#you ever watch that Snapchat thing they did a series called love doesn’t judge

[sweetcreaturetm]

This is gonna be controversial but I cannot get on with polyamory. Like you do you I’ll never tell someone they’re not allowed to be in whatever kind of relationship they want to. But… like you come at me with a poly ship and suddenly I’m Mamaw from Alabama like I don’t get it 😂😂

[lovemesomesurveys]

1. What do you like to do in your free time? So what do I do everyday? Tumblr, surveys, watch TV, watch YouTube, eat, sleep... sometimes read and color.  2. Are you more of an indoors or outdoors person? I am an indoors person all the way. The only exception is if I’m at the beach. 3. Who is the most fascinating person you’ve met? Hmm. 4. What was the last book you really got into? Burying the Honeysuckle Girls by Emily Carpenter.

5. What are some movies you really enjoyed? There’s several. 

6. What amazing adventures have you been on? I haven’t really been on any. 7. What pets have you had? Dogs, fishes, hamsters. 8. What’s your favorite alcoholic and non-alcoholic drink? I don’t drink alcohol anymore, so none, but my favorite non-alcoholic drink is coffee.  9. What are you kind of obsessed with these days? My food obsessions come to mind at the moment. My appetite is all over the place and I’m either an endless pit or hardly eating anything at all. Each week is different in terms of that and what I’m into. This past week it’s been breakfast burritos, deli sandwiches, deli pasta salads, and ramen. I also had a really good pizza last week that I’m craving again. 10. Where have you traveled? To beaches, mountainous areas, Disneyland, Arizona, Idaho, Georgia, Mexico. 11. What’s your favorite international food? Italian. 12. Are you a morning person or a night owl? I’m barely a person. 13. What’s your favorite restaurant? Applebees. 14. How many siblings do you have? 2. 15. What would be your dream job? I don’t have one. :/  16. What would you do if had enough money to not need a job? Travel.  17. Who is your favorite author? I have a few. 18. What was the last show you binge-watched? Orange is the New Black.  19. What TV series do you keep coming back to and re-watching? I’ve seen The Golden Girls, Roseanne, and I Love Lucy countless times in syndication.  20. What hobbies would you like to get into if you had the time and money? Hm. I don’t know. 21. If there was an Olympics for everyday activities, what activity would you have a good chance at winning a medal in? Taking surveys. 22. What would your perfect vacation look like? Somewhere involving a beach house and private beach area. 23. Among your friends, what are you best known for? I don’t know. 24. What music artist do you never get tired of? There’s a lot. Well, at least their music itself I never tire of. I may not necessarily keep up with the artist.  25. What are some accomplishments that you are really proud of? I honestly don’t feel proud of myself for much of anything in my current state. It used to be getting my BA, but now not even that because I’m doing anything with it and I really don’t have any plans to. I feel like it was a waste and I’m a total failure and disappointment. 26. What are some obscure things that you are or were really into? *shrug* 27. What are some things everyone should try at least once? I don’t knowww. 28. What fad did you never really understand? There’s been many where I was just like, wtf, why??

