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So I was trying to find some random Sonic OCs off Google to draw today because, man, art block killing me. I would like to prefece that I, myself, have Sonic OCs.
(This is all old art, except for my sonic.exe oc, but alas)
I think they're fun and a good way to express your creativity, whether that's writing them to date a character that you like or to be the most popular/powerfulest person EVER.
But with my not very deep dive into the 3 page of Google, I realized that even the really well draw or intriguing OCs are "cringe" and "Mary Sues".
With this, the notion comes that OCs are inherently cringe and not worth making unless you make them the most boring and unspecial person ever. Like: "This is my Sonic oc, Joe the cat. He works at a desk job, and he likes coffee." Making just your average Joe can be fun, but the thought that ALL OCs have to be fucking boring is dumb.
This thought is everywhere. You scroll through Google for 30 seconds, and you see articles about sonic OCs being a sickness, like this article from the medium. Like the drawing that a 10 y/o posted on deviant art about their green sonic will irreparably damage art.
This mindset actually hurts art in the long run. If you get told over and over again that the self insert you make is cringe and you should never draw again then, inevitably, you're going to stop drawing.
I was someone actually who thought for a very long time that my OCs shouldn't be special, or have super cool powers, or even have heterocromia. A good lot of my original characters were boring because I was worried about making a Mary Sue (Thanks CyberSans). It's actually a very deliberate choice that my self-insert/persona, Mephy, cringe.
Yes, I took things from jjba and Sonic to make this weird combo of Mephiles, Diego, jouta, and myself. I did this to push myself to make something "cringe," and anytime I think about removing his tail, I remember why I gave him one.
After I disregarded being seen as cringe, did I start to like designing characters. Just the want to make something I like without being worried if it's cringe or not. I think the freedom to make things like this is very important for young artists (or just artists in general). It's very liberating.
I took the making things purposefully cringe into my TF2 OCs. I gave them on the noise names, and I gave them back stories that were edgy. I enjoyed it. It made me happy.
With the acceptance of being seen as weird, I almost forgot what things were "cringe." I've just been seeing so many people happily making sonadow fan kids that I forgot people think that's cringe. I forgot that edgy OCs is cringe. I forgot that just being into something odd is cringe, and that makes me sad. I honestly thought that we got past thinking that darkspine the evil hedgehog (original character, do not steal) is cringe.
It's just sad. These OCs are cool. And yes, there are sonic OCs that aren't seen as cringe, like Ian Jr, S.N.T., or Trevor the hedgehog, but those are the exceptions. When was the last time you heard something say that Rosechu was their favorite OC? That's right, you haven't because sonichu is very much "cringe" (and don't bring up that Chris-chan did some fucked up shit, y'all didn't like she before she went to jail or did any of that fucked up stuff.) Why can't someone just make someone weird?
Concussion: Stop seeing things as cringe, and cringe culture is NOT dead until we kill it ourselves.
Anyway, I think I have written enough, and my English teacher would say that this is an emotional rant and that I need to rewrite like half of this. I think one of her exact words on a paper I wrote was "zack, this sentence makes me want to smear poop in my hair."
Here is some old art is some of my favorite little guys I found off Google (:
#rant#sonic#sth#sonic the hedgehog#sonic oc#sonic ocs#sonic rant#original character#original characters#cringe#cringe culture#i think i can write a paper on this tbh#oc#ocs#cringe cultural isn't dead no matter how many times you say it#it lives untill you make sure it's dead
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A love in the eye of the hurricane ch29 (unedited)
(Originally posted 29 November 2022 Sleep deprived period. Obviously the sleep deprived period. Slightly better edited chapter)
This was like the missions she heard Palden and the others take. A self-imposed mission to get Choda and Tashi to talk to each other again.
She needed intel.Â
Good information.
And maybe someone to explain to her why they were behaving the way they were.
Jamyang hugged the wall and snuck a peek at the teenage girls occupying the room. They didnât mention anything important, just future tests, sutras to study and debates. What intrigued her was Choda, who wasnât studying. Sheâd been staring at the same page on her book for the last five minutes.Â
Sheâs thinking about something. Thereâs a pinch in her brow. She looked conflicted. Choda leaned her head into her hand, inhaled and her eyes got glossy. Was she sad? Tashiâs avoidance hurt everyone to some extent. Everyone liked her. Or⊠sheâs jealous, allegedly. Choda denied ever being jealous, but she was jealous. Jamyang could tell. It had to be it. Everyone saw the death glares sheâd send Paldenâs way.Â
Person. Thereâs a person beside her.
Jamyang turned and looked to her side. Amanthi stood there and looked into the room with her. âWhat are you doing?â
âGathering information.â
âWhy?â
âTheyâre uh,â what should she say? Is there a right word to use? âTheyâre being teenagers.â Theyâre being overly dramatic and stupid. Jamyang hoped she wouldnât be like that when she got older. It would waste so much of her time.
Amanthi chuckled, watching as Choda closed the book and used her arms as pillows and laid her head down. Dawa looked up from her sutra scroll and Chesa gave her a sad glance. âThatâs a good way of describing their behaviour.â She said, and something melancholic took over her expression. âI canât relate, sadly enough.â
âYou canât?â
âI could always tell when someone liked me,â that had to be the foresight thingy that Koko-chan and Gawa spoke of. âand Iâd pursue them if I found them interesting. I never had to deal with this.â Not even Sister Jetsun? No, not Sister Jetsun. Sister Pema said even a blind person could see how much Sister Jetsun loved Amanthi.
For a moment, she wondered how they came to date each other. Amanthi had to be the one that made the first move. Sister Pema always teased Sister Jetsun for being a dense pining idiot, which Jamyang could attest to. Some of her early memories were sitting on Sister Jetsunâs lap and her hiding her face in her hair because a redheaded woman, Amanthi, walked by.
âSounds healthy.â Jamyang wasnât sure if that was alright to say, but it must be good if Amanthi got to skip this part of life. Tashi barely slept and was tired all the time, while Choda looked on the brink of breaking all of her precepts whenever Palden entered a room.Â
It didnât look healthy at all to her inexperienced eyes.
âIt is incredibly healthy,â she agreed. âbut itâs also a teenage experience from what people told me.â Amanthi looked down at her, a gleam in her eye. âWhat do you want to achieve with the information youâre gathering?â Jamyang narrowed her eyes at her. Didnât she already know? Amanthi was the adult here, or was she assuming too much here?
âI want them to talk together and resolve all of this built up tension.â Jamyang noticed the looks Choda seemed to have reserved for Tashi only, whether or not sheâd admit it. The looks, how her mouth would quirk up into something Jamyang never quite managed to decipher if it was a smile or smirk, and of course, their activities. Or âto do their thingâ, as Choda would call it before dragging Tashi off with her.
It might not be on Tashiâs level of love yet, but somethingâs there.Â
âWhat are you going to do if you donât get the desired result? Like if Choda doesnât return Tashiâs feelings?âÂ
âNo idea,â she admitted. âthatâs up to them. I just want them to talk. Thatâs my desired result. And,â she pursed her lips. âThere is something on Chodaâs side. It might not be on Tashiâs level yet, but itâs something.â Amanthi picked her up and flickered away when Amala and Khandro walked towards the door entrance.
In the blink of an eye, theyâreâŠ. outside? She looked around and yup, theyâre outside. On the temple walls, not that far from a window. Amanthiâs standing on the temple walls and not falling down. Jamyang was concerned. âAre you standing on the temple wall right now?â Just to be sure that her eyes werenât playing tricks on her or if someone had cast an illusion on her. People said illusions were a thing, so she wouldnât disregard the possibility.
âI am, yeah.â Huh. Okay. She read about shinobi doing this in stories and didnât think it was possible. Cool. Jamyang shifted in her grip. Could she also walk up walls one day? âOkay.â Sheâs not going to ask for details now. Thereâs too many for her to keep count off at the moment.
âAre you sure you should be doing this, though? Wonât Sister Jetsun be upset?â Something in Amanthiâs posture shifted and Jamyang knew sheâd gotten something right. Sheâd heard a bit about her knee injury, but the two things she heard the most were âbrokenâ and âcrushed.âÂ
Bad. It was terrible. Sister Jetsun worried for a reason.
âWell,â Amanthi started slowly, sounding unsure. âShe doesnât need to know and besides, some exercise is good.â Some exercise was good, Jamyang had read about that. Standing on the outside of the temple wall didnât seem like just exercise to her, though.
Jamyang looked up at her with a frown. Was she seriously thinking that sheâd keep this a secret? From Sister Jetsun, of all people?
âAre you-â a giggle caught her attention. Curious about who it was from, she shifted in her grip to peek inside the window. Sister Tsering was twirling around another nun who she soon recognised was Dawa from the Eastern temple, a nomad and a friend of hers. Dawa laughed at something she said and threw her arms around Sister Tseringâs shoulders. It lasted way longer than a hug normally would. Dawa pulled back and leaned in and kissed her cheek.
Jamyangâs frown deepened.Â
âSheâs not cheating on Hayma, if thatâs what youâre wondering.â Amanthi peeked into the window with her, watching as Sister Tsering leaned in and kissed Dawa on the other cheek. The outside wind rushed loudly in her ears. She couldnât hear what they were talking about. âSheâs not?â Was it like Sister Gyalwo and her boyfriends? Sister Tsering didnât look like someone who had relationships like that. Amanthi shook her head and Jamyang got a mouthful of red hair that smelled great. âSheâs not. From my understanding, itâs a sort of cuddle buddy you can kiss arrangement.â
Thatâs a term she hadnât heard before. âWhatâs a cuddle buddy?â Dawa leaned their foreheads together and kissed Sister Tsering on the nose. They shared some words that she couldnât hear and they giggled. âItâsâŠ. How do I explain this? Itâs a person who youâre close to and affectionate with, but theyâre not together. Thereâs no clear definition to what they are, but itâs not romantic.â She said. âBecause we fight. Itâs normal to have other partners or cuddle buddies so that they wonât be alone if a partner is out on a long mission.â
âOh,â Jamyang remembered reading about this. âSo like queer platonic, then?â
âYou know about that?â Amanthi sounded surprised. She watched curiously as Hayma peeked her head into the room and her smile softened when she saw them. âI read about it in a story once. It was very interesting.â The two characters loved each other deeply, just not romantically. Just a close emotional bond.
âItâs not exactly the same, but you can compare it to that, yeah. But every relationship is different.â Hayma kissed Sister Tsering and embraced Dawa in a long hug and nosed at her cheek. She seemed fond of her.
âHow have you been?â Dawa laughed and went on about her recent stay at Jonang choeling.Â
âSo theyâre friends that kiss, then? And Hayma kisses her too, sometimes?â Both Hayma and Sister Tsering kissed Dawaâs cheeks.
Amanthiâs shoulder moved. âYeah, thatâs the easy way to explain it.â
Jamyang woke up feeling exhausted.Â
She groaned when the light hit her eyes and hid under the duvet; it was too bright. Blinking to get her eyes accustomed to the darkness, she paused. She didnât feel sick, nor was the famous hangover headache that she read so much about throbbing at her temples.
Just exhaustion.
Heavy exhaustion, like the down to her bones to of exhaustion. An overused descriptor in books, but something that fit right in her situation.
âYouâre awake.â An amused voice thatâs definitely, Jaya said. âI got concerned when Yutso said you were sick, and I got even more concerned when you didnât wake up. Itâs almost four in the evening. I thought you died for a moment.â Jamyang drew the duvet down so she could look at her. There she was, wearing a partially open dhonka with a white shirt underneath, a burgundy shemdap and a red chogyu draped over her head.Â
For a moment it felt like a small Jaya who was four winters and had just shaved her head was looking down at her. Jamyang blinked. Nope. This was Jaya, who was eighteen years old, just like her.
âIâm alive.â She rubbed her face and pushed the duvet down. Some food would be great right now. âNo need to worry your pretty head about it.â Jamyang squinted at Jaya when she giggled and sat down at her bedside.Â
Jaya was a little blurry. Was she still drunk? Or did she face plant too hard that morning?Â
âJus- just a little out of it.â She got up with her help and gave her a side hug, nuzzling into her shoulder. Warm. Jayaâs hugs were nice. She let out a content sigh when her arms wrapped around her in return. âFeeling affectionate today, are you?â Jamyang nodded slowly.
âI think- I think I might be a little drunk still,â Jaya made a surprised sound. âbut your hugs are nice. I havenât hugged you enough.â Such a crime. She should hug people more. Hugs were nice. She liked hugs. âYou went drinking last night?â Jamyang nodded again.Â
âI did.â
âWhere and with who?â
âWith Shaohao in his bedroom.â Jaya pulled her by her shoulders and stared at her with narrowed eyes. Suspicion. âDid- did you, you know⊠sleep with him?â
âPft! Absolutely not.â She understood why she asked, though. Drunk people did stupid things. She went back to her previous spot and nuzzled up against her shoulder. âHis fatherâs sick and heâs scared that heâll die. We just drank and talked about our feelings.â
Thereâs a bright flush on his face, and his eyes were puffy. âI know everybody dies anâ I shouldnât cling so hard to it, but I canât help it, yâknow? Heâs my father.â
He sniffled and wiped his eyes. âItâs stupid, I know.â
âItâs not stupid.â She reassured and took a swing of her shochu shot before putting her arm around him. âEm-emotions like these are eâcspcted during times like this.â She paused for a second. The buzz and the warmth were nice. Sheâs totally drunk. âItâs good that- that youâre acknowledging and allowing yourself to feel them.â
âI flew back in the early morning-,â
âOoh, how daring.â
â-and fell flat on my face when I landed and I crashed into ama as I entered the temple. So much for trying to sneak in unnoticed.â
Jaya snickered and stroked her hair. âThat explains the letter that arrived today.â
âThereâs a letter?â
âYeah, but donât worry about that for now. Iâm happy to see that youâre okay. Are you hungry? Thereâs freshly made food in the dining hall.â
âUgh.â Food. âIâd love some food right now.â She pulled back and moved to stand up, swaying a little on her feet. Jaya grabbed her forearm, steadying her. âHow much did the two of you drink?â
âOne sake bottle and one shochu bottle. The bottles said that there was 20% and 40% of alcohol in each of them.â The different types of chang sheâd drunk in her life varied from 6% to 10%.Â
âOof, thatâs higher than chang. Are you okay to walk?â
âThe first shots burned the back of my throat, but I got used to it. And yeah, Iâm good to walk. Iâm just really tired.â Sheâd slept for what, ten or eleven hours?
