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satoruhour Ā· 2 years ago
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a/n: jjk 236 spoilers, mentions of suicide from readerā€™s side, no comfort, cry. around 1.4k. tagging @jabamin @hyomagiri @saiki-enthusiast @arminsumi @shotorus @satohruu so yall can suffer w me
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the first signs of grief manifests in you when thereā€™s a bright light that signifies gojoā€™s disperse of cursed energy, the familiar hollow purple that obliterates half the buildings around the two strongest sorcerers ā€” one from the heian and the other one from our times. surely, your lover wouldnā€™t do something as foolish as involving himself with the blast, but gojo satoru is always one to take risks.
when he took up the job of taking care of megumi and tsumiki at just eighteen years old and providing all the things they needed to fluorish. gojo is risky as he convinces a kid with a terrifying curse to make some friends and learn about cursed energy. he sometimes puts himself in danger when he takes up more missions he can shoulder just to show the higher-ups that he can kill them any time.
gojo satoru has the world of jujutsu in his hands; how his birth had changed the trajectory of the society, altered the balance of the world and nowā€”
ā€œsatoru!ā€ you call out once the smoke clears and heā€™s still there, intact, smiling a sick smile like the many times youā€™ve seen him done at megumi and after burning french toast. you brief a sigh of relief and the pounding of your heart calms down momentarily before sukuna emerges and heā€™s missing a hand and a leg and your heart pulls lower and lower seeing the kid you raised be such a ragdoll for sukunaā€™s entertainment. but there was always the hope to isolate the king of cursesļæ½ļæ½ļæ½ soul and save megumi somehow. shoko and you had discussed it, you know it to be true, it has to be true, until thereā€™s a sharp noise that cuts through your ear drums.
itā€™s high-pitched, like a flash of light that shines in your eyes too abruptly and you have to cover them. but it blinds you as much as it deafens; an attack from god knows which end and you swear you hear the reaperā€™s scythe.
gojo thinks you look beautiful like this; hand on your cheek and head in your hand as you watch him and the melodic sounds of the knife hitting the cutting board. youā€™re so concerned about him cutting his hand again that youā€™ve dragged your chair all the way into the kitchen to watch him closely, which was counterintuitive; the whole reason why he had bled in the first place was because he was looking at you so much.
he admires the way you curl into yourself on the beanbag in the apartment, a book on your lap on how to get to know your teenager better, hair falling over your eyes and the reading lamp not even helping that much in illuminating the words. gojo skims over your features and the way your chest breathes slowly, like everything good in the world. he hopes heā€™s able to get that with you in this life, for as long as he lives.
you feel it before you see it in the screens that the fight is broadcasted from ā€” something is missing. a light has switched off, satoru has stolen the blanket at night and left you freezing again, seeing your favourite snack missing from the fridge. and you run. past the students youā€™ve raised, past the bright blinding screens and into the battlefield, past the debris and each crunch of cement under your feet brings a fresh bout of tears to your eyes. the tokyo winter is cool, snow starting to slowly fall upon you and the saltiness on your face seem to crystallise and harden and youā€™re not even sure any more. thereā€™s a tingling feeling in your feet, in your finger tips and a pull of your heart. you know where gojo is before you see him.
ā€œsā€” satoruā€¦ā€ you mumble, eyes welling up with more tears when his bottom half stays standing, baggy pants stained with red, red and more red and youā€™ve never hated a colour like you do now. you hate it, you hate it, you hate it even when heā€™s proposed to you with a red velvet box and gotten you valentineā€™s day chocolates in that same darker red and there is just too much blood.
and then itā€™s like the hierarchy of grief doesnā€™t matter any more. all those articles youā€™ve read preparing yourself after gojoā€™s fated meeting with death at sixteen, and then after shibuya ā€” you think you canā€™t handle any more of the collecting and patching up and crying and headaches and holding a finger up to your chest and hoping youā€™d kill yourself with your own technique. the only time youā€™d accept the absence of the bright blue on his face is when he was sleeping and his chest moved with even breaths, not like this.
not like this.Ā 
ā€œsatoruā€”ā€ your voice cracks and you cannot even see. tears and tears and mucus and the fresh crunch of snow under your feet as you step closer to his severed body.
