#you won't have these problems anymore!

[ce-nedra]

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[mihrunnisasultans]

I am not going to defend myself, Your Majesty. Whatever I say, your decision will not change anyway. I could calm you by denying it, but I don't intend to do it. Throw me into the fire like you did with your family and other people you loved. [...] So this is [absolute loyalty] why you killed them all? Hatice, Ibrahim, Mustafa, Çihangir...I remember how our father Selim Han died. He didn't die easily. God did not let him leave this world without suffering first. The same fate awaits you!

Fatma + roasting Suleiman to his face (and to others)

Happy (belated) Birthday Plami! @mc-critical

[timelessbian]

was not expecting to walk out of my rheumatology appt with anything helpful today but i guess i have an arthritis diagnosis now!!

[eff-plays]

AA girlies want to choke on Astarion's dick and get slapped around by him because that's true love.

Spawn girlies want to wrap him in 7 layers of bubble wrap so he doesn't hurt himself thinking too hard.

Cool girlies flush him down the toilet and watch him swirl around in the bowl because he's finally where he belongs.

[sangcreole]

damn. this is genuinely the only space on the internet where I feel completely at peace.

[pa-pa-plasma]

Wait what do you mean healthy people dont loaf??? It's so comfy why wouldn't they do that?

I'm saying this as someone with hypermobility which is, I'm sure, completely unrelated to why I think this./s

people are so weird, what do you mean "i wish humans could loaf"? this is so easy! heehee

[ratinthevoid]

why did i believe i can ever come out to her

[vibinwiththefrogs]

Friendly PSA for trans people complimenting other trans people: please do not self loathe as part of the compliment. Like "you pass so well, I could never", "you're so lucky to have (trait), I don't pass because I have (perceived opposite trait)"

This feels like getting back handed compliments and like you're using me as a reason to beat yourself up. I have a friend I have never once been able to tell about a good gender experience I've had without them doing this and then spiraling and picking themselves apart. And they always end up loudly beating themselves up for traits that we both have, which I know if I had less self confidence would drag me down with them.

Self confidence issues and dysphoria can be discussed, especially with other trans people who can relate, and that's fine and good to do. But be careful not to do it in an openly jealous way, because the people you put on a pedestal for "passing" usually have self image issues of their own.

[the-red-thread-that-strangles]

Sweater weather time

Rei acknowledges he might have a problem roughly 4 months (or 12.5 sweater exchanges) too late.

Really, the problem has existed for quite a while already - a secret agent is not supposed to be predictable, and they've been meeting pretty regularly, every two weeks at first, and lately every single one, like clockwork. It's a risk he should not be taking, for the sake of his own cover, Hiro's, and if he's being entirely honest, Akai's. He tries not to think too hard about how Okiya Subaru could probably exist peacefully, without his interference, but then again, it's all Akai's fault anyways. He's had three years to contact Rei about Scotch's survival, to only do so now when it was about to bite him in the ass, well, he deserves whatever the consequences of his actions might be. After their little stint at the Kudo manor, Rei's really done his best to destroy the evidence of his investigation, to let it be known as a failure, and thus, officially, Akai Shuuichi's death has been laid to rest. It is simply practical to keep an ally's cover safe so they may strike unexpectedly, at an opportune moment (and if Rei feels any regret about his actions or gratitute for how Akai has quickly become a reliable presence in his life, well, those pale in comparison to his duty).

That opportunity might come sooner than later, as the plan to take down the organisation is entering its critical phase. They both need to be at their best for this showdown, and he really, really can't afford to be distracted by Akai. He also can't afford to raise attention, and he knows at least Vermouth has her suspicions. She likes to dress him up too much, whisper in his ear, get too close too close too close; while Akai's cologne at least disperses quickly, the smell of his cigarettes lingers on the sweaters, and by extension, on Rei. It seems, of all things, to work as a shield - Vermouth wrinkles her nose when she first smells it on him, asking if he is, perhaps, stressed, for any reason at all? He's lying through his teeth, claiming smoking helps him concentrate, as Rum's requests are getting more challenging - but not to worry, it's nothing he can't handle. She's keeping more distance than usual afterwards, and he honestly can't help but be a little glad for that. Still, just to be sure, he's nabbing the pack of cigarettes from Akai's breast pocket when they met up after, requistioned to have them on hand as evidence if need be. (He's allowing Akai one last cigarette from the pack, which they share, 50/50, to get Rei reaccustomed to the sensation.)

