#you get a wip bc I’m afraid to ruin this

[jupiterlandings]

My friend Daniel’s been away on a Very Strange business trip; he’s been writing me about it but it’s been a few days since his last letter…

Dannymay day 1: Fantasy AU.

[goldensunset]

what recently has had you vibrating in your boots waiting to be asked about it?

this is such a kind ask and i love that you like to reach out to people like this so i soooo wish i had something real to say in response to it (i’ve waited to respond to it in the hopes that something would come up) but i don’t know if there’s anything truly that i’m particularly itching to be asked about…

i’ve got several big projects planned and i’m really excited for the day i’ll be able to finish them but i don’t really like talking about stuff beforehand (i will frequently allude to there being Something i’m doing but i don’t like sharing wips or even snippets frequently because it’ll ruin the surprise)

i don’t know if there’s anything in particular i’m anticipating? i guess missing link coming out. but again that’s not something i’m ‘vibrating in my boots waiting to be asked about’ because it’s not like it’s my work or anything lol. and i already say all my media thoughts out loud regardless of whether people ask

stuff that i would want to ramble about… i would say my ocs except i’m still not brave enough to really talk about them. it’s hard to put my thoughts into writing and especially as someone who’s really not a writer. it requires such a level of vulnerability it’s really difficult. i for sure will probably never talk about The Main Ones but some of the side ones i’m getting closer to doing something real and presentable with. i’ve shared a bit of them already (just beta designs really) but nothing about the story they’re a part of. but perhaps someday soon!

idk. maybe being asked about them would in fact spark something? i sometimes have a hard time getting my own general thoughts out but a specific question (coupled with the imperative to satisfy another person’s request bc i hate having to push myself to do something but love checking off tasks on a to-do list that’s handed to me) might draw something out of me. but for the time being i’m not encouraging questions because i want to redo/finalize their designs and general personalities and stuff again before i go anywhere with them

generally i hide my thoughts not because i’m afraid of being cringe or annoying other people (i truly could not care less about whether or not anyone wanted something before i post it) but because i insist on making things perfect and excellent before releasing them into the wild. i have to make sure everything gets interpreted by other people the exact way i see and feel it (am i ‘tistic). i need to get my own stuff together you see. you know?

[potatolordofficial]

I posted 9,519 times in 2022

That's 9,382 more posts than 2021!

69 posts created (1%)

9,450 posts reblogged (99%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@awellboiledicicle

@kitchenelf

@multi-lefaiye

@wherearetheplants

@albatris

I tagged 500 of my posts in 2022

#dracula - 58 posts

#friend art - 50 posts

#destiny 2 - 47 posts

#ask game - 35 posts

#ask game answers - 34 posts

#goncharov - 33 posts

#unreality - 21 posts

#ref - 19 posts

#inferno wip - 15 posts

#multi lefaiye - 9 posts

Longest Tag: 133 characters

#gordon introduces himself as a confirmed bachelor and dante is working through language and cultural barriers as well as brain damage

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Gonna begin asking people who post about transandrophobia not being a thing if they were aphobes in 2016

6 notes - Posted October 16, 2022

#4

bc ive been playing minecraft a lot lately on my brother's realm i've got a map mod so i can see the surrounding region and boy howdy so we're on the tundra island right, we've lovingly named it antarctica

here’s the map for reference

i thought 'hey, i wonder what's around us' and went exploring found a lot of continents (or so i thought) so i went further, realized they're all part of one  supercontinent that's surrounding us, and we're in an inland sea

another interesting note, there are a lot of shipwrecks, ocean monuments, underwater ruins, ruined nether portals, all those things none of them are on or around antarctica so whoever came before us did not settle at all on this island, and i don't know why there are a couple little villages, so it's hospitable to villagers, but not to whatever our precursors were

6 notes - Posted June 20, 2022

#3

Hey bestie it's me here to hand deliver a gas station blorbos ramble!!! Thank you for your participation!! Okay so I had to think a little about something I don't think I've told you about already (<3), and I think I will tell you about one of the original creepypastas that I love and adore. It's about the time Jack and Jerry get kidnapped by an old classmate of Jack's.

So the whole thing is about like. This guy, Beaux, kidnapped these two to sacrifice them and summon an ancient god. Thing is, he doesn't know what he's doing, and they're both unafraid and unimpressed. They spend most of the time heckling him, while he gets more and more agitated.

A running joke here is that Beaux is like. Incredibly racist and nasty. He believes people of color are the reason for all of his problems and he's the epitome of a white cishet man with a persecution/victim complex. I have no pity for him.

Anyway Beaux thinks he kills the part-timer he kidnapped with them, but the part-timer wakes up, punches him in the face, and runs away. Beaux fails to catch him, and he has a fit about how Jack and Jerry are being so difficult and his life has been nothing but suffering. Eventually, Beaux decides to sacrifice himself to summon the god, but he's too afraid to go through with it.

Jerry very enthusiastically offers to kill Beaux instead--Beaux wants to die and Jerry wants to kill him, so it's a win-win! And Beaux accepts. He lets Jerry out, boasting about how Jerry could never have the guts to hurt someone, and Jerry cuts him off by shooting him in the leg. The god comes and drags Beaux to another dimension, and Jerry stops it from taking him and Jack too by peeing on the portal. I'm not kidding.

