#you know youve got a good one when you go a little feral every time you think about writing it

[senespera4]

I love how every single person to who I've talked about Frederick and Arthur's story in Project C has been like

[kazuhasbunny]

ok idk if this is yr thing but. hear me out. razor with a gf (dats u) thats one of those little catgirl characters, and u go into heat every spring for a few weeks and just get so slick and needy everyday that hes just on a constant clock of having to fuck u until yr full and satiated until the next day when they gotta do it again. like when yr in heat u just produces so much slick and desperately need an outlet for it but he likes to tease u yknow, hes a mean little puppy, so he'll just rub his cock up against yr pussy but wont slide it in until it gets to the pt where yr almost crying begging for him to fuck u as hard as possible, u just need it so bad it almost hurts and when he finally pounds into u for like an hour, like youve cum all over him and its dripping out but its gotten him so horn knee he keeps fucking u even after the rut is over ❤

or 👀 razor but hes an actual wolf boy and he goes into heat every year for a few weeks, hes only ever gone into heat 2 or 3 times before but this is the first time hes had a partner w a little pussy to help him thru it so he just goes absolutely feral rutting into you as hard as he can. his claws r digging into yr thighs and yr neck and his teeth are bared, hes snarling but hes not angry, no, yr pussy just feels so good he doesnt know what else to do but just fuck you over and over and over again until youve cum countless times on him and hes pumped u full of himself and when hes finally done and he pulls out of u hes just so loving and apologetic-- he'll kiss u so softly and run his big hooked claws over yr thighs and yr soft bruised body ❤ but then he looks down and he sees yr legs r still open and his cum is still dripping out of u, yr pussy is so blushy and abused that it just starts him over again and his eyesight gets blurry and aw shit, here we go again

wolfboy razor in heat but his partner is too tiny for him to fit in at first, so hes gotta restrain himself and pump his cock to get off with one hand but the other hand is fingers deep into their pussy to get them loose and slick for him, then he just grabs their hips and slides his shaft between their folds to tease a lil bit, then boom hes forced it in all at once and the feeling of such a tight pressure squeezing around him almost makes him cum without even fucking them thoroughly-- his partners squeals and begs to slow down bc it almost hurts too much just make him even more lost in it and even more desperate to get off. he tries to apologize for the rough entry but he can barely focus on anything else but his instinct to breed them full so he rubs the little nub on the top of their stretched open entrance and uses his clawed hand to pull their folds open for easier in and out fucking

(wolfboy razor in heat cont.) at some point hes bred them so full the area below their bellybutton is almost slightly inflated w cum and he can see the shape of his cock showing thru, so he finally pulls out and releases his last load onto their abused red folds and gently fingers them/caresses their entrance to help them ride thru the aftershocks while his seed is still dripping out of them in ropes. his partner is exhausted and their eyes r shimmery w unshed tears after his rough fucking but when he kisses their neck and leaves gentle little nips on their throat and kisses them so much their lips turn as red and puffy as their clit its all worth it. heres hoping theyve got some plan b bc hes gonna be doing this for weeks, (unless they wanna be full of his pups and finish his heat early)-- but only after hes waited for their pussy to recover, yknow he always leaves them painfully sore yet satisfied so hes gotta wait b4 he can enter again and continue the cycle

of course, if they dont wanna let him abuse their pussy too much, hes always down for just laying back w his cock out so his partner can slide their mouth down onto him and let him grab onto their soft hair to face fuck em 👀 bc ive had a lotta thoughts abt razor w a thing for blowjobs

(okay since im on pc rn im gonna answer asks that are prolly from same anon thats like , long)

okay but .. bj with razor though .. just showing him that there's other ways to show how to please him ... since your pussy is definetly gonna be abused by the end of the day due to so much fucking ... him just using your mouth as a fleshlight and throatfucks you surely leaving you with a sore throat next morning .,, hmmmh this . the . im . hsdsnsmndmsndmnsmnm

[wayfaring-cryptid]

@chipper-smol for the art and au

Another little fic idea stuck in my head after a long day at work

Faint little tapping of a bug on a mission echos throughout the halls. The servants say nothing just look as the hurried bug passes. A small vessel once thought feral holds several papers in his hands carefully. They would have stored them away but he wanted to show the queen as soon as possible. He had been working on his skill with a quill. His writing and drawings still not the best but much better than when he started! They can keep the letters in a line and they are more neat but still messy compared to those who have spent more time on writing. The papers held some new motions he thought of so they could speak with their hands! Things like, sorry, hurt, need, confused, and tired. Simple but they would help so much. So black feet skidded down the pure white halls as they tracked their mother. Sadly there was a meeting going on that had the dreamers and both pale beings... sad for them that is. Ghost cared little and threw that fancy door open with flair he learned from grimm. The king all but growled at them, monnomon looked curious, lurien was irked, herrah eager for their tricks, and the lady.. was calm. Ghost ignored nearly all of them and clambered onto the table and ran to their mother. The queen raised her hand when the vessel drew close and chuckled.

