#you're not crazy. you just have a funky brain. i do too

[habitual-creatures]

I've always been crazy-

I mean if you take a look at why I take medication,, I'm crazy!

- 💜 anon

(What?? I'm totally not trying to joke about my mental illness!!)

DO YOU KNOW HOW LITTLE THAT CHANGES THINGS, BUN?

HELL, EVAN COULD BE CONSIDERED CRAZY TOO...

[ REGARDS, HABIT ]

[nevertheblood]

i've been so awol that i didn't even realise i was tagged in a thing!! thank uuuu @ohhcinnybuns 💕💕

Fanfic Writer Interview

How many works do you have on AO3?

eleven 🥹 four ongoing, six complete, one sort of.... resting (I hesitate to say abandoned lol)

it's a small number but i never thought i'd get to this point so yay!!

Your top 5 stories by kudos/likes:

love in the vein (2,219 words) - M, skk, complete one-shot (albeit part of a larger ongoing universe), 18-year-old prince dazai and his fiancé (trans) chuuya make out in a garden and muse about love and trust 👀written for a valentine's day challenge!

so show me why you're strong (ignore everybody else) (15,490 words) - T, ambiguously platonic skk, ongoing. mafia executive chuuya meets suicidal cat hybrid dazai and tries to give him a better life (against dazai's wishes)

my candy boy, my baby (2,495 words) - T, sskk, completed one-shot. written for the same valentine's day challenge as love in the vein! atsushi and akutagawa go on a valentine's day date and try to manage sweet confessions amidst emotional awkwardness.

we burn our blue love for a while (8,668 words) - E, buraiha trio OT3, completed one-shot, VERY SPICY. ango has a really great recurring threesome going on and he thinks only about the inevitability of love and betrayal. pwp but angsty.

or so I’ve dreamed, since I met you (55,948 words) - M, skk, complete. artists AU set in 1910s paris - realist painter chuuya meets modern artist dazai, who has synaesthesia, and a sort of rivals to lovers story emerges. past buraiha trio ot3, some angst but with a happy ending.

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

yes! very rarely in a timely manner but I do try to. I spend a lot of emotional energy in my fics and I like to have discussions about it when people make comments c:

What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

probably we burn our blue love (mentioned above)... I think it's not necessarily angsty due to the events of the fic itself (which is mostly smut tbh) but due to what happens in canon later on and how it's alluded to at the end of the fic... bloohooohoooo i will never NOT be crying over the dark era!!!!

What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?

apart from the aforementioned angst, all my fics have happy endings!! probably the cutest softest fluffiest is my candy boy, my baby (also mentioned above) just bc it's a valentine's day fic and it's so tooth-rottingly sweet uwu uwu

Do you write crossovers?

never properly written one but I do have a bsd x borderlands AU living in my head. I also have a bsd kpop AU waiting to be written, and that counts as a crossover bc i've written kpop fic before and also I said so

Have you ever received hate on a fic?

no, I keep to myself mostly... I'd like some of my works to get more love but I worry about reaching the wrong audience LOL it's a two edged sword fr

Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

yes but it's gotta have angst and/or pining and/or fluff attached to it lmao i am EMOTIONAL ALL THE TIME at my core

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

no~ not that I am aware of

Have you ever had a fic translated?

no

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

not technically but I've been back and forth with @nettlestingsoup and other irl friends on some delightful AU concepts before. should do that more often it's great for the brain

What’s your all-time favorite ship?

all-time gotta be royed. I am never leaving behind my funky little blorbos that got me PROPERLY into online shipping culture in the early 00s. they come back around every few years like a planet with a weird orbit and my singular remaining fma brain cell just buzzes like crazy and then goes dead again.

but rn I'm insane about skk since the last few years and I don't see that changing hehe

What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

oh.... my kryptonite question.....

Kid Gloves is probably dead now. it's just been too many years since its inception and the things that made me want to write it in the first place. plus, I think my writing has improved a lot since then and I sort of cringe looking at it now lol

I have a fuckton of skz WIPs as well but I maintain that one day I *will* finish them ?? (denial) (delusional)

What are your writing strengths?

i like writing fun or snappy dialogue, i think it comes very easily to me (especially with the kind of semi-antagonistic ships that I really enjoy) and I like to show off with lots of in-depth extended metaphors too

What are your writing weaknesses?

movement.... action.... i'm really struggling to make my scenes not static BWUH

What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

im literally a polyglot and i'm afraid of it for some reason. don't perceive me. what if I actually can't speak the languages that i speak and people on the internet find out??

What’s a fandom/ship you haven’t written for yet but want to?

arcane........... stares with big eyes

also star trek voyager, i dabbled in pariskim during lockdown but i could really go for some j7 and i know @nettlestingsoup agrees with me

What’s your favorite fic you’ve written?

or so I’ve dreamed, since I met you feels like my magnum opus, my first finished longfic with so much healing for dazai too.... and I had SO much fun writing and completing it;;; i wish everyone saw it through my eyes bc it is my precious baby of a fic..... 🥹

i think most ppl i would tag to do this have already been tagged?? but uh @nettlestingsoup even tho i tagged u twice already.... hands gently the thing (with no pressure)

[findyourrp]

Same shit as always.

Instructions with how to contact me are at the end of the post, I do not respond to interactions lol.

🪐

I strongly encourage you to check my page! I have my rules and preferences listed there in a much more detailed fashion. It also includes a writing sample so you know what you're getting into!

|CanonxOc|Doubles|Fandom|

Fandoms I'm Seeking:

Spiderverse

Hello! I am Chainsaw or Fami, whatever you preferrrrrr.

|20|She/Her|EST|

I write, MxF, M//, F//

I prefer to write on Discord, I also primarily dabble in Canon/OC (doubles ehehe). I also prefer that anyone I write with is 18+ for my own comfort.

I’m currently in college, my semester has started so my activity will get funky. Expect a respond either once or twice a week, at least (hopefully, praying, fingers crossed) Will be available for ooc tho!

I do adore ooc and getting to know my partners. I do play a few games so I’m happy to add anyone to my friends list . I love making fan art of our characters + ships, chatting about head canons, playlets, etc ,etc. I don’t shut up! I love babbling about stupid stuff, I am insane!