Anyway yeah Jack and Jerry get to go home with minimal injury!!!

I’m fucking honking what is this series

6 notes - Posted August 14, 2022

#2

p,,, perhaps Dante with 👔?

perhaps...

his daughter gave him the shirt and he loves it

8 notes - Posted October 12, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

[points at you] tell me about a blorbo. you have ten seconds /s

(jokes aside hi i want to hear about ur ocs pls and thank u, i just don't have specific questions in mind)

Blorbo…

Anyway I’m gonna talk about Renfield bc he’s always on my mind so, cw for body horror, cannibalism, and corpse talk under the cut

Ren is from Inferno, and is the ‘mouser’ in Gordon’s Ridge, the main town the story takes place in. By mouser I mean he eats rats and mice after chasing them on all fours.

He’s not human! In-text no one is sure what he is (except his partner Jordan). He’s actually a parasitic worm that’s attached to the brain of his dead bf. Because of this, he looks anemic and kind of waxy. Like a bad embalming job.

Worms need to eat flesh to survive, and often eat people; they don’t see the issue and don’t distinguish between meats. They’re not human, after all, so that’s not part of their outlook.

He’s also not fully developed; worms like him live in large colonies where they all work to protect the egg clutches and stores of corpses kept preserved for the new worms to live in. However, he was separated from his family in 1700s Britain during one of the Jacobite wars (I can’t remember if I ever specified exactly) and began wandering trying to find them.

Instead he found his first partner, Justin, (who belongs to my partner) who later died, and Renfield switched his old corpse out for his boyfriend’s in an attempt to save him. It didn’t work.

Eventually he stowed away across the Atlantic and ended up in Boston in the 1800s, where he met Jordan. They entered a relationship and, when Jordan left their home, the two headed west.

Ren is very animated, and is mostly gentle, he loves petting soft animals, playing in the dirt, and basking. Another worm has referred to him as a ‘lamb with fangs’, as the gentle aspects of his personality contrast the part where he needs to hunt to survive, and is very good at killing.

He tries to befriend people, but humans interacting with him have their fight or flight response triggered because of the way he moves is just outside of normal for the human brain. Inhumans (the term for supernatural creatures) don’t have this problem.

Also! He just didn't have a name for a while, either he wasn't given one or he forgot it, but he just didn't have a name for a while (he probably went by pseudonyms). Then Jordan read Dracula to him and he latched onto the name Renfield. (as an in-universe reason why he's named that when in reality i named him that as a joke)

12 notes - Posted August 25, 2022

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[phoebenavarro]

Hi! I saw your WIP ask game and was really curious about the S4 Jon rape recovery fic. It has all the elements I crave for S4 fix-it/AU fics, especially Martin dropping out of working for Peter, which I always think is intriguing. Is there anything in particular you would like to say/post about it?

oh hi! yeah I'm really excited about this, I'd love to talk about it and I'll also post a lil snippet

so it's set s4, after the "let's gouge out our eyes and make out" scene, so pretty late in s4. Peter sees this and panics that Jon is interfering too much and he decides he needs to do something to isolate Jon further, so he rapes Jon in the archives, pulling the Lonely around both of them while he does, but he doesn't fully take Jon to the Lonely bc that would be giving Elias what he wants.

And then Melanie walks in on it happening and she pulls Lukas off him, ready to fight, but Peter peaces out into the Lonely, leaving Melanie to deal with Jon, who is fully dissociating and doesn't even realize Peter is gone at first. Cue Melanie trying to comfort Jon even though she knows she's not good at it, and she calls Basira for help. Jon is of course blaming himself for this, because he's Jon, and he keeps trying to get them to leave him alone. They want him to go to a hospital at the very least, but he's Jon and he refuses.

A few days later, Martin needs to talk to Jon about some paperwork or something so he goes down to the Archives to find him, but Martin's deep enough in the Lonely that he carries fog with him like Peter does, and when Jon feels the temperature drop when Martin comes in, he thinks it's Peter and has a panic attack, and Martin's got no idea what's going on. Even after Jon realizes it's Martin, he can't calm himself down, and he begs Martin to leave.

and then Martin's concerned, so he goes to ask Melanie what's going on with Jon, and Melanie wants to respect Jon's privacy so she doesn't tell him exactly but she's basically like you knew Peter Lukas was a monster when you started working with him, fuck you, Jon might trust you but I don't, you need to decide who's side you're on.

so then Melanie's like hey Jon, you probably need to talk to Martin and tell him what happened. Jon doesn't want to because he doesn't want to ruin whatever Martin's planning, but he's also convinced that Martin doesn't want anything to do with him, and he's afraid that he'll just push Martin further away if he tells him. With some encouragement from Daisy, he does eventually decide to talk to Martin.

Martin is of course horrified, decides to abandon his plan, they work through some stuff, and Peter's idea to rape Jon to isolate him completely backfired, get fucked Peter <3

anyway here's a lil snippet under the cut

Jon hears the door to the Archives open and barely even registers it beyond a thought that Melanie must be back.

“I’m making a cup of tea, do you want one?” He calls to her, and he frowns when she doesn’t respond. She must not have heard him.

