksdhf

- nOTP: I wouldn't say nOTP, per se, but I really am kind of neutral on Gabe x V1? I completely understand where the appeal comes from, and there's some cute ass art of it, but it doesn't really hit the spot for me? Personal thing, really. It's fine, though! I'll party in my little OC corner instead lol

- random headcanon: Since Gabriel is an archangel that has existed for...god knows how long, he can understand every single language humanity has ever created. Now, does that mean he can properly speak every single language? Absolutely not. Some languages he can speak as elegantly as a native speaker, but others? Oh no no, he's atrocious with his pronunciation. Idk, I think it's just funnier if he can understand what people are saying, but he can't always properly convey his words in their language. French, for example. No this isn't motivated by his stuff with Charlotte what are you talking about-

- unpopular opinion: I like poking fun at him and comparing him to a wet cat sometimes, but I really don't care for when people only see Gabriel as a pathetic whiny mess. He didn't get this far being that way, he had to fight and win SO MANY battles before his first encounter with V1. If he wasn't competent in his skill set, V1 would have crushed him in an instant. There's a reason he was able to cause so much misery for the denizens of Hell. That's all I'll say.

- song I associate with them: Oh geez, SO MANY. But here's a few, not counting his tracks from the game:

Sleep Token - Chokehold; HEALTH feat. SIERRA - HATEFUL; Ethel Cain - Family Tree; JVLIAH - Angel of Death; DYNA - Redemption; Spiritbox - Circle With Me

I don't have a problem I swear-

- favorite picture of them:

I had to sort through a LOT of pics, but this is by the lovely friedri-ce right here on Tumblr!!

Not only are the style and colors absolutely STELLAR, but it just. Perfectly encapsulates Gabriel when you first meet him in the game. Gorgeous piece, I love all of their fanart of Gabe!!! <333

[asahicore]

when i made my new blog i literally was looking everywhere for you and you were gone </3 (NOT ME ACTING LIKE I DON'T HAVE UR DISCORD FKDJFK but i'm not really active on discord anymore nd i didn't know if u were fkkfj) BUT NOW YOU'RE HERE AND I'M HERE WOOT WOOT and thank u for the compliment about my blog kdfjkdj i actually like redid the theme the day you came back right before you followed me fkdjfk AND YOU ALSO HAVE A BLUE THEME AYEEE so many people have blue themes rn i feel like

i'm glad you've been enjoying your holidays !! the break certainly is wonderful <3 even if you didn't end up writing again, i'd still be more than happy you're here. i stopped writing for awhile as well (like so many months fkjd) but i've since started again and i've really been enjoying it (other than the bouts of no motivation dfjdk)

outside of tumblr i've been doing sooooo much better than last year !! i've been at my job for over four months now and i LOVE it. it's a full time job and i'm still a full time university student so it does get a bit difficult sometimes but i've been doing really well and i love it. i also live in an all girls house with my best friend and three other roommates. i'm not close to them and we don't talk much, but i don't mind ! we all keep to ourselves (other than me and bff) and that's okay. it's been great to live in a house with other people my age and not stay with my aunt and uncle (who are lovely and i love them very much but living with them was not ideal). but yeah ! i'm doing well and my family has been saying since i moved back here and started my job that i look really happy (much different than their constant comments of "are you okay?" "you look so sad." etc.).

i'm glad that you're doing so well <3 i hope your break from tumblr was lovely and i hope that you enjoy your time here now that you're back <3

i just made that fic recs blog but then wanted to be completely rid of tumblr and left without saying anything lmaooo but yes im always active on discord ur welcome to message me here or there anytime!!! and omg yeah idk blue themes r so cute but tbh rn ive just got a pfp and a banner lmaoo i need to make a proper theme n navi.. whenever im not too lazy

i think taking a break from writing just makes you enjoy it that much more when you come back to it even though it can be hard to get back into a regular rhythm!! and that is really nice of u to say <33 i dont wanna pressure myself into always writing n posting like i did before (even though i just posted a teaser lmaoo), definitely taking it easier this time around!! it makes tumblr a lot more enjoyable

and omg, that is so so great to hear, im really happy for you!!! i hope you still get time for yourself cause full time job plus uni sounds tiring, but i have no doubt that you can do it :)) and omg living with your bestie is the best, even if you arent super close with the others the most important is just being able to communicate easily and respect each other, and having ur bff there will make things fun haha i lived with my best friends last year before going on my year abroad and even though we had times where we got on each others nerves it was so much fun everyday

thank uu<3 its really nice being back for sure !!!