"I think my wyrm and i would prefer you use the floor." And she held out her hands.

Ghost nodded and carefully hopped onto the floor. The room was stunned silent. The feral vessel, who had been terrorizing the whole palace and its king... obeyed an order. The king was speachless as he looked to his root. The vessel put the papers in the pale queens lap and tapped them eagerly, wanting her to look at them. Bless her and her patience as the papers were delicately set upon the table and instead picked up ghost. She held the vessel in her lap and tipped their head up gently.

"Now child i know you are excited and i will look at what youve brought me but there are important things to discuss. You may stay if you behave." The pale lady spoke softly and the king expected the vessel to not listen and instead turn their attention to him.

Ghost simply nodded and signed "happy" before settling down. They snuggled up to their mother and looked at the shocked looks directed at them. With a simple wave of the roots hand they slowly got back to what the meeting was about. Ghost took upon himself to listen, learn new words if any, and see if there is any phrases they should find a sign for that will be useful in the future. They even gave their input on a few things with signs that only the queen knew, he got a few head pats, but soon grew bored. The meeting was long and boring! Their sleek shoulders sagged as they looked to herrah. How would they refer to them? This dissolved into the meeting derailing once more due to a vessel flapping its hands.

"What is it doing?" The teacher asked confused and curious. Was this a trick? A silly distraction to annoy the king? Or something more?

"Ghost and i learned they could communicate with their hands since they lack a voice. We have been working on writing and discovered it in their frustration. I assume they are making some new ones, am i right or wrong, child?" The queen explained and looked to the happy child in her lap.

Ghost nods eagerly, happy to be understood, and began to explain. Lurien's gesture was covering one eye, monomons was a bit rough. Their first though was their mask but settled on a book being opened. Seem good enough! Now herrahs they wanted to be nice, she was their sisters mother after all!! They tried to make a crown then a spider gesture... then "frustrated" as they thought it wasnt good enough. The king at first was furious, the vessels were meant to be hollow!! Not the be taught and coddled!! Then... he saw how happy his root was... those dazzling blue eyes gazing fondly at their child... how happy the vessel, ghost, was when it received attention from its mother. Maybe... he could be more lenient with the vessel?

"And... may i ask what my... hand move.. would be?" The king asked as he kept his tone calm and looked at his root and child.

At first ghost seemed... shy? They looked up at their mother for help and got a nod. Shoulders heaving with a deep breath they showed their father what the queens was. Then they used both hands to form a butterfly but spread their fingers out for six wings and held it high. They made the little symbol that was often seen around the entire kingdom for their father.

The king was touched and hummed softly before speaking. "I see.. Sweet root later i wish to see... the rest of these. If it keeps the vessel calm then i shall learn what they seem to have to say." Sneaky king speak for "what have you taught and learned with our chill?"

The pale lady nods and places her hand on her wyrms with loving eyes. Ghost was shook, they expected a far different reaction from someone who wanted them empty. It... was a change but one they will welcome...

Theyre still gunna fuck shit up of course but he ain't gotta know that

[Well that was quite the feat! More than i planned but im glad to get it out since every liked the last one! Im also posting it to AO3 just like @chipper-smol has started to do with theirs!]

[letsfluxshitup]

Okay I have slept and am signifcantly more coherent so! I do have more thoughts on the fic :] ik I should probably just comment these.... ON the fic.... but you know I’m already in this ask box so really I might as well just chill out here

I forgot to talk about it last night but I do like the mentioning of the whole Schlatt resurrection arc thing and the way it’s handled with these specific characters? Narratively you could have made Techno like ‘wait what no. don’t do that’ but in reality he WOULDN’T. It’s true that all everyone (w/ a couple exceptions) does is dictate what he’s supposed to do for them, or he gets manipulated into it, and I imagine that would be exhausting after awhile! And even IF resurrecting a dictator is, like, an objectively bad decision on Quacks’ part, it’s still his decision, isn’t it? Techno going off w/ Phil and not really siding with anyone else is a conscious decision on his part, and while it’s not like. Super explored in the fic I imagine Quackity has issues w/ his own level of control as well? Like, clearly he’s used to being bossed around for everything he does, and he wants Techno to be like Schlatt in the sense that he tells him exactly what he’s *supposed* to do, but the fact that Big Q is under the assumption that there’s an action he’s ‘supposed’ to take is flawed in the first place. This ramble got out of hand sorry I just LOVE how u portrayed this