Then he gets a chill, and he freezes in place because the temperature in the room has dropped several degrees. It feels like the chill that accompanies Peter Lukas at all times. He feels panic set in, expecting large hands to reach out and grab him at any moment. He shrinks back against the counter, and that’s when Martin walks into the break room.

Except Jon doesn’t recognize him, because he is so strongly expecting to see Peter Lukas, and Martin and Lukas are both very large men with similar builds. Jon feels himself begin to shake, every part of him yelling at himself to MOVE, but he remains rooted to the spot.

“Sorry Jon,” Martin says. His attention is on the papers he’s holding in his hands, and he flips through them as he talks. “I just needed to ask you…” That’s when he looks up and trails off as he sees the state Jon is in. Jon recognizes him from his voice, but his body is already fully panicking, and he can’t calm down. “Jon? Are you alright?” Martin asks.

Jon cringes away from him. His body refuses to accept the signals from his brain that Martin isn’t a threat. Because Martin is cold now, and big, and he could do just as bad as Lukas, if he wanted to—

No, no! No. Jon tries to stop that line of thinking in its tracks. Spiraling is not going to help. Martin wouldn’t do that; Martin wouldn’t hurt him. He trusts Martin, goddammit.

He still flinches violently when Martin takes a step towards him, arm stretched out to reach for him, brow furrowed in concern.

“D-don’t!” Jon gasps, his chest feeling like it’s going to burst. Martin takes a step back.

When Martin speaks next, his voice is softer than it’s been since Jon woke up from the coma. “What do you need, Jon?”

Jon wants to cry. It’s not the first time Martin’s talking him through a panic attack— Oh, that’s what’s happening. He’s having a panic attack. It’s funny how knowing that never seems to stop it. The room is still cold, and Martin’s eyes are still dull and lacking the warmth they had before— before Lukas.

Jon tries to force his lungs to take in more air, but they won’t. Martin is looking at him, politely concerned. The irony is bitter. Martin is the person Jon wants to see more than any other person alive, and now Martin is causing a panic attack.

“Leave,” Jon manages to get out, and Martin looks momentarily hurt before the indifferent, polite mask returns. Something else that’s too eerily reminiscent of Lukas. “S-sorry,” Jon gasps.

[tosye]

Hello! Can I ask 2, 11, 12 and 18 from the artist asks?👀

hii love!!

2. 5 favourites of your own work?

oof this is a tough one since I’ve only just got back into drawing back in December/January after like 8 years of not drawing shit and so i haven’t really made that many pieces!! also a lot of my faves are my current wips since I’ve been on a roll and improving a lot lately!! but here goes, in no particular order

I absolutely love the pancake one!! loved making it and love how it turned out

also this one (can’t show the whole thing on here since i dont want to go to tumblr jail AGAIN lmao but you can find it on twitter)!! this was my first ever spicy piece and i had so much fun drawing it!!

another one from around the end of april that i never actually finished and i now really REALLY hate the way it looks lmao BUT it has a very special place in my heart bc it made me realise how much i could do actually!! really raised my self esteem at the time and motivated me to improve!!

basically this bitch walked so these bitches could run (another 2 of my faves) sorry ani is still a wip but i can say for sure it’s gonna be one of my faves

11. Favourite comment you’ve ever received on your work?

actually i have quite a few that just stuck with me and im still thinking abt them

one is this whole litany from you actually!! omg I love it so much!!

another one is “I’m gonna buy a locket and put this masterpiece inside it” u know who u are i love you

another!! “your skill is like. Super evident all the time, obviously, but the fact that ur not afraid to go dark with your darks and light with your lights really proves it” I LOVE YOU TOO esp that i never really looked at that this way

and honestly just any comment ever from @dancinghannigram i love reading ur tags ur the best!! ily!!

12. Show your favourite drawing from this year

I think it’s the pancake one above!!

18. Do you have any larger projects you’d like to pursue?

i’d love to make a couple comic/storyboard like pieces!! I have a lot in mind but I just need to sit down and actually make them which is the hard bit lmao also ive been fucking around with 3d in blender/forger so I’d love to get to a point where I can actually sculpt and not ruin the thing bc I don’t know what certain functionalities do (tried to make a ref sculpture of cobb and fucked up by merging up a blob that WASNT SUPPOSED TO BE THERE AND I DONT KNOW HOW TO FIX THAT so yeah not doing that again lmao)

thank you so much for the ask!! ily ❤️❤️

Artist Asks

[gryfon-spanish-werewolf]

7. What story/headcanons do you feel the proudest of?

15. What is the fanfic you’ve written that you’re most proud of? 

16. What fanfic tropes do you avoid writing for?

17. What fanfic tropes do you gravitate to writing for? 

20. What feedback makes you the happiest to hear?

21. Is there an idea you’ve always wanted to write, but haven’t yet? 

36. What fanfic of yours has the symbolism you’re proudest of? 

39. What area of writing do you feel strongest in?

Fanfic Writer Asks

7) In terms of headcanons (which I wouldn’t say I make often) I think I’m most proud of how I unabashedly use magic in a lot of my stories. Elsa’s magic, Troll magic, Other-magic - if I think something is neat then I kind of just roll with it!