Which is how he finds himself, weeks later, standing in front of his open window, smoking one of Akai's cigarettes. The glow of its tip pales in comparison to the lights of his beloved Tokyo all around him, but it's filling him with a little warmth at least. It's not the same as the lingering smell he's grown accustomed to; it's too intense, too lacking in complexity (too much like when Scotch and Rye were sharing cigarettes on their missions together). But at least the nicotine calms him somewhat. He's been restless, these last couple of days; Akai's somewhere in the US, procuring equipment and briefing people for the coordinated offensive. So much for his reliability. Usually, Rei would contact him, and they'd find a way to meet within the next couple of days - he has the sneaking suspicion Akai has been getting better at gauging the intervalls for their meetings, and is keeping some timeslots open for him. Or maybe he just really has that little to do. Who's to say.

In any case, it's way past their usual meeting time, and he hasn't been able to get in touch. He could go through official channels, seeing as the FBI and the PSB are cooperating now, but it really isn't that important. He can wait. The final briefing is scheduled three days before the sting; if he can deal with his problem by then, they'll be able to give their all for the finale of this mission four years in the making. He can't wait for that to be over.

But, to get closure, he'll need to settle the score. That 0.5 in their sweater exchange rate, the first sweater he took, is the issue, keeping them both locked up in an eternal inbalance, because technically Rei owes Akai that sweater back. There's only one problem - he's tried to get over himself, to undo the original sin. It shouldn't be hard, it's only a piece of clothing, after all. He's washed it and put it in a bag with a little ribbon, a month after the initial borrowing, and he's tried to give it back. And found himself unwilling, no, unable to. This sweater he holds onto in the nights where nightmares threaten to devour him whole. This sweater has kept him warm through shock, has caught his anger and relief at the revelation of his best friend's survival, and it's such an inextricable part of the experience it has become tangible proof of a brighter future for Rei. He can't give it up, needs it like breathing.

It's invaluable. There's nothing he could give Akai that's even anywhere close.

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Sweater weather AU masterpost

[starpros-sunshine]

Sometimes I wonder why cold symptoms always get worse in the evenings there has to be a logical explanation for that

[anyataylorjoys]

when you make a gifset days ago and it sits in your drafts and then you finally decide to post it and it doesn't show up on the dashboard

[samanthamulder]

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[melancholic-pigeon]

No, I'm not okay. Thanks for not asking.

[zackmartin]

Z THE CONCEPT OF YOU REBOOTING VALIANT KNIGHT LITERALLY HAS ME FROTHING AT THE MOUTH. it literally never left my head i am always thinking about it at least a little bit. literally recently i came up with a concept for how some of my original characters for my spinoff would fit into valiant knight fnsnskdj and so i technically have like a rewrite/sequel concept that includes zenry and jasper/[redacted] fnsmdnkxnsn which included me rereading the chapters i beta'd for you to remember some details and i was like UGH THIS WAS SO GOOD I MISS IT

LASKDJOSKJVMODKMVLDSKJFSOKJFSLDKFJ HELLO?????????? ARE YOU AWARE THAT I'D LAY DOWN MY LIFE FOR YOU???? CAUSE I SERIOUSLY WOULD LAY DOWN MY LIFE FOR YOU!!!!! BUT AHHHHHHHHHHH

SERIOUSLY THOUGH, THIS IS ONE OF THE HIGHEST COMPLIMENTS I'VE EVER RECEIVED, I'M LEGIT GONNA CRY (affectionate), I'VE BEEN STARING AT THIS ASK FOR LIKE SIX HOURS, LIKE THERE AREN'T ENOUGH WORDS IN THE ENGLISH LANGUAGE TO ARTICULATE HOW MUCH THIS MEANS TO ME

but seriously, like I'm not trying to rag on my writing or anything, but I also know like. I'm not writing anything that's gonna be winning awards anytime soon or anything ground-breaking or anything, but that's never been my goal; and I just say all of that to say that the fact that you're still thinking about something of mine years later and it stuck with you so much that you want to put your own characters into it??????? That's literally so wild to me in the best way, I can't get over it. I'm so serious when I say again that this legit one of the best compliments I've ever received. (Also, if you're willing, I'd very much like to hear about this rewrite/sequel of sorts)

