#you can always vent in the inbox but dms tend to give me anxiety.

[askjaxthedigitalrabbit]

Can I DM you? I really need someone one to talk to and if you do roleplay that's fine to

Kid, Im here to talk if you wanna get things but ya gotta understand im not your therapist, and trying to be really weighs me down...

[inkwell-illustrations]

♡Welcome♡

Hi!! You can call me: Charlotte, Paul, Inkwell, idgaf about my pronouns i hope you enjoy my blog!

Fictkin: Paul Matthews <3

About me

I'm autistic, depressed, bisexual & demisexual, 🎶Devoted to Pokotho🎶an actress, and theater kid, and writer! (I'm trying to write a book feel free to ask me about it!) I have high levels of anxiety and a Starkid hyperfixation!

Here I post my writing, incorrect quotes, and some of my ship children and ocs. I'm only really into Starkid at the moment so that's all I'll be posting about for now! Please tag me in any posts involving Paulkotho, or Paul Matthewes! My Inbox is always open feel free to ask me anything! Hope you all have a good day <3

I have really bad social anxiety, it might take me a while to respond to an ask/DM so pls don't take it personally if I take a while to respond or stop replying talking online & in real life is just very emotionally draining for me its nothing personal I promise

I will be posting some Cinderella's Castle spoilers and I will make sure to tag it as such!

Also Please don't send me asks for donations they will de deleted! I have no money to give you!!

Stuff & Characters I like:

Starkid musicals

♡Paul Matthews ♡ (he's my husband guys, trust!)

The Hatchetfeild series

The Art Of Murder

Pokotho

Dead Boy Detectives

Epic The Musical

Hazbin Hotel

Plushies

Ships I like

Paulkotho (Paul x Pokotho)

Paulkins (Paul x Emma)

Payneland (Edwin x Charles)

Catwin (Edwin x The Cat King)

Huskerdust (Husk x Angel)

Chaggie (Vaggie x Charlie)

Tatibarb (Barb x Tatiana)

Macnacross (John x Wilbur)

Chai Coffee (Ted x Paul)

Agathario (Agatha x Rio)

Tadmore (Ella x Tadius)

Gelphie (Glinda x Elphaba)

Tags:

Talking Tag: Charlotte Says Some Stuff

Incorrect Quote Tag: Incorrect Inkwell Quotes

Stimboard Tag: Inkwell Stimboards

Moodboard Tag: Inkwell Moodboards

Writing tag: Inkwell Publications

Art Tag: inkwell illustrations

Venting Tag: inkwell vents I tend to sad post, so if you don't want to see that just block it!

Links:

hatchetfeild rp/oc blog: @i-fucking-hate-clivesdale

Pokotho rp blog: @the-singular-voice

Incorrect Quote blog: @incorrect-inkwell-quotes

Fictionkin blog: @i-dont-like-musicals

Tatibarb fan club: @tatibarb-fan-club

Writing blog: @inkwell-publications (I take requests there now)

Moodboard blog: @inkwell-moodboards

Instagram account

Pinterest account

DNI LIST: homophobes/transphobes, ableists, racists, proshippers, sexists, pedophiles, Nazis etc. and people who ship: Paul x Melissa also please don't talk about or make any references to Hey Melissa or Melissa herself. Its a big trigger for me! if you send any asks about about HM/tag my posts as HM then you'll be blocked!! I don't want that anywhere on my blog! that episode is a huge trigger for me and I would appreciate if you'd respect that!

Mutuals, please use the tag: #inkwell don't look for posts with anything involving Hey Melissa or Officer Bailey Please I really don't want to see content for them anywhere!

💖I love my husband💖

Cool people! 💖

@pangothepangolin

@kairithemang0

@musicalfan78

@paranormaltheatrekid

@crescentrivers

@tedspankoffskisbignaturals

@the-river-rix

@starlightsugar

@eggsaladsandwich1

@starkid-innit

@editor-the-benjamin

@marvelmaniac715

@pixelated-glitter

@ethereal-bumble-bee

@pavl-art

@thegirlwholikesmusicals

[corruptedsilence]

Anonymous asked: I honestly get it to an extent. I suffer from depression and anxiety and all that fun stuff. But for mine it comes and hits hard for a week or two and then leaves for months. But when I'm depressed, nothing helps much either. :/ But honestly, it DOES help to know people care about you, for me at least. Just people sending me kind words and stuff. Or people sending in threads and RPs to distract my brain. Just remember it's not weak or anything to rely on a few friends from time to time. (1/?) Anonymous asked: I'll be happy to throw you some anons if I see you down. Whether it's kind anons or anons asking questions for Missi to help distract the brain. I know we've never talked, but I really enjoy you on my dash. And let me tell ya, I normally unfollow non mutuals after a week. But there's some people who just seem like someone I wanna hang with, even if it's on anon. I'm not always on, but if you need someone to vent to, you can vent to me if you'd like. I know how it is to bottle it all up.

Sorry I was eating my borger and fries fhewjk

But yeah I totally get that. If people have been around me long enough they know I tend to get like that too. My depression is (at least in my opinion) always worst in Spring and Summer just because the heat absolutely murders me and I find it so difficult to get motivation to do anything. IDK what’s with those seasons it just makes everything worse. Since summer is finally ending and Autumn (like my favorite season) is coming I feel already a lot more relaxed. The cooler temperatures and the rainy days are just helping me relax so much more. Winter too is also so much nicer because while I hate the silence there’s something about Winter that just, it’s a calm quiet instead of silence. Like the entire world for once, can curl under a blanket and restf and that it’s a rest we’ve waited all year to take.

My depression (minus last saturday) hasn’t been too bad. I haven’t intentionally self harmed in so long and my depression has felt more intrusive than active? What I’ve felt this past week or two hasn’t felt like my depression, like it’s someone else’s.

I agree kind words do help a lot, TBH I’ve kept a lot of asks in my inbox just to remind me of the nice words people say and something I can always go back to, to help remind me that I am worth it, that I am good. I’ve finally broken out of the “im not worth it” but more worried I’ve become the “im not good enough. I’m worthy to be here and have friends, but I don’t give anything in return for everything they give me” kinda thing.

If you ever want to my DMs are open? Or they should be at least. You can always send me an ask about who you are cuz yo udo seem like a really cool person! I don’t follow everyone who follows me back because I do have a lot of personal blogs following me (not that i mind since no one has been rude in spamming me or w/e) and Tumblr has a really annoying habbit of not telling me when people follow me??? I’ll look at my followers list from time to time and be like “wait, when did this person follow me?? Hello???” And this happens way too often.

Honestly? At this point I’d feel like we could be mutuals, even if we wouldn’t RP you seem like a really nice and chill person I’d want to support even if we don’t RP or we just slap each other anons lol. I appreciate everything you’ve been writing to me tonight and it honestly feels amazing. Wait it’s not night, it’s afternoon. RIP that’s what I get for sleeping 19 hours and living in a windowless room lol. Always feel free to hit me up, you’re more than shown to be a really cool dude (or dudette) I’d like to chill with too, or just support. Anyone who’s willing to go to this extent to help someone feel better I feel like should be given the respect they deserve because I’ll always respect people who do things like this.

Time is something that is valuable however cheesy it is, but it’s true. And the fact you’re willing to spend time to send me these messages shows to me how much you do genuinely care and how kind you are. So thank you, so much for these and I do hope to see you again whether anon or not I’ll treasure these messages and hope you don’t mind me filing these away with my other kind asks