#you dont have to like dark subject matter even (i phrase it as dark subject matter cause it isnt even all bad enough to benhorror lmao)

[transmasc-wizard]

showing people my art and my writing and my interests and being told "can't you like/do something nicer :(" makes meee. tired. it feels like all my technical skills in words or drawings or analysis just peel away and die because the subject is scary or gross or just generally on the darker side. "I'm calling a therapist" jokes don't make me laugh, they make me feel like my talents don't matter if the things I'm making are bloody or scary and that my actual real life morality and personhood is somehow made worse by enjoying these things. idk. the burden of the autistic horror guy is sisyphean

[dapperrokyuu]

RULER OF MY HEART (Studio LICO | Alien Stage: Round 5 Song) - English Translyrics

Hi! Alien Stage BANGER? Time to make lyrics! Not much to say other than Round 5 has Changed Me(TM) and the fact that Ruler of My Heart sounds so good doesnt help, lol. Now we can sing along with society's prince, Luka... *tosses him like a hacky sack in my mind* AND OUR LOVELY MIZI, UWAHHH-

As always, feel free to use, as long as you credit me! If anyone wants further thought process clarification for any lyrics, feel free to ask too! I have notes under the Read More to that end and some alternative lyrics as well! Have a wonderful day, fellas!

Translation Base: Captions in original video.

You can turn away from– You can even outburn– The light and sun, my star.

You’re the perfect subject, With the whole world within Those saddened eyes of yours.

My savior is such a beautiful soul… I don’t believe. You’re a liar. When our darkness starts to overlap each other, Let me take it all away…

Ruler, ruler of my heart, Ruler, ruler of my heart, Ruler, ruler of my heart,

Your beauty is eternal.

Ruler, ruler of my heart, Ruler, ruler of my heart, Ruler, ruler of my heart…

The walls are so endless… It’s a fall with no ground.

In a single moment, breaking down–

My sight comes to an end, My ears start to go deaf. Collapsing, my world.

My savior, such a beautiful lady…. Make me your god, I can give you everything. When our darkness starts to overlap each other, Let me take it all away…

Ruler, ruler of my heart, Ruler, ruler of my heart, Ruler, ruler of my heart,

Your beauty is eternal.

Ruler, ruler of my heart, Ruler, ruler of my heart, Ruler, ruler of my heart…

— Break —

Ruler, ruler of my heart, Ruler, ruler of my heart, Ruler, ruler of my heart…

Ruler, ruler of my heart Ruler, ruler of my heart Ruler, ruler of my heart…

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NOTE 1: First stanza was the most awkward to make and probably still is the most awkward in general. But I couldnt think of an alternative thats without even more awkward sentence structure. And I think it works out in terms of Luka uncomfortably dogpiling Mizi with compliments, while also calling her “The light and sun, my star.”

NOTE 2: Sad vs. saddened has an odd difference in nuance in my mind but using a synonym for sad felt more jarring and excessive. Left it as is because it does get the point across, and maybe its just me overthinking it, lol.

NOTE 3: Ive considered changing “I don’t believe. You’re a liar.” to something like “Dont believe it,” or “Dont believe you,” but I try not to change lyrics that are already in English. I also think the awkwardness serves to portray Mizi’s state (of struggling to sing) in Round 5 very well and that there may be some intentional play on words of taking the “You” from “You’re” to finish the first phrase, so it works out.

NOTE 4: The original translation of “The endless walls / A fall with no ground” is actually pretty interesting to ponder about and I encourage others to do so about Luka’s character!

At first, I personally interpreted it as walls being obstacles to a goal, in which, no matter how much you overcome, there is another to face. And then the fall part is simpler to understand and just illustrates the hopelessness and despair of such a situation.

Thinking more, I considered joining the two lines and perceiving the walls' “endlessness” in terms of “height,” which would be why the fall would be perceive as "with no ground." Even if you were to overcome and stand at the top of such a wall (potentially referring to Luka’s position as a winner of Alien Stage), the situation is terrifying. And of course, falling from such a height (dying) is terrifying too. So this lyric could refer to how Luka views life as terrible either way (theres no winning) and/or that, despite his “advantageous position,” he’ll never be able to properly overcome his circumstances as a human pet.

Anyways! *kicks my feet* I translated the wall line as ambiguous to either interpretation because the ambiguity is likely the intention and I think theres value in all those takes.

ALTERNATIVE LYRICS (Line 9 and 27): “When our darkness overlaps onto each other” You have to pause on the “o” in “overlap,” which is a bit awkward. The current lyric works out well since the syllable that needs to be paused on is a single word (“starts”). This line rhythmically was probably the most difficult to tackle, haha.

ALTERNATIVE LYRICS (Line 14 and 32): “Your beauty is forever.” As someone who prefers not deviating from a translation as much as possible, to be frank, that just sounds bad, imo, lol. But if you prefer that option, go for it, I guess!

ALTERNATIVE LYRICS (Line 21 and 22): “I will lose all my sense / I will go blind and deaf” I enjoyed the first half implying that one’s losing their “mental” sense (mind), but felt that it deviated from original meaning too much.

If youve read this far, thank you for listening, haha! Again, have a wonderful day! c:

[gayregis]

As much as i hate twn it's been very interesting seeing the surge of interest around the witcher and seeing how people outside of poland/EE interpret it and what they focus on? Like I dont mean this in any negative way at all but in a "its fascinating how people's cultural background shapes how they look at foreign art and it's weird to be part of the original culture that produced it and not the alien culture consuming it like it is with american movies or something" like it's just Fascinating

it is interesting, i don't have much to add as an american, but i think this should be an open discussion. i think cultural background definitely shapes how one sees characters interact, reads lines that were said, etc...

in my experience, what i've appreciated is reading the books once just to get my first impressions, then going through it over the past couple of years with additions and translation notes from a variety of sources (polish mutuals and other eastern european people on here that post about the witcher, r/wiedzmin commentary, random wordpress blogs, etc) to get a better understanding of what's going on in certain contexts and understanding some of the cultural differences. because i believe translator notes do not just begin and end with "this is what this word means," but rather are needed to understand whole characters and scenes, because of a variety of aspects. for translation in the sense of translating words, the syntax and diction changes a lot from the polish to english official UK translation. of course, some change is inevitable because of the way that polish and english grammar works. but in some cases it's so severe that it changes how the prose sounds and in many cases changes how the characters come off. @karanfile has spoken about this, where in english geralt is pretty wordy, whereas in polish geralt is brisk and curt, and it makes them entirely different characters. 

here is also, of course, context surrounding cultural references, such as torque saying “goodnight” at the end of edge of the world, or the bounds of reason/limits of the possible with regards to villentretenmerth and sheepbagger. the witcher does draw on a variety of european mythology (and even extends as far as japanese mythology in season of storms), and many tales are utilized and inverted. but i think where an american audience will know sh’eenaz and duke agloval from hans christen andersen’s the little mermaid, we will be completely in the dark when it comes to princess adda, torque... i have seen many american and british reviews of the witcher praising it for its uniqueness and never-seen-before quality in including kinds of creatures from slavic mythology, and i can’t help but chuckle a bit because it’s not really a matter of uniqueness, just that the american and british audience are not familiar with the mythology! plus, since it loses that “familiarity” like these characters are living in a strange, inverted rendition of a story from your childhood, the message highlighted right on the page that “THIS IS A SERIES ABOUT INVERTING FANTASY TROPES” can be missed sometimes (though i also feel like it still remains obvious, with main characters who are blatant inversions of their tropes...)

another thing i have noticed (also spoke about this with karanfile and others in the discord) especially is how love and romance is interpreted by polish and american audiences. i was reading this wordpress article by sylwia of warsaw about the differences between how polish and american cultures concieve of friendship (i was thinking about how geralt calls dandelion his przyjaciel as his first introduction). (also here is another good article by her on the subject). a few things which came to my mind from reading this, and these thoughts are about broad cultures, not individuals!: 

americans generally seem to not recognize that “a friend” can mean someone very close. the word “friend” basically stands in for any kind of friendly relationship, you may spoken to someone once or have known them closely for 20 years, and both are your “friend.” it is also suggested usually that one’s friend is at odds with their boyfriend or girlfriend, i.e., it’s usually suggested that people will prioritize their boyfriend or girlfriend over their friend, nevermind how close either relationship might be to their friend (again, there’s only one real word for “friend”). there is also attitude against this, in a counter-culture manner, in which you get the “bros before hoes” type of sayings. this attitude i think affects how many americans see geralt and dandelion’s relationship - i.e., it is read that dandelion is just geralt’s “friend,” so he is not important to geralt, and that being “friends” doesn’t insinuate any closeness, and is “lesser” to romance. this i think also affects how many geraskiers from twn have changed the dynamic between geralt and jaskier in their fanon, because much “happy” or “ideal” geraskier content is of them calling each other pet names, doting on one another, being overly and overtly romantic. geralt and dandelion have never acted like this in either netflix or the books, and in the books where they are actually friends, they do not treat each other like this and there is nothing to suggest that if they had a romantic relationship that their dynamic would change to fit this idea of what romance is like.

similarly, dandelion’s floweriness and “hyper-romance” (i have no idea how else to phrase it) in the books has been interpreted by some american fans as being genuine, cute, sweet, romantic, and admirable -- when it’s pretty clear that the intention is to make him look foolish and absurd. when he flirts with women such as detchka in eternal flame (the landlord’s daughter), he whines some bullshit (UK translation, made even more flowery and out-of-place by david french, “Forest dryad! Sylph! Fairy! O, Divine creature, with eyes like azure lakes. Thou art as exquisite as the morn, and the shape of thine parted lips are enticeingly…”) geralt and dudu (in the form of dainty) cringe at his performance. and this is who dandelion is, he plays with love and acts embarassingly dramatic and forward about it. but to an american audience, this behavior comes off as sweet, romantic, dreamy, desirable... not utterly stupid like it’s intended to?

i also think about geralt and yennefer. this is barring actual qualms about the writing of their relationship itself, but i have also seen american fans say that they do not act like a couple because they are not constantly doting on one another. and of course, misinterpreting yennefer’s sarcasm about the house dream in time of contempt as a genuine response (i do believe she also longed for a home, but was simply teasing geralt for being so optimistic as to think that they could ever achieve something like that, as it seems improbable (especially to her, as she is older than him and has seen more of life)).

bringing it back to what you have said, anon, i think “romance” is something the american audience definitely bangs their fists on the table to demand, and focuses very closely on couple relationships. not that this isn’t the case in ANY other countries’ cultures, but from my experience, a tie in for deep, blinding romance it seems to be essential to american storytelling. this is unfortunate to me because i believe romance is only one element which makes the witcher strong.

this attitude is also highly reflected in netflix’s witcher series, as they did not show how geralt and jaskier are close friends, did not show how geralt is ciri’s father, and did show geralt and yennefer together, BUT with the caveat that they ruined their entire relationship and made geralt insanely dominant, merciless in rebuking and taking advantage of yennefer. romance is prioritized and it’s only a certain type of romance that is...?

i invite more discussion on this post, if anyone else has thoughts, reblog at will

[katsukis-sad-angel]

"get to know me uncomfortably well" 1-100 minus whatever questions you dont want to answer :D

ahem (original post)

1. What is your middle name? Therese Hildegard (yes i have two)

2. How old are you? 19

3. When is your birthday? May 22

4. What is your zodiac sign? The most introverted Gemini you can find

5. What is your favorite color? Purple

6. What’s your lucky number? 18

7. Do you have any pets? 2 beautiful rabbits named Asphodel and Genisys

8. Where are you from? NE Ohio

9. How tall are you? just about 5′5″

10. What shoe size are you? *sniffle* size 10, but my doc martins are size 11

11. How many pairs of shoes do you own? 4

12. What was your last dream about? all i remember is the guy i like holding out his arms to me for a hug, but before i could jump into his arms i woke up :(

13. What talents do you have? I’m a percussionist so I hit things to make pretty sounds and i guess i’m pretty good at writing 

14. Are you psychic in any way? no, why?

15. Favorite song? Fiending by Broken Transmitter and Just One Yesterday by Fall Out Boy at the moment

16. Favorite movie? ummmm gotta be big hero 6

17. Who would be your ideal partner? tall, dark, and handsome, a little muscular, not too much tho, at least a little taller than me who gives good hugs

18. Do you want children? yes

19. Do you want a church wedding? yes

20. Are you religious? yes

21. Have you ever been to the hospital? i had a seizure when i was 4. haven’t been there since

22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law? i mean i’ve broken laws but i’ve never been caught

23. Have you ever met any celebrities? CLIFFORD CHAPIN!!!!! MY LORD AND SAVIOR!!!

24. Baths or showers? both, first a bath to relax and then shower to actually get clean

25. What color socks are you wearing? none

26. Have you ever been famous? would you call 800+ followers famous?

27. Would you like to be a big celebrity?  absolutely not

28. What type of music do you like? rock, the occasional j-pop, songs with a lot of bass i guess

29. Have you ever been skinny dipping? HAH no

30. How many pillows do you sleep with? 2

31. What position do you usually sleep in? i fall asleep staring at the ceiling and wake up on my face

32. How big is your house? large enough for 6 kids, 2 parents, 2 rabbits, and the ghosts of 2 cats and 2 dogs 

33. What do you typically have for breakfast? something dad makes or a parfait from school

34. Have you ever fired a gun? nope

35. Have you ever tried archery? yep

36. Favorite clean word? rats

37. Favorite swear word? piss baby

38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep? in all 19 years of my existence, i have never once pulled an all-nighter. my body will just shut off, it doesn’t matter how much caffeine i drink

39. Do you have any scars? me and my curling iron have a love-hate relationship if you will

40. Have you ever had a secret admirer? lmao

41. Are you a good liar? it depends, but usually yes

42. Are you a good judge of character? no. i’m way too trusting and give everyone the benefit of the doubt even when SEVERAL people tell me so and so is a bad person and i usually end up getting hurt because of it aha

43. Can you do any other accents other than your own? i can talk like gordon ramsay if requested

44. Do you have a strong accent? i live in ohio. no.

45. What is your favorite accent? gordon ramsay

46. What is your personality type? an introvert who will fight you if provoked

47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing? something stupidly overpriced from hot topic probably