Jaya put her arm around her. âCome on, weâre going to get you some food.â
Jaya snickered when ama came- flew, she totally flew- towards them and checked up on her.
âHow are you doing? Okay? Is anything wrong? No sickness?â Jamyang pouted, but stayed put when amaâs hands settled on her temples, her cool chi entering her pathways.
âIâm fine, just tired.â Ama frowned when her hands inched toward her forehead. âIs your eyesight okay?â Amaâs chi swirled around in her frontal lobe, moved down between her brows and towards her eyes. Jamyang sagged against Jayaâs side.
âSlightly blurry vision, but thatâs it.â Ama hummed and after a couple of seconds, her chi left. âBetter?â Jamyang nodded, blinking at her surroundings. Her vision was clearer.
âBe responsible next time, okay? I had to heal ten people because they got reckless once when drinking.â
âYes, ama.â Drinking was nice, but not something sheâd do often. One, because of the precepts and she wasnât really supposed to drink because she was a nun now, and two, she preferred chang.
âGood.â She pressed a kiss to her temple and hurried off and mumbled under her breath that she needed to get to the infirmary.
âDid something happen to your sight on the mission?â Was that thenthuk she smelled? It smelled heavenly. âI temporarily lost it-,â
âWhat?!â
â-and I spent a good portion of two weeks with bandages wrapped around my eyes and drinking⊠unorthodox medicine.âÂ
âWhat do you mean, you temporarily lost your vision?â
âI got a hefty concussion and temporarily lost my vision.â A lot of other things happened as well, but theyâre not that important currently. Jaya would go into overboard mode. âIâm still experiencing some minor side effects, but Iâm doing well.â
âHonestly Jamyang,â she nudged her with her hip. âBe careful!â
âDonât blame me. Blame the otherworldly creature that crashed the mission, not me.â
Norbu peeked over her shoulder and into her sketchbook. âWhat are you doing?â
Gawa glanced at her and continued sketching. âIâm working on an obstacle course for the pandas,â she glanced at the other page, where there were multiple unfinished sketches. âAnd Iâm also working on a couple of designs of an animal Jamyang saw.âÂ
âHm, a wingless dragon?â
âYeah, she saw it while in the spirit world. The caretaker,â she could call Aya-la that, right? âmentioned that she drifted when she was unconscious.â Everybody knew that the mission went sour. It wasnât a secret.
âHm, interesting.â She said and continued. âI think Jamyang mentioned a while ago that she found old cave murals of wingless dragon. Her sketches looked a lot like yours.âÂ
âShe found-,â
âYeah, she found cave murals of a wingless dragon that looked a lot like your sketches. I think it was around four months ago?â Gawa frowned. Jamyang hadnât mentioned finding anything. âOh no, I can feel youâre getting upset. She didnât say it to you on purpose. I think she simply got distracted during her research stage and forgot about it.â Norbu left her after giving the lĆng sketches a last look.
She saw Nyima skipping towards her table out of the corner of her eyes, glancing at the entrance as Jamyang along with Jaya entered the dining hall.
Nyima recognised that look. Ghamo looked at her like that whenever sheâd spend the night in her bed. Tashi looked at Choda in the same way when sheâd pick her up and twirl her around. Sheâd seen it on Sister Jetsun and on Sister Tsering and hell, even on Sister Pema.
The utterly besotted look. The look you only give to someone so wonderful you canât believe exists. Love. Nyima sat down beside Gawa, whose eyes were transfixed on a sleepy Jamyang that had just entered the room, sketchbook forgotten.
âSheâs beautiful, isnât she?â Gawa swallowed and let out a shaky exhale. âYeah,â she nodded and pressed her lips together. âShe is.â
Gawaâs loud even when quietly admired Jamyang from a distance. Her spirit roared around with enough strength to send her flying to the Earth kingâs palace in Ba Sing Se. âItâs okay, you know.â Nyima said, trying to comfort her.Â
After a couple of seconds, she looked down at her sketchbook and swallowed hard. âI donât like this.âÂ
âNo?â The only time Nyima would see this as a bad thing was when it was unrequited. It wasnât in this case though, sheâs sure of that. Jaya had mentioned in the past about wanting to give Jamyang a slap to get the denseness out of her, saying that sheâs like Choekyi in that aspect, however, just not as slow as her. âNo.â Gawa affirmed, shaking her head. âI donât like it at all. IâŠâ she trailed off.
âYou?â
âI canât get an accurate read on her and it messes with my foresight. I donât know where anything goes when I spend time with her.â A part of Nyima thought it was cute that Jamyang had that effect on her, but another part of her sympathized with her.
She still remembered that time when Gawa and Tora completed the air ball strategy Sangye hadnât finished telling them.Â
Nyima understood to some extent. Not being able to prepare yourself when youâd been doing that for so long had to be scary.
Jamyang looked like sheâd gotten beaten up by a tigerdillo, but she gave them both greeting smiles and sat down at their table with a bowl of thenthuk and a cup of cold tea.
âJaya thought you died.â Nyima started, just to give Gawa some time to compose herself. She could visibly see the cogs turning over her head. âIâm happy to see that youâre okay.â She nudged Gawaâs side.
âI-uh,â she stuttered. âMe too. Iâm happy to see that youâre well.âÂ
âWhat happened? Yutso said you got sick.â
âYeah, I just felt a little out of it.â Gawa gave her a look. That look when someone knew they werenât telling the truth.
âDid you go out drinking last night?â Oh, Nyimaâs intrigued now. Everyone drank chang, even the strict teachers at the Eastern and Northern temples drank it too.Â
Drinking wasnât so frowned upon as visitors thought.
Jamyang looked at them with innocent eyes while she drank her tea. âUm, no?â
âYou found cave murals of the lĆng and didnât tell me?â She asked when she got Jamyang alone.
Jamyangâs shoulders jolted, and she turned to face her, her brows high on her forehead. âI- well, yeah.â Gawa winced. That was way too accusatory of her. âI donât think itâs the lĆng though, but the lĂłng instead. It looked more-,â her hand splayed at her face. âI donât know. The face and horns were different.â
âWhy didnât you tell me?â
âI wanted to research more before telling you, but I can show you my unfinished notes, if you want?â
âIâd like that.â
âThatâs the tribe I talked about!â Gawa shuffled through the pages. Itâs weird that the practise of tattooing the air nomad swirls in oneâs palm didnât survive here, but at apaâs temple instead.
âI know, it is. Apa said there are books about them at the library at Jiming Linggu.â
âNo, really?â
âHe said itâs the oldest books in their library. I thought about setting off a month just to study and getting that hand tattoo.â
Gawa looked up at her, frowning. âYou donât need it. You already have your arrows.â
âOh, I know,â she agreed. âIâm getting them out of spite.â
Jamyang got to read the letter Shaohao sent her later that day.
âThank you for visiting me last night. I really needed someone to talk to. I was lucky that no one noticed my raging hangover or how out of it I was, but Dragon Blue got suspicious when I had to do my duties for the day.
Even if you broke your precepts by drinking with me-Â yes, I know you said that you drink chang- Iâm still grateful. I owe you one.
- Shaohao.â
Bodhi day celebration came three weeks later during the day before the new year and it was⊠something unique. After a half a day of meditation and reflecting on enlightenment- Jamyang didnât do that, she took a trip to the spirit world instead and visited the red panda village- their friends landed outside on the temple grounds.
Shaohao, Michiko, Izumi, Takumi and Oshima got their first taste of freshly brewed chang.
Stoic Oshima was smiling and nodding his head to the music. Michiko and Izumi were in a heated discussion with Norbu and Ngawang about spiritual enlightenment while Shaohao, Takumi and Aden had their arms around each otherâs shoulders and were singing loudly to the music.
Jamyang watched them while sipping on her own cup of chang. Her fourth. Thereâs no buzz like when she drank with Shaohao, but sheâs warm and itâs nice.
âIâm not used to the taste of chang.â Gawa sat down beside her with her own cup of chang and leaned her head on her shoulder. Oh, her hair smelled nice. Jamyang put her arm around her and nosed at the top of her head. Ah, it smelled really nice. âAra and chang arenât that different are they?â She hadnât tasted ara before now that she thought about it.
âTheyâre not. Ara is stronger, but the texture is similar. Itâs the taste I think. Iâm more used to fermented rice instead of barley.â
âIâve never tasted ara before.â Gawa shifted so that she could look up at her. Jamyangâs tempted to kiss her forehead. Right on the head of the sea serpent. So tempting.
âNever? I wouldâve thought youâd tasted it by now.â
âNever. Iâve heard about it, but never tasted it.â
Gawa took a swing of her cup and nestled closer to her. Jamyang gave her waist a squeeze.
âWe should drink together sometime.â Gawa said after some seconds of silence. âJust us and a bottle of ara and maybe a night sky.â
âWhy outside?â Jamyang asked after sipping her chang. âThe ryeong always fly at night, itâs just cool to watch them when youâre drunk I guess.â Sheâd never watched the ryeong fly when sheâd been drunk, but sheâd watched them when she was sober and it was cool then too.
âIâll take you up on that offer.â
âGood.â her eyes were unfocused and slightly dilated. âIâll send you a letter when the freshest ara is almost finished brewing.â In response to that, Jamyang gave into her urge and kissed her forehead. Right on the sea serpentâs head.
After pulling away, Gawa put her hand under her chin and leaned up to press a kiss to her cheek. Her half-lidded eyes and heavy gaze made something in Jamyangâs stomach tighten.
She knew that feeling, desire.
Jaya watched as Jamyang and Gawa talked to each other by Asahi while helping Tora secure his belongings to his bisonâs saddle. She'd helped Sonam and Gyaltso earlier that day.
âYouâll send the notes when youâre finished, right?â
âOf course. Who do you take me for?â Gawa rolled her eyes and smiled.
âYou have everything, right?â And Gawa patted her robe and checked the rolls in Asahiâs saddle, just to be sure. She floated down. âYeah, I have everything.â
Jaya looked away when they just stared at each other.Â
She looked at them out of the corner of her eye when they started talking again. âRemember to write to me, okay?â It was Jamyangâs turn to roll her eyes. âYes, I will.â Gawa threw her arms around her shoulders and pulled her into what looked like a really great hug.
Jaya saw how she sagged against her, tightened her arms around her waist, nuzzled her nose into her neck and closed her eyes. Jamyang didnât hug anyone like that.
They kept eye contact when they pulled away and Jaya knew what was coming.
Their foreheads leaned against one another, Gawaâs hand moved from her shoulder to graze Jamyangâs jaw, and their heads tilted to the side ever so slowly. They closed their eyes and-
âHey! Youâre ready to go?â Deki came sprinting up to Toraâs bison. Her own bison would fly without a rider this time. Jamyang and Gawa startled so badly at the sound of her they hugged each other again. She saw the disappointed look in Jamyangâs eyes.Â
âIâm sorry.â She heard and Jamyang responded. âItâs okay.â
Jayaâs tempted to throw Deki off the temple pagoda for ruining their moment, but she didnât. She had self-control. Tora thanked her for the help and so did Deki. She floated off of the saddle right before they took off.
Gawa pulled away from the hug first, patted Jamyangâs cheek. âIâll see you soon.â She twirled on top of Asahi and followed the others.
Thereâs an unreadable expression on her face while she watched the bison fly into the distance. âJamyang?â Jaya approached her cautiously. She looked at her and didnât say anything. âDid you- did you want to kiss Gawa?â
Jamyang didnât answer her at first. The corners of her mouth twitched, her lips pursed, and she swallowed hard. âYeah,â she nodded. âI did.â
Apa laughed so hard at her request that he got a coughing fit. âOf course!â He wheezed in between coughs and she felt bad for even saying it.
She helped him move to a nearby room, which she recognised as a ceremonial room, and pulled out a bamboo needle, gray paint and ink.
âWhich hand?â He rasped.
âThe right one.â The same as Yara.
Apa drew three circles on her palm, his fingers steady, dipped the needle in ink and started tattooing.
Jamyang did something different instead of sending the notes.
Uma let out a content groan while they flew. Her braid flickered behind her. Jampo flew in happy circles around them. A personal visit. Sheâd deliver them instead. Looking up at the darkening sky, sheâd probably deliver them tomorrow morning or afternoon. Whenever she arrived at the temple.
She was still wearing the black robes from her stay at Jiming; she didnât change at all after sheâd put the last book away. Jamyang did something she rarely did and acted on impulse and left for Taktsang as soon as she could.
Theyâd been sending letters back and forth daily. It didnât compare to meeting her, though. Being around her and listening to all the history babble that she often got lost in, but tried to listen to anyway because it was something Gawa was passionate about.
Jamyang wanted to see Gawa. She looked forward to seeing her.Â
A surprise visit was okay, right? Sheâd never visited her without sending a letter of notice first. The Drukâs nest came to in the horizon and she took a deep breath.
Sheâll figure it out, eventually.
They arrived in the dead of night. She steered Uma to the forest entrance at the base of Mt. Agari, grabbed her glider, and twirled off of her. âYou and Jampo have fun, okay?â She said. âDonât be too loud and wake the temples,â she hugged her head and burrowed into her fur. âI call you when I need anything.â Uma grumbled and took off with Jampo in the direction of the suzakuâs nest in the east.
Jamyang took off on her glider to the west, toward the grassy hills that never seemed to get touched by snow in the winter. Amanthi said it was because of the constant flow of spiritual energy in the area that kept it too warm for snow to settle in.
A figure drinking from tea sat on top of the highest hill. She recognised that figure. Dorjee. Jamyang raised a brow at the hair and swooped down.
Where was his arrow?Â
âGoing for a new look?â He lowered his cup and primped the sides of his hair. âHm, I just felt going for something new was right. I am a little over 500 years old, change every now and then is good.â Jamyang sat down beside and put her knees up to her chest.