[blueeandyellowmakesgreen]

I started ST really really late (like after Vol 2 came out) and one of the only things I knew about the fandom was that so many people hated Melvin (both my IRL friends and people on Tumblr) and when I first binged S1-2, I kept wondering 'why tf do people hate them so much, they're so cute' - I was a wholeass Melvin shipper for the 2 weeks it took me to watch those season and the hate for them made me so sad. And then I got to s3 ep 1 after they started being obnoxious and ignoring their friends and it instantly clicked for me why people hated them so much. In one episode I went from adoring them to feeling instantly annoyed whenever they were onscreen.

By ep 2 I was cheering for their breakup. And then!!!! I watched the S3 Byler rain fight and realized that they were really going down the road of Will being gay and in love with Mike, and right after the fight and Mike biking in the rain to apologize, I converted to Byler and haven't looked back since. Season 4 just made me hate Melvin more and ship Byler harder (I love the pining, especially the van scene, sue me) and when I went back to rewatch S1-2, it really hit me how many wonderful Byler moments I missed (like the shed scene and the super spy scene) and also hit me how weird S1 Milkvan was since they kissed a week after she escaped the lab (and it happened right after she asked if he would be her brother 💀 that relationship was bones from the start ngl)

Anyway idk what the point of this rant is lmao I'm just saying that you're not alone in loving Melvin and converting to Byler.

hell yeah!!! dont get me wrong, i openly clown myself for shipping melvin and i dont blame myself for it, because they were adorable! im glad both of you and i saw the light <33

if yall have any other melvin convert stories for me, im all game to hear it B) i need to know theres a lot of us out there

[tarosei]

hi there! i came across your blog and i’m in love with your content. was wondering if i could request something involving the league of villains? headcanons of them having a new member join. they’re like really soft and shy so the league is like really protective. — 🦄

L.O.V. AND HOW THEY REACT TO A NEW MEMBER WHO'S SOFT & SHY

headcanons, sfw, gender neutral

ft. tomura shigaraki, himiko toga, dabi.

a/n: hi anon! you're so sweet, thank you very much :) i did each character separately, but if you wanted more broad headcanons then i can do that, too! im so sorry,, ive only done the three lov members im most familiar with D: hope you enjoy nonetheless! and omg this is so late im so sorry- life's been busy.

SHIGARAKI

shigaraki's very skeptical at first. he doesn't have a problem with you being quiet, but your exterior and personality just scream " (❁´▽`❁)*✲ﾟ* ". a few months after you join, he starts keeping you closer to him. he will not admit it to himself, however whenever you're right next to him, he breathes a little easier. he got used to your soft personality, and now he's pretty much addicted. (good luck on trying to get some personal space.) hates hates hates it when any member of the league even look at you the wrong way. he got very protective of you pretty fast, and he going to be even more protective on missions. you're allowed to fight your own fights of course, but he'd prefer it if you stay next to him the whole time.

DABI

i'm so sorry, but he probably hated you at first. he thought you looked too soft to be a real villain:(, and dabi found it very fun to tease you about being quieter/shyer than most people. but every time he saw someone else make fun of you he got so mad. he was the only one allowed to poke fun at you, why can't the rest of the league see that? during missions especially, he's over protective. won't let you leave his sight, ever. you're always with him, so he can make sure you are alright. won't admit it, but you make him a more positive person, and bright up his day with your soft personality<33

TOGA

she loves you. she loves you so much, oh my god. she loves you so much that she won't let anyone make you feel sad, or hurt you. she knows your quieter than the rest of them, but that makes you all the more cuter. and you're so nice! and soft! and precious! she adores you so much. you and toga become very fast friends (or lovers c:). when the league are on a mission, she won't make you stay by her side all the time, but she does want to check on you a lot. unlike dabi, she's not overprotective with you. just the right amount!

© tarosei 2022 all rights reserved. please don’t copy, steal, or profit off my works. i do not allow people to repost or translate my works without my permission.