ā€œbabyā€¦ā€ he mumbles, barely above a whisper, hand twitching and reaching out in the direction of your voice because this is infinitely worse than getting stabbed in the neck by toji fushiguro, perhaps a little worse than seeing your best friend of your high school life get manipulated by a cursed user. satoru wants to demote all of that and say that seeing you stumble to your knees in front of him while you hyperventilate and sob hurts the most.Ā 
ā€œd-donā€™t move, ā€™toru, weā€” weā€™re going to get you b-back, okay?ā€ youā€™re playing with god now. ā€œshoko!ā€ the doctor stifles a sob at your cry, broken up by the feedback of the sound system. she knows youā€™re trying to defy god.
ā€œi donā€™t thinkā€”ā€ the light is slowly dying. the worldā€™s light, the studentā€™s light, your dawn and dusk. ā€œm-my love, everything isā€¦ā€
ā€œsatoru, please, you need toā€”!ā€ they say the last sense to go is touch and hearing. you crouch to his face to see him react to your warmth, eyes moving an inch to where he thinks you were and puts all of his cursed energy into one hand just so he could hold your cheek. you, warm as always as the sun and everything good in the world, a new rush of warmth overtaking his hand when your tears flow over his battered, tired hands, the same hands that has drawn over his love time and time again over your body and you are a canvas made of gojo satoruā€™s endless, unconditional ardour.
ā€œi-iā€™mā€¦ā€ it fades out, his voice box is almost gone and you wail again and the snow from below wets your knees. his name is all that leaves your lips and you think if you canā€™t play god, you can only beg, even if your religion is solely gojo satoru.
ā€œno, no, no no nono, satoru, cā€™mon, baby, stop it!ā€ you scream in his face, words all mushed together when you feel the breath of life leave his chest, the blues die out in his eyes, ā€œi love you, i love you, darling, i love youā€”ā€ your lover barely manages to muster a small smile and you scramble all over his chest, clutching at the tattered black t-shirt and his hand that is starting to go cold and he has the energy to mutter out a stupid remark like gojo satoru always does.
ā€œiā€™m sorry i got y-your favourite outfit stained with red, princessā€¦ā€ satoru whispers and that breaks the dam fully. you sob and groan and cry and wail until your voice is hoarse and you cannot speak any more and gojo wants nothing but to full heal himself again just so he could stop your crying. perhaps hold your face in his hands and kiss your forehead and nose and lips and embrace you until you couldnā€™t breathe. perhaps even to tell you he loved you more than anything and everything; more than poems and that foolish line he just had to say at the end and kikufuku and waking up next to you.
but in what world will gojo satoru ever get repose and a normal life? you hope for every other universe to have him be a preschool teacher, or maybe a florist, or even a superstar. but not in this one, no.
the hand that caressed your cheek is replenished again with cursed energy.
satoru gives you three squeezes.
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poorly-drawn-mdzs Ā· 5 months ago
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Congratulations to TEAM CHEESE for winning the popular vote on the Charcuterie poll!
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ganondoodle Ā· 2 years ago
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i think im here too early, hes not even finished marinading
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kit-screams-into-the-future Ā· 6 months ago
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wanted to try my hand at a fake screenshot thing with a scene from one of the bttf fics of all time, Time Is a Flat Circle by @fourth-dimensional-thinker! i set in to draw only the "little canary" line but. as you can tell. my hand slipped and fell down a 6 story building
if you haven't read it already please check it out PLEASEEE it's very good. i read the whole thing in basically one sitting. the vibes are perfect for the spooky season too!
versions without the filter/subtitles under the cut:
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wantonlywindswept Ā· 8 months ago
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Definitely True Facts About Commander Vertex #3
He has negative Force bacteria.
[forgotten Fox AU tag]
"Midichlorians," Patches said, for the third time, his head in his hands. "They're called midichlorians."
"Tiny little buggers that live in your body," Jek scoffed. "I might have barely scraped by my biology modules, but that sounds like bacteria to me."