âIt suits you.â His eyes creased when he smiled. âWould you like some?â He offered her a cup of his tea and she accepted with eager hands. âOf course, your tea is the best Iâve ever tasted.â She eyed his forehead and the lack of an arrow on it. The sound based illusion techniques in his scroll came to mind and she snapped her fingers.
His arrow flickered into existence. âHa! I knew it.â
âGood,â he nodded approvingly. âYour training with illusions is going well, I presume?â
âItâs decent. I still struggle at getting the right frequency when I try, though. Iâm way better at noticing them.â
âWell, some progress is good progress.â
They talked and caught each other up on recent events.
âHave you ever been in love?â She asked after a stretch of silence, her eyes trained on the starry sky.
âI have,â he answered, his voice somber. âHis name was Pasang. He came from the Southern temple.â He said, âI heard he cursed my name after the incident that got me excommunicated.â His eyes were downcast. âIt was nice while it lasted, and I look at our memories with fondness. Iâm happy that I got to experience that with him.â
Sheâd never taken an interest in love until now and tried to imagine it. Happiness, sharing a life with someone, hugging them and kissing them, all of it sounded nice.
âAre you in love with someone? Is that why youâre asking Jamyang?â She didnât answer him at first. Jamyang didnât necessarily think of these feelings as love, but now that he mentioned it⊠âI donât know.â
He looked at her with soft eyes. Understanding. âItâs okay not to know. Love is unpredictable in who it chooses.â She wished it was easier to predict.Â
âDo I know them?â
âI think so. You were present at her master ceremony.â His eyes squinted while he thought and when he realised, they widened.
âOh, G-,â he cut himself off when he noticed movement over the hills in the distance.
A group of ryeong flew toward the hills in the distance. The leader breathed mist in their direction when it noticed them looking.Â
Hello hatchling.
Jamyang blinked at the pet name. Only Shu called her that. Was that him?
He didnât get close enough for her to look. His body twisted, and he flew along with the others over the grassy hills.
âHatchling, huh?â Dorjee smiled into his cup and Jamyang nudged him.
âI met him when I was eight, okay? The nickname stuck.â Sheâs far from a hatchling now.
Dorjee laughed, and she chuckled, trying desperately not to spit the tea out.
Notes:
 All credit to Archivanture on twitter and instagram Yoohoo *throws up a piece sign* I really need to get a schedule in order so that I can get this out on time. The only reason I managed to do that before was because I had a job and would write on the bus to and from work. Now I'm just home where my schedule is a lot more chaotic. So, I watched warrior nun and I cried at the ending. I'm not going to spoil anything if anyone hasn't seen it yet, but yeah. I cried and I absolutely loved it đ„Č So since Gawa is a nun and she fights, I decided to give her a little moment of her own. That way Ava looked at Beatrice though.... đ Watch, just watch it. I've been wanting to write that almost kiss between the two of them for ages now and I'm happy that I got to it:D One of the first scenes I've ever thought about when it came to the two of them. The first scene of them includes a beach, that's all I will say. If any of you have read the first Kyoshi novels, what was it that Lao ge said to Kyoshi when they were out meditating? I took inspiration from what he said, but I don't remember the page nor do I remember exactly what he said. But if what Nyima said is familiar, it is because I took inspiration from what he said to Kyoshi when they were out meditating in the woods. Words: Dhonka: A shirt with capped sleeves shemdap: The red skirt that Tibetan buddhist monks and nuns wear chogyu: Originally yellow its a wrap worn around the upper body or over the shoulders during certain ceremonies and teachings Ara: Bhutanese alcohol chang: Tibetan alcohol
#a love in the eye of the hurricane#Aliteoth original chapters#oc fanfiction#atla oc fanfiction#oc centric#airbenders & airbending#pre yangchen era#stories from people at ordinary temples#stories from people at ordinary temples series#ao3fic#unedited fic chapter
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4:49 AM
7/28/24
âHard Transitions come with hard conversations.â
Finally made it through TSA. although this is supposed to be a diary about accountability, itâs also just something to talk to.
I found myself unable to engage in conversation with my own mom, I just couldnât find the strength to pretend that i was okay with my situation at all. I donât know why it feels so hurtful at the moment, but I want to curl up into a ball and never uncurl. I know, dramatic, but I have pretty much lost a big chunk of my life. Not sure how much more of my own bullshit I can take.
I do owe you, my humble reader(s), a piece of what led me here. In all honesty, I wonât bullshit you with what iâve been telling everyone else. âI wanted to protect my friends from a threat!â Whatever. Thatâs not the truth. While itâs a part of it, it wasnât my main motivator. My main motivator was to try and have control over an active threat, to have the ability to say âI saved everyone.â (see the savior complex there?)
I couldnât snap myself out of the mentality of being the sweet little angel who protected everyone, that I fell right into old habits without even realizing it. By the time I realized it, I had already been caught in a terrible situation thatâs honestly impossible to explain, even to the most understanding of people.
I donât want to mope too much about losing those friends, it was deserved. I know that I just wanted the attention of being everyoneâs savior, the brave one who âstood up to my stalker!â when I already had all options to be safe. I did something stupid, and honestly, the way they see the situation isnât something I can remedy. The messages they saw, even if they had full context, were awful. So, I will have to live with the guilt and shame of what they saw and how I am currently (and likely forever) perceived.
Enough about that, it makes me mopey. Iâm probably going to scroll on my phone for a while. Maybe iâll give some more little fucked up updates about my past so that weâre all on the same page.
9:19 AM
The further I get, the more upset I seem to get. Not with losing my friends, although that sucks, but the fact I fell into old habits. It makes me feel so fucking sad and disappointed. I had a good thing going, and the last communications I had with my old friends? Those bridges are burned for good. My chest hurts. I wish I hadnât fell into old habits, that I had just done what everyone told me to do; but I was incapable of listening.
God I wish this was all some shitty fucking dream. I wish I could wake up on Saturday, and immediately take the best course of action rather than letting this drag on. Iâm trying not to drag on about it too long, I canât change who Iâve hurt. I canât change what I did, but I can try and change myself.
But changing myself really fucking hurts. Itâs difficult. Itâs not something that I can say that I admittedly want to do right now. Iâm comfortable in the way Iâve been for years. Iâm comfortable in my depression, iâm comfortable in my terrible attention seeking issues. Iâm so fucking comfortable being a victim of my issues and then being confused when people call me out on it.
I want to be more uncomfortable than I am now. I want to writhe when I think about the things Iâve done. I want to scrunch up my face and turn away from all of these behaviors. I know iâm scared to see what iâm like without these issues. I donât have the slightest clue who I am when iâm not like this.
I want to know who I am.
Iâm probably going to sleep again on the plane. I just want to sleep in a real bed.
5:53 PM
Iâm not sure if I can actually do this whole thing.
10:59 PM
I have picked up terrible habits already. I canât sleep. I canât eat. Iâve already planned to drown myself in alcohol.
I wish everyone would believe me. what can i do what can i do what can i do.
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Claire's Lost Hope (a story to help me vent)
I would like to say that something bad happened and I would like to take that and at least make something out of it. Not something good, or something bad, I don't think, but it's something regardless. Don't feel bad for me. Because anytime I get upset, I need to make it into something, or else it'll sit and fester in me forever and turn into something terrifying. So if you're seeing this written, just know I'm better. Not cured, but better.
And now, please proceed at your own discretion.
Cw: alcohol
Claire had been hard at work with her little story. Well, it wasnât really little as much as itÂ
was a long story with roughly fifty-four pages. She was excited, the feeling of finally getting motivated to write again was exhilarating. Most people who saw Claire wouldnât expect someone like her to be so interested in literature. But still, she loved this hobby and couldnât wait to show her mom the printed out pages. She would be the first one to read the work of art. Claire walked down the stairs. There she saw: her mother drunk on the couch.Â
What a pitiful sight to witness. No, she didnât drink because she was sad, quite theÂ
opposite actually. But regardless, she was not fun to be around. She wasnât really a sad drunk, or an angry drunk, Claire would describe her as an irritating drunk. The kind that makes Claire, her own daughter, more mature. Regardless, sheâd hope that maybe her mother would be different. Ah. she could picture it in her head now: Claire walks in, giving her mother the best book sheâs ever written. Or at least thatâs what Mom says. But it makes sense! Thatâs her mom after all. She doesnât read it right away, but talks about how sheâs excited to read it, not realizing how invested sheâll be in the plot, all before reaching the end, yes, finishing the book, and thinking, âI wish there was more.â And there will be. Mom will be so happy. Sheâll be overjoyed that her daughter is gonna become the next Stephen King.Â
But (oh god, Iâm sure you know how this is gonna go, huh? Yeah, sorry, but life is a fucking sham and weâre all gonna die. AnywayâŠ)
Claire walked in with the future publishable book in her hand, the money maker, theÂ
inspiration maker, the fandom maker, oh my god, Claire will have fans! She handed it to her mother as if it was the Holy Grail!
âLook! Itâs the book I wrote. If youâre ever interested in reading it, please let me knowÂ
when you take a look inside.âÂ
âOh⊠sureâŠâ Claireâs mom took the book and threw it onto the coffee table. She wentÂ
back to scrolling on her phone and drinking from her wine. Yep⊠the book was hardly acknowledged. HARDLY ACKNOWLEDGED! Claire couldnât believe it. No, âI canât wait to read it.â No, âYouâre so talented.â No, âIâm so proud of you, Claire. You mean the world to me. Oh my God, Iâm so glad youâre my daughter.â How dare she hardly acknowledge my book. Was she even gonna read it? I suppose it wouldnât hurt to ask.Â
âSo, when are you gonna read it?â Claire asked.
âOh, Iâm not gonna read it now,â Claireâs mom slurred, looking at her daughter as if sheÂ
was accusing her of a murder. âI wonât finish it, I know that.âÂ
âI⊠youâre not?âÂ
âNo.âÂ
âYouâre not gonna finish it?âÂ
âNo!â Claire had to fight back tears.Â
âWhat do you mean? Are you even gonna read it?âÂ
âOh, yeah, Iâll read it. But not now, I wanna look at these videos.â
If there was anyone more obsessed with her phone, it was her mom. My god, it wasÂ
mind-boggling how someone could be so selfish. Was Claire just boring? Would her mom rather watch videos of other people then listen to and be invested in her own daughter about her book? Her daughter was in the fifth grade, which is not something that most fifth graders liked to do, and wrote a novel that she hoped at least her mother would put the wine glass down to look at. But it wasnât interesting. Claire wasnât interesting.Â
Her mom didnât even see how upset Claire was as she slowly walked up the stairs to herÂ
bedroom. The rest of the night was spent crying into her pillow and thinking about how boring she was. Claire could not comprehend in her heavy heart, so heavy it was like carrying a bowling ball in her ribcage, how a mother could be bored of their child. She did nothing to make her upset⊠Well, thatâs the thing, she did NOTHING. Her brain was full of hurtful thoughts about herself. God, it would be so easy to just go back and ask her mother to elaborate, to hear her out. But, oh, she doesnât remember what she tells her daughter by morning after a night of dry humping a bottle of liquid that tastes like nail polisher. Yes, thatâs it. âIf I was a bottle of alcohol,â Claire thought. âI would never be ignored. Iâd always be interesting. You canât mix a human with cranberry juice cocktail. Ooh! Cranberry juice cocktail mixes with a lot of alcohol! I should be that instead. Those drinks never get ignored.âBut then again, they get used up and the bottle gets thrown out. I guess Claire can never win. Itâs hard to gain others' approval. Perhaps it was time to quit. And maybe quit something elseâŠ
This was five years ago. Claire hasnât shared her writing projects with anyone. Yes, sheâs still passionate. But thereâs no way she could ever publish her stuff. If even her mother thought she was boring, so would her friends, her school, her neighbors, her town, her state, the whole world even. She couldnât give up, but she couldnât be public about it. If Mom thought her book was boring, so would everyone else.
#writing#short story#original fiction#short fiction#fiction#author#unpublished#vent#vent post#vent writing#vent tw
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5/22/24 things are I donât know
I havenât been on here in awhile so there is a lot to say. First, I scrolled a little down my page and god I saw the post I made about HIM last year and god I am so glad that situation is over with. It was actually so so bad. After we stopped talking things got really great for me you know. Practicing self love helped me love me for me. Not so much anymore though. Donât know when I stopped but I did . It sucks because I feel like I worked really hard to get to where I was just to have it messed up by some boy. I mean I didnât like him but it takes me really long to get over anything and just not being chosen hurt me I guess. I say I donât care then think about it everyday . I mean Iâll eventually really stop caring. I wish I could stop caring now. On top of that I just finished reading perks of being a wallflower and I saw myself so much in Charlie. I ended up sobbing reading the last few pages. It was just sad. And on top of that Deeya makes me feel like she doesnât want to talk to me. Iâve also realized that sheâs kind of really negative and only focused on the bad parts so I decided to stop talking to her from today. I think she will be fine be she she adopted a dog today. The dog will save her.
I feel like Iâm lying to myself when I say things are getting bad again because Iâm not sure if they really are. I mean Iâm doing good in school, Iâve been driving, and living I guess. I do feel off tho. My energy isnât there and I havenât been doing much for the past few weeks. I kinda donât want to get better. And i especially hate taking to my therapist. Iâm sorry Iâm kind of writing like Charlie but I just feel like it
I decided collectively to delete all of my social media as well as ghosting deeya. Iâm pretty sure Iâm going there next week. Not to her house but to Ohio. If it comes up i will text her I guess. Also I kinda feel like relapsing⊠I just got the chills
Maybe Iâm just to into my head and Iâll feel better in the morning and maybe I wonât. Iâm going to try my hardest to do some self care tomorrow. I think that is the biggest cause for how I feel. I wish I never talked to that boy. He really messed me up and I barely spoke to him! Idk, just messed up my flow. Ik im focusing on the negatives right now but I just want to let it all out
Im also listening to sad songs so its adding onto the sadness yk? I also hate my body but I try to just avoid staring at my self for too long. Iâve been feeling un pretty too. I donât feel like saying ugly. Itâs pretty Kate and I have school in the morning.