Elsa’s ice magic, in canon has a LOT of uses, but I like pushing the boundaries. Ice-GPS? Check. Icepack for that burn? Check (though who hasn’t xD). Troll magic used for time travel? Check. Troll magic used for Dream-traversal?? Check. Physical embodiment of a strong emotion via magic? Check. Physical, evil appearance of an emotion incarnate via ice magic and troll magic and the POWER OF LOVE? Where’s my BINGO sheet? Cuz check that too.

15) OOF wow, that’s a hard one. I hate to say it but it MIGHT be one that’s not published and is currently sitting on my GDrive >_>;; I’m really proud of my Frozen!StarWars crossover

But of the ones that are published? Either A Banisher’s Dilemma or Great Knight Annatorias, The Abysswalker. I got to be super nerdy and meta on the second one^^

16) I avoid writing smut, I’ve never really been game for it. I’m always amazed that other people can write it, but I never really want to. I also tend to avoid angst, especially if it’s for no other reason than JUST angst. It has it’s place, but I don’t like using it just to get a reaction. (Some of you are already pointing fingers at Spirit - I know I KNOW xD It was a one off, I swear!)

17) I immediately gravitate towards anything SOFT. I love slice of life, I love characters bonding with each other, I love when they have CONVERSATIONS, especially about hard things that they can work through together! I also love “Firsts’”! First meeting, first hug, first confession, first kiss, first hand-hold, first date, first anniversary, etc etc. I love confessions and conversations. On the flip side I really love established relationships? Whatever they are: familial, friends, romantic or marital. There’s something really nice about a a pair or a group already being together. I have no idea where that all fits under your standard trope lists, but those are mine!

20) I absolutely scream if anyone ever quotes my stuff back to me saying stuff like “I really liked this line/paragraph/part because...” and then says why. I lose my mind. I also love when people say “This made me feel X” because I’m just ever so curious about how writing affects people!

Edit bc I forgot: I’ve had one (1) person make me fan art once as “feedback” for a story and I was on cloud 9 for like, shit, a month?? I still think about that person. I legit hope they are living their best life.

21) I wouldn’t say I “always” wanted to write this since I’m WAY too impatient to wait on ideas most of the time BUT I have had this au sitting in my WIPs folder for nearly 6 YEARS and it’s about how the King and Queen of Arendelle are secretly part of a vampire hunting guild. They kill a vampire that snuck into the castle one night but not before it infects their daughter and heir to the throne, Elsa (who’s like, 6 or 8). Even though they’re oathbound to kill vampires, they can’t kill their daughter. The castle is closed similar to post-Accident Frozen 1.

Jumping to modern times, Anna is a history student exploring the mountains of Norway with her classmate, Hans, and a guide, Kristoff, and they are heading for the ruins of Arendelle castle for a research project. Rumors say that despite wars, invasions, thrill seekers, and treasure hunters, a lot of people that go into that foggy area of the fjord waters and forest end up lost and never found. The few that make it out tell tales of strange chills and the feeling of eyes at their backs. Locals know that the headstones of the last living Royals (who died at sea) are still tended to, though no one knows by whom. Anna gets separated from the group and encounters a sleeping Elsa in the castle before sundown. Afraid for the stranger’s safety (it’s winter, it’s cold, and it’s going to be night soon), Anna attempts to wake Elsa, to no avail. Realizing she’s sort of stuck herself, Anna builds a fire and awaits morning (and her own rescue), unknowing that in the last rays of sunlight her “companion” is about to wake. For the worse.

Unrelated to fanfic, I HAVE always wanted to write a story about a girl named Rain (as such for her birth during a terrible storm) that misfortune is heaped upon by the bucketful, so much so that everyone believes she’s cursed, except for her tutor. I want her name have a double meaning that she both slumps and shines under, since rain may bring destruction, but also growth and healing.

36) A Banisher’s Dilemma, hands down. I did SO MUCH RESEARCH for that fic AND I was in a Bible New Testament class at the same time, so I just SHOVED a whole bunch of Christian history, themes, imagery, and references in there. It’s not the only symbolism however, as I mixed plenty of other global and cultural references in there as well. Hard not to, since Anna is literally jet-setting to a new location nearly every chapter.

39) Surprising maybe no one: light humor! My writing is often funny, mostly because I like to make myself laugh :D If I’m not having fun, than what’s the point!? Most often it’s shown off in my one shots or short fiction, but even re-reading some of my longer chapter fics still has me laughing at the same jokes I wrote many years ago.

If not humor than portraying strong emotions. I’ve received too many (generous and loving <3) comments about how pinpoint accurate or visceral my portrayal of joy or sorrow, grief or fear, or love and happiness are to deny it. And that’s much less of a boast and more a humble acknowledgement of people who have written very thoughtful responses to my work, and it would be irresponsible to imply that their words over the years were false in any way.

Thanks for the ask! These are a lot of really good questions!

[messifangirl]

A more extensive Kunessi rec list

(Reposting this bc tumblr ate it and I have no idea why!!!!! So annoying... Now with more added fics) 

Recently got an ask for some recs, and I’m feeling Kunessi right now so….