‘“Oh? Quackity?” Philza paused, before whispering, “ The loud one with the messy wings? ”’ MDNDKDKD I LOVE U PHIL..... honestly the fact that Techno actively talks about Quackity to his dad is <3 but the fact that his biggest takeaway FROM Techno talking abt him is that he’s loud and his wings are a mess is even BIGGER <333 Techno why would you do Quackity like that

I’d LOVE to see more Philza and Quackity moments,, their dynamic is so fun (tho in a different way than Techno n Quackity’s) is and it makes me smile to read back over their stuff :] I love how Phil does get a significant amt of fun in fucking with Big Q (truly, like father like son) but still very clearly approves of him as a person? Like, I imagine Quackity isn’t really all that sure how Phil feels about him. ‘I’m pretty sure your dad hates me, dude.’ ‘What are you talking about?’ Techno asks, bewildered, ‘I’ve never seen him obviously like anyone this fast.’ Like, Phil would make it pretty obvious if he didn’t, I think? The man can be much scarier than what Quackers got rly it’s a blessing. I could probably rant abt their dynamic more but I’m a sane person I promise lol </3

Small thing but honestly with the way Techno clearly constantly takes care of Big Q’s wings for him bc he’d prefer to do it himself and then PHIL doing it I’m starting 2 think Quackity just. Doesn’t know how to groom his own wings. Like Techno he’s not a baby bird he should do it himself. But also... I care them :,] the fact that Techno can take care of Q’s wings and Quackity can braid Techno’s hair and they trust each other w/ that... I know the reasons for it are obvious bc Quackity trusts easily and Techno clearly doesn’t see Big Q as someone who could be a threat but it’s still making me soft,,

The little impromptu therapy make-up session was a rly good display of both of their characters :] Quackity’s awful at handling like, any tension whatsoever with anyone so him taking way less than a day to go ‘hhhrhdh can we talk it out’ even tho he hates talking about feelings? Like he’s making an attempt at maturity and Techno’s going w/ it even thi neither of them are really comfortable with all that :] they value their friendship sm no one talk to me

Also I agree w/ u on the Techno characterization thing! Techno can definitely do jokes and drop the serious murder man act every once in awhile but the way he plays his character is v like. Blunt in everything. He doesn’t rly lash out, his ideals are consistent, and even when he’s planning chaotic attacks on other people nothing abt the way he acts really changes it’s just,, Techno but you should probably run away rn. His personality rly should be given more kudos it’s lovely

This didn’t rly fit anywhere else in the ramble but I do love how clearly nervous the ppl in Techno’s family make Quackity. Like, it’s a little different w/ Tommy n Tubbo but they’re also? Literal children? And even Tommy has that ‘tall scary child’ vibe abt him whenever he gets worked up LMAO Like, you have Mr. Blade, who is very strong and could DEFINITELY kill you if he wanted to, Wilbur, who is a dramatic theatre kid but once he goes off the deep end it’s like. You might be able to take him in a fight but if he wants you dead he REALLY wants you dead, and Phil, who the other two clearly got the feral part of their personalities from and somehow manages to be even scarier despite the fact that he’s an all-around polite guy. Quackity is just a normal anxious dude can he please go five minutes w/o coming face-to-face with another generally terrifying figure in his life who could kill him easily but won’t bc he’s so small?? I love them :] u rly do have a good eye for dynamics!

Also I’m proud of u for sleeping the normal 8 hours!! But Xena :pensive: ma’am please get some rest it’s very important >:[

- Saturn 🪐

,mjxcnvm,vxnvfkdjf ilysm i love getting your thoughts heart FULL

- IM GLAD THE ‘BEING TOLD WHAT TO DO’ PART CAME ACROSS WELL I WAS REALLY WORRIED I DIDNT ARTICULATE IT GOOD ENOUGH :D

- noone: -- Techno: is anyone gonna bully quackity-;; i didnt consider the implications of philza knowing quackity bc hes loud and needs his wings groomed but now that youve brought this to light im KDSFKJDSFDLSKFJDSLKJFDS

- ALSO I WAS REALLY WORRIED ABT THE PHILZA PARTS IDK IF I SAID THAT BEFORE ADDING HIM TO THE STORY WAS KIND OF A RANDOM DECISION ALSKDJFLKSDJ

xenas last comment was the nail in the coffin when it came to adding phil oh my god alsdjkflsdkjfslkdfj