48. Can you curl your tongue? yes

49. Are you an innie or an outie? innie

50. Left or right handed? right handed

51. Are you scared of spiders? no but if i see one i will smack it with a shoe

52. Favorite food? pork ribs

53. Favorite foreign food? chinese food

54. Are you a clean or messy person? clean

55. Most used phrase? “so... there’s this guy...”  

56. Most used word? “rats” as a derogatory term or otherwise

57. How long does it take for you to get ready? 30 minutes max

58. Do you have much of an ego? i try not to

59. Do you suck or bite lollipops? bite. i dont want something in my mouth for that long

60. Do you talk to yourself? all the time

61. Do you sing to yourself? yes

62. Are you a good singer? i mean, i’m not necessarily bad

63. Biggest Fear? people that are upset with me and i don’t know why, hospitals, blood and other bodily fluids, dead things

64. Are you a gossip? yes

65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen? i watch anime, fool

66. Do you like long or short hair? on my men, as long as it’s not super long and nasty we’re good... women? i don’t care

67. Can you name all 50 states of America? yes. i have every animaniacs song memorized so, not to flex, but i can name all 50 states AND their capitals in SONG form

68. Favorite school subject? history

69. Extrovert or Introvert? introvert

70. Have you ever been scuba diving? no but it sounds fun

71. What makes you nervous? not knowing where i am, deadlines, a teacher saying “i’m letting you form your own groups for a project this time and no you can’t work by yourself” 

72. Are you scared of the dark?  yes

73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes? as nicely as possible

74. Are you ticklish? yes

75. Have you ever started a rumor? nothing major but yes

76. Have you ever been in a position of authority? no

77. Have you ever drank underage? my dad let me suck on his empty beer bottle when i was a baby and my grandpa gave me a little champagne on new years when i was 14 so maybe

78. Have you ever done drugs? no

79. Who was your first real crush? his name was mateo and he was perfect in every possible way...

80. How many piercings do you have? 4

81. Can you roll your Rs? yes

82. How fast can you type? pretty dang fast

83. How fast can you run? i can outrun all 3 of my brothers if that’s what you’re asking

84. What color is your hair? chestnut brown

85. What color are your eyes? dark brown

86. What are you allergic to? THOTS jk i’m not allergic to anything

87. Do you keep a journal? yes

88. What do your parents do? my mom is an independent web designer and my dad sells cars for ford

89. Do you like your age? i don’t have an issue with it

90. What makes you angry? stupid people, particularly stupid females, people in general, cuphead

91. Do you like your own name? no. ‘cass’ is just an alias... i wish it wasn’t

92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they? girls: Cassandra, Adrianne    boys: Mateo, Levi, Atilio

93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child? i don’t have a preference

94. What are your strengths? listening, organization, colorful insult creation, art maybe

95. What are your weaknesses? food

96. How did you get your name? annabella was an option but it was also the name of my dad’s bosses dog, sophia was an option too but mom didn’t like it over my actual name sooo 

97. Were your ancestors royalty? nah we were italian farmers that fucked around in syria for awhile

98. What nationalities are you? mostly italian but lets see i’m also irish, syrian, czechoslovakian, and a sprinkle of french

99. Color of your bedspread? cheetah print

100. Color of your room? gray

[dolphin-enthusiast]

bună seara, dragă mea 🌹🌜✨ ahh i hope i wrote that correctly,, another romanian friend of mine taught me that haha, he teaches me romanian phrases in exchange for me teaching him bits of italian ☀ ah, so much to address no? well, i'll just start off by saying i wasn't expecting my friend to expose my problems like that,, i'm not mad at all, just surprised. let me first say that i am okay as of writing this. i have eaten and hydrated and have been taking naps all day, i am stable. (1/9)

"my older brother and other siblings have been taking good care of me, and two of my friends came to sneak me out of the house for a bit and bought me food. so i am fairly calm right now (2/9)

now then, about that person, it was just some texts i woke up to that caught me off guard, my friends are apparently planning to go after this person, even though i insisted on not making this a big deal, and frankly i didn't wanna worry you all either, i feel bad when i do. (3/9)

sadly i hear a lot of horrid things directed at me on a daily basis, so this is quite ordinary and there's not much i can do about it, i cope by trying to stay positive for others and be as kind/loving as i can since i usually don't have people to treat me that way, you're quite the exception, what i thought of as a stupid question blossomed into something i could never imagine, and i was shocked to see how everyone, including you, took to me quite quickly (and not in a joking way either) (4?/9)

i'm not used to it at all, so i mean it from the bottom of my heart when i say that everything you guys say and do means the world to me, i get overwhelmed with positive emotion when you all treat me so sweetly, i truly couldn't ask for anything more. that being said, i wasn't planning to open up about my mental health on this account (since i don't wanna talk about these dark subjects when trying to brighten other's days),, (5/9)

but i guess it's warranted now so hopefully you all can understand me better and not worry as much, i suffer from multiple mental illnesses, two different depressive disorders, an anxiety disorder, and body dysmorphia, some from genetics and others from trauma. i try to keep it on the down-low to not bring down anyone's moods, so i be as cheerful as i can. i'm professionally treated for it, so please don't fret. it really went downhill during the start of this pandemic and declined since (6/9)

i was absolutely miserable, and having dealt with many s*icid*l tendencies, self hatred, and lots of destructive habits, i was truly falling apart my sister introduced me to your blog sometime in january, and even though i did not have a tumblr, i still greatly enjoyed checking it everyday with her and requesting things from time to time, it's a nice escape from the world i live in, and after months of checking your blog, i decided to interact a bit more with that silly ask of mine. (7/9)

it really is a miracle that we formed such a bond, it's truly the best thing to have happened this year, i love having such a meaningful connection and getting to experience some positivity everyday i am completely serious when i say that you and the followers give me something to look forward to everyday, and you all have helped me to stay a little longer on this planet. i owe you all so much for that, so i still plan on popping up everyday to cheer you all up,, (8/9)

i could never thank you all enough, you all truly do mean the world to me 💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗 i can't wait to come back tomorrow with something more lighthearted, so please keep being extraordinary, because i'd hate to lose connection with any of you - from the bottom of my heart and soul, with much love, your local waifu xoxo 💘 ps: i can't wait to hopefully meet someday morgy darling, there's lots i'd love to do, so that's another reason for me to stay alive a little longer 💞 (9/9)"

Dear this is quite alot so i'll just start by saying that im flattered u greeted me in romanian😳✌️ i dont wanna pull a ghiaccio but although dragă does exist in this context it would be more like "bună seara dragA mea" but it really doesnt matter bc my wig is snatched and i was n o t expecting this ddhxhddj

Trivial matters aside, you shouldnt feel pressured into opening up on here even though some things surfaced but you did it nonetheless and im proud of u bc i myself would rather y e e t than talk abt myself and personal issues🤡🤡🤡 but aNywAyS let me start off by saying that again, you shouldnt get used to horrid things being said to u. Its fucking tragic that u get treated like this meanwhile all u do is be kind and care for others, but them treating u like that is entirely THEIR fault and u should never feel guilty for it. And keep telling others if shit happens (including us if u want) since we're all gonna do some good ol' as whooping @ the ppl that talk shit😤👋

I wont reveal much but just so you know i completely understand what you're going through and felt what you described in ur letter on a spiritual level, although i know just saying "i relate" doesnt really help. Its unfortunate and unfair ur goin thru this and yes i agree the pandemic did only worsen things (even for myself) and its really shitty🗿🗿im glad u at least had siblings that took care of u and made sure u felt better in no time doe

As always seeing u say that me and my blog cheered u up and motivated u to go on truly is smth like...w o w i never expected any of this to have such a major impact on anyone when i first made this blog as half of a joke lmao hdhxxhdj but im glad it helped u and other ppl so that means i'll just have to keep on running it😳😳😳 you really dont have to thank us for anything since we enjoy brightening up ur day and i have to ageee it IS a miracle how all of this came to be but thats exactly why its goddamn wig snatching ahsydjdkf

Also bro to say u have another reason to stay alive just to meet me....😞😞 Take care of urself bro

[bluehhj]

listen to me — chapter 28

LISTEN TO ME — 0028

listen to me masterlist;

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Jisung barely took the key out of the ignition after stopping the motorbike in the parking lot of the college and was already approached by Woojin in a not inconspicuous way. Hyunjin and Yoorim were getting out of the car further ahead and, consequently, were drawn to Kim's too much energy at that time of the morning.

"Look who's here!" — the phrase of the oldest of the four made Han roll his eyes as he got off the motorbike. — "I didn't know you were the type of guy who sneaked in to kiss someone in the dark, that's more like me."

"Who did you kiss in the dark?" — asked Yoorim, one of her well-made eyebrows being arched. Though aware of the answer, Heo wanted to hold the smile for a few more seconds and be genuinely curious.

"Isn't that obvious, guys?" — Woojin took the word again, sending Han a look that blended pride and presumption. — "Even the hand on Jinah's ass he put."

"That's a lie," — Jisung finally pronounced, even though he might have given a little squeeze into that inviting ass by pure indirect encouragement from the girl herself. — "And you have to stop being so inconvenient."

"My prayers were heard." — Hyunjin had a silly grin on his face and a stupid gleam in his eyes. — "How did that happen? Or rather, it was the first time that happened, right?"

Han moistened his lips and passed them, then starting to walk in an unsuccessful attempt to escape an answer that would probably be his decline of the day.

"Han Jisung!" — Yoorim scolded and followed him along with the other two. — "You hid something like that from us, you can't do it!"

"I thought we were friends." — Hyunjin made drama.

"And we are, but I knew that, if I told you, you'd start acting the way you were acting fifteen seconds ago."

"Of course, that's what friends are for," — retorted Yoorim. — "I'm disappointed in you, oppa."

"Who are you to say something?" — Jisung frowned and turned his face toward the girl. — "When I found out that you and Hyunjin were dating, almost two months had passed!"

"It was different."

"No, it wasn't."

"The main thing is that soon Jisung will have a new girlfriend" — Woojin returned to the subject's focus. — "If he doesn't already have and we still don't know."

"Don't exaggerate, hyung," — Jisung murmured. — "It's just a few kisses from time to time, no one spoke of any label."

"But you feel something for her, don't you?" — Hyunjin asked hopefully. — "Even if it's just a little bit."

It was true that, at the time when they were becoming more than friends — although he couldn't really define what that relationship was — Jisung stopped thinking about Chaerin so often, even because who began to occupy the other half of his thoughts were Jinah. It still hurt the memory of being cheated on and dumped before the wedding, but not as much as it had been weeks ago. And it was also true to say that, in one way or another, Jisung had grown accustomed to Jinah and liked her as much as he liked what they were experiencing, he just couldn't tell what level that "liking" was, but it was clear the feeling existed somehow.

"If I answered you guys would become the most unbearable people in the world."

And Jisung was absolutely certain of his last statement from the moment the three of them started shouting, albeit modestly, and made him go through a little embarrassment in the middle of the campus.

Friends.

                                ♡˖°

Jinah was going through one of those extremely busy days when everything seemed out of place, including her neurons.

She had to pay attention to the class, but she couldn't stop thinking about the seminar she would have to present next week, the book that she hadn't yet read a third and the fact that she had to leave the last class in half because she had received a call from her work asking her to start earlier, since Sorn was ill and couldn't attend that afternoon. On the bright side was that she would get the next day off, but the downside was that she'd miss some important explanations that would certainly be charged in the evaluation. And there was still the damn final paper in the next period.

"Unnie," — Jade called softly after hearing the second sigh of pure frustration from Choi. — "I know it's hard to control stress at this stage, but you think everyone here is in the same boat as you. If you freak out is worse."

"I just wanted a vacation," — Jinah replied in the same tone. — "Life of a poor college student is a hell."

The american giggled, she couldn't disagree: — "You'll survive."

Taking a deep breath — an act that, sometimes, prevented her from committing madness that she'd come to regret at the last second —, Jinah tried to focus on the next classes and deprived herself of the break time to start writing a review her professor had requested last week. Jade insisted that she should leave it for another time, claiming that Choi should feed herself and take care of her health first of all, but Jinah didn't care and continued to do what she was doing. The last thing she asked the american was to tell Jisung that she was only too busy, since it had become routine to meet in the cafeteria and, when that didn't happen — like the time Jinah woke up in a bad mood and didn't wanted to talk to anybody —, Han noticed her absence, and maybe cared a little bit about it.

And there was also the fact that the girl wanted, more than anything, to exchange that fucking review for Han's company, but, sometimes, a few priorities should be imposed.

Having the last class of the day right in the middle of it, when Taeyeon sat at the table to correct some exercises, Jinah collected her few materials and left the room, not before hearing Jade saying that if she didn't have lunch, the two would have to solve things at the base of the slap when they got home. She hurried across the campus to the main gates, quickly greeting the Agronomy students who were already in the bar in front of the college, though it was morning, but Jinah didn't have time to discuss the others' level of alcoholism.

Her way home would have been quick and uninterrupted, as she wanted and imagined it to be, however, as soon as Jinah turned the corner and came across an extremely tall and unwanted figure, she knew that day couldn't get any worse.

"Look" — pale skin, dark hair scraped at the sides thanks to the beautiful jovial hairstyle, small eyes, lips proportionately full and rosy with a piercing attached to the lower, well marked jaw; this was Kim Minhwan. — "You didn't even wait for me to at least look for you."

"Oh, God, give me strength..." — Jinah muttered to herself, not sure if she wanted the strength to endure that situation or to simply punch that person. — "Look for me for what, man?"

"It's always good to see important people again," — Minhwan was offended. — "I thought you'd be happy."

"I would if you were really important and not an annoying one, now get out of the way I have more to do."

"You were more fun before, what happened?"

Patience, God, patience is essential.

"I used to like seeing your face," — Jinah explained. — "Today I want to hit your face."

"So, hit" — provocative, Minhwan leaned his face slightly in the direction of Choi. — "If you want to reverse roles, go ahead."

"You're the most disgusting person I've ever met."

"And you're the most stubborn person" — recovering his posture, Kim got a colder look. — "Did you have to leave the city like that?"

"And did you have to follow me here as if we were still in those days?"

"I couldn't be without you any longer, Jinah," — the girl laughed, wryly, but Minhwan really meant it. — "You know you're the only one I've ever loved in my life."

"Oh, for God's sake, you call that love?" — Choi hitted her hands in her jeans. — "No one loves like that, only you, in that sick head of yours."

"I'll do differently this time."