29. What’s the best thing that has happened to you this month? Going to the beach last week was great and very much needed. 30. What would your perfect morning be like? I’d be in a house with a beautiful ocean view and I’d be out sipping my coffee on the balcony overlooking said view.   31. Is there any art or artist you are really into? No. 32. What are you always game for? Coffee. 33. What do you do to unwind? Listen to ASMR. 34. What’s your favorite app on your phone? I use YouTube, Twitter, Facebook, Instagram, Snapchat, and Kindle app the most. 35. Cutest animal? Ugliest animal? Awwww I think majority of animals are cute.  36. Who is the kindest person you know? One of my nurses. 37. What’s your favorite piece of furniture you’ve ever owned? My bed. 38. Who are your kind of people? People with a good sense of humor. 39. Where’s the strangest place you’ve ever been? Uhhh. 40. What’s the silliest fear you have? I have a lot. Like for one, sometimes when I’m in the shower I get this scary thought about the pipes just bursting. That’s just one of many. 41. What would be the best city to live in? I don’t know. 42. What household chore is just the worst? I’m not a fan of any chore. 43. If you could give yourself a nickname, what nickname would you want people to call you? *shrug* Steph is fine. How original, I know. 44. What odd talent do you have? I don’t feel I have any. 45. If you could give everyone just one piece of advice, what would it be? Just try and be kind and understanding. 46. What would you like to know more about, but haven’t had the time to look into it? Hmm. 47. What country do you never want to visit? Any country where it would be dangerous for me to be in? <<< Yeah, I agree. 48. What wrong assumptions do people make about you? People think I’m “strong” and “brave” and give me way more credit than I deserve. I’m none of those things. 49. Do you prefer to work in a team or alone? Alone. 50. What has been the best period of your life so far? Childhood. 51. How have you changed from when you were in high school? That was over 10 years ago and a LOT has changed. Not for the better, either. 52. How techie are you? Uhh techie enough? I don’t know. I mean, I like the latest phones and laptops and stuff like that.  53. Where is the most fun place around where you live? Nowhere in my city, that’s for sure. You gotta travel out of town to do anything fun. 54. Have you ever joined any meetup groups? No. 55. Where would your friends or family be most surprised to find you? They’d be surprised to find me out at all at this point, ha. 56. What’s the most relaxing situation you could imagine? Lying out on the beach. 57. What is the most beautiful view you’ve seen? Ocean and mountainous views. 58. What’s expensive but totally worth it? For me, it’s my MacBook. 59. When do you feel most out of place? I often feel that way. 60. What’s the most recent thing you’ve done for the first time? I can’t think of something at the moment. My days are very routine and I do the same the things. 61. How did you come to love your one of your favorite musicians? Probably first seeing their music videos on MTV back when they actually played music videos. 62. How did you meet your best friend? She gave birth to me. 63. What small seemingly insignificant decision had a massive impact on your life? I don’t know. 64. Where would you move if you could move anywhere in the world and still find a job and maintain a reasonable standard of living? I’m not sure, but somewhere where it doesn’t get unbearably hot and has actual fall and winters.  65. Would you like to be famous? (If yes, what would you want to be famous for? If no, why not?) No. I don’t want that attention and focus on me. I couldn’t handle it. I hole up at home and have avoided people in my personal life, why would I want people all over all up in my business and judging my every move? No thank you. 66. What did you do last summer? Complain about how hot it was and was dying, mostly. What I do every summer. 67. If you lived to 100, would you rather keep the body or the mind of yourself at 30 until you were 100? What. 68. Before you make a call, do you rehearse what you are going to say? Oh god, yes. I HATE having to make calls.  69. What are you most grateful for? My family. 70. What’s the most essential part of a friendship? Being able to trust them and talk to them about things and enjoying common interests. 71. When was the last time you sang to yourself or to someone else? Yesterday. 72. If you knew you were going to die in a year, what would you change about how you live? I don’t like questions like this. 73. When was the last time you walked for more than an hour? Yearssss ago.  74. What did you do for (last holiday)? Or What will you do for (next closest holiday)? We didn’t do anything for Memorial Day. Next holiday is Father’s Day, and we’ll probably go to lunch and/or see a movie.  75. Best and worst flavor ice cream? What would make for an excellent new ice cream flavor? Strawberry or mint chocolate chip.  76. Who’s your favorite actor or actress? Alexander Skarsgard. 77. All modesty aside, what are you better at than 90% of people? It doesn’t have to be useful or serious, it can be something ridiculous. I don’t feel I’m great at anything. 78. What’s the strangest phone conversation you’ve ever had? I don’t know. 79. How much personal space do you need to be comfortable? I don’t want someone all hugged up on me. 80. What’s the most interesting fact you know? I couldn’t choose just one. 81. What fad or trend have you never been able to understand? A lot of them, honestly. 82. Who’s your favorite character from a TV show, movie, or book? I’ll just pick one of the many shows I watch, Riverdale: The main crew, Betty, Veronica, Judghead, and Archie. 83. What TV shows did you watch when you were a kid? Stuff on Nickelodeon, Disney, PBS, and WB Kids. Oh, and the Saturday morning cartoons that came on ABC like Recess and Pepperann. 84. What do you like but are kind of embarrassed to admit? I don’t feel embarrassed about anything I like. 85. What’s your favorite smell? When an attractive guy smells good, oh my. <<< That really is nice. And the ocean/beachy air, rain, patchouli, sandalwood, fruity scents, minty scents, cinnamon, coffee, freshly baked goods and the smells of my favorite foods... 86. What skill or ability have you always wanted to learn? I wish I took piano more seriously back when I used to practice. 87. What’s the best meal you’ve ever had? Recently, it was the pizza I had last week.  88. Where was your favorite place to go when you were a kid? Anywhere with my cousins. 89. What’s the most amount of people you had to present something in front of? Like 30+. Presenting in front of anyone is a nightmare. 90. If you could go back in time as an observer, no one could see you, and you couldn’t interact with anything, when would you want to go back to? Ooh. I’d have to really think about that. 91. What’s something that most people haven’t done, but you have? Hmm. 92. What says the most about a person? How they present themselves. 93. What machine or appliance in your house aggravates you the most? None, really. Unless it’s not working for some reason. 94. What places have you visited that exceeded your expectations? Certain vacation spots and restaurants. 95. If you opened a business, what type of business would you start? I wouldn’t. 96. What’s the worst movie you’ve ever seen? It’s been a long time since I’ve seen a really bad movie. 97. What’s the best road trip you’ve been on? Trip to Idaho back in the summer of 2010. A lot of my family on my mom’s side went and it was really fun. We had no idea it would be the last time we’d see my grandpa before he died the end of that year. It happened really fast. He wasn’t even sick like that when we visited him that summer. At least, he didn’t appear to be. That trip ended up being even more special. 98. If you found a briefcase filled with 1 million in 100$ bills in front of your door, what would you do with it? Check for ID or if anyone has reported it missing. Otherwise, I’d keep it. 99. What’s the worst advice someone has given you? I don’t know. 100. Besides your home and your work, where do you spend most of your time? I’m always at home.  101. If you could have the answer to any one question, what question would you want the answer to? Hmm.  102. What are your top 3 favorite things to talk about? Common interests, celebrity/entertainment gossip, some current event type stuff. 103. What do you care least about? It would seem like myself. 104. Where would you like to retire? I’m not even thinking about that right now. I’m not even working. :X 105. Who is the most bizarre person you’ve met? Uhh. 106. What are people often surprised to learn about you? What happened to me that made me a paraplegic. 107. Would you rather live full time in an RV or full time on a sailboat? RV. 108. What would you do with the extra time if you never had to sleep? I really wouldn’t want that. I want my sleep. I need that escape. 109. When you were a kid, what seemed like the best thing about being a grown up? You think you can do whatever you want. 110. What’s the strangest way you’ve become friends with someone? I can’t think of any strange ways. 111. What’s your go-to series or movie when you want to watch something but can’t find anything to watch? If I can’t find something to watch on TV then I tend to just put it on the ID channel. 112. What were some of the turning points in your life? My accident, surgeries, graduating, health related things. 113. What companies made you so mad that you would rather suffer bodily harm than give them any more of your money? I’ve never been that upset with a company.  114. What small things brighten up your day when they happen? When what happens? 115. What sports would be funniest if the athletes had to be drunk while playing? I still wouldn’t care to watch sports. 116. What’s the most ridiculous thing you’ve done because you were bored? Just sleep. 117. If you could send one letter to yourself in the past without the goal of making yourself rich (no lotto numbers, stock picks, etc.), what age would you choose and what would the letter say? I’d go back to like...high school days and warn myself of some things and tell myself to take better care of myself. 118. How many other countries have you visited? Just one. 119. What’s your favorite band NAME (not necessarily your favorite band)? Panic! At the Disco. I just like the “Panic!” part, ha. And why at the disco? What happened? 120. What do you miss about life 10 or 20 years ago? My life wasn’t ran by my health. 121. What’s your favorite holiday? Christmas.  122. What’s getting worse and worse as you get older? What’s getting better and better as you get older? Worse: health and life. Better: .... 123. Where’s the best place in (your town or city) to have a picnic? I guess a park. 124. What’s your favorite thing to do outdoors? Go to the beach.  125. How often do you dance? Silly/ironic dancing counts. I may bob my head while listening to music. 126. What do you never get tired of? Coffee. 127. What habit do you wish you could start? Better self-care things. 128. What’s the best way to get to know who someone really is? Just spending time getting to know them. Oh, and seeing how they act in public situations.  129. What’s the last new thing you tried? A new type of pizza last week. 130. Who besides your parents taught you the most about life? I’d say experiences have. 131. When are you the most “you” that you can be? In other words, when do you feel most like yourself? At home in my comfort zone. 132. What’s the most spontaneous thing you’ve done? *shrug* I’m not very spontaneous. 133. What’s happening now, that in 20 years people will look back on and laugh about? A lot of things, I’m sure. Like how easily people get all up in an uproar about literally everything. 134. How much social interaction is too much? I can’t handle much. 135. How different do you act when you are with acquaintances vs. people you are comfortable with? I’m just more guarded and aware, I guess.  136. On a weekend or holiday, what’s the best time of day and the best time of night? All the days are the same to me.  137. What are you looking forward to that’s happening soon? Beach trip. 138. What really cheesy song do you love? There’s plenty of those. 139. What’s the worst or best job you’ve had? I’ve never had one. 140. What’s been the most significant plot twist in your own life? I never saw this downward spiral coming after I graduated in 2015. It really went downhill after that. 141. Where did you take family vacations to when you were younger? Disneyland and beachy, touristy places. 142. What’s your go-to funny story? I don’t know. 143. If the company you work for / the college you go to had an honest slogan, what would it be? I don’t work and I’m done with school. 144. If you could instantly receive a Ph.D. in any discipline including all the knowledge and experience that goes along with it, what would your Ph.D. be in? I don’t want one, though. I’m not even doing anything with my BA. 145. How well do you cope when you don’t have your phone with you for an extended period of time? I’m fine. 146. What were some of the happiest times of your life so far? Various times in my life with family, childhood, vacations. 147. Would you rather have an incredibly fast car or incredibly fast internet speed? Incredibly fast internet speed. 148. What are the top three social situations you try to avoid most? Any social situation? ha. 149. What friendship you’ve had has impacted you the most? The friendship Ty and I had. 150. What’s something you’re interested in that most people wouldn’t expect? I don’t know. 151. What’s your favourite quote or saying?