[greg-montgomery]

Ok so I was going to comment on your post but tumblr is being a bitchurden and so I have to resort to being annoying in your inbox.. but your thoughts about greg????? Yesssss???

I get what you mean!!!! He's like the softest sweetest man ever! And it makes me so sad sometimes when im watching the show (i too have just finished s01) because? He's so pure. And I want that. I want someone that pure to love me like he loves dharma. Because the way he loves her is just so precious ! And I love the premise of the show is that 2 completely polar opposites can be together just because they chose to love each other every day. And they do choose because its not like they had a very long history yknow? :p But I'm also a terrible cynic and so I dont believe anyone would ever love me like that. But I just wanted to say I loved that line you said that yea you can't fix people but with a love like that surely it would be easier to get through. It definitely would <3

Ahhhh He's such a precious bean. 😭 I just want to wrap him a blanket and cuddle him and smooch his face.! I haven't had such a strong reaction to anyone except my youngest niece xD he really has me going all fluffy xD

YOU GET ME!

i'm gonna rant again lmfao <3

he's just wonderful. he's pure comfort <33 and it's true they choose to love each other and that's just the sweetest thing. and they're best friends!! and truly care about each other! like - i'm gonna bring up an episode again - remember when dharma was really sad bc no one showed up in her yoga class and he was trying to cheer her up during that opera night they were at?? and he was just acting silly to make her laugh??? like that's so fucking sweet. or when he was jealous of her ex and she said something like "he's just a friend. you're my husband. if you don't want me to see him again, i won't." or how they're so playful and laugh together and...enjoy each other. like my relationship expectations went so high after getting to know them.

i feel like all those jokes about married couples hating each other and husbands being like "ugh...my wife :/" (and also personal experiences 💀) made me actually believe that marriage is like that. and it's so refreshing to see them as a married couple actually LOVING each other in every way. greg simply loves his wife.

and about the thing that a love like that will help you heal: i think about this a lot. bc everyone says that we should learn to be on our own and love ourselves first and if we don't feel complete on our own another person won't fix us...which like...sure! but also it's okay to want your person. and it's normal to want to be loved. love from another person is different from self love and we need both.

this got so long but i can't shut up about it. i just love the way greg represents love and a sweet partner that makes you feel safe.

also sadly i know what you mean about not believing someone will love you like this, but i have decided i won't think this way anymore - we all deserve our greg

[beepboop358]

Hey! How are you?I hope your well. And if you'd ask me. I'd say im not okay. Sorry now I'm gonna start talking and this is gonna be really long.

Yeah I just watched vol2 and there's a few things im feeling right now. First, of course sadness and there's this anger for 'Suffer brother". I want to ask you few question cuz i really like your analysis. So..:

I don't understand why they made this to Will. If it wasn't mutual, why did they make Will fall in love with Mike? If someone comes along and says no, he's not in love, I swear I'm going crazy. It was clear that he was in love.

And I can't go without saying. In an interview the other day, the Duffer brothers said that Mike's speech on vol2 was his best performance. Dude are you kidding us? Never in my life have I heard such an unemotional "i love you". It was very terrible. Surely Mike is a great actor and no one has the mouth to refuse to against that fact. But that scene was emotionless and deep down I want to believe they did it on purpose. I want to believe it's not just queerbaiting and they're going to make a meaningful slowburn. what are your ideas?

I don't even know what to do anymore. I waited for this day to be able to continue with my life officially, and that's how it happened. Since the day I found myself being a shipper, I've never had a 'male' gay ship canon in my life and I assure you that I had a lot of gay ships(nearly all of my lesbian/female gay ships became canon, thank God) . I'm tired of sobbing. I don't know, maybe I'm just exaggerating the ship things a bit, but as someone who defines herself as an artist, both my own fictions and the fictions of others make me feel very real and I believe that such things gain importance according to the value people give to them. I say this because even though I hate the Duffer brothers, I will continue to believe in love, and as long as I believe in love, I will believe in Byler. But I want to ask you. Do you think I should believe? Do you think there's still a chance for Byler?Is there any evidence that you can tell me that in season 5 they might be and up together?