A more extensive Kunessi rec list, hopefully now with some decent formatting. Stories organized alphabetically by author. Also hopefully with mostly correct tumblrs

I would dye for you by blindbatalex @blindbatalex​ 

A (highly imaginary) account of how Messi's bleached hair came about and Kun and Neymar's feelings on the subject.

(Kun/Leo, words: 872, rating: general, status: complete)

I'm Only Good At Bad Poetry by DrifterWriter

“Yes, we bet on you getting together," Masche repeats, rolling his eyes, using the tone one would use with a small child. "It's bound to happen eventually-- can you guys just hurry the fuck up and get it on?"

"Am I that obvious?" Kun asks weakly, because is he that obvious?

(Kun/Leo, words: 3274, rating: teen and up, status: complete)

Take your pain away. by florgi @xavimascheranos​

Kun is a worrier and Leo's back hurts. Leo just wants to cuddle and Kun is ther to provide the cuddles.

(Set after the friendly against Honduras of May, 27th 2016, where Leo received a hard blow on his back and had to be subbed out.)

(Kun/Leo, words: 1040, rating: general, status: complete)

Warm Me With Your Smile by hellabaloo @historiograph​

Leo visits Kun in Manchester for Christmas, and realizes he might have been missing something that was right in front of his face.

(Kun/Leo, words: 6868, rating: mature, status: complete)

Beauty by LeoDios @leo-dios​

Kun finds out that Leo has a crush on him. This makes him confront his own feelings about his best friend.

(Kun/Leo, words: 2982, rating: explicit, status: complete)

Love of our Lives by LeoDios @leo-dios​

Kun never had to ask, he could always figure out in a few touches what Leo wanted or needed. Leo had the same instinct when it came to Kun. It had been that way since they were seventeen.

(Kun/Leo, words: 56340, rating: mature, status: complete)

Not a Coward by LynyrdSkynyrd

Kun likes to think himself as a funny, easygoing guy. But above all, he likes to believe that he is very brave. The way he plays and the way he lives is a proof of that. But one day Pablo opens his eyes and show him that he is not as brave as he would like to believe.

Or where Kun is so afraid of ruining his friendship with Leo that he never tells him his true feelings, only watching Leo being so close and touchy with Pocho from afar. But he needs to do something before he dies of jealousy.

(Kun/Leo, words: 4443, rating: teen and up, status: complete)

blue is the warmest color by mm_nani  

‘It was just weird seeing you here.’ He finally says.‘Good or bad?’ Leo whispers against his neck, kissing him softly, chastely.

or

Argentina NT trained at City and I had a lot of feelings about it which i projected onto Kun.

(Kun/Leo, words: 2084, rating: teen and up, status: complete)

4 Times Zlatan Is a Terrifying Father-in-Law + 1 Time Kun Realized That He Actually Isn't by mm_nani

Kun wasn't expecting the extra family member when he started dating Leo

(Kun/Leo, words: 3256, rating: teen and up, status: complete)

Back to the Beginning by Nina22783

Following a huge fall-out. Leo works hard to retrace his steps back to Kun.

(Kun/Leo, words: 7247, rating: mature, status: complete)

I Love You But Sometimes You Drive Me Crazy by orphan_account (AR)

Kun watched Leo trapeze around the training ground like Kun wasn't glaring at the back of his head with enough intensity to set him on fire. He wondered if Leo was just ignoring it, or if he hadn't even noticed, but knowing the other it was probably the latter.

(Kun/Leo, words: 10751, rating: explicit, status: complete)

Where I Belong by pique @piquemos​

Kun misses Leo and cries himself to sleep over it. The last thing he can remember before closing his eyes is wishing that Leo played for Man City. When he wakes up, his wish has come true. It isn't all he'd imagined it to be, though.

(Kun/Leo, words: 11687, rating: teen and up, status: complete)

Prayers by ren_makoto

How do you worship a god? Kun Aguero shows his reverence to one D10S de Futbol. But gods can be spoiled, complicated creatures...

"He's seen fans almost kill themselves jumping down from the stands to hug Leo, kiss him, bow down at his feet. Nearly drowning themselves to swim to his yacht. He's seen fans cry in joy when Leo gives them his shirt or a hug. This is his equivalent, Kun imagines. This is as close as he comes to praying anymore."

(Kun/Leo, words: 3418, rating: explicit, status: complete)

A Messi Love by stillgold @ciiromessi​

Kun knew he never should have had that last drink. Now he's gone and spilled his deep dark secret to Masche. And why is Kun's feelings for Leo the only secret Masche can't keep?

(Kun/Leo, words: 69188, rating: explicit, status: complete)

The Permanence of a Yes by stillgold @ciiromessi​

Kun has never been able to say no to Leo, even when Leo always says no. But it turns out yeses and nos are not permanent--and everyone can start over.

(Kun/Leo, words: 2522, rating: mature, status: complete)

Todo Por Vos by stillgold @ciiromessi​

There’s nothing to say, but the words come unbidden. “Hoy por vos”, he whispers. Today for you. For you. He could have said todo por vos, all for you, and it would have been true.

Maybe Leo understands, or maybe Leo already knew—maybe Leo, with his dark eyes and his quiet mouth—maybe he can see better than others can. It seems like it on the pitch, but maybe that skill translates here too—maybe it sees Kun’s yearning, his hunger, his ache, his everything—all for Messi, todo por el.