"No, you won't, because you're not good and this is the only certainty I have in my life" — Jinah, then, walked past him and tried to continue her way, but a hand on her forearm prevented her. — "Let go."

"You can't forget that, no matter where we are, your heart will still be mine," — Minhwan stated firmly. — "But, unlike you think, I'm not going to do it like the other times and make a presence in your life twenty-four hours a day. No, I'll wait for the right moment. A moment when you're happy and think nothing more can mess it up" — he smiled little, but it was a smile that shivered Jinah. — "After all, what happened years ago won't pass in vain, and everything that goes around, comes back. I hope you're aware of that."

"You're crazy."

"I am" — Minhwan nodded and released her arm from the slight squeeze. — "But it was you who left me like this; it's your fault."

One last stunned look of bad feeling from the tall boy and Jinah turned away, not bothering to respond. This was a conversation she'd, surely, take off before bed.

(a/n: guys, how do you imagine minhwan? since i started writing this au i thought of him as mingi from ateez, but i was a little hesitant to put this baby as a character, it got worse when i became atiny, cuz i realized the baby he actually is, but his image didn't come out from my head and i just managed to change the name lskskj anyway, imagine him how you want, but i'll leave a gif of mingi for those who dont know him and want to follow the same line of reasoning as mine)

(gif aint mine)

stan talent stan ateez guys, stream these icons

[chimcharstar]

1-100 TELL ME ALL

Get To Know Me Uncomfortably Well

1. What is you middle name?

Jesse

2. How old are you?

22

3. When is your birthday?

dec 9

4. What is your zodiac sign?

sagittarius

5. What is your favorite color?

purples

6. What’s your lucky number?

9

7. Do you have any pets?

no

8. Where are you from?

bc canada. my great grandparents are from russia

9. How tall are you?

5 something

10. What shoe size are you?

7?

11. How many pairs of shoes do you own?

3 that i actually use

12. What was your last dream about?

i dont remember my most recent one but i had a banger of a dream i described in another post

13. What talents do you have?

i think expressing myself, or music, i have some talent that needs discipline

14. Are you psychic in any way?

well i am a spiritual person, in a way. and growing up in a toxic drama filled family, i have Developed the Skill of guessing how people are feeling and what they are gonna do. and i analyze dreams. so not psychic but i am really interested and intuitive whats goin on in there

15. Favorite song?

for some reason https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oilVq8-F4_Q colours by roosevelt ive been obsessed with lately i just loop that shit. loop loop loop. blaringit into my ears and speedwalking down thestreet. the beat.!!!! i feel like I  took all the colours

16. Favorite movie?

spiderverse. i really enjoyed always be my maybe.

17. Who would be your ideal partner?

someone who doesnt make me feel like im Too Much

18. Do you want children?

not RIGHT NOW

19. Do you want a church wedding?

i have no idea actually. id want a special wedding definitely.

20. Are you religious?

yes, i honestly feel like i just come like this, i dont go by any books and i dont want to be associated with christians. if i be too religious i start getting the Bad Feelings

21. Have you ever been to the hospital?

yes visiting sick relatives. and one in a psyche ward.

22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law?

i got a parking ticket

23. Have you ever met any celebrities?

no. maybe i did and i had no idea who they were because id never heard of them

24. Baths or showers?

showers.

25. What color socks are you wearing?

alien socks that are green and black

26. Have you ever been famous?

no. what does that even mean !!!!

27. Would you like to be a big celebrity?

yes because money but noooooo. its hard when one person definitely doesnt like me. if im famous some people just wont like me and theres going to be more of them

28. What type of music do you like?

stuff with electric guitars in it. funk. bops. i cant get enough lately

29. Have you ever been skinny dipping?

no

30. How many pillows do you sleep with?

one. and sometimes NONE. i dont fucking know why its just more comfortable. id lie down on a floor and pass out

31. What position do you usually sleep in?

i usually cant fall asleep unless im on my face with my arms tucked under me for warmpth and general log shape. after that though its chaos. dreamin

32. How big is your house?

BIG!!!!!! so many rooms. so many people. 

33. What do you typically have for breakfast?

on a Functional day, cereal. not because its my favourite thing but it doesnt require a lot of attention and its easiest to tolerate. my appetite is just. like this

34. Have you ever fired a gun?

HELL no.

35. Have you ever tried archery?

in my child days i shot my hair elastics around and pretended i was fighting aliens. this is definitely archery.

36. Favorite clean word?

i dont really think about words like that. pizza is a nice word.

37. Favorite swear word?

bitch. its really fun to say.

38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep?

not all that long. if i was up the entire night i am usually sleeping in midday no matter where i am. ive disappointed many teachers. its called not caring.

39. Do you have any scars?

yes, but theres no dramatic stories to them, just me not leaving scratches and bites alone as a kid. they look kind of cool though. and theyre so mysterious. youd think id have scars from self harm but no.

40. Have you ever had a secret admirer?

i believe so...

41. Are you a good liar?

yes, when i am 100% like morally committed to lying.

42. Are you a good judge of character?

NO. my thought process is: its rude to assume someone is going to behave badly, and they will be offended and have hurt feelings if you anticipate that. i have to like. treat everyone with exactly the same respect unless theyre a dick. otherwise its being judgmental. and it ends up as naïveté. but im okay with that . the price of being a good person

43. Can you do any other accents other than your own?

i could do a british one once i guess LOL and it looks like now ive Absorbed a mexican accent but i never really try to talk in other accents

44. Do you have a strong accent?

i dont know how to answer this

45. What is your favorite accent?

idk i like new things i havent heard before. and thinking about how other languages work. theres a lot of different accents at my work and i honestly enjoy listening to them

46. What is your personality type?

that.... INFJ. see. psychic

47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing?

one of the gay jackets

48. Can you curl your tongue?

dont think so

49. Are you an innie or an outie?

innie

50. Left or right handed?

left

51. Are you scared of spiders?

depends. i had these big house spiders in my dungeon at my parents house, and id just be “hi” and set them free. but if i see one where im not expecting it i might yell a lot and tell everyone and run around and then set it free

52. Favorite food?

tacos from my old work. i was indeed. screaming, lost in the sauce. i waited until i was away from the restaurant because i knew all my dignity would vanish

53. Favorite foreign food?

idk... i need to eat more curry. i need more curryin my life. bring it on.

54. Are you a clean or messy person?

clean

55. Most used phrased?

“this slaps” i feel like ive been saying that a lot

56. Most used word?

I

57. How long does it take for you to get ready?

a whole entire fucking hour (when i wake up) otherwise 5min

58. Do you have much of an ego?

i do, but i hide it. 

59. Do you suck or bite lollipops?

chomp chomp. i am not a patient man.

60. Do you talk to yourself?

yes, when i know no ones around, or when im not worried about seeming like a crazy person at work

61. Do you sing to yourself?

nah

62. Are you a good singer?

no. i can sing and it sound okay.  nice even. but good??? like beautiful?????? no.

63. Biggest Fear?

someone dying, natural disaster, new illness

64. Are you a gossip?

maybe. i feel like i have the Tendencies and then im like “am i being a bad person right now”. i want to know the deets though.

65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen?

i Simply Dont Have the Attention for Those

66. Do you like long or short hair?

BOTH . long hair is more fun to draw. short hair is hot

67. Can you name all 50 states of America?

fuck no. why would i. fuck off. i dont care about your states.

68. Favorite school subject?

ART ART AR T

69. Extrovert or Introvert?

introerverte

70. Have you ever been scuba diving?

no

71. What makes you nervous?

people who are not Definitely Cheerful

72. Are you scared of the dark?

no. unless i think about things to scare myself on purpose

73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes?

no unless they need to know. because im not a fucking ANIMAL

74. Are you ticklish?

depends. i can be not ticklish if im determined.

75. Have you ever started a rumor?

i dont think so... i started a rumor i was from mars

76. Have you ever been in a position of authority?

maybe i was supposed to train some girls and then i probably didnt do a great job and they didnt listen. they say my job now is somewhat authority and im like...... ok...... 

77. Have you ever drank underage?

no

78. Have you ever done drugs?

no

79. Who was your first real crush?

someone whos OUTTA MY LIFE

80. How many piercings do you have?

two? i got them pierecd at claires lmao and i didnt get an infection because im  so salty. then i took them out because they were from claries

81. Can you roll your Rs?“

hell yes

82. How fast can you type?

so fucking fast. faster than my work finder helper. im fast im very fast

83. How fast can you run?

IM VERY FAST

84. What color is your hair?

orange

85. What color is your eyes?

green

86. What are you allergic to?

im still trying to figure that out. whatever it is gives me hives

87. Do you keep a journal?

yes. so i can get better at handwriting and just talking in general and hear what my voice sounds like. and to have a space away from other peoples needs and pressures

88. What do your parents do?

my mom is a stay at home mom and my dad shoots pop bottles into the sky

89. Do you like your age?

sure

90. What makes you angry?

everything. cabbage. i swore about cabbage for a long time the other day. i am just full of anger. 

91. Do you like your own name?

YES. i mean i chose it i better. honestly my first name ......... i feel self conscious about it sometimes. i think it was the only name for me though. it wasnt the ideal most wonderful namei could find because those didnt fit, it was MY name.

92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they?

im going to have two sons and im naming them brick and rusty.

93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child?

yeah, i want a boy a girl

94. What are you strengths?

my strengths doing all 100 questions, this is serious muscles

95. What are your weaknesses?

the exhaustion of jumping from one question to the next especially when they are vague. im not complaining this was my idea

96. How did you get your name?

i pfound it in the baby name book and i was lie  “hey yyy, i saw that name in black beauty, lets use it for my gay coded villain what the hell!”

97. Were your ancestors royalty?

no but i did have some ancestors who lives i a mansions andhad fucking SERVANTS. before you call me problematic my other part of family was like sewing things and not going to school 

98. Do you have any scars?

weve been over this. when im older im going to get a cool scar fighting a dragon

99. Color of your bedspread?

pink, white, blue

100. Color of your room?

white

[cantdance]

carlycrays replied to your photo “marvel writers and editors trying to decide what to do with loki in an...”

Oh, sweet summer child, you clearly don't know how this works. Loki literally can't stay dead. That's a canon rule. Also, while Marvel hasn't had the best track record with the transgender community, when have they made transphobic jokes at Loki's expense?

nothing has ever made me jump out of bed and race to my computer faster than seeing this message. what is it this weekend that makes people feel like they need to answer my joke posts with a novel telling me how dumb i am?

first of all, allow me to allay your fears. at this point i have read over 400 issues of the original 1966 thor series, and i am still working my way through the rest. ive also read several of the modern retellings of the old comics, journey into mystery (2011) with kid loki and all the tie-ins, loki: agent of asgard, both of the angela series, vote loki, jane fosters entire run as the mighty thor, loki: sorcerer supreme, infinity wars (2018), the current thor series, and now war of the realms. ive also read a little thing called the mythology, as well as a few other modern adaptations. so, to recap, thats easily around 500 issues of asgardian comics, as well as the originating material, and assorted other sources. i know what the fuck im talking about, and i am not your sweet summer child, you condescending ass.

beside that, i am a real human being deserving of basic respect, and if this were actually a case of me not knowing something, you could easily communicate that without being so patronizing. people do it all the time! there are tons of things that i dont know about. unfortunately for you, this is the one thing i know a LOT about.

as for when loki has been subjected to transphobic jokes, well, thanks for giving me an excuse to make a post that ive been meaning to make for a while now. let me start off by saying: loki is genderfluid, and i am genderfluid myself. this list contains things that i personally found to be insulting or uncomfortable. not every trans person may agree with me, but that doesnt mean it doesnt need further examination. this list may also not be exhaustive because im not going to spend hours trawling through comics at 10:30 in the morning no matter how badly i want to prove you wrong.

we all know that loki was officially recognized as transgender and bi/pansexual (depending on your preference i guess, i like them as pan) in loki: agent of asgard (2014). however, never once does anyone in the series use any of the actual WORDS to communicate this. never does anyone say “genderfluid” or “transgender” or “bi” or “pan” or “queer” or even “lgbt”. odin calls them “my child who is both a son and a daughter” which is very binary and not a great take on genderfluidity, but hey, odin right? this isnt part of the list, i just think its something that people need to talk about more.

anyway, after that is when the bullshit starts. i mean, ignoring how making loki a queer-coded villain from the beginning was scuzzy, ignoring the almost 50 years time where they did play that role, and ignoring the whole lady loki thing where they were pretty much portrayed as a man pretending to be a woman. heres the list:

vote loki (2016) issue 1 by christopher hastings and langdon foss

loki “turns into a woman” because it might do better in the polls. the reporter whose name i dont care to look up points this out because thats a totally acceptable thing to do when you see a trans person. after these few pages it never comes up again. lokis genderfluidity is being used for a cheap joke here. dont even get me started on how female-presenting loki is portrayed as being more clean and feminine than male-presenting loki, which is in and of itself a form of transphobia: that transgender women have to be ultra feminine to be accepted as the gender they are.

the mighty thor (2015) issue 3 by jason aaron and russell dauterman

loki summons a bunch of other versions of themselves for seemingly no reason, and of course all of them are presenting in a masculine way because lokis genderfluidity is only acknowledged when convenient. lady loki from dark reign pops up and says that since shes the only REAL female loki, its her job to fight jane as thor. now, im not going to sit here and unpack all of that for you, so please fire up your critical thinking skills and try to decide why exactly this is bad.

infinity wars (2018) issue 5 by gerry duggan and mike deodato jr

i went and scanned my physical copy of this just for you. here we see loki leading their team to talk to the child version of gamora who lives inside the soul stone. once they get there, emma says that she and ms marvel will go in alone because it “calls for a womans touch” and loki would just get them killed. in case youre missing the subtext, emma is saying here that loki cant do this, but a woman can, which means she is calling loki a fake woman, or at best, shes completely ignoring their gender and calling them a man.

these are just the three examples that stick out the most in my mind. its worth mentioning that the only time loki has “become a woman” (i hate using this phrase btw) is in those couple pages in vote loki, and the only time that loki has been actively called genderfluid was in squirrel girl (2015) issue 27. yknow, squirrel girl. the series that no one takes seriously and will insist isnt canon even though it is?

there is a very insidious form of quiet transphobia simply in the fact that no one at marvel will acknowledge lokis identity, much less say it out loud or use the correct terminology. in fact, ever since agent of asgard (the series that cemented lokis trans and pan-ness) ended, many writers including jason aaron and gerry duggan have all but ignored that it happened, erasing the progress that loki made as a person as well as their newly gained autonomy and, indirectly, the fact that they were ever confirmed as genderfluid and pansexual.

one last thing that i want to say is that while it may be a rule that loki never stays dead, subjecting a trans and gay character to repeated deaths for the sake of furthering plot is NOT a good thing. having the gay come back does not erase the fact that you buried them in the first place. being that loki is amab, this is extra sketchily tied to violence against trans women, which is a point that we all need to consider.