I am okay with AUs, love em'! Canon divergence too, which is something I do frequently hahaha. Throw your ideas at me, happy to do almost anything for your side.

Reply Times (& Expectations)

Typically my reply times vary, sometimes it could be once a day, others it could be once a week, and sometimes it’s once every once in awhile. It all depends, but I hope my partners are mindful of this.

Due to me currently being in college, expect at least 1-2 responses per week. 

My expectations for you in that subject is…nothing, you can launch a response once a month and I’d be chill with it. I welcome a partner who isn’t a stickler for reply times in general. I’m happy to wait!

I am very ghosting friendly.

My only real 'expectation’ is that I politely ask that you do not bump/nudge/poke me, at least at a frequent rate. I will leave immediately due to previous bad experiences. It’s a zero tolerance thing yk?

Fandom Info`

Spiderverse

God this shit lives in my brain rent free, RENT FREE. I love Spider-Man!! ATSV being on streaming sites now is making me go crazy, I need to write it immediately!

Characters I'm seeking: Miguel O'Hara, Peter B Parker

Characters I can write: Gwen Stacy (selective), Miles Morales, Hobie Brown, Spot (Jonathan Ohnn) Pavitr Prabhakar, Lyla, Peter B Parker. A lot more, just ask!

I am currently not looking to write Miguel O'hara, written his muse too many times I'm getting burnt out lol.

I have interest in wanting to write Hobie, Lyla and Pav the most, mostly because all those little fics and comics I write are rotting my brain. But seriously, I'm happy to write anyone, I want to better my muses!!

If this has interested you:

Shoot me a DM! I will only answer through that rather than a like! We'll chat a bit here and then I'll give you my discord!

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[lil-bluebird]

fuck i feel these so hard, ever since middle school reaand i didn't realize this PMDD was why i felt like i was losing my mind all the time (read around my period) it hit peak when my mom abruptly took me off adderall that i had been taking for my adhd since first grade. every time period day came i felt so stupid and over dramatic, and i still feel like those feelings of depression and wanting to end my life and hurting myself were not valid.

after looking into PMDD more, i had a huuuuge "ohhhh" moment bc i wasn't crazy, im not crazy, my hormones are just doing extra funky things to my already funky brain (funky is being used in a lighthearted sense btw). my bf also thinks my birth control might be contributing to it now too (mirena) because i existing feels damn near unbearable until my period actually happens. i try so hard to remind myself that i can get through it and it's okay that i feel like this, no im not overdramatic, no everyone around me doesn't think im insane

ofc PMDD manifests different in everyone same a neurodivergence but experiencing 5 or more of the symptoms that constitutes PMDD means you should have a talk with your doctor or gyno (?) and see what can be done to help manage symptoms and yeah if you're having a rough time you can definitely get through this

Kinda niche, but I've spent the last five days feeling like I'm losing my mind so here are some PMDD memes. However bad you think it is based on these memes, it's worse.

[ivant1ll]

Sleepover With The Octavinelle Boys !

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THIS FANART LEFT MY BRAIN NUMB WITH THE AMOUNT OF IDEAS I GOT OH MY GATO, sooo~ I decided to work on this small little post as I have something that I'm currently working on <3 . . . LOADING . . . °:⋆ having a sleepover at octavinelle dorm with azul, jade, & floyd ! . ु this is a . . . same as the last fic, just a funky old vibe!! *˚⁺‧͙ TW + info : no trigger warnings ;; this time ill be taking quite a different style to writing, since i usually write oneshot's this is my first time trying out bulleted notes!! so.. sorry if things get a little too descriptive at times, writing shorter fics isn't my strong suit but, i hope you enjoy ~ WORD COUNT : 845

You were just leaving one of your classes just as you always do when Azul walked up to you from behind and tapped your shoulder

"Good afternoon Yuu! Mind if I pull you aside for something?" At first you'd be quite concerned, as close as you are with Azul quite a chaotic situation could ensue if he feels he'd need to tell you whatever he had to say in private. But reluctantly you follow

To your shock though, Azul doesn't have some crazy monumental thing to tell you, rather, he asks if you would like to spend the night over in Octavinelle?! You are pleasantly shocked by this request, but without hesitating you accept, excited to see what the night will bring.

"Splendid! I'm just as excited as you are. We'll have everything prepared for you, I bet Jade and Floyd will be quite excited hearing this news. If you'd like I could send someone over to get you if you aren't very pleased with leaving out in the evening".

You kindly reject his offer, assuring him that you could probably make it there on your own. Now that the plans were set, you both part ways and the day continues as usual. Before you even realize, all of your classes for the day have ended and it has reached the time for you to begin getting ready. Hurriedly you fill your backpack and begin the trip. Proceeding through the hall of mirrors, you end up in the same "underwater oasis" (as you'd like to call it) that you oh so fondly know of.

Reaching the dorms, you walk inside with little of a second passing before a few eyes turn to you. First some of the other octavinelle students, then your good friends Azul, Jade, and Floyd. After being welcomed in you are shown a free spare room to use and well.. this is where the fun will begin.

There would be stacks of different board games to try, probably gotten from the board game club. All of them were lined up along the table, some of which were being played already by the other students.

Whether it's Monopoly, Uno, Trouble, you name it, either Azul would sit there for an abnormally funny amount of time to think of a single simple move to play just to end up losing or being brought farther from winning with Jade's antics (and strangely good luck with these games?) Floyd would completely go off track from the basic rules of the game and try to play with "his own set of rules" just to end up in a playful argument on how that's not how it works. In the end he still got his way though and would even end up winning.

Accompanied with the board games were a few fun consoles to try. You had all signed your death wishes choosing to play Mario Party... the true ruiner of bonds, and the only catalyst for more yelling and "I HATE YOU." being yelled out for the night. It was so hectic, even some of the other students chose to join in at times, which would only make it even funner.

At some point Floyd almost threw the whole damn controller over the game, much to you and others humor. Others including Jade and anybody else awake at that time were watching from the sidelines, eating snacks and joking around about the war crimes being plotted over literal Mario Kart.