- “ they value their friendship sm no one talk to me “ Y E S;;; idk im really into character dynamics thats like “listen we need to figure it out i cant live like this ok” also characters who are just Bad at talking about their feelings are Good and Important To Me LKDJFLSKJFDSLKJF

- “ his didn’t rly fit anywhere else in the ramble but I do love how clearly nervous the ppl in Techno’s family make Quackity. “ YOURE MAKING ME WANT TO WRITE MORE SBI FAMILY DYNAMICS WITH QUACKITY IM ALSKJFASLDKFSDLKFJSDFK IF YOU (or anyone) HAVE ANY THOUGHTS OR PROMPTS HIT ME THE FUCK UP

- “ u rly do have a good eye for dynamics! “

I TRY REALLY HARD OK;;; character relationships are like . priority number one for me and it makes my heart so incredibly full when people point out that they like my dynamics ok i try so hard--

also im devastated to announce that for some reason last night me and xena apparently switched sleep schedules, she slept for a reasonable amount of time and i slept for like four hours lkajdflksjfdlksdfjsdlkjf sometimes i wake up at 5am and my brain refuses to let me sleep again </3

[gogoakechi]

12 21 and 25 for the luv asks!

thank you damien you always come through for me

12. what would be your ideal date?

not like ive been Thinking about it or anything but it would be pretty Great and Nice to spend halloween together. we could go to my aunt and uncles, like i do every year, and walk through the neighborhood looking at all the decorations. i guess itd be kinda weird meeting my family but i always feel Lonely at family gatherings and wish i had someone to connect with beside me. itd be nice to just take a walk, existing in each others presence, and go on this chill adventure through probably one of the fucking Busiest neighborhoods in town. so many houses go absolutely wild and theres always a ton of people out. and then when were done being away from home we can go back to my place and watch a movie or trade candy or try some weird ritual or something. im a satanist so ive got Special Stuff i hope to do on halloween night so if they wanna sit in thats Very Cool but if not they dont have to stay for it. i guess its just my equivalent of wanting to spend christmas together.

21. what is your favorite quote or lyric about love?

okay so i wanna say Two ill do a quote and a lyric

bringing back a song i mentioned earlier, those rusty drums, these my favourite lyrics about love just from what i can remember at the moment:

“And the human heart is the hardest partThe softest spot for the sharpest dartBut nothing, and I mean nothing, willFeel as real as when it's filled”

and then my favourite quote, again, from what i can remember, Also comes from something i mentioned earlier. its a weird kind of romantic comedy called juno and ive seen it like 46 times:

“The best thing you can do is find a person who loves you for exactly what you are. Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what have you. The right person is still gonna think the sun shines out of you ass.”

juno has countless incredible and meaningful pieces of dialogue but that one gets me every time. ill admit the movie itself has some. Problems. but if youve ever got the time i highly recommend you watch it i Always cry

25. if you could date a celebrity, who would it be?

brian david gilbert it can only be brian david gilbert. have you seen him? have you listened to him? hes cute funny makes music and a little bit feral. celebrity crushes are weird and often bad but Dare I Say i have the vague hint of one. he is the love of my life. he is my ideal man. i know hes just another human being like any of us and what i experience of him is only his public presence but I Love You Brian David Gilbert.

(terepy the movie voice) LETS TALK ROMANCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[neo-shitty]

toffee!

no dont apologise! i didnt check until just then so np :)

mmm yeah it is a bit trippy. hehe ITS TRUE THO. yeah sadly i think ur right, and tag blocking is probably a good idea. sometimes smut written well or not in excess is okay but goddamn when its abt 01 line and thats the whole fic... *silently blocks tags*

hehe i do that all the time lol this conversation is carrying on threads from a month ago :) mmm yeah ur probably right sadly, same. HA HE DIDNT HAVE A CHOICE and now i have someone to talk to abt them, so thats good! I KNOW felix was actually the one who got me into skz with his iconique gods menu line so i guess i have a soft spot for him. i always tell myself my bias is chan but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ guess im more whipped than id like to admit. mmm yeah that does make sense dw i hope they do that as well. YES king seungmin hIMSELF. GODDAMNIT DONT GET ME STARTED ON MINHO IN GODS MENU I DIDNT EVEN KNOW HE WAS PART OF THE GROUP UNTIL I STARTED GETTING MORE INTO THEM. BITCH (affectionate) THE LINE DISTRIBUTION HAS BEEN UTTER DOG SHIT but *deep breath* its better now so were moving on adn hoping it stays that way. sis same but i may or may not have gone thru a rlly depressed phase and actively sought out the elimination episodes so i could actually force some tears out of my emotionless shell of a heart but what cna you do? lmaoo i feel that irl, binnie deserves more vocal lines. yesss channies accent is rlly prominent then, i think also the way he structures his phrasing? is more english speaking than korean? but yeah i totally get what ur saying. AJKSAL lmao