[skizmin]

haunted house!au with lee minho

prompt: minho falls in love with the actor that jump scared him inside the haunted house at a carnival

genre: fluff???? would it be anything else???? in my happy angst-makes-me-cry household???? pfft.

for: im sorry this one is lightly gender specific for females!! but the only female not made is about dressing as wendy for a costume party which some of my male readers might be uncomfortable with!! (i didnt even think abt it when writing it bc me and one of my guy friends have respectively gone as peter and wendy to costume parties)

warnings: gore mention stuff but its haunted house costumes, swearing ofc but nothing extreme (no slurs).

yo anyway so minhos one of my three ults wowzas Can He Not?

alright lets get to it

You Are Broke.

your major subject at uni really does cost a lot of money. money you have to provide. it sucks basically

whenever you think abt money you have to hold back tears bc You Have None.

:(((((

sorry anyway

one of your housemates is also broke and loves scouring the internet for quick and easy ways to get money, no matter how crazy they are

one night she comes back with an idea that peaks your interest, probably purely bc your card just got declined ordering a coffee at mcdonalds

“y/n you HAVE to do this one!!!!!”

you sigh like “if its selling my sub topic notes online again, im not doing it. i didnt even know someone could be so harsh about highlighter use???”

your housemate is all pfft im not putting you thru that again

“no!! basically, you get $80 to show up for 2 and 1/2 hours at the haunted house place at that carnival nearby!! dude we gotta, its just to scare the fuck outta people and we can like!! cover ourselves in blood!! n stuff!!”

at first your mind was like lmfao 2&1/2 hours at a haunted house?? no fuckin way

but then you remembered your job only paid you $14.78 an hour so you were doubling your pay in half the amount of time

“when?”

“20 minutes, get out a creepy white dress or something that looks creepy that you can get dirty.”

you fricken ran to your room

you ended up getting a cheap nightgown that you bought to dress up as wendy from peter pan to a costume party, it cost like $2 you really werent sad to see it go

“y/n!! hurry up!! they have makeup there!!”

you bolted out the front door in your nightgown, runners and a big coat with nothing but your wallet phone and keys in your pocket

you were really broke and desperate, youd already accepted it

when you got to the carnival you were in awe, it had been a fair few years since your last one and the colours and lights and pounding music and laughter just

wow, carnivals are so pretty

the guy running the haunted house came in and let you guys in so you didnt pay admission and quickly sat you down at some tables and told you you could do the makeup yourself or got someone else to

you, feeling daring and thinking fuck it, im gonna make the haunted house goers shit their pants, decided to do your own makeup

to pair with your blue nightgown you simply gave yourself extremely dark and sullen eyes with the power of purple eyeshadow, you paled out your lips and gave yourself a lil nosebleed, and on top of that you painted a random creepy looking symbol on your forehead in blood, blackening it our a little with an eyeliner pen to make it seem like it was cut open.

you were lowkey proud of your work

okay now it was show time, you were briefed on where in the house you could stay and you were told how to act and basic rules (no touching, get help if theyre freaking out too much, etc)

so now, you were in the dimly lit narrow hallways of this makeshift house when you heard the tell tale screams of your housemate meaning theres a group coming and theyd just attempted to jump scare them

you hid behind a black sheet, disguised as a wall, before your victims came up through your hallway

you heard some talk of “felix you know its fake, calm down.” before you saw some shadows pass by

the group was big, maybe 10 people? you werent sure, but you went forward with your plan anyway

just after theyd passed your hiding place, you stepped out from behind them and stood idly and innocently in the centre of the corridor before you put your head down and started whistling a nursery rhyme

you heard a few gasps and a few squeaks before you looked up with an unreadable expression

you saw them looking at you and some of the guys ushered some of the others away though one guy stood there looking at you strangely

you just tilted your head at him before taking your OPERATION: SCARE mission a step farther

bringing your hands up to your ears you let out a ear piercing scream and squeezed your eyes shut before running through the group and turning the corner at the end of the small corridor

you heard a soft what the fuck was that and a less soft language! before you turned and waited for them to turn the corner

as they were walking up the corridor however (theyd resolved to moving with just shuffles of their feet) you heard a new voice speak up. it was somewhat playful and honeydew like, especially with the phrase “not gonna lie, they were really fucking pretty.” which was followed by a chorus of “miNHO”’s and “thIs iS NoT The TiME bUddY” and “i think felix is crying”

you were taken aback

did he mean that? was that the one looking at you earlier? what the frick?

you were still blanking out, completely flabbergasted even when the group turned the corner

of course, you were unprepared, you planned to scream a loud “GET OUT!” to them but all that left your mouth was a squeak as you met eyes with the stranger again, red flushing up your neck

you ran away quickly, ducking into one of the rooms dressed up to look like a metal asylum holding centre

“hyung wtf theyre the scariest one yet”

“you guys go ahead, ill be there in a second”

“hyuNG YOURE GONNA GET KILLED DONT YOU WATCH HORROR MOVIES YOU NEVER SPLIT UP!”

“let go jisungie, hyunjins looking at you like you disgust him right now”

a chorus of laughs echoed through the hall

why was honeydew voice not going ahead?

your cheeks were still kinda red as you waited, listening for the male to go away

you slowly inched towards the doorway of the small room you were in, the flashing light behind you somewhat hindering your senses as you peeked through the shredded and knotted white sheet hanging from the top of the doorway but you couldnt see anyo-

“BOO!” “HOLY SHIT WHAT THE FUCK” you scReAmed and jumped backwards, only to hear some cakcling from behind the sheet where the boy from earlier had appeared

“WHAT THE HECK KNUCKLES DUDE!”

“heck knuckles?”

“DONT JUDGE ME MY HEART IS BEATING A MILLION MILES PER HOUR RIGHT NOW”

“hmm? really?” you looked up to see the boy smirking playfully at you. 

he looks like a cat

“aH yeAh??? you just scared the crap out of me!!!1!1!!!” you huffed, amused by him behaviour. you heartbeat still hadnt calmed down

“oh? you sure it wasnt just from looking at me?” he leaned in slightly, making the question seem innocent

“mmhm, youre that ugly that i flew halfway across a room.” though the comment was monotonous and you had a bored look in your eyes, it was purely for bantering

“nice try pumpkin, nice try. anyway, when do you finish with the whole im an ugly ghost coming to kill you thing? youre terrible at it by the way.”

your breath hitched and a blush came up your neck

“o-okay listen here, uh, boy! 1, i am Not a Pumpkin. 2, i dont know you. 3, im fucking amazing at this ask your friends and 4, i dont know you” you awkwardly coughed at the end

he furrowed his eyebrows at you “its minho, and the whole point is i want to get to know you.” he beamed at you after this

you felt lightheaded honestly, it was all happening very quickly under weird circumstances

but still, you muttered back to him a soft “i get off at 10:30″

he smiled wider, triumphantly, “10:30?”

you nodded and he took a couple of steps back, out of the room

“see you then i guess!” at this, he winked, before he jogged off to find his friends

you fell back against a wal

lwhat the frick frack paddy whack just happened?

you sighed, hearing the screeching and slam of a metal door, knowing you had to get back to scaring others

like,,, @ 10:33

you had all your stuff and you were walking out from behind the haunted house set up, waiting for your housemate

you honestly didnt think youd see minho. no guy is that persistent, right?

wrong.

“h-hey!!! demon child person!!!” you looked up at this

who the fuck just called me demon child person 

you saw him and holy shit

the haunted house was dark with red lighting in some places and flashing blinding white lights in others, you saw minho and you saw what he looked like, but wow, he was so much clearer now

he was absolutely gorgeous

the carnival lights against his tan skin, his dark hair, his skinny black jeans and big parka coat? you were absolutely mesmerised

suddenly you realised you were staring and he was standing right in front of you

“o-oh, uh, hi?” you could already feel the red on your cheeks

“mm, hey, wanna hang out for a bit?” he smiled at you, you saw a tinge of red on his nose from the cold

“oh, actually i uh, i came with my housemate and-”

“anD THEY’D LOVE TO GO!!” 

suddenly your housemate was next to you, throwing an arm over your shoulder and telling you to get home safely and asking you to not be too loud before shes nudging you closer to the attractive minho boy and speed walking off

“i gotta say, i like your housemate” minho looked to you with a wide smile. “should we get you some food first?”

you offered him a meek smile and shyly nodded. which he laughed at

“alright then, lets go!” he gripped you lightly by the elbow and led you through the crowd, passing some speedy and tall and colourful rides. you decided to speak up.

“sooo... after you get food, whatd you wanna do?” minho made a contemplating sound before simply saying “i dont mind, i just want to get to know you.”

oh

“uh, okay then, well uh, what do you wanna know?” “to be honest, a name would be great.” minho laughed goodheartedly, you saw the apples of his cheeks rise up and his nose scrunching slightly

“oH! riGht! im uh, im y/n”

this time he turned to you “y/n?” you nodded. “thats a pretty name, it matches you.”

you turned away mumbling a thanks before you realised he’d called you pretty

“woAh wait whAt??? do you?? have no shame??”

this time he giggled

giggled

oh my god your heart practically stopped especially when he steered you to a table for the both of you to sit down

“y/n, i dont know if you noticed but i basically sorta asked you out like 2 hours ago while you were trying to scare me dressed as a demonic creepy child, a really fucking cute one at that, you need to teach me how to do that im in awe. but yeah and then now we’re here on a spontaneous first date which i have no clue what im doing for and i really dont know you at all apart from you act in a haunted house which is pretty interesting but you were just that pretty that i stayed behind in a haunted house to talk to you. now ask yourself again, does minho ever feel ashamed of his blatantly obvious attempts at flirting? the answer however is: when it comes to you? no, never.”

he was smiling proudly at his little monologue whilst you were catching flies in your open mouth

“you...are actually the cheesiest person ive ever fucking met.”

minho laughs once again.

“honestly, ill give you all the compliments in the world if it means youll give me your number or something, even the ones that arent true”

you leaned over the table and slapped his arm lightly, grumbling under your breath about fliritng getting you nowhere in life

he simply rested his elbow on the table and his cheek in his hand, gazing at you and asking you what food you wanted

you ended up being so strung in by his his gorgeous eyes and soft looking cheeks that he had to call your name 3 times and repeat the question

bonus:

after eating some gross junk food and watching the midnight fireworks, minho bought you both fairyfloss and insisted on walking you home saying “its what anyone in their right mind would do” 

you walked along, him explaining his fear of heights and you explaining your situation of brokeness where you take almost any opportunity available

along the way he slinked his fingers through yours and placed them in the pocket of his big parka coat, smiling at you as you ducked your head to look at the ground, where youd started kicking your feet out extra to distract yourself from the affectionate gesture and calm the burning of your cheeks

when you arrived at your house, you fought over who should eat the leftover fairy floss.

you viciously shoved it into his hand, 

“you paid for it and you walked me home even though its late and cold, you keep it.”

minho looked like he was going to fight back for a minute before his eyes lit up

“ill take it on one condition, i get to feed a piece to you.” he beamed at you and you looked at him confused and skeptic

“uhhh, okay i guess?”

he picked a piece off of the stick and held it in front of you, you opened your mouth for it and he placed it in

before it could melt and you could smile at him however, you felt his hand on your cheek and a hand on your lower back tugging you forward to rest his lips on yours, moving his lips against them a total of three times before pulling back

“i know i shouldve asked, but id buy you fairy floss every day if i got to do that once.”

you were a stuttering mess, your mind was fuzzy, you missed the feeling of him so close to you already

“uh-i, i um. wow uh yeah. uhhh, yeah no its fine i um,,,, i didnt mind it actually. wait no, i uh, i really liked it?”

,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

minho is BEAMING OH MY GOD

biggest smile of the century goes to lee minho, born in 1998

youre so red it isnt funny and he just moves the hand that was on your cheek to loosely grab at your fingers

“mm, okay then y/n, maybe if you wash the fake blood off of your face and text me ill kiss you again, for as long as you want.”

if your face was red before

oh god

oh god

you squeaked and nodded as he chuckled, lightly kissing your cheek before backing away

“get some sleep y/n, and message me tomorrow.” with that, he was walking away, leaving you to enter your house and be greeted by a squealing housemate who had witnessed the whole thing

(you took minho up on that offer, and he did kiss you, and it was longer, and it was great until his friend chris walked into minhos living room and saw you both and started screaming about keeping it PG because there were (17 yr old) kids around.)

finish! hope you like it!!