Everyone couldn't help but break out into a huge laugh at the end of every game, talking about the things that happened. You're enjoying yourself to no end. Once it seemed though that the large amount of excitement playing the games was calming down. Everyone sat around eating snacks and talking about whatever, which almost became soothing for some. Time passed, and just as it did midnight came and went by about an hour or two. Almost everyone had decided to get up and head to bed, It was just you Azul and the twins once again.

You talk about how much fun you've had that night, and how you'd absolutely love to do this again. "Well of course you have to come again Yuu, I still need to rematch you in Wii Sports~! You won too many times!" Floyd would say with a grin on his face satisfied with the amount of activities done for the night. You could sure as hell tell though that rematch in question was going to be a real doozy.

You've all just about reached the limits of how low your energy could go, "It seems to be getting quite late, shall we go to sleep everyone? It looks like you all are struggling quite a bit to even keep your eyes open!" Jade would tease as he gets up expecting you all to probably say "oh my god yes im exhausted.", which you all do. Returning to where you would all be sleeping, your fun filled night came to an end surely to be continued by more in the future.

[definitelynotshouting]

Idk if ur still doing writing prompts but even if ur not I would absolutely love to hear any crazy brain thoughts you might have to add onto this cus I’ve been brainrotting it hard and I have a great need to share: scarian forbidden love angst HEHE >:)

im not currently doing writing prompts atm but oh god oh fuck i have THOUGHTS about this one

So like obviously we have some well trodden routes we could take here.... but who am i if im not making shit crazyinsane for kicks. this is making me think HARD about my hologram au, actually, which is lowkey inspired by localwheel's desertduo buzzcut season pmv (for the love of GODS watch this if you havent already, im insane out here)

Hologram au is essentially my tribute to the concept that sometimes if you play games they can come with unexpectedly serious consequences /lh

Or, in plainer terms: the life games are just that-- games. Specifically, they're like VR but you're living inside the game for a brief period of time while you play¹. All the lives, all the deaths, all the damage taken and betrayals etc etc? Thats just the life participants hardcore larping for fun. They arent actually feeling pain or death, it's all a hologram. None of it is real.

Except during the first game, Grian ends up committing to the bit a little too hard and catches actual feelings for Scar. The games become a mask-- he can do things he wouldn't normally do under the pretense that these actions arent real and don't have actual meaning attached to them. And then it becomes a cage: the games become the only place Grian feels he can display his feelings, where he's allowed to act as hopelessly in love with Scar as he actually is. Something something the soulful ache of buzzcut season's i live in a hologram with you that makes me want to pour hot lead down my throat [insert discord crying emoji]

So while it's not a forbidden love, per se (no outside forces are stopping it from happening), it's still treated by Grian as one. In the games he can act out and channel all that helpless love into a narrative, where it's safer to contain. Outside the games, though, that safety net comes tumbling right back down, and Grian ends up trapped between his role as Scar's platonic friend and the very romantic feelings he's developed during something that, in his eyes, has no business being taken so seriously. Maybe not a ground-breaking dynamic but the circumstances around it are very funky to me (and also realistic. who hasnt² accidentally developed a crush on somebody for incredibly arbitrary reasons, yknow?)

¹ i have never seen ready player one

² exempting arospecs, ofc, who are the most powerful of us all

[ladygreenfrisbee]

Hi, I was hoping if you have time maybe you could answer some in depth questions? I'm a huge fan of your LMK fics and I'm reading your BNHA stuff in the meantime between updates.

But I notice that you juggle your fics, updating some fics a couple chapters and then another fic. As a writer who loses momentum/motivation for good ideas quickly...how do you juggle them all so well without getting details mixed up? Your chapters all flow exceedingly well from one chapter to the next! I was wondering if you could share maybe how you organize things or share some other writing tips? I'm thinking that a similar method of cycling through fics snd updating them may work better for me to keep writing continuously and I was hoping you wouldn't mind sharing if you have the time or energy to do so. (If you don't, I completely understand!)

And lastly, I just wanted to say thank you for sharing your fics. Brotherhood and Reverse are my favorites, so well written and put together and god I love toddler Mac so much. (Also a mood on how you start to write a crack fic and then it gets Emotional and Plot and Angst.) I hope you have a great day! ❤️

Sure thing! First thing first you have to understand taking breaks from writing is VERY important! Although it does look like I'm constantly writing, I actually take lots of breaks -because most of the future chapters are planned out, and I know exactly what I'm doing -and most of all, I've already written most of the next chapter out by the time I get to it.

When I start a fic, generally I set up a Chapter Zero -that one contains all my notes, drabbles, pieces and bits for the story. Any string of words I imagine for it, some scattered bits that jumped to my brain -all serve to not only make the chapter writing faster, but to preserve the thoughts I had in that moment while I was imagining what to do next. It makes jumping back and forth between fics a lot easier, since if you properly document everything, you only need a easy peak in that file to catch up on your planning process for the fic! This also ends up with the result that some large parts of future chapters are written out long before you get to them, and you only need to polish what is there after that. Fun fact -Sunbreak's ending climax is already written out. It might be tweaked in the future, might be changed drastically, but I am happy with the current version and this also allows me to sprinkle some good ol' foreshadowing in the current chapters! Jumping between fics is also a technique I use to write faster in and out of itself -let's be honest we've all had those writer blocks you can't get out of (looking at you MHA fics, Im like so close to finishing the next chapter for a few of them) and the best way to claw yourself out of that hole is to step away. Don't stress about reaching that deadline. Take a break. Not only go do something else, experience something new, detach yourself from the computer for a while -but in terms of writing, write something different.

Each one of my LMK fics are angsty, but they are different flavors to write. Fire and Sparks is snarky, MK's monologue is funky and peppy to write, Red Son too. Sunbreak is a complex, slow beast with lots of build up and time. God of Shadows is pretty out there and abstract. Reverse is meant to be crack on the level of my MHA fic Missy but it ended up something else for now, and that's fine. I will stuff crack and funsies into that fic at one point, just gotta get the sad bits out lmao... What I'm trying to get to, is that write what you feel like it. Don't force yourself to spit out lines, otherwise you're going to end up feeling sluggish and stuck. Variation! Breaks! Twist and turns! Write what flavor you feel like it in that moment helps a lot at coming up with just the right words you need. This is what works for me, and it might work for you! After all, we write for fun, right? To put onto paper, or screen, what our crazy minds come up with!

