#you can rb this if you want idc

[nanistar]

if i did an avos rewrite. it would be firestar coming to sparkpaw and telling her about skyclan and saying it’s time for skyclan to join the clans around the lake. sparkpaw tells jayfeather about her dream and he directs her to sandstorm, who tells her about it, and decides to lead her there. sparkpaw insists her cringefail brother comes too, hopefully to get him some experience (he is a warrior apprentice and not banished to the med den for being so fail) needlepaw finds the patrol and comes too, so it’s grandma and 3 kids, and the 3 apprentices are all become friends.

sandstorm leads them to skyclan and they find darktail and his guys but sandstorm has a bad feeling about them, and refuses to work with them. they go off looking for the real skyclan and find them (instead of going home and then leaving again in a few books) and darktail catches up to them. sandstorm lays down her life fighting for skyclan then, maybe she’s protecting baby twigkit and violetkit (who are not randomly abandoned and are not pov characters) or maybe to give them all a head start at getting away. either way she goes out fighting for skyclan, and glimpses of her spirit guide them back to the lake.

spark and alder return to the lake with skyclan in tow, but sparkpaw is having mixed feelings about skyclan now because her beloved grandma died for them, and now that they’re back at the lake there seems to be nothing but turmoil caused by bringing them back. alderpaw advocates aggressively for them, which drives a wedge between the siblings. skyclan is there to advise shadowclan against letting darktail close to them, but they are stubborn and rowanstar sucks so they ignore the warnings and get taken over. riverclan does not get taken over. needletail is there to give a POV from shadowclan as things get worse. darktail’s gang+shadowclan take over the territory that thunderclan cleared for skyclan’s temporary camp, which adds more tension. onestar is being aggressive and paranoid towards the other clans, especially skyclan, but doesn’t seem interested in what’s happening in shadowclan. needletail (pretending to be on darktail’s side) figures out the relationship between darktail and onestar, and tells sparkpaw, and her and alderpaw go to confront onestar on their own and he kicks them out, but he dwells on their thoughts. 

thunder, sky and riverclan leap into a big final battle against darktail, some shadowclan cats turn on him but some don’t out of fear or new loyalties. needletail tries to take on darktail alone, but she ultimately dies, the last thing she sees is alderpaw and sparkpaw desperately trying to help but they’re being held back by either darktail’s posse or clanmates who know that they would just die if they go over there too idk. just when hope seems lost, windclan comes running in and saves the day, with onestar catching darktail by surprise. i like the way they both go under and then never resurface so that can stay.

sparkpaw and alderpaw get their warrior names together, alderheart and sparkstorm, after their grandparents. in needletail’s honor they both aggressively advocate for warrior code reform, and for the clans to move the borders over so skyclan can have territory. maybe there’s some issues with shadowclan trying to reconstruct itself, and there’s some fighting between shadow and skyclan or whatever but the whole juniperclaw thing doesn’t happen, and skyclan doesn’t try to leave again.i think shadowkit is what finally stops the fighting between the two. but the point is. sparkpelt is important the whole time, and skyclan is there too.

[keymintt]

bisexual, but not rly in an "i'm attracted to xyz" way so much as a "whatever the fuck happens, happens" way

[wiseatom]

can i just like. say something.

i think this community can be really fun at times! i also think it can be toxic! that said, a lot of — not all, but a lot — the toxicity comes from people actively opening themselves up to harmful situations.

the cool thing about online spaces is that you have so much control in curating them! you can block someone whose opinions or posts you don’t agree with without ever having to interact with them. you can ignore or delete hateful anonymous messages, or even disable the feature entirely. you can privately message someone if you want to talk to them without an audience watching the entire thing.

the point of this isn’t to say that you shouldn’t engage in discourse, that being petty and dramatic isn’t fun, that responding to anon hate with a one-liner isn’t funny and cool. the point is to say that i think it’s kind of silly to complain about drama and negativity and hate when you also invite 300,000+ people to say some nasty shit to you with zero consequences on their end but a whole lot of satisfaction out of the reaction they get from you.

this isn’t directed at any one person in particular, and it’s not an attack. it’s simply a gentle reminder that you literally have the power to make this space a positive one. please stop letting strangers on the internet take that away from you.

[roboraindrop]

I love just existing in my own corner of the internet where I'm allowed to be a little weirdo dkdnsksh yes I am possessive and abnormal about these characters, thank you 💕💕

[moonlightperseus]

btw if you intend to watch the new harry potter series go ahead and block me bc i don’t want to interact with you

[omegalomania]

heaven, iowa is..........t4t coded

[selfindulgentfandomstuff]

hey, im new to the macgyver fandom and i saw your murdoc art while scrolling the self ship tag. I was wondering if you could give me some tidbits on murdoc? I'm making an au thanks to a gods and godesses dream and im having trouble with his personality.

Hi, I’m gonna be honest, I poked around your blog a bit (your art is very nice/gen) and I can’t tell really for sure; do you also selfship romantically with Murdoc at all or..?/genq

If you don’t and are just interested in some of the information I have on him (canon and headcanon) I’d be happy to dm you and we could chat abt that there! In fact, I’d love to talk abt him more!!/gen

If you do selfship romantically with him though, well I’m gonna politely ask you to read my pinned post and I trust you’ll understand how to proceed from there!