[aclayjar]

As believers we are still living in this world. And generally we are in daily contact with people who do not share our faith in Christ. Their influence is all around us. In this passage Peter tells us to not let the world's influence lead us into sin. Rather we should stand firm against it and the pressure they bring to bear on us. Arm Yourself ​Therefore, since Christ suffered in his body, arm yourselves also with the same attitude, because whoever suffers in the body is done with sin. As a result, they do not live the rest of their earthly lives for evil human desires, but rather for the will of God.1 Peter 4:1-2 NIV The opening phrase here looks back to 1 Peter 3:18 where "Christ also suffered once for sins, the righteous for the unrighteous, to bring you to God." And since that is true, what should be our response? Peter tells us to arm ourselves with the same attitude. To arm ourselves is reminiscent of Ephesians 6:10-17 and Paul's discussion of spiritual warfare. To arm is a military term. Get your weapons ready for a fight. The expression "whoever suffers in the body is done with sin" is a challenging one. One that commentators are in disagreement with. What seems most likely to me is that the one who has committed themselves to suffer for the sake of Christ, have left the world of sin behind. He is not saying that they do not sin. Only that they have turned away from that life. And because they have turned away from that life, they no longer live for it. Their lives are not lived to satisfy their human desires. Instead they seek to live in accordance with God's will in their lives. Living in obedience to both his word, and the Spirit's leading. Resisting the world's influence. Arm yourself with the willingness to suffer like Jesus did. Leave the Past Behind For you have spent enough time in the past doing what pagans choose to do—living in debauchery, lust, drunkenness, orgies, carousing and detestable idolatry.1 Peter 4:3 NIV Peter has called on us to live for the will of God rather than for our human desires. Those human desires belong in our past. And in our past we did what unbelievers do. Indulging our sinful nature. Seeking to please ourselves. For some of us, it would be tempting to look at this list of things that Peter mentions and not recognize our past. I know that I never participated in an orgy. Although I must admit that as a teenaged boy that was one of my fantasies. But I never acted out any of these things; apart from a little lust maybe. But I do not believe that Peter would limit his meaning here to only the more degenerate activities of unbelievers. The contrast is between living to please God. And living to please self. In the past I lived to please self. It is time, as a believer, to quit that life. Leave it in the past. It has no eternal value. Instead, seek to accomplish the will of God in your life. Expect Abuse From Those Facing God's Judgement They are surprised that you do not join them in their reckless, wild living, and they heap abuse on you. But they will have to give account to him who is ready to judge the living and the dead.1 Peter 4:4-5 NIV Within a month of becoming a believer I found myself in the US Navy, going through boot camp. Overall it was a wonderful experience for me, and I am grateful for it. But it was also very challenging. I was surrounded by other young men who, like myself, were free of home and its constraints. Time to experience the world and all that it has to offer. Something that until a month prior I had every expectation of experiencing myself. But Christ captured me. And that desire was gone. And I mean gone without a struggle. But my fellow sailors had a hard time understanding why I was not interested in doing what they did. Why I spent my free time with my nose in a Bible. I will confess that I did not get much real abuse over it. But it was confusing to them. Peter encourages us to live for God. And expresses that the world will not understand. And may become abusive over it. But they will have to give account to God for it. For their abuse of believers. And for their refusal to turn from the ways of this world and come to him. Rather than be upset over those who ridicule us, we should pity them. They have to stand before the judge of all the earth and give account for their lives. That will not be pleasant. Preaching To the Dead For this is the reason the gospel was preached even to those who are now dead, so that they might be judged according to human standards in regard to the body, but live according to God in regard to the spirit.1 Peter 4:6 NIV This is another verse that is a bit challenging. The gospel is preached to those now dead. As in 1 Peter 3:19, we might ask what is preached, and who is it preached to? The proclamation to the imprisoned spirits in 3:19 would appear to be a proclamation of victory by Christ over the forces of evil. But here it is the gospel itself that is preached. The good news of salvation by grace alone, through faith alone, in Christ alone. But is it preached to those who are currently dead? Or was it preached to those who are now dead; preached to them before they died? Those who would argue for the former alternative see this as referring to Old Testament saints. Those who were faithful in life before Christ came are given the gospel. A gospel they would gladly receive. The alternative is that Peter is referring to first generation believers who had begun to die, either naturally or from persecution. Which alternative is correct is something that was likely clear to Peter's original audience, but much less so to us today. Which is right is beyond me. Facing Judgement Believers seem to face the same fate as unbelievers, at least physically. Both are subject to death, bring an end to the life we know. No matter how you live your life here, the end result is the same. Death. At least from the perspective of the unbeliever. But the end is actually quite different. On the one hand are those who will face the judgement of God. And who will face eternal destruction. On the other hand are those who will experience eternal life in the presence of God. And that is why the gospel is preached, even to those now dead. So that, even though we face the same physical death, our final end is different. Those who receive the gospel message, and live for God in this life, will live with him through eternity. But those who reject the gospel message face God's judgement. Call to Action At one time we all lived to satisfy our human desires. Whether we judge them as good or bad, we still lived for self. But now we are called to leave that life behind. Resist the world's influence in every part of your life. Instead, live to please God. To fulfill his will. If you do that, the world around you will consider you as strange. And they will likely ridicule you. You may even suffer at their hands. They do not understand you. And your life is a threat to their own way of life. The darkness hates the light, and will seek to extinguish it. But judgement awaits. This physical life will end the same for all of us; in physical death. But the life to come will be quite different for those who have believed the message of the gospel. Eternal life awaits us. But not for unbelievers. The fate of those who scoff now, is to experience the wrath of God. Questions How do you resist the world's influence?What does it mean to be done with sin?Why should you not be surprised when people around you do not understand your lifestyle? Should it be concerning to you if they accept you as one of their own?Who are the dead that the gospel was preached to? Why was the gospel preached to them?

[bashfultern]

Research

My research can be divided into 4 chunks- The australasian Bittern, legal eagle, schatten parker, and autism. The australasian bittern

my research into the Australiasian Bittern was very interesting. It is an endangered bird that thrives in the wetlands of eastern australia, namely in freshwater environments where there are many reeds. Its most stunning feature is its long neck, which it can extend up to 45 cm in length. The neck is pale on its underside, with long dark brown stripes running down it, which would later inform my design of both the neck and the clothing seams. It is a heavy set bird, which also informed my design. The Bittern often when threatened or alarmed will extend its neck to its highest length. This inspired me when i would later research stimming behaviours, as a common stim is to jut ones chin out and to stretch the neck. Due to this, i made this one of Andy’s self soothing stims. This animal is very shy and reclusive, with current numbers not even being accurately known due to it’s reclusive nature. Due to this, I think Andy could draw from this personality trait, and be also very shy, almost bashful. 

Here are some visual research drawings

a “Legal Eagle,”

This phrase connotes a lawyer who is particularly skilled in their profession. Due to this, I decided that Andy is a law student, who is currently completing his masters in International Commercial Law with Dissertation. I decided he is probably most fond of contract law, as this is the type of law that fits in best with the phrase Legal Eagle- meaning someone with a fine eye for the detail of the law, and a very devoted lawyer. I decided that contracts and the language they use is a special interest for Andy, hence his extreme aptitude at the subject. Andy is not well liked among his peers due to his odd behaviour, however even they acknowledge his prowess in the court of law. Andy would love to be hired in a sucessful law firm by the time he graduates, (he is in his final year of law now,) however his social skills need some more fine tuning before he can confidently apply for a job.

Oddly enough there is a partner phrase to “Legal Eagle,” being “legal beagle”. Legal Beagle however, has more negative connotations, such as being more aggressive in court. It also has a tendency to refer to lawyers you are opposing, rather than ones on your side. Due to this, i wanted to make Andy a sympathetic character, hencemy choice for him to do contract law.

Schattenparker

In german, this word refers to someone who parks in the shade- its used in an insulting manner to imply this person is delicate, or “not a man.” In context, and example of someone being a Schattenparker would be if they parked their car under the shade after a long hot day. The argument is that only old people and weak/sick people would park in the shade.

Whilst this word only implied these meanings, as i delved deeper into my research i found it very odd this turn of phrase. There are many reasons why people would want to park in the shade. People could be sick, they might have an animal in the car, they might have a migraine, or a sensitivity to light.

As i investigated this, sensory processing issues for autistic people came up. Many of Andy’s characterisations already leant to towards behaviours shown by autistic people, so i decided to do more research in autism for Andy’s character.

Autism

Autism is defined as “ a developmental disorder characterized by difficulties with social interaction and communication, and by restricted and repetitive behavior.” A lot of my research into it was information from autistic people; their experiences, their explanation of things like stimming and sensory issues/overload, and on their special interests. I was able to talk with a friend of mine about her autism, and she helped me with the respectful characterisation of Andy. One thing which appeared in my research was about how to avoid alienating the audience from an autistic character. The example was called  behaviorizing vs humanizing. An example of behaviourising from their site was “’Brianna would scream whenever she had a wrinkle in her sock.’(Non-autistic kids typically do not do this, so the unusualness is located in the action of screaming. Because Brianna’s experience is left out, the only thing the reader sees is “mildly uncomfortable situation” and “completely disproportionate behavior”.)” 

and an example of humanizing was “Wrinkles in Brianna’s socks grated on her nerves like sandpaper on raw skin. Brianna often had difficulty conveying how unpleasant this was to other people, and when it happened, it reminded her of all the times she’d tried to communicate her frustration and been ignored. The combination of pain and stress and knowing she would likely be ignored again stripped her words from her and left her with no other way to communicate but screaming.”

Things like stimming and sensory overload are not things that autistic people do out of the blue. They are direct responses to stimuli, in the same way that I might smile when i see my favourite movie, an autistic person might flap their hands or rock from side to side. Sensory processing issues can lead to what in neurotypical people to be a tolerable sensation, for example a wrinkle in a sock, but for non-neurotypical people to be a vary painful and unpleasant experience. As with the other experiences associated with autism, such as repeated behaviours, special interests, and occasionally non verbal phases, it’s important to portray these respectfully in Andy’s character. He should not be a source of comedy due to his actions. So, all being said, here is a little character summary of Andy. Andy is 6 foot 2, heavy set, and a genius when it comes to contract law. He is home by 3:15 every day, applies sunscreen every 4 hours, (sometimes a bit more often if it’s been a rough day,) and finishes his studying at 9′oclock every evening. He likes to wear a matching pale green jumpsuit everyday, (turned inside out so that the hems dont grind on his skin,) loosely tied sneakers, and he keeps his hair short so it doesnt tickle his nose like how it did when he was younger. However, whilst Andy might be a legal eagle when it comes exams, he can’t seem to apply this keen eye to his social life. no matter how many online forums he reads, he can’t seem to make this friendship thing work with anyone in his year group. He is often seen with his brother Jonathan, who is helping him find some buddies of his own. 

Andy is 22, and is a Capricorn. His favourite season is winter (as it is much less hot, and sweating is an unbearable aspect of the human condition. In summer he showers 7 times a day just to avoid it.) His favourite color is beige, and if he won the lottery, the first thing he would buy would be 2 new rubber pencil grips. When he sees a cute puppy, he flaps his hands in delight, and can often be found gently rocking himself in his favourite part of a movie, or when the day is a bit stressful. At exam time you can see him jutting his chin out and stretching his neck from the stress of it all, and occasionally, when class is a bit too loud and the lights are a bit too bright and it’s getting overwhelming, you can find him under the stairs in block 4. It’s nice and cool there, very quiet, and there are no harsh glaring flurocents to stab into his eyes.

Andy’s dream is to work in a law firm that has very gentle lights and gentle speaking people. He is looking for graduate oportunities now, and can’t wait to start his dream job one day.

[lizardswithoutlegs]

HOOOOOWOWOAH BOY

ART ASKS

when i walk into a building i get to eat everybodys pencils and they cant say no

do it 

( also thanks for asking ! ) 

itd bother me a lot less if everybody came to my apartment and took one of these beautiful eggs

YEAH UNFORTUNATELY IM STILL..... WORKING THROUGH THE SAME WAITLIST but im comparatively REAL CLOSE to being done with it and i should be opening up sometime later in...... the Year

Boy Have I

theres This messy thing from a while back and then also

THIS, from even FURTHER back, when i didnt realize how fucking RED all the outlines on my things were because of the monitor i was using, two for the price of one

why not both

i do Not but it you ever see me walking on the street please throw handfuls of teeth at me theyre the only things my wretched body can digest and im always hungry

OH MAN ok so, an art telephone game is based on, of course, the game telephone, where one person says a phrase and then whispers it to the next person, and so on and on until the person at the very end says whatever they heard and if its done right the final sentence is wildly different than what you started with

an ART telephone game is the same kind of concept, except one person draws out a scene or character, and then other artists draw THEIR interpretation of whats going on, and so forth until the last person can end up with something COMPLETELY different than what the first scene was

youd think thered be less room for error with drawings, but as each person ONLY sees what the person ahead of them has made, they can get PRETTY OUT THERE - im gonna be a part of pythosarts game, and theyve done a couple of em before - for example one round started with THESE as the first two drawings

and then fourteen interpretations later, ended up with these as the final two

its good its real good

I Cant Control Where Bigfoot Goes, I Can Only Take Note Of Where Hes Been

YEAH, sort of ! on the main, iguanamouth, i have a bunch of different tags for art depending on what they are but not really a catchall one, BUT i do have an art only blog where everything gets tossed over ! 

HONESTLY THE ADVICE i got is basically what all art advice is gonna boil down to eventually - you gotta just. do it. you gotta DO it

absolutely nobody you know who draws things well started out at the level theyre currently at, and putting down the things youre visualizing onto paper is a combination of getting the the technical aspects down as much as getting the idea in your head

and that goes with figuring out anatomy and how bodies are put together ! ive got to use references for a Million things,. especially the dragon hoards - theres absolutely nothing wrong with using references for your drawings ! and being able to create accurate representations of things without looking is something that comes more with drawing something over and over and memorizing the body shape more than just, feeling like you should KNOW how to do something

so dont beat yourself up for needing references. if youre trying to shy away from them a little bit but still cant make something look nice without em, try using several different reference photos to put together an entirely different pose ? 

theres ALSO the SHRIMP METHOD, which is great for practicing and getting good at one particular thing - this probably isnt SUPER HELPFUL but good luck ! 

god i tried. exactly ONCE maybe fourish years ago but it wasnt art, i was trying to stream the lion king movie and i had no idea what i was doing, i didnt realize i needed to wear headphones so the sound wouldnt snowball into a feedback loop of my own voice that never ended but i kept laughing and it kept distorting worse and worse, like the audio version of saving and resaving something as a jpeg

it was just me and my friend ronni in the stream and ONE other person who never left and never said anything and i kept addressing them out loud like WHO ARE YOU and that only compounded the noise problem and eventually i gave up

anyway i havent tried since

i uhhhhh dont think i COULD, really - fear especially is something thats kind of subjective and one persons Big Terror could be neutral or even cute to another person

like for me i used to have a lot of childhood fears about the ocean, and how deep and dark and vast it was, to the point where i couldnt play a lot of water levels in video games, even ( but i had almost drowned several times when i was Very young which probably had, a little somethin to do with that )

maybe sometime ill try to explore things IM afraid of, but its hard to encompass a psychological response in an image !! could be a fun experiment, though ! !

a few PLANT ANIMAL AZKZ, HUH, DONT HAVE A WORKING Z KEY

SHIT DUDE THESE ARE... SO GOOD thats the official name EVEN IF i didnt use. a daffodil as the flower base. it doesnt matter 

yes

i got A BUNCH of flower and plant themed suggestions and theyre all REALLY GOOD ( way more than these ) but straight up im taking a break from em for a while - if anybody is else is reading this though you should definitely tackle one of em