I have to make up my English keystones which is embarrassing to even say LOL. But I do because I didnât take it on the keystone days so Iâm just going to take it on the makeup day which is tomorrow. Iâm listening to Alex G right now
I do journal on here from time to time. Well not here on my journals app. But I want to start saying it on here because I feel like I am talking to someone and Iâm being heard even tho no one will see this. My account is public so itâs still a possibility
I think the book just made me realize how lonely I feel. Just like Charlie. Having no friends does suck. And Iâm going to be alone next year. When I graduate and thatâs just really sad for me. I always sit alone during pep rallyâs and I already hate that so much. I also have social anxiety so I know graduation is going to absolutely suck. Unless I start loving myself and start living freely. Then I wonât care if I get judged. I thought I was at the point but at the end of the day I still care about getting judged
Im getting tired I think I will sleep soon. Also, Iâm going to really try to keep this no social media thing going for as long as humanly possible. I want to be done with social media especially tiktok as a whole. I have brain rot from being online so much.
One last thing. My friends birthday is coming up this Friday. I need to make her a bracelet so thatâs all Iâll be doing tomorrow. Iâve gotten really close with her and I love being friends with her. Sometimes Iâm scared it will get too awkward and then realize Iâm not her cup of tea. I feel like Iâve always struggled with friendships tbh. I just came fake it and be bubbly so Iâll just be quiet and go mute basically. I feel like Iâve never reached that level of friendship. It might be good in the beginning but it never last yk?
Well she invited me to her birthday party. Itâs next week and Iâm nervous to go because her friend group will be there and I donât know any of them. Only know of them. Iâm not sure theyâre okay with me even coming. I donât want to like disturb them or interfere with their friendship and make the party awkward. Iâd rather just stay home if that was the case. But, I decided to go for my friend bc I have it out her before me in this case. She invited me so Iâll show up for her. I hope it goes good. Who knows maybe they will be my future best friends. I just hope it goes good. Iâm going to be manifesting it.
Iâm going to visualize a good day tomorrow and then visualize me connecting to her friends really well and having a good time.
So yeah, thatâs all I can think of and have the energy to write. My hands are hurting so. Iâm going to be writing on here a lot with the date in front. Tomorrow I will decide when I want to go back to social media or if I want to go back at all. I just want TikTok for the pictures cuz thatâs where I take my selfies lol.
Anyways! I have to be up early because I have to shower and get ready for school. Wish me luck on the keystone. Iâll try to write in the morning if I can. Iâm sad I will miss class because I want to see my friend ( the girl whoâs birthday party Iâm going to.
Okay goodnight
going ghost on the world once again
Oh also 2 weeks until school is over yay
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iâm not really interactive. i like to consume content and move on. it's easier just to get my instant gratification and keep myself from being perceived in any way because it makes me nervous. but even though i don't make use of tumblrâs basic functions, in my mindless haze i still remember feelings, words, and sometimes, urls too.
when i see ârainsweptâ i think of lyney. i feel like that's self explanatory, via the tag for lyney x reader, i found your blog. to be honest the first few times i came across your work i scrolled past it. wasn't really interested, wanted something shorter. but one morning, i was on the hunt again and actually sat down to read a fic from your account. it took me a while to process it after, and i was very distracted for the rest of the day. weeks later, still thinking about it, the words going from my head to a pit in my stomach that nothing seemed to satisfy. and then, strangely, i found myself looking up ârainsweptâ more and more often to reread instead of refreshing the daily âlyney x readerâ
i dont know what model of brain you have, but it's great
your writing was not the idle comfort i was used to. it hurt to read, but it hurt worse to be without. i wanted to stay with my personal image of a flirty guy who's just that. flirty. easier to digest. i couldn't.
the way you described lyney in the few works i saw took my soft hand and shoved it into a hot fire of angst. longing. fire that rises, but also falls and churns like the sea. wholly consuming in its warpath. it did not let me keep that image of lyney. in fact, the tides of rising flame tore it away from me. burned it. because there's wayy more to be said about him and how he sees the world than who he falls in love with (âcurtain callâ is my roman empire)
absolutely crazy idea to me at the time. wow, imagine characters having actual feelings??? wtf. to be described so viscerally, picked apart by language and left crumpled amongst the carnage of your own being on a fandom page is to be loved. i want to love the way you do
so, to me, ârainsweptâ is the url that introduced me to really passionate interpretations of characters i like and the beauty of prose that holds you as if it were a lingering chill on the darkest of nights. i don't think i would be nearly as interested in trying to understand characters for who they are beyond romance without your work.
ârainsweptâ taught me how to love a character
it could have happened eventually with someone else's blog, but it was yours. through looking at your blog and the things you repost (v fun tags, by the way), i even found others i like too. (wow, it's almost like iâm discovering how the internet works!!!) you've indirectly taught me how to appreciate nuances in writing. now, i can proudly say my taste has definitely developed away from the 2018 wattpad era
that's pretty cool. character development for me i guess? i still have a long way to go before i can understand everything in my own way, but iâm learning. today was another one of those days where your url came to mind, it's been a while. i was more than happy to follow my whim
anyways! that's all, just thought i'd share. it's my first time sending an ask (ÂŽ;ïž”;`) i had a lot to say, and i think i still have a lot to say, but iâm sure you know the difficulties of putting feelings into words. i wanted to make sure i expressed what i could before i lost the confidence to say anything at all
thank you for sharing your writing and silly thoughts, tumblr user rainswept
P.S. i would be sad if rain actually sweeps you off your feet, which is why i also offer an umbrellaâin case the weather ever becomes too harsh. be safe, dude âïž
long post iâm putting it under a read more
what in the WORLD anon. PH:WIYbpiHWbpi,HIDDNFLWUIEBFLIHABCKUGASVCKHVSEKUHBRWLUHBGW J,H?/?/?//
GOOD LORD i think something in me literally shattered with this ask. i am SHAKing TREMBLING EVEN i cannog even get a full BREAATH in i;m LOSING MY MIND
this ask is literally the reason i made my blog. the reason i ever posted to begin with. my writing ever being seen like this was my ultimate goal. if there was anything iâve ever wanted it was this. to move people, to change their minds, to get them to see things beyond their outward appearances â and i guess iâve achieved that because. oh my god.
i donât know how to do this ask justice anon. i saw it and if i was standing i think i would have fallen over. you say my prose is beautiful yet yours left me breathless. seriously, not just because it being directed towards me meant so much but also just the quality of it. i understand not wanting to present yourself publicly on tumblr, but i think you are an amazing writer and if you ever did iâd be your first follower. i would read all of the writing of yours i could get my hands on. so if you have ever had any inkling to do that, do it. you only live once (and iâd go feral for it)
speaking of writing. aside from just writing because i want to, my whole mission of sorts on here is to change how people view characters. i know i canât alter everyoneâs perception â if they think someone like lyney is just flirty snd nothing more, theyâre usually going to continue thinking that â but to know that iâve had even one person change their mind on even one character is .. astounding. not even to mention changing how someone views characters as a whole? indirectly causing someone to look deeper into them, to analyze them closer, to pick them apart like you said, to feel more when reading about them? thatâs absolutely insane (positive). i will never be the same after this actually.
i write to feel, and i write to make others feel, even emotions i or they may not want to. i like digging deep into characters, into pain and sadness, because iâve always noticed that stories that hurt stay with me longer. they make me think and think and i keep going back to them. and they may not make me feel better, but i like it anyway because, to me, what is the point of reading if it isnât going to stick with you? what is the point of feeling if, as soon as you pry your eyes away from the pages, the emotion fades with the ink?
to know that you kept thinking about my writing, then kept coming back, and that i altered the way you view characters is. crazy to me. absolutely crazy. despite desiring it so deeply, i never thought iâd have that effect on someone else.
maybe i changed how you view characters and writing, but you continue to give me the motivation to continue doing so. and actually both are so valuable to me. to know i have moved someone enough for them to send an ask like this. i donât know how to put into words how much this,,, affected me?? i could honestly die peacefully right now. like this is all iâve ever wanted.
âi want to love the way you doâ i think you do. i think you have. i think to send an ask like this it may take more of it. this may have not been your intent or expected outcome but this has genuinely moved me. so so much.
ârainswept taught me how to love a characterâ oh my GOD.
iâm so glad you did have the courage to send this, because it means more to me than you know. i will cherish this forever. iâm so honored, both that what you wanted to say to me overpowered the fear of sending an ask and the fact that you even had these words to say to me to begin with. i get what itâs like to be afraid when it comes to reaching out, but know you will always be welcome here, whether itâs heartfelt words or genuinely anything. if you do have more to say, ever, i will absolutely welcome it with open arms
it takes a lot to reach out like this, but just know this is the most valuable interaction i think i have ever had on tumblr. if this doesnât stick with me for life i think itâll be safe to say iâve lost all my memories. maybe iâm being dramatic, but i want you to know the extent that this has changed me (itâs fundamentally).
i donât know how to say thank you for this. i think this will singlehandedly carry my motivation and will to keep creating for the rest of my life. i think i will keep writing because of it (and because of you, to know you are out there and once continued to return, even if i leave tumblr, even if you no longer do). to know someone out there was genuinely moved by what i also was is the greatest motivation i could ever dream of. whoever you are, i love you.
i was going to copy and paste some things you said and comment on them in particular, but i could literally do that to the entire ask. but i hope you know i will likely continue to reread every single word of this ask over and over until i can recite it because oh my god i will be thinking about this for the rest of my life
âcurtain call is my roman empireâ anon THIS is my roman empire đ
this is so so all over the place because it made me so emotional LMAO i am so sorry. i donât know how to summarize all i want to say, or go over everything you have said, but just know that i will keep every single word of this close to my heart and cherish it like i probably never have anything else.
thank you for everything. including the umbrella â rain doesnât usually sweep me off my feet, but this ask did so iâll use it for that instead.
#âcrowâs nest.#âïž#the model of brain i have is. neurodivergent#pls anon this is literally going to plague my mind for the rest of my life#but like. in a good way#good lord#iâmgoing to throw up (positive)#watch me reblog this 5 times to add on to it GODDDDDDLUDWBHKGASKHIB#this made me want to write lyney stuff again ohmymgod
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And the Doctor Said [Yandere L Lawliet x Reader]
Title: And the Doctor Said [Yandere L Lawliet x Reader]
Synopsis: Youâre sick. Youâre sick and he wonât admit it, and what, he just wants you to die here?
For Horrorfest request:Â L Lawliet + Hypochondria
Word count: 963
notes: yandere, kidnapped reader, reader is a hypochondriac, emotional abuse
You stick the thermometer in your mouth for the third time that morning, and ignore the way that Lâs frown deepens at the gesture. You donât much care for what your captor thinks, anyway, and especially not about important matters like these.
âAnd why are you measuring your temperature again?â The words come out measured and calm, but you--having been around him for too long now--detect the edge of irritation in them.
âYou know why,â you say, words half-garbled through the plastic on your tongue. âStop pretending you donât.â
He hums and watches and waits for the thermometer to beep. When it does--beep, beep, beep--you pull it out and grin at the reading, despite the thin thread of fear slowly unraveling inside your belly.
âAha! I told you! See! See!â You thrust it towards his face, and he takes it, careful not to touch the part thatâs slightly damp with your drool.
â37C,â he reads. âThatâs not a fever. I donât know why you sound so triumphant.â
âBecause,â you retort, snatching the thermometer back from his grubby little hands. âItâs above the normal temperature, which you know is 36 to 36.8 exactly. And if itâs above the normal temperature, that explains everything else thatâs going on with me.â
The note of triumph in y our voice is trimmed with anxiety. Because while being right when L is wrong is one of the few things left gloating for in your sad compact little life, if youâre right, it means⊠well.  Something far more serious than a simple cold.
L stares at you, blinking.
âDonât tell me youâre still stuck on that. I already told you, your self-diagnosis was faulty and filled with errors. It wouldnât hold up to a nervous first year medical studentâs analysis.â
Your grip on the thermometer tightens, before you slam it down on the counter. You whirl, fuming, even though your stomach and your head hurt, and stomp into the living room to retrieve your laptop. The top opens fluidly--you donât want to break it--and you bring up your latest search results.
âThere,â you say, resolute, bitter, terrified but stubborn as hell. âSee? All of my symptoms are there. The headache. The stomach ache. The dizziness. The insomnia. The fever--â You donât even look behind you when you retort to the look heâs surely making--âItâs going to be a fever soon, it counts.âÂ
Your fingers tremble as you scroll down the page, noting how every symptom lines up with your current state. Yes, you do feel more anxious than usual. Yes, you do feel a sense of impending doom. Yes, you do feel like you canât sleep. Yes, your appetite is affected⊠itâs all there, black and white, easy to see
Easy for you to see, while he ignores whatâs right in front of him.
You hear L move, hear the creak of the stool in the kitchen, before you see him settle down next to on the sofa.
He calmly puts his fingers on the bottom of your laptop, and you let him, because if he would just read the symptoms then he would know that youâre right. And he would take you to a doctor, instead of forcing you to sip tea and take cold medicine every few hours.
âYou do not have,â he starts, before turning the screen to face himself. His voice maintains its soft monotone expression as he continues. âOne of the rarest blood disorders in the world that can cause cold-like symptoms which may be a sign of impending organ failure.â The only sign of his agitation is the sigh that he lets out as he closes the laptop, much to your annoyance.
âIâm taking away your laptop privileges,â he says. He sets the closed laptop next to him, where you canât reach, unless you want to try to fight him for it. You donât.
âYouâre what?â Your fingers itch to reach for it, but then--might sudden movements trigger your condition? Was it like a blood clot, in that way? Maybe you had a blood clot, your leg was feeling strange lately, and surely youâd been sitting down too much in the last 24 hours. âYou canât do that.â Your voice is tinged with the helplessness you feel, raw, thready.
âOf course I can.â He rubs the back of his neck. âI should have done this sooner. Itâs only contributing to your condition, really.â
You freeze.