You have me legit thinking about it now. Like I told Pearl in the replies, I feel like my writing is leagues better (i reread stuff from that time period and just cringe now; but to be fair to my past self, she was a novice who was coming back to writing after a 10+ year break so it stands to reason) so I feel like I could do a lot more with it. There's soooo much of that world I want to flesh out that I wasn't skilled enough to do when I first started it. lsakdjf idk man, I might actually do it

[medicinemane]

And maybe you'll be like "but if you don't trust businesses, how can you trust welfare?"

I fucking don't. My mom trying to get on food stamps fucked me up because a lady I never met without my permission got my SSN from my mom and started editing my files. My heart still races to this very second whenever I think about it, it kinda messed me up bad and I'll never ever ever see any kind of recourse

And I'm terrified that I'm gonna lose my medicaid just cause I inherited some money from my grandpa

And I've never even applied for disability cause it kinda doesn't matter finding out if I'd qualify or not cause of my depression, when the rules are so restrictive I don't know if I've even be allowed to keep my house

I do not fucking trust these things on a personal level. I feel like out of a lot of people I have the most to fear from them cause I'm on the edge of having things work, and that gets you punished

...but I need medicaid in order to have insurance (and when you strip out the finance side of medicaid, I love medicaid... they're honestly incredible insurance... I just... I just... dental is like 90% of why medicaid is so important to me, ever since I found out this state pays for it I've actually been able to do cleanings which is important to me cause I can't always get myself to brush)

And I think things like disability and food stamps are pretty damn important on a personal level, and honestly are also good for the economy cause they get people spending... it's practically a free cash infusion into the economy, cause these are people who need to buy stuff

There's just so much important stuff welfare does that it's worth dealing with government

No, what I want is more accountability so if someone gets my SSN from a 3rd party like my mom they're held to HIPPA styles standards where that's not ok to access my files without my permission (She changed my fucking address and tried to get medicaid to investigate me for fraud! Never even met me)

Like have some accountability there and in every situation

Secondly I want less punitive focused rules. I'd frankly prefer bezos get on disability than smack down some poor sod cause they got $2000 in the bank or cause their friend lets them live with them for free

If there's gonna be a cut off on these programs, it needs to be a solid step above the poverty line, cause... by definition I assume poverty line denotes kinda the minimum expected income people can reasonably live off of, and if you take away benefits people are gonna lose a chunk of money to covering that stuff themself, so you need a buffer before you kick people off

I don't fucking trust the government for a second, I've actively been fucked by them and on a personal level I avoid everything but medicaid and only that cause everything but the money is pleasant to deal with and I kinda need it (honestly if I was rich I'm not even kidding that I'd rather give medicaid like $400 a month than some insurance company, I sincerely like them as insurance)

But I'd trust them a lot more if they were less punitive, less out to hunt me down and gut me cause someone handed me a fiver or cause I started to get on my feet, and if government employees had concrete rules they had to follow that were actually transparent and enforced

Like 90% of my problems with welfare go away if they're held accountable and there's less "catch the welfare cheats" mentality going around

I don't trust the government in the slightest, but sadly there some jobs it kinda has to do, so I'd just rather force it to be an open book where the public can keep an eye on it and if they step out of line there's consequences (sort of like I don't trust most mega corps but happen to sometimes need stuff from them... did you know literally every cell service provider has been illegally selling shit like your location data to random people like bounty hunters, and the FCC just slapped them with a fine that's 0.02% of their yearly incomes and debated even doing that? I even can offer a source on that)

...I don't trust much of any authority cause they constantly fail me and kinda screw me. Don't trust doctors either, but I still gotta go to them, you know? ...they're just... they're real bad at listening... so many systems need systemic change

(You know who I really don't trust is the cops. I could point to so many examples. My uncle doesn't trust cops either, and he's an ex Fire and SWAT paramedic, he worked with them and we still got into a long conversation where he basically tore into them far better than I can)

(I don't trust authority that's not accountable)

[sealovinq]

i need friends /gen (slight rant in tags)