WASABI ASKS

Do Not Feed Animals The Paste

i keep going back to read this ask because you could replace wasabi with my name and its the exact same. its the same. i feel like i have to hide somewhere

this was real and this is the award they gave us

there were other awards but the judges refused to give them out. they burned them in front of the other dogs. we won

it depends on the age ! wasabis pretty much an adult, so her sheds are pretty infrequent ( usually once every 7-8 months ) BUT when she was still growing back like 6 years ago, she would do a full-body shed every other month !

wasabi accepts tokens of appreciation in the form of : fruit, green beans. No Exceptions

i would never seperate wasabi from her hands

absolutely..... not. not even a little bit h h hh a this isnt a disney animal companion, i dont even know what “kind of like a dog” means with , a lizard who cant make any vocalizations or get up on their hind legs or NOTHIN sometimes if i hold a piece of fruit on my hand and she reaches for it she gets confused on whats what and tries to bite my fingers instead

ONCE WHEN SHE was attacking her reflection in a mirror i put my hand in front of her face to break eye contact and she SUNK HER TEETH RIGHT IN THERE but immediately let go like “oh whoops”

lissten . . .  wasabi is so sharp, just absolutely everywhere, and these are the sharpest. the grabbers

heres a lil battle damage from earlier today actually

this is pretty tame BUT the long long lines are from claws, and the thinner, closer together ones are from holding her and her scales scraping against the skin. so not even just the Body is completely safe ! this is not an animal youre gonna wanna get your face real close to if theyre in a walkin mood

she doesnt even MEAN to scratch the shit outta me, its just kind of a byproduct of being a big tree lizard. her tail is absolutely the worst thing to get hit by though. the WORST. lucky me she doesnt attack anything that isnt a dog or a vacuum cleaner or her own reflection

ahhh i got her when i was 16 ! and i dont know her exact age but she was somewhere between 3-6 months when i get her - SHES probably closer to 9 years, but ive had her for about 8

LENGTH THOUGH...... the last time i measured her she was just barely under four and a half feet, but that was a few months ago and its possible shes. Just Slightly larger. shes currently sleeping as i type this so i guess we will never know

duel me

too late for coats..... its all tail action now

ROCK ASKS AND ALSO ASKS ABOUT PUTTING ROCKS IN YOUR MOUTH

oh MAN i feel you . . . . . . . . . . i dont think i could actually Bear To Eat any for real but some of em. just. they. i gotta. just. bite on em a LITTLE just a little bit, a tiny bit, a nibble

when i was real young i used to tap things against my teeth to tell what kind of substance they were made of based on the feeling/hardness/density WHATEVER and i still sometimes do it when im checking stuff out and. it uhhhhh sure is interesting finding out not a lot of people did that

a handful of these delicious raw agates, just for you

please stop spying on me

i DO NOT but you may eat this piece of bornite

meet me at the airport and ill cover your bus fair

theres a lotta different ways to figure out what kind of rocks you got but when you have absolutely no clue on where to start your best bet is to search for the biggest distinctive features of it, and try to narrow it down based on the results

like for something like these pieces of chalcedony, you could try “waxy green translucent mineral”, and from the search results find a few candidates that might be what you have on hand, and then look into each one to see if you can get a definite answer 

ive got a handful of rock and mineral guide books that i always pick through whenever i snag something im not sure of, and if youre REAL into it those are always something you could start keeping an eye out for 

now this is a REAL superficial way to telling what something is and wont be useful for a good chunk of minerals ( as a lot of samples can look really close to something else ) and THIS is a much more in depth way of telling something apart, but its also a lot more time consuming ! so good luck. and good eating.

Just Try And Fucking Stop Me

ANIMAL ASKS THAT ARENT............ ABOUT MY LIZARD

im married to this one actually

fuck. ok. heres. a secret. a In the ask Post secret. wasabi goes through a period that lasts a month every single year where she carries eggs in her gut, and spends that month not eating and digging around in everything, trying to find the right spot to lay these eggs. and. when it happens i never know what to do with them, and i dont want to just THROW THEM AWAY so i. eat them. i eat the eggs. i fuckin eat the eggs dude

Theyre All Goddesses

unless you plan on having your lizard roam around outside whenever they want, the outside environment doesnt really matter much for most reptiles as long as you set their habitat up right ! BUT i do know that australia has bans on certain reptiles ( iguanas are one of them ) and so youre gonna have to look up whats actually available in that area 

 bearded dragons are native and those are always a good option, but so are a lot of geckos - its really gonna depend on what youre into ( but i dont really recommend anoles if thats an option, because theyre fast as Hell and dont like being handled )

what the fuck is a bee

oh geez im sorry ! i remember going through this with spiders a lot when i was younger to the point where looking at photos of em used to be a fuckin, TRIAL 

you could try a really gradual exposure deal, where you start off with getting comfortable with just images, and slowly working your way to dealing with one in a controlled setting ( like a petstore, maybe ? not HANDLING em or anything, but just being near one in a way where its absolutely impossible for them to touch you )

the shitty thing about this kind of phobia is that even if you KNOW its irrational theres sometimes not a lot you can do about it, but if you can stand looking at photos of them you could try learning up about them, and finding out the types of species youre likely to encounter around your house, and seeing how many ( if any ) are ones you should avoid ?

i know some people that have major problems with snakes are because theyre unsure if the ones they find are poisonous or not, and it might go a long way to confirm that the reptiles you meet wont be able to harm you even if they TRIED ( which is gonna be the case with a lotta house geckos, they cant do SHIT youre a GIANT )

very VERY few lizards have venomous bites, and the worst most of em can do is give you a bloody finger if theyre large enough, and even then its usually not much worse than a cat scratch !

still though, if youre really serious about trying to get past this, dont force yourself too quick into what you think you SHOULD be, and take tiny steps outta your comfort level when you can

this probably isnt uhhh SUPER helpful hh hhah but good luck !  shit im going through this post and its like ALL reptile photos. im sorry

i feel about them, with my hands

MMM it shouldnt HURT them unless theres something Really wrong, considering its a natural procession of growth, BUT its definitely itchy as hell, to the point where reptiles trying to remove it will drag their bodies over stones or walls tryin to get it off

sometimes wasabi drags her whole hind foot over her head like a dog to get it off and it is. a Sight

ahhh honestly there arent a lotta reptiles thatre gonna do much more than TOLERATE the touch and not really, enjoy it, like a dog or cat or bird

but speaking from experience with wasabi, youll probably want to avoid most the head and stick with the top of the back near the sides - wasabi doesnt enjoy having her tail messed with much either, but shes ok with her dewlap and feet being touched

the most important thing to keep an eye out for when youre touching one is their body language, because  THATS gonna be a dead giveaway for whether you need to back off or not

closing their eyes is a sign of stress, not enjoyment ! same with tilting the head back, but if thats ALL theyre doing then youre probably not gonna face any retaliation

B U T if theyve got an extended dewlap with a raised body or tail off the ground, not a good idea to interact with em ! thats a defensive posture, and you risk getting hit with a tail or even bitten if your hand gets too close

youve got more to risk with males, who are way more territorial and generally larger, but if they seem pretty chill when you approach and dont stand up and stare at you, youre probably in the clear

COCK of the ROCK

I HAVE im so jealous of anybody whos got to see one in person - actually handling one is a level beyond that which i could even comprehend

OTHER THINGS.....

no but i was bit by a pigeon once

this is the only joke i know

i fuckin WISH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ayy im into it - honestly i havent been following the band so much as just kinda, picking up whatever anybody else mentions and so my knowledge on Gorillaz Lore is pretty uhhhh h hh h scattered but im definitely interested in seeing where this goes

i remember watching the first and second season and it being pretty good - some of the episodes and jokes are hit and miss but you absolutely got me with the creature and alien design

havent seen any of the third season yet though !

i mean the fruit ones could be pretty up there 

how bout. an abstract concept. who cares about physical forms wheres the dragon of melancholy 

why come theres nothing to eat in my apartment but bread. im good otherwise but its all just bread

i havent watched either of em in YEARS and YEARS but i distinctly remember. these lil dancing mushrooms

oh wait FUCK 

FUCK !!!!!!!!!

no... NO.... she is not allowed to eat ANYTHING from the plan shelf, try as she MIGHT

im a little mad that this sill isnt bigger because the only other one that gets sun is in my room and wasabi WIll... absolutely eat those. no doubt. a convenient and expensive salad, for my awful gremlin 

god im looking at these and its all jade plants isnt it

little golden books taste the best but they can make you sick if you have too many at once. my favorite genre for snacking is sci fi fantasy but anything over 300 pages tends to get a little tough if you dont break it up with smaller chunks. non fictions always a gamble because the taste is wildly different each time but you can usually tell how ripe it is by the cover color

ayy im already a big fan of some of their stuff, ive got a couple songs from them in my music tag - im especially into i miss you and their shut up and bring it here remix

TOP FIVE THINGS

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this is barely related but once i filled up a bathtub with water and then dumped about ten bags worth of mint tea into it and then just. soaked around in the tea. listen it was really nice. id try the cheese

i dont have any ships but i was on one of those model pirate boats once for a school trip. our boat was named naruto and the other one was named sasuke and the captains shouted “make them kiss” and ran them into each other. everybody on board drowned

youre trying to trick me into googling yoshi without shoes and its not going to work

me reading this message from the safety of my apartment :

nice try, but wrong again ! : )

THIS IS GOOD info, thank you

oh SHIT the other side of paradise, take a slice, life itself, and season 2 episode 3 are all my Big Faves

the way you phrased this makes me think you already have a strong opinion on it

hey uh. coming from a person who was absolutely CONVINCED that theyd be dead in the future when they were 12, a not insignificant part of that was me feeling that there was something irreversibly wrong with me for not behaving or acting in certain ways based on what was going downstairs

and obviously im still HERE but it means i can understand how devastatingly terrible it can feel when youre that young and it seems like the way you behave and feel are flawed, or dirty, and anything that can lessen that feeling and make you comfortable in your own body is huge, can save your life

not that im saying its always a LIFE OR DEATH decision !

i guess if youre viewing it as adults forcing a child into making decisions that you dont think theyre capable of understanding its easy to be hesitant about getting behind it, but nobody is forcing a child to be trans. nobody has tricked them into feeling this way. you cant just walk in and get started on treatment on an immediate whim - some programs require 2 YEARS of concrete evidence before theyll even consider it

i feel like you should try speaking to the parents of trans children before you really put down a concrete opinion on whether this is a good or bad thing, and seeing the difference ( if any ) its made in their lives 

people whove detransitioned, or found they had ultimately a different identity than the one they were exploring could also be an avenue to look intto ! i have several acquaintances who, after a period of years, found they werent trans but wouldnt take back the time where they were figuring out if they were, and i know this doesnt invalidate the friends i have who ARE 

ultimately this is what it boils down to for me : Its Sure Gotta Beat Being Dead

i WILL give you that ive definitely seen a lot of overreactions to seemingly innocuous topics on this website

but youve also got to keep in mind that everybody who is saying these things MEANS them, and to them theres a completely reasonable explanation to why they feel that way

im not saying you should blindly accept any criticism you get, but to instead try to get a grasp on WHY theyre responding the way they are instead of immediately dismissing it

its because i cant drive and they wont let me sit in the front on account of the smell

NICE THINGS

AHHHH I GOT.. a bunch of other really sweet messages to the point where id feel weird about putting em ALL UP BUT... IF YOU SENT ME SOMETHING i can promise i absolutely saw it and it made my day better and just, holy shit, thank you for taking time out of your life to say anything to me at all

because you didnt have to, even a little bit

youre all beautiful and im kissing you on the mouths all at once. no take backs

[lunuanaki]

Your favorite ship. I'm talking about the one that gives you the butterflies and happy feel good feelings. Talk to me about that. I wanna know what your brain words say about it. :)

THANK YOU, SYN, FOR SENDING ME THIS MESSAGE WHEN NO ONE ELSE WOULD because probably they know what’s going to happen and they don’t want any part of it---  *glares at entire dash like that one picture of the assmad cartoon pig*

I’m going to cut this because it’ll definitely get long, but... if you wanna know what kind of ships I would throw myself in front of a ruby dragon for, you’re boutta find out... I’m gonna explain it for the unfamiliar as well, though. So I get to talk more. I don’t know how anyone on this website could dislike this ship. Fight me. Anyone who reads this and agrees gets the warm fuzzy feeling of my everlasting favour. 

MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

It’s Velka and Gwyndolin, is anyone surprised?! Nahhh... BUT LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT THEM BC I BET YOU DONT KNOW EM?!For those unfamiliar with Dark S//ouls, Gwyndolin is the youngest child of the Great Lord Gwyn, God of War/Sun/Lightning, all that big noisy man stuff. Gwyndolin was born weak and fragile and corpse-white, so, realising he wasn’t much of a trophy child, Gwyn raised him as a girl. Gwyn’s rejection never quite sat well with him, though - he’s always been insecure about his appearance and how others interpret it. He hates being stared at, and has been known to kill servants who aren’t careful where they look. Actually, he’s not fussy about murder in general, but he does have a strong sense of who deserves it and who doesn’t.Gwyndolin’s talents lie in moon-related magic and archery. As an adult, he still presents as female, he’s still horribly weak in a physical sense, paper-white, and for unspecified-in-canon reasons, has six or eight snakes where his legs should be (he still has legs, but the snakes tend to boost him off the floor). I’m not going to link any images. Picture white silk, gold, delicate, intricately made bows and faintly glowing arrows, and a gold mask he hides his face behind that mimics the shape of the sun his dad is so obsessed with.His canon personality is cold and apathetic; this is no tragic princess to be rescued. Suggest as much, or try to cross him, and he will kill you where you stand, with a shot so fast you’d never see him draw the arrow, or raise his staff. He leads a covenant of followers who hunt down sinners. As proof that they killed for their master, these followers tear off their victim’s ear and bring it to his doorstep for his approval. He’s pure grace and moonlight, and the definition of the phrase “glass cannon”. He knows his place, and even though he will never be a true part of Gwyn’s family, at least to his father, he works to support them. You can kill him in-game; if you do, the sun will go out. It was an illusion. The sun went out in Anor Londo centuries ago; Gwyndolin has been maintaining the false image of its better days, as a comfort to visiting Undead, even though it must grate at his soul to do it. His title is Dark Sun. This is not his natural habitat. 