I personally love the last scene, all my ships were side by side, Byler,Jancy,Jopper. And beside Byler the others are holding hands. And Eleven was alone. (And I thought this might be a cinematography thing?)I really adore cinematography and the slides you made were amazing. After I read them,I really had believe that there's a whole another plan under all of that.And thought that the Duffer brother have a huge plot setting and it is Byler. But now I think stranger things nothing but a another cliche show. If byler won't happen then this show has nothing. There's nothing special about it. And if Byler became canon. I would probably still don't like a lot of things in the show the brothers have made but I'm going to love the show. Because Byler is really special for me. What are your thoughts about the mistakes the brothers have made or might will make?

I'm gonna wait for your answers. Thank you so much in advance. I appreciate you for your analysis, slides, answers. Stay with health and love! ❤️

hello!

I am not doing great at the moment, I'm sorry you're not either <33 also thank you! and feel free to send me long messages anytime :)

I agree, it's 100% clear Will's in love with Mike, so why write that, if it's going to be unrequited...we don't need more of that. I'm so sick of that trope. It's low-key harmful to just portray gay people as pining over their straight friends, and it's clear that trope is only for the straight people watching, because it hurts the queer people to watch that & this is especially bad because Will is so self-less and so supportive of Mike & El in season 4 and is so reassuring to Mike that he and El will be okay, but if his feelings for Mike are unrequited that's just icky to portray Will like that, because they're just displaying him as a prop/plot device for the straight people, while he's on the sidelines miserable.

I read that interview too, and when the scene happened I was like, "this isn't it right? RIGHT?! Oh wait, oh god, this IS what they were talking about..."

I completely agree with everything you said here, this is beautifully put. Queer love is beautiful, and it does exist, regardless of what the media portrays.

I think there's still a chance we could get byler in season 5, (those ending shots were honestly the most compelling piece of evidence which is sad on its own), but I'm not confident that we will. I thought they had a plan too, I hope they still do. I think the way they handled byler in season 4, making it seem unrequited, if actually isn't, is the biggest mistake they made as far as byler goes. I think they made LOADS of other mistakes in terms of the storylines and the action this season too.

I will continue to hold out hope until the duffer brothers obliterate it (if they do) in season 5. I just updated the slides for season 4, vol. 2, with a few more pieces of evidence!!

Thanks for this message <3 I hope you're doing well! xx <33

[iheardarumorthings]

hello! is me again😋 im sorry i just love you're writing so much!!

may i please have another Kaz brekker/The Crows x reader(yes i know i love him a lot ;P) where reader has another friend group and they all visit Ketterdam and she's really excited to meet them, and when they come here closest friend is this guy(who's like her unofficial brother. but kazzle dazzle doesn't know that) and he's jealous of him, while the crows are feeling a lil sad that reader is spending SO much time with her other friends and they're feeling left out? cuz they all love the reader and are protective of her.(maybe she's a very sunshiney person?)

i seem to have a knack for confusing requests, sorry. and i love your writing! i hope you know you broke my heart with my other request<33

Hi again!! Thank you so much for all of the kind words! This one isn't all that great, but I still hope you love it <33

Warnings: innocent reader, jealous kaz, mentions of doing the death, mentions of guns

KAZ WAS AN IDIOT

Coming from Ravka had a lot of interesting consequences that came with it. Kaz knew this. He knew that you had a life before him, that you had friends before the Crows.

But you were so oblivious as to how threatening Ketterdam was. Ravka seemed to be picture perfect… in your eyes. Of course, it had its problems. But, with King Nikolai on the throne, you insisted, everything would be alright.

The other crows had to make an effort not to look at one another in confusion. But your confident smile kind of helped them put that off until you left the room.

See, this is why you’re not allowed in the portion of the Slat that the rest of the gang goes to. Just the part with the crows. Just the part where you wouldn’t run into someone who could very well kill you and feel no remorse about it.

Which was why he was already incredibly suspicious of your ‘friends.’ He could trust his crows, he didn’t know about your… people. They could have been manipulating you, could be manipulating you. That would be incredibly easy to do.

He’d have to keep watch to make sure that nothing happens to you, and you’d most definitely have to keep watch to guarantee nothing happens to them.

~*~

Inej looked at the three of them. You seemed so… different compared to them. It was ridiculous. And the way that they looked at everything was awkward as well. She knew that Ketterdam was no Little Palace, but she knew it was much better than they made it seem.

At least you had given the place the courtesy of a mask if you even thought bad things about it. If that was even remotely possible.