(Kun/Leo, words: 1286, rating: general, status: complete)

Of Rainy Cities and Unexpected Feelings by Ximena13 @ximenalightwood​

It was all Geri's fault.

That was Leo's first thought when he found himself alone at Manchester City's parking lot, blinking dumbly at the place where the bus used to be. Where the bus that was supposed to take him and the team to the airport, and then back to Spain, used to be.

Or,

The one in which Leo gets left behind by the team bus, has to figure out a way to go back to Spain without the media noticing, and has to deal with the fact that he may be in love with his best friend.

(Kun/Leo, words: 40588, rating: general, status: wip)

till your lungs give out by yvenger (jjjat3am) @eyvenger​

It's not that Leo hasn't noticed the way his voice affects Kun every time he praises him for a job well done. He just hasn't acted on it till now.

(Kun/Leo, words: 1659, rating: mature, status: complete)

two bodies pressed together by yvenger (jjjat3am)  @eyvenger​

"If I weren't a footballer, I would be a footballer's wife." - Kun Aguero

or

The one where Kun has to retire from football early and becomes Leo's househusband instead.

(Kun/Leo, words: 6015, rating: teen and up, status: complete)

What the Mister wants by yulin @purpleyulin​ 

Where a request becomes a challenge, and the challenge something unexpected.

(Kun/Leo, words: 300, rating: general, status: complete)

[zmwrites]

What are the countries and kingdoms and cities of your world? How did you come up with them and how did you name them? I suck at naming places

hello!! i have been afraid to answer this bc i don’t want to ruin whatever is suggesting i know what i’m doing, but here we go!

most of my wips are set in the same world but on different continents and in different time periods. for example, a group that brought the Ukrainian language influence to Draiobia in Indigo Wars is from the area that Remnants takes place in, hence why Remnants also has a strong Ukrainian language influence. except Indigo Wars is set in 719 and Remnants is set in 1674.

i don’t have a map for Remnants yet, but here is the map for IW:

so you can (hopefully) see the different language influences in all countries here. the very top country, without any named cities visible, is Achar. below that is Edristan, then Draiobia, then Echium is the little island off the south of the continent.

then in Remnants, the countries are Kethyia, Yetrar, Vrarok, and Esmudor. the cities (all in Kethyia) are Brenik, Pyarovsk, Lesopa, Marlytsia, and Nemný.

i make extensive use of Fantasy Name Generators when i’m naming places. 

for countries/kingdoms: i use either the Continent, Country/Nation, or Kingdom name generators on the site. sometimes i’ll dip into others if i want a place to sound particularly outlandish, but i’ll open a few in different tabs and click through until i find something i like. i’ll also save ones i like but that aren’t right for the project in a different document to refer to later.

for cities: i decide what kind of linguistic influence i want the setting to have, then find the appropriate generator on the site. i don’t keep strictly to one language influence, bc i prefer to believe that people can share culture and language and space without killing each other. on the IW map above, there are cities whose names are derived from French (West Europe), English (aka the basic “City Name” and “Fantasy Town Name” generators), East Europe, West Asia, and Southeast Asia. i think i even pulled some names from the South Europe generator.

once i’ve picked a generator, i’ll put together a list of names then decide where to place them and how important i want them to be to the story. for example: Nemný is a great name for a city, but placing the accent is a pain (this is from someone who has an accented letter in their first name) so it has been relegated to a less important role in the story.

i wish i had a better answer, but the truth is that i also suck at naming places and allow Emily from Fantasy Name Generators do most of the work for me. i just click “generate” until i get enough names to populate the part of the world i’m working on.

[wincore]

HIIII im the anon who sent in the message about the line from your yangyang fic :) im happy u liked my message bc i love ur writing!!!!! if you dont mind, im going to spam you with my favorite #wincore lines heehee

- tata

ADHJKASDL??? YOUR SPAM MADE MY ENTIRE DAY PLEASE ???? i love you so much????? im replying to each under the cut i just 😭❤

“I…I’m sorry if I…if I… Did I hurt you?”

“I wouldn’t want to make a habit of calling you love,” he reasons.

THESE TWO QUOTES TOGETHER FROM HEAVEN, FALLEN ....THEY GOT ME SO GOOD!! the internal fight between being in love and being afraid.... hesitantly caring and being cautious... u are a god wincore

- tata

ahhh it’s been a while since i wrote that and i’m so happy to hear you talk about it??? at first i was afraid the complexity of the emotions might be confusing (but then again they’re not AS complex 🤡 i just overcomplicated some stuff) thank you so much for this !!!