152. If you had the power to change one law, what law would you change? Uhhhh. 153. What’s the hardest you’ve worked for something? My BA degree. Ha. What a waste now. 154. What took you way too long to figure out? My stubbornness caused me a lot of problems. I didn’t think things could get the way they are, but they sure did.  155. What nicknames have you had throughout your life? Steph and Sis. 156. What do you do differently than most people? A lot of things, probably. 157. Where’s the last place you’d ever go? Space. 158. What fact floored you when you heard it? I can’t think, man. 159. If you unexpectedly won 10,000$, what would you spend it on? I’d want to travel for sure. Take me awayyyy. 160. Who is the best role model a person could have? That depends on you and what you’re aspiring to be.

[welcometotheonethatgotaway-blog]

Chapter 1 - 24th March 2017

You get hit by it when you least expect it. And I am not talking about the flu or some similar disease, although considering the outcome one could categorise it as a deadly condition. I’m talking about the over-mediatised topic in shows; the thing we so desirably search for our whole life. The one thing that can destroy or repair us in a matter of seconds. Yes, I am talking about love. Well, what I perceived as love. As you read this you might think that I’m over-exaggerating everything that I’m saying or that I’m making stuff up, but, honestly, I am not. So sit back, relax, and enjoy my longest not-so-love story that lasted all of 2 months.

It all started in such an idiotic manner. It was an innocent night, I was talking to some not-so-innocent people on the internet (don’t think of anything dirty… yet) and just feeling quite bored. At some point I innocently thought to myself: “Hey, I could make some time pass by swiping Tinder. I am not looking for anything in particular, but it’s nice looking at cute faces one in a while”.

So I started swiping (not gonna lie, most of them I swiped left, which, for whoever doesn’t know, means that you don’t want to match with the person that has popped up) and I hopelessly and aimlessly did so for about an hour or two. But from one swipe to another I stumbled upon someone. Nothing went through my mind except the fact that he owned the same onesie that I had. A Star Wars Chewbacca one, £15 from Primark. I thought it was kind of humorous so I swiped right (which means you want to match with the said person) and *drumroll* IT’S A MATCH! For the sake of confidentiality I’ll just refer to him as Rob.

So after matching with this Rob person, I was interested in finding out more about him. So I did what people usually do before swiping right, which is check their profile. By doing this I got to realise that this person I matched with is actually pretty damn adorable, not gonna lie. So I initiated conversation and took the role of the “I’ll text first” person. I made a remark about having the same onesie and we hit it off from there. We played a nice game that I proposed that involves “I ask one question, you ask one question”. And, just how any conversation with me goes, it got to the question of “Do you have snapchat?”. The answer was yes so we moved on to there.

 As a parallel to this story, I use snapchat a lot. And everyone who knows me knows I use it a lot. But most people don’t take the time to think why that is. It’s because nothing stays. Everything is temporary. All the pictures, all the texts. Unless screenshotted, (which shows), or saved, they’re just gone. This gives any insecure person like me, a tiny sense of security. No screenshots of WhatsApp convos, no saved pictures to show, no evidence of anything that’s happened that I won’t know of.

 ANYWHORE, moving on. There were some flirty remarks directed towards me, which felt nice, but at that point I was not looking into anything of the sort. I just wanted to un-bore myself. So we continued snapchatting back and forth for a solid 2-3 hours.

Not to bore you too much I will skip the tens of selfies exchanged in those hours and jump to where it gets interesting.

So it’s about 10:30-ish PM by now, at this point we were talking about meeting up for a coffee or something. I jokingly responded with “What if I come by your place tonight?”… Ok, I totally get how that sounds and trust me when I say it was not what it seems to be. At first I asked that as a joke, anticipating a negative response, but… little did I know that his answer was positive. So, me being me, and being incapable of making decisions, I divert the conversation off subject while thinking hard of what to do. I know I could have just said no because it was too quick and weird or I could say yes because hey, cute boy, never done this before, so why not? But instead of it being an easy decision it took me almost an hour. Overthinking is a bitch and I’m so sorry if you do it too. Anywhore, so I make my decision aaaaaand, well, let's just say THIS is where it all officially starts.

So I text him back saying that I’ll leave my house soon and so I did! Packed up and by 11:30 PM I was outside. No turning back. At this point I was still not fully realising what was happening and what the consequences could be so I didn’t react in any way. But the moment I step foot in the bus I thought to myself: “Crap. I’m going to the other side of London to meet a complete stranger, who can, for all I know, be a murderer, or rapist, or just a general psychopath.” So, having my anxiety levels waaaaay over my limits, I start panicking. I had to call someone. The first person that came to mind was a friend of mine who, as myself, studied in the UK. I’ll refer to her as Steph. So I message Steph that I did something stupid and ask if I could call her and to my luck she said yes. So she asks what’s up and I say: “I did a booboo… Iiiiiii… may-or-may-not-have-met-someone-on-tinder-and-now-I’m-on-my-way-to-meet-him! (heavy breathing) So, I’ll be at postcode *insert postcode here* if I don’t call you in 2 days call the police.” I was legitimately petrified. I did not know what was going to happen, who was I meeting, or better said what kind of person was I meeting and talking to Steph made me feel better. (sidenote: THANK YOU STEPH <3 ) At least I did not have a panic attack in the bus. That part comes later…

So, as soon as I get to the tube station (the place where Rob lives will be kept confidential because, you know, I’m a decent human being?) I take a tube line and change at a station for another tube line and badabing badabong, an hour and a half later I was there! I was genuinely terrified. As soon as the tube doors opened I ran up the already moving escalator stairs, feeling how my chest was getting tighter and tighter and my lungs were receiving insufficient amounts of oxygen. I  rushed out the station door and lit up a cigarette (ironic right?). Freaking out, I called Rob and asked him to come pick me up. And so he did. I was looking out for him and PRAAAAAYING that he’s not taller than me (yes, that’s what I was thinking, judge me). And then, I saw him. But, unlike a normal human being who would let the other person know that you acknowledged them, I turned away and pretended I didn’t see him and let him approach me. When he was about 5 meters away from me I lifted my eyes from watching the floor, to the horizon and there he was. Approaching me, this boy, just as tall as me (or maybe 1 cm taller), with a full gingery beard (by full I don’t mean long, I mean just a really nice one that covered most of his roundy cheeks and just looked soft and all-round beautiful to be honest), a blue beanie that left his short fringe cover his forehead and blue eyes that made me think twice about loving brown eyes. I think you get it the idea that in split second there were fuck ton of things through my mind. I felt something I have only felt once before in my life. I didn’t know what it was. I had a hunch, but I didn’t want it to be true. But I pulled myself together and tried acting normal. Well… ‘normal’. So I half smile and with an awkward wave I shyly speak out: “Heeey”. To which he, with a half smile (which was and is so beautiful and charming that I just couldn’t anymore), replied: “Hi!”. And we hugged, because, quite frankly, I am a hugger, and we begin walking towards his apartment.