okay then! im excited for whenever it gets done! (maybe tag me?) ahh the cold shrivelled heart of a dark au writer beats again at the thought of torturing another poor characters very soul (/j) :(( yeah that would suck not being able to see them. ohhh ur on the other hemisphere to me! were just going into spring rn. mmm smth to look forward to! YES you put it into words. they rlly are pretty independent from the company (remember how jyp rejected that other dudes songs after like 3 seconds and then how he was apparently nervous to show the song hed written to chan cos chan was so good at writing hits ahhh sweet revenge) mmmYES we rlly need a mute and remove notifications button for our brains dont we?

YES CORRECT i totally agree. some people jsut dont give it a try, adn assume its bad cos its korean smh racist assholes. yes! im coming up to my 6 month anniv actually! sis sAME, i feel like theyre being tugged into appealing to the western american market and theyre not staying as true to their artistic flair as a group, especially with only writing english songs atm. *sigh* ah well, at least theyre bringing recognition to the kpop world. AHUH dead on, theyre going to be discarded pretty soon and then where will bp be? theyll prob go solo paths which is rlly sad but what can you do when the company is run by a prideful asshole? yg is not going to last much longer in the big four if they keep this up.

hehe you get it. oooh very cool! whos ur ult? (sorry if youve said this before) mmmm yeah good decision, i feel liek thats probably a wise decision. this is my first album release as a kpop stan (not counting mixtape oh) so i think ill get it for sentiments sake. yeah! im excited for the new music! mingi was the one who got me into them, but atm my bias is seonghwa followed by san, wooyoung and ateez but jonghos high notes man *swoon* he, yeah atm ive got jake, jay, nikki, jungwon and sunoo down so just trying to get the rest :) heh, yeah kard i rlly only got into cos of bm, ive seen him like interacting with a lot of idols and he seemed nice so i decided to check out the group. ikr gunshot man *another swoon*

no noe! i didnt know what it was until i got it lol. thx toffee ill try and take that to mind :) yeah lol im on a waiting list thats not going to be free until late september so hopefully i can hold on until then. hope ur okay, that sounds like it sucks, hope you can find someone. maybe ill just take you along on my phone and the therapist can get a two for one patient deal lmaooo. mmm, sorry no i havent mentioned it before, i dont rlly talk abt it much. uhhh basically hypermobility? if you google it, it doesnt seem bad, jsut joint flexibility but ive got the severe end of the stick, leaning towards ehlers danlos syndrome so thats fun. basically it just makes it hard for me to exercise, run, jump, stand or just walk for long periods of time and gives me a lot of joint and muscle pain so... thats fun! but obviously so many other people have it worse than me, so i try not to complain. normally in young people it will improve as they get older, but my doctor said bc its severe in me, its unlikely to get much better. but again, i dont have the worst lot in the bunch, so its all g.

oh its good that its not the bad type of rain, a light sprinkling can be relaxing sometimes. aww thx darl, the concern is appreciated but it went pretty well and i managed not to cough too much on stage or kill myself trying to run around to the other side of the stage in the pouring rain so thats good! oooh tea buddies! my dogs a labradoodle, but shes a bit more of a feral poodle lol not much labrador in her at all, unless its her relentless urge to hunt down every bird that has ever walked this earth smh :((( hopefully they can come back on soon, does uni have dances?

ahhh a mood if i ever heard one. hopefully things will get better for you soon, ik anxiety sucks ass. ooh thats always good! when its sunny here, its always melt ur thongs to the pavement hot so the nicely cool sunny days are a lovely change. hehe impatience is not so good for you, but good for us that get to see ur beautiful theme early. ahh no worries, itll come eventually hopefully. and if not, then just things that make you not anxious are good. it doesnt have to be black or white, sometimes gray is good. mmmmm sames i have midterms this week to catch up on and then two weeks of end of terms so thats fun! i hope u can overcome that a little, heres some channie to be ur motivation https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a8LWyNjzOww. hah! i hear that all the time, he seems to be everywhere. did you see that tiktok of hans slowed back door rap, i stg it sounded EXACTLY like namjoon, it kinda scared me. also teh beginning of another day, sounds so much like joon i swear.

that reminds me! idk ur biases! i feel like this should be smth i should know so please! feel free to elaborate!

ahh im glad, i was worried it is. mmm same, so no hard feelings if either of us misses a day or smth. ill start worrying if weeks/months have gone by, but if its just a little while thats more than fine. ill just picture you studiously completing notes and i wont worry lol

<3 w.a. 🐺

at some point i really think i'm going to start blocking accounts because blocking tags won't be enough. i saw ask tags the other day and it just made me want to bleach my eyeballs.

i could talk about god's menu felix for hours man. the teaser for god's menu that featured his part on the bridge made me look forward to the mv release. you: biases chan, also you: lixiesbabyhands. yes you are more whipped than you think. i can't believe orange haired minho was given NOTHING during that era but they kind of made up for it in the b-sides. i also hope it stays that way. the distribution for this era was pretty fair.