Hope this answered your question, have a good day!

[batteryrose]

im late but ASK GAME TIME!! 1, 9, 21, 28, 36

Hey Mo I love you!! And that's a lot of numbers!!! Fine I'll answer them

Which of your fics would you keep the basic plot of but rewrite completely?

Wouldn't mind rewriting and bettering Tragedy Farce if only I have THE GODDAMN TIME

You also have to kill the perfectionist in you sometimes. I'd rather move on and make some other funky stuff

Thoughts on cliffhangers.

What about cliffhangers. I can be tricked into thinking bad stories are good if they have a good cliffhangers in every chapter or something....... So I'd say they're pretty important. You gotta make people keep reading somehow! I'm pretty bad at it myself though.

Can you accurately predict how long your fics are going to be? If you can, what's your secret?

I can't really. There is some intuition in shorter ones though. Usually those one shots with only one scene that I like writing will end up around 2k words. Somehow that's just how long all of them would be without me even checking the word count. And it would be enough, too. Crazy

As for my longer fics, they always end up double the amount of what I predicted lol

Any writing advice that works for you and you feel like sharing?

I think to write often you have to be amongst writers. Have some writer friends like this, who tags you in.. Asks games.

Seriously though, it seems to work best. Reading all your friends works and throwing your own out there to be read. It's a rhythmic cycle. There's nothing else more motivating. As for writing longer fics, I have a habit of not talking/sharing wips about it to anyone until it's finished. I probably should! You probably should. You can probably get better ideas from other people. You might also catch mistakes early. Either way, Use People.

What else... Mmmmmoh I usually continue reading a book first before I start writing because then the words flows out easier. But that might just be because I'm not a native english speaker. Get the english brain going. I think it'll work for everyone though.

When I'm so lazy and stubborn to write anything, I'll use an alarm to do those 25 min writing sprints. This I rarely do. It's only for my long fics that I procrastinate on horribly. It sort of works tho and after some days I'd start writing on my own without needing the alarm.

One other thing too maybe: draft on phone and edit on computer! Especially porn!! Cannot for the love of me ever do that on computer

How do you come up with fic titles? What's the one you're most proud of?

I like to reference things in titles basically. I'm not creative. If I'm stumped then I'll just steal some other people's titles. The Tragedy Farce one, for example, is a title of a philosophy book written by Slavoj Zizek, which is also referencing Marx's quote about Napoleon that says: "history repeats, first as tragedy then as Farce" or something like that (I think he was specifically talking about Napoleon III). 'Less than Nothing' is also a zizek book title, while also being something Leon himself said once. It's great.

Some other titles that reference things:

Sleipnir is a horse in nordic mythology who is ridden by Odin, who has eight legs, like the,,, eight princes of Rhodolite. So "Sleipnir's Second Limb" just means Chevalier. Through the pov character's view, he is seen as some sort of a God.

I know Nothing about norse mythology. I believe I was searching for just about any horse god out there to reference. I think this one is perfect.

"If the mountain won't come to Mochammad," and "God Between Us and All Harm" are both people sayings that I found by googling. I'm most proud of the Muhammad one. It fits PERFECTLY with Adam's dumb predicament there. As for the second one, it just sounds visceral with the content of the fic.

'Symptoms of Rosette Disease' is just some words. Honestly thinking of changing it. Rosette disease itself is a fascinating plant disease, that's why I used it. And it's supposed to mean the underlying prejudice and inequality that exists in Rhodolite, the kingdom of roses, or something. I'm Trying to be profound here

'The Skies Have Been Empty' is also a good one... It's just Wellington noticing that over the centuries the stars have been less visible (because of light pollution babyyyyyyyyyyyy) and since stars was how people find their way in the past, he now has lost his way in life, Something Something

That's all I have to say about titles. I just woke up.

[snejkha]

A silly art question, if you don't mind: what helps you to design such diverse, unique adopts of every species, color scheme, body type, etc. (and with their own incredible outfits no less!)? You are the only artist I know who whips out beautiful adopts that are all vastly different from each other and have their own distinct personalities and appearances and fashion senses incorporated into their designs even when you start them from a base in like the span of a day, and I'm just stunned by how you can put that much creativity into characters you create from scratch in such a short time 😳 Like, I want to design my own characters with as much love as you design characters you're going to sell, but my dumb brain goes "Today I will make a mermaid." and comes up with a crazy detailed backstory for this conceptual mermaid, and then it does the loading screen for five years while I struggle to visualize the first thing about them... And you're out here making individual outfits for adopts on top of making the adopts themselves utterly gorgeous and super detailed, and I was just wondering if you've got any tips for someone who is utterly in awe of everything you do but cannot begin to put their own character ideas into art 😖💕

Sorry this got so lengthy, haha... 😅

Awh thats not a silly question at all//

I usually try and diversify and push different bodytypes and features with most of my adopts/ (even the ones on base I try to modify them atleast a lil bit// and ah I mostly try to think like the character and do the whole " If I was a funky lil imp what would I wear? or what would be practical or cool to wear?" Taking a look into nature and history is a good choice too Id say/

I got three different sources for clothing and jewelry references that I combine and meld together to make something interesting (and ngl doing clothes is very hard for me cause I feel like I usually choose the sameish stuff hh/) I have multiple pinterest boards and two discord servers to use for inspiration as well as a costume history book from time to time/

Id say references are always your friend/ and thinking about the story or character of the design helps a bunch too/ try to experiment as well, yes you can give the centaur lil shoes if you want and stuff like that/ Designing characters is so much fun to do so heck ye to more diverse and colorfull designs//

[feketeribizli]