I tried to be as open as possible in this time and was kind of trying to cope with everything:

“Hey, just fyi, I’m absolutely terrified and I am so sorry for this.”, I said while showing him how hard my hand was shaking.

“Oh come on, it’s ok. I’m not an axe murderer” he replied in a jokingly way with a slight chuckle.

“Well even if you were then I won’t have any assignments left to do so it’s a win-win situation!” I replied, and we both laughed :) #BestIceBreakerAmIRight?

So we continued walking and walking until we had to take a left down a weird alleyway. Truth be told it was really creepy.

“Uhm WHERE are you taking me?!” I exclaimed. “You want to rape me don’t you?” (obviously said sarcastically).

“Yeah, just ‘round this corner is my rape cave!” he responded (again obviously sarcastic).

And we laughed it off and continued walking and surprise surprise we were at the entrance of his flat! We entered and so it begun.

“Would you like something to drink? Tea? Water?” he asked.

“Some tea would be nice, thanks!” I answered.

“What kind?”

“Whatever you have.” I answered, not sure what else to say since I am so horrible at picking and making a decision.

He then opens a cupboard FULL of tea boxes to which he adds:

“Mate, I’m British. I own a lot of types of tea. So pick. I have…” and he started naming out ALL the kinds of tea he had, to which I respond:

“Just a black tea. Earl Grey if you may?”

“Sure thing!” he replied.

So he made me and himself some nice hot cups of tea, during which we had some small talk (more like me complaining about being a student) and then we went into his livingroom and sat on the blue, obviously worn out, IKEA couch.

“Now, if you don’t mind, I’ll continue my ‘Grace and Frankie’ marathon” he said.

“By all means!” I replied.

“Have you ever heard of this show before?”

“Can’t say I have. To be honest, I don’t really watch tv series nowadays... My free time is spent talking to friends online and playing games”

“Ok so. It’s about…” and he goes on to tell me the main plot of it and what I should know without giving any massive spoilers.

“Ok. Great thanks!” I respond and then we carry one watching.

At that point, even after all I described when we first met and afterwards, I did not want anything to happen. I just wanted a nice, cosy night, where I just waste time with this guy I just met and have a giggle.

While the show went on in the background we began talking and basically making small talk. He seemed like a genuine person. He seemed like one of those people who would just say anything to you in such a manner that it would be 100% true and not hurt as badly as it should. Later on, I came to learn that, although this was true, his decision of being so straight forward was not always the best of things. But, going back to the story line, while meaninglessly talking about random stuff, I noticed that he was paying more attention to me than the show. Me. A stranger. Someone he has just met over a dating app a few hours prior to that. And he was taking an interest into what I was saying. And being nice, even though he told me he was “a massive cunt” (his words, not mine). But I didn’t see a “cunt” that night. I didn’t even see a complete stranger. I saw someone that cared about my story. That cared about what I wanted to say, when few other people did. And that did not change till the end of the story. And for that I will be always grateful. Thank you, Rob. For everything.

At the point when the episode ended there was a slight silence for about 5 seconds, when he jumped out of the couch and said:

“Right. Wanna move somewhere more comfy?”

“Where? This couch is already more comfortable than my bed in my room. At least it doesn’t have a spring going into my back…” I responded with a slight chuckle.

“That couch is nowhere near as comfy as my bed. So, if we may?”

“Sure thing! Leggo!”

And I chugged the remaining quarter of a cup of tea that I had and we switched moved to his bedroom.

Truth be told, he was bragging earlier about how comfy his bed was and how I will fall in love with it once I lay in it. But me, being the bastard that I am, did not believe until I saw, or in this case, felt it. So we get there, I sit down and just exclaim:

“Oh. My. God. You weren’t joking…”

“I told you didn’t I?”

“Yes you did.” Point at which I fall on my back and whisper: “I’m never leaving this bed hooooooly shit…” Rob giggled and sat on the bed.

We then started talking. We talked and talked for a while and it felt amazing. I was thinking to myself: “Wow. He understands me. Or at least he tries to. How is this happening? Why is this happening? What am I feeling right now? Is this ok? Should I continue talking to this person? Am I doing the right thing? Will this come back to me and bite me? Am I really doing the right thing? Why? Why do I keep on talking and sharing stuff some people that have known me for years don’t know and why does it feel so right but so god damn wrong? Why? Ok, just pull yourself together. Don’t freak him out like you do to most people.” Mind you this happened in a matter of seconds. So… I get up and sit next to him and we continued talking. And it got to a point where we almost kissed, but I borderline denied it. I was not ready. And I was not even sure if I wanted that. I didn’t know what I wanted. I kept telling myself that I don’t want anything, but I was feeling the exact opposite. He giggled a bit after I “rejected” the kiss (if you want to use that word) and we moved on with our conversation.

At one point he laid on the bed, facing upwards. So, me being the socially awkward but sometimes ballzy person that I am, I laid there aswell and placed my head on his soft, comfy belly. In that moment I was in bliss. I felt like everything was great and nothing wrong was going on in my life. I felt safe for once in a long while. And that was an amazing sensation.

After a series of conversations he got up to drink some water and check his phone. I took the liberty to place my head on his lap and we continued talking. And this is where something very weird happened. I don’t remember what we were talking about. I don’t remember how the next part happened but I know for sure it did. There’s a blank space in my memory. Like it got wiped out. But… I place my head on his lap and (sigh)… the next thing I know our lips collided. At that point, time just stopped. I could feel the softness of his lips as well as the roughness of his bearded face. I, again, was in bliss. This is one of the only moments that absolutely nothing else went through my mind. It was just me and him. Nothing else. This doesn’t usually happen to me. It takes a lot for someone to make that happen and I was pleasantly surprised it did. Thank you, Rob. For everything.