âMy condition? So you admit it?â Your heart thumps and thereâs a jittery sort of triumph in your stomach, but itâs so overrun with worry that you barely feel it. Has he known this whole time? Was he planning on just letting you die? Maybe that was what he got off on, making you fret and worry, watching you get sick, half-ass nursing you while you slowly faded away.
He chews on his thumb while your brain chews on itself. âI suppose Iâve been in denial about it. But itâs clear that you are suffering.â He sighs again. âIâll have Watari send over some modules on how best to treat it. But I think taking away your ability to research every disease known to mankind is a good starting point.â
He reaches out and, as if youâre some sort of timid cat, pats your shoulder reassuringly.
You donât flinch, exactly, but itâs not often that he bothers touching you without asking first.
âIâŠâ The words come out slowly. âI donât understand. What can Watari do about my blood disorder?â
L quirks his head to the side. And then his eyes widen, when he realizes where it all went wrong.
âYou donât have a blood disorder. I told you that.â He smiles, just a little one, but it digs right into you like a sharp hook. âItâs called hypochondria. Would you like me to look up the symptoms?â
#yandere l lawliet#yandere death note#l lawliet x reader#yandere#afterwitch writes#aw horrorfest#wasn't on my list this week but that's how the cookie crumbled!!
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When you ask the haikyu boys âdo you think I'm pretty?â (Iwaizumi, Atsumu, Kuroo)
genre: slight angst, fluff
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Iwaizumi: You and Iwaizumi were lounging in your room, him laying in bed watching tv whilst you were standing in the mirror staring at yourself. âhey Y/N-â
âHajime, do you think I'm pretty?â you asked still staring at yourself, poking and prodding at your body as you look in the mirror. Iwaizumi looked at you as if youâve grown another head, and stood up standing behind you in the mirror placing his face in the crook of your neck with his hands wrapping around your waist making you jump slightly âHajime,â you groan âyour hands are cold.â
âI donât care Y/N,â he said keeping his hands there âme and my cold hands arenât moving until you tell me whatâs brought on your weird question.â
âItâs nothing...â you mumble, your eyes now casting away from the mirror.
âWell itâs something,â he said giving you a slight squeeze, making you wince from the coldnest off his hands âcâmon Y/N, I just want you to feel betterâ
You relax into his hold and stare back at the mirror, âitâs just sometimes, when I look at myself in the mirror I donât feel good. Sometimes I try and avoid looking at myself overall, its unbearable... All parts about me, my -â
âWoah, donât continue your sentence babe,â he raises his head from the crook of you neck looking directly at you in the mirror âI donât want to hear you talking about yourself like that, I know it may be hard right now and my words may not mean anything. But I need you to know that I think youâre pretty and Iâll tell you that everyday if I have to just so that you know youâre beautiful.â
âBut Iwa donât you think I need to change?â
âNope, not at all.â he says resting his face back into your neck âIf you want to change, then I canât stop you but I donât want you to do it, just because you think you arenât pretty, youâre goregous Y/Nâ he mumbles the last bit directly on your neck, and your heart flutters from his words and feeling the vibration of his voice directly on your skin.
He spins you around so youâre now actually facing him, âIt saddens me to hear you think that way about yourself, but I promise I'll make sure you know otherwise because I love you, regardless of what you look likeâ he says finishing with a kiss on your forehead.
Atsumu: You were scrolling through instagram and smiled seeing your boyfriend as the picture for a Sports AD, when you go to the page he was psted on you see even more pictures of him posted with beautiful women, smiling and laughing. You decided to scroll through the comments and saw majority of them just gushing over how good the girl and your boyfriend looked together and it made you a little hurt inside.
Atsumu eventually got home from practice and saw you in your closet, tear stained and rummaging through everything you own. You donât really know how you made it into this position but after seeing those comments and reading some angst works, you managed to get yourself into this state.
âY/N are you alright?â he said shocked by your sad appearance.
âAtsumu do you think im pretty?â you asked with a frown. He was even more stunned hearing this question leave your lips, he went to sit down next to you in your closet and his eyes softened seeing how sad you really looked.
âOf course I think your pretty!â he said putting his hand on your thigh âWhy wouldnât I?â
âI donât know, but wouldnât you feel better with someone who matches you physically?â you asked,
âWhat do you mean? Youâre the one that matches meâ
âI saw the ad deal you did, with that beautiful girl and all the comments were talking about how great you looked together, and I canât say I disagree.â
âDonât say that Y/N, she was just a model and you are the prettiest girl I know and that isnât even a lieâ he says.
âYou really think so?â you ask putting your face in your hands, suddenly feeling embarrased.
âYes I doâ he pulls you into his arms, lifting your head out of your arms âyou really are beautiful, and I donât see how you donât see it, but I hope one day you do.â
âThanks Tsumu, I hope so tooâ you said, smiling as he gives you a soft kiss on the forehead ânow will you help me put back all my clothes.â
âSureâ he saids standing up âOnly if you answer this serious question,â
âWhat?â
âWhoâs prettier, me or Osamu?â he said with all seriousness, staring at you hardly for an answer.
âWell....â you say âOsamu does have prettier eyesâ you joke laughing as Atsumu grabs a tshirt and throws it at you.
Kuroo: you and Kuroo were watching TV, and you could tell by the way that Kuroo was looking at you that things were about to get a little heated making you feel nervous. When you show ended and Kuroo leaned towards you giving you a kiss, at first you let him kiss you but then you just froze when he felt his hands start to wonder.
âY/N, are you okay?â he asked moving from you and looking worried.
âDo you think Iâm pretty?â
âWhat do you mean? Of course youâre prettyâ he said now fully confused.
âRemember, Levâs sister from highschool Alisa? The russian looking model?â
âYeah, what about her?â
âYou used to pine, after her fawning and fanning over her beauty and of course back then I didnât look like her and I donât look like her now so I jus- I dont know...â
âSo you donât think your pretty because of my apparent teenage crush on Levâs sister?â he asked slightly dumbfounded.
âNo, Itâs just all the women you surround yourself around just arenât like me at all, and I am just ugly in comparison.â
âDonât say that Y/N, I donât know why you think this. Because if you didnât notice, all the times i was apparently âpining,â after Alisa in highschool, I was really staring at you. Why do you think I invited you to all our games back then and all the women I am around arenât like you because there is noone that can be compared to you, seriously Y/Nâ he said âWhen I first met you, I thought you were beautiful and of course youâve changed a bit its called growing up and I donât want you to feel that you arenât pretty or that I donât find you pretty because I do, of course I do. Everyone I possibly knows I do, because they probably do too.â
âOhâ
âYeah oh.â he repeated with his usual goofy smirk on his face, he pulls you into his holds and peppers kisses all over your face âYou are beautiful, and Iâll tell you that every second of the day.â
âThanks Tetsu, I know I'm being a bit silly and all but sometimes I do just think youâre better off with someone better.â
âWell theres noone better than you babes,â he puts on another show and spends the rest of the night complimenting every part of you, from a scar you gained when you were a child, to the shape of your ears and eyelashes to the little moles you didnât even know you had but it seems he knew, since he pays attention and loves every single part of you.
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I've been scrolling through your page and you seem to have an IMPRESSIVE ability to find 'hidden gems' or recs that I haven't heard of before (and boy have i been looking) so thank you for that! I was wondering if you had any fics that you thought were the best hidden gems or overall most underrated?
Hi anonđž Thank you for your kind words!
Iâll do my best, but this is a bit difficult for me to answer. You see, Iâm really bad at keeping track of which fics are well known, and which are âobscureâ. I mean, of course I understand when a fic is extremely popular, but more than that it gets difficult, as I never really look at the number of hits or kudos on fics. But here you have my best try: some fics that I think deserve way more attention!
in the current, moving forward, by @alifeincoffeespoons (6k)
In the scorching summer of 1926, Remus Lupinâwar veteran, Yale alumnus, starving artistâmoves to West Egg, Long Island to write.
A historical AU, inspired by The Great Gatsby. Slightly angsty, well-written and oh so beautiful. This deserves way more love and appreciation!
On Edge, by wannnabesuper (7k)
Every time they meet, Remus gives Sirius a new ridiculous reason for having been on the cliff where they met.
Starts of cute and then turns pretty sad. A beautiful little fic that deserves way more attention!
the name of the game, by @pavementlupin (5k)
âYouâre insufferable,â Sirius says. He is looking at Remus, and looking at him. Remus feels filleted, necrotic, like letting a wound fester and showing up at hospital too late and watching the doctor look at you like this is your fault. âYouâre insufferable,â he hands the fag to Remus who pulls like heâs starving, âand did you know there is green in your eyes.â
Indexofangels is, of course, a pretty well known wolftstar writer - so I canât possibly understand how this fic isnât more popular? Itâs a bloody masterpiece!
ten reasons (to go to michigan), by @greyeyedmonster-18 (59k)
A story of simple pleasures, love, and home.
Ok so this might not qualify to be called an âobscureâ fic - but with how INCREDIBLE this is it should be up there with Text Talk, thatâs the art of getting by, Light in August and all other classics. This fic is so much more than a wolfstar story of love. Oh, how much this fic means to me!
Exposed, by edgewareroad (3k)
At eleven, Remus boarded the Hogwarts Express ready to keep secrets. In the end, there are none he can keep from Sirius.
My go-to fic when I need some hurt/comfort! Go give it some more kudos!
A Bird At Your Door, by moongoblin (32k)
Of pub quizzes, old films, Chinese takeaways, broken arms, and impassioned discussions of literature: Remus is confusing, and Sirius is just trying to figure him out.
A slightly angsty (happy ending), slow burn, light enemies-to-lovers fic filled to the brim with pining. With Winnie the Pooh references!! That are actually so lovely??? Read this right away!
I hope you find at least something you havenât already read!
xx Elliotđž
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Hello @gluttonousfruit you are in fact my first request. (I did not forget about you in moving my blog.) I am super excited to have anyone ask me to write something! Also I would love to be friends! Feel free to message me through asks or in private DMs! I hope you enjoy the imagine!
Warnings: Fluff with a small amount of angst because Levi doubts himself đ
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Levi with an Animator S/O
"Okay MC, I know we just finished 'Swimming Only Leads to Hot Mermaids,' but I was thinking since we are already watching otomes, we should watch another series that everyone is recommending online!" Levi says this as he begins to pull out one DVD and place in another while bouncing on the balls of his feet like an excited puppy.
"I guess I could watch one more series, but it better be a good one. Sure the mermaids were attractive, but there wasn't much of a plot." MC says with a yawn. A quick look over to the clock, and it reads 11:48 PM in a blinding blue light. Not too late for one of Levi's normal bingefests, but a little too late for MC when they have classes tomorrow.
"No, I promise this one is good. Everyone is talking about the art style. They say it is so original that it's captivating." Levi walks to the small futon briskly and plops himself down next to MC as he continues to ramble about the art. His voice slowly trails off as the opening begins to play.
As the music fills MC's ears, they perk up and a small smile appears on their face. "Levi, could this perhaps be, 'I Went to Hell For a Weekend and Got Stuck in a Love Heptagon with Seven Incubi'?"
Levi faces MC in shock. The look on their face is quite smug. (In all seriousness, it reminds Levi of Mammon when he wins poker, but he doesn't want to be think about his brother while looking at MC. So he pushes that thought away.) This anime came out only the day before their bingefest. And even then, Levi had this copy pre-ordered for this very occasion and it arrived before any stores were selling physical copies. There is no way a normie like MC could have heard about its release. Does this mean MC isn't such a normie after all?
"You heard of this show already?" The surprise in his voice was impossible to hide.
"Yeah, I have heard of it." MC smiles and chuckles quietly, "I have never actually seen it, but I have heard the opening quite a few times."
"Oh..." Levi sighs. He was so stupid. Of course MC had heard the opening. It is all over his Devilgram and they were on their phone for part of the last show, so they obviously just heard it on there. Levi deflates looking solemn. It was just a pipe dream that MC would ever be interested in his yucky otaku interests.
"Hey! There is no reason to be all sad just because I know the name of the show. I still haven't seen the whole thing. My first time watching will still be with you Levi, isn't that special enough?" The smile on MC's face seemed sincere enough, but the words that came out of their mouth made blood rush up to Levi's cheeks. Their first... did they really mean to say it like that?...
As thoughts begin to flood Leviathan's head the show began. It was true the art style was captivating. So captivating in fact, that he forgot about his embarrassment. But MC's words still lingered in his mind as he watched the show.
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"Well, I am dead tired." MC stands cracking their aching joints as they look at the clock. 2:37 AM. It was that late already? "I think I need to head to bed Levi. I have classes in the morning and I need at least a few hours of sleep."
"Are you sure?" Levi was just starting to enjoy MC's presence. At the beginning of the night, he was on edge trying to make everything perfect. Levi did want to mess up by being a yucky Otaku and give them a reason to leave him all alone. But as the night progressed, (and more snacks were consumed) he felt increasingly more comfortable with sharing his favorite shows with MC. "I have other shows we could watch to pass the time, or we could play this new game I got-"
MC walks over to Levi and gently sets their hands on his shoulders, "Games and anime are great, but what I need right now is sleep." MC watched as Levi's face filled with a blush and his eyes flashed with hurt. "I am not leaving because I am mad... or sad... or anything really. I just need to sleep, Leviathan." Their voice was barely above a whisper as they said his name. How could he disagree with them when they said his name like that; all the while, looking deep into his eyes. He felt like he could explode.
As MC turns away, the demon in question then sighs mutters a quiet "okay" under his breath. "Don't worry, Levi. This isn't the last time I will watch anime with you. I promise we can do another one of these when another new anime comes out." MC begins to pick up their things. A blanket they brought with them to keep warm in Levi's cold room and the rest of their human snacks. "Besides, I really liked that one, and I have heard they are already making season two." As they speak, MC makes their way across the room to the gigantic tank.
"Wait. How do you-"
"Good night Henry. Good night Levi." And with that, MC leaves. Closing the door behind them.