Patches whimpered.
Jek grinned and reached over to pat his babiest of brothers on the head. Their youngest medic really was too easy to rile up.Ā 
Still, at least Patches was capable of taking a break on occasion, even if it was just to sit at Jek's bedside in the medbay while he recovered from a round of Force cleansing. He always felt a little like the mess hall slop after every session, squishy and mostly-liquid, though the effects had been lessening as the treatments went on.Ā 
Turned out that working in close proximity to an evil Sith overlord for an extended period of time could be 'damaging' and 'harmful to the spirit', and as soon as the Jedi got the okay from Marshal Commander Thorn they'd instituted regular healing sessions for the Guard. Some of them weren't overly affected--the ARF division hadn't been allowed in the Senate Dome that often anyway, and the medics rarely left the infirmary, much less Guard HQ--but the majority of them were on rotating schedules to get their minds checked for Sith residue or whatever.
It was even worse for the Force-sensitives.
No one was more surprised to find Force-sensitive clones than the clones themselves, and a frankly unsettling percentage of the Guard tested for above-average midichlorian counts. That was just those who agreed to submit to the assessment, too--a lot of the Guard refused to do even that. It wasn't like they could be Jedi, and with the war over, what did it even matter?
(Except it did matter, a lot, because apparently evil Sith overlords could also drain the life force from sentients around them, and particularly enjoyed ones with the Force. Palpatine got a little tasty burst of power like they were some kind of energy snack, and it wasn't like the Guard weren't already exhausted anyway.
That kind of siphoning left even worse traces of Sith influence; Jek's cleansing sessions made his bones feel like wobbly gelatin, but Glitch's sessions hurt.)
"I bet Defib's m-count is the highest in the Guard," Jek mused absently as he watched their CMO stalk around the medbay between the beds--and the Jedi--with a scowl on his face.Ā 
Patches lifted his head to give Jek a horrified look.
"Don't say that where he can hear you."
Jek, who lacked both bones and a sense of self-preservation, merely shrugged. Defib had refused testing, scoffing that he didn't need the Force to heal, but he wasn't named after a defibrillator for nothing: he'd brought more than one brother back from the brink of death against impossible odds.
Jek had his suspicions about Patches, too.Ā 
Even with Defib hovering suspiciously over their shoulders, the Jedi healers--there were four of them, led by Master Rig Nema--moved around the medbay with an almost unearthly poise. Jek was more familiar with ordered chaos in the infirmary: medics shouting across the room to each other, rushing back and forth to see how far their meager supplies could stretch. The Jedi were quiet, coordinating with each other soundlessly while still seeming to be aware of everything else happening in the room.
The mesmerizing little dance wasn't even interrupted by the main doors opening, which drew Jek's attention to Commander Vertex stepping into the medbay. The commander had his bucket tucked under one arm, and sharp eyes surveyed the room in a quick glance.
Patches waved at Vertex, because he was adorable.Ā 
Vertex waved back, because he was a sap.
Defib immediately veered off his self-appointed task of looming to intercept Vertex before he got too far into the room. They ducked their heads together in a brief conversation with far too much angry gesticulating on Defib's part, and the calm competency Jek had come to expect on Vertex's. Jek watched, fascinated, as Vertex managed to settle the fuming medic with just a few words and a gentle touch to his shoulder.Ā 
Defib made a bitchy face, but he did seem to lose some of his protective bristling; at Vertex's nudge he sidled over to his desk in the corner of the medbay, dropping into his chair to finally take a break and...to angrily chew on a ration bar?
Incredible.
The Jedi, meanwhile, had continued on with their Force nonsense, which lasted up until Vertex tapped one of the healers on the shoulder and their serenity shattered with a resounding squawk.
The poor Rodian who made the noise spun around, flailing wildly, and would have fallen back onto one of the beds if Vertex hadn't grabbed her to keep her upright. The other three Jedi's heads snapped up in eerie synchronicity, startled expressions on their faces, and Master Nema took a jolting step forward before seeming to register what had happened.
In the frozen stillness that followed, Defib's sullen crunching took on a distinctive note of glee.