It was hard to get out of that moment. It truly was. And once I did and I looked at him I felt so vulnerable. I giggled bit. The look he had in his eyes was so precious. I can still see those beautiful, perfect, blue eyes just looking at me like I was a trophy (or so I thought). I felt something I haven’t felt since I was 13. But then it happened again: “Wait. What’s happening? What JUST happened? This wasn’t supposed to happen. Is this ok? Was it the right decision? What was I thinking?! I don’t know this person! But it felt so right though. But was it? What did I get myself into? What am I doing? What if I get too attached again? It was just a kiss. But it felt like it was more than that… Oh God. Ok. Ok. Calm down. It’s gonna be fine. Just calm down. Breathe.”

Luckily I didn’t have a panic attack. I have no clue how I didn’t, but I’ll take it.

After that “event” we talked for a bit and got into bed. Now. Don’t worry. There’s not going to be any gross details because again, believe it or not, I’m a decent human being and I would not like to overshare something that: a) might be WAY too inappropriate, b) would piss off Rob, c) would make people start speculating stuff. Plus, it’s my private life and this story is already letting you peek into one of the most important and private experiences of my life.

 But anywhore, we get into bed and we cuddled and “cuddled” for a good few hours. This was not supposed to happen. This was purely a happy accident and me not thinking straight (*giggle*). I didn’t want anything to happen and I just wanted a chill night without any strings attached, with, you know, clothes on, without it evolving into what it did and most certainly WITHOUT feelings getting involved. But, as always, life surprises you when you least expect it, am I right?

So we did whatever we did (don’t let your imagination drift away too much because most of the things you’re most likely thinking of didn’t actually happen) and we would sometimes stop and chat. And that felt amazing. It wasn’t just “cuddles” for me. It felt like something else. But you know, people don’t always feel the same way you do regarding some stuff.

Ok. Here I’ll go into a tiny bit of detail because I find it quite funny and apparently he did too. So. We were talking and at one point he said:

“Ok, turn on your side.”

“Uhm… Why?” I said with a slightly confused voice.

“Turn over with your back towards me, I wanna spoon you.” He explained.

“Ooooooh okay! Truth be told, I’ve never spooned before.” (yes, I know, I never cuddled till now when I’m 19. And what? Judge me :P )

“Oh my God!” He exclaimed with a slight giggle. “You’re such a gayby!”

This was a completely new term for me and so I asked borderline laughing and in confusion:

“I’m sorry, I’m a what? Baby?”

“Noooo! Gayby. Like baby, but you know on the gay side.”

(Ok. As a side-note, since I want to make this as close to truth as possible, I am not sure if that was the first time he called me that. He might have used it when I told him he was my second boy kiss but hey, I have the memory of a goldfish. AT LEAST I’M TRYING RIGHT?) <=[

So at that point I had my first spooning session (it sounds so sexual but it wasn’t, trust me) and I realised something I have been assuming for years now: “I would soooooo choose to cuddle and spoon with someone rather than, you know, ‘cuddle’.” After that happened, we went back to facing each other. I looked him in the eyes and he was looking back at me. I felt so open. Like had a clear path to my memory and everything I had repressed there. It scared me. But not enough to close up. It was a good kind of ‘scary’. I have never felt so… secure with myself while there was someone else next to me. It’s like all my insecurities disappeared for a minute and I wasn’t worrying about my body or face or anything. I was free. I was safe. At that point I hugged him and whispered:

“Thank you.”

“For what?” he answered with a slight chuckle.

“For everything.” I whispered back to him

And then there was silence. Smiles. A kiss. And sleep.

[swearronchanel]

As per request, 2.05

You guys have been so freaking sweet and kind  to me with your feedback since I started making these ridiculous posts, it’s insane but I love it!❣️ I literally started these as a joke because my one friend who watches call the midwife didn’t pick up the phone (and bc I was under the influence whoops hahaha it happens) but now I have so much fun posting every week! I’m sure I won’t stop these any time soon (what will I do when this series is over until Christmas? Yikes lets not talk about it yet)  Anyways @marialujan22 requested I rewatch and post for 2x5 & shit it’s been a while since I’ve watched series 2 but I couldn’t say no! Besides Im in a good mood because I have 10 days till spring break & only like 8 weeks left in the semester so here we go ..

idk if I’m mentally prepared for this

THE BIKE SONG I LOVE IT

“Somewhere far away, scientist we’re working on a magic pill, rumored to make pregnancy a case of choice..” Hell yea birth control, deff a magic pill in my opinion

Crazy that it took 3 series for the pill to become a thing & then there was still lame ass government guidelines

Jenny Lee! lol I often forget about her sorry not sorry, I liked her but she left. ya no importa

I love how “mature jenny” still narrates even though her character is never even mentioned anymore #letmenarrate lol jk I like Vanessa Redgrave’s voice

“Meanwhile other scientists were trying to send humans to the moon” fuck yea Hidden Figures

If CtM went up until 1969 that’d be lit, like the episode on mad men when they watched the moon landing! Just replace them with nuns and nurses and babies & replace the liquor for tea 😂

Shit I’ve said typed so much already

SISTER MJ💕 I wanna smack myself she’s brushing her teeth & I thought of that stupid toothbrush song from last week’s episode kill me

Nora’s pregnant again uh oh

Cynthia! SISTER E! Jane! It’s been so long

My bby Trixie 💕😍 I miss her pin curls! But now she’s serving those 60s looks so I’m here for it all

“Take that off this minute before you go to hell” LMAO TRIX YOU CANT TELL KIDS THAT

lol who am I kidding I would’ve said the same

I love sister Monica Joan, id quote everything she ever says but that’s too much work

Vicar’s wife? But who was the vicar?

LMAO WAIT DOESNT SISTER MJ FAKE A HEART ATTACK??

YES SHE DID IM DEAD I LOVE HER, WELL IT WAS LIKE ANGINA BUT IDC STILL FUNNY CAUSE SHE DIDNT WANNA GO

PRECIOUS SISTER BERNADETTE 😭💕

I STILL CANT BELIEVE MY BBY SHELAGH WAS A NUN, ITS SO STRANGE TO GO BACK AND SEE HER IN THE HABIT, LIKE YOURE PREGNANT NOW, WITH DR TURNERS BABYYY!!

anyone else really wanted to know how she was going to tell Sister Julienne “um i was already done with being a nun and now im love sick, I can’t stop thinking about Dr Turner so  I gotta ditch this habit”

damn I feel so bad like she did not want another baby & had no choice but to deal with it

No Jenny, tea is not gonna help right now

And heres the lady that scammed her

How much is 2 guinnis ? Idk how to spell that u already know I’m an ignorant American

Did she really tell a married woman keep her legs closed? It Doesn’t even matter if she was married or not like who are u anyway?? I would’ve bitch slapped her too, good for u Nora

Sister MJ saying her horoscope was right, we are the same😭

Wtf is spotted dick? Also I laughed because I’m immature Lmaoo

Sister J eating the pudding, she knows how to get to sister MJ 😂 I love them

Trixie teasing Jane about the Reverend lol aw

“I can’t knit I had a heart attack this morning” ME TRYING TO GET OUT OF THINGS

8 kids in one bedroom though yikes

Cute and classic bedroom moments 😭💕

“Naughty version of eggnog” like coquito? Lol nah, coquito is the bomb

IM CRYING SISTER BERNADETTE LOOKING IN THE DOORWAY

THIS BREAKS MY HEART EVERYTIME

THEY FUCKING CLOSED THE DOOR ON HER, MY BBY. I WANT TO HUG HER 💔💔💔 she deserves the world

Who is this irrelevant ass vicars wife? “Cherrio”

I’m so sorry Nora

Ew wtf a rat just bit the baby?