@satans-classics thank you for tagging me!!! :-))

favourite album: i don't think i have favourites so i'm just gonna say something i love from the top of my head, melophobia by cage the elephant

album that's important to me: lorde's melodrama..... i'm a home of sexual okay

favourite song: changes from moment to moment sksgsksh but right now i think it's either femme fatale by king princess or september sun by between mountains :-))

favourite artists: cage the elephant, hozier, onuka, orla gartland, lorde, florence+the machines oh my god there's so much!!!!! also i must mention fucking tchaikovsky and dvořák as well cause their music Slaps

song that's important to me: literally every song from the musical valahol európában but to be very precise wallava lake monster by sufjan stevens hold a special place in my heart

what makes me like a song: if my adhd says it slaps it slaps. funky rhythm and tunes are what usually get me but sometimes i pay attention to the lyrics too

favourite instrument to hear in a song: drums babey!!!!! i also go batshit crazy whenever i hear any wind instruments, they're so good

song from my childhood: oh boy no memories head empty? probably some weird underground hungarian band's one hit i listened to some crazy shit back in the days but i can't remember skshdmsb

song to dance to: if you're a silly crackhead like me every song is to dance to but. waterloo by abba!!!!!! any abba song tbh

song that reminds me of love: writer in the dark by lorde and watch you sleep by girl in read :-((

song i love lyrically: zenit by onuka!! and honestly every single aurora song she has such a big brain

dunno who to tag lmao!!!! mutuals and everyone else feel free to do this!!! :-)))

[thesnailkiwi]

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Augh the way you guys can tell how my brain works and what gets it buzzing is terrifying

Alright alright so so I'd cast:

Solidaritygaming as Jeremy. He's a pathetic wet paper bag and honestly? Same vibes.

Grian as Michael. Now, this doesn't make much sense, right? But a) goes with the red and blue and b) grian lore is fuckin crazy bro. He's a silly guy, a funky fella, tricky prankster, but also the whole watcher thing and his character 100% has some kind of mental health issues but covers it up with silliness.

Smallishbeans is Rich frfr. A stripe in his hair? Check. Short? Check. Absolute carnage? Check. Innuendo? Check. Stupid references and jokes to the dumbest jokes, like Shrek? Check.

ImpulseSV gives off heavy Jake vibes. I dunno, man, but he's a silly guy who can be the mother friend or absolute batshit crazy.

Katherine Elizabeth or ShubbleYT as Christine. My bad, I meant "Christiiiiine!" But they're both really nice, talk fast when excited, and probably theatre nerds.

Pearlescentmoon as Jenna. With the whole "Nosy Neighbors" bit in Limited Life, how she was always spying on everybody and knew all of the gossip going on the server. Need I say more?

ZombieCleo or Smajor as Chloe. They're both gossip girls/mean girls and it's wonderful.

Stressmonster as Brooke. Explanation? Who's that?

I have an alternate version for the other side of MCYT such as Slimecicle, Sneegsnag, and those guys, but this is the main version. Doth thou agree with this list?

And then, misc questions:

I do have pets! A lot of cats, actually. Well, I have one actual cat who lives inside the house, and then the others are outside neighborhood cats who technically everyone takes care of, but I still count them considering they try and run into the house and cuddle. There's five of the little assholes and I love them. I'll provide pictured tomorrow when it's not 4 in the morning lmao

Alright, so there's levels to this question. Insane? Too long to recount. *browsing* tumblr? Two years? Maybe? I dunno. And I've actually only had a real account for about 6 months. Crazy.

HmMmM... perhaps I shouldn't give away spoilers for the A&D au, but screw it! There's a part where one of the characters is drowning/burning (demon + water = not in this au lolz) and the other jumps in to save them. It's morbid, but writing intense pain is fascinating and I enjoy it. And since it's enemies to lovers, the demon character (scott) still hasn't gotten to know Jimmy, who's the angel character. So the immense fear and anger he feels after waking up from being saved followed by panic is just so ough, yknow? The change in emotions is just so blissful to write.

And then - this isn't a specific chapter - but the way Scott keep trying to push down and deny his feelings. He won't let himself admit love. It was pounded into him since the beginning that it was wrong since he's a demon. That, combined that he doesn't know what the feeling is because he doesn't know what love feels like. The struggle to accept that he loves the other is another thing that I loved to write for it.

And then for my superpower/soulmate au, the panic that sends Scott spiraling when he realizes that jimmy knows his identity and that he is soulmates with his arch enemy and rival.

If you can't tell, I love writing intense emotions

I've been thinking about starting up a bmc au - or at least having it but not writing it yet since I already have like, 3 ongoing aus I'm writing. But I dunno man, a sailor/siren au sounds great :eyes: might develop that. Yes, it's so basic but it fits so well. Also all the ones on ao3 are unfinished, so, gotta make it if I can't find it.

Thank you for attending this speel disguised as a TEDtalk and asking questions it took up 30 minutes of my day that I had nothing to do

This is why I love you guys (my mutuals) you're great <3

Pspspspsps guys I'm bored.

You should send me stuff. Like, ask random shit, or about my aus, or an art request (only gonna do a certain amount)

But you should totally ask me about my hyperfixations or random bullcrap

[plutoniumcybernetic]

So you're a cy8org, huh? What happened that led to your transform8tion?

hhhhhokay so I did promise I would get to this eventually but I had to be in the right mood for it. I’m feeling good enough right now that diving back into all this won’t ruin my night, hopefully. lets get started then, shall we?

roughly... 5 or 6 sweeps ago, this all took place, was only a little over 6 sweeps myself so yeah it’s closer to 5. I was doing my thing as a high-priority courier, getting important things to important places, very fast, very discreetly. I was young but like, damn good at it and even had quite a few repeat clients. did I end up in some trouble from time to time? sure! it’s a dangerous gig! (hell my mate got me to retire from that because she was so worried) but sometimes, you know, things get to be a little more than you can handle...

was doing a run for a relatively new client, only done one or two runs for them before, some real high tech stuff they needed to get to their client. I had all that previous work experience that they loved, I was perfect for the job! so yeah, in the middle of my like, third run or whatever. a couple of people start giving chase, all slowly and trying not to let anything on at first, but once I start getting evasive they book it after me. unfortunately for me, whoever the hell was organizing these fuckers knew me well enough to grab and corner me in an alley.