"Apologies," Vertex said. "I didn't mean to startle you."
"When did you even..."Ā 
"How can we be of assistance, Commander Vertex?" Master Nema asked, stepping away from her patient to take the place of the still-baffled apprentice healer. Both she and Vertex smoothly ignored the disbelief radiating off the other Jedi, who were looking at Vertex like they didn't know how he had appeared.Ā 
Jek wondered that sometimes, too, but it didn't bother him.
"Hey," he said, nudging Patches with his elbow as the two bigwigs conversed, "What do you bet that Commander Vertex has negative Force bacteria?"
Patches stared at Jek like he'd kicked a baby massiff, and then slowly sunk lower in his chair with a low, despairing whine.
So easy.
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vaguely-concerned Ā· 20 days ago
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listen I just... this path of harding's loyalty mission with this specific party. the disrupted self squad. the trauma has made me a stranger to myself Have You Seen Me I can't find my way back union. team fractured reality and I'm piecing it and myself back together as best I can (will you keep me company in the meantime?). the echoes and the implications. as above so below, as in you so in me, large cosmic scale to painfully small personal psychological scale. pain from the distant past still alive and snarling to be known in the now, and pain right now and ongoing but forgotten and unseen, supressed by means natural and unnatural (what's a little blood magic to help denial and dissociation along between frenemies huh solas). the extra meaning 'spite' takes on as a phrasing here (because it's all IN THERE this is all in the big text of the game!!! the themes echo back on themselves everywhere you listen for them!!!!). rook who once more doesn't even know that they don't KNOW they're also speaking to themselves as well as harding in this scene, to their own broken self and mind partially mirrored in someone they love (broken by the same perpetrator, even, in this case!!!!!!!!! hello solas once more), harding who doesn't quite know she's also speaking to them as well as to herself, to the dwarves, the titans, the world; everything and everyone that has ever been hurt, but whose stubborn kindness still has room for it all. (even for solas. hello again. we cannot escape you it seems mr dread wolf it's almost like you and your plethora of fuckery are thematically central or something (grudgingly affectionate).) even without perfect understanding of the full picture, the simple intention to be kind matters.
(forgive me for my sentimental nature and everpresent rookanis bias for a moment but ALSO lucanis looking over at rook Like That in this context, while those words are being spoken!!! spite's role in urging him towards escaping, living, thriving, instead of merely numbly surviving, and how it ties in with harding's revelation and decision here. and rook who opens doors and stays to walk through them with you, at the end being found and helped through a door of their own, and lucanis himself being one of the people to do that. do you. do you get me. I feel strange and wild.)
most of all harding just. saying the whole thing. summing the whole game up. 'we're different, but we're not gone. we will thrive -- in spite of you'. I was RIGHT about it all the way back in november actually and I should say it!!!!! the game is saying this on purpose. 'and then... everyone was there. and that's when I knew we'd be okay. that I'd... that I'd be okay'. my friend lace harding might be the only person who really gets it huh. and what a legacy for varric to leave behind in the narrative (and what a common da2 W, the little team that couldn't does it again better than anyone's ever done it by doing it the worst anyone's ever done it, hawke can't stop winning by always losing). no salvation but each other but my god that is plenty. my god. that is enough. once more
my head is in my hands I love this game desperately, it rewards really sitting with and taking in the themes so much. i'm so sorry for dropping a bunch of my own metas in there like that but I'm finding it so hard to say what I need to say all in one go, it's just -- it's so big! it's so much! I have so many thoughts to express about my unified theory of veilguard and only my poor battered neurons to do it with, please look upon me with clemency and, perhaps, forbearance. and it's so interesting that you can bring another companion along with rook and harding in this scene and have it mean just as much with slightly different nuances, have it resonate just as much with the overall meaning the game is trying to get across, because they're truly all tied in with each other that way; they're all part of a larger truth. you think it's one theme after another but the damn things overlap etc.
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ryuusei-boi Ā· 17 days ago
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I love Minamisawa's arc, I'm sad he left Raimon so early on bc I would've loved to see more of him, but it's still so satisfying.