“If it’s love, I think it’s quite wonderful.”

this line from heaven, fallen got me so good too... it’s been a while since i read this one but i remember crying here. the whole work is filled with back and forth tension of should-we-should-we-not and taeyong being so simply accepting of it.. it’s beautiful. i love taeyong in heaven, fallen in general too though

- tata

heaven, fallen was one of my fav works when i wrote it!!! im so glad you liked it you don’t even know 😭 also omg i keep including taeyong as the lovable side character in my fics jdhksdj but i have SO many wips for him??? #freehim 😔

“He hates it, the way he loses his temper with you, how you’re the one seeing this side of him that no one has seen with the exception of his brother. He hates this part of himself, and you’re the last person he wants to be seeing that.”

this line from talk always stood out to me even tho it wasn’t a major turn in plot or even a main scene because it’s just so...human? i really related to hating the part of yourself that gets angry and especially the fear of someone you care about seeing that part

- tata

i loved doyoung in talk because like i wrote him in a way that was very familiar/personal to me and i’m glad you could relate to it too!!! AAAA just love writing doyoung in general hes just 😳❤

i read talk after i read heaven, fallen and i think you are just a freakin god at love-hate with doyoung... two of my favorite works ever for him. my favorite line from talk is:

“You don’t say anything and he continues, “Do you even know how hard it is? To be the one in love in a one-sided relationship? Do you even care?””

it made me SCREAAAAM like the “do you even care” when, as the reader, you know how much they both care was *chefs kiss*

- tata

when i tell you i LOVE writing and reading e2l/love-hate with doyoung like!!! mans is a walking representative of that trope + this is supposed to be a secret but i have an e2l planned for him not sure if i’ll get to write it though 😭 but AAHHH okay this one made me bust a nut in the heart (i wish i found a more appropriate phrase but........)

“You wonder what it’d be like to be Yukhei—ruin it all and hope it works out.”

i dont know what it is about this but i love the feeling of this line hahaha thats the best way i can explain it

- tata

main actor was such a comfort fic for me (and really fun + easy to write??) im glad you liked the feel/vibes of it!!

“Because you were ignoring me,” he replies, leaning in.

this line in sweet tooth made me 😳 in real life. i just read it last night & it was so sweet and cute!!!! i also really loved that the reader said no to being bitten i feel like that part is very overromantized in a lot of aus :’)

- tata

the vampire bite being overromanticized in fic i f e e l you like what’s so sexy about teeth in your jugular 😐 and!!! im happy it came off as sweet (haha) and i wanted to portray him with cute bf vibes but also there is untapped potential for comedy in vampire aus (i wish i could write humour well enough 😔)

“Why? You wanna make out?”

YANGYANG BEING A LITTLE SHIT IN TROUBLEMAKER!! this is literally my favorite line LOL i really really love how you write yangyang and winwin in general

-tata

HONESTLY i get this a lot and it cracked ME up when i wrote no clue why 😭 but mr yangyang might actually say this shit out loud - and im glad you liked my characterizations of yangyang and winwin dhsdshj that made me really happy 🥺

alright im done, sorry for the spam 😅 i love your writing wincore!! moonie!! 💚

- tata

and i love YOU tata you have made my entire week (maybe MONTH maybe YEAR) with this and i’ll be looking at this at regular intervals for the rest of my life im not even kidding 

[jess-oh]

Reflection

hey journal!

im keeping up with this!

honestly, i couldve been a lot more productive today but i tried so hard to sleep that i ended up wasting my day away instead of being more pro-active. i ate oatmeal for dinner and went to power hour this morning with jenny! i wasnt thrilled at first bc i went to bed around 1:30am and had to wake up around 5:30am so that I could leave by 6am and make it to the train stop by 8am. Surprisingly, I did not fall asleep once on my way to the stop though I did knock out on the way back. I know I could’ve easily ditched but transportation isn’t really an excuse to bail out on something! I’ve been guilty of it in the past too but especially seeing how easily people gave up just bc of of rides showed that their hearts werent in the right place at all. I wanted to go to power hour today and pray and intercede within the church. And I wasn’t going to let rides stop me from doing so. I can’t just give up. I have to at least try first and exhaust all my options. I know that it’d be a lot easier to just not go but so long as people are willing to help me, I’d be more than happy to come. And I’m not going to power hour to “look good.” In fact, I do wish more people in MVMT would come out and really understand the value and weight of prayer. But I know that theyre busy with their own things and it does take a lot of time to go and commit. I’m not judging them for not going. I’m not going to look good or to “be better.” I’m going because I want to pray. I’m going because I know there’s a lot of weight behind it and I want to help do my part. I do think I’ve been blessed with the gift of prayer and I can get really passionate in the moment. And I also know this is something I need to work on. To really develop and cultivate my faith via the Word and not just by feelings. To not believe the Word is always directly related to me but to see it for what it is so that I can gain a better understanding of who God is and as a result, be able to better share the gospel and evangelize to my friends. I know I’m jetlagged and that could’ve been a valid excuse but I really did want to go and I am really happy that I did. I went this morning and Pastor William led it and instead of individually praying for one topic each, we all prayed for one topic at a time. And I was kind of taken aback when P. William asked me to close and I wasn’t actually sure if I heard him correctly. Did he hear my praying and think I was passionate enough to close? Tbh, I was pretty tired and out of it but wanted to try and stay focused but I do think I was off my A-game today. Maybe he was just impressed by my willingness to come despite having just recently returned from California and wanted to acknowledge that! Or maybe it’s just because I haven’t been to Power Hour in a while and he wanted to give me an opportunity to close since everyone else already had recently. That’s probably the most logical explanation. Regardless, I was pretty shocked but as I closed, I was surprised at how passionately I was speaking. I was actually on the verge of tears and my voice broke a few times. But then I quickly closed and the ladies prayed together on one side and the guys on the other. I got to share about the classes I’m taking during the coming semester as well as my concerns for the school year. I used to have Sharlene to keep me accountable and share life with at school and we both supported each other through thick and thin and while I am beyond glad she’s going where God is calling her to be, I am sad to have lost a friend. And I am worried that I’ll fall victim to the lifestyle and culture at school and just grow bitter towards everything instead of keeping my eyes on God. Regardless if I find someone new to replace her or not, I do want to make an honest attempt to keep my focus fixated on God and Him alone. And I think by reading the Word more often is one way that I can. I am also hoping I’ll be able to be more trusting within the Lakeview community and really share my life with them. I know I’m on pretty good terms with some Catalyst peeps like Anna, Elsa, and I guess Sharon? But I also want to press further into my relationships with the people in Movement as well. I was super depressed last year and suffered a lot of heartache, especially when Robbin passed away. And Shar was there for me. I trusted her so deeply and I knew that her intentions were pure. The response I got whenever sharing with Movement was always awkward and close to none. Which I get, I was probably oversharing at times and making some people feel uncomfortable but it did feel pretty discouraging to share in a time of need and have no one respond very positively. And I know it was my decision to share to encourage others to do so as well but it definitely made me feel like I couldn’t really trust them. But I did trust Sharlene and I still do but it’ll definitely be harder now without her physically around. I don’t want to feel so alone again. And I’m really hoping that I won’t. But yeah, I shared that. I also prayed for the service tomorrow and that people wouldn’t just treat it as any other service but for them to feel unafraid to feel an encounter with God. Just because it isn’t a revival night or a retreat shouldn’t stop people from really coming to God. They made the decision to come to His house and I prayed that regardless of their life stage, especially because tomorrow is also a joint service, no one would feel afraid to just really come before God and be with Him.