this part gets... more fuzzy for me, both due to what all happened and from how much I want to distance myself from the memories of all that. but uh... basically like, big guy starts questioning and torturing me, shatters bones, destroys my insides, last thing I really remember is just like... something going through the bottom of my jaw and out the top of my head. I don’t remember what. I don’t even want to try. the only thing that truly sticks with me is this fucking... weird vision I had after blacking out.

basically i’m just laying there in pitch blackness, up against a wall, unable to move, whole body screaming in agony, the works. suddenly there’s this BRIGHT ass flash of green light, almost positive it’s my blood color which might be why this next part feels so crystal clear despite the pitch black. this figure starts slowly approaching me, it’s absolutely my ancestor, I know it in my heart (what’s left of it I guess) that it’s her. I’m basically just fading out, assuming I’m about to be taken to some afterlife before she puts a hand to my chest and with a green glow I literally feel like, life being restored to me is the best way to put it. everything is pain but I’m not dying at all, and things are going numb. what she said as she did that I still remember exactly.

“It’s not your time yet, dear. I mean, we haven’t even been introduced!”

and then boom, I snap awake floating in like, a fuckin sci-fi ass tank of goo with no feeling in any of my body. everything’s a blur for a few moments before I start to recognize a figure, then it’s coming into focus as this funky looking blueblood guy in glasses is just... scrambling around all surprised and waving at me. I kinda... try to wave back but it’s hard when you don’t know where your limbs are. dude freaks out, I don’t know if I actually waved back or if it was just the movement that spooked him but he immediately goes up to the side of the tank I can’t see and the whole thing starts to drain, I’m still super numb as it gets to the bottom and I’m just kinda laying there learning to breathe air again, feeling sorta starting to come back as he just picks me up in his arms and starts disconnecting pipes or wires or something from my back, just going “there there dear, don’t worry you’re safe” and stuff but I’m like, just high out of my mind to a degree that I’m just fuckin confused as shit lmao.

anyways he helps get me cleaned up, introduces himself as Deronn, explains to me about how he basically had to rebuild my body from scratch I was so fucked up. I guess I just start... busting up laughing as he explains things, since he awkwardly tries to laugh with me and that sticks as like, probably one of the most heartwarming moments of my life as I’m just... naked in a bath with this guy I don’t even know cleaning me up because I’m too weak to move, and I’m just laughing my ass off while the guy is just, trying to laugh along while all super worried that he fucked something up in my brain or whatever and then I just go, after like a minute or two of laughing, “I’m good, thanks” and fuckin pass out in the tub again. I must have been high as shit, actually.

So Deronn’s gotta be like, 12 sweeps old at this point I’d think, and he’s basically just taken me in and started rehabilitating me. teaching me about all the cybernetics I got installed in me, all the ins and outs, how they’re used, what all I should be doing with them. Periodically he’s giving me software updates for everything he did with my brain... All this tech is like, stupidly advanced, stuff I don’t think ever was actually made by trolls unless Deronn did some really crazy reverse engineering of stuff. I’m just being a prissy little 6 sweep old bitch but he’d always counter me with just being always kind and understanding and... calling me princess. aaaahhh shit I know where that comes from now. fuck me.

so I’m slowly recovering and mom comes to ‘visit’ (probably to bite Deronn’s head off, I never told him that) so I have to get up and explain to her what’s happening super fast and letting her know I’m okay and not there against my will or anything. mom’s ready to begrudgingly let me stay as long as I need to, so long as I’m ready to come back with her asap. I keep staying with Deronn as he helps me get better and used to my new body.

as soon as I’m like, fully mobile again I’m just like, all sure of myself so I go up to him like, hey I gotta repay you somehow for everything you’ve done, so I’m gonna stay a while longer and help you out, and hopefully be an awesome courier for him. Deronn’s IMMEDIATELY trying to shoot me down and telling me that nono I don’t owe him anything but like, you know, I’m a stubborn little princess and all that so eventually I wear him down and just... (ahaha fuck I’m crying because I know where this gooooes) eventually he does agree that me getting out again would be a good idea, especially since I’ll be so much stronger now. I’m all smug and confident in myself and get in touch with some of my old employers to smugly tell them that yes, I’m alive after like a quarter of a sweep with no word, and ready to do runs again. and uh, the one i was doing runs for that got me into that first mess? apparently didn’t exist anymore so that’s spooky.

I’m out doing runs for money and as favors for Deronn now, while giving him a part of my payout so that he’s able to purchase things that I was able to run back to him. (he was stupidly adamant about not going lower than 60-40 split for me, I even tried to sneak more money to him sometimes but it’d just end up next to my coon again in the evening lmao) biiiig problem for me was that like, I was stupidly overconfident and doing risky stuff all the time for no reason, getting myself hurt and coming back with a big grin as Deronn had to fix me up from scraps or falls or anything like that... the biggest problem came when I showed up back at his place after a bad run, three bullet holes in me and bleeding like crazy with a big dumb grin on my face like I was the coolest fucking kid in the empire. I woke up in the tube again after that, apparently one of those bullets went through my heart!

so uh, after that there was a lot of crying, him holding me tight, just happy that I was still alive and all that but there was a really big ultimatum after that. Deronn tells me he’s not gonna be around forever, I’m gonna need to take care of myself again eventually, and he can’t keep fixing me up like this. I couldn’t bear to see him like this so of course, I agreed that I’d be allowed to keep doing the jobs, so long as I was actually taking care to not get hurt at all to the best of my ability. I still didn’t believe him, though. He was a blueblood, he was gonna be around forever, right? yeah... anyways it went smoothly from there on until like, half a sweep in. we were close, I was helping him with the computer stuff, and getting ready to leave back with my lusus in maybe a perigee or so.

one night, I’m out on a run doing my typical work, I’m cloaked invisible and in the shadows and everything, learned so much more from everything I’ve done and had happen. Suddenly in the city there’s just this... Massive flash, and a thunderous, powerful explosion that rocks the entire damn hivecluster, I bet you could have felt it for miles and miles. I didn’t think about that though because that explosion came from around the area that Deronn lived. I fucking bolted straight to the scene of the explosion, the only problem was that there was nothing but a massive, scorched crater waiting for me. the map on my hud confirmed everything I dreaded, Deronn’s hive was at ground zero. I basically collapsed, bawling my eyes out until my mom came and picked me up, carrying me in her arms the entire time we were underground, headed to my new hive. my old one had been completely destroyed, apparently. 