I really like that he and the rest of Gassan Kunimitsu had to learn that they can't always depend on Fifth's rules. the team had already been following them even before Minamisawa joined, and he was already okay with - and kind of hoping - to just be able to fall in line and graduate with a good-looking student record. but having been in Raimon before, that seed was already planted about fighting for what you love, and he realized just what it was that he truly wanted- and that the only way for him to get it, was to fight like hell for it.
and I love that his teammates saw him give it his all and realized that Fifth's rules had been holding them back, and then and there decided to abandon those rules and throw themselves into the battle. not just to win, but for Minamisawa. because he fought so hard, against his old team no less, for something they were all hoping would just fall into their lap if they behaved and did as told. he, a newcomer, proved to them that standing by and watching wouldn't help them, and instead of disregarding him, they accepted his influence and fully committed to playing a fair and fun match. in a way, Minamisawa was to them what Tenma was to Raimon- a revolutionary wind.
him playing against his old team in the first place brings a lot of good drama also, like the betrayal and the anger and confusion- I don't know just how close he was with the other third years, but I think one of them mentioned that he hadn't told them anything about what school he was transferring to, or even that he was transferring at all. to their knowledge he just quit the soccer club and that was it. any feelings of betrayal make sense, this came out of nowhere for them.
and on his end, there seems to be some frustration about how things unfolded- he didn't leave for no reason after all, and even though he jumped at the opportunity to, it doesn't mean he feels apathetic about it. Minamisawa seems like the type of guy to act cool on the outside, but ruminate on things quite a lot inside his head. and he's not emotionless, leaving the team and Raimon as a whole had to be a big step for him, I just believe that he chose not to show it. it would be easier for everyone that way.
I really love that he acknowledged Tenma as a good player and a worthy addition to Raimon, giving credit for stirring the team with the wind of revolution. the effects that Tenma had on the team may have lead to Minamisawa leaving, but it also lead to him finding new friends and his own soccer at Gassan Kunimitsu, and ultimately reconnecting with Raimon after that match. he wasn't exactly welcome to change at first, but acknowledging and vocalizing Tenma's role in changing his life for the better is proof that he's changed and grown a lot.
and on top of that, Raimon assuring him that no matter what he'll do or where he'll go, there'll always be a spot for him at Raimon? that they'll always be waiting for him? ahhh man it's so good, it's that promise of eternal friendship and support, even after everything, even though he was the one who left. and they acknowledge that Gassan Kunimitsu needs a player like him, that he belongs to that team too now, but that it doesn't matter which uniform he wears- he will always have friends at Raimon.
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skrunksthatwunk Ā· 10 months ago
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KUWAMESHI SKETCH DUMP KUWAMESHI SKETCH DUMP in which they are little shits who cannot stop messing with each other
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also obv zoom in to see everything bc this shit is CRAMPED. but it's all neat i prommy
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deus-ex-mona Ā· 7 months ago
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favourite stupid relationship dynamic: idiots who would immediately protect and defend the other but never themself
#still thinking about how lxl just takes whatever life throws at them without fighting back (esp in the lxl movie)#so it was up to the other (mainly yujiro) to do the protecting (of aizo) since he was clearly not going to do anything about it#poor yujiro never fought back against the longleg/shortleg until aizo was brought upā€¦ no sense of self-preservation with that one#ā€˜you can mess with me but not my bf!!!!!ā€™ kind of energy#ig aizo did kind of defend yujiro in the [redacted] anime ep 4 nonsense and pointless scandal scene but thatā€™s about itā€¦#give aizo more chances to play the hero for his cute bf!!!!! the princess carry wasnā€™t enough!!!!#though. ngl itā€™s kinda funny how aizoā€™s always portrayed as the husband and yujiro the wife in their r/s (see: meoto)#but yujiro is always the one fighting for aizoā€™s honour. l&k novel (i think; still havent read it). lxl movie. chizu hallway scene (kind of)#and even in honeypre he got aizo the werewolf costume (instead of the pumpkin). he was the one who gave aizo a gift on white day (like a bf)#he even turned aizo into a worried wife when he (the bumbling husband) wandered out till late in kyoto to look for a *phone strap*#hm. well. im not sure what the point im trying to make is other than the fact that lxl are idiots for each other ig#they may be really really stupid but they love(?) and support each other (in a sense)ā€¦ two menaces in a pod.