"torturing another poor character's soul" in all honesty, i used to live for this. 2017 me leading up to early 2020 wrote nothing but angst. i have another aussie friend on twt and tbh i'm still really (O.o) about the seasons! jyp should be terrified skz could easily take over that company. heck if skz grow old and start their own company, they'd probably do a great job at running it. PLEASE. i have issues on muting/notifications both mentally and in real life. sometimes, i just wish to disappear.

some people in my country are just disgusting tbh. not only racist but homophobic too. they label kpop as 'gay' and it DISGUSTS me. it's a problematic behavior/mindset people in my country need to fucking get rid of. anyway, HELP ME 6 MONTHS??? and i've been in this shit for like a decade eye. tbh, i’m not fond of kpop groups trying to appeal to the western audience :// it feels like they’re losing their identity in a way. yes recognition but at what cost? yg has my favorite groups but that’s one shitty company when it comes to promoting.

okay my ult! it’s haechan from nct but i consider chan an ult too. like a close second above my whopping list of kpop boys. oh yes! you should get the album just for like a keepsake? remembrance? how did mingi appeal to you? omg did you start getting interested in ateez back when he was still on hiatus? NOT YOU BIASING THE SAME PEOPLE I DID WHEN I FIRST STARTED STANNING. the infamous ateez thot-line. jongho is easily one of the best fourth gen vocalists out here, no one can change my mind :( good luck with memorizing the rest of enhypen! just in time for the comeback too. i hope i’ll get into kard soon but i’m pretty content (and a tad bit overwhelmed) with the amount of groups i stan right now.

please hold on though, feel free to vent here if you like. thanks for the offer tho HAHA but like i’ll try to get checked here too when the cases die down a bit. i’m sorry to hear about your condition though :( please don’t ever overwork yourself to the point that your joints/muscles would ache. it’s completely valid to complain about it tho. i get that you have others in mind but keeping that mindset really doesn’t do you (like you internally) any better? so if you need to, vent your frustrations out and don’t keep it in.

oh my god, about your performance last sunday. was the stage out in the open? glad you didn’t cough too much and did well on your concert. i’m proud of you! i can never understand dogs and poor birds T_T uni doesn’t have dances unfortunately. i think there’s just one party at the end like a graduation ball. what year are you in anyway? if it’s something that you’re fine with sharing. if not, it’s cool.

good luck with your exams! and thanks for the link! AHA what a cutie. i think he does this motivation thing once in a while during his lives and it’s just comforting. yeah joon and han my irl just freaked when we made that discovery. ult crumbs for her. oh god not me forgetting about every biases when you asked. you can ask for my biases in a few groups just list down the one’s you’re interested in knowing. 

i missed yesterday because i was grinding and finishing what if we stay + school work. finally did it today. i’m sure i’ll reply in like a day or two, definitely not a month unless i state otherwise. if i ever decide to abandon this blog, i’ll let you know.

[bigbadwolf-16]

i had bonus thoughts about rahool and drifter so here they are

rahool and drifter arent dating but they could be in a world where drifter isnt an insane feral spaceman with rabies and heres the thing about that;

rahool knows it. hes intelligent and perceptive, he can see that theres something there, he knows how to tell when drifter likes someone and when hes playing games, but he can also see theyre so immensely different in some very critical ways that he knows it wouldnt work -- that doesnt stop him from casually looking the other way while drifter breaks rules, though and, hey, its been a long time since anyone's flirted with him even jokingly and he could use a little bit of harmless fun in his daily life.

because rahool is very. i dont want to say traditional? because that doesn't feel quite right, but if he were looking for a relationship with anyone, he would want stability and some level of sanity. something relaxed, something low stakes. hanging out with someone as unhinged as drifter is fun and, dont get him wrong, drifter is fascinating, but being friends with a nutjob and being in a relationship with one are two completely different levels of intensity. if youre friends with someone crazy, its easier to tap out of an insane adventure and be like no. nope, this is where i get off, good luck with that thing youre doing. and when youre dating one, the expectation to be there extends beyond the initial headcount when you get on the bus; its more intimate, its more personal, and rahool doesnt excel in intimacy. he doesnt have time for it, he doesnt have time for sidelong glances and dinner dates, and he doesnt have any desire to be emotionally or physically intimate with anyone. all the better because when was the last time drifter had a heart-to-heart with anyone where he wasn't cornered and down to his very last handful of quips, looking like a dog about to bite?