How did MC know about a second season? Even he, the Great Otaku Levi, has not heard about a season two on any forums or on any other website... After thinking about it, Levi suspects it's probably on Devilgram like the opening was. To prove his theory, he pulls out his D.D.D. and opens up Devilgram to the 'I Went to Hell For a Weekend and Got Stuck in a Love Heptagon with Seven Incubi' page. He scrolls through their posts and finds the opening, like he predicted, but what he didn't predict was their most recent post.
"This show would not have been possible without MC. Thank you for making such a great story and great art to go along with it!"
Levi reads the caption once, twice, thrice and is speechless. The photo for this post is none other than his MC standing with a hand drawn piece of the protagonist. He can even see their signature in the corner when he zooms in! He knew that they liked to draw, but he never thought they would make an anime.
Without thinking, Levi gets up and begins to run to MC's room. He needs to know that this isn't some sort of elaborate prank that MC and Satan brewed up to make him like a normie more.
The door to MC's room busts open, "MC!" The room is completely dark except for the light shining in through the doorway.
"Levi...? Is that you? Is something wrong?" MC's voice is soft and laced with sleep. If this were any other time, Levi would have screamed over their cuteness, but today he had a mission. He immediately marches up to the half asleep MC and promptly shoves his phone in their face.
"Did you make 'I Went to Hell For a Weekend and Got Stuck in a Love Heptagon with Seven Incubi'?" MC sits up and squints as their eyes adjust to the blinding screen and look at the post.
"Um... yeah. That's me isn't it?" Silence takes over the room, before Levi begins to scream.
"WAHHHHH! MC, why didn't you tell me!" Thankfully with the phone only being pointed at MC, they can't see the blush spreading across his face.
"Well, I didn't want you to treat me differently because I make anime." Laying back down as they speak, MC tucks a pillow under their head and looks up to where they guess Leviathan's face is. "Besides, I thought it was really cute how you were fanboying, and I didn't want you to stop because you knew you were in the presence of the creator." A small smile makes it's way on to MC's face as Levi feels his own get hotter.
Now covering his face, Levi quickly makes his way to the door while muttering, "You can't just say things like that..." As he begins to close the door, he pauses and opens it up again while looking back, "Can you tell me more about your show tomorrow, MC?" His voice sounds small compared to his previous scream.
"Of course Levi. We can talk for as long as you like."
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BnHA Chapter 315: I Didnât Expect This to Blow Up
Previously on BnHA: Horikoshi was all âguess which plot that you thought was dead is actually not dead and is making a comeback!â and we were all âEVIL HPSC??â and he was all âgirl you know it,â and thatâs the story of how we got a sexy Lady Nagant flashback with lots of guns and murder. Flashback!Lady was all âgotta murder peeps to preserve the peopleâs trust,â but then a little while later she was like âactually wait that makes no sense,â and so she shot her evil boss and they sent her to jail. Back in the present, Deku was all âokay fair, the hero system might in fact be a little fucked up, but hear me out... have you considered not helping AFO take over the world so he can murder like a bazillion more innocent people??â The chapter ended with the not-all-there Overhaul finally revealing himself to Deku, and I honestly have no idea where this is gonna go.
Today on BnHA: In what is unfortunately the single worst plan ever concocted by anyone in BnHA, Nagant is all âIâm going to try and get this Deku kid to panic and freeze up by putting someone in mortal danger.â Deku is all, â[doesnât panic and freeze up at the sight of someone in mortal danger].â Nagant is all âomg no way.â Deku, who is now all of a sudden being so OP that even I have to acknowledge that itâs OP lol, is all â[smashes Nagantâs gun arm to bits]â, which sucks but is also really cool, and which also apparently makes Nagant decide that she actually likes this kid after all. Deku is all âNAGANT I REALLY LIKE YOU AND THINK YOUâRE GREAT SO PLEASE JOIN UP WITH ME AND STOP BEING EVIL.â Nagant is all âaw shucks (âż âąÍáŽâąÍ) well okay thenâ and everyone is all â( âĄïœ„) â° ( ËáŽË ) ( á” á” á” â)â and then Nagant FUCKING EXPLODES LIKE AN EGG IN THE MICROWAVE AND FALLS TO HER DEATH!!!! except not really because Hawks saves her??? In conclusion, (a) THE FUCK, and (b) AFO TURN ON YOUR LOCATION I JUST WANT TO TALK.
so I have to tell you guys something, which is that barely ten minutes after I made that âplease donât send me spoilersâ post the other day, someone replied to the comments in a stunning fit of âtell me that youâre twelve without actually telling me youâre twelveâ energy and posted what seemed to be the copy-pasted spoiler summary from reddit or twitter or whatever lol. so here is my good news/bad news rundown of all that
good news: I have very well-conditioned ABORT!! reflexes and have trained myself to immediately look away from the screen (usually in dramatic fashion) as soon as I realize that whatever Iâm reading is a spoiler
bad news: unfortunately as I was subsequently deleting said comments, I accidentally read the very last one
good news??: said spoiler was so unbelievably, absurdly over-the-top that Iâm almost positive this person was just trolling. like, thereâs just no way lmao
bad news: but in the unlikely event that it is true I will absolutely lose my shit I swear to god
(ETA: âNAGANT DIES.â that was the spoiler I read lol. like, literally all I read from the personâs comments was âMy Hero Academia Chapter 315 Title: âBeautiful Words.â Chapter starts with...â and then I noped out of there, and then of all the comments to read as I was deleting, it had to be that one lol. I seriously was just like âSURE, JAN.â all âjust how gullible do you think I amâ sob. but I was wrong. a troll, but an honest troll they remain.
but anyways like Iâm pretty sure Nagant isnât even actually dead lol, so in the end this whole little adventure doesnât even have a point to it, but for me it was a journey!)
anyway, so there are apparently two versions of the chapter today?? no idea what the difference is, but Iâm going to go with the Bean version, because itâs the one at the top and I donât feel like making decisions today
huh, so Overhaul is actually more coherent than Horikoshi was letting on
look at him having a whole back and forth conversation with her. side note, how is he still this jacked when heâs been sitting in a cell doing absolutely nothing for the past six months
anyway so he says heâll go with her on one condition. I wonder what that condition could possibly be. do you think it could be the thing he literally hasnât shut up about ever since he reappeared lol
yep! and damn -- maybe this guy will surprise me after all
still would be nice if you also felt a bit sorry for the little girl you tortured and traumatized, but this is something at least. maybe Deku will yell at him for that other stuff lol
(ETA: also canât help but wonder if he wants to make amends because he put him in a coma, or because his plan was a failure and ended up destroying the family. just hoping youâve finally had that âhurting other people is badâ epiphany dude.)
anyways so now Nagantâs arm is transforming again, and this particular transformation happens to be the only truly unsexy thing that Nagant has done thus far so Iâm just gonna skip right on ahead lol
aaaaand weâre back to the delirious ranting
buddy. just. read the fucking room, guy
wow she really is aiming at Overhaul, then. those theories were spot-on
damn sheâs really out here all âit really fucks with kidsâ heads when you kill people right in front of them and make them blame themselvesâ like yo
Iâm picturing her saying all this in a very loud stage-whispery tone while making very significant eye contact with Deku lol
uh oh but wait
um. okay. whoâs gonna tell her. Nagant I might have some bad news for you about the kid youâre trying to capture here. specifically about the way he tends to do the opposite of what youâre thinking that heâs about to do
holy shit
so itâs basically just âtap x repeatedly to charge up your attackâ lol
and okay, so thatâs cool and all, but is anyone else wincing at the thought of what that must be like on his knees. oh to be young
anyway, but so to the surprise of basically no one, Deku did not, in fact, freeze. I am very sorry, Nagant. heâs just like this
LMAO
someone wanna tell me how getting yoloed in the fucking ribs by this fucking slingshot kid moving at literal sniper bullet speed is in any way even remotely better than getting hit by the bullet itself lol
(ETA: this is 10x funnier now that we know the bullet wasnât even gonna hit him lmao.)
anyway so now Nagant is having an extended â!?!?!?â reaction about how Deku just moved with no hesitation, and Iâm starting to get an inkling of fear that the rest of this fight isnât going to go very well for her and maybe thatâs what all the âhoo boyâ is about
oh my god Deku are you about to Gomu Gomu no Rocket yourself at her you insane little man
now Three is popping up again and heâs all âI see youâve learned your lesson and are now only using three quirks at once instead of fiveâ like with all this effusive praise about how great and badass Deku is and sob, okay, yeah. this chapter is basically one of those machines that shoots tennis balls at people, except instead of tennis balls it shoots hot piping discourse
OH MY GOD
YOOOOOOOOOO but also, NOOOOOOOOOOO
lol oh my god itâs literally two opposing reactions at once wtf. do I love this or hate this. like just for once can Horikoshi actually let a badass lady character win their fucking fight without getting their arm ripped off, BUT ALSOÂ fucking look at that absurdly cool âSMASHâ onomatopoeia though. it looks like itâs about to float right off the page holy shit thatâs some seriously good art
anyway so is this really the end?? do I need to break out my àČ _àČ faces
lmao okay yeah I can definitely see how this would piss a lot of people off
he basically one-shotted her and sheâs all âdamn this kid is so amazing that Iâm about to do a complete 180 turn on all of my previous angstâ lmao. Horikoshi is really shounening it up today
on the plus side though, maybe this means thereâs still a chance for her to join up with him after all? unless that spoiler was true lmao, then all hell is gonna break loose
YESSSSSSS
OH MY GOD AND HE SAYS THE BULLET WOULDNâT HAVE DONE MORE THAN GRAZE OVERHAUL ANYWAY, wow, Iâm actually more relieved by that than I would have expected. I mean I would have forgiven her either way, but it means that there was still more hero in her than she was letting on
YES!!! FUCKING YES, THANK YOU
lol but I mean, itâs also like, âoh so today they get to have brain cellsâ, thank you so much lol. sometimes itâs really hard to tell which times weâre supposed to question these character decisions that seem dumb, and which times weâre just supposed to full on embrace them and switch off our critical thinking
but okay, so in this case it really was Nagant going easy on him on purpose, and not just her fucking up for no good reason even though she used to do this for a living and was the best in the game. and I know in this case itâs probably just Horikoshi giving us some consolation headpats to soften the blow of her losing so abruptly, but you know what, shit. Iâll take it
also you guys the light is coming back into Dekuâs eyes again for just a moment here and Iâm having feels about it?? the way it still comes back when heâs reaching out to save someone, and following his own hero path instead of the much darker and lonelier Christopher Nolan path thatâs been laid out for him instead that he never wanted?? itâs both reassuring and also very sad
YESSSSSSSSSSS
DO IT LADY OMG PLEASE?? PLEASE COME BE HIS NEW IRRESPONSIBLE ADULT SUPERVISION YOU KNOW YOU WANT TO
AHHHHHHH SHEâS GONNA DO IT AHHHH
p.s. I am now absolutely scared shitless that that spoiler was actually true sob. swear to god, I will throw this manga into a fucking volcano. but weâre almost at the end of the chapter and this seems just WAY TOO GOOD to be true fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck f
UCK
NOPE NAH SEND IT BACK, NOPE, NUH UH, DIDNâT ORDER THIS. âGULLIBLEâ OKAY FUCK YOU?? âCOUNTERMEASURESâ NOPE, DONâT NEED âEM, WEâRE ALL FINE HERE. WEâRE ACTUALLY GOOD SO YOU CAN JUST GO, OKAY. PLEASE
fuck, lol, I donât wanna do it. I donât wanna scroll down what have I ever done to deserve this oh my god
WHAT THE HONEY-ROASTED FUCK
WHERE THE FUCK IS THAT FUCKING VOLCANO IN ICELAND THAT I KEEP SEEING ALL THESE PICTURES OF. WHERE THE FUCK IS THAT SHIT. LETâS GO
ARE YOU SERIOUS RIGHT NOW
can someone please give AFO a really good, sharpish kick in the balls. just really let him have it. Iâm so tired, what the fuck
-- ARE YOU KIDDING ME LOL WHAT
bro. I was literally going through my Excel folders to find the spreadsheet about female characters in BnHA that I made back when Midnight died. was gearing myself up for a wholeass rant. and honestly I might just let all of that continue simmering on low to keep it warm just in case lol, because to tell you the truth I have absolutely no idea whatâs happening right now
my girl straight up does not have a face. she used to have a face. people usually need those, idk. like, even if sheâs alive, her gorgeous eyebrows are definitely not making it out of this and Iâm gonna throw a funeral just for them
how the fuck did AFO just blow her up?? how did he know what was going on?? and if he had a quirk that could explode people at will, why is this the first weâre hearing of it?? youâd think that might have come in handy at Kamino or Jakku, like what
(ETA: present!me, whoâs had more than three hours of sleep and can now actually remember facts about the series, would like to remind past!me that AFO gave Nagant a quirk, and so this is probably just more Vestige shenanigans now on his part. thatâs also probably why Air Walk suddenly stopped working out of nowhere. still doesnât explain why he doesnât go around blowing people up more often though but maybe he thinks itâs gauche.)
Hawks just straight up out of nowhere. just Mirioed his way straight into the chapter just in time to be too late sob. here I was looking forward to seeing your face when Deku showed up with his new best friend. canât believe Horikoshi deprived us of that moment
on the plus side, WELCOME BACK, HAWKSâS FEATHERS. I have no doubt that in this chapter of Deku being an almighty threequirk-mastering god, and Nagant losing anticlimactically only to be immediately blown up because girl characters in BnHA can only be cool for one fight and one fight only, there are still some people who are focusing solely on the âhow dare Hawks get his wings back when he is a MURDERER this is an outrage what about CONSEQUENCESâ discourse, and to hell with all the other discourses lmao
anyway, so yeah. wow. and now itâs just occurring to me that maybe the real reason why Overhaul is there is so he can get a head start on that amend-making by actually doing a good thing for once in his life, and using his quirk to heal Nagant. assuming he can still do that
and so now Horikoshi has got me out here actually rooting for Overhaul. you know what, on that note I think Iâm just gonna go ahead and call it a day sob
#bnha 315#overhaul#chisaki kai#lady nagant#midoriya izuku#all for one#bnha#boku no hero academia#bnha spoilers#mha spoilers#bnha manga spoilers#makeste reads bnha
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Lestat next episode âsheâs poisoning you against meââŠ..He beat Louis nearly to death and dropped him from the gotdamn sky, he poisoned himself. Nice to know though that Lestat considers it to be the equivalent of throwing a dish and doesnât see what the big deal is. Lestatâs dumb but not this stupid. Not sure what the writers are trying to do here because even after seeing Louisâ broken and mangled body he doesnât even blink and the preview makes it sound as though he doesnât even feel real remorse. Lestatâs a vicious little gremlin but you get the sense he truly loves Louis and Claudia and would never actually truly harm them, he wants them to stay so badly and I think even he would know that something like this is a point of no return. This Lestat has no love for Claudia and is just obsessed with Louis in the worst way possible. Iâm sad cause I love the characters, I love the actors and this all just felt so OOC. Also, people saying Lestatâs actions are just as bad as when Claudia tries to kill Lestat đ„Č
Sorry I know you donât watch the show but I had to vent lol
Actually I do, because I'm a fucking masochist. I AM done after today though.