“Just tell me what you want sister” SHE WANTS YOU DOCTOR

THE WAY THEYRE LOOKING AT EACH OTHER OMG IM SHOOK

WHAT THE HELL TIM WHY DID YOU RUIN THE MOMENT ?!

sister MJ wants to roll bandages, make it happen! lol I love that Cynthia and Jane unwrap them all for her 😭

Aww i love babies !! but that one with a funny nose uhh

SISTER BERNADETTE BLOWING THE WHISTLE AND CHEERING 💕 MY HEART SHE IS SO ADORABLE

Aw I wish Trixie could have another scene going through old pictures and maybe share old stories with the new nurses💔 unlikely but you know I can hope. SHE DID HAVE THAT PHOTO OF HER AND CYNTHIA ON HER MIRROR LAST SUNDAY💕

“I’m a woman on a mission” beatrix, light in my life

Curly locks lol, when I was younger I  was called Shirley temple and when I dyed my hair I was called Goldie locks.. mind u that lasted into high school 😂 I’m staying blonde for good though, I don’t think I can pull off anything else

DONT GO OUT WITH HIM TRIXIE, HE’S TRASH

Laura Main’s angelic voice ✨👼🏼

who am I kidding she’s an angel

you know what would be fun and a dream? to go out with the ctm cast and get drunk and take trashy snapchat videos singing

Gin & a hot bath??

Trixie looked him up lol, good move

BUT HE’S STILL TRASH and an asshole

Pickle knife ?

again, this irrelevant vicar’s wife? vete ya

Everyone thinks Sister MJ is senile but she knows what’s up with Sister Bernadette..

“..but is all blank sadness and continued tears”  MY HEART💔 sister Bernadette/Shelagh has spent the majority of this show crying/being sad/distressed ugh!! Laura Main plays is beautifully but I CRY!? Let her be uninterruptedly happy please 😭💕

she (and helen) ruined me tbh, I used to have dignity

Is Jenny really naive or is she just pretending not to understand??

SEE SISTER BERNADETTE IS ON SCREEN AGAIN & IS UPSET

“I almost wish I was physically ill..” okay bRb CRYIN. THIS IS WHY I CANT WATCH THESE OLDER EPISODES I CRY TOO MUCH, I DONT LIKE TO SEE HER UNHAPPY

Remember when I started the show and didn’t know it was gonna ruin my life? Or before I grew attached? Yea me neither lmaoo those were the days when I thought downton killed me. I Didn’t know what was coming 😂 still love downton though rip #downtonmoviepls

Knitting needles?? aye dios mio

HA GREMLIN TIM AND JACK

Again how much is a gunniea and how do I spell it? I could google it but I’m busy here

She was willing to sell her wedding ring and risk her life for an unprofessional abortion. DO YOU SEE THE ISSUE? This isn’t just the a period drama either. Shit is real

“Are babies more valued because they can survive or do they survive beside they are more valued?” good question sis

lol Jane was so sweet and just bounced with no word

AT LEAST I KNOW WHERE SHE WENT THOUGH, THANKS FOR THAT NZ CUT SCENE

Trixie being a babe and getting ready to do her nails 😍💕 I wish I could do mine well but I’m trash and so I pay to get them done

The cross cutting in this scene is crazy but so well done (& yes look at me using real terms lol, I took a Music in film class last semester and had to know editing techniques 😂, I did fairly well too)

I really don’t know how she survived this

My bby trixie looking gorgeous as per usual. I love her so much, Helen u kill me

NO COÑFIO TRIXIE, HE’S NO GOOD

Haha why did I not remember the Gone With The Wind reference? Cynthia was so cute, I miss her carefree and happy

FRECO MOVE YOUR DAMN HAND, YOU ARE TRASH.

HE’S FICTIONAL BUT ID STILL FIGHT HIM

my poor bby😭💔 it is not your fault , he’s trash!! But this moment between the nurses warmed my cold heart

“Matrons in charge, virgins of iron” 😭😭

Aw Earth Angel playing, ✨🎼 I highkey pop to 50s/60s pandora stations

Jenny yes it’s illegal but do you think that matters rn??

TIM AS MAID MARION LMAO

Sister Bernadette looking at Dr Turner ah omg 😭they’ve come so far.

It’s not your fault Jenny but you should’ve told someone

Sister B & Tim won 👏🏼

LMAO ALL I CAN THINK OF IS THAT POST “WOAH CALM DOWN IM JUST TRYNA DATE YOUR DAD”

and she’s down, and the glasses flew

“You’ve hurt your hand” “well I’m sure there’s no need to amputate” ah sister b/shelagh lowkey has some of the funniest lines she just slips them in and people miss them !!

Here it comes ..

THE MOMENT..

“Would you like me to have a look at that?” UHM YEA

No but seriously I can barely remember what I thought when I first watched this but I knew something was gonna happen because a nurse can handle her own damn cut & well you know, she was in love with him

HE KISSED HER HAND. A fucking doctor kissed a nuns hand people, how scandalous & this was THE MOMENT I KNEW I WAS CORRUPT AND WAS GOING TO HELL, I AM SATAN I WANTED THE DOCTOR TO KISS A FREAKING NUN ON THE MOUTH LIKE WTF WHO RAISED ME? MY MOTHER WANTED IT TOO SO IDK BUT THIS KILLED ME, LIKE R.I.P HERE LIES GABBY, I WAS IN THE GROUND DECEASED. I’m actual trash. Someone dispose of me in the proper bin #recyle

for real, this is when I really knew that I was never going to love any other show like this and I allowed it to ruin me

BUT HONESTLY WHAT THE HELL WAS HE THINKING? THATS A BOLD MOVE

BOLD IN GENERAL BECAUSE YOU DONT KNOW IF SHE LIKES YOU BUT BOLD x1000 BC SHE IS A NUN, YOU KNOW MARRIED TO GOD, VOW OF CHASITY AND ALL THAt??