neither of them want to be that close to someone; rahool because he doesnt feel like its necessary and drifter because hes literally incapable of that level of trust to such an extent i wouldnt put it past him to sabotage a relationship, intentionally or subconsciously, when it gets to a level that makes him nervous.

and thats not to say rahool a fair-weather friend, because youd be hard-pressed to find someone more resolutely loyal than him just because, as far as hes concerned, it makes sense, but rahool operates in a black and white world where drifter exists solely in gray. drifter will break rules, he'll break laws, he'll break the fucking geneva convention for a laff and all for a bigger picture that only people like drifter or eris or elsie could understand. people who havent just been touched by madness, theyve been consumed. theres things out there bigger than rules and patterns and its that level of unknown danger that rahool just cant jive with - even as a man of science who actively pursues answers, there are just some that hes more content not knowing because knowing opens doors that he doesnt want to be pushed through. hes not osiris.

and drifter? oof. i dont think he longs for companionship, hes done perfectly well on his own for centuries give or take flings or brief friendships that were the perfect means to an end and partners that got snuffed because they got a little bit too close to the truth of the universe, and he knows that things dont last. nothing is eternal and when youre a lightbearer, even a rogue one, not even death is forever until you piss off the wrong people. hes spent his whole second life in survival mode because thats where the excitement is. thats where the bloodthirsty thrive. he could have stayed on earth, grown with the city, been some rule-following stooge barking at the vanguard about how this or that isnt fair or just, but instead he decided to live his life on the bleeding edge and thats where hes at his best.

where black and white break into gray and theres no right or wrong answer for anything so long as survival is still the final result and theres probably some good in him somewhere, you think, but nobody knows the motives behind his cooperation. every so often you catch a glimpse beneath the curtain where the man who talks about a good old-fashioned hive stew around the campfire and interdimensional space monsters becomes a man who can snatch a chunk of the nine realms and tether it to his ship, build a machine overnight that can decrypt the impossible when the cryptarchs themselves have spent uncounted years just trying to crack one sequence of code with lost knowledge only recently unearthed, and who somehow always has an answer for an insurmountable problem that even the greatest minds of the golden age just couldnt quite reach - a man, not a legend, whos not so much clinging to the last thread of his sanity as he is bungie jumping from the end of it because there are answers at the bottom of this chasm and so long as hes got his gun and his wits, he'll bounce back when he reaches the end.

to rahool, the drifter is incomprehensible, fascinating, ingenious, dangerous, and strange, and he wants to see more so he keeps a close eye on what the drifter lets him see, never under any illusion that hes gaining some unknown insight beyond what anyone else could find if they kept up - and very few can keep up. it takes a special kind of lunatic to understand the drifter, but all you need to see him is the knowledge that some things just have to be done for the greater picture and fussing over politics and tiptoeing around hard truths just isnt the way.

to drifter, rahool is the path of least resistance to information he finds useful, yes, but hes also someone (like eris) who doesnt expect him to follow protocols and doesnt expect him to be anything but reprehensible and gross, but also understands that - at least on a surface level, because the real hand cant be shown until the right time - drifter is also a man hellbent on making sure humanity is ready for whats coming next, because hes one of few who's not just seen it, but knows what needs to be done to stand against it. its coming, it cant be avoided, it cant be fought with heavy artillery and hope. he can rely on rahool not to try and stop him, not because hes stringing rahool along for the long con, but because deep down rahool understands that sometimes you need to get your hands dirty and not worry about what other people are going to think about it. theres just enough of a bastard in him to be worth liking, and drifter can respect that.

theres a part in good omens, speaking of, that kind of sums up drifters deal and why i think rahool would be so interested him exceptionally well and its this: "God does not play dice with the universe; He plays an ineffable game of His own devising, which might be compared, from the perspective of any of the other players [i.e. everybody], to being involved in an obscure and complex variant of poker in a pitch-dark room, with blank cards, for infinite stakes, with a Dealer who won't tell you the rules, and who smiles all the time."

that, in a man, is what fascinates rahool so much and he splits his time between trying to solve immensely complex lattices of ancient code and trying to solve drifter and most days hes not sure which one is more impossible. but he does know one of the two slings a mean drink and isnt bad company when he isnt portraying himself as a man who isnt bothered by anything, is dangerous to even know, and who can and will eat anything that doesnt somehow manage to eat him first - and even thats up for debate if youve heard his stories. there are so many layers to the drifter that rahool could spend the rest of his life digging and still never break through the outermost surface and when your job is the scifi equivalent of data entry on roids, he's up for a challenge where hangups and failures still give interesting returns.