#they should just get married (again)#though speaking of lxl marriage remember when that music magazine spread misinfo about how meoto was set in the sengoku era#and everyone believed it? the mv sure shocked everyone in more ways than one lmaooooooo#lxl twt was on fire that day. ā€˜horns??? a fantasy setting????? what happened to the sengoku era?????ā€™ it was so funny you h a d to be there#but. hm. weā€™ve had quite a lxl content droughtā€¦ disregarding the [redacted] mv they havent been seen in 4 months#throwing out a guess that theyļæ½ļæ½ļæ½ll get a new song for a winter comiket cd or sth. idk#sure hope that lxl do not get a new song or mv before kimikawaii release though bc thatā€™d be unfairrrrrrrrr
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kara-knuckles Ā· 5 months ago
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I'm honestly baffled by how many people seem to get "Manfred is freethinker, Ascalon is sheeple" from Babel and "Manfred outsmarted Hoederer" from 14. I can at least begrudgingly understand the former, because the narrative goes out of its way to invalidate Ascalon's every decision so you need to be invested enough to take a step back and see it's actually bullshit, but with the latter W outright mocks Manfred for acting exactly like Hoederer predicted, and this is despite Ulsulah's advanced warnings about the situation on Lifebone. Hell, the fact that Hoederer doesn't even try to fight (presumably because he is acting as a bait and this minimizes his potential injuries) and complete lack of reaction from everyone else suggest that everything was still proceeding according to plan B (separate Manfred from his men so you don't fight them at the same time), even if plan A (intercept him) got Damazti'd.
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remythologise Ā· 2 months ago
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kcd2.........
#the slowburn merthur of it all. head in my hands.#hyperfixations. you'll never guess where they'll come from next#sorry if you have sent me a message recently on any platform. I will attend to it....#obsessed with how they marketed it last game as like anti-woke and now the biggest controversy is it's slightly woke now. times we live in#if you don't know what the hell I'm talking about I just found out about this game last week and then through a series of shenanigans...#well. anyway when I looked up what the gay romance controversy was like >10 hours into the game I screamed in new and interesting ways#best way to experience it honestly would be to play kcd1 and kcd2 completely unspoiled but that's unrealistic. well. anyway#oscar award for most pleasant surprise of the year.#btw I have not even remotely gotten to this part in kcd2. like haven't gotten to the STRAIGHT romances never mind the. well#anyway. my point is. [falling over] MY POINT IS#thank god for historical fandoms where the fic is on average really good#every person on the team who fought for the storyline to be a thing you deserve one million gift baskets#[me crying to my friends] they let you fuck the guy that's constantly talking about pussy...... do you know how important this is.....#kira for ts#anyway thanks to the people who wrote kcd1 fic. you guys ROCK congrats on your elite investing sense#this is a public service announcement bc nobody on my dash is talking about this incredible thing. I got recommended this game at WORK#by someone who DIDN'T EVEN KNOW ABOUT. WELL.#discovering something incredible was going to happen to me in real time.....
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claitea Ā· 2 months ago
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ok i havent played usum in ages and i never got this cutscene myself. but iirc a month after you complete the game a special cutscene appears in aether paradise where lusamine is able to bid goodbye to mohn and get some closure on that
i want something like that for a bw remake. after a month in the castle, n realizes hey actually this sucks. if i want to find my friend i have to do more than just sit around and hope they find me. so you the player take him to find cheren and bianca for help, both making friends with them and rekindling their own friendship.
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alexjcrowley Ā· 10 months ago
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I am all against the "social" social media (that's why I almost esclusively used tumblr) but I think TikTok should have existed in 2009 to make very shirt aesthetic edit of Jenson Button at Brawn being sad during the entire second half of the season + montage of various people Luca di Montezemolo saying he's not world champion material/he doesn't have that one extra bit with the audio "There's really no way of winning/ If in their eyes you'll always be a dumb blonde"
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viperwhispered Ā· 6 months ago
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It is here! The playlist for Emi's first year at NRC, and her relationship with Jamil.