What if she would’ve freaked tf out or told sister Julienne? I don’t even know. I’ll just be grateful for how things turned out

“At this moment I only know I’m not turning my back on you because of you but I’m doing it because of him” AHHHH, DONT WORRY BBY GOD LOVES U AND UNDERSTANDS YOU LOVE HIM AND THE DOCTOR, LOSE THAT HABIT AND GO PROPERLY KISS PATRICK 😭

Sister MJ judging the baby contest is the purest thing & I need it to cleanse my disgusting soul that wants a dr to get with a nun #notsorrythough

“In Nonnatus we were good at tending other’s wounds and there were times I felt we were all each other’s children..” brb I’m crying I love that they’re like a family 😭💕💔

I’m so happy they didn’t kill Nora and she actually was happy in the end. I really wasn’t sure for a moment (obviously when I first watched lol)

“ Free reliable contraception came too late to help her, but in time the scientists triumphed. Her daughters and granddaughters lives remained transfigured, long after man left fleeting footprints on the moon.” Vanessa always knowing what to say in the end.

Lets see how the pill is going to be reintroduced this series, I’m interested  in how it’s going to play out.

I’ve said that so many times though so I’ll be done

The End.

[flowerparkjimin-omeglechats]

Bangtan Chat

You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say hi!

You both like BTS.

You: hi

Stranger: Celebrating the Grammy Nomination, The guys want to reward the most loyal hardcore fans. The boys want us to ask you 4 questions, then they are going to pick their favorite answers and reward the winners with different prizes like Special Editions of the new album, Personal video chats and phone calls, and Merch. If you're interested will need 3 things to start. Your first name, Your Age, and a way to contact you.

Stranger: Hello how are you.

Stranger: If you have any questions please ask will do my best to answer any questions you have.

Stranger: Oh crap she has the finger on the cheek thinking thing.

Stranger: :D

You: uwu

You: Uh my name's Mel, 13, my twitter is @namjinnominroll

Stranger: Hi mel my name is rob its very nice to meet you ok here come the questions the boys wrote these not us :D

You: ok

Stranger: First question: What's the craziest thing you have done being a BTS fan?

Stranger: btw love the twitter name

You: I haven't done anything crazy but I'd say probably completing the Love Yourself series

You: thanks

Stranger: ok next question

Stranger: Second question: What type of fan are you? (you can pick more than one) 1 The Bake Cookies type of fan. 2 I want to do them all type of fan 3. I want to kidnap them and put them in my basement type of fan. 4 I want to run around naked so they notice me type of fan.

Stranger: bonus point if you can figure out who wrote that question lol

Stranger: I just work here beautiful.. lol

You: The bake cookies type of fan

Stranger: LIes! lol kidding

Stranger: ok next question

Stranger: I saw the smirk i know your at least one more of those types lol

Stranger: Third question: How did you feel listening to the new album?

You: lol

You: Idk, I mean if freaking the fuck out when hearing IDOL Ft. Nicki Minaj play at my school dance says anything

Stranger: lol ok :D

Stranger: ok last question now this question is in fun do not take it too seriouly

Stranger: Forth Question: You know I have the guys Phone numbers, Skypes,Snapchats, and tickets and passes to get backstage, How would you bribe me to get me to give them to you? ( yes we have permission to give out the numbers, for those worried about invading their privacy, also this question is in fun not real life so have fun with your answers)

Stranger: Best answer so far a girl said she would bite of a dogs penis and feed it to trump

Stranger: I love that kid sick and twisted but brillant!

You: I'd probably train a duck to bite the dick of people who say BTS sucks but they haven't even heard anything from them and feed it to themselves

Stranger: ROFL nice

You: uwu

Stranger: ok give me a second to enter in all your info and send it off.

You: okay

Stranger: @namjinnominroll just double check spelling

You: yes

Stranger: and if you have any questions please ask

You: okay

Stranger: and OMG JIMIN!

You: how do you have their numbers?

Stranger: i swear that boy has some issues

You: How?

Stranger: I worked on the north american part of the tour, I work for livenation we have been helping big hit with the world tour

Stranger: next year its going to get bigger :D

You: ooh

Stranger: But you didn't see that

Stranger: it was all your imaganation

You: ?

Stranger: That the next tour is going to be bigger

You: oh

Stranger: we not spose to talk about whats hcoming

Stranger: coming

You: oh

Stranger: plus we are doing the contest so they guys are checking in

You: now I'm curious, is there going to be a new series?

Stranger: like Jimin but so not saying what he asked

You: oh

Stranger: New series not sure on that part, but I do happen to know there is a new ep coming in the new year

You: cool

Stranger: lol ok don't judge jimin when i tell you this tho

Stranger: its just funny as hell

Stranger: he's texting in english is done with an app so the translations can be interesting

Stranger: So he asked if anyone was entering the contest i said yes was talking to a very cute girl right now.

You: awe uwu

Stranger: His repsonse almost killed me

You: what did he say?

Stranger: "Does she have nice chest muscles"

You: WHERE'S EOMMA JIN??

Stranger: first off he is being a perv but CHEST MUSCLES i almost peed a little

You: EOMMA JINN

You: Where's Eomma Jin

You: ?????

Stranger: I have no idea atm

You: Damn, he needs to watch over his child's language

Stranger: Lol yeah but have to admit is a pretty good pick up line

Stranger: "Hey baby do you have nice chest musles"

Stranger: rofl

You: no

You: lol

Stranger: I was being sarcastic

Stranger: and i wasn't asking you im sure yorus are lovely

Stranger: oH you asked about new music didn't really finish

Stranger: They are talking about doing a new EP with english

Stranger: with the english track blowing up

You: Wish the best of luck to Jin

Stranger: On the music or his serch for chest muscles lol

You: Music

You: lol

Stranger: BTW you are all entered do you have any more questions or want to harrass anyone

You: LEMME HARRAS JIMIN

You: Jk

Stranger: ok what do you want to do

You: I'd rather bake cookies

You: lol

Stranger: im always up for harrassing him

Stranger: tour is like herding cats with them

You: how?

You: All over the place?

Stranger: oh they understand english pretty well until you need them to do somthing

Stranger: then its all we don't understand

Stranger: Wanted to murder RM lol

You: Why?

Stranger: he right threw me under a bus at a restaurant

You: He'd never

Stranger: they where all acting up and they all played the no english card so i had to calm down a manager there

Stranger: OH HE DID!

You: omg-

Stranger: But i got them back told the manager they were all from a mental hosiptial

You: Omg-

Stranger: and that rm peed the bed alot so it got him worked up when in public

You: oof

Stranger: and he couldn't defend himself lol

You: how? He's a smart boi

Stranger: cuase no english ya know :P

You: oof

You: but he knows english pretty well

Stranger: Yeah but he pulled the no english card so if he started talking in english the manager of the restaruant would have caught on

Stranger: Oh this i know lol

Stranger: but when they are in trouble they are like kids

You: I thought they were kids in their 20"s

Stranger: Pretty much

You: lol

Stranger: So any other questions

Stranger: and jimin just keeps saying "does she?"