I... still don’t know what happened. I know he had a fusion reactor that powered all of his hive, that’s the only thing that could have caused such a blast but... was it intentional? an accident?? sabotage??? it still hurts just thinking about it, knowing I’ll never get any closure. by sunset he’s kissing my forehead telling me to have a good day and tell him all about it when I get back, by sunrise I’m crying myself to sleep in my mom’s arms. Deronn was without a doubt the kindest, most compassionate soul that I think has ever existed, always strong and ready to protect me, give me a shoulder to cry on, make sure I was taken care of and always had somewhere to go...

...fuuuuck. that’s why I feel the way I do about Valter too, isn’t it? hhhhhfuck.

anyways. I never got to say goodbye, how much he meant to me, anything like that. there’s always a place in my synthetic heart for him, especially considering he’s the one who put it there and fixed it when it was broken and everything. I’m never going to be truly over it, but it’s... he changed my outlook on life so dramatically, literally saved my life on several occasions, so like...

I miss you so much Deronn, I love you and will always love you. and above all else, thank you so, so much. for everything.

[findyourrp]

Hello again! Some stuff fell through so I'm back, crawling.

🪐

I strongly encourage you to check my page! I have my rules and preferences listed there in a much more detailed fashion. It also includes a writing sample so you know what you're getting into!

|CanonxOc|Doubles|Fandom|

Fandoms I'm Seeking:

Spiderverse

Hello! I am Chainsaw or Fami, whatever you preferrrrrr.

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I write, MxF, M//, F//

I prefer to write on Discord, I also primarily dabble in Canon/OC (doubles ehehe). I also prefer that anyone I write with is 18+ for my own comfort.

I’m currently in college, my semester has started so my activity will get funky. Will be available for ooc tho!

I do adore ooc and getting to know my partners. I do play a few games so I’m happy to add anyone to my friends list . I love making fan art of our characters + ships, chatting about head canons, playlets, etc ,etc. I don’t shut up! I love babbling about stupid stuff, I am insane!

I am okay with AUs, love em'! Canon divergence too, which is something I do frequently hahaha. Throw your ideas at me, happy to do almost anything for your side.

Reply Times (& Expectations)

Typically my reply times vary, sometimes it could be once a day, others it could be once a week, and sometimes it’s once every once in awhile. It all depends, but I hope my partners are mindful of this.

Due to me currently being in college, expect at least 1-2 responses per week. 

My expectations for you in that subject is…nothing, you can launch a response once a month and I’d be chill with it. I welcome a partner who isn’t a stickler for reply times in general. I’m happy to wait!

I am very ghosting friendly.

My only real 'expectation’ is that I politely ask that you do not bump/nudge/poke me, at least at a frequent rate. I will leave immediately due to previous bad experiences. It’s a zero tolerance thing yk?

Fandom Info`

Spiderverse

God this shit lives in my brain rent free, RENT FREE. I love Spider-Man!! ATSV being on streaming sites now is making me go crazy, I need to write it immediately!

Characters I'm seeking: Miguel O'Hara, Peter B Parker

Characters I can write: Gwen Stacy (selective), Miles Morales, Hobie Brown, Spot (Jonathan Ohnn) Pavitr Prabhakar, Lyla, Peter B Parker. A lot more, just ask!

I am currently not looking to write Miguel O'hara, written his muse too many times I'm getting burnt out lol.

I have interest in wanting to write Hobie, Lyla and Pav the most, mostly because all those little fics and comics I write are rotting my brain. But seriously, I'm happy to write anyone, I want to better my muses!!

If this has interested you:

Shoot me a DM! I will only answer through that rather than a like! We'll chat a bit here and then I'll give you my discord!

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[the-firebird69]

This is a more recent year no it's kind of how they started and it really captures it and the grill look a little different but similar and the car will be similar meaning that it captures the idea and they start changing it into a s***** station wagon and we don't want to do that. We want people to have almost a dream and the running boards will be real cuz they're used to get in and out and we'll have an all-wheel drive version and they're mostly going to be real well but it's going to be the anti-slip and we do have some changes but not many this is a winning year it was the best year in the first year it sold the most cars and they changed it and sucked so it ruined their business with the car and really it is a slick idea it's a nice idea have the pickup and the rumble seat is awesome people didn't buy it like madness and people put the seat in by the way can't stop them. She said something crazy and he says you make it from our company and you put it in as aftermarket, and you build them in the fender factory and we started to say something this is how it goes s*** is Max said the last three or four words so we're going to do that it's making us happy and the pickup version is a cool idea and with the bed like it is he says maybe but we have to try it out cuz you can't say anything in it if you put those teeny bed but people may want that and he says well you can do that just wondering something like if you get extend the the tailgate out just like you have like this it'd be like a a an add a leaf the rail or something a couple rails and you put in a leaf from the back of it and we sort of like that idea and people might buy it just for that and they'll do wheelies with it cuz they're stupid and the custom options will be intense it'll come out looking like the real thing if you customize it right it'll be blazing too fast and loud.