I wanted to like it! Genuinely, I wanted to be proven wrong and I wanted to be having a good time along with three-fourths of fandom! Every week I would watch with my friends and wonder what's wrong with me, what am I not getting? I WANTED TO HAVE FUN TOO GODDAMN IT.
Didn't help that you got outright bullied for expressing the slightest bit of criticism around here lmao ïżŒmaybe that's what gave the impression that I don't watch it, since I did not have anything nice to say at all. ïżŒI tried making my own tag so people could just block THAT and I wouldn't be raining on anyone's parade, but it doesn't stop those who are committed to creeping on your page ïżŒ(hi babes) so ANYWAY
I mean... I AGREE. And I never saw Lestat in Samstat, and given how he swung in like Homelander in Episode 1, I just felt... but then also like... I DIDN'T WANT THIS!!!ïżŒ I still haven't regained full coherency as you can see, I'm gonna needïżŒ 3-5 business days at least.
Because Lestat did never and Lestat would never. I've said it many times with great affection: Lestat's an idiot but he ain't stupid.
This quote has been going around today, and I've been carrying it too to comfort my Loustat friends because the girlies are hurting in a bad, bad way (and tbh so am I):
Yet I couldn't hurt him. I couldn't even conceive of carrying out such awful, cowardly threats. I could never have brought harm to Claudia. Ah, to make something out of nothing, yes. To throw up the pieces to see how they will fall, yes. But vengeance. Ah, arid awful distasteful vengeance. What is it to me? ~ Lestat, TotBT
I can't envision AMC Hannibal/Homelander-Lestat as either IWTV-Lestat or TVL-onward Lestat. Plain and simple--it is an OC. They all are.
Even if AMC retcons it by the next episode, I just don't see any editorial justification for that to have happened on-screen without content warnings (yeah, I'm not going to let this one go). ïżŒ
We talk about exposition and the art of a narrative a lot and not to sound ignorant but... RJ, BRUH. I don't blame the actors! Actors don't make the decisions on set and Sam, Jacob, and Bailey killed it with what they were given. And I have given them their props since day one.
IDK I'm sorry for anyone who got hurt today, honestly! The Doctor prescribes reading your favourite hurt/comfort fics and scrolling through your emotional support fan artists. â„ïž
#you ask and hekate answers#it'll be okay#maybe not today and maybe not tomorrow#but it'll be okay ;-;#amc iwtv
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Reduce, Recycle, ⊠remove? â @reminiscingintherain
611 words / Zayn x Louis, Niall x Liam, Harry x Greg James
When someoneâs nicking recycling out of the rubbish bins, whoâs going to take them to task?
This fic is such a delightful nibblet of this authorâs writing! Their characterization is always so wonderful and how they manage to do it in so few words is a miracle!
Thereâs always been a Rainbow hanging over your head â Larryissocute / @jaanwangji
2.086 words / Harry x Louis
Louis sighs tugging at a loose thread on the edge of the blanket, "I dunno, really. I feel numb sort of, but that's okay 'cause I don't really wanna feel anything. Not now at least."
Or, they talk a little and that's progress.
This fic succeeds in being very sweet and sad at the same time: the perfect type of hurt/comfort for everyone who can sympathize with the characterâs situations. Kudos to the author for giving us a great addition to a series that handles Louisâ emotional breakdown and the effects it has both on him and Harry, who manages to be a supportive husband even through his own struggles. (Warnings: mentions of an emotional breakdown/emotional distress and implicit anxiety/panic attacks)
Can't Buy My Love, Can Buy Me Dinner â LadyAJ_13 / @ladyaj-13
9.615 words / Harry x Louis, Zayn x Liam
Is it ethical to accept a dinner date for the free food? And will you hate me when I go anyway?
Fact 1: Louis hates Harry Styles.
Fact 2: Louis is temporarily living off toast and spaghetti hoops.
Fact 3: ...Louis may be semi-accidentally dating his worst enemy.
This ficâs summary seems like such a fun and funny concept, and it is! But thereâs so much more to the fic than that. There is humor, but also friendship, angst, and self-discovery that all blend into a wonderful fic that leaves you smiling in the end. (Warnings: recreational drug use, internalized homophobia)
Ironed out clouds â bunlou / @buniou (on Twitter)
4.095 words / Harry x Louis
Louis creates dreams. Harry creates nightmares. The two absolutely hate each other, until a little girl needs their help.
This fic has such an amazing premise and it really takes advantage of that. The universe itâs built in is incredibly interesting!
Chain of love â Blumeetsgreen
14.518 words / Harry x Louis
Louis jumps into Harryâs car breathless and tells him to keep driving.
This is such a beautifully written, melancholic fic. The author does a great job of making us feel Harry's feelings as well as writing a wonderful characterization of Louis' caring nature. (Warnings: depressive thoughts/depression.)
if honesty means telling you the truth (I'm still in love with you) â me_her_themoon / @bfjacketmybeloved
47.159 words / Harry x Louis
Harry is currently in some bar in London, sipping on some brand of whiskey, after Niall practically forced him out of the house because âitâs time for you to get some action, you lazy wanker.â
So, he finds himself here. Trapped between the bar and the back of some unknown person who he is not interested in in the slightest. He doesnât even think he wants a relationship after his last one, but maybe a fling if the situation calls for it.
This fic was written by a new author; they said that it is based on the album Heartbreak Weather by Niall Horan and it rings true because the reader is able to identify each song and feeling. This is a wonderful fic that will make you cry and laugh!
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If you canât get enough of our recs in this post, make sure to check out our tags page and scroll through the categories to see if you find any more fics you like! â FYMHM xx
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Attention deficit (pt. 1)
jujutsu kaisen
Characters: Itadori Yuji, Satoru Gojo, Megumi Fushiguro, Inumaki Toge, Sukuna RyĆmen, Nanami Kento, Suguru Geto
Warning: English isn't my native language!
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Itadori Yuji
Itadori in this situation acts, oddly enough, completely primitive. The less attention he sees from you, the more he tries to get him back. In other circumstances, this might even seem exaggerated, but here and now this is the most critical moment. What does he do? Yes, everything in a row: drops the book, turns its pages, rummages in the bag, humming softly to himself, and so on ... And all this continues until it comes to stroking the hips and lightly squeezing one palm, while the other rewrites the abstract ...
- I miss the old y/n. - he gives out with sadness in his eyes.
At this moment, the game of interest begins: you feel how simultaneously there is a feeling of spontaneous and purposeful manipulation, how you are gently and imperceptibly pushed towards the long-awaited goal.
In such a situation, one could easily succumb, but you, resisting this, answer:
- Yuji, I'm very busy right now.
It would seem that a strong guy fights curses, trains with the strongest shamans, but with ordinary words it is so easy to break.
It's hard for you to realize that right now he is depressed because of you. It's unusual to see a sad Yuji almost always smiling and making others do the same. Especially you.
And so you compromise, intertwining your fingers, frowning slightly and pretending to listen to something inside yourself ... After that, Yuji remains in this position for a long time, as if afraid to frighten you off, because now such closeness between you is too valuable to miss out.
Satoru Gojo
It turns out that sometimes even acting like a fool doesn't help you pay attention to Gojo. First, the way you constantly focus on the same thing, so that the words in your speech get confused, takes on a comic character, and he comes to the idea that, for no reason, for no reason, you decided that work is more important to you than himself. Then you stop paying attention to him altogether. You no longer look at him from under your brows, do not frown at the idiotic jokes with which he is trying to distract you, as it was yesterday. Satoru notices that you are much smaller. He is puzzled and even confused. Finally, it occurs to him that you just have nothing to do, and comes up with the craziest idea to entertain you.
- What are you doing? - a voice of a man sounded nearby, who had been watching you with interest for some time.
There was no answer. However, it is not surprising.
- Okay, okay, you don't have to answer... - He looked away.
This was his usual technique. After asking several meaningless questions, he suddenly fell silent, as if giving you the opportunity to think over the answer properly, and he himself imperceptibly removed, leaving you in complete confusion. But this time, due to the circumstances, the technique had to be slightly changed.
In the next moment, he was already pressing you to him and, taking advantage of this, with his other hand began to explore the curves of your body. The reaction was as if you were doused with boiling water or doused with cold water.
- What are you doing? - You asked in a trembling voice.
- Checking to see if you got fat after we lost sex. - still clinging to you, he answered. You were taken aback and began to push him away from you.
- I have not grown fat, let me go! You barked, feeling his arms tighten. - Let go! Fool! Let go!
Hands rested on your back, and he began to rock you slowly, stretching the moment when you finally stop resisting.
- It's okay, y/n. You just need to calm down. - he whispered, not hearing your words.
There is a mess in my head, the goal of your resistance has fled somewhere, and you start desperately hugging the man while he grins at the fact that he managed to do what he wanted.
Megumi Fushiguro
Megumi is not one of those who will behave like a child, attracting attention to herself when you do not even know the reason for her loss. He will speak to you as soon as he notices it.
- Do you want to talk about it?
You rub your eyes with fatigue, but you shouldn't ignore Fushiguro's question, because it concerns the two of you. No matter how serious his intentions are, he will always be there to remind you that you can talk to him about what worries you.
- I... will hardly give any good advice, but I will try to make it easier for you after the conversation. Megumi continues after a minute of your silence.
Even such a seemingly small detail as being able to talk to someone else significantly reduces stress and other not-so-good emotions. And the guy knows it.
- You can always count on my help. - already with a drop of confidence he says, and it's like the touch of a soft, pleasant hand on your shoulder. Of course, he does this primarily because he is worried, but this is only a secret cover for the fact that he is upset that you turned away from him, without noticing the real reason.
"Fushiguro, if I do this, I don't know... I... will feel like this..." The words elude you. Itâs hard to even think about what youâll say next.
The guy spreads his arms to give you room to hug and apologize, but you just put your head on his shoulder. You don't want to talk about anything else. The chest against which your head is pressed turns into a pillow. And then a quiet voice is heard:
- I'm not mad at you. You can stay here as long as you like.
But here you won't need anything as long as Fushiguro is around.
Inumaki Toge
Not surprisingly, the first thought that comes to him is "it's all because of the damned speech."
Does he talk to you too little? Maybe he is too quiet and invisible for you? Perhaps you are afraid that someday he will take control of you? From such questions echoing in my head, my jaws come together and a lump appears in my throat. But the worst thing is that Toge begins to doubt his right to meet with you, because he cannot even talk to you with dignity, as a person to a person. Even your sweet persistence, which sometimes breaks through the boundaries of ordinary attempts to turn the conversation back on track, does not help. As a result, when it comes to your attention deficit, he begins to think that all this time you did not notice him, as if he was one of those whom you forgot on the first day.
- Okaka? - the young man has been trying to attract your attention with his eyes for a long time, but it seems that even words cannot help.
- Sorry, Toge. I'm not in the mood today...
The guy was actually a perfectionist and would rather have your smile shine every day. I wish he could turn back time right now, scroll to the moment when something went wrong and fix it at any cost.
Inumaki tucked a lock of your hair behind his ear to see your face behind it. He knew you had flawless skin and plump, sensual lips. He would admire your face for hours.
The next second, the blond rested his head on your lap, looking into your eyes. You liked such cute things from him. They weren't vulgar or inappropriate. They were what she needed.
You smile faintly and stroke the hair on the back of his head, touching his cheek with your fingertips.
Sukuna RyĆmen
This is the case when Sukuna uses passive aggression. Slightly wrong, some small sign of ignorance - his speech turns into direct pressure on your relationship with him. He can really hurt you a lot if you don't appreciate his efforts to make you even a little happier. Most often they are small and insignificant, the kind that anyone would do, but for the King of Curses, this is really something grandiose. And since he has many ways to destroy your relationship, if you think he made a mistake, remember how it hurts him.
- Will you ignore me again? - Sukun asked with imperious anger, the last pieces of despair were dying in his soul. - And where is your mercy? If I have become disgusting to you, why do you continue to need me?
There was nothing to answer. It was not pride that tormented him at all, but an ever-deeper regret that with your equanimity you just caused another outbreak of rage in him. Most of all, the thought that you, perhaps, does not even notice it, and your eyes clouded with pain glide over something that is very dear to him, terrified him.
The dead silence continued, and my chest ached more and more. Then there was a soft groan:
- Y/n, I love you.
Tears ran down your cheeks, but did not brush them away with my hand. You knew it wasn't going to help. Bitter emotions generated by the word "love" are not able to be burned out on the face, like the sun on clay. You can't stop feeling. And all the same, looking at you was as painful as seeing your motionless glazed gaze.
He hugged you from the back as soon as he felt that you were repenting. Like the time you forgave him for calling you your own. He had strong hands - you can be sure. He was very gentle. You felt less pain. Maybe in the future it will be difficult for him to remember this, but now he tightly squeezed you in his arms and was so affectionate that you wanted him to never let you go.
Nanami Kento
He begins to suspect that something is wrong very early. First, morning kisses disappeared somewhere before leaving for work, then sincere conversations at the table, and then completely short meetings with glances. Moreover, the last remnants of intimacy are gone. Nanami began to think that something had happened to you. He always tried to protect you from any problems. And so you found yourself right in front of him, so closed and detached, he could not so easily take away the comfort and peace that he had been creating for so long and skillfully. And first of all, of course, he will lend you a helping hand to make it easier for you as quickly as possible.