Stranger: that boy needs a cold shower

You: harras Jimin in anyway possible

Stranger: ROFL

Stranger: Don't say that to me im evil

Stranger: lol

You: no kinky shit lol

Stranger: ROFL i wasn't even going there! pevert!

You: lol

Stranger: sadly tho when you said that it gave me an idea lol

You: omg-

Stranger: you behave!

You: okay

You: I will

You: I promise

Stranger: that smile is scary

You: lol

You: I destroyed my buttons on my jacket

You: Funny thingn it's RM's jacket

Stranger: No i was just going to joke with him.. have you pose like your showing off chest muscles, (not really tho) send him the picture and then blur it so he think its phone is messed up

Stranger: Off topic

Stranger: your jacket buttons are messed up ?

You: they fell off somehow

Stranger: like the snap?

You: yeah ig

Stranger: yeah it happend to a few of them take it to a talior they can put new one on for you for a couple of bucks really reasy

Stranger: easy

Stranger: the snaps are cheep on the jackets sadly

You: ik..

Stranger: or your just abusive to your clothes !

Stranger: lol

You: I'm not even that strong

Stranger: SO how should we mess with jimin

You: they just go flying off

You: idk

Stranger: Stop taking off your jacket like the hulk then!

You: I never fuck with anyone, Instead I feed them

Stranger: well you can help me mess with him then be all like poor baby and feed him

Stranger: lol

You: lol

Stranger: Don't worry i wont rat you out that you helped mess with him

You: lol

Stranger: So i need ideas who

Stranger: tho

Stranger: wow typo city today

Stranger: First give me a respone to his "DOes she texts" lol

You: "does she texts" bitch the fuck?

Stranger: yeah after eh asked about chest muscles i stopped repsonding so he keeps sending "Does SHe??"

You: bitch no lol, I don't got chest muscles

Stranger: I kinda want to say "yes they are amazing but her penis is bigger than mine and it hurts my feelings"

Stranger: But i think his translation app will explode

Stranger: and iam so sorry if that was way graphic

You: I thought that was funny lol

Stranger: and yest you have chest muscles and im sure there awesome!

Stranger: Thats why your buttons keep breaking it can't hold in the awesomeness of your chest muscles!

You: nah bruh, but don't ask or that probe would make you a pedo

You: I don't have any lol

Stranger: Im not a pedo

You: how old are you?

Stranger: 22

You: p e d o

Stranger: Listen we are joking around atm.

Stranger: nothing more

You: ik lol

Stranger: I just didn't want you to feel bad about yourself one thing on here is you girls are too hard on yourself

You: i know, but I honestly don't feel bad if anyone calls me anything negative

Stranger: Good it doesn't matter what people thing

Stranger: Think OMG

Stranger: You cute as hell own it and let them deal with it

You: if there's anything I learned from BTS, it's to love yourself no matter fuckin what

Stranger: thata girl

Stranger: and thats why guys will go all pedo for you :P

Stranger: BTW going with the penis line for jimin

You: okay lol

Stranger: "They are amazing, but her penis is bigger than mine"

You: lol okay

Stranger: Is it bad i want to send him a picture of you to just confuse the shit out of him

You: go for it lol

Stranger: Only with your permission

Stranger: ok so pose how ever you like

You: lol

Stranger: and i will delete the picture when its sent

You: okay

Stranger: ok so pose

Stranger: got it

You: okay, great lol

Stranger: he will be all confused (btw i will make sure he understands in the end you do not have a penis)

You: Lol okay

Stranger: unless you do then thats even more awesome!

You: I mean- who knows? maybe I do, maybe I don't

Stranger: Don't matter if ya did rock on with your bad self

Stranger: and that litel fucker!

Stranger: llittle

Stranger: OH HE IS SO DEAD

Stranger: lol

You: what'd he say lol

Stranger: "She is very cute girl, her penis is not bigger you just woman"

You: lol, he's a smart boi

Stranger: Well BTS Is now oing to be a 6 piece

Stranger: Little bugger its on now!

You: lmao

Stranger: and i know your on his side!

You: Jimin"s?

Stranger: "send more picture she very pretty"

Stranger: Oh yeah

Stranger: i know your on his

You: why?

Stranger: hmm who side is the die hard BTS going to be on? hmmmm band member or Road lacky

You: maybe none lol

Stranger: the send pictures is what he just texted

Stranger: ok fair enough

You: jk, dead ass BTS

Stranger: like i said i just work here

You: lol okay

Stranger: I lost a bet and got stuck on this gig, but thankfully you have renewed my hope in people

You: I have a snapchat, I could send better quality photos there lol

Stranger: pervert!

You: BRUH

You: I DONT SEND THAT TYPE OF SHIT

Stranger: OH DONT PLAY ALL INNOCENT your smile cracked so wide your head almost turned into a pez

Stranger: ROFL

You: Bruh I can't smile?

Stranger: You can smile as much as you want its a very nice bonus to this gig

You: I swear tho, I don't send anything inappropriate

Stranger: Im just picking on you its alll good

You: lol

Stranger: and you can do whatever you wanted to i don't judge people

You: I'm innocent although I do have a dirty mind

Stranger: everyone does and nothing wrong with that

Stranger: only one rule!

Stranger: Dont ever do something you don't want to do, or do it just to make someone like you

You: I won't, they should like me for who I am

Stranger: That a girl.

You: uwu

Stranger: then once they earn it show them the freaky side and you best to make them fear for there life!

Stranger: lol

Stranger: in the best way possible :D

Stranger: sorry lol so off topic

Stranger: bestowing my pevert wisdom!

You: lol, so exposing that I wanted to literally kill one of my best friends cause she dated my ex crush?

Stranger: Oh thats shitty, don't worry people liek that will get there come around

Stranger: Karma does exist!

Stranger: Just tell him that she was born a boy

You: lmao karma already got her\

Stranger: and the clap back for the boy who saids they did stuff with you

Stranger: "I don't know i couldn't feel anything it was so small"

Stranger: will ruin the boy

You: It ruins any boy lol

Stranger: pretty much

Stranger: and its fair if thats the type of loser they are

You: Like for instance, Jimin, except he's small himself

Stranger: yeah is kinda a pocket rock star

You: lol

Stranger: BTW what do i say about more pictures

Stranger: got to keep him on the leash lol

You: idk, just drop my snapchat lol @brendunyuri

Stranger: lol you send him pictures he would prob start saking for it

Stranger: I still say we should fake a chest shot and send it to him lol

Stranger: all fucked up blurred and digitaized

Stranger: get him all drooling and shit lol

You: I mean, if it's actually Jiminie then I'd send pics whenever, just nothing inappropriate lol

Stranger: Oh im not asking for any of that

You: lol ik

Stranger: I was just saying fake it then blur it so it looks like you are lo

You: lol

You: anyways, gtg, it was nice speaking to you

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