Behold Our God Seated on His throne Come let us adore Him Behold Our King Nothing can compare Come let us adore Him

I also prayed for the Movement ministry that we wouldnt get caught up in our studies or the moment and instead keep our gaze fixated on God because without Him, nothing matters. All of this is for nothing. I prayed that throughout our studies, we would never forget that we aren’t studying for a good GPA or to please our parents but so we can better serve God in whatever capacity He has called us to. In my prayer group, Jenny shared about her heart for the MEF marathon this weekend among other things and Julie, P. Dub’s wife, shared about the struggles of having to deal with the recent flood in their house. Their physical belongings were thankfully not ruined but the garage is still a mess and her insurance is only willing to cover 5k. God, I pray that regardless of what happens, Julie can continue to just really trust you. Whether you bless her with the funds or have the repairs make a deep cut into her bank account, I hope she can know and understand that there is an underlying lesson from you hidden in this moment. It sucks right now but I do pray she can trust you. Honestly, I think I bragged a little bit unintentionally while praying for her. Her circumstances seemed similar to my own so I wanted to acknowledge that and let her know that I understand what she’s going through to some extent but I think I didn’t need to mention how my mom sold her wedding band to pay for the damages done on our own house. After that, we ate together and it felt like we were gossiping about other people which I was a bit uncomfortable with. I also opened up to P. William about my experience back home and how I actually left to escape a toxic situation but being up close and personal with everything back home, I was forced to face all my prior fears and insecurities and got a lot of closure as a result. And tbh, I don’t think he was expecting me to talk so much and wanted to leave the conversation ASAP and I felt kinda bad but I’m hoping some others will want to hear more about my time back home tomorrow. It seems like people noticed I was gone which tbh, I was also kinda surprised about bc I was only gone for a month. It’s probably just because I spent so much time at church for VBS for so long and then suddenly didn’t come at all. Even when Jenny picked me up from the train station this morning, I shared a little bit about the closure I received back home but she seemed more interested to talk about herself. Which I did try and be attentive towards and be humble instead of hurt but yeah. meh.

After power hour, I shared my thoughts about downtown ministry and city outreach to Jenny and her husband. She told me about a homeless shelter that could serve as a good outreach opportunity for movement since it’s in between downtown and NU. I’m definitely going to keep it in mind! That is something I would like to do but it’s also a big commitment and idk if anyone would actually come.

Oh! I also spent some time playing with Samantha and Andrew this morning while waiting for Jenny to get ready at her house. I am really grateful that she’s so willing to drive me to church from the Dempster-Skokie stop on the yellow line. It’s feasible for me to take public transportation at no cost of my own to get to church. I know that I’ve been called to serve at Lakeview so I’m going to continue to do so, regardless of the cost. I won’t let anything stop me.

Finally, I confronted Eliza about using my dish soap and she kindly backed off, I tried using my plastic wiper and it went pretty well! I attached the wet wip and all was fine! I made oatmeal for dinner, did my dishes, had a good few conversations with Andrew, and now I’m here. Oh, I also asked Jason if he could take me tomorrow since I know Jenny always goes early and is already committed to taking me to power hour every Saturday so I don’t want to intrude. I’ll probably respond to Andrew, wrap up my leftover oatmeal, shower, and then prepare for tomorrow. I need to buy a new Bible since apparently I left mine at home! :( Sad.