We're going to start testing it out it's perfect and you built on your old idea and we helped with it by the way cuz you're like why are you going to make the Swale thing without that what's the point and we need to notice that we went doing that I kept going to take the thing off and you're like well it looks funky if you do the whole thing though with modern stuff unless you go gangbusters and do the front end right and that's what we're missing it really looks good and it's going to look great with a real rocker panel this is going to look really awesome

Frank Castle hardcastle

I like how I found the right one right away and he didn't and he's poking around looking looks for custom he's using his brain and practically nobody notices here no they all do he's feeding an addiction and we have to come in there and help him out and we knew about it up there and we kind of lost it down here and so he went up there and was starting to get it again but we're feeding the addiction so we have to work

Thor Freya

We have code for it and we're sending it out now I'm going to do other things too to help it out

Frank Castle hardcastle

Oh it might have ZZ top on it and it says you got to be kidding you think we're going to send you one it's easy top on it and of course you will and will get the keychain maybe keyed entry if you like and he says yeah that would be good start all that stuff so we're building it now Frank Castle hardcastle says see what it looks like tricked out and say it's stock you like it vote for it

Duke nukem Blockbuster that last part was Zeus and Hera that's not going to put on there though

I'm excited I don't mind to be bigger I have to use a shrink ray he says less time that's fun didn't really make a huge one we have a rat rod for it though and it's the Plymouth and it looks awesome it's new but people are going to flip out so that now they want to have a rat rod and they'll have this and it does the same thing we'll have a towing package too

Thor Freya

I can't believe I'm saying this but this is greatness right here and he had kids and nobody can figure it out they're sitting right there in front of people he had more kids than that. There is also someone he dated and you can't remember her she was terribly pretty and larger and you guys are all screwed and he was saying

Olympus

[notsoordinaryberry]

TEXT | WILDEBERRY

Kitty: Like -- can we talk?

Rachel: I was just thinking of texting you.

Rachel: Are you okay?

Rachel: I wanted to know how you’re feeling.

Kitty: I feel AWFUL.

Kitty: garbage, tbh

Rachel: Pregnancy related or?

Kitty: both.

Kitty: I hate my body.

Kitty: I hate that my GF has a hot felon best friend.

Rachel: Oh

Rachel: That seems really unfortunate and I'm not sure what to say. Maybe when the baby starts moving it will feel like your body is actually changing for something.

Rachel: I don't think I realized Quinn and Zone had a past. It is a little wild knowing she's been in prison. What an experience.

Kitty: I feel ugly, and completely unhinged.

Kitty: they're best friends and she's a criminal.

Kitty: that's concerning??

Rachel: I would be concerned.

Rachel: You could never be ugly

Rachel: What is the worst thing that could happen?

Rachel: I wanna hear it.

Kitty: I feel ugly.

Kitty: .... She realizes they're in love, and I'm stuck alone with a baby.

Kitty: like --- that's what I'm assuming?

Rachel: It has nothing to do with the fact she's a felon at all?

Rachel: You will never be alone with a baby. I promise.

Kitty: No offense, I don't want to be alone with my ex-husband and his new girlfriend

Kitty: that feels achingly pathetic.

Kitty: Well, that's like sprinkles on the sundae, her being a felon.

Rachel: I did mean that

Rachel: BUT

Rachel: I happen to know you are a catch

Rachel: And you're stunning

Rachel: And smart!

Rachel: You will never be alone for long.

Rachel: But also you should maybe try having a little faith in Quinn.

Kitty:.... Thanks.

Kitty: I know, I know, but like --

Kitty: with how I feel currently, I don't feel like a catch.

Kitty: I'm a divorced, pregnant spin instructor who has like --- 2 friends.

Rachel: Does it matter how many friends you have?

Rachel: You're allowed to feel this way and I'll let you keep talking but

Rachel: You're not-not a catch because of all that. People worth it won't care. Quinn is worth it.

Kitty: getting ready for a baby kind of makes you concerned about like --- your community.

Kitty: I really, really care about Quinn.

Kitty: pregnancy brain has me convinced she's on the brink of leaving me.

Rachel: You should just ask her if she is.

Rachel: She'll either leave you because you are right or she'll reassure you that the baby is making you a little crazy and she could never.

Rachel: Could you believe her?

Kitty: I mean, she's never lied to me.

Kitty: I don't think.

Rachel: I bet she hasn’t.

Rachel: I feel like Arizona didn’t know she was getting out of jail and Quinn has probably been so used to her not in her life that it just didn’t even come up as something to tell you.

Kitty: PRISON, She went to prison.

Kitty: .... it just feels weird

Rachel: Prison. I’m sorry. Prison. It’s different you’re right.

Rachel: People can change.

Kitty: I guess.

Kitty: I just don't want a felon around my baby, you know?

Rachel: I understand. Maybe she doesn’t need to be around the baby.

Rachel: Though I think going to prison doesn’t mean you’re someone after babies

Rachel: Unless you are?

Kitty: it was like --- Assault.

Kitty: that's scary, Rachel.

Rachel: Was she defending herself?

Kitty: I am afraid to speak with her.

Rachel: Quinn would tell you if you asked. It’s not like you are trying to gossip. You’re just trying to quiet your concerns that are super valid.

Kitty: I'm not crazy, though, right?

Kitty: this is valid

Rachel: I think it’s valid.

Rachel: I think if I didn’t know her already I’d be a little weary. Which to be honest is a problem on our part. Not hers. Not that we know the whole story but because we don’t we shouldn’t be placing judgements

Rachel: my brain gets a little kooky too I don’t think I can begin to understand what it’s like with hormones being all funky

Rachel: No one will fault you unless you don’t talk to Quinn and figure out what you need to.

Kitty: I know.

But like paranoid brain is like

Kitty: 'you're going to get dumped'

Rachel: It’s better to find that out now isn’t it?

Kitty: you're right.

Kitty: gosh I'd kill for a glass of wine right now.

Kitty: but I will pretend my pomegranate juice has liquor.

Rachel: Add a fun little straw and some non alcoholic mixes maybe?

Kitty: maybe I'll sit by the pool or something

Rachel: Do you want some company?

Rachel: I mean, I’m already here

Rachel: But you could sit with me if you wanted

Kitty: will you put sunscreen on me?

Rachel: Of course!

Kitty: thanks.

I am making my bevergino.

Rachel: Is that a tik tok?

Kitty: yeah, my coworkers say it constantly.

Rachel: Ha. Ya’ll are probably drinking a lot with your work.

Rachel: Would you mind if I popped in some day soon?

Kitty: you -- want to?

Kitty: sure.

Rachel: I need an outlet. Exercise has never failed me.

Rachel: You’re good at your job.