[agdab]

this is some sort of sleep meds nonsense im gonna write out before going to bed but this is a topic thats kinda been eating a hole in the back of my head for a while

ive seen a lot on something called weaponized incompetence. plainly explained, someone uses their "inability" to do something "the right way" to get you to do it for them because "you do it better", or "i didnt do x/y because you didn't tell me to"

and while yes i have seen this happen and have had it happen to myself, i cant help but wonder if half the time its just... neurodivergence. as someone whos autistic, i need incredibly specific step by step details on how to do something sometimes. as someone with adhd, i just fucking forget how to do something ive done already before, or i just can't remember how it's usually done so i ask. or take a gamble and guess how to do it ans hope it's right

this has been regarded as bad, and has labelled me as a dumb, incompetent person by some. or, they just feel frustrated and inconvenienced by that, or they just shove me off and do it themselves, thus feeding into more frustration. it's not something i can, like, help. i always feel bad about it.

anyway, i see strained or failing relationships where one partner is frustrated about the idea of weaponized incompetence, and half the time that i read thru it, it just sounds like undiagnosed neurodivergent traits. and i think that's something that should be discussed more often, tbh.

[clovenh00ved]

Oh god that one post about how "men dni tags are bad actually and are terf dogwhistles" with thousands of notes is circulating on my dash again. tumblr stop being lesbophobic for 2 seconds challenge.

[fuckingshutup]

[startersword]

I don't know why this is so hard to understand on this site, but stories with themes of grief, sorrow and heartbreak, and facing evil in the eyes, and stories that are light-hearted, "about nothing", and ultimately harmless are equally as important and one is not more important or better than the other. Everyone's tastes are different and you shouldn't bash someone else's preference for a happier or darker story, and you also should see and give a chance to the value that a happier or darker story will have. Good grief.

[go-to-the-mirror]

BIRTHDAY POSTING!!!!!!

Content warnings: Detailed descriptions of suicide attempts, brief self-harm.

(Bit of a downer, but don’t worry, it’s got a nice ending.)

I tried to kill myself the first time when I was 12.

It was a stupid way of killing myself, but I was fully prepared to. I wrote a note and put it in my desk, I went outside in winter without a coat — one of my friends asked why, I said I was curious as to how long I could last in a Canadian winter without a coat. I was fine, when we went inside. I planned to stand outside the whole night when I got home. But I didn’t. The next day I tore the note up.

The second time I tried to kill myself I was 13.

It was less of an attempt and more of a… very almost attempt. I was going to drown myself in the bath, but my friends said “hey! no! we love you!” so I didn’t.

When I was 14 to 15 I contemplated suicide a lot.

I’d sit on the balcony every night and think about jumping off. I’d write suicide notes. I never tried. Just… it was ever present, lurking in my mind.

When I was 15, I tried to kill myself the third time.

It was after a fight with my mom, I was angry, I was upset, I didn’t want to live anymore.

I’m not sure who I was more angry at — me or my mom — but I was angry. I was upset. I was scared. So I went to the medicine cabinet and drank 8 tylenol. The maximum you’re supposed to take in a day.

It would never have killed me, it’s too low a dose. I didn’t even end up going to the hospital.

I went to sleep, and the next day, I was terrified. I went to my sister, I told her, I had a really awkward conversation with my parents, I read Heartstopper the whole day.

On 29 November 2022, I messaged a suicide hotline for the first time. I didn’t attempt anything. On 17 February 2023, I messaged a suicide hotline for the second time. On 3 May 2023 I messaged a suicide hotline and it was full, but I didn’t attempt suicide, I hurt myself, but I didn’t try to die. On 18 May 2023 I messaged a suicide hotline when I didn’t actively want to die, and I got support.

On 27 July 2023, I type this. I didn’t think I’d make it this far.

Tomorrow is my birthday. I tried to kill myself when I was 12 and I’m turning 16.

Tomorrow is my birthday and I’m alive. And I’m going to try to keep it that way.

[torunarigha]

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[cupcraft]

one thing thats always nice is to set routine. Like if i dont have routine things are so easy to forget and they fall apart. I have a million alarms, and my finch app always reminds me to do stuff. It's been good doing things at the same time every night i'm finally keeping up with my skincare and my eczema's doing a lot better.

[fictionalcrushkisser]

Welcome! 🌸

You can call me Jessie! I am mostly here to support other people's selfships because seeing them comforts me <3

This blog is discourse-free, but know I am anti-harassment and I don't think fictional tastes dictate one's morals.

Note: I personally call my selfships fictional crushes. I don't really selfship the same way a lot of others here seem too, and that's ok! I don't make self-inserts or enjoy inserting myself because it makes me...weirdly uncomfortable? 🥲 Like I love seeing other people do it but just can't do it myself. So that's why I consider them more crushes than fictional relationships.

Fictional crushes 🌸

In no particular order! This list will change periodically.

Mordecai - Regular Show

Knuckles - Sonic The Hedgehog

Sayori - Doki Doki Literature Club

Poppy - Trolls

Herbert - Club Penguin

Alphys - Undertale