But the way you hugged them, how they held you was weird. To her, at least. Not weird, per se, more foreign. Different. It’s not like how you were with them. You didn’t lean that far into their touch.

With them, you fell right in, fully, giving all of yourself.

She didn’t know how to feel about that.

~*~

Jesper had no problem with the newcomers at first until they started touching his babies. His beautiful, precious gun.

You had told them not to, saints bless you, but they had still played with it.

Other than that, he thought they were fine enough. But there was something wrong with Kaz. Very wrong.

And Jesper always stood on Kaz’s side. He wouldn’t sway on this. Something was up with Kaz. And something, according to the direction of Kaz’s piercing gaze, was your ‘best friend,’ whom you had called Tick.

~*~

Tick was getting on his nerves. Every single last one of them, but because they were important to you, he hadn’t killed any of them yet. However, he wasn’t sure exactly how much longer he could hold out.

In the metaphorical distance away he was from covering your eyes and ears and murdering them all, it would be about a millimeter.

They just didn’t strike him the right way.

Or maybe it was because of the fact that you laughed more, smiled more, were more happy with them.

Especially with Tick.

Hopping on his back for a piggyback ride, punching his shoulder playfully, hugging him… the list was endless.

And he wanted to be the one to end it.

He wanted to see what the hell was going on because it sure as hell wasn’t normal between two people who were merely friends.

~*~

Kaz had sent her out at three in the morning. She would be fine with midnight, hell, even send her out at one.

But she was sleeping at three. As was the general rule in her bedroom at the Slat.

However, no rules applied to Kaz Brekker. She was hoping you’d change that. But, she supposed, some things pertaining to him were out of your power. No matter how much of it you held over him.

She saw the both of you, Tick and you, out on a window ledge, swinging your feet, hot chocolate warming your hands. You were wearing the pajamas Kaz had gotten for you; the ones that you had before weren’t enough for the cold weather in Ketterdam.

“I missed this, Tick.”

“I did too, yellow.”

Yellow. The color of sunshine. Perfectly described you.

“Saints, you are the best brother anyone could have.”

You two were related? You looked nothing alike.

“Yeah? Let’s not get started on you, little sister.”

That was it, she realized. It was platonic. And Kaz was an idiot.

You were never the type to have a scandalous affair, anyway.

She’d be lying if she said Nina wasn’t a little disappointed when she told her.

But Kaz wasn’t.

Kaz wasn’t disappointed at all.

[mrs-march-ahs]

heheheheheheheheeee nosy anons ask!! doing it. how about 3, 7, please brag about 11, 21, 32 and 33, 39 and 44! expose your darkest secrets 😈😈

wow so many🫶

3: Do you smoke? okay don't tell my mum nonnie❌ no im kidding, i don't becos smoking is yucky. at university literally e v e r y b o d y who i hang out with smokes multiple times a day so it's hard not to try it sometimes, but i just think it's a bit grossssssss menthols are illegal now in the UK so i wont be smoking any time soon, i'll just keep rolling for my friends cause that's the fun part🚭

7: Have tattoos? yes!!! i have 9😈 stick and pokes that I did myself: a lightening bolt on my ankle⚡️, a heart on the other ankle♥️, '222' on my ankle, 'FIREPROOF' because i love one direction on my knee🔥 professional tattoos: i have cherries on my knee and a lobster (friends!) on the other side matching, both in red i have a sun & moon on my thigh and then i have two hearts on my upper thighs, with the words 'mon cher' in one and 'cara mia' in the other, because that's what Gomez & Morticia Addams call each other<3 i could for sure take pictures if anybody wants to see any of them, it's too many to have in this post

11: Best friend? i have soo many besties! my closest best friend (irl) i met on the very first day of high school and now we're in university together<3 she knows a lot about astrology and she helped me write these headcannons. she also used to leave comments on my fics if they got little attention because she didn't want me to be sad<3

on here @undeadcortez @twinkiemaximoff and mostly @merrybaudelaire are my little besties, you cuties you

21: What I love most about myself Cute question. I think the thing I like most about myself is how selfless I am. I really aspire to live a truly hippie life and I assumed altruism is the key to it, but now I'm actually trying to unlearn that.