A perplexed look will appear from under dark eyelashes after a man touches your forehead with his palm. It seems that the whole thing is not about health.
- You don't have a fever. He began.
- I know, thanks.
But Kento was clearly hinting at something.
- So what's up? - then you know what Nanami means. But she said nothing.
- Y/n, I do not want to impose anything on you, I just need to know what is happening to you so that our relationship with you does not suddenly go downhill.
The man took your hand and brought it to his lips. Nanami felt that if he said something now, he would commit tactlessness. And so he was silent, waiting for your answer.
- Sorry... - Tears began to burn my eyes. - I am very, very ashamed. I... it's just hard for me now, but it will pass by itself. I'm sure.
You pressed as tightly as possible to the man, hugged him and buried your face in the chest. He put his hand on your head encouragingly. I already didn't care about the problem as a whole. Now for you there was only what you felt - his soft stroking, the smell of a strong male body, warmth and care, and there was nothing but that.
Suguru Geto
He will take it calmly, without intention. But she won't ignore it. Often he will offer tea or something else, just to get at least one word out of you, in an attempt to bring you into conversation. He will not touch you without asking, because he knows about the value of personal space. And yet, for a while, it can fiddle with spontaneous statements in order to simply take away the soul and break a long silence.
- I see your day is going well... - Geto smiles with restraint. - Lots of news for me?
Guessing that he is once again trying to create a dialogue between you was almost nothing. But you are, of course, silent.
- I see. - Suguru sits down next to you, as close to your side as possible, not giving a damn if you don't like it.
- Maybe I offended you in some way? - he continues. - Or are you just not too open in your thoughts?
- Nothing. It's okay. - you throw.
- But it seems to me that no. - he takes your hand in his, as if trying to make you smile. âI think you have something to tell me, donât you? He raises his eyebrows, expecting your reaction. Instead of answering, you grimace with a shrug. Suguru repeats the question:
- So what happened? Why don't you want to share your thoughts with me?
- What would you like? You ask. - Would you be happy to know that there is a perfect girl with great manners, beautiful and intelligent, whom you deserve?
To be honest, Suguru did not expect such an answer. You can see that he is a little dumbfounded, but quickly comes to his senses. And then he starts laughing - so sweet and sincere that you start to feel embarrassed and blush with shame.
- And I was already expecting something more terrible. He laughs. - Okay, be it your way. I'm not a particularly sentimental person. I do not know what to say.
- Tell me you feel terribly in love. - grabbing his wrist, you say.
The brunette makes a startled face again. But you do not retreat - you hold him for a few more seconds, forcing him to surrender. - Only from the bottom of my heart ...
- Y/n, I feel terribly in love with you and will never fall in love again next time. So? He asked, grinning.
Wiping away the tears of happiness, you hugged him without words, while he, hugging you with one hand, exhaled with relief.
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Love Song; Corbyn Besson
description: yeah just some good olâ friends to lovers đ
Your face clenched up as the nurse swabbed your nose. The urge to sneeze came over when she tugged it out, and you quickly pulled up your mask. After a round of watery eyes and the oddest facial expression, the sneeze subsided.
âThank you,â you told her, a laugh dancing at the edge of you tone.
Her eyes crinkled, showing the smile beneath her mask. âYouâre welcome. Itâll just be a minute.â
You stood from the chair, plopping down beside Zach on the couch. He was playing on his phone, but looked up when he noticed your presence.
âHurts, doesnât it?â He watched your hand rub at your nose over the mask.
âUh, yeah,â you chuckled.
Zach went back to his phone and you unlocked your own, crossing a leg over the other. Soon, his name was called and he snapped off his mask. Negative.
Daniel replaced Zach in the seat beside you. You bid him hello and he said, âHey. How are you today?â
âWas doing fine before I had to have a stick in my nose,â you giggled.
Daniel laughed as well. âYeah, but whatever we have to do to get to celebrate.â
âNew normal,â you nodded.
âY/N!â The other nurse called out from her clipboard.
You flashed your eyebrows at Daniel and stood from the couch. Slipping your phone into your butt pocket, you walked over to the table.
âYou are negative, my dear. Weâre having everyone who has already been tested to stay in the kitchen.â
You took the packet of your information from the nurse, thanked them again, and joined Zach, Corbyn, and Christian in the kitchen. You slipped the pink mask in your jean jacket pocket as you took the empty bar stool next to Christian.
âHey, guys,â you greeted.
Corbyn perked up at the sound of your voice, peaking up from his phone. He was directly across from you, leaning his chin against the ball of his palm. You glanced around at the boys, meeting his eyes over the top of his phone.
âHey, Y/N, when did you get here?â Christian spoke, drawing your eyes away from Corbyn.
You cleared your throat and folded your hands in your lap. They were clammy now, budding heat throughout your face. His eyes.
âLike ten minutes ago. I said I was here in the group chat,â you reminded Christian.
He shrugged, âI donât really pay attention.â
âRip,â you laughed.
Zach and Christian went back to their conversation about the album, the only valid topic of interest for the night ahead.
You glanced back over at Corbyn, who had shifted so he could pretend like he hadnât blushed at your presence. You sat there for a moment, contemplating saying anything at all. Ultimately you settled on tugging out your phone again.
You leaned on the counter, scrolling through peopleâs Instagram stories. You swiped past Why Donât Weâs shared page and fell on Corbynâs. It was a selfie, one he took mere moments before you sat down. You flushed red, eyes gently lifting to take in how he looked right now.
His eyes.
You forced an awkward smile at the awkward eye contact, feeling...awkward.
You looked back down at your phone. It seems everyone of the boyâs friends and family members had posted about the album. Except you. You felt slightly guilty, voicing your concerns to the boys before you. Jonah and Daniel had since joined you guys in the kitchen, talking with Christian and Zach.
âNo worries, Y/N. I mean, youâre here,â Jonah shrugged it off.
Zach added, âYeah, but if you wanna post something go ahead.
âWhy donât we just take a selfie or something?â Daniel suggested, tipping his water bottle towards the phone in your hand.
âOh, yeah. Thatâs good. I know it doesnât matter, but I really want you guys to get number 1 on the charts,â you grinned sheepishly.
Jack appeared beside you, slinging on arm around your shoulder. You noticed Corbyn shift again, gulping and eyeing Jackâs arm.
âOh, we will, Y/N, we will,â he winked at you.
You laughed loudly at his expression. âI believe in you, Jack Avery.â
He squeezed your shoulder. Everybody moved to stand around you, Corbyn ending up too far away. You tried to see where it was he was standing, just because you felt comfortable being able to see him, seeing you. But you couldnât.
You were attempting to hold the phone out far enough to get everyone in frame, but your arm wasnât long enough. Everybody laughed at your struggle. Jonah took the phone from you and angled it at the group. He snapped the photo and everyone dispersed.
Jonah ended up in the seat across from you, Zach next to him where he had been. Daniel, Jack, and Christian decided to start pouring drinks, since it was nearing 11 pm. Corbyn stood there for a minute, contemplating running off the edge of the world.
He settled in the seat beside you which drew your attention from your phone. You had been captioning the Instagram post, struggling to come up with something interesting.
âHey, Corbyn,â you weakly smiled.
He smiled. âHey.â His voice made your knees weak.
You flashed the screen at him, pushing down the red blush willing itself to paint your face. âWhat do you think I should caption it?â
âI donât know,â he let out a breathy laugh, âuh, maybe a joke. Like, track 4 was written about me.â
You shared a laugh with him, happy nothing felt stuffed of weird energy for even a mere few minutes of conversation.
âThat would be really funny, but probably cause some drama. How about, like, âdibs on Love Song?â Because I genuinely feel like that ones gonna be so good.â
Corbyn gulped, âI wrote that one with Daniel.â
âOh,â you breathed. âThen, I call it.â
Red cheeks all around.
You quickly posted it. Soon, the room was engulfed with music, the 3 singles the boys had released filling the air. There was a single camera on the band, standing around the kitchen island you had once been sitting at.
You stood to the side with Anna and Kay, a glass of champagne in your hand. You had since abandoned your Jean jacket, revealing the flowery, thin strapped corset that left your midrif out in the open. You felt really hot, be it because of the outfit, your sparse interactions with Corbyn, or the alcohol beginning to take hold of your bones.
See, there was something there with Corbyn, something nobody really even knew about. In fact, you didnât even know if Corbyn himself remembered.
You had been good friends with the entire band since they moved to LA, attending concerts when you werenât in school and hanging out constantly. Of course, as any pathetic pining story went, youâd been in love with Corbyn since youâd met him, but his heart had always belonged to Christina.
When you discovered they broke up, you felt elated for half a second. Then, he called you in tears.
âI know weâre not expectionally close, but I need somebody. The guys, they just donât understand.l
Since that moment, you guys had been attached at the hip. Quarantine had been boring at first, terrifying, even. But, then youâd begun to spend every waking moment with Corbyn. You were the one who suggested he dye his hair black, had helped him do it. youâd gone with him when the tattoo shops opened again and helped him pick which one looked best. Youâd helped them move into their new house, helped Corbyn decorate his new space. Hell, youâd even suggested a song lyric or two when laying on Corbynâs bed, listening to him across the room on his guitar.
And then, on your birthday a few months ago, you had gotten exceptionally drunk to drown the sorrows of lusting after your best friend. When the clock struck midnight, Corbyn had already hauled down a taxi from the bar, slung your arm around his neck, cradling your waist as he tried to get you inside.
Out of nowhere, the sky began pouring buckets of rain. You fell against his chest, laughing hysterically at the ironically cliche moment. Corbyn somehow nuzzled his nose into your neck, giggling along with your drunken haze.
You pulled back gently, the closeness emitting a fierce confidence in your gut which enabled you to lean up and kiss him. He kissed you back, but when he remembered how drunk you were, he tugged away.
âI canât do this,â he urged, but you mistook his respect for consent as rejection.
You mumbled, âBut Iâm in love with you.â
You didnât remember for a few days after, what had happened that night. All you knew was you had woken up in Corbynâs bed, his clothes on you, a headache in your head, and your dress soaking wet over the bathtub.
Then, a few days later, when you were perched on Corbynâs bed, watching an episode of Big Mouth, he made a joke about how, âin love you are with,â him. Your eyes widened, breath hitched, and a memory pulled itself from your brain. You suddenly stood up, his arm dropping to the comforter since it had been around your shoulders.
You made some excuse about homework, though you both knew you had finished your finals the night prior. Since then, neither of you had really spoken at all.
You clenched the champagne glass between your fingers, turning them white from frustration. You felt a hand on your shoulder, turning towards Anna.
âEverything okay?â She glanced between your eyes, noticing the tears welled up there.
You sniffled and blinked the tears away. One dribbled down your cheek. You quickly wiped it away. Annaâs bottom lip jutted out in a pitiful expression and she pulled you into a hug. You wanted to collapse into her, sobbing your way through the albumâs release. But, you squeezed your face shut and grabbed the composure that was running away from you.
âIâm gonna go to the bathroom,â you tugged back and set your glass on the table beside you. You quickly strode to the bathroom, shutting it behind you.
You wiped under your eyes with a wet cloth, salvaging your eye makeup. Your eyes were still red, though, red and pupils blown up in a sad countenance.
There was a knock on the door and you tensed up. Danielâs voice came from the other side of the door, soft and sweet.
âY/N? Can I come in?â
You already knew he had seen you crying on Anna, and probably watched you storm away as quietly as one could when they were this upset. You were taking him away from his night and that made you feel just horrible.
âYeah,â your voice was weak.
Daniel gently opened the door. He didnât try to hug you or tell it was going to be okay. Instead, he cradled your face in his head, pushing the hair back from your cheeks.
âI know. You donât have to explain or try to push me away. I just know. All I can give is the fact that we wrote these songs about our lives. These songs are personal.â
You met his eyes, swimming in the undemanding answers he was laying in front of you. âWhat do you mean?â
He gave a warm smile, âCorbyn got really good at songwriting. Just listen.â
You hugged Daniel quickly before shutting off the light. He slung his arm around your shoulders, guiding you back to the kitchen. Everyone counted down for midnight and soon enough, the new songs were blasting through the kitchen.
You anticipated Love Song through the entirety of Be Myself, barely paying any attention to the song that you knew Daniel wrote exclusively by himself. Soon, Danielâs voice was dancing through the speakers in an upbeat rhythm, singing the literal love song.
Right after, Corbynâs voice came again.
âYou came out of nowhere like a hurricane.â
You perked up, holding yourself together with your arms. Daniel caught your eyes and nodded firmly. Your eyes flickered across the room and met Corbynâs. Heâd been watching you for a while, you settled. Though his band mates and friends were dancing around the kitchen, he was solemnly drinking his own champagne. His hair was damp from the bottle Jonah had cracked open at midnight.
âPulled me in and kissed me in the rain. And I fell for you.â
Your breath caught in your throat. You found his eyes again, your face bright red. An overwhelming grin came over you. Corbyn smiled in response, a dry chuckle shaking his shoulders. He shook his head, finally relieved.
You set down your glass again, tapping Anna on the shoulder. âIâll be back, k?â
She squeezed your shoulder again, still feeling sympathetic. You looked to Corbyn and nodded towards the back door.
You slipped outside, taking a seat on one of the pool chairs. It was dark outside, only the light from the kitchen washing through the glass sliding doors.
You heard the doors open and close again, looking up from your shoes. You stood up, breathing in deeply. Corbyn stopped in front of you, fingers squeezing each other.
You nervously smiled up at him. âSo...â you ached, âso, um, I guess I really did call track 4.â
Corbyn laughed, his hands coming around to your back. He pushed you into his chest, yours going up around his neck.
âYeah,â his face drew back, âand it was about you.â
You grinned, pursing your lips to try and push it down. But, you were tired of pushing it all down, so you let your lips widen before landing themselves on Corbynâs.
âYou could be the one, girl youâre driving me crazy.â
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