Velka. Velka is a name, and a concept. That’s all we get in-game. She appeared in the third game as a statue (that confirmed my headcanon appearance for her to be spot on). Her title is Goddess of Sin. She’s known for being sneaky, “eccentric witch”, difficult, changeable. Gwyn’s friendship with her was always rocky; she could see his pride and his self interest, and he knew she waited for the day he met her judgement. Flames help him; after the massacre of the dragons, if he ever knelt at her feet, it would be the last thing he did. If Gwyn is the sun, she is the darkness waiting for him to sink below the horizon. Her covenant are absolvers of sin, for a price, their faces covered to separate them from the material world. She has no concept of the Christian idea of sin, because that just doesn’t exist in Lordran. Sin is decided based on her moral compass - conflicting philosophies, like the Way of White, might claim she has none, because she sees no inherent sin in drinking, or sex, or gambling, as long as no ill intent or effect is there. She only wears black, silver, and that one splash of red, the wedding ring from the husband she outlived. She was human once; not a born Lord like Gwyndolin. That mortal vitality is still about her; she never had the luxury of living without the concept of death. Picture extremely long, thick black hair (that she’s famous for in game), crystal-clear lavender eyes, blood red lips, porcelain-coloured skin and purple dark circles, lace and velvet. Her mother taught her to scheme and spy her way up. Gwyndolin was naturally suspicious of her at first, as he should have been. But their covenants had a mutual interest, and she began to supply her list of unrepentant sinners for his covenant to hunt down. It became a bonding ritual, I think both of them enjoyed it more than they’d admit. 

Gwyndolin to begin to get. Jealous. Velka was known for spending nights with anyone she pleased, servant to knight, never getting attached to any of them. There were rumours that the crown prince of sunlight himself was on that list. Gwyndolin seemed to be the only one she wouldn’t look at in that way. Was that because of the way he looked? Did she pity or avoid him the way everyone else did, even after all this time? Every hour she spent with one of them was one she wasn’t with him. His own anger at her is confusing to him, because he’s never had any interest in anyone, male or female, not like this. It was, she said, because she valued him more than one of her throwaways. She paid close attention to him, enough to know he didn’t like to be approached like that, or looked at. Whenever people had shown interest in him before, he’d assumed they were mocking him. She didn’t want to make him feel the way they did, so she was content with the distance she stayed at, as long as she could pride herself on being the one he was most comfortable with. It was selfish, really, but she liked being his favourite, so she’d do anything to stay that way. Velka does not recognise the word love, because she’s never experienced it before, so she doesn’t use it, not yet.

When they finally stopped dancing around each other, her reputation for impropriety died, along with anyone who spoke about her like that in front of Gwyndolin. Gwyndolin is extremely possessive, and Velka, for once, finds she wants to be possessed. There’s still no power imbalance, though. With her support, Gwyndolin’s confidence can develop (she’s so proud of everything he does). With his favour, she can’t be sidelined as badly as before. They have to be careful as a couple, because it’s dangerous to be seen that way. Not because “Gwyn won’t approve of her”, but because between them, with their combined covenants, Gwyn’s distrust of her, and the growing unrest among Gwyn’s human subjects, they present a very real threat to the throne, and as if to prove their point, Gwyn will soon exile his own son and heir for less.

They’re like Morticia and Gomez, if all that overly romantic stuff were silent. Because they don’t need to say anything. Like the time he panicked over an instinctive murder of a wayward servant, and she helped him clean the blood off his hands and let him calm down alone when she wanted to kiss him until he remembered how much more important he was than such a silly mistake as that - to her, and who else matters? Or the time someone made an untoward comment about her at the dinner table and no one saw Gwyndolin draw the arrow, just the sight of it hit the speaker and kill them instantly. She only laughed as politely as she could, because he already knows how much she adores his overprotective homicidal tendencies, and he thrives off it. Her sense of justice has a blind spot that exists just for him, and she can forgive him anything.

There’s a little piece of lore in the game that says Velka sided against the gods in a war, and lost. The AU that could happen if they won gives me life. If they won, she wouldn’t have taken Gwyn’s place herself, she would have given it to Gwyndolin. They would make a terrifying but brilliant leader between them. The sun would set in Anor Londo for good, and Gwyndolin’s intelligence and clarity would get a chance to prove itself more useful than Gwyn’s brute force and genocide tactics. Gwyndolin isn’t much for titles, but you can be damn sure Velka would take it. If it made Gwyn turn in his grave to hear her called Queen, she’d insist on it, after the way she watched him treat Gwyndolin. As if he weren’t worthy of Gwyn’s pathetic legacy. 

Of course, as the series goes, in the third game, Gwyndolin is gone. Reportedly cannibalised by a cult leader and his apprentice while he was weak and sick. Velka’s verse for that revolves around her finding and saving him - whatever that means. 

If anyone stuck with me this long, please offer me emotional support, because I am compromised. I haven’t run out of words or feelings, I’ve run out of energy to convey them. These two are precious to me. Not only is there all this intensity and unrelenting devotion behind them, they take the usual framework for a hetero relationship, shatter it and piece it back together in completely the “wrong” order. Velka has some of the masculine traits, the forcefulness of her mannerisms, the proactively destructive one, however undercover it might be. Gwyndolin is the formal, delicate, princessly one, and has to be pushed to react badly. Both of them are beautiful, in totally opposing ways. You would usually expect the  female to be the sexually inexperienced one and the male to be the opposite, but that’s flipped on its head as well. And yet, the hyper-feminine one is Velka. Gwyndolin is androgynous, even in feminine clothing. I don’t think I’ve ever come across a pairing where each one adds to the others’ existence to such a degree as they do. I reject the events of the second and third games and substitute my own, because anything else is a waste of one of the best pairs I’ve seen in anything, ever. I don’t think I’ll ever top some of the threads I did with enasaliin with these two, honestly, I might as well log out and never come back. I have to go do some starters now. My heart hurts. ;-;

[turnaboutspec]

When will you answer

1. What was the last present you gave?

The last present I gave were a few plushies from hong kong

2. What was the last present you received?

Just a cute facemask

3. What animal best represents your personality?

Originally was just a sloth, then I was a elephant cos I’mjolly as hell then explode , now I’m just a tiger… just chilling and beingblunt as needed

4. What are you most afraid of?

Honestly just companionship lmao. I dont mind being alone, but just dont wanna lose friends.

5. Who is your favourite villain?

Bitch ass Kylo Ren so far.

Nigga was a trouble ass foo, but mother fucker lukeskywalker just had to attack him in his asleep which led him to the dark side. He’s so godamn edgy which makes him great.

6. Who is your favourite family member? (we all have one, admitit)

Just my brother. Hes a dick but lol.

7. If you could name your own planet what would it becalled?

Potato Land

8. Stars or Moon?

The stars though. The moon is great and all, but what’sreally amazing are the all different kinds of stars there are in the universe.I always wonder how some of them could be dramatically different.

9. Do you have/want kinds?

KIDS? Do you mean KIDS? Hahaa… Honestly Not really =|Unlless I can be compelling convinced.

10. What is your greatest life goal?

Great life goal is to become a ceo of a super global companylol.

11. What is something you can’t live without?

 My cellphone lmao. Always checking my businesses and other stuff.

12. What is a place you associate with your childhood?

Los Angeles

13. How was your first kiss/how would you like your firstkiss to go?

Lmao my first kiss was when I was 5 bruh with one of myfamily friend’s daughter. We were always constantly making out being overlysexual LOL (Its then I realize I was a pervert)

14. What is some life advice you have acquired?

Just call out on bullshit and constantly improve yourself

15. Who in history has influenced you?

The only person that influenced me was my homie, GordonZhang. He is such a great guy and very wise about things.

16. What is something strange that you think about often?

How do aliens fuck?

17. Baths or Showers?

Baths..because I wish my bath tub was bigger, showevers aregreat, but I just want to chill in the bath you know?

18. Tea of Coffee?

LOVE TEA. I love collecting and trying out all sorts ofexotic teas.

19. Alcohol or soft drink?

Sodas all day tho. Alcohol is aight, but sweets>drunk thotbh.

20. Writing or typing?

Writing lol. I like the feel of pencils and the smells ofpapers even though I’m bad at it.

21. What is you most favourite thing in your bedroom?

Baemax

22. Spontaneous holiday! Where are you going and with who?

We going to all of the disneylands~ Someone I can spoil Heh

23. Introverted or Extraverted?

Extraverted. It’s good to be a mix of both

24. Describe yourself in two words.

Fat Potato

25. A song that always puts you in a good mood.

AFRICA BY TOTO

26. What makes you feel?

The hell does this mean.

A lot of things make me feel a type of way. Old memories,food, 80s music.

27. What was your favourite concert?

Honestly, I had a stupid meeting for my frat, but I fuckingskipped it for ZEDD. Zedd was amazing lol. That lighting was perfect.

28. Any plans for a tattoo?

Oh yeah soon.

29. What was the first book you ever read?

Alice in Wonderland.

30. What was the first movie you saw in cinemas?

The earliest I can remember was the Santa Clause.

31. What do you think of when you hear ‘portrait’?

A picture of someone dressed up real nice in a nicebackground.

32. Tell me aboutyour partner/ideal partner?

Someone who would have high energy, crazy, roasting all the time, always down for shenanigans.

33. Tell me about your siblings, if you have any?

Just have younger brother. He’s crazy lol. Does drugs, andfucks other people’s gf/ex’s LOL.  Lovehim, but he is also an asshole at times.

34. What is a topic you would like to talk about more?

Baking techniques bruh.

35. What are you a big advocate for?

Big Advocate regarding sexual matters. Dunno why peoplefreak about that shit. It’s pretty normal.

36. If you’re comfortable to answer, what is the sickest youhave ever been?

The sickest I have ever been was summer last year.Constantly yakking, and couldn’t even get out of bed.

37. When were you the most scared in your life?

The most scared moment I have ever been in was when I almostdied on the freeway when my cousins car spunned out of a control beforeslightly bumping the wall.

38. Ever had a paranormal experience?

All the dman fucking time since I was a kid. There’s so manythat I lost count.

39. Biggest celebrity crush at the moment?

l o l.

40. What is something happening in your life right now?

Just new experiences, and doing things that I normally notdoing ~

41. What is your favourite mythological creature?

Dragons bruh. I wish dragons were real so I can ride themand fuck around and go to places high speeds.

42. Marvel or DC?

Marvel tbh. D.C. is great in comics, but in movies MARVEL.

43. What object would be on your family’s banner?

A hydra or something to do with snakes lol.

44. Favourite flower?

Forget-me-nots.

45. One characteristic you like in a partner?

High Energy(Big Dick energy jk)

46. What planet/star would you travel to if it werepossible?

Alpha Centauri bruh

47. What is your favourite meal… ever?

My favorite meal of all time was eating at the House ofPrime Ribs. That place is so damn bougie, but it was so worth the money. I hadthe best experience in my life.

48. First time…. doing anything. Describe your first timedoing something?

First time getting my ears pierced recently. It wasn’t ascary experience . The guy was chill. He looked like Steve Aoki and we bondedover video games lol.

49. Who is your favourite superhero?

Skrt Skrt Spiderman. All the stories surrounding Spidermanwere fun and lit. I love how all the costumes he wore were rather unique intheir own ways.

50. What is your favourite poem? Recite it?

Invictus

Out of the night that covers me,

Black as the pit from pole to pole,

I thank whatever gods may be

For my unconquerable soul.

 In the fell clutch of circumstance

I have not winced nor cried aloud.

Under the bludgeonings of chance

My head is bloody, but unbowed.

 Beyond this place of wrath and tears

Looms but the Horror of the shade,

And yet the menace of the years

Finds and shall find me unafraid.

 It matters not how strait the gate,

How charged with punishments the scroll,

I am the master of my fate,

I am the captain of my soul.

 51. What is an exercise you despise doing.

I don’t like treadmills. I prefer laterals and bikes.

52. Secret talent?

Photoshopping skills lol when I feel like it.

53. Current song on replay replay replay?

“water ripples” by enno aare

54. Recommend me anything. Seriously… anything.

Shit I recommend

55. If you weren’t in your current occupation what would yoube doing? Traveling the world doing tech shit.

56. What is the first thing you notice about the person youfancy?

Their eyes.

57. If you had one wish that would definitely come true,what would it be?

Stable ass home with someone at my side. Lol.. Gay shit likethat.

58. If you could time travel, when and where would youvisit?

Shit All throughout Greek history though. I always likedthat era.

59. What is your lucky number?

69..i’m serious, and17.

60. If you adopt a pet what would it be and what would youname it?

Corgi, name him Cornelius

61. Do you believe in fate/everything happens for a reason?

Of course, and it also that whatever happens could come backto your life.

62. What is your favourite thing about your personality?

My charisma with others. I can easily make others smile

63. What is your favourite thing about your appearance?

I look like jay leno.

64. What is your favourite clothing store?

BAPE. Still waiting on my jackets.

65. What is your favourite online store?

Supreme. Ironically.

66. Use one word to describe your most favourite person?

kawaii

67. How do you usually have your hair?

Combed backward withpomade.

68. What was your favourite subject in high school?

Comp sci because I was able to fuck around too much.

69. What makes you feel empowered?

Accomplishing things that I normally wouldn’t do at all.

70. What motivates you to do something?

I get motivated when I know that If I do , it will besatisfied and the other party will be happy as well.

71. What advice would you give someone who is going througha rough time?

Just push through, strive forward, and fuck shit up

72. Ideal date?

LOTR marathon while just laying there eating food.

73. What is the best date night movie?

Shit LOTR kek.

74. What is something you are currently looking forward to?

=] Brand new experiences, new homes.

75. Tell me a funny joke?

Argon walks into a bar. The bartender says "Sorry wedon't serve noble gasses here" Argon doesn't react

 76. Do you like musicals? If so, what’s your favourite?

Wicked, and POTO

77. What is your favourite song currently?

In my mind by Gigi D’Agostino

78. What song never fails to make you dance?

Any songs from the 80 tbh lol.  

79. What is your favourite “classic?”

Sandstorm by Darude

80. What is the best advice you have ever been given?

This a repeat of a earlier question omg.

81. Where did you ancestors come from?

India the motherlands, and somewhere else.