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Donā€™t get spooked by the Finnish in the first song, the rest are in English.
Basically, this mostly follows the timeline of Emiā€™s first year in NRC (for more details, you can check her intro post and the timeline of her relationship with Jamil). All from her pov, pretty much.
You can probably tell when the Jamil feelings start to take hold, lol.
Funnily enough, My Land was the first specific song that came to my mind when I started this up (hi Azul apparently the mood for your schemes is very specific). For the rest, I combed through my spotify library (and oop did it take longer than I anticipated).
Thereā€™ll also be a few bonus songs in a reblog, including some for Jamil's point of view (because tumblr likes to be silly about showing posts with links and I don't wanna try my luck more than I already am).
Also if someone would prefer a youtube version to more easily access the songs, do let me know!
Anyways, there'll be some rambles and explanations under the cut, both for my thought process and for what each song was chosen to represent.
Taikatalvi
I wanted to start off with something in Finnish, to express where Emiā€™s coming from before waking up in the coffin at NRC. Palasia by Harmaja was also a very strong contender, but I figured this had more of a magical and fairytale vibe which suited this occasion. Plus, like, Nightwish as a band has been with me about forever, so it was quite fitting from that perspective, too.
The Worlds Forgotten, The Words Forbidden
It seems to me this one might be reasonably self-explanatory. Emi doesnā€™t know where she is, she doesnā€™t remember where sheā€™s coming from, and sheā€™s not exactly having a great time trying to figure out what is happening. The joys of surprise isekai šŸ™ƒ
Whatever Makes You Feel Superior
Our first overblot song. Emiā€™s rule following has its limits, too, and her first impressions of Riddle sure ainā€™t the most favorable.
Wrap Your Troubles In Dreams
Basically, about Emi generally trying to cope with her situation and keep her hopes up. I also thought of using Turn the Page by Blind Guardian or Wishmaster by Nightwish to specifically refer to her escapism via books, but unfortunately those had to go when I was cutting down the playlist.
Mindfall Remedy
For Leonaā€™s overblot - yep, Emi doesnā€™t have a huge amount of sympathy for Leona either, at least in the moment when sheā€™s just scared. It Wonā€™t Fade by Sonata Arctica was also a strong contender, especially with all the pack and animal imagery, but it didnā€™t quite fit - plus we already had another song from that album, and I figured Iā€™d go for more variety instead.
Day Three: Pain
Emi struggling to come to terms with the fact that welp, she couldā€™ve died, and this place is dangerous, and scary, and strange, and everything. Basically, things are not great.
My Land
I felt the mood suited book 3 and Emiā€™s feelings there quite well. Azul basically got Emi on a warpath - Azulā€™s taken something of hers, her home as much as she has one, and she wants it back.
Plus, this has been a very motivational / inspiring / uplifting song for me for ages, getting me pumped up for dealing with difficult things, so I figured itā€™d be very fitting here, with Emi squaring up to deal with Azulā€™s schemes.
The Rest Of The Sun Belongs To Me
Basically Emiā€™s mood after book 3 / as winter break approaches. Sheā€™s still struggling, but she is hanging on, and seeing more of a light at the end of the tunnel as sheā€™s adjusting more.
Asking For It
For Jamilā€™s overblot. This was a tricky one to pick a song for, because itā€™s like Emiā€™s angry and hurt, but not completely without sympathy. My other options were Chameleon Halo by Entwine or Sin With a Grin by Shinedown. Honestly, all of them couldā€™ve worked, but again trying to pick just one. Girlā€™s fear and all sure is turning into anger here, tho - and she sure doesnā€™t appreciate the feeling of being fooled and used.
Life
For ADeuce and friendship in general. Itā€™s not all bad here, is it, and Emiā€™s gonna be very touched when she realizes the lengths they both are willing to go for her.
Clevermind
Some reflections post Jamilā€™s overblot. Honestly partially included this just since it talks about what could've been in December, it just felt too fitting. Like, Jamil could've had more sympathy and stuff from Emi, and Emi recognizes it, but boy did he squander it.