I'm trying to be more selfish, but it's really hard! Because I just love other people so innocently and so much that I always want the best for others, so I want to help them and cherish them and always make people around me feel the best. I think the fact that I care so much and struggle being really selfish is a lovely thing.

I also get excited easily. I'm just a simple little baby at heart. After years of being around people it seems as though it actually bothers others to be happy and excited about simple things, because people always make fun of me for it, but I still think it's cute. I'm cute. In Denver, when I saw mountains for the first time I teared up. Because they're so pretty.

32: What words upset me the most Anything along the lines of, "Who asked?", "Okay and?", "So?". I was lucky and didn't hear this for years but recently my bestie started saying this a lot because she thinks it's funny :/

I promise I will just never talk again if you say these words to me. If I'm telling somebody something, even if it's not relevant to the conversation, I'm saying it because I care, so for the other person to make it that clear they don't care is 💔

makes me feel so irrelevant, like the conversation would be better without me :/

33: What words make me feel the best about myself I am a touch starved words-of-affirmation little baby so anything. I'm mostly insecure about my appearance so I rarely believe compliments about my appearance.

A friend of mine told me recently that I give the best hugs and I haven't really stopped thinking about it since. Any compliment or reassurance that shows that my personality is good.

being told you smell nice too >>>>

39: My favorite ice cream flavor ok first of all how rude of favorite to not have a u in it🙄

Ben & Jerrys, Peanut Butter Cup or Haagen Dazs, Cookies & Cream

also if you're in a country that still has Zapps I'm jealous, they're also my favourite

44: A random fact about anything A random fact about anything: Getting asks makes me so happy. I savour them and screenshot them and put them in my little folders. Any little interaction I can get my filthy racoon hands on goes straight into my heart.💌

thank you for so many asks nonnie! mwah

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So... I have a lot of names-

Lixen, Syra ( pronounced Suh i rah), Venus, China Remy or Remus so on... Anything planets and Space and birds I can do. Honestly I don't really mind. Oooo Flower names! I'd love to be called Flower names but that's a lot to request-

If you are really mad at me call me Joanne.

If something is urgent call me Jay.

I love the nickname honey or sweetie :))

Pronouns yes pronouns. I don't mind to much- I mean they vary. Pandgender gender fluid! Anyone else? Tell me yours ( if your comfy ofc ). I tend to use she/her but sometimes he/him and more often they/them and neopronouns like fae/faer and xe/xem are cool too.

I like different things depending on the time of day sometimes pastel and sometimes dark. I like dark academia though! If someone makes me a mood board I love you so much- Im a Slytherin.

I get sleep drunk and stuff, I get weird when I'm sleep drunk. I have ( self diagnosed ) anxiety and anorexia. My anxiety means I panic and say stupid things and then I just can't do anything. Sometimes I can't control what I say or when I lie ( compulsive lying I think ) Daddy issues and a lot of my irl friends are hella toxic. I get burn out sometimes. I have a tendancy to overwork because we just love the feeling that you're never good enough. So I'm very on and off. I use this app as an escapism and coping method so... yeah- I always have a headache so I can be very cranky. I promise I'm not mean though! If I do something that upsets you just tell me!

I have a lot of gender dysphoria within me. If you want some come get it! I never really had gender euphoria so tell me what's it like? Half the time I have no idea what my gender is. Mind you it sucks. I'm going through a just confused, sad and lacking motivational episode. Just a very f- everyone time. I'm having troubles irl and that seriously impacts me here.

If anyone has sleep tips do tell! Or like how to cut of friends who make you hate yourself.

I'm here for sanders sides, Mha maybe DSMP which would be the three main ones!

With Sanders Sides I take writing requests just not Thomas X Side or you know... the other one...

Mha, I'm new so-

DSMP, I'm new so-

Hmmm I have an art blog ( which I never post on lol )

Mostly this one will be reblogs and writing!

I love music. Please please please recommend me new songs!!! And art! Landscapes and the sky in particular. I really like astronomy stuff! I adore flowers to! I like the representation that comes with them. New languages please teach me new languages!! If anyone can do grammar, teach me your secrets-

Asks and Dms are always open! I don't really do anonymous though ( sorry I get that might put people of )

If you got this far, thanks!!! You're amazing wonderful person!!!

This is my discord server, here you will find my discord account <33