[hub-pub-bub]

There’s no doubt about it; your book is being judged by its cover. Hard.

I made many mistakes with the original cover of my debut novel, The White Raven. This self-publishing journey has been a series of learning experiences. No matter how much research you do, you’re going to screw up along the way. And that’s okay. You’ll learn, like I did.

The White Raven is my lifelong dream come to fruition. I walked away from my executive career so I could write it, something all the “experts” say not to do. But I was ready and I have no regrets about that decision.

For the cover, I wanted a white raven to be the focal point. (Duh. That’s the book’s title. So yeah, it needs to have a big bird front and center.) I searched the Internet for images and came across an artist who’d done a stunning pencil drawing of a black crow. I contacted her and asked if she could do a white raven. She specialized in animal drawings but had never done a book cover. I didn’t care; I loved her work. And it was all about the bird!

She drew an amazing image of a white raven and the silhouette of a woman, both wrapped in an ethereal purple mist. I loved it. It was just what I wanted.

Can you tell where I went wrong?

I had done a great deal of research about self-publishing before I decided to go that route. But I didn’t think anything extra about cover design. I’m a huge reader—I know about book covers already, so what’s there to research? For my book’s cover, I went with what Iwanted and I liked.

Wrong.

I got opinions from friends and family. They liked it, of course. Wrong again.

After the e-book was published, I stared at it next to all the other books in its genre. It only took a few days for an uneasy feeling to replace the elation I had. No, no! I had spent good money on that cover, and I had formed a relationship with the artist. I had given signed paperbacks to all my friends. I had to keep using it! It was beautiful, right?

Whether it was beautiful or not, it simply didn’t hold up next to the other covers. I hated to admit it but it looked “homemade” to me. I was in denial for weeks, months. And after the initial sales from all my friends, relatives, and former colleagues, sales stopped.

So, I did what I should have done initially. I researched the anatomy of a book cover.

There is a great deal of psychology to a book cover. It’s not just eye candy.

Every article I read on cover design reinforced the fact that I screwed up. And I kicked myself realizing that as a debut author, I had missed out on that one opportunity to introduce myself properly to the public.

I learned that the cover should evoke an emotional response. It should convey the genre of the book, its essence, and its mood before the person ever clicks on the thumbnail. The cover must intrigue them, pique their curiosity, grab them. You have one chance, mere seconds, to do that as the person scrolls down the page.

The cover also needs to look professional. Although I had a professional do my original cover, she wasn’t the right professional.

I discovered the company to redo my cover on a popular monthly e-book cover design contest. I loved what I saw and checked out their website. While their designs were outstanding, there was significant sticker shock. But I knew I had to do it.

I told the designer several of my ideas but gave her free reign to come up with her own. She presented me with several options, one was a mix of one of my ideas and her imagination. It blew me away.

I field-tested it on several groups in Goodreads and posts on Kboards.com. I found a critique website also to garner feedback. I didn’t ask my friends or family.

After a few minor changes, I had my shiny new cover!

Validation

I launched The White Raven e-book on April 1st, 2017. I had an initial surge of sales from all the people I know. It was awesome—but it gave me a false sense of hope. After that, sales dropped to nearly nothing, even with deeply discounted promotions.

I launched the new cover on July 1st. WOW. I was shocked at the spike in sales. I watched the numbers rise each month with a huge smile on my face.

You can’t tell me that isn’t a direct result of the new cover. I am a nobody author with only a few thousand Twitter followers (mostly fellow authors) and a little over 150 likes on my Facebook page. This proved to me that I did the right thing.

My sales are not stellar, but as a newbie author, I’m pretty darn happy. And with the redesigned cover, I feel it is a true reflection of what’s inside the book in terms of sophistication, mood, energy, and story.

Bottom line: Save up your money and hire a professional cover designer. As the saying goes, you only have one chance to make a good first impression.

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In a former life, Carrie D. Miller was an executive in the software industry. Her career in the technology world included software product management, website design, training, and technical writing just to name a few. At the age of 45, she decided to chuck it all to become an author which had been a life-long dream.

When her nose is not in a book or in front of a monitor, she can be found inventing cocktails, hanging out at the dog park, or in the kitchen making something yummy and unhealthy.

At present, she lives in a far-flung suburb of Dallas, Texas, with her long-time boyfriend and two rescues, a semi-feral cat and derpy German Shepherd.

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