Arabesque
Iā€™m sure yā€™all can figure out who this refers to. (Iā€™m thinking the Scarabia duo in general, tbh, but yeah Jamil in particular when book 5 rolls around.)
Plastic World
For Vilā€™s overblot. I also considered Curtained Life by Entwine. Nothing much to say tbh, I feel it fits quite nicely.
State of My Head
Grimā€™s gone (and so are a few others), and turns out Emi cares enough to be feeling very protective. Not like she can rush STYX guns blazing but yeah, sheā€™s not exactly feeling meek here.
Bleeding for the Cure
For Idiaā€™s overblot. Was a bit tricky finding something exact for this, but I think the moodā€™s pretty fitting here. Plus how Idia's feeling like she doesn't have a chance for a future outside STYX and all that fun stuff.
The Symphony
Things are looking more up, Ramshackleā€™s starting to get more cozy with what Emi & Jamil have been doing to fix it up, some of the anxieties have been leaving Emi. And, mayhaps, there are some feelings stirring?
A Dark Switch & Aquaman
Emiā€™s starting to realize her feelings for Jamil and commit to it. I could've stuck with just one song but I could not bring myself to do so.
The Looking Glass
For book 7. Comatose by Ayreon wouldā€™ve also been great, but again, trying to cull things down.
The rest is basically more or less sappy love songs for Jamemiā€™s future, lol. Still, itā€™s not all sunshine and roses - thereā€™s times of separation in their future, with them being on different years on NRC, they gotta lean on each other, and itā€™s not like they always see eye to eye.
Honestly it was so hard not to make this too long with all the songs I wanted to include, but Iā€™m quite happy with the range here.
And like, how could I not dedicate some time to being thoroughly sappy with these two.
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ferronickel Ā· 6 months ago
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In typical Ferronickel fashion, I am now plagued with thoughts about how the Brontƫ's juvenilia would be different in a world where the military had dragons, a subsection of interests that is so irrelevant to everyone else that it's barely every worth mentioning on this site, let alone creating any fanworks about.
I'm gonna do a little incomprehensible rant in the tags about it and the go on my merry way. Please ignore the following
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hanzajesthanza Ā· 10 months ago
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this looks like a long time but initially it said 1 MONTH 15 days
#i think i will just have to grab cutscene footage from online... im not waiting for that sh... lmao#this has me admitting that i'm not a gamer and left that identity behind some time ago... which is kind of sad but ok#thoughh when witcher 4 drops... šŸ˜ˆ#oh my god i typed witcher 34 instead of witcher 4. i think that already exists on the internet LOL#i'm actually not as excited for w4 as i am for the remaster of the first game#i also don't have any saves and i need footage of like some late-quest stuff (just for a mention of lore inconsistencies LOL)#like what do i do go beat tw3 AGAIN just to get a clip of ciri facing the white frost#...................... well........#ok ngl actually a shot of emhyr in the beginning of the game would be better to explain 'lore inconsistencies'#because that's probably more aggravating to me than the 'we changed the white frost so you can fight it' thing#that thing is understandable. that's like basic video game logic. antagonists can be fought...#and though i don't like that messaging that forces of nature can be fought...#i understand this is a AAA game with outcomes that need to be written as endings. it's not an experiential VN#emhyr in tw3 though has just annoyed me and has actually annoyed me ever since i found out his character from the books#after all that you're gonna take him and pretend he just wanted to be a better dad and have a good heir on the throne...#well ok he did want a good heir on the throne. to be fair. just. not ciri but her child ... ahem#tw3 just dropped that pregnancy plot like a hot potato šŸ˜­ because it's so uncomfortable#without vilgefortz to decapitate in the end and the lodge actively plotting around i admit it loses its meaning#also to be fair tw3 does not have that throughline about reproduction and destiny that the books do#like the begetting of progeny is a huge huge huge theme in the books and so ciri's storyline is just one of a few ways it comes up#without geralt and yennefer specifically being angsty at the start about children it doesn't really work as a plot for ciri later on#the elbow-high diaries
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