82. What have you learned from your parents/guardians?

Nothing really useful lol . I learned a lot from people thatisn’t my family.

83. What is a phrase you heard a lot growing up?

“You never know it could happen” when they always trynascare ya.

84. Do you believe in magic?

O h yeah. That shits crazy lel.

85. What reminds you of your best friend?

Memessssssssssssss

86. What are you passionate about?

Baking, Music, and online business.

87. Tell me a story from middle school?

Lmao, I was sitting in the quad, when a cat fight brokenout. IT was whack because one girl intentionally threwed her shoe at some othergirl, and next thing you know the other girl got slammed with a chair LOL. SHITWAS WHACK THO. Quimby was hella ratchet.

88. Who was your favourite teacher and why?

Favorite Teaaaacher is Semenov. He’s such an asshole, but I really learned a lot from him.

89. Can you roll your tongue?

Oh yeah I love rolling my tongue. I LOVE MAKIGN RRR SOUNDS

90. What made you pursue what you are studying? (includingschool subjects)

Honestly, I was attracted to what I’m doing because I met alot of people from all over the world, and learned more about businesses inother countries that I want to become super globalist and makea huge differencein the world.

91. Where would you like to travel to?

Every Didneyland, and the UK.

92. What is something on your bucket-list?

Skydive~ I really really want to skydive.

93. What is home to you?

My friend’s apartment. So many memories there.

94. What do you do in your free time?

Practicing music, and learning new skills when I can. I tryto bake after I’m done with all of my work, but I get busy.

95. If you could buy anything right now, what would it be?

A new computer to play video games….

96. If you could see anyone, living or dead, right now, whowould it be?

A CERTAIN SOMEONE ~

97. If you could choose, what would your last meal be?

ENDLESS SUSHI

98. How would you like to die?

All out fireworks, and a celebration lmao.

99. List five of your favourite pieces of art (paintings,books, songs etc)

               Nighthawks,Starry Night, anything by Chopin, Le Phantom, LOTr IS A MASTERPIECE

100. What would you change about this world?

I would love to change all of the corruption in the world

[theconservativebrief]

It takes a particular strain of hateful ignorance to harass someone so much that they don’t feel safe on social media. And it appears that certain “fans” of DC Comics’ Teen Titans have tapped into that toxic combination.

In comic books, two cartoon series, and a new animated movie, Starfire is a female alien with creamsicle-colored skin and a mane of scarlet hair. Like many female characters you see in comic books, Starfire is a supernatural and unrealistic being — a work of pure imagination. Understandably, and largely because orange-skinned, energy-projecting aliens are not real, Titans cast a human actress named Anna Diop to play Starfire in a darker, grittier live-action TV version.

With Starfire, Diop, who has appeared on shows like Bosch and Greenleaf, snagged possibly the biggest role of her life. But in doing so, she also became a target of social media attacks from people who at best believed she didn’t embody their version of Starfire, and at worst resorted to heinous misogynistic and racist attacks on Diop:

Look at this terrible Starfire “fan.” Twitter

Following the wave of harassment, Diop has turned off comments on her Instagram and minimized her social media presence. It’s the latest chapter in a particularly ugly ongoing saga about a certain segment of comic book “fans” not getting exactly what they want and retaliating in the worst way possible.

People got their first chance to see Diop in action as Starfire when the first trailer for Titans was released during Comic-Con last week. The trailer was met with a fair bit of skepticism (and mockery), mainly because it featured a flagrantly emo Robin uttering the phrase, “Fuck Batman.” But that strange moment doesn’t mean the show is going to be bad, and for all we know, it could be great.

Unfortunately, the trailer was also the first time the more toxic portions of Teen Titans fandom got to see the trailer, and they leveled their skepticism and mockery at a different target: Diop’s appearance, and specifically, her skin color.

“She is too fat and too dark for Starfire,” a fan wrote. (BuzzFeed compiled the ugly comments.) “Starfire is not African,” another fan commented.

Again, Starfire’s skin is traditionally rendered as a radioactive tangerine orange — a completely fictional hue of skin for a completely fictional being — yet some are adamant that the character shouldn’t be played by a black woman:

This is actually the second round of ugliness that Diop has faced for playing Starfire. Back in April, the first stills of Diop in her Starfire costume were released, and people were quick to react with outright racism and hate speech.

Those hateful comments didn’t just exist in a vacuum on the nastiest corners of Twitter either. Diop’s Instagram page was flooded with similar hate, and still was right up until the trailer dropped and she disabled comments. She addressed the racism at the time of the set photo leaks in a now-deleted post.

“Too often social media is abused by some who find refuge in the anonymity and detachment it provides: misused as a tool to harass, abuse, and spew hatred at others,” Diop wrote. “This is weak, sad, and a direct reflection of the abuser. Racist, derogatory, and/or cruel comments have nothing to do with the person on the receiving end of that abuse.”

Diop’s most heinous attackers have made it crystal clear that this isn’t about the specific person playing Starfire, but rather about how a black woman, any black woman, shouldn’t be Starfire. It’s not a critique; it’s flagrant racism. And Diop now feels unsafe on social media because of these attacks.

Actors, no matter the color of their skin or their gender, are frequently subject to criticism when they sign on to play iconic comic book characters, mostly for not being perceived to have the skill or look to embody a character that fans have grown up with. We saw it with Ben Affleck and Batman and Jared Leto as the Joker.

For women, this criticism tends to be strongly tied to their appearance. When Gal Gadot was cast as Wonder Woman, there was a pervading whisper that she was too skinny and frail to play the Amazon princess. Implicitly, those haters were saying that Gadot wasn’t voluptuous enough to fill out Wonder Woman’s costume.

But what’s happening to Diop is different from what Affleck and Leto faced, and it’s even uglier than the awful body-shaming that Gadot was subjected to. Because critiques about what Diop looks like as Starfire involve the color of her skin, inviting hateful, racist vitriol from what Diop’s Titans co-star Minka Kelly called “racist cowards.”

On Thursday, in the midst of the attacks on Diop and her social media lockdown, Kelly came to her defense, writing on Instagram:

That so many racist cowards would take the time to attack her instagram so that she has to shut off comments after having already shut down her entire account once before over this bullshit makes me feel rage … It takes zero courage to sit in your dark lonely room spewing your venom online while protected by your anonymous faceless accounts. I cannot begin to fathom the courage it requires everyday just to exist as a black woman in this country (#ChikesiaClemons) let alone to also have the audacity to fight for and follow your dreams. I bow to you, Anna.

Fans have also united to lend their support to Diop online, encouraging her to stay strong.

Perhaps the saddest thing about the spew of abuse that Diop has endured is that it’s just one instance of a recurring pattern. Last week, when Netflix’s redesign of She-Ra was unveiled, toxic fans bemoaned that the reimagined character wasn’t “pretty” or feminine enough, and proceeded to attack showrunner Noelle Stevenson. Last month, Star Wars’ Kelly Marie Tran deleted her Instagram after months of racist harassment from so-called “fans.”

The people attacking these women are predominantly men who believe themselves to be the truest disciples of the original characters and/or franchises. The very worst of them seem to also be the most ardent fans of misogyny, homophobia, and racism. This pattern of attacks based on gender, race, and sexual orientation is upsetting not only for the trauma it inflicts on its individual targets but for the potential it has to stifle pop culture’s slow evolution toward greater representation for people who aren’t white men.

Original Source -> Teen Titans’ Starfire is an orange alien. Racist “fans” don’t want a black woman playing her.

via The Conservative Brief

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1. What is you middle name?jeezus, its a strong middle name to match my strong first name
2. How old are you?20 but im bout to be twenty fun in a month and two days mf
3. When is your birthday?september 8th!!!
4. What is your zodiac sign?virgang 🤙
5. What is your favorite color?pink af
6. What’s your lucky number?i don’t have a “lucky” number but i fuck w the number 6 pretty heavy
7. Do you have any pets?a rat lookin dog named sophie who hates me
8. Where are you from?good ol indiana
9. How tall are you?5'5", 5'4" somewhere in there
10. What shoe size are you?8.5 in women’s if anyone wants to buy me nice expensive shoes
11. How many pairs of shoes do you own?prolly like 7 hahaha
12. What was your last dream about?better question, when was the last time i had a dream? 
13. What talents do you have?i can wiggle my nose like the witch in bewitched, i can smoke a pack and a half in a day, i can drum on my steering wheel pretty good
14. Are you psychic in any way?i dont think so some situations are j painfully predictable
15. Favorite song?perth x bon iver, easy
16. Favorite movie?tarzan bitch i havent watched it in a long time tho
17. Who would be your ideal partner?anyone that doesn’t get angry w me when i’m too anxious 
18. Do you want children?YES so fucking bad
19. Do you want a church wedding?nope that would make no sense
20. Are you religious?no i really tried to be, like i went to many different churches and youth groups and those camp things but it always j felt like i was trying to integrate myself into a fantasy like i think i was j trying too hard to feel something that i don’t think i can
21. Have you ever been to the hospital?4 times in the psychiatric ward, once in the er, once for surgery
22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law?yeah fuck that im never doing that shit again
23. Have you ever met any celebrities?just a lot of bands hahaha
24. Baths or showers?showers because baths are boring and gross and you usually gotta shower along w a bath if youre tryna get clean so thas a waste of water
25. What color socks are you wearing?im barefoot rn its summertime g
26. Have you ever been famous?nope and i am grateful for that bc i can still say whatever i want on the internet and no sjws come at me all nutty
27. Would you like to be a big celebrity?no way i love privacy and freedom
28. What type of music do you like?i like a lot of different shit including rap and country but lately ive only really been vibing to bryson tiller and frank ocean
29. Have you ever been skinny dipping?nope that would be a big mistake
30. How many pillows do you sleep with?two!
31. What position do you usually sleep in?on my stomach, one leg bent upwards, both arms under the pillows
32. How big is your house?its small af it has no basement but its cozy
33. What do you typically have for breakfast?four camel crush menthols and whatever drink is on my side table
34. Have you ever fired a gun?not an actual gun but a bb gun for sure
35. Have you ever tried archery?yeah once on a field trip in like….4th grade
36. Favorite clean word?i dont think i have one anymore
37. Favorite swear word?shit
38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep?very close to 48 hours and it fucking sucked
39. Do you have any scars?tons but the ones on my hands are fading so shouts out to that
40. Have you ever had a secret admirer?if i did it really was a secret cuz i didnt know
41. Are you a good liar?im really good at hiding things but dont ask me abt them bc then i’ll have to tell you
42. Are you a good judge of character?my track record says no
43. Can you do any other accents other than your own?i do accents all the fucking time its damn near annoying
44. Do you have a strong accent?uhhh probably to people not from this area hahaha
45. What is your favorite accent?spanish or indian
46. What is your personality type?enfj which is crazy cuz when i took the myers briggs in high school i was an istj
47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing?my gold superstars
48. Can you curl your tongue?yep i got them good genes
49. Are you an innie or an outie?innie bye
50. Left or right handed?right handed boi
51. Are you scared of spiders?i dont want them to touch me under any circumstances but i dont go out of my way to hurt them
52. Favorite food?mac and cheese but only when its made in specific ways alright creamy mac and cheese is fucked up
53. Favorite foreign food?do tacos count
54. Are you a clean or messy person?messy even when i wanna be clean
55. Most used phrased?right now its probably “damn near”, “deadass”, or “by any means”
56. Most used word?you gotta ask like dani or tori or sum 
57. How long does it take for you to get ready?15 minutes
58. Do you have much of an ego?lowkey kind of. sometimes i really think im the best
59. Do you suck or bite lollipops?suck for a lil, then bite bc suckers take forever to eat and theyre boring
60. Do you talk to yourself?all day everyday no matter where i am
61. Do you sing to yourself?no but i do hum a lot
62. Are you a good singer?no i probably was like semi decent before i started smoking a bunch of shit all the time and lost my lung capacity
63. Biggest Fear?dying. i never understood that fear until i felt it
64. Are you a gossip?yeah i love talking abt what people are doing 
65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen?american beauty
66. Do you like long or short hair?on who? long on me, short on my rat dog sophie
67. Can you name all 50 states of America?yeah b my middle school choir teacher didnt teach us the song for nothin
68. Favorite school subject?english always
69. Extrovert or Introvert?extrovert i need social interaction to function like a human
70. Have you ever been scuba diving?nope and i never will bc i am afraid
71. What makes you nervous?whatever you can think of. thats what makes me nervous
72. Are you scared of the dark?yes if i cant be 100% aware of whats around me im losing my shit
73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes?
i used to do it allll the fuckin time like to the point where my friends were getting really upset abt it and then i grew up

74. Are you ticklish?nope thank god
75. Have you ever started a rumor?uh no but one time a gurl i was half friends w was telling ppl i was spreading rumors saying her grandpa died? which is really nutty 
76. Have you ever been in a position of authority?everyday i go to work! 
77. Have you ever drank underage?just last night, in fact. but im barely underage at this point
78. Have you ever done drugs?no? that doesnt sound like something i would do
79. Who was your first real crush?real crush?? uhhhh im not sure ive like experienced that like ive thought i liked a LOT of dudes
80. How many piercings do you have?9, 3 in each ear, both nostrils, and my septum
81. Can you roll your Rs?“no :-(
82. How fast can you type?pretty fast, prolly not as fast as i used to though
83. How fast can you run?hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah
84. What color is your hair?like four different shades of blonde
85. What color is your eyes?blue/grey
86. What are you allergic to?nothing that i’m aware of!!!
87. Do you keep a journal?no and i really fucking wish i did
88. What do your parents do?like as far as work? my dad works at a factory, my mom works at a place that sells pumps
89. Do you like your age?i dont care abt it 
90. What makes you angry?wasting time!!! nothing in this whole world makes me angrier than feeling like im not using my time to its full potential
91. Do you like your own name?hell no
92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they?yes i have but only for girls bc boy names are ugly and im not sharing them bc i dont want anybody finessin
93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child?id be ecstatic w either but i always imagine a girl
94. What are you strengths?im really empathetic, im funny asf to myself, i know some big words
95. What are your weaknesses?im really empathetic, when im not on lithium im hella obsessive and angry
96. How did you get your name?mom found it in a baby book
97. Were your ancestors royalty?no but they all tell me im related to president zachary taylor
98. Do you have any scars?uh yah i already told you
99. Color of your bedspread?rn its j grey
100. Color of your room